Holiness Shouting

I shout my holiness by appreciating yours.
I appreciate yours by being safe, rested in and welcoming of, the recognition of your presence.
I am blessed to be in your company because you are.
The truth that you are is Always and Already perfect.
Your truth shines with the light of my own.
There is no life outside Heaven.

The mind can make up stories from a sense of giving out roles based on definitions, that take forms based on judgements - and give them my own meanings - to which I then become identified with and defensive of - over and against very Life.
If the mind does this - and I follow it - then while I engage it, I become ignorant of You, of Light and of Love. A world external arises as a projected mind-screen where the allegiance of being, is given to stories played out in masquerade.

The mind-in-form has momentum, but it is not the originator of desire. It is not the movement of desire - but is rather the mechanical playing out of old desire. Desire moves toward fulfilment. Yet fantasy of self will is only the fulfilment of the desire to engage fantasy and cannot actually fulfill you. Your function is to be the fulfilment of love; the recognition and appreciation of all that You Are - in all that you are.

Yet while the story of your self as identified in form attracts and engages your attention and identification, you are depriving yourself of the peace and light and holiness that is the Nature of Being - and deprivation is not your desire.

While judgement seems to cut the Creation of God into a million pieces and set them at war, the truth of you shines radiant but unrecognized. Yet as your willingness for war is let go, the signs and wonders begin to find your attention - and lead your attention to rest in life as is.

As is -  is Life.
As you say it is - is your story and script.

What you have made up has your love - but is not the loving.
Let it be brought to love so that it ceases to work for guilt, but instead is used for Life's remembering.

The mind that can conceive of guilt cannot know holiness - for that mind is ignorance embodied.
Yet by that which is brought to love, light or truth is released of its urge to possess in secret.
And opens the acceptance of the mind that was also in Christ Jesus.
That, before Abraham was, Is.
Your God is not outside you, but in story are you experiencing all that God Is - as if you are outside God.

The prodigal son is not only to be understood as a leaving that becomes a returning - but to awaken to that of the mind that is always attempting to possess in secret - or judge - and thus orphan itself of its own living.

For the mind that seeks to create itself, seeks a substitute for love - and thinks it is about to find it in every glimpse of truth that it can steal from you. Its house is as a den of thieves -but the House of your Holiness recognises that all things eternally abide in and are expression of truth - and that you have done nothing.

This is simply true - but the desire to dally in the wish to make the truth - is no idle thought.
It is time to put such fancies away - for the capacity to engage them is not supported by the movement of your desire.
And to war against your true desire is the way of pain, of guilt, of utter isolation and futility.

Look then to what you are doing with your attention - and if it is in the way of peace - give thanks and be renewed.
If it is forgetful of peace, pause. Find your willingness and live from there.
If there is fear and resistance. Rest of your thoughts and listen for the guidance that knows your heart's need.
It will come as you forget to guard too heavily against it.
It cannot come while you take sole control.
But is always and already here as Soul guidance.
By your willingness to listen, to learn and to do, you teach yourself by demonstration that love is freely accepted and shared.
For while you believe it in any way separate from you, it will seem to call for sacrifice; you will interpret against your own Life.
Ask not for how a miracle can be so - but ask that you become willing to be moved beyond your own self-definitions

I wrote this in willingness and trust

Brian

Music of Life

When I first started picking up and playing with a guitar it was not with an expectation to learn to play the guitar - but with a curiosity and desire to let feeling communicate through strumming and picking the strings - and later, through singing as well.

What’s the feeling? The feeling that moves currently - alive in me now - that might become a song or express an atmospheric.  I found that expressing feeling, communicates back its source such that the feeling deepens, purifies and changes. It is a kind of alchemy in consciousness.

I realized at some point that my ‘playing’ was in fact praying - in life - but not in religion. I found a way that I could put aside distraction and connect and open to an immediacy and an intimacy that at the time I associated with the ‘inner me’. There was never an overt verbal petition - but a simple desire to be connected - at the heart.

This feeling dimension is so important to me in life that I have largely avoided much of the technical training and maps and models for life, music - or in fact anything. It isn't that I need to negate them - but that they always tend to put the focus on the world or form, and put the soul or spirit second or indeed out of the picture. Soul is heart connecteness - or feeling into Life. Emotions are limits and coverings over true feeling - and are associated with stories that the mind spins about itself.

Negative emotions are the stuff of guilt, hurt, pain, anger and hate. They are potent in that they carry charge - but are not usually safe or appropriate to express in the form that they are triggered. Introspection and enquiry can uncover the thoughts and beliefs by which we ‘set our self up’ to inevitably fail, be disappointed or hurt - but this is very difficult when we are also using our thoughts as our guide. For we believe them instead of seeing them as beliefs.



Music offered itself as a vehicle for growing an identity in feeling, that bypassed the thinking mind. To simply and directly ‘rejoin the music’ that underlies and is embodied in my feeling being restores a sense of communion, connect-ness, inspiration and meaning.

For ‘the music’ embodies the dimension of our participation in a shared expression of life, that the problematic, control based, thinking mind blocks by its very nature.

The problematic mind seems to be justified from a sense of having had some experience of disturbance or difficulty imposed upon it. But whatever the problem is about, it has common elements with all problems - and these include exclusion, isolation and threat or danger of adverse outcomes.

To ‘rejoin the music’ is to short circuit the process of time in which eventually, you will release the justifications for self exclusion, or the need to hold the past against another and deny a shared present, or the defensive and anxious stance by which everything is perceived fearfully and not clearly embraced or engaged at all. And you will let life flow again in your heart, as a living presence of Soul appreciation. My point is - why get stuck and suffer all the drama of self involvement in conflict - when you can simply rejoin the music - from where you are at now.

We tend to emotionally resistant to letting joy flow when we are upset. However, even ‘frozen and stuck’ are energetics that can speak - enough to be a carrier for a willingness to be ‘picked up’ by inspiration - life’s music. It is not that there is a required form - but that life is flow - and the experience of blocked life is depressing to our spirit. To find any flow is to find your willingness for life.

What is tending to block life and assert itself with force is a mental attitude of judgement, an unquestioned assumption of guilt and sense of safety in limitation. No matter how intense or complex this may seem, it is truly a passing affliction of ignorance and not expressing our right mind at all.

In music I have a way of not replaying the tapes of that mind, and allowing or opening to a fresh experience of now - that comes to me freely like a gift - because I released the assertiveness of a self willed mentality enough to let life through.



But I realize that love of truth is underneath and within all of what I attempt to write about.



To try to use music too consciously as a therapy would be to lose its soul - for music is a language of the heart - and heart is also the guide to its own ways. It is true that we can force life to dance to our own tune. For a while. But such a curiosity indulged is exactly what sets the scene for a mind of control to take hold of our life and cause us not only to forget to play - and to play - but to become fearful, conflicted and uncertain and distrustful.

Oneness with oneself is a natural thing - so natural that it has no conceptual language, except in symbols that point to things unspeakably true.

Singing, making music and dancing have tended to become things in their own right. As entertainments, products, ritualized forms to mix and match in presenting our ‘identity’ to ourself and others. Yet the truth is that the Soul is the dimension of being in which we feel - beneath all the  vanities and superficialities of self image.

To gain the Soul is to willingly lose such a world - not as a sacrifice - but as a restoration to sanity, wholeness and a certainty or singularity of feeling that is free of the definitions of concept.

The Life is First - without a second

This consideration arose from reading a discussion about the chicken and egg - not just as philosophical conundrum, but in terms of considering the perceptions and experiences of life as a process of  becoming in terms of an apprehension of Life as the IS.



The dream is a matter of taking thoughts about the Life as real and letting them give rise to a sense of self that experiences them.
This is the Thoughtlessness of a self in image. For it must needs ignore direct reality to play out the drama of self.

Reality is Living Idea - but not an idea removed from something else or about something else.
And the Idea or Thought is infinite, unbounded and timeless.


The mind that wants its own thought - and uses its thought to determine reality - derives questions based on its acceptance of false premises, that assert the division and limitation of Eternal Being. They thus seek to trade definitions as acceptable currency - which is how the separation experience is upheld. For thoughts about reality that are not accepted currency are no longer valid - and a direct apprehension of reality rises to awareness where the distraction fails.

In taking no thought for (any) self, the Thought of God; The Life, is beheld - as it is.
It is not beheld from a mind separate from its object of attention - for such a self-based intent is not asserted or validated.

Thoughts about the Life can also serve to allow distractive thought to cease, allowing knowing to be revealed.
Knowing is never attained, and remains always and absolutely beyond editing, owning or any process of the thinking-mind.
It may seem that there is a you that knows - but that is the afterwork of the ego overlay; using truth to feed and maintain illusion. The mind that seems to get truth for itself is the mind that robs you of appreciating truth now. While the loot has lustre, the dragon sleeps in its cave in its dreams of glory upon an unshared treasure.

The willingness to know calls awakening's purpose into play - because it now learns to seek and recognise The Life as it is - and begins to release the thought that would make it as it is not. To such a willingness the dream becomes the sign of awakening, the voice of awakening and the reflection of awakening.

This seems to take time simply because time is taken from the Timeless and treated as if it were in fact time.
In other words, the mind engaged in dream wishes to continue dreaming. Your will is done.

