Showing posts with label practical daily awakening. Show all posts
Showing posts with label practical daily awakening. Show all posts

2011/09/25

And let this moment be an opportunity

                ... to feel,
                presently,
                this very instant,
                beyond all imaginings,
                is to know
                directly
                anew.

                The mind's 'self'
                has You forget,
                by imagining for a moment
                that love can become
                different than it is.

                Within a made thought
                given welcome,
                is madness lived
                alone.

                Clutching its tail
                to survive,
                in demand of a love
                made special.

                As fear dies
                to awakened disregard,
                love dawns
                of itself,
                ever
                anew.



brian in a moment

2011/09/19

The stirring of Universal Being in the heart's intuition

The presumption of a separate independent 'me' eclipses awareness of Universal Being.

Universal Being has a local aspect - inclusive of all that is being where you presume to be, not merely as is identified by you but all That is arising to you - As You.

This can make no sense to the mind that differentiates itself from its own thought and experience - and from others - by focussing on perceived differences of form and ascribing its own meanings to them. Such a mind believes it is in the world, having an experience of its own, because imaginatively, such is being enacted upon the Very Light of the Awareness of Being - and taken and lived as real in itself.

The stirring of the awareness of Universal Being occurs below the threshold of the mind-in-definition - that is to say it is already True and Infinitely Alive, yet rendered as if invisible by the disregard inherent in the act of self-definition. The eclipsing mind began with a desire but was then fuelled by identity and supported by differentiation. It is a 'doing' without a true foundation in Being, which is why it cannot rest or abide in being, but must 'do' its being.

This is why to be still of such activity is to allow back into awareness, that which was disregarded, and notice anew from an altogether fresh perspective - and be known in the presence of Life.

The mind-in-definition interprets this message as simply another opportunity to get definition for itself, so it will attempt to 'do' the being still and listening - and thus involve itself with forms of mimicry amidst its own emotion backed imaginings. But the stirring of the intuition of Life will not engage or be satisfied in such a deception.

Only in the noticing and passing by of such strategies will there be release into awareness. Not through the collection of information to use in the world - but in the simple desire to release the mind-in-definition - and its world - so as to be the peace in which all is received as it is.

The Movement of Mind that restores integrated wholeness, as a true basis from which to Be out from - is Holy.
It is the Guidance and Presence of the Universal that is within you in the sense that your mind cannot actually separate off from or eradicate it, though your attention can be bound in distraction and effectively disregard the Holiness of your Being.

But in allowing and welcoming the More of You to guide and uncover You to you -  is a Communion already active and present - restored to your capacity to partake of. The impulse towards an independence from true communication is a habit that seems to reset the mind-in-definition as if the experience of transcendence is either lost to the past or is unreal. This is simply a more conscious appreciation of the eclipse of the Universal by the urge of independence.

Living out from the practice of Guidance - from the feeling-knowing of Universal Being - is the bridge of a transformed and renewed identity that rests in communion. Without this awakened trust, the expansion into Universal Being will seem like death, and will be recoiled from and resisted.

For the capacity of love is that of overlooking the form and its associated 'meanings' - and recognizing the Beloved, without separation. This Vision cannot be found in the 'meanings' of the mind. It is the Gift of the Holy Spirit to release all guilt and welcome the light of true innocence as the reflected Light of Eternity.

In Peace

Brian

2010/06/08

Isn't it hard to get past ego and hear and feel guidance?

An unwilling mind is an excellent and ingenious defence mechanism - so to try to do anything directly about the blocks and expectations that filter and falsely limit our life is likely to get sucked into giving the mind some more to do.

Where am I putting my attention?
When I notice what I am doing with my attention I can then choose to let it be directed according to the value that I discover in the heart. Otherwise it will tend to be programmed by the habitual busy preoccupation that tends to skim the surface without really connecting with anything or anyone.

To allow the heart to rise is counter to this habitual restlessness and is like letting tensions fall off, instead of perpetuating the conditions of conflict or strain.

The human heart is usually involved in stories and interpretations set within the orphan framework - a sense of self that seeks outside itself for completion and in itself feels lacking.
But the heart that is your truth sense - is where the movement of Spirit is felt.

Its a curious thing - trust - you cant make it so. Its a dance of willingness and demonstration.
No matter what we think we want - there is defensiveness of resistance that does not allow our self (as we experience ourselves) to be touched and opened. If these blocks were just tensions in the body you would just notice them as you became still and then relax wherever you find you are holding tight. Well they also are - so scanning the body, noticing and releasing tension, and floating in the presence - is a way into allowing now.

I look to be myself with Spirit. No point in trying to clean up first - or having any pretensions - and no point either in rolling out the disqualifiers of self judgement - they are just a bunch of thoughts that are not relevant to love.

