When thoughts and images associated with past and future are not invited or used to impose meanings upon the now, the experience becomes more self aware - as a flowing of parts within a whole.
We 'come from' or are the Flow of now and yet we are mentally programmed to run as if we come from yesterday.
Separation from the now is like 'separation from God' - in that one can be distracted from awareness That Now Is and believe and act as if now were not here - but one cannot actually make it so.
Likewise our being arises in and expresses the All-ness of God but we are humanly programmed to run as if we are somehow arising inside a physicality that itself expresses a loveless mechanism.
Our minds have wandered into miscreation such as to be blocked with making the self image and its story the centre of attention. Yet our Spirit calls us Present from within us and yet beyond the scope of our concepts and definitions. This is already happening and can be noticed and joined with. Which is becoming present as feeling awareness rather than defining a past present and future from an imagined mental objectivity.
The climbing example in the last post is a simple example of where the 'need to know' - held as desire - without letting fear or carelessness intrude - invites the Intelligence of the Guide to work through.
We may not be able to investigate such events when they are happening because it is an act of 'getting out the way'. Yet in such a 'flowing now' we are aware of feeling for the routes or the words or the steps to take - and do feel for a channel or equilibrium of mind such that the signal is not lost! - Because it Is our desire in action.
2009/02/15
Oneness and the 'work' of willingness
In ideas about oneness I may blind myself by thinking I am am listening to the Holy Spirit (guide for truth).
In the oneness all things are in and of the whole because they are accepted prior to being judged through the mask or veil of a self.
Apparent polarities can here be embraced as part of oneness and a path is given or arises that is of the oneness with regard to all that it is.
I am / you are - already the language of oneness in the actual willingness to be its expression.
Love requires few words or none to offer recognition, appreciation and acknowledgement to its own.
Climbing a steep place - the mind holds focus exactly on each step and doesn't imagine in front of behind the now.
In every instant, 'feeling the route' as it appears out of the terrain.
We call it ‘intense’ when we are required to pay consistent attention for we have identification with thinking that likes to 'stay in' and ‘think about’ rather than actually immersively participate in relationship. But this is because we have not become altogether without the urge to control and define.
It is the attempted management of outcomes that introduces strain and debilitates.
At times it takes great effort to resist the force of temptation to ‘be out from’ the desire to follow thoughts of the old self habit – yet the ‘effort’ is that of keeping a channel of willingness and receptivity open despite a current of a habitual reaction to which – as a second nature - we have become accustomed to exerting.
An enormous effort and an amazing feat – to keep hidden the truth from my own knowing!
The addictions of man are subsets to the addiction of lost Self (God our very Light, Life and Source). We seek every and any thing as our wholeness – salvation – sustenance - fulfilment – and have become lost among the many fragments and apparent levels of experience. It runs mechanically from its starting premise.
Yet the Light is not lost and is with you through the feelings of peace that you know but cannot understand in terms of your world and the self that seems to be in it.
Yet while your own understanding and judgement is your god to you – you will not accept it – nor follow its direction.
And when you do accept that there must be a better way and give willingness to find it – you will still be carrying the habit of fighting and defending against truth dawning in you of itself – until it is recognised and laid aside.
So there is the ‘work’ :
• Allowing the undoing of this by noticing but not following it suggestions.
• Actively welcoming and cultivating the enjoyment and appreciation of life in the heart – without introducing or following possessive mind.
• Growing in the capacity of trust as the essential touchstone and ground of all that you are – such that life works through you, by your freely given invitation and welcome extended to all – as life itself directs – without making a ‘self’ of such apparent accomplishments. But according or accepting all praise and Glory to God-One – God in all Creation.
Work is the 'curse of Adam' – after he ate the fruit of judgement.
For what is given freely – in love – in service and recognition of all honour and worth – can not be work in the sense of ‘irk’ – though by our human evaluations we are often tempted to intervene with ‘our story’ - where we try to tell God what reality is rather than let God heal our perceptions.