The mind in dream is like a bounded egg state of self-thought reflection. The process of restoring awareness at rest as natural Mind expression, is like to the story of egg. It is opened and sprouts or grows forth, reflecting in form an intimacy of relationship whose signature is divine.

The growing of the desire for life in the embryo. The development of unseen guidance where structure grows within to give pathways for life. The breaking of the shell. The guidance and support of the Mother Father. The recognition of the Environment in Original Being. The release of the possession-mind in Living Love and the giving of allness as both seed and fruit of all that is to Another as Thyself. The nurturing and protecting of the children of love as the extension of love's giving. The recognition of the local in the universal. The discarding of the sense of local or self will in Intimacy beyond difference.

But the liability with mapping anything of The Life - is that map substitutes for The Life.

So I prefer not to map - but in the moment of such living teaching - be brought to The Life - and then be free of the sign or thought or teaching that opened the moment to Living.

In Peace

Brian

Imprisoned Will

Imprisoned will is a sense of being denied; a sense of existence within a context of opposition – in which the will tends to harden in self protection and acts callously in self interest. It makes its own version of love that serves to work ‘inside the imprisoned sense of life’ – but this love demands the conditions of self-will to be sacrosanct – or it turns instantly to betrayal and hate.

A sense of limitation can become an accepted set of parameters in which such a sense of a separate life is played out in whatever seeming scenario that involves, and this can vary over more or less dense or confining circumstance, as long as it allows the sense of a freedom to assert and indulge a personal will; to assert judgement.

The self imprisoned mind works to maintain its fantasies so as to minimise its awareness of the discomfort of limitation – and wants to believe it is in fact an independent will expressing a wish for freedom. Yet what this mentality creates as its own experience of reality is simply the active denial of shared will – and shared being - in preference to creating in its own image. Such is the nature of sin. But until there is awakening, here also is the nature of ignorance.

For we do not know the truth of our own being, while we enact a script that arises from the desire to judge - in which we play out the roles of judge and judged; winner and loser; killer and killed. We lose recognition of reality’s love, light and guidance, in the preference to ‘see’ only what we can get from any perceived situation or relationship. A strategic intent to define life in terms of what we can make of it.

Life then takes on the meaning we choose to give it. We maintain such a will, against the flow of the nature of being, and we suffer the loss of an awareness and appreciation of Soul - of life abundant. We starve ourselves of the joy and peace that is our original nature, and become ever more rigidly identified in a fixity of thought and form until we ‘die’.

For we experience, as if we have stolen our life by imposing our own will, and lose the intimate innocence and eternal creativity of being. The consequence is not somewhere down the line as punishment – but instantly - as the perspective of preferring a partial experience of an aspect of life - rather than be in, and of, and as; flowing wholeness. Seperated experience is got from an imaginitive overlay, set in a largely unconscious opposition to the current movement in the heart.

A change of mind is a simple re-evaluation arising from a fresh perspective, yet to the mind that calls on, uses and accepts guilt, there can be no fresh perspective. It believes it is condemned by the power of judgement - such is its god. And it sees separated entities and things in hollow or lightless aspect and forces relationships upon life that have no felt relatingness. For such a mind there can only be the exploitation and management of a separated or fallen world in which all seems to compete for a fragile and fleeting existence. For that is its experience of self.

Opening to a simple willingness to receive - without precondition - as an expression of trust – for even a moment – can allow a reconnection at the heart that restores the heart's perspective to perception in glimpses of awakening that can be felt as salvatory and miraculous. For such is the experience of love to the mind that wakens from lovelessness.

From valuing and growing in such a shared love, grows a willingness and capacity to look at the mechanism in mind - as it operates – so that the conditions of freedom and imprisonment become clearly shown. So much of what we believed freedom was in fact the means to keep our mind in darkness. So much of what we believed was failure, limitation or conflict becomes the means by which we are restored to true freedom - the freedom to be all that we are – and to accept and express shared will – the present and spontaneous movement of the heart in trust.

To recognise that we but imprison ourselves is a similar step to an addict acknowledging addiction.
From such acceptance can all else be restored - such as our desire discovers, in alignment with the awakened shift that released us from fantasy and moved in us as both the call for love – and its answer.

The result of imprisonment believed, expresses as loss, bitterness and a self diminishment – from which one then acts out in reaction. Yet to use the opportunity of any kind of experience of imprisonment to learn of the true nature of freedom, restores peace, humour and compassion. Such are the flowing treasures of life and such cannot be taken from a mind – without collaboration from 'the inside'. Whatever the world or the other seems to do, look to your own heart’s direction.

When we have done our time, eternity welcomes its own.
But first restores our use and experience of time to serve the way of the heart.
Thus we can recognize what can be shared – and appreciate the experience of sharing – letting all else fall away of itself. There is much opportunity to learn and share of life eternal – here within the limitation to a world and self-sense of limitation. Not least of which – is that 'I do not want to indulge the experience of limitation as it costs me the appreciation of living truth'.

And that the Unlimited nature of being is not attained or won or gotten - but is the Birthright of Creation

Truly beautiful and beautifully true

This is one of my reviews of:

The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament: A Course in Understanding and Acceptance

(Posted on http://www.bookdepository.co.uk)


There is a multitude of people trading in the talk about spirituality; about life, reality and living. This is not at that level, but it is a conversation and you are the met in this work at a level that is hard to put into words without pausing and listening first.

Jesus, when he left the Earth, said that he would call the Holy Spirit down to guide and comfort humanity. His life was devoted to listening to - and embodying - the guidance of this same Spirit. Not an otherworldy entity - but the innate capacity within you that loves and discerns truth as the universal movement of being.

There is much that we humanly did not understand then - or now - because we interpret all things through a lens darkly; via the filters and distortions of a mind that is predicated upon guilt and fear. But in choosing to let the true discernment of the heart interpret our experience, we awaken to truth as it is - and not as our thought and definitions and beliefs dictate.

So unlike books about Jesus that sell ideas or opinions, this work has an authority that speaks so directly - and in such congruency - that it is as if I am reading my own heart's unspeakable truth ... spoken. It is true that I 'found' such a book in a time of my life that is receptive. I don't sense that anything of Spirit can be received otherwise.

There is a section for each of the books of the New Testament, yet there is very little of what might be called a scholarly Bible study. I would have called it New Testament Revelations - except of course that name has already been taken. I wonder if in the short term this work finds many willing to abide it - for the nature of Light is the undoing or dispelling of darkness and division. We humanly have much of our sense of our existence in just such an ignorance - and despite our suffering, we defend it as our very life. The human mind is a defence. Yet the nature of Salvation is an Awakening from the dream of the false.

Never have I read anything so gentle and honouring and uncoercive. This is not a rehash, but a restatement into terms we can appreciate at our core. Don't take my word for it but test it by your own lights. For the discernment within you now that can feel the truth is the Holy Spirit within.

I feel that our times are times of awakening - to accept and be moved from the stillness within. This is because insanity and chaos call forth a deeper Remembering. This book is truly beautiful and beautifully true. Yet it is not the book or even the truths or words therein - but the living truth of you revealed.

Be drawn into the stillness ...

Be drawn into the stillness in which the oneness of being lives you.
Be gentle in the way of discerning.
Be instantly forgiving of the false mind.
Be without self defining

Be with Movement, in Stillness.

There is not also a 'you' that is drawn, gentle, forgiving, accepting, beholding.
Such thought is a separation wish.
The not-knowing of self, is the Knowing itself, because the 'knowing of a self' is the act by which the Knowing is obscured.

Your understanding will keep you lonely.
Be without the need to understand; and abide herein.
Of ITSELF will revelation restore to You - as You abide in Me.
As I in You.

The 'experience' of self definition draws unto itself its own.
That call rings not for You.
Who is My Love.

The thief ran off with but a copy.
Run not after him!
Or you'll believe you're robbed of Me!

How can such an Impossible be?
Do not even begin to entertain the thought!
Put diversion aside and love as I love you.


As I love you.
So are You.

Thought for the salvation of Love's Son

If you can see the ego writ large in the world of man - then maybe you are ready to let go of it being out there - or in your head.

But rather to see it in one mind.

What we choose to validate as experience - (of what we receive as thought and perception) - and what we thus choose to share into one mind - is a responsibility that cannot be escaped. Any more than Mind can be escaped.

The attempt to escape is expressed as 'the world and self' that we presume and trade, in separated (escaped) mode.
In true vision there can be nothing we would WANT to escape.

The mind of sin and guilt, is attack. The attack of mind on itself is excruciating - and expresses as every kind of pain of suffering, loss of love, and limitation through fear.
But mind cannot attack itself without first believing itself separate and in a head in a body in a time and place. Nor could it believe this without the wish to believe itself so.

If your thinking says - "well its all a game then!" - that may be so - BUT - one still suffers within the rules that have set up the game UNTIL the game is truly released. So the thought "it's all a game", is not the realisation - but is simply playing the same game some more.

Nothing can be released unless it is first recognised as being active. Nor can an act of self-will be released by an act of self-will.