To be remembered or restored or renewed in love - I release the accumulations or associations of the mind by persistently not identifying or employing them, and become open as the condition of trust, free of the wilful activity which excludes any possibility of sensing, feeling, or intuiting the current of life that is the true intimacy of being.

Yes I meet all sorts of self configurations that are all just ways of not listening. But I also notice that when it occurs and feel for the desire in the heart that is the key. For I am not into self efforting solutions which express and reinforce  a sense of lack. I need God - not spiritual muscles.

I need God because God is the Only Life. I don't need to try and make my life work so much as let God be - and be the expression that comes from that - rather than being a 'me' who needs to pretend God isn't here - in order to dress up in front of the mirror and play.

It is always so much simpler than words would suggest to a mind that is utterly in the grip of the presumption that something must change, that something must be added or taken away in order to rest in completion.

So is it hard? One can say it is extremely difficult - it can surely be experienced that way.
But you can also say it is the easiest most natural thing to be that which you already truly are.

What I would share with you  - is that statements of difficulty can feel true relative to our past experience  but can become a way of imposing the past onto the present and denying the presence of God to our appreciation.

So no matter how difficult it seems - I am looking to just note that that is a thought I have emotional investment in - and choose instead to feel for and trust from - a different starting place.

Its a shift that a little willingness always brings - where instead of working on oneself - I just let be and don't have any sense of needing to do anything about any of it. Guiltlessness... I may then feel a desire towards contemplation or action but it doesn't feel driven by lack.

Maybe its good to realize that its hard. Maybe its the hardest thing - because there's no half hearted way to let the truth of love be the gift you receive and share. But then look at the seeming alternative. It doesn't seem hard to run on whatever old programs take us - excepting it sure feels crap. (Well that's my confession at least). As we open to truth we more readily recognize the dissonance of untruth and lose the desire to and capacity for a sham substitute.

Most of what is hard is from trying to do or take on too much. If we simply take this step in trust and do not get mentally and emotionally involved in mind rehearsing outcomes based on past judgements, we would travel lightly - freely and with joy in our heart. So it is in every truly conscious step. Truth is uncovered in place by living from it.

If any of this helps - well good. If not then at least know that your company has guided my heart and typing fingers - and they feel connected and communioned. Because you see - I listen with you easily for here is a shared purpose - reminding me of love's unified nature - whereas busy little me can easily become identified with thinking, doing, with roles and the wheel ruts of thought-tracks.

in Gratitude

Brian

2010/06/07

Let guidance grow its expression by loosening your mind of rigidity

Clear guidance is known in peace - because peace is an undistorted receptivity that does not have an already asserted definition or problem in place - but is a willingness to put aside or release the interpretation of experience in the wholeness of trust.

Holy instants are called such (in A Course in Miracles) because even an instant of such active or practiced willingness allows a shift from the grip of the perspective of fear and control. They are also practical because the human mind actively defends its sense of control such that true insight is often only allowed an instant before the mind of 'me' is reasserted.

When we believe we are a mind in a body in a world that is untrustworthy or malign, we limit the truth to what can appear to us through the framework we ourselves have insisted and demand be true. No matter what it purports or seems to be - such a framework is all about ‘me’.

The mind in darkness that grows faith in light can be reached and guided within its experience of the world. It may at first believe it is to be protected and reinforced by a benign and active intervening God - and may well experience this as part of the process of opening to the light of truth. Yet after such instances of being 'protected' may come experience of being 'carried' through experience of travail - like being absolutely safe through an experience of apparent calamity rather than being saved from its appearance. Still further on may be the experience of Job - in which the intrinsic nature of the light excluding thought is experienced as calamity - without recourse to external remedy of recrimination.

To accept the atonement for oneself is to be undone in perfect love.

The awakening is but the natural expression of and appreciation of be-ing and in this writing seems to be a goal or alternative to an unnatural 'take' on being in which the mind experiences its own thought instead of direct appreciation of the truth. But this desire that seems to create an alternative 'truth' has become active as the current lens - excepting we refuse to use it.

The involvement of relationship as an act of faith and willingness is in human terms messy or chaotic - because it is not an experience of being in control, having the answer or even neccessarily being competent. But it is the willingness for peace as the condition in which truth of love and healing is served, made welcome, desired and joined with.

2010/04/14

The desire to remember God | Peace | Presence of Life

When you do notice or become aware of a greater perspective - such as when you realize you had forgotten to be present with God for a period of the day. Stop - Rejoice!

The light is come - or you would not know you had been asleep.

Your welcome for the light is hardly great if you use the occasion to scold or measure yourself.

To not be taken away be the ego is not a superhuman task - but an expression of calm trust.

Humanly contrived miracles may run on time but the train never leaves the station.

