Desire, Dreams and Happinness - can we ever arrive?

Desire, Dreams and Happinness - can we ever arrive?
An IAI debate

While seemingly open to a wider range of ideas, the IAI approach still operates from presumptions that then frame the question.
The presumption of lack, be it inadequacy, separation or incompletion, becomes the basis of a false sense of self that is no more true for being mutually reinforced. Happiness actually comes first and extends and expresses itself as desire that then unfolds as an experience or reflection of completion. One is always arising anew from wholeness. The identification within a belief in self lack is being chosen and enacted and experienced as part of a greater desire whose meaning is an unfolding human being - which is infinitely more than our self concepts. One can say that exploring what is NOT true of you and does NOT fulfil your innate desire for love and life and happiness is part of the journey you have chosen whereby to more clearly recognize and re-member who you truly are. There is no sense of lack in your true presence - unless of course you choose to be less than the wholeness of what is You right here and now. But then you are experiencing your wholeness in a fragmented and dissociative way and not recognizing your Self at all!
Love is the true joy and freedom of being yourself. In any situation or relationship where you feel and allow the permission to be all that you are in that moment - you will feel loved and loving. Fantasy relationships substitute for actually extending that acceptance and freedom to another - which is the only way to have it yourself. The substitution of fantasy associations for living presence is self-deprivation. Struggling to defend a fantasy that reflects only your own sense of lack is chasing an idol of power or completion from the conviction you do not already have it and so give your power away to external props that do not know or care for who you truly are.
In a sense EVERYTHING is Imagination - but some thoughts, definitions and beliefs are more in accord and alignment with the core signature vibration that you absolutely recognize as YOU, so to align with and follow your joy is to connect with your joy to the best of your ability in every moment when you are presented with a choice. This is simple embodying and expressing a genuinely felt or true sense of worth. Why would you NOT align with your joy? What are you believing about yourself that invalidates you? Is it true? Does it serve you? Do you want it? Act from your current knowing while staying in the willingness to know more. or you can just talk and think about everything and act as if nothing you say actually means you have allow the transforming of who you thought you were

Interpretation, Identity and Desire

At the core of the Buddhist teaching are "the Four Noble Truths":
There is suffering. There is a cause to suffering. There is an end to suffering. There is a path out of suffering.

These certainly appeal to a desire to be free of suffering and guide to a true freedom rather than pseudo freedom in which suffering is hidden, minimized via distraction and denial and dissociation or re-branded as propaganda for a blame driven agenda.

In Buddhist terms I understand attachment as the cause of suffering, not desire.

Differentiation, identification and desire is a process of false or perverted desire. It is a process observable in mind - and by simply being observed , the desire is not acted out from, an identification with thought becomes impossible, and the underlying wish to see and judge in terms of form-based meanings dissolves for lack of support.

But yes, of course, all things are misinterpreted, inevitably, if pre-existing definitions are used to filter and program experience.

True desire - is "The Movement of Be-ing". It doesn't arise from - nor is distorted by the lens of - a separate self sense.


Be still - and know - God.

The ego sense is hopeful that it can become still and then have Truth added to it - so it will suggest the misinterpretation of a simple invitation or teaching into a hopefulness of attempting the impossible; of making reality validate, fit into and serve an illusion.

And as we all know - this is a very serious business!

But in Realization, gravity flips to levity, and light-ness of being, edgelessly dissolves into the Clear Light of Always.

in Gratitude

Brian

Feel the way, share the gift

To resolve to try to do something is like starting out with failure built in. As if one's certainty of willingness and desire is lost to some 'other power' under which you are powerless. But even here you may simply notice a game played out - and then - all the roles are merely the picture of a wish to play games.

Truth can be accepted as it is or it can be delayed acceptance through a wish to see as it is not. The Noticing is not via thought or interpretation - but is direct appreciation. The forms that may clothe such insight are the language that you can currently understand and accept - but they are never conclusions or definitions. The realisations you receive may not be currency for others - but the shine of your being that is innate to your true nature - is a universal blessing.