To know again the mind of sin that you would keep hidden - so as to be undone of it - requires honesty and trust.
Love of truth has no ulterior motive or agenda. It does not seek to dissociate and displace - or get rid of itself. Love of truth rejoices in being one with - and this automatically extends because - whatever is the basis of your sense of value is the foundation of all that is seen.

In the mind of sin is a false Cause accepted and it is the cause of Fatherlessness or Sourcelessness. To see anything or anyone in such a false 'light' is to overlook the Wholeness that Gives all the Meaning that is present.
All that is needful to reverse the shift into the false is to give priority to the true - in the calm recognition that truth is not made or defined or analyzed into existence - but is one with and expresses through real relationship.

Cherish real relationships in any and every moment of noticing. Awareness grows as it is acknowledged.
The mind of war is literally trying to hide and kill itself; both.
Our own part in such an un-sane thought is undone in our accepting love in place of fear; awareness in place of thinking and perception.

Whatever the script of the 'world',  it is interfaced and part of our own contribution.
So if a brother demands you masked - then he will mask you - for his will is done.
But if you awaken from the masks and roles of the script - you can let love use it as it will.
"Thy Will Be done".
This is the releasing of self-will for the grace and beauty and innocence of truth.
Jesus didn't suffer for us - but witnesses to life eternal - even from amidst the 'experience of suffering' - where we even so may wake to realise Truth and not be dictated by ignorance.
Focus only on suffering enough to break the spell of hiding. Then look beyond to the Light - where new vision is offered BECAUSE you released the old.


I wrote this in trust to convey some sketch or sense of a dimension to which the world is blind - and wilfully so. Yet you who read here are not the world - but are stirred and quickened in love.


in Love's blessing
Brian

What 'should' Christianity be? - a response

(What is the religion that Christianity"should be"? - in your opinion. I've been drawn to looking at this for several years now and am genuinely interested in others' serious viewpoints. Thanks.)
I read the above (on another forum) and felt to honour the questioner, and share what I wrote here also.

- - -
Christianity is diverse, but is generally a religion made on and about Jesus.
This is opposite to Jesus' desire to awaken and share God's love as the very basis and nature and expression of life revealed. Yet some of it gets through - because a heart that is open in willingness and trust will be guided truly. Such is relationship with the Holy Spirit - that is felt within the stillness of your being as the guidance for truth.
It does not matter what name or whether you name this guidance - it desires only to restore you to truth; to peace; to God.

Human thinking believes it needs and has control - and may even believe that God gave it this power. It seeks to fit all things to its own plan and sees and hears only what its own beliefs dictate. It does not know what it does and suffers such a false reality until Light is accepted again into a mind that had sought to hide in the dark.

The acknowledgement and acceptance of Light is the remembering that we do not create ourselves - for the light of awareness is the Gift of Being. Not given in some past - but is the very Light of your be -ing now and always.


The mind of human judgement or 'Adam asleep' is like a lens that will limit and distort all that it sees - including the messages and teachings of love. Waking up must be a process of differentiating the guidance and gift of Light and its life - from the old mind of command and control in self seeking. So as to keep one and let the other go.
The desire to control this graceful awakening leads to paths and religions that seek but never find - and their power of witness declines because that which is truly found shines beyond the machinations of human cleverness - and touches others in ways that are directly felt. For truth communicates through our willingness to love. And only they can love who have been set free from every loveless intent - if only for a glimpse, one step at a time. The mind that seeks only for itself cannot save itself from its own isolation. Though such thoughts may be in our mind - the Light reveals that they are not truth - AND that we do NOT want them. Trust must replace fear - and guidance is given you in your will to let this be done through you.

Jesus offers the way of God through man such that deception is recognized and released and Christ embraced. This does not mean fighting it. It means NOT using it. Turn instead in faith to the Father within. Trusting through the love of truth that is the call by which you seek to be restored to peace and sanity.

Christianity is in part a witness to the mind that is still in the world - trying to make the world be what we would make it be. But it is in part also a witness to the recognition of God Love - and a movement of response in our heart to that Call.

The religion that remains the way and the truth and the life is unchanging in its living principle - but ever changing in its cultural expressions. We get locked in cultural expressions and unknowingly 'crucify the living truth' so as to remain safe in our delusions. Awakening to see this is not our damnation - but is the awakening to be changed in our heart and mind.

Jesus lived and shared love, honor and worth with all kinds of people - he did not regard himself as special or superior or fundamentally different in nature from his fellow men and women. He did not try to found institutions - but living relationships in which the Love of God is shared and its fruits known. He did not seek to undermine the institutions that gave order and law - but he did hold their authority above or beyond God's Law.
Jesus' religion is open to all - even if they have never heard of Jesus - because it is the religion of communion with God. To look within - is not the call to look in the world. There is none can come between you and God, But in your desire to be restored - 'even as a servant' in your Father's House - He will 'run to meet you on the road'. That is to say you will meet and find help in all sorts of ways. It may seem to be situations, events, teachings or relationships in the world - but through them is a discernible thread. I can feel it in your honest and direct question.

Now if you are wanting to see a religion that is active in the world as a witness and catalyst for peace and justice, you will have to see a way to put down the historical and cultural specialness that you would keep for yourself. For only by example can you teach. And as you teach, so shall you learn. Jesus looked on the Light in all - so be aware that Loving Vision sees truth and blesses what it sees by giving recognition.
If you wait for everyone else to get it - you continue to see them through the lens of judgement and are deceived. This is not to have truly heard the Call.

In Peace

Brian

Response to a Christian question regarding purity of Jesus' Teaching

Jesus' Christ Presence and Teaching have aspects in Scripture - but through the discernment of the Holy Spirit are revealed and shared in Living Relationship. This is the real church. It is a 'human thing' to seek to possess and get identification from 'teachings' and institutionalize them such that the 'church' or movement becomes involved in its own survival. "If it is good for the (my) Church - it must be good for God's Plan etc".
In this the ego or self centric mentality can be observed as the same that the revelation of love's purpose delivers us from.

There are both tares and wheat in the world. It is not wise to 'apply human judgement of good and ill' prematurely. (Or in fact ever - as the discernment of love's vision reveals truth and falsity according to the Nature and Purpose of God and NOT according to human definitions and evaluations and wishful thinking).
Paul taught from revelation and not from external association with Jesus or indeed initially from the Christians. He did the best he could with what he had to teach that Divine Love is NOT accorded as reward for any works or indeed sex, race or social status. he also worked within the context of his times.

There are innumerable points that can be made here but one I would like to make is that the deceiver is yet in our mind if we see a world that witnesses to anything other than God the Father and God the Son. I don't say this to induce a self judgement of hopeless imperfection so much as to point that the present and whole acknowledgement of love's presence - ongoingly reveals a life and world transformed. Jesus Lived This. And so invites us likewise.

The idea that oneself or the church or the world has to be perfected before God can reclaim His Own is a deception. But then indulging in one's own private thoughts, judgements and preferences is the nature of the 'sleep of Adam' - who seeks to determine for himself what is good and what is ill.

A willingness to find truth in everything is a willingness to let 'my kingdom go' and Thy Kingdom come.
To equate truth with human thinking - even the best of our received knowledge - is to deny the Living Relationship By Which We Live.
In the Relationship, all things are added us - including the 'truths' that serve to enable us to communicate and share together.

I feel the Second Coming is through us. I do not mean us as a collection or organization of persons - but us as the accepted Shared Purpose of healing and love - directed and revealed through the power of love itself.
When we look to the world for answers - we neglect our Soul. Yet in the truth of the Souls's knowing, we see the world anew.
The Eternal does not go away while the Prodigal mind plays out its lovelessness. But until the remembrance of the Father is accepted, even love is exploited for what can be got from it. Let 'the lovelessness' stir the willingness to hear the Call.
Acceptance is the nature of Grace. And in letting God choose for me I can know I choose to accept for all. To hear the Call is to follow and share the Call. The Call is to Waken and Be Glad. The Kingdom of Heaven is not a grand far off goal - but the way of a truly Living love.

An 'out of space-time' experience

We think we are in a body that is in space, but we are identifying with the results of a movement of attention in Mind.
To let love be the Mover is to release the identification with the idea of doership. Doership fixes the mind to the body as the 'driver' of the body that then 'acts independently'. The desires of doership are the desires to become a something in one's own right. This is always a 'densification and defeat experience' because it is untrue and impossible.


But the Movement of desire that is gifted you is inherent in your creation - as of your very being.
This desire is unseparate from its fulfilment. To accept the goal is also to accept the means - which are likewise given you.
In the world's thinking this is impossible, in God it is already accomplished. Accepting truth calls for the releasing of false limitations.


My personal sense of 'out of space-time' experience is that it is safe only in love's peace.
And that the stability and constancy of such a peace depends on our responsibility to not miscreate.
As a human I carry a fallen angel, and the memory of burned wings is written in a density of denial called the human condition.


To reclaim the greater participation of the 'levels' that seemed as if shut down by inappropriate and exploitative acts of will, is only desirable in terms of "Father, Thy Will be done through me". In such a Movement of calling and desire, it is simply necessary that I do not hide or fall back from the willingness just because something is humanly impossible. It is my part to stay with - and trust the movement that is discerned truth. The rest is Given.

