Awakening with Jesus to Non duality

Awakening is a modern term for what Jesus meant by ‘the Kingdom of Heaven’. Jesus’ life and message has inevitably been interpreted through the filters of human ignorances; the predicate beliefs by which we think we already know what and where and who we are - and what anything is. This is not to deny the glimpses that are recognized, but to remind us that we can grow in our capacity to listen and accept truth, and live by the guidance of truth.

The mind in the world is ‘looking outward’, yet our experience of the world is effect and reflects what is active within our hearts and minds. Until love is welcomed in the heart, fear locks attention to face out and is the resistance to looking within.

This rigidity is a kind of self protection by means of a self limitation, but is based on a sense of self that is itself judged and judging, limited and limiting, lacking and ‘unlike love’. Such is a sense of sin - and the attempt to deny, hide, mitigate, displace and dissociate or indeed overcome, fix or heal - all by our selves - is the act by which sin is made real to us.

God is a term that can be used to point to the unspeakable Intimacy of life that is the current Gifting of Being itself. God ‘Speaks' All That Is - yet to be directly in clear receipt we must be still of our own thinking, and of the desire to be the determiner of all meanings.

Such a wish or desire is the root or fundamental error from which self illusion stems.
The belief in ‘sin as Reality’ is the substitution of our own judgmental thinking for the felt relational discernment of the current moment in a heart that listens in an unalloyed trust.

Discomfort is the inevitable and inherent experience arising from the attempt to hold ourselves ‘out of true’ - for it is a condition of unrest to assert or engage wishful thinking in which we 'be as we are not'.

But in an unquestioned desire or wish to continued exerting a private will, we will inevitably interpret such discomfort as opposition to our ‘self’, and attempt to control or overcome it.
The result is a ‘war on Self’ that brings experience of a shattered or broken trust, pain of abandonment and separation, guilt of punishment and loss.
This is such intolerable and chaotic experience that the mind in reaction seeks to limit and control. The partition and suppression of such confusion in fear and illusion, gives rise to experience of a pervasive yet largely unconscious fear that erupts or leaks into all sorts of events and relationships - despite all attempts to create or enforce order by any and every means.

Yet such is a story - engaged with will and passion, founded on a secret wish that is an idea that can be accepted or released - and not the proof of a separated existence - though such will it seem to be for the one who wants it true for them.

Nothing can be as it is not but that we tell ourselves so and pretend that ‘it is telling us’. In Truth All Is - As it Is.

The power of the mind can be used to create experience of limiting ourselves, but that in no way limits the innate power of the mind - excepting within the mind that believes its own judgement.

The willingness to release judgement and allow our mind into alignment with truth is realization and awakening of the mind to its true nature.
Because the true nature of mind is inclusion, our dream of a life is not obliterated, attacked or in any way judged against. Rather, it is transformed, translated and restored to extend and share the mind at one with itself and therefore with all.

This we find as a process of healing and awakening within the human story of the separated self - by which the mind is guided to the undoing and retracing of the steps by which it believed it made itself as it is not and suffers accordingly.

The guidance of original mind is what Jesus referred to as the Holy Spirit.
This guidance and presence and identity may seem at first to be external to a mind that has externalised itself - but is the Voice of your true nature, mind and desire. Guidance has no ‘self’ in terms the world understands - yet understands your self for you and to you - from an altogether present perspective.

Holy Spirit Mind uses all that is already in your mind - in your experience - to teach you - as you are willing to hear, to listen, understand and accept. Our innate Teacher uses all teachers, and all opportunities of event and relationship and thought, to guide the mind from fear and fragmentation, to love and unified inclusion.

Yet ‘in the world’ the voice of the ‘independent self’ or ego - is loud, distracting, coercive and persuasive - and Holy Spirit guidance is as a still small Voice in the wilderness.
To make welcome for the spirit of truth is a willingness of heart that must become the new directive for any who desire the peace that only resting in truth can give.

We are not called to fight evil, nor to overcome the world in its own terms. We are called to listen in trust and discern the truth of love in place of the mind by which we had deceived ourselves. Such is practical wisdom.

No step is really small or large - but is the expression of a growing light of willingness in a mind that had come to believe darkness to be the truth.

No one comes Home alone - for remembering you are not alone is the Condition of love. But love is not a 'doing' so much as we are its instrument.
In this, truth realized, is not merely freedom from fear - but freedom to be love.


Dramatis personae

Conflict can offer a drama that we can feel impelled to watch - take a side - switch allegiances - in page turning fascination to see the turns and twists of the plot.
While it is seen as ‘between others’ it can be engaged as a gladiatorial tv show, or a ‘reality tv soap’ upon which we may ‘enjoy’ exercising our opinions of the contenders and their merits and demerits. A ringside seat with only the frisson of a virtual engagement through the proxy players - enacting and re-enacting the endless scripts of jockeying positions within malcontent. Such intent attention feeds the arena with roles that tend to compel the other into acting out the fantasy.

But consider this ... the dramatic roles are assigned within one mind in split mode and do not have independent reality. No victimiser can exist an instant but a victim must cry foul. None can be unfairly treated if love’s inclusion remains extended.

Bad behaviour is simply the inevitable expression of split mind thinking.
The behaviour itself may be controlled - but this is not itself healing.