Within the radiance of your love is your gift. A withheld life is a mind game but the radiance of love is not other than the pure light of awareness.

"My meaningless thoughts show me a meaningless world?"

Then look again with innocent eyes - the fresh native curiosity of you. Let your starting place be the directness and wholeness of one you do not ‘make’.

In such a living current, we feel our way in the peace of an unconflicted desire, movement or guidance. Not only in terms of discerning each step - but we feel the way as the context of all that is.

When peace is not felt, we have gotten distracted by thought. Rest the mind. Allow the Movement to register with you presently. Live out from Being - and not out from thinking.

Share the gift.

The Now of you be-ing

Your 'Now' is the feedback to your desire.

If in this Now, your desire is single, whole and pure, you will ONLY know all things through the Spirit that Moves you.

If you find a split mind then that will give you a polarized experience of a conflicted nature.

The only whole desire is love and love is always already awake.

For it knows all things within itself.

False desires are of a love of power, that sees all things without itself and outside itself. For in wanting power for oneself alone creates a sense of lack and separateness from all.

It seeks to dispossess itself of truth, that it may possess its fantasy.

The way of awakening reverses the way of reversal - but by releasing, undoing and acceptance - and not by asserting further self will.

Service is the release of self will. Serve love by bringing attention present for something not of your making and not of your will.

The answer is where the problem is - or it would not be the answer. Do not use the promise of an answer to shortcut the opening of your mind to the feedback of your now - or you wait forever un receiving.

The arena of helplessness, inadequacy, need and incapacity - is the condition in which you bring the Divine forth by your single unequivocal call.

You do not need to seek such opportunity. They will be brought to you in context of your embracing life and discovering the blocks to love’s awareness.

In your communion with God, let there be no one outside, as someone or something else to use as distraction or protection from the love of your very being. To desire to save or serve others outside the love is to desire to usurp love of its home in you and through you.

Everyone is serving your awakening because they were judged or interpreted by you to serve a dream of self creation, and awakening rises when the self-creating is no longer forced upon your Now. Everyone is part of your awakening when they are no longer used for sin, for you have released your demand that they serve your will, let them be as they are, and appreciated them as they are.

But your Now does not leave you when you seem to have made it yours alone and lose your self in time.

It is disguised so as to be irrelevant to the distraction that has your fixated attention.

Wake up to what the mind makes for itself by deception and self image.

The desecration of the heart from the apparent attack on innocence is associated with a deeply intimate horror; guilt. But the companioned and communioned mind does not use this to mount further attack on itself.

For it has given its faith to the desire and welcome of peace and healing above all else.

To rest in truth accepted.


in Gratitude

Brian

Why would any or every thing serve the highest good?

Why would any or every thing serve the highest good?

Because such is the desire in your heart.

How might it serve the Good?

From an honesty of not knowing and not therefore demanding only answer set in your terms.

How will you know the truth that shows you you are free of limitation?

Intimately.



The mind in form is always trying to make sense of God Reality in its own terms. Which is experienced as if we are getting a handle on life and are validated by our 'understanding'.

While this attempted self-stance is going on - we have the opportunity to wake to it - and therefore from it. It can be subtle- but it is always the allegiance to image and thought and form in place of Living Love.



Just because we call something 'God', 'Guidance', 'love', 'Christ', 'reality', 'truth' - does not in any way make it so. Prayer is abiding in the heart's intimacy. If this is not yet your safety and your love restored - then forgiveness of yourself is called for immediately.Give only as you would receive.

It is through an act of self exclusion - judgement - whereby love seems to forget its nature and suffers its own division as both 'killed and killer' - and then projects these roles outside itself to mitigate pain.

But thoughts leave not the mind that thinks them. To the ego - this truth seems damnation - yet to the Divine awareness that is your Being's light - it is the realisation of what you are and where you are and that you are.

The Holy Spirit teaches awakening through whatever experiences ignorance sets up - and works with every willingness offered and allowed.