I know that sometimes miracles occur that are like a preview. Temporarily one is lifted to a higher state of responsibility and discernment than was imaginable. There is scarcely the capacity to recall or hold or think about such experience because it is unseparate. But it's revelation serves to confirm and encourage the willingness to accept responsibility for blocks rather than to see them as the reality of a life that one suffers. No matter what.

The innocence of perfect trust calls on the power of love.
The body - or the world's body - does not limit unless you give it that function - and then you get what you want even though it is not true.
The experience of being in a private mind is the outcome of using the body as a defence against Mind.
While this is experienced as the world, it is invisible to you no matter what is said or shown.
Yet to shift to align with awakened Purpose uses the body as a means of communication only.

We think of communication in terms of forms, data, words, information - but it is love.
To allow love is to erase the fences of independent self control.

To be defenceless is to be intimately flowing without self-conscious intervention. Trust.

The miracle impulse can pop up clearly obvious in a mind that thinketh not - but is hard to discern amidst the chaos of a mind in its own noise.

As long as we believe the life we are Given is a sacrifice of the life we still think we can get for ourselves - we will defend our right to suffer and starve ourselves of love. Such a desperate struggle for such a little - amidst the Allness of God! Seek therefore God, and be found, and all things shall be restored you.

The 'cost' of receiving is giving. How much are you willing to receive?

Yet the cost of getting is losing - even what you seem to have grasped.

Don't let fear think for you. That is the withholding of your mind.

Give your mind, by not withholding it - for God is already the Giving.



I Thank you for your trust in the movement of your attention.



in Gratitude

Brian

Seek and ye shall find

'Seek and do not find' is the carrot on the stick that must forever remain out of reach if the status quo is to remain protected. For those of us for whom the status quo is running past its 'sell by date' - and whose need for change is our thirst for truth, we 'seek to be found'. Because we do not now look outside for things - to add to ourself, or to another place or time - to become more.

The desire to be restored at the root to sanity must seek and find its true rootedness. Shallow roots cannot be made deeper - no matter how much time is given to trying and our own thoughts have roots only in our own thoughts because of what they have been used for.
New growth is now growth in which there is a replacement of the false by the true. But until the desire is constant, it will seem to be choked back by the weeds of the old habit. The old habit is like an addiction to hide and possess - yet can have no power over the truth of what you want.
Using inspiration to discern and open the prayer of the heart is a listening within - even while all the noise of ego-habit does its thing.
The grace of truth shifts to a spacious calm when the negative loop falls away - and light shines obvious from its Source.

Often I write as part of my own 'journey' of listening - for to be found in the Root. Free of the miasma of thought and emotion that counterfeits Life.
I do not have a sense of a life to 'go back to' - and the coagulation of think-based life is a kind of living suicide that is not in my heart to desire. Delay is meaningless in eternity - but tragic in time. Well actually - that's not the whole truth - for the mind that thinks it thinks to delay life so to have its own way - is comic - from the vantage point of the Son of God remembering to laugh at the impossible as it dissolves in one's own awareness.
Buddha said - "Wake up! - your house is on fire!" he shouldn't need to tell you now to leave it. How long and hard do we attempt to live more comfortably in suffering - when perfect love - the Correction of mistaken thought - is Your Holy Spirit's Gift to you - at the exact place the problem is.
Yes - I know - it often feels dreadful to approach the Light - for our guilt surfaces and our fear increases. But this is only so in the temptation to use these to look through.
So grow relationship with Companionship - visible, and invisible. For the power to dispel and correct the mind of sin - is loving as God loves.

And this Power Must Already Be in You though it is not of you. Loving you perfectly as you Are - and given to your willingness to share it.
Be still for no reason but to take a shower in being - and then if there are issues to address let them rise to be answered.
Restlessness is properly, the call to rest.

in Gratitude

Brian

understanding

To dip into spiritual and metaphysical ideas can seem relatively safe - but should their meaning dawn - it will be as if the world you thought real, had disappeared - even though its all still in your face. In this predicament, you may be tempted to believe insanity is external to you - if you cling onto the belief that your thinking is your sanity. For reality beyond your control is the context in which your thoughts have no currency.

But the realisation that it is your thinking that is insane is also the realisation that sanity is in you. This is an awakening to the natural order of mind. For you are responsible for your thought - and can change your mind about your mind - as your sanity reveals itself to your acceptance.

Jesus in the A Course in Miracles, advises familiarity with the Text - so as not to initiate a traumatic ego-alien adventure - instead of a beatific and awesome oneness, when the later Lessons of awakening unfold. This is also to say that a true grounding in life serves as a foundation for awakening - and wishful thinking is neither grounding, nor in real relationship to life.

The forceful intent to mentally understand life, brings one to stark insanity. Not because there aren't understandings that can be helpful, but because the intensity of will is applied from a basis that is actually insane or in fact impossible. The idea of separating in order to understand is such an absurd notion - yet is already in place as the basic belief that your separateness is your life, and is the basis of what we refer to as ego. Such analysis is sightless and mechanical and seeks to control life so as to maintain separateness of self; a sense of private judgement and control.
This intent ‘kills’ what it would ‘understand’ - and then dissects the parts for meanings it can acquire for itself.

To understand, we have to be without anything that separates us from that which we would know; defenceless and receptive - in an extension of trust. In such a natural state of rest, discernment feels the currents within the current and can easily navigate the pathways that serve the wholeness - of which it is one with.

The understandings that help are always relating to the heart's awakening - and serve to release blocks to loving. They are the by-product of putting oneself aside in favour of loving.

I have the sense that, with our willingness, our Holy Spirit reconfigures the mind - which in human experiential terms means the perception and experience of our self and world - as an integration of body, mind and feeling. Thought adjustment is the correction of a mind that was deceived in itself - such that its intent and thought are brought into alignment with truth.

Openings and insights inevitably initiate a search to integrate and understand in human terms and yet this is to put 'new wine into old bottles'. In this, as in all wilful endeavours, the contrasts are made clear in bold - so as to facilitate the understanding, that true understanding comes as a result of a larger process.

The understandings of the ego - even if correct in concept - do not stand in a crisis. They ‘fly out the window’ at the first sign of threat experienced. Fear ‘does it thing’ in fight or flight - (though beneath that is it simply keeping the curtain blind drawn).

The understanding in Spirit, is an abiding presence that communicates itself to your trust - even if seeming to use terms that are not ‘correct’ to your existing concept, and is one with the presence that abides in calm despite the 'call for fight or flight' - and which corrects the perception so as to dispel threat and enable practical steps that extend awakened sanity. Regardless of how this may appear to the mind that believes in fight or flight - this step is one of communication. Extending love.

To attempt to extend love from a place of separateness that says ‘on my terms’, must give way to a willingness to receive love on Thy terms. And the term ‘Thy’ indicates intimacy. Such willingness can be seen as surrender or self denial - but both are separation terms.

To acknowledge truth with all your heart is the grace of the truth’s intimacy with you.
When such an intimacy is embraced and accepted, one is not seeking for understanding - so much as allowing being found.

When things have served their purpose they can become encumbrances - yet never in themselves - but if seen in the habit of outmoded purpose. Awakening is to a be-ing ness that is always present and always giving of itself anew. Your receiving is the gift acknowledged and the extending is the joy and freedom to be - all that you are.

Words may initiate a glimpse. The glimpse is the opening of intuition within. An intimacy. Grow relationship with the Intimacy of your being. Don't get hung up on the words. But when you do - notice that you lose the Intimacy - and that using words - even correct in concept - does not open the heart.

Understand. And be silent.


In Peace

Brian

The fulfilment of freedom to be love

Judgement always involves exclusion and withdrawl from the field of relations. Love - as attention, acknowledgement and honour - is withheld. The stance of judging is felt as justified - according to the rules for reality that we have accepted for ourselves, and our society.

Yet reality is the field of relations and in withholding our presence we let guilt block the movement of communication that is the present expression of our being. And lock ourselves into a world that is lacking in presence.

When we  are willing to see the 'other' in a context of inclusion, we see in Light, and cease to assert the state of private partiality and exclusion. We put aside the looking glass of judgement and let the movement of trust live and guide us.

In guiltlessness, the presence of life extends through you to include all in peace. Such is the fulfilment of freedom to be love. The Universal is found in - and one with - its Expression; This particular moment, rendered truly.

The illusion of conflicting mind and minds is passed by, if only for an instant. But every instant teaches the mind of its truth - at a level beneath the superfical activity of private thinking.

As the light dawns from within, the capacity to maintain the masks of judgement disappears. And you will discover your need for your brother in truth replacing your use of him for illusion.

Loving yourself truly - Open Sesame

Regardless of how or why or when we accepted guilt's judgement for our self, it is in imposition of a mind that asserts to be 'outside' God.
And when we let that 'stranger in', we recognize nothing but a sense of loss - within which seems to be a fragment of thought which sees all things estranged, in fragmented vision - and tries to make and keep a self amidst such chaos- to keep the chaos at bay. Its as if we are the Genie and we've been locked in a bottle with the lid screwed tight. But the Wishes that summon our presence - are simply the true desires of our heart.