Is it not the simple desire of your heart to live truly?

I am sure it is - and in that desire is your call and answer.

The attempt to do too much is a way of justifying our day - our existence - our spiritual validity.

Yet you need do nothing for God to be all that God is - right where you are.

It is a matter of attention - which follows value - which expresses desire.

Now you may well discover, that actually you are more active than you thought in valuing that which covers over, distracts or takes you away from being in the presence of love. This is good news - Rejoice!

Why? Because now you have become more conscious and more honest about what you use your mind for.

It hardly helps when - upon such a discovery, the scripts of self guilt and self judgement are replayed.

To be consiously with yourself without moral controls firing off with the carrot and stick of fear or favour is to violate the garden fence boundary that you can cross BECAUSE you are willing ti exercise trust, cooperation, listening and willingness to be guided.

Now you may not believe you are trustworthy - because you have seen things about your mind that are mean at best and tricks with it.

But your desire is your welcome for One who knows you better than you do - and who also knows how to guide you.

The mind tries to whip the heart into line - using any and every tactic. Yet the heart gives freely all that you desire - but - it gives it to you to share - and not to your mind that would keep for itself.

With desire for God in your heart - what is there but God?

You have to get dressed quick to catch the train. Practice doing this in your peace - without calling on anxiety to spur you. God is moving to catch the train.

You have to take an optimum course through various obstacles. let go of trying to work out the path and let God align all things - and be fully present in every step.

God is dancing through the seeming Obstacles(also God).

You got caught up in difficulty and reaction and are out of sorts - and still have to deal with difficult demands. Surrender now! Forgive yourself unconditionally (This means everyone) and bring willingness to stop in an instant - even if the instant is short. - And deeply and fully remember your desire for truth.

It doesn't matter if it all seems grossly messy and you don't feel at all like you handled it at all well - what matters is that you remembered to stop, drop and listen - and then brought trust into play.

The surface mind is loud and seems to run the show - it certainly seems curiously able to get and keep your attention!

But you are moving by your desire to calm and to trust and notice deeper - from a more spacious and less reactive place.

Now it might happen that you have a miraculous day out of a potentially disastrous day - and didn't think of God once.

How so?

Because the thought of God is not just the words and concepts and symbols - but the rootedness of your attention to the real.

Now within this 'world' others may argue about using the term real - but the Spirit knows what is helpful for the needs of all - in terms of awakening and because you have given willingness, God's Agency can answer through you - when ye thinketh not. What is 'answer through you?' - but an expression of Life, love, shared integrity, harmony and peace. In other words the way life naturally works when we are not willfully active in working against it.

To shift from the "External God Power" concept to the all embracing unbounded Source and true Condition of being is a step by step willingness. When God takes the last step there is not a differentiation of God and self excepting as Jesus states it.

We most of us have great fear of God - and of love. Even if we set course we find ourselves thrown back again and again. Such resistance is not a sin - but arises from an ignorance that needs to be dispelled. This is why allowing conscious awareness of the desire that seems to want distraction or delay or to dally in pleasure or whatever doesn't abide and share in the presence of life - allows the Spirit to reveal to your willingness to notice.

Our obstacles are not just things to overcome - they can also be the misread guidances that we need to stop and take in so as to have an upside down map corrected.

Maybe something useful arises in you when you read this. Useful in the sense of a sudden shift of attention from a sense of dilemna to a current relationship.

I like the word current as it means now and also means flow.

I said once that the secret to making love - is

to already be making love.

In other words, the form of it isn't defined by a beginning and an end or by specific forms at all.

Making love is the ongoing dance and flow of relationship.

If you 'go off' on a thought (or ten thousand), then  as soon as you feel the dissonance - use it to waken.

If you do not go off in thought - but share the light of life and love in your tasks, your play or walking together - then don't interrupt the flow with spiritual thoughts - but just check in with your heart's light if any question should arise. Dissonance is undisguisable in love and light.

We have our love relationship with God - Spirit - we share that with our lover, our partner, our family, our community, our workplace our trees and sky and birds and world at large.
It is one love but the forms of the dance differ. The more unified and whole we let ourselves be the more consistent and congruent our life becomes.

For the love of God why would I bitch about X? (I'm bitching about X - dissonance alert - Let truth be revealed to me here that God's sanity and peace can be a basis for whatever is next).

There - that's also a tool - dissonance alert. If it isn't going off you are either too awake for any trouble to attract you - or are so well managed in your sleeping habit that every thing can be taken for grantedly dealt with as if it was just the way the world is and you just manage it successfully.

If you really want to be with God it must follow that you really do not want to be with egocentricity.



What we really do not want - is dissonant to our heart.

On this basis alone - all of the world we know should be called in question.