Do You want to die? Or would You rather Awaken?

I don't equate death with 'physical death'.
The desire for death - (which is unconsciously active) - is of a desire to 'be' different than life. To experience different than Is. A special and partial experience of being.
That desire is active in the mind of the sleeping Son of God - (or the Divine Expression of Mind). But it cannot actually cause anything real to be born or to die. It can cause the mind to become engaged and identified in figments of its own fragmented sense of itself. And it can believe it has changed or lost eternal and universal being - as a result. And as it believes so will it experience.

Who are you?
If you answer from the past - you are identifying with the desire to die - regardless of the form. For to be different than reality as it is - is:
1. a mad idea worthy of laughter.
2. a delusion which makes life appear as death and death appear as life.
3. a confusion by which desire for death is protected from life so as to continue to think different.

4. a sense of self that is false - which distorts or obstructs the appreciation of the truly shared - which is real.

5. a drive to get one's self validated or saved or justified - so that it no longer feels threatened - or undermined - by the Movement of Being - as it Is.
6. to not be - or to become altogether unaware. In other words - to die.

Death is not an option in truth - but nor is an independent mind in a body in a world 'out there'.
So it is the desire for limitation, exclusion, separation - or playing the game of judgement - which is the issue. For death is not an alternative to reality or to the awakening to awareness of reality as it is.
But the desire for an alternative - will make there seem to be a way of looking at All in All as if it is all revolving around your wish and dancing to your own meanings.

Give everything to God - why? Because that is the way to restore acceptance and inclusive peace.
Jesus showed this as the way to remain continuously conscious through the process that we have come to call death.
Practice this in every waking moment by letting one will replace a will born of division.
I sometimes feel this is like dying while we are still alive - for the release of the self-will is felt as death to the perspective of the thinking that believes itself real. Yet in awakened peace - and in loves unified embrace - there can be no loss, no death and no thought capable of changing or even interrupting Reality.
This is already the case and only by accepting love that rises of itself from the condition of peace can our mind be released of its error.
Such that when idle thoughts suggest a dillemna of options - you simply let reality Be.
For the love of truth is no home for meaningless thoughts.