If we are in a mood of resistance - we will generate experience to justify our stance. If we do not value and cultivate our desire and receptivity for truth we densify illusion and at some point realize this is not truly our desire - but costs us all that we truly desire.

Obedience is naturally due to our true desire - freely, willingly and gladly - and not as a sacrificial bargain struck in the dark with some god who saves dark ones to remain safely in the dark.
Being true to truth is the essential basis for trust and sanity.

Exclusion arises from withholding love. You are love.
When the withholding is released by the release of exclusion - love is revealed as the already truth.

In Peace

Brian

Loveless-ness undone

The blight of sin brings,
pervasive lack of light.
All things are turned to hate,
and none so hateful as this self.

Shunning light is but
calling for darkness
to cover the love in which such hurt is felt
with thoughts of any self regard,
to put the hate outside,
that some fragment of a self
can grasp at a moments relief,
amidst inescapable torment.


Truth in stillness,
most intimate,
does not know
such maddening mind
excepting to remind you of this:

What do you desire be true?

For here is the way illusion rose
to fascinate an entranced attention.

And yet here now are the steps retraced,
before a split in mind occurred.

Give way to what is always wholly given,
and let all things be released
to speak of life anew.

There is no other Life than this,
that Lives and Moves and Knows its Being.

O Living Love.







in Gratitude

Brian

Dispelling a deception of conflict, confusion and suffering

The Spirit of God is One and neither are you divided. We are deceived in any belief that gives rise to a war within self as in any way meaningful. Love does not fight fear - but is the condition in which fear is undone - or absent.

The error or delusion of conflicted self - and its experience of being a private separated organism or mind - gives rise to a compelling sense of suffering in a world of limitation and opposition - because that is the nature of the ‘self’ or reality thought that is currently accepted.

While so engaged, the mind is mesmerized in a self-assertive and self-protective activity that can have no abiding resolution because it is not expressing a self that is real. Yet while the desire is in motion, attention is not free to discover that one is entirely missing the point.

In sane and calm light, any error of conflicted desire or thought or experience is simply the call for immediate correction and nothing else. But such sanity is implicitly hidden by delusion - and the mind blindly reenacts old scripts that effectively perpetuate the condition of identifying with the false - and thus remaining ignorant of truth. Such is the seed of conflict - for how can the false be true without making the true seem false? - and who can rest in the confusion of defending against truth?

The way of awakening grows from a shift in purpose; a true change of heart; the desire for peace and sanity - as a directly felt experience from which to truly live.  Despite the old mind of fear, control and survival, the new is welcomed and nurtured - yet in secret from the mind that would simply use all things for its own power.

This brings insight into the effects of one’s own desire and thought, such that delusional or self-destructive thought and intent is recognized as it is, instead of being experienced as if one is victim to the situation it seems to create. And such insight increasingly grows a capacity to not reenact the past - but instead to be guided and restored to a present and heartfelt unconflicted appreciation of life.

The plans of the mind based on the past always look to a future resolution, but the way of reintegrating mind with Itself restores an uniterrupted sense of self and life presently, for no assertion of self-will is interrupting the flow of being, feeling, awareness that is the living context of you - rather than any self image.

Stop it, drop it, and be renewed in the always fresh appreciation of reality as it is. For what we ‘drop’ is the desire and its means - that would hold reality to be as we tell it.

The belief-desire that 'I am of myself a power' is the nature of all error. For true power is power because it shares itself. Any attempt to force upon - or indeed resist against - reality is delusional - for there is no place outside Life from which to lever it. Yet the mind that desired and belieived such power, has  ‘given’ its ‘will’ to all that is not under its control. For through the thought says it believes it HAS enacted upon Life so  does it believe such power can be enacted upon it.

The only way out of such a bind is to release the desire and belief in such will; To release  the judgements of the private or hidden sense of self. This can only be accepted in recognition and willingness by the grace of truth. For it is by Truth that truth is revealed in any mind that rests and abides naked of self-will.

This sense of self that is habituated to correcting mistakes in terms set by judgement – must be rested of its futility and become instead the willingness to let the answer speak through me to raise ‘the dead’. God is not dead. Nor you.