As we are touched by the truth - the love that truly is lovely - enables us to look upon the fearful in calm and without identifying as fragment - reacting, shutting down, pushing away. We may not feel very spiritual in life when we are moving through messy and conflicted periods, but there is a still place and it does guide us - despite the noise and clamour that we've become habituated to using to suppress the old stuff that comes up when the 'lid' loosens and - once again - we feel the chaos and find it hard to abide in trust.

I have a sense of Infinite Patience - like a hand that reaches to us in every moment of willingness, that is never withdrawn when we seem to withdraw and that never judges us by any mistake we seem to make - still less does it uphold or have any dealing with blame, shame and hate. And in aligning with this love, peace, and joy, on the inside, I become likewise inclusive, accepting and appreciative of all that is true - and let fall away all else.

The ego cannot eject itself from your home - though it will offer endless plans for anything that can keep you engaged with it. But you can effectively evict it - from the joined or aligned Will that IS the Movement of Being.

The realisation of truth sees that there is not and can never be a mind 'outside' God - and that even to entertain the thought 'as if', is a waste of the appreciation of eternity. And the realisation can come because the game of self-division via guilt has been put aside as meaningless - no matter what.

Does a habit of mind keep on despite the undoing of its root? Yes and no.
Once truth has touched you - you cannot be as you thought you were - and any attempt of ego reenactment is not the same ignorance. For there is a place in you that knows. Now it is a matter of whether you want it. If you think you want what you do not truly want, you choose dissonance. Old habits trigger guilt to account for it - and you are back in la la land. For the mind's picturing of itself in guilt is causeless apart from its own wish to love what is imaginary - against the grain of its own being.

You do love yourself. But while in la la land, such love is held in trust for you until you are ready to accept it as it is. For what you thought to make of it has hurt you. This is not your truth - and so is not you.

Do You want to die? Or would You rather Awaken?

I don't equate death with 'physical death'.
The desire for death - (which is unconsciously active) - is of a desire to 'be' different than life. To experience different than Is. A special and partial experience of being.
That desire is active in the mind of the sleeping Son of God - (or the Divine Expression of Mind). But it cannot actually cause anything real to be born or to die. It can cause the mind to become engaged and identified in figments of its own fragmented sense of itself. And it can believe it has changed or lost eternal and universal being - as a result. And as it believes so will it experience.

Who are you?
If you answer from the past - you are identifying with the desire to die - regardless of the form. For to be different than reality as it is - is:
1. a mad idea worthy of laughter.
2. a delusion which makes life appear as death and death appear as life.
3. a confusion by which desire for death is protected from life so as to continue to think different.

4. a sense of self that is false - which distorts or obstructs the appreciation of the truly shared - which is real.

5. a drive to get one's self validated or saved or justified - so that it no longer feels threatened - or undermined - by the Movement of Being - as it Is.
6. to not be - or to become altogether unaware. In other words - to die.

Death is not an option in truth - but nor is an independent mind in a body in a world 'out there'.
So it is the desire for limitation, exclusion, separation - or playing the game of judgement - which is the issue. For death is not an alternative to reality or to the awakening to awareness of reality as it is.
But the desire for an alternative - will make there seem to be a way of looking at All in All as if it is all revolving around your wish and dancing to your own meanings.

Give everything to God - why? Because that is the way to restore acceptance and inclusive peace.
Jesus showed this as the way to remain continuously conscious through the process that we have come to call death.
Practice this in every waking moment by letting one will replace a will born of division.
I sometimes feel this is like dying while we are still alive - for the release of the self-will is felt as death to the perspective of the thinking that believes itself real. Yet in awakened peace - and in loves unified embrace - there can be no loss, no death and no thought capable of changing or even interrupting Reality.
This is already the case and only by accepting love that rises of itself from the condition of peace can our mind be released of its error.
Such that when idle thoughts suggest a dillemna of options - you simply let reality Be.
For the love of truth is no home for meaningless thoughts.

Perception, vision and knowledge

Does our perception set out in search of gathering data - for the purpose of maintaining and extending my self - protective control?
Do I look at the form of your appearance and seek out all of the aspects of that perception which seem to more than justify my withholding of love?
In fact is my perception of your body my sense of you in imperfection and lovelessness?
Do I see on you the judgement that is already active but suppressed in my own mind - about myself?
And do I need to keep such a judgement pointing clearly away from me because it speaks of such an intolerable sense of un-loveliness. So that it seems - just below the surface - is the ugliness of mortal creature - a bestial or monstrous human creature that actually looks like some kind of alien?
For is not the focus on the body, the death of God?
And is not reality the diminishing realm of finding and joining with the special moments and aspects of the world that I can use to hide from the intolerable, and make a continuity for myself that is part love and part hate - so as to be saved from madness and oblivion - at least for a while longer?

All these things speak of a mind that believes the body is its home.

And looks not with or from love's vision - but on bodies as if they are separated embodied different minds.
For this IS the intent held in the mind of the perceiver; to fragment their own mind and become casting director of the parts - who are now seen externally embodied - relative to the central role. 'Myself'.

Such a mentality is debilitating. It can only be flimsily engaged as an overlay upon the natural awareness. Yet it creates an illusion of density and solidity to the notion of independent existence. Even though it is frail, always threatened and constantly in need of maintainance and support. While IT seems to be your life, you will feel likewise limited to a temporary grip upon form whose initial brightness fades to leave an aging and withering form.

Yet is the spark always is present that is the light of truth. It can be covered over - but cannot be extinguished.
It is invisible to the eye that seeks only to set its own meanings on form - yet is the light of awareness that rises as a shared sense of life - of itself.

To look upon the seeming loveless - and then refuse it - not in hiding from it in fear - but to lift vision beyond its dictate - is to rest the mind. To a rested mind, truth rises and spontaneously restores the perceiving mind to its unified function and nature.

To look out in the blessing of love's unity is to seek and find all the witnesses to the truth. It is not stopped by judgement nor stoppered into 'old bottles'. It is the extension of inclusion - yet it is effortless - because it is the Movement of life.

Initially it will be glimpsed and then lost to the mind that then tries to grasp. From a perspective of thought in love's failure it may seem to be unreal and delusory. But the heart is not arrived at by deduction and analysis - but is only known in giving and receiving - as one.

To become free of the insane attempt to make fantasy real, is to release the body of being an end in itself and allow communication to be restored to it fullness. In this the body - or mind equated with body - initiates nothing. It is gently put aside as the willingness to embrace communication is recognized as love's truth, revealing.

But not a love between separate parts that attempts to placate, soothe and console the mind in exile.
Rather - love's nature expressing in which separate parts are meaningless.

To such a love - that sees itself in all - there is the freedom to be all that it is.
The attributes of love shine forth and are beheld.
I may say "I love you" but it is the energetic spilling over that speaks its own name. There is no I or you projected out in fragmented figment. The I of we is the touch of one - wordless and carrying all that is it within itself whole.

The above is what I wrote.
What I thought I was to write was how radiant you are - somehow eternally bright with youth - now like a child, now as a deep wisdom. Indefinable and yet altogether lovely.

To accept the atonement for yourself is to accept the love that undoes the fear driven factory of forms to which the mind clings as if it could yet fulfill any desire that you still hold dear.
The fear associated with 'losing control' is a 'territory' to revisit with love's guidance.
With The Spirit's companionship we can look unafraid upon what once was the cause of terror - and dismiss it. Pass it by unanswered and unasked. It doesn't matter that it takes time to grow trust - for this is to have repurposed time to serve love.

To look in the mirror - without engaging the mind of judgement - is part of a willingness to live FROM and within a presence without compare.

The desire for love's inclusive salvation or for peace of truth - is the same. It is the RELEASE of the intent to save oneself for oneself. As such it cannot be the desire for eternal youth - but the symbol of eternal youth can serve to reawaken true desire - for the good , the beautiful and the true, are innate qualities of a prior unity of being whose memory is not entirely forgotten.
The mistake is to seek it in the world - from the mindset of the orphaned consciousness.
The body is the seeming betrayer only because it is used for an impossible task.
All of the senses will serve the extension of love as their root is released to its source. But such vision will not stop or be limited to forms definition - but rather extends to the light that is both before and beyond perception. That is where perceiving is replaced by knowing. Yet in such knowing there is no self having an experience. This cannot be communicated as information - but love can always be shared and contains within it - all that it is.

Love raises the dead

I read the word death and see that it means separation from God.
the sense of a term such as ‘physical death’ means as much to me as does ‘physical life’.

What life and death from my personal human perspective is "I can not know".
But this 'I-not-knowing' is not another human thought - but the portal or condition in which unbounded timeless awareness or light  - simply Is.
And yet this 'God' is infinitely Alive.
And is the True Movement of Life in me.
Me seems to be human, and has all the story and idiosyncrasies of human personality.
But until grace touched me Alive - my life was entirely about running away from love, and the human story was in many ways a machine of defence against the Life. It was a kind of death - and in something I wrote elsewhere today I found myself writing:

"This sense of myself that is habituated to correcting mistakes in terms set by judgement – must be rested of its futility and become instead the willingness to let the answer speak through me to raise the dead.
God is not dead. Nor you."

I was surprised at the turn of phrase 'raise the dead' because it isn't one I have used before. yet after pausing in the meaning that chose it, it stayed. It isn't here used to refer at all to human ideas of death - but to the living dead who think they live.