Conflict arises from the imposition of good-bad judgements. Good-bad is unknown to the mind of God. In God is none such judgement in personal terms. Absolute-ly not.
Yet once asserted, good-bad mind splits that which we call good - the aspects of life we may attempt to grasp, with that we call bad - the aspects of life we tend to recoil from or push away.

In vain illusion that such a conflict can succeed - we pull and push at all things as if we were a ‘self’ that exists separately from the polarities of all that we meet. As if only the ‘good bits’ that conform to my private specification for life are to prevail - and the bad bits are to disappear - fade from sight - or be overcome. Enormous effort is expended - great force applied - great attachments made - in sheer folly.

Absence of the conflictedness of ‘split mind’ comes from neglecting to energise and identify our current perception. For a disconnected perception is our wish and judgement made tangible upon the experience of a polarized sense of being.

Being ... of itself, is not polarised into good and bad, it simply is as it is.
It needs no champion - but loves your mind as its Own - regardless of thoughts that are entertained. Your Being never leaves you.
The remembrance and desire for such Grounding Love arises in the heart that is stirring within the dream, and from this comes willingness and promptings to open to a fresh perception - a joined or connected perception. Out of a wholly present relationship embraced.

The mind of good-bad is exchanged, step by step, for the mind of true-false, whose determinations are not made by self-engaged thinking - or even according to inspired teachings - but is accepted as outcome of the experience and willingness of opening within. Even as a wave-surfer accepts the dynamic flow of balance that embraces all polarity in riding the wave in a single relationship.

True-false mind simply can not be wielded as shield or sword or invisibility cloak. It is the surrender of the mind of defended self interest into a greater trust that speaks the heart of a single un-split relationship. It cannot be rendered into words or teachings, it cannot be owned by religion - nor can it be attacked, defiled or coerced. It is our own Right Mind - our Holy Spirit. The link of God-truth to a wandering attention, lost to its own self fascinations.

Else-where and else-when may seem yet to be our flowing now - while perception plays out. Yet as we ask and receive we find in this very instant the Light that restores the Ground of the heart to a mind that forgets - and forgets again! But we give thanks for that we are, that anything is, and that all is as it is.

Letting our split-mind lose appeal is letting our true mind be - and be through us. There never can be an outcome that settles all into tidy satisfactions, but the habit of self-competition settles as an old toy no longer employed.

“In my end is my beginning” *

In Peace


At that moment the Prophet felt his mind enraptured and taken away to be replaced with an astonishing secret. He was placed in the Fields of God's Eternity and Endlessness. In the first he found no beginning and in the second he found no end. Then God revealed to Him: "My end is in My beginning and My beginning is in My end." Then the Prophet knew that all doors were absolutely closed except those that led to God, that God cannot be described within the confine of a place in speech, and that God encompasses the everywhere of all places. This is a secret that no tongue can be stirred to express, no door opened to reveal, and no answer can define. He is the Guide to Himself and the Lord of His own description. He is the Beauty of all beauty and the speech by which to describe Himself belongs to Him alone.

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To arrive at the beginning

Joy when evident - is much appreciated.
May an increasing sense of innate safety continue to dislocate the over-busy mentality of defence.

I know in myself that once a defence program is activated, all events are interpreted in terms of threat, ally or irrelevance - to a 'self definition'
that is reinforced by the program itself.

I have a sense that a conflict based mentality runs in emulation within a larger unconflicted awareness. Like TV it can become a loop of attention and distraction that feeds upon itself but is ultimately unfulfilling.

Joy is fulfilment but tends to be interpreted in terms of the self-defining program running as conditional to the outer circumstance - ie sharing life and dancing and singing.

I have a sense that there is innate joy just in being temporarily free of the self-limiting mindset - so I watch the activity of mind and identify patterns that express outmoded or ineffectual force and allow them to be replaced with the original or underlying harmonic patterning - that was eclipsed while the program was actively engaged.

Such calming restores perspective to non-local awareness - simply being - which can then express as freshly relevant local intelligence.

It could appear that long standing deeply held habits of mind and behaviour are unchangeable. But that is not more than a thought which can be observed, accepted or questioned.

I observe that the mind runs faster than anything I could imagine and that attention can be engaged and mesmerised by processes of thought.
However this doesn't change what the nature of mind is - only the activity of attention within it.

When driving my car, I tend to relax at a speed that is without haste and enjoy the moment I am in. This feels like a sort of timeless edgeless flow - because it is not incessantly engaged in past or future concerns.
I occasionally notice drivers overtaking and stressing to overtake - cursing or suffering frustration and friction in an ongoing drama of conflicted outcomes along with a sense of self importance that blinds them to appreciation of life all around them. I know from past experience that when I drive like that, it dislocates me such that it takes quite a while after physical arrival - to 'catch up with myself', reintegrate or re-orientate.

Journeying is the same, but the experiences of each mode of travel are very different. One is fulfilling a rested and free attention, the other is obsessed with unquestioned thoughts that are unconsciously programming a polarised addictive experience.

How to contact the mind that is intent on drama and release it to a true or direct relational awareness and appreciation.

(That last sentence posed a question until I saw that it was in fact the heading).