The extension of love is done through willingness – yet the awakening of love is not of a self doing - nor being done to, but transcends such terms in the expression of unified being; Creation.

If I would be free to create, I need be vigilant to not keep error secret from correction .
Truth will dawn on any mind that truly wants it.

But first we may have to recognise the release what we thought we wanted, counter to the nature and flow of being, that is bringing us the experience of opposition, limitation and conflict.
For to fight against the Living Current is not the way of sanity or peace.

Here's something I read today:

"Life never struggles.  That which struggles is the consciousness which attempts to limit life and is but the interference to perfection which is forever trying to come through.  If the personal self will just let life flow and keep at peace, the manifested result will be perfection, the divine way of life fulfilled."
(author unknown).

To persist in holding for or aligning with the truth as it is felt - even despite syptoms or seeming opposition - is not to struggle - but to hold to constancy and starve the drama of giving it your attention, and thereby validity as a ‘something’ that must be dealt with or answered in the terms it sets. To a mind habituated to survive through complex and shifting conflicts - the releasing of war is a threat. But the whole point is the releasing of the identification with the mind of opposition - and the acceptance of the truth in its terms.

Desire for Safety

Your desire for safety touches me.
And speaks of a memory that isn't totally buried and forgot.
Under a seeming world of bodies with secret minds in a hostile universe.
All of which arises from a single act in thought-desire.
A contraction or collapse of self upon self in which almost all of what you are is denied - that your thought can continue as yours alone.

In ceasing to activate or reinforce the thinking-self protective contraction - a different experience is discovered. If you are ready to allow this then you do truly desire Safety, for the attempt to make yourself safe - by your own thinking - has not brought the answer.
You have but shafted yourself - not in truth - for truth remains available as it is if you welcome it - but in the conflicting and shifting attempts to fix down life and make it serve your thought.

You are the life that you neglect to love because your intent is elsewhere, set upon thought derived existence - which to the unawake is believed reality itself.
Life is already intent on serving you - as the unified expression of wholeness. But if you would know this, then there simply is no room for the intent that pulls the plug on life and drains it away for the hit of a self indulgence.

The last war I was in was a seeming battle between desire to survive and desire to love. There was in truth no battle but simply a play of dramatic experience arising from the attempt to keep both.

Dignity is not a right I demand from the world but the natural result of the honour I give.
By the grace of Spirit I have awakened enough to refuse the experience of hate as a definer of anything but a split mind - an ignorance. I can release the experience with my recognition of life giving as I have asked - and let it go. I can only fight the way Mind works, imaginatively.

For the movement of attention is the movement of desire - where value is given.
And if I invest in the experience of horror - then I validate it.
Even if this is done negatively - by an attempt to overcome it. For who would seek to overcome a  foe - whose ill intent is but one's own, enacted out in alternating roles?

The uncovering of the special hate relationship is that which would seem to damn. Its undoing requires that you do not damn yourself nor your brother or your world - but wait on a fresh perspective.

Love changes everything.

For love undoes or restores the original to its true appreciation from a mind that had become fascinated by an unlove as if it were a thing you made that then made you.

How does a Child of God fragment and forget its own light in a prodigal wasteland?
How does a wretch rediscover his divine inheritance?

As a man thinketh in his heart - so is he.
By the grace of being joined, I am saved from my own thinking.
All are joined to the Source without which nothing is.
In this world we have seemed to live as if we are actually independent and conflicting with everything. But look and see if this is not simply a game of thought.

There is a basis upon which to question every value this world has ever taught you.
It is the awakening relationship with your innate and inviolable safety - prior to the activity and identifications of mind.

When the definitions that bind, deplete and deprive are refused currency status - the truth is revealed of itself. There is no battle - but there is every reason to hold fast in receiving and therefore giving - from a fresh perspective. Despite every twist and turn of the ego's roller coaster ride which is but a persuasion speaking to an habit no longer truly desired.