There are times and seasons in which all things seem to have their moment: doing little or doing a lot – keeping tidy or trusting amidst the apparently chaotic – retreating without rancour or advancing to give witness.
So how do we know how to relate?
It is given us to know.
As a function of all That we are.
How did I lose trust in my own knowing?
By believing my own un-forgiveness.
In Peace
Brian
2009/02/13
Darwin's theory has to give way
A friend was alarmed at an atheistic slogan near where he lived. His dismay prompted this response:
To rest in God is our protection from need of any help against bogeymen.
The Spirit works in all ways with all things.
I cant always see this, but our (innate) Holy Spirit sees for all of us – including me – and Darwin too. He is more than an ape – and so is an ape!
Is it not enough to accept our own path and meet others with a welcome and willingness to listen?
There is much in religion that has perpetrated lovelesness; brother upon brother and upon the world.
Some find a way that arrives at the Loving by other routes than religion.
Much of the heart’s way is grown in secret – within – and touches the hearts of others without fanfare and bluster and show.
Who are we to say we can judge another ?
As for ideological wars...
Wherever there seems to be a Tweedledee and Tweedledum – there is an agreement to quarrel.
The mind of mechanism is only an evil when made into a god.
Then it becomes like unto a devil - but only while we fight it.
Looking at mechanisms as to how things appear to work is something that the mind can engage in.
It seemed to promise a new dawn but increasingly leads man into a maze of meaninglessness. Because of it’s starting point.
Nothing can become other to its starting point.
But I trust Holy Spirit will use the ‘scientific mind and its symbols’ for awakening as we allow and accept and trust Holy Spirit into our mind.
Mechanisms can be seen, in partial glimpses, that seem to offer strong evidence in support of a machine universe that reflects the mechanical mind that initiates the search.
But whatever we are engaged in can become a structure by which we awaken self awareness.
Darwin abhorred human slavery and was strongly motivated to show men were of one family.
The scientific map is showing an interconnectedness of all things – but as if observable from outside the One.
This is where theory has to give way to Divine Experience.
In Peace
Brian
“You kept me from believing... until you let me know”
Leonard Cohen
To rest in God is our protection from need of any help against bogeymen.
The Spirit works in all ways with all things.
I cant always see this, but our (innate) Holy Spirit sees for all of us – including me – and Darwin too. He is more than an ape – and so is an ape!
Is it not enough to accept our own path and meet others with a welcome and willingness to listen?
There is much in religion that has perpetrated lovelesness; brother upon brother and upon the world.
Some find a way that arrives at the Loving by other routes than religion.
Much of the heart’s way is grown in secret – within – and touches the hearts of others without fanfare and bluster and show.
Who are we to say we can judge another ?
As for ideological wars...
Wherever there seems to be a Tweedledee and Tweedledum – there is an agreement to quarrel.
The mind of mechanism is only an evil when made into a god.
Then it becomes like unto a devil - but only while we fight it.
Looking at mechanisms as to how things appear to work is something that the mind can engage in.
It seemed to promise a new dawn but increasingly leads man into a maze of meaninglessness. Because of it’s starting point.
Nothing can become other to its starting point.
But I trust Holy Spirit will use the ‘scientific mind and its symbols’ for awakening as we allow and accept and trust Holy Spirit into our mind.
Mechanisms can be seen, in partial glimpses, that seem to offer strong evidence in support of a machine universe that reflects the mechanical mind that initiates the search.
But whatever we are engaged in can become a structure by which we awaken self awareness.
Darwin abhorred human slavery and was strongly motivated to show men were of one family.
The scientific map is showing an interconnectedness of all things – but as if observable from outside the One.
This is where theory has to give way to Divine Experience.
In Peace
Brian
“You kept me from believing... until you let me know”
Leonard Cohen
2009/02/12
The mind can linger
The heart’s notice is a natural touch – and can see the form – yet sees through the form.
In recognising it’s own light as one in all is a rapture.
From the heart’s noticing and dwelling in such reflected glory can the mind grasp as if it is independent and can possess.