Now comes to mind the saying: "I live, yet not I, but Christ liveth me".
This isn't the claim of independent Christhood - but the release of any claim of an independent power or will.

From where I feel life - it would seem that only the ego bound would want to live forever in such definition as we call physical existence - because eternal life is simply the nature of being and is not subject to birth or death.

I sense that planes or levels of existence are compromise maps. Ego intent may make them up, and so seem to compartmentalize life into different vibrational levels through which attention focuses an experiences accordingly. Holy spirit can translate them all to truth for that is His (or its) Function. Translation into Light is not really a change at all - but simply the undoing of an apparent change that seemed to render light dense.
If the Holy Spirit can look on all that is and see ‘that it is Good’ - and share that vision, then I can look on anything and be guided to see it likewise. But if I first believe in death - then I can hardly share Life - for I have decided what to see - even if I then turn around and say now help me see it disappear!

So I have to find innocent eyes of a present willingness to dare to look without flinch or indulgence in the meanings from the past. I know from seeing the hanging body of my firstborn child, that guilt and fear and horror can not shut the eyes of the spirit. Yet first I had to look at horror to deny any secret place to my mind in which fear could remain hidden. For I could not let love’s truth die without denial of very being. Love lives eternal. I don't get to hug Ellie. Things shift beyond visibility - and yet such a shift in an open heart - through faith -  serves the shift of identity from fear based perception to a love that is everywhere.

Is it true that the power of love could have resurrected my daughter? It didn't occur to me to ask it. Nor in rigor mortis, my daughter's shell. Perhaps no - because I saw my daughter and death and believed my experience. Yet I didn't accept death for her or love at the level of which I was willing and able to abide. My willingness to abide in Light was greater than my agony. But it was an agony of experience to bear.
Jesus once said that if he had seen his mother as his mother during the crucifixion, he would have died like any other man. He saw only the Father’s Will in all - in which there is no death.
I found the quiet place periodically - but also was taken under by the throes of shock and grief . Yet this experience  brough conscious a perspective that is now simply part of my living.


Consciousness can be used to denote or point to God:
Pure Loving Awareness. All that is - knowing itself through every idea that is itself not separate.

Consciousness can also be used for the focus of attention in the form based identity.
My mind, your mind, the self conscious activity of mind.

Our understanding of all terms - and of all teachings, will change as our own identity shifts open into peace.
For nothing can then be understood that 'teaches' conflict - and if it cannot be understood, it is nothing. There is nothing to understand. Trying to understand it is to feed the idea that it can be understood. Forget not to laugh here! Or you choose illusion and struggle yet again.

The Light can not interfere with the will of its children who pretend to play in the dark. But is can join with every willingness to be re-included. For this, must self-will be released at the root. The result is the life in the Spirit - where all that is helpful is returned as a shared lesson in acceptance.

It is true that teachings can and will be misunderstood and misused - even as the very Light is made slave to the ego sense - in illusion.
The only way of discerning truth is for a condition of trust to be extended.
Not to a stone god or to some ideal. But living trust in which I am undefended and sharing love just by virtue of refusing to share separative thought. It only need be an instant for the touch and shift to occur. Every step is maximal. The willingness to awaken to ‘the madhouse’ is a brief step of the greater willingness to trust there is guidance and grace to guide and protect through it into sanity.

It is not true that all our guidances must agree at the level of form. There are many individualized needs that are met in highly specific forms. But it is true that all divine guidance brings us the recognition "God's Son is guiltless". (This could also be said in any or no religious terms). Yet this is the Gift of the Holy Spirit and Not our responsibility to make true or enforce.

How could I doubt but that my faith and vision can be expanded and deepened. I have participated in miracles that prove time and space are not subordinate to the Movement of Being. Yet I have NO desire to meddle with God's part - (as if I really could do anything but frighten myself thereby). It is in the rested gratitude and communion of love that the spontanaity of Love-Desire Moves as one with the very wind. I say again - "Not I but Christ liveth me". Whenever such a Movement is discerned, welcomed and accepted as the very heart desire - there is no separation. And to Let It Flow whither it will - even to the sweetest nuance of Inclusion - is to witness true power of love's dominion. For it knows all things itself and they align to it as to fulfill their very purpose.

Why is there so little evidence of Love's dominion?
Because love-in forgetting yet asks to suffer?
I can only speak of my own awakening and say - there Is such witnesses, but outside the Vision of Christ it cannot Be seen.
What is this vision
It is the replacement for the interpretation that gives the experience of a private self-dom in a physical body.
Does the body disappear?
Yes - even as my guitar disappears when I play from the heart. Even music disappears in Communion!
This is to say that any sense of separation disappears. The body serves communication.
When all serves communication, oneness knows itself through all. Nothing is sacrificed in loss or payment. That is not love.

I sense there need not be death IF the condition of moving attention through the whole body-mind and beyond is seamless, flowing and unobstructed. But fear of Light has barred the door to the guilt ridden mind. level upon level descending. These so called planes are not separated. Nor is the participation in any plane of existence any different in essence from any other. God moves you - or you wish otherwise upon the movement and experience it your way.
Exploiting any experience leads to a descent into the pigbins of blind appettites. Mechanical loveless scenarios. A prodigal waste. Guilt and fear lock attention into form such as to leave a tiny gamut of experience in which to reenact the script.

yet even the script of a loveless urge to survive in imaginary independence - given up to God - is rendered anew as your script of awakening to Only God - and the life is not now of survival - but of shared love. Of gratitude for love and of growing willingness to serve only love.

Such is the witness I can give with typing tonight.
It has no point except to share love.
The only 'effort' to make is to make way for love's remembrance.
Love takes over from there - with your permission.
(As your truth loves you).

In Peace

Brian

Live from, and in, a clean clear now.

Have you ever tried to overtake someone going uphill, found that your motor hasnt quite enough power to complete the manoeuvre and found yourself trying to 'will' the car faster or lean forward to somehow increase speed?

And even found it hard not to do it even when you realize it is delusional, (level confusion), for as long as the desire to overtake is held as in any way necessary, (old program).

Can there be an element of embarrassment that must be simply felt through, in slowing down and tucking back in behind the car you'd thought to overtake?

Isn't it amazing how we can play out scenarios in our mind that have nothing to do with reality at all and everything to do with a private sense of self image and adequacy!
To discover the energetic doesn't support action is to realize that self efforting is masking a deeper and currently ignored reality. It is also the opportunity to open into a living relationship. To feel and flow where the energetic is. But this isn't a relationship of manipulating the energetic in order to seem to be in control – but of simply abiding in an ordinary oneness of peace. Free of false goals, and therefore free to be guided back 'on the beam' if attention wanders.

When we want answers and understandings that we can use to maintain an imaginary but cherished control of our self reality – we limit and delay our healing, wholeness and happiness. In other words we prolong a sense of conflict, limitation and suffering, in the name of a false goal.

That truth replaces illusion isnt to suggest that illusion is of a like kind, or an actual something that can be lost, surrendered or annihilated. It is just awakening truth in which illusion is no longer operating as an attention grabber, compulsive soap drama, or meaningful thought to desire to look into.

We think we want something – but increasingly it hurts us. And our efforts to overcome seeming opposition or obstacle, only get us more entrenched and entangled – and confused. We are spontaneously moved to release all meanings 'I have given this situation'. This is the natural experience of realizing 'I forgot what I want and have only found conflicting desires and outcomes - and this is not what I want!' So I naturally let cease self-effort, taking pride - and the thinking that fuels them both.
And abiding so, I discover in the simple peace of my being – the desire that, of itself, speaks for the truth, the life and the way, in which I can accept unconflicted wholeness – and live from, and in, a clean clear now.

"Go in peace and sin no more", may dawn on us as the simple sharing of truth.

In Peace

Brian

If it is of value to me - let it change me

Someone said: “Does awakening happen when God decides?”

Any idea that considers when or how enlightenment might happen, is part of a mind that believes it is not already happenning. So even as it Is - it will be passed by unnoticed while we think some more.

The conviction and reaslisation that it Is happening now is an altogether different basis from which to live.

"If it is of value to me - let it change me". (Is this God’s decision manifesting in the heart?)

I have long ago noticed that a love such as has started movements of cultural renewal, community inspired projects or inspired endeavour, teachings and exemplary lives - is the same love as is frequently opened at special events, workshops or gatherings and relationships.

But it is as if a consumer mentality has become able to dip in - and out - of love so as to get a recharge for an otherwise routinely compromised existence. For those love truth - the valuing of truth wins out over the 'freedom' to have different compartment lives to switch between - and a crisis ripens in which they can no longer function or tolerate their lovelessness. So they are obliged to separate from that within their own minds which separates them from love - without being able to 'manage'or control the change that then come from this to their relationships so as to maintain a ‘hidey hole’.

These ones now have a direct and ongoing need and capacity for present innate guidance and inspiration - not to console or recharge their batteries or their egos - but to navigate and bypass the mind of fear and guilt - which is no longer kept as a pet in a hideyhole - and so is increasingly exposed in oneself amidst the everyday of life.