Can I condemn a world that arose from acting out a fantasy of possession, loss and vengeance?
Can I condemn myself for the life that proceeded from an ignorance that is no more?
Can I accept forgiveness for myself and be undone of sin?

These are not for thought to answer - but are the heart's intimation - for we don't do truth, but are, by its giving.

In Peace

Brian

The desire to remember God | Peace | Presence of Life

When you do notice or become aware of a greater perspective - such as when you realize you had forgotten to be present with God for a period of the day. Stop - Rejoice!

The light is come - or you would not know you had been asleep.

Your welcome for the light is hardly great if you use the occasion to scold or measure yourself.

To not be taken away be the ego is not a superhuman task - but an expression of calm trust.

Humanly contrived miracles may run on time but the train never leaves the station.

Is it not the simple desire of your heart to live truly?

I am sure it is - and in that desire is your call and answer.

The attempt to do too much is a way of justifying our day - our existence - our spiritual validity.

Yet you need do nothing for God to be all that God is - right where you are.

It is a matter of attention - which follows value - which expresses desire.

Now you may well discover, that actually you are more active than you thought in valuing that which covers over, distracts or takes you away from being in the presence of love. This is good news - Rejoice!

Why? Because now you have become more conscious and more honest about what you use your mind for.

It hardly helps when - upon such a discovery, the scripts of self guilt and self judgement are replayed.

To be consiously with yourself without moral controls firing off with the carrot and stick of fear or favour is to violate the garden fence boundary that you can cross BECAUSE you are willing ti exercise trust, cooperation, listening and willingness to be guided.

Now you may not believe you are trustworthy - because you have seen things about your mind that are mean at best and tricks with it.

But your desire is your welcome for One who knows you better than you do - and who also knows how to guide you.

The mind tries to whip the heart into line - using any and every tactic. Yet the heart gives freely all that you desire - but - it gives it to you to share - and not to your mind that would keep for itself.

With desire for God in your heart - what is there but God?

You have to get dressed quick to catch the train. Practice doing this in your peace - without calling on anxiety to spur you. God is moving to catch the train.

You have to take an optimum course through various obstacles. let go of trying to work out the path and let God align all things - and be fully present in every step.

God is dancing through the seeming Obstacles(also God).

You got caught up in difficulty and reaction and are out of sorts - and still have to deal with difficult demands. Surrender now! Forgive yourself unconditionally (This means everyone) and bring willingness to stop in an instant - even if the instant is short. - And deeply and fully remember your desire for truth.

It doesn't matter if it all seems grossly messy and you don't feel at all like you handled it at all well - what matters is that you remembered to stop, drop and listen - and then brought trust into play.

The surface mind is loud and seems to run the show - it certainly seems curiously able to get and keep your attention!

But you are moving by your desire to calm and to trust and notice deeper - from a more spacious and less reactive place.

Now it might happen that you have a miraculous day out of a potentially disastrous day - and didn't think of God once.

How so?

Because the thought of God is not just the words and concepts and symbols - but the rootedness of your attention to the real.

Now within this 'world' others may argue about using the term real - but the Spirit knows what is helpful for the needs of all - in terms of awakening and because you have given willingness, God's Agency can answer through you - when ye thinketh not. What is 'answer through you?' - but an expression of Life, love, shared integrity, harmony and peace. In other words the way life naturally works when we are not willfully active in working against it.

To shift from the "External God Power" concept to the all embracing unbounded Source and true Condition of being is a step by step willingness. When God takes the last step there is not a differentiation of God and self excepting as Jesus states it.

We most of us have great fear of God - and of love. Even if we set course we find ourselves thrown back again and again. Such resistance is not a sin - but arises from an ignorance that needs to be dispelled. This is why allowing conscious awareness of the desire that seems to want distraction or delay or to dally in pleasure or whatever doesn't abide and share in the presence of life - allows the Spirit to reveal to your willingness to notice.

Our obstacles are not just things to overcome - they can also be the misread guidances that we need to stop and take in so as to have an upside down map corrected.