By such unrecognized habit of association - the mind can easily linger past its ‘sell by date’ of love’s recognition; a joy; an insight - or whatever is the nature of communion expressed.
In identifying with the grasping through attention of desire, the mind suggests or insinuates a sense of lack. And while it is maintained - is identification held within limitation.
God is Always now – but we can be still holding the forms or traces or echoes of ‘was’ - as if it were a handle on truth; a map of or gift from the IS to validate our attention in applied will – and give it priority. and so we forget the Source and Condition of Life by mind play.
Yet the mind can only linger in the thought-form – as symbol – an image of life that might seem wondrous – but depletes as it is exploited and becomes the hollow witness to the mind of guilt – where we can have a sense of having cut ourselves off - or of being cut off from Light of Being: Love’s Innocence.
All of my thoughts are such bits of ‘past’ - they are all empty of the Living One.
Yet in opening my mind to Holy Spirit in love of truth that is Life – my thoughts can be used for the purpose of awakening, healing and joining in a mind that has forgot.
When mind is allowed to be leader – 'I' am always ‘going somewhere’ – ‘becoming something’ – ‘orientated toward a moment that is not actually here’ – even if it seems just past or just about to occur.
When the heart leads – it is the wholeness of the flow working through whatever serves its Movement – and I am always in a sense of living joy or connectedness that just Is. It’s language is everything – and will use our lives as well as our thoughts for the truth of the wellbeing of all – as we allow the channel to be opened and become our very life - in place of grasping for possession.
‘Abide in me as I abide in you’ is the disposition of peace. Extending the open hand of welcome; to hold all in willingness of welcome in my heart and accept the welcome of every heart in any degree or instance of discernment.
In recognising it’s own light as one in all is a rapture.
From the heart’s noticing and dwelling in such reflected glory can the mind grasp as if it is independent and can possess.
By such unrecognized habit of association - the mind can easily linger past its ‘sell by date’ of love’s recognition; a joy; an insight - or whatever is the nature of communion expressed.
In identifying with the grasping through attention of desire, the mind suggests or insinuates a sense of lack. And while it is maintained - is identification held within limitation.
God is Always now – but we can be still holding the forms or traces or echoes of ‘was’ - as if it were a handle on truth; a map of or gift from the IS to validate our attention in applied will – and give it priority. and so we forget the Source and Condition of Life by mind play.
Yet the mind can only linger in the thought-form – as symbol – an image of life that might seem wondrous – but depletes as it is exploited and becomes the hollow witness to the mind of guilt – where we can have a sense of having cut ourselves off - or of being cut off from Light of Being: Love’s Innocence.
All of my thoughts are such bits of ‘past’ - they are all empty of the Living One.
Yet in opening my mind to Holy Spirit in love of truth that is Life – my thoughts can be used for the purpose of awakening, healing and joining in a mind that has forgot.
When mind is allowed to be leader – 'I' am always ‘going somewhere’ – ‘becoming something’ – ‘orientated toward a moment that is not actually here’ – even if it seems just past or just about to occur.
When the heart leads – it is the wholeness of the flow working through whatever serves its Movement – and I am always in a sense of living joy or connectedness that just Is. It’s language is everything – and will use our lives as well as our thoughts for the truth of the wellbeing of all – as we allow the channel to be opened and become our very life - in place of grasping for possession.
‘Abide in me as I abide in you’ is the disposition of peace. Extending the open hand of welcome; to hold all in willingness of welcome in my heart and accept the welcome of every heart in any degree or instance of discernment.
2009/02/10
Let truth be revealed
Let truth be revealed rather than determined.
Let words tingle our intuitions rather than carve out territories.
Victimizer and victim take turns.
Both act out parts that reflect a mind in judgement.
All things can only serve the desire active in our heart and mind – they cannot dictate it.
If we discover we have given such power to conditions then it is ours to reclaim by allowing power to be shared rather than wielded.
Aligning with truth to let truth be my mind’s Master.
Show to me - such love of truth – that is in me as the truth of love.
I release my own attempts to decide reality and accept one will for me in peace.