These ones discover their need is to give only as they would, in their Right Minds, receive - and not to survive and protect their 'life' all by themselves. And so they shift from the mind of getter - by the practice of giving as they would receive. True giving is not of our own self - but of the selflessness or ‘Self’ of love. And true receiving is not a filtering of data for the extraction of a desired part to fulfil a predefined desire. It is the act and extension of trust in an entirely present sense.

So, Awakening, Love, Enlightenment, is never going to happen, to the one who commits to thinking themselves to be as they think they are. And if nonetheless light does awaken spontaneously - it will be unrecognized by all but the seed of truth in silence within - which then moves in secret within the mind of the dreamer as it grows a different basis from which to live.

The good news is that it is never true that we Are that which we ‘think we are’ - and no matter how frightening that may seem to the ego (the mind identified with image and form) - it is the stirring in the heart of deepest gratitude and relief to Life.

Awakening is active in every Instant of Truth.

2010-02-03 What does it take to awaken?

In another writing I posited:

Q: What does it take to awaken heart and mind to its own truth and trust?

A: Whatever it takes.



I later read it and had a feeling to change this to

Q:  What does it take to awaken heart and mind to its own truth and trust?

A:  A: Whatever it takes for the Holy Spirit to get and keep your attention?


In part I felt this because I do not feel to suggest that calamitous and negative experience is required or necessarily associated with awakening. Nor is ANY process of punishment involved as a result of neglecting to give priority to truth - apart from the self induced experience of truth forgetting - that fantasy inherently involves.

But also because I wanted to point to a relationship that opens the scene from a 'someone' in a supposed process of awakening - into the relational Condition that underlies and actually constitutes awakening.

Thoughts may come in and seem to cause you to 'lose it' - but relationship with Holy Spirit is the allowing of the Perspective that shows my thoughts to me from beyond the mind that believes them as definitions of life as it really is.

See the power of thoughts to define and ‘create’ experience of limitation.
Then release the fascination with wielding power to let the Light be itself.

I thought that I had time

We can defer acting upon our heart's desire - ‘until tomorrow’ - over such a long period of time - that we forget we are love's need and nature to behold and share; instead rehearsing a fantasy self and world that can never become real - but only hold out a sense of hope or promise forever unfulfilled.

When we think we have time , we tend to indulge our opinions, imaginations and storytelling skills in a way that offloads or covers over - (so as to escape, overcome or turn to advantage) - an undercurrent of self inadequacy associated with pain and shame. Some of this is associated with personal history - but underneath is a nameless sense of lack of power or dispiritedness that seems to be - ‘the way it is’ - and I presume this of myself and for others, as the world as I see it. And cast ourself and others in whatever light salves or serves our particular mood or disposition, and fill up our time with our story.

Sometimes, crisis bring everything to a point. There is simply no time for floating in fantasy options and possibilities, or for maintaining such appearances to self or others.

Then there is a kind of honesty that isn't a result of any kind of self regarding effort - but the stripped away residue of the heart's call and the willingness to heed it.

This is a 'need to know basis'. When our need to know is paramount, all else is put aside and we listen with all our heart for guidance, moment by moment. Because we know our own thought or power is insufficient without opening to fresh direction, help or inspiration.

When the crisis is no more, the old habit of a private mind tends to resume, but there has now been experience that contrasts the world and self of thought,  with the presence, immediacy and connectedness of being. Because the mind is still tending to ‘sleep’ in its own thought and story, such experiences tend to be associated with externals, and may even be retold in a manner that validates the sense of self that had to be released for help to be received.

As the contrast of the nature of these openings with that of the story driven sense of self, grows to become consciously acknowledged, the insight arises that the ‘mind’ which gives rise to a sense of limitation or conflict is an act - rather than my being. So I begin to stop harbouring or nurturing the desire to act out of such a basis - because I quickly discover it hurts and because it costs me joy and sanity - which are also becoming increasingly conscious as my freedom to feel and appreciate being, presently, in its movement.

So now the ongoing ‘crisis’ of my own immediate consciousness fuels a ‘need to know’ realisation whereas once it was seen as if external circumstances caused my attention to be brought present. In this ordinary and daily 'crisis’ of a call to awakening, I discover that I have to accept responsibility for my own habits of mind in a way that I had never really addressed before. Not responsible as if to any external judge - but a willingness to notice the working of my own mind in the act of previously unseen intent or desire.

This was hidden by design and cannot be seen by the mind in desire to hide - only a tip of an iceberg that lets me think I have some sense of what is at work. It is hidden, in our face, by Life interpreted as separated and conflicting self and world and selves. A fragmented sense in which wholeness is ascribed only to parts.

The ‘other’ in my experience - is seen as playing out a role that is relative to the role the script defines for me. But in truth I am never NOT the maker of the script. All the roles in it are drawn from - and never do actually leave - my own mind in story.

And yet what I ‘make’ of you - or any ‘other’ - is not what you are - but what I have used you for in a ‘mind-game’ I have at some level agreed to play.

When the script is recognised as one mind involved in ego, forgiveness is automatic and immediate. For you clearly never have done the things I believed of your intent. But only of my own intent. An intent that in truth and light I would not and cannot desire or maintain. The unwillingness to look upon the ego is the measure of the desire we still hold to play the game of ‘being apart’.

In actual release of the ‘mind of error’, the presence of you is truly felt beyond and distinct from any story or presentation in which I had colluded to make out of my own past experience. And you are inseparable from One mind or Spirit - the same mind alive in me. I simply cannot judge you or I am immediately cut off from the living appreciation of the presence of being. So the awakened living context itself, becomes the guide for direction, if I would be in love’s presence. My judgements no longer serve as my guide - but become useful by the Guide as maps that indicate a hidden desire of self specialness - a fantasy at odds with reality.  Once it can be seen truly, it can only be released. Seeing and releasing is pulling out roots at cause level rather than entanglement amidst effects. And constitutes the replacement of a managed self image, with heart shared life.

In ignorance I used you for selfish ends - but truth is forever unaffected. I discovered this when I released my demands and judgements, and a presence of guiltlessness shone in their place.  In this light I remember and am remembered truly and presently - for this light was what I thought I'd killed and lost when I played with selfishness and then ‘put that mind out’ as if to be safe in hiding.

When there is no more time to play ‘as if’, the truth of the heart will be the only truth. It is not consistent with the story for it sees only in ways that serve the truth of love. Wheras the ‘truth’ in story is what serves the teller of the story.

Does accepting Truth mean I never get to be heard, understood and redressed for the pain and loss I have suffered?
Yes. It is walked out of without further ado the instant it is seen truly. The very basis of a reality in which a self can control or suffer reality is given up.
In Truth I am undone of that mind and restored to a peace and light that cannot be attacked. And should conflict arise and light seem lost, then I can recognise I slipped into illusion again - and set myself the lesson and journey of awakening; the acceptance and love of true desire.

As the pathways of self forgiveness and peace become often used, resistances become less dramatized and the sense of self reconfigures to a true selfless sanity that gives itself and sees itself in all. Stories of awakening are also story - but serve the shift of attention out of the script and into the conscious movement of Being.
The shift is correctly seen as urgent whenever it is required. But once it is embraced, guidance relaxes and restores all that is to be as it is - in you as you are.
Stories cannot tell of Creation excepting to limit and diminish. Creation is too full to have time out in which to take notes or tell stories.
Too full to take time out to make symbols of the reality of love’s being. There simply is no desire for - no attention given- and no time in which to.

The Simplicity of Being.

What if everything were perfectly unfolding the awakening of love to its truth and nature – exactly as this life – but unrecognized?
What if everything that occurs is perfectly designed as an expression of Love to Love - awaiting recognition?
What if the only difference between the life in fear and hiding and the life of love sharing is acceptance of all as it simply is?

For who can hide within the acceptance of love?

Who can want to hide from out of the acceptance of love?

Non acceptance of love seems to be possible only because I asked love to wait.
By keeping a part of it I hid all of it.
Love waits where it is – while I play the drama of hiding.
In hiding, I am as a child with hands over my eyes – convinced that I cannot be seen.
But it is my own truth I hide from me – so I need but my own belief in hiding to make the desire.
Why would I choose this?
Because it was absolutely safe in the freedom of my being to choose to explore such thought.
There is no way thought can limit or define or oppose the Light in which all is as it is.
And no way to get truly lost – though the thought of lost-ness can be experienced to extremity.

Thoughts that are made from a place of hiding – witness and work to maintain the illusion.
Illusion is not a 'two dollar bill' – but works as substitution of appearance for the real.
Seeing the light in light, does not require anything to change except desire
In the light of Presence – thoughts of endarkenment do not serve my desire.
They may seem to want me to fight them.
But this is simply the residual desire to play alone in the dark.
The love of God in my heart is one with God.
Swimming in the pool is not different in principle from swimming in the ocean.

Discovering the support of my being in trust is not a way to survive more successfully in the dark.
The Light of my being is not the assurance that the divine will support 'my life in the world'.
To  attempt these is to dam the flow of awakening and to demand a greater alarm call.
For it simply answers my heart's call.
Awakening to the Real world – in which the light of Reality is accepted.
Peace becomes the nature of I, in knowing this heart's desire, in welcome – un hidden.

The light will bless – for such is the nature of light.
But it is this heart that is being homed – by abiding in the simplicity of being.