Maybe something useful arises in you when you read this. Useful in the sense of a sudden shift of attention from a sense of dilemna to a current relationship.

I like the word current as it means now and also means flow.

I said once that the secret to making love - is

to already be making love.

In other words, the form of it isn't defined by a beginning and an end or by specific forms at all.

Making love is the ongoing dance and flow of relationship.

If you 'go off' on a thought (or ten thousand), then  as soon as you feel the dissonance - use it to waken.

If you do not go off in thought - but share the light of life and love in your tasks, your play or walking together - then don't interrupt the flow with spiritual thoughts - but just check in with your heart's light if any question should arise. Dissonance is undisguisable in love and light.

We have our love relationship with God - Spirit - we share that with our lover, our partner, our family, our community, our workplace our trees and sky and birds and world at large.
It is one love but the forms of the dance differ. The more unified and whole we let ourselves be the more consistent and congruent our life becomes.

For the love of God why would I bitch about X? (I'm bitching about X - dissonance alert - Let truth be revealed to me here that God's sanity and peace can be a basis for whatever is next).

There - that's also a tool - dissonance alert. If it isn't going off you are either too awake for any trouble to attract you - or are so well managed in your sleeping habit that every thing can be taken for grantedly dealt with as if it was just the way the world is and you just manage it successfully.

If you really want to be with God it must follow that you really do not want to be with egocentricity.



What we really do not want - is dissonant to our heart.

On this basis alone - all of the world we know should be called in question.

Live from, and in, a clean clear now.

Have you ever tried to overtake someone going uphill, found that your motor hasnt quite enough power to complete the manoeuvre and found yourself trying to 'will' the car faster or lean forward to somehow increase speed?

And even found it hard not to do it even when you realize it is delusional, (level confusion), for as long as the desire to overtake is held as in any way necessary, (old program).

Can there be an element of embarrassment that must be simply felt through, in slowing down and tucking back in behind the car you'd thought to overtake?

Isn't it amazing how we can play out scenarios in our mind that have nothing to do with reality at all and everything to do with a private sense of self image and adequacy!
To discover the energetic doesn't support action is to realize that self efforting is masking a deeper and currently ignored reality. It is also the opportunity to open into a living relationship. To feel and flow where the energetic is. But this isn't a relationship of manipulating the energetic in order to seem to be in control – but of simply abiding in an ordinary oneness of peace. Free of false goals, and therefore free to be guided back 'on the beam' if attention wanders.

When we want answers and understandings that we can use to maintain an imaginary but cherished control of our self reality – we limit and delay our healing, wholeness and happiness. In other words we prolong a sense of conflict, limitation and suffering, in the name of a false goal.

That truth replaces illusion isnt to suggest that illusion is of a like kind, or an actual something that can be lost, surrendered or annihilated. It is just awakening truth in which illusion is no longer operating as an attention grabber, compulsive soap drama, or meaningful thought to desire to look into.

We think we want something – but increasingly it hurts us. And our efforts to overcome seeming opposition or obstacle, only get us more entrenched and entangled – and confused. We are spontaneously moved to release all meanings 'I have given this situation'. This is the natural experience of realizing 'I forgot what I want and have only found conflicting desires and outcomes - and this is not what I want!' So I naturally let cease self-effort, taking pride - and the thinking that fuels them both.
And abiding so, I discover in the simple peace of my being – the desire that, of itself, speaks for the truth, the life and the way, in which I can accept unconflicted wholeness – and live from, and in, a clean clear now.

"Go in peace and sin no more", may dawn on us as the simple sharing of truth.

In Peace

Brian

experience validates the presumptions from which it proceeds

All experience inevitably tends to validate the presumptions from which it proceeds. A conflicted identity brings experience of opposition and  conflict. It is quite possible to experience unreality – but to do so is at cost of the experience of appreciating the sharing that which is real. The experience of unreality is had privately in a virtual construct that then is accorded reality because it seems to be the environment in which you think, act and have experiences that seem to dictate and define you rather than be expressions of undefined awareness. The identity in opposition exerts it life forcefully and wilfully - and yet this seeming independence is toatlly dependant on a life force that simply functions as light, feeling, thought and tangibility of form.