Let words tingle our intuitions rather than carve out territories.
Victimizer and victim take turns.
Both act out parts that reflect a mind in judgement.
All things can only serve the desire active in our heart and mind – they cannot dictate it.
If we discover we have given such power to conditions then it is ours to reclaim by allowing power to be shared rather than wielded.
Aligning with truth to let truth be my mind’s Master.
Show to me - such love of truth – that is in me as the truth of love.
I release my own attempts to decide reality and accept one will for me in peace.
I inadvertently choose
I inadvertently choose to experience as if separately every time I allow the mind to wander in loveless paths.
I become lost to my own heart’s light in my preoccupation with a will by which darkness seems to obscure light.
Loveless paths are only a way of thinking that isn't true – there is not such a path nor one compelled to walk it, only a currency of exchange that is created by what I give and receive.
But lovelessness cannot be received in truth for there is none in Truth.
What then is the stranger that seems to intrude upon our hope of peace? What then the pass by which we come to the end of our capacity to prevail?
It is the touch and whisper of love yet veiled by the veil of distortion – for the awakening of the heart of you to your light.
Yet to the will that lives in the dark must it seem the stripping away of all that it believes gives it strength and safety.
To be amidst the world and release its value from your grasp so that the heart is freed from the conclusions and definitions of the mind is to lay aside thought and listen anew.
What is here at first may be seen only as the absence of what I have become accustomed to – and such a void can be prone to fearful thought.
Yet even as eyes become attuned to a sudden change after a period of adjustment – so too to the discernments of light return to the mind that releases darkness.
The companionship of light is not other to what I am – and yet is not mine to control.
I am not mine to control.
Very God is not for God to control.
Following a thought to know all by myself – brought me to be as if myself alone.
To know I am not alone restores me to love’s knowing – always given and received in perfect trust.
The refusal of the experience of aloneness is the direct embrace of uncensored experience now.
Before judgement comes into play.
Only thus will the gift of love flow through the laying aside of my story.
By the reception of this gift will I recognise, beyond doubt, that I have received as has been given through me. In gratitude and love will the Source of love be known by love – as love - in love. When all things are spoken thus – I must be silent.
I become lost to my own heart’s light in my preoccupation with a will by which darkness seems to obscure light.
Loveless paths are only a way of thinking that isn't true – there is not such a path nor one compelled to walk it, only a currency of exchange that is created by what I give and receive.
But lovelessness cannot be received in truth for there is none in Truth.
What then is the stranger that seems to intrude upon our hope of peace? What then the pass by which we come to the end of our capacity to prevail?
It is the touch and whisper of love yet veiled by the veil of distortion – for the awakening of the heart of you to your light.
Yet to the will that lives in the dark must it seem the stripping away of all that it believes gives it strength and safety.
To be amidst the world and release its value from your grasp so that the heart is freed from the conclusions and definitions of the mind is to lay aside thought and listen anew.
What is here at first may be seen only as the absence of what I have become accustomed to – and such a void can be prone to fearful thought.
Yet even as eyes become attuned to a sudden change after a period of adjustment – so too to the discernments of light return to the mind that releases darkness.
The companionship of light is not other to what I am – and yet is not mine to control.
I am not mine to control.
Very God is not for God to control.
Following a thought to know all by myself – brought me to be as if myself alone.
To know I am not alone restores me to love’s knowing – always given and received in perfect trust.
The refusal of the experience of aloneness is the direct embrace of uncensored experience now.
Before judgement comes into play.
Only thus will the gift of love flow through the laying aside of my story.
By the reception of this gift will I recognise, beyond doubt, that I have received as has been given through me. In gratitude and love will the Source of love be known by love – as love - in love. When all things are spoken thus – I must be silent.
2009/02/09
Surrender thought and listen now
The willingness to surrender thought and listen now – is surely within us – or we would not meet here.
(Or indeed really meet anything directly but our own thinking).
I can sometime feel this as the truth floating of itself to its own awareness.