The fear of Love

The ‘fear of God’ isn't really fear of God - but is the fear that becomes visible as it is undone by an unobstructed welcome to Light.

The presence-ing of God - is all there is - as all of this - right where you are.

Not God presence-ing to you - or for you.

Any attempt to interpret such direct and present awareness via the identity and perspective of limited mind will induce terror and trigger defence in re-enactment of the separation wish. This should hardly be surprising to one who has awoken to the law of mind - that the effect is an extension or projection of cause - and does not leave it in nature or content.

The mind of separation has to be seen to be passed by. Only Awakened vision can see it.
This is Already Given you as: Guide, Holy Spirit, Teacher. These seem to be agencies of a Light you are willing to remember, even though you know this means fear must be faced and passed through instead of hidden.
In experience it could be said to be ‘passed through’, yet it is not that ‘you as you identify fearfully’, who passes through.
The fear is dissolved in Light by willingness to abide in faith of love, peace and truth - as your own Root Cause, despite any suggestion or temptation to engage fear as guide and protector.

This faith does not invest in the faithlessness of engaging private self interest - but in the undoing of faithlessness - and so is empty of all else but receptive trust.
It is the welcome to Light.
And Light knows itself and all as Light and offers its interpretation in replacement and healing of the mind that ‘thought it thought alone’ and thus ‘stole’ its life from God.

The Light stirs within as a movement through you at a depth and subtlety you are accustomed to disregard by habit of defence.
Yet as your desire for truth grows, you will make a pathway of willingness to such ‘stirrings’, that will cut off the mind of conflicted perception from automatic employment and you can choose anew. And as Light grows, the fear of love diminishes, vision is restored.

Heaven is here and now - before a judgement does, and can be neither earned nor achieved. But to recognise this as our birthright, the Light must be given welcome, in correction and replacement of the image and idea that you had mistook as your self.

Every instant of love's willingness is maximal. You not only can do no more but must not attempt to do more - or you will reassert the very ‘mind’ that blinds you to your truth and light.

To be in and of and as Light - is the original fullness and flow of Being - empty of illusory self assertion or control from a partial perspective. Not a crowning of man - but the Christing of Man and World as one.  From 'would-be controller as a separate will', to active service in Sonship, sharing one will.

The recognition of truth is of a wholly present awareness.
To seek to use it, or control it, is but to choose self-illusion as your source.
Your demonstration is teaching you, and you are always free to choose what you value - and share it.
To be aligned with that which can be truly shared is to be of one mind.
Others may stir from the resonance with your witness by their own freedom realised.

But to the Christed mind - there cannot be self or other - except as a language to which one accommodates, in order to grow and restore a channel of  trust.

Where is the light?

Isn't it true that love can only enter where love is welcome.
Where it is unwelcome love ‘waits’ on a change of heart.

To attempt to enter into any split mind scenario to heal it, without awakened guidance, is to choose the split mind experience for oneself - of mind in opposition with itself.

No matter what insight or what energetic influence can be brought to bear, the ego sense of opposition and defence can turn all things to its own self validation - and when it cannot - it 'dies' - which is like saying it engages an almost total denial yet remaining active in seed desire.

Yet look at conflict another way. I give out the roles and infer the intentions of all parties, and they enact out the script I set. As long as I want my will to be done, I will defend and be defined by this activity and intent. Yet as soon as I am touched by Truth's remembrance - I have a basis upon which I can question - ALL OF THIS.

And as I let Truth be itself - I can experience love - as it is.

I can be shown that the roles and intentions are in my mind - and that my experience is as I have asked. In realising that I receive as I ask, I can ask instead for Truth. This is to say, I can cease to ask for a private creation - serving a ficticious will.

And as I allow this, I can discover the veil wearing thin, and begin to see beyond the surfaces and forms in which dreams are made, to Light eternal.

Yet it is the eternal who sends the messenger of translation of dreams into awakening. and it is the eternal who awakens to its own being and nature. There really isn't anyone here in terms that self will could understand - and yet Mind is awareness without limit or opposition. That's why its pointless to engage the means of separation as a tool to understand non separation or oneness.

Human abilities can be repurposed towards the restoration of aligned will. Heart felt service is the release of the giver from hell - not as a reward bought or as guilt paid off - but simply that hell is the forgetting to love.

It may be that my willingness to let love live through me also transforms others - how could it not communicate?

Yet not in terms of any of my own agendas or even in the ways I might expect. So my motivation is not about transforming others - or the world - it is about releasing my investment in hell. It is active willingness to only validate real currency of thought and to release the mind of judgement.

This puts me at odds with my past - and with my experience as the past defines it - and yet is the living love of truth living in my heart.

I cannot really protect this body nor can I protect the earth - but I can learn to let both serve communication - ie - become transparent to Creation. In this I can realize that Creation holds me safe inclusion, not the body - in exclusive and separate identity.

The transition from body to spirit based identity is the work of love - not of man. It is unwise to open beyond the guidance of the heart in willingness - or the experience will be traumatic instead of beautific.

For the experience of Creation 'enjoyed' by ego consciousness is traumatic and opening beyond an integrated capacity to remain grounded will suddenly meet the reenactment of the separation - or the fall from Light into terror.

The guidance of the light is the way that light restores its own - and any attempt to find a different way is to insist on being different from light.

Where is the light?

Right where you denied yourself.

Where is the light?

Right where you thought the world denied you.

Where is the light?

In the recognition that your 'enemy' is your self denied.

Where is the light?

In the embrace of your self without judgement.


In this Presence, none can oppose, nor stand outside.

This is the Christ and is the light that the heart embodies in faithfulness to its Source.

You are reading this because your desire leads you.

In your love of truth you will be led truly.

In love of illusion, you put truth on hold so that illusion can seem to be what you desire.

In truth there is no battle - but only a growing recognition that illusions battle with themselves.

In illusion, conflict creates crisis of choice.

In truth there is only the choice to awaken.

In illusion there is the choice to be a chooser among options that you have to decide - all of which are but ways to better maintain illusion.

In truth, all of this has never begun - is not occurring and will never be.

But truth has nothing to do with what we think it is or what we think about it.

Truth’s nature is eternal all pervading radiance.

But let that begin to find your welcome in your appreciation of another's smile, a sky, a flower, the sound of shared voices, a stillness beneath form - yet reaching you - through the blessing that Light gives as your guide, your holy spirit. Your own Right Mind.

experience validates the presumptions from which it proceeds

All experience inevitably tends to validate the presumptions from which it proceeds. A conflicted identity brings experience of opposition and  conflict. It is quite possible to experience unreality – but to do so is at cost of the experience of appreciating the sharing that which is real. The experience of unreality is had privately in a virtual construct that then is accorded reality because it seems to be the environment in which you think, act and have experiences that seem to dictate and define you rather than be expressions of undefined awareness. The identity in opposition exerts it life forcefully and wilfully - and yet this seeming independence is toatlly dependant on a life force that simply functions as light, feeling, thought and tangibility of form.

Thought and desire are the currency of experience - whatever the nature of that experience. Unless some responsibility for our own thought is invited, accepted and grown, we remain victim to the experiences that our own 'unmindful' thought brings forth  - and see the cause as outside our mind  - in fact we also WANT it there, so as to offload the thoughts of guilt that are otherwise intolerable.

Yet to do this is to simply feed and perpetuate the fire rather than undermine or starve the condition in which fire can occur.
No matter how much time and experience has been devoted to attempting to solve a problem outside and elsewhere to where it really is – the learnings and strategies thus acquired remain as valid as directions taken from a map held accidentally upside down.

The process of shifting from a split mind to a unified mind is a step by step proces of accepting the already truth – and only occurs within the conditions of willingness, freedom, and trust. These are currently and always active because of what and who you really are – but are misplaced if giving rise to experience of opposition, compulsion, fear and resistance.

Children need limits upon their will while learning to align and integrate it with the world. But then they also need guidance and support in moving past those set limits when they grow ready to live from a greater perspective. Life moves in any case and the transitions will occur - as they are recognised – either gracefully or through a long drawn out series of crisis that stretch both time and suffering.

A Dance of Trust

It isn't necessary to communicate, explain or justify all the aspects of a situation of difference with another. In forgiveness, the gift of release is accepted and shared. Or rather the natural state of a heart and mind at one is restored. True forgiveness is an act of self-honesty and not a damning act of moral superiority or negation of self to some self-validating ideal. The human mind is habituated to re-enact its history over and over again – and to 'see' everything in terms of it's past 'knowledge' and thus react from self certainties that recreate the very conditions of the past upon the present and into the future.

The conditions of relationship are a dance of trust. The trust we have within our own heart and mind is one with the trust we have with our brother – and with our world. Effective communication has to begin from a place of trust – or else it is merely an expression of judgement put upon the other dressed in the form of relating.

The only way that humanity grows beyond its self sabotaging program, is in the practicing and sharing of trust. Defendedness does not embody trust - but communicates judgement and exclusion, tending to bring a like reaction from the other.

In the willingness to see beyond the presentation, and recognise ourself in the other, we can relate to another with an undefended kindness that is simply acceptance and appreciation. They may not trust or accept this immediately - but they will feel the difference at some level - and the one who extends welcome experiences the same within themselves - rather than a sense of reaction and defence or competition.