Thought and desire are the currency of experience - whatever the nature of that experience. Unless some responsibility for our own thought is invited, accepted and grown, we remain victim to the experiences that our own 'unmindful' thought brings forth  - and see the cause as outside our mind  - in fact we also WANT it there, so as to offload the thoughts of guilt that are otherwise intolerable.

Yet to do this is to simply feed and perpetuate the fire rather than undermine or starve the condition in which fire can occur.
No matter how much time and experience has been devoted to attempting to solve a problem outside and elsewhere to where it really is – the learnings and strategies thus acquired remain as valid as directions taken from a map held accidentally upside down.

The process of shifting from a split mind to a unified mind is a step by step proces of accepting the already truth – and only occurs within the conditions of willingness, freedom, and trust. These are currently and always active because of what and who you really are – but are misplaced if giving rise to experience of opposition, compulsion, fear and resistance.

Children need limits upon their will while learning to align and integrate it with the world. But then they also need guidance and support in moving past those set limits when they grow ready to live from a greater perspective. Life moves in any case and the transitions will occur - as they are recognised – either gracefully or through a long drawn out series of crisis that stretch both time and suffering.

Synchronicity and the Parking Angel

Singularity of desire is held for us in trust while we engage attention and identity in false or conflicting desire.
It can be accessed in any moment of true willingness or trust that may note a felt desire and then surrender it to the outcome that aligns with Highest Good. Singularity of desire is impossible to ‘use’ coercively – for it is the living expression of One.

I have a handicapped daughter – Emily now quite grown up – and she was staying when we had a rare very hot sunny day on August Bank Holiday - (UK has had two almost non-summers in a row by the way). I actually found her willing to come to the beach with me and set off a mere mile or so. (At that time she couldn't walk very far at all). But the mile or so was a crawl of cars to the point – where our beach is. They were also crawling to come back down this spur of a road but probably because they had failed to find a parking place at the car park at the end – and come back again.

Sitting in a stiflingly hot car at a slow crawl with many stops – my time with her was running out before I had to take her back. And the inspiration to swim together felt fragile amidst the 'evidence'.

But there wasn't any ‘going back’ - so come what may, I gradually drove along – nose to tail – to the car park. But I kept my desire and my heart open in a present appreciation. I also realized that I would be willing to park illegally and pay whatever penalty in order to share that morning on the beach with Emily - but I did not let that thought make me wilful or reactive - it was just a sense of value recognised.

As I got to finally turn into the car park I saw there was indeed a queue all through all of its lanes and out again. (I don't usually venture into such places at peak holiday times because this sort of thing is what many end up doing with their family on a beautiful day – queuing!).

But to the right as if invisible to the other drivers ahead and around – was a legitimate place – admittedly part on a kerb – but every other possible plot legal and not legal - was covered in cars! So I just drove calmly in and we had a really wonderful swim and sunbathe together.

I did not ‘create’ the movement of this desire – but it came to me with an inspiration – which I stayed alive with despite thoughts that were quite justifiable in terms of the then ‘known universe’.

Any attempt to create such desire in reaction to any sense of scarcity, lack or problem is likely to muddy the water and feed the problem from which it originated. Yet a disposition of happiness and willingness is often open to little prompts that are - in a sense – from the More of You to help grow the appreciation of You as You Are.

Because we identify self with body to such a degree – it is hard to realise that You Are one with relatedness itself – temporarily expressing through a mind that has limited itself by using unrelated thoughts and becoming identified with the experiences they bring.

When miracles do not occur as part of our day – should we not pause and consider that we have lost touch with our willingness – and then uncover our desire to find it?

Life is already the Miracle of Love – it is the release of the (identifications with) fear by which the singularity of love is remembered.

But let desire be your guide and discern truly – so that you can grow to trust yourself not to play mindgames at the level of your integrity.

in Love's blessing
Brian