Like as if all the stuff that seems to keep truth denied has to work against the natural buoyancy of the heart.
Miracles are the unselfconscious expression of a conscious willingness.
I haven't felt that I need or should become anything – for that seems to be the idea that made suffering.
So I release as I feel able and willing – which is to say as awakeness offers to my acceptance.
The false cannot be a foundation or a real cause so I don't have to do anything about it - but the desire to see it as my own cause or foundation and proceed to identify all things accordingly, is the sticky point where I will follow the guidance of the false.
But if I try to force myself to surrender I will feel deprived, so, in some ways I feel to be consciously tolerant of that I yet choose to act in story rather than truth. The consciousness is the level of willingness freely available and gives a very different experience than becoming eaten by illusion.
Allowing unjudgemental awareness into the arenas of resistance is a release of Thou Shalt Not! - yet is in some way holding relationship with spirit in a way that reminds me of Joni Mitchell singing – Will you take me as I am?”. Ego loves this sort of thinking as it can feel ‘allowed’ to indulge – but that isn't what I am saying – for the context that makes the difference is the desire and willingness to grow in self trust.
Meeting the self-death in all sorts of ways – is meeting and embracing all the places in me where I would give up – run – hide – go insane – fail – die. The unforgivable or intolerable.
They don't need to be dramatized – for drama is a way to keep from letting peace be. But they are like the coastline where I end and the unknown begins. The threshold where the Eternal wakens to itself as the 'more of me' than what I thought to be.
The self-death is story. Without my story I am in cold turkey – in bleaker street – in desert of abandonment. But this is of the initial illusion of loss that I believed real and sought to protect against – and thus made real to my own mind. It gets re-enacted over and over but also gets hidden so as to not be recognisable.
So comes the time when I’m done with the desire to come from this place of self protection – even though the habit is sometimes strong. There’s a different call in my mind and there’s a different response.
I thought today about things I do which have no justifications or basis in the mind that measures – and how part of my work is to keep alive the path by which I can enjoy the freedom of giving – and not let the measuring mind undermine it.
And then I thought ‘what becomes of it?’ and immediately felt that the capacity to be in the joy of freely giving is growing in me and this is what I teach myself and any I meet in the giving. If they find joy then they will be drawn likewise – even if at first they seem blind to the light and only grasp at forms.
The belief that there is something I have to do or undo in the future – in some other moment is a distraction from enjoying the Holy Spirit light in all things now.
(Or indeed really meet anything directly but our own thinking).
I can sometime feel this as the truth floating of itself to its own awareness.
Like as if all the stuff that seems to keep truth denied has to work against the natural buoyancy of the heart.
Miracles are the unselfconscious expression of a conscious willingness.
I haven't felt that I need or should become anything – for that seems to be the idea that made suffering.
So I release as I feel able and willing – which is to say as awakeness offers to my acceptance.
The false cannot be a foundation or a real cause so I don't have to do anything about it - but the desire to see it as my own cause or foundation and proceed to identify all things accordingly, is the sticky point where I will follow the guidance of the false.
But if I try to force myself to surrender I will feel deprived, so, in some ways I feel to be consciously tolerant of that I yet choose to act in story rather than truth. The consciousness is the level of willingness freely available and gives a very different experience than becoming eaten by illusion.
Allowing unjudgemental awareness into the arenas of resistance is a release of Thou Shalt Not! - yet is in some way holding relationship with spirit in a way that reminds me of Joni Mitchell singing – Will you take me as I am?”. Ego loves this sort of thinking as it can feel ‘allowed’ to indulge – but that isn't what I am saying – for the context that makes the difference is the desire and willingness to grow in self trust.
Meeting the self-death in all sorts of ways – is meeting and embracing all the places in me where I would give up – run – hide – go insane – fail – die. The unforgivable or intolerable.
They don't need to be dramatized – for drama is a way to keep from letting peace be. But they are like the coastline where I end and the unknown begins. The threshold where the Eternal wakens to itself as the 'more of me' than what I thought to be.
The self-death is story. Without my story I am in cold turkey – in bleaker street – in desert of abandonment. But this is of the initial illusion of loss that I believed real and sought to protect against – and thus made real to my own mind. It gets re-enacted over and over but also gets hidden so as to not be recognisable.
So comes the time when I’m done with the desire to come from this place of self protection – even though the habit is sometimes strong. There’s a different call in my mind and there’s a different response.
I thought today about things I do which have no justifications or basis in the mind that measures – and how part of my work is to keep alive the path by which I can enjoy the freedom of giving – and not let the measuring mind undermine it.
And then I thought ‘what becomes of it?’ and immediately felt that the capacity to be in the joy of freely giving is growing in me and this is what I teach myself and any I meet in the giving. If they find joy then they will be drawn likewise – even if at first they seem blind to the light and only grasp at forms.
The belief that there is something I have to do or undo in the future – in some other moment is a distraction from enjoying the Holy Spirit light in all things now.
2009/02/08
In order to wake up, one must have an object of one's affection
How will love awaken but that it is openly flowing as the giving? A giving without limit of self.
To give as God Gives is to be aligned with and one with God.
This is what we have forgotten.
Though this may have material aspects it is perhaps better to consider giving in terms of your thought and attention - your mind. When you give feeling-attention to another in the true willingness of love, healing or joining - then you have found the way to 'transcend' ego - for your attention is restored to the divine function of beholding the truth of all that is - as it is.
With another human being we can see everything 'about them' become irrelevant and even disappear and the light of their smile; the soul in their eyes - the joy of their shine - unmistakably and recognisably the Beloved. This may as yet be glimmerings of intuition or the fullness of shared recognition - but it is the same in that it is not focusing on or recycling 'my impressions, comparisons, likes and dislikes'.
People yearn to find love yet it is always simply ours to give - and only by giving can we keep it in awareness.
All things are known in the heart. The mind-based strategy is always trying to find some way to make things 'work' without having to open the heart - yet when finally the heart - you - simply open to life - to the more of what - you - are, it is always recognised - you have always been you and yet the story in which you had become identified led to a forgetting in which otherness seems to justify fear and defence.
Attention is placing value - giving attention to anyone or anything gives value - but if coming from a loveless place we see a world of others and things - maybe seeming better or worse but none indivisibly alive with us. So a sense of joined heart with guidance, with gratitude, with trust extended - makes of our attention a blessing - because we give out from a place of connectedness.
Such vision of is a spontaneity that arises from a willingness to be joined. An acceptance of life before it is judged is to let judgement go by not following it to see where it goes.
Generally, most of us are heavily defended against such an occurrence - and restore 'normal service' if reality should undo or temporarily suspend ego identifications.
But if you are reading this - you are likely to be one who is already touched or stirred in desire to awaken - no matter what other baggage may try and come along too. Such is the recognition of truth in the heart. Valuing this desire and growing it will naturally extend as 'what is the truth here?' a curiosity born of the intuition that, what seems to be so, is just that - a seeming.
Who has given their heart to the world can only fear such a vision - for it renders their investments as nothing - but yet discerns and keeps all that is love or of service in rewakening love - and gives it to us as the world of love and awakening and forgiveness. A portal through time to the Eternal God. Who - once recognised in the object of your affection - extends as truth of all that is.
But one step at a time - as freely accepted. Holy Spirit is Gentleness Itself. In contrast with the cruel self judgements we yet hold in secret and in fear - that bind us and blind us to the Voice that knows our truth is of love - and can show through you -to you - as you are willing to receive.
Notes:
An example of material aspects is when one trusts the movement of love and gives even in the world - and yet discovers no loss. For the living principle is that true giving and receiving are one - whereas in the world's thinking, giving is either seen as losing or a sacrifice made in order to get something deemed better.
(The title of this is a saying of Raj - who is a voice for awakening.
and this posting was slightly adapted from a response to a request for comment and clarification).
To give as God Gives is to be aligned with and one with God.
This is what we have forgotten.
Though this may have material aspects it is perhaps better to consider giving in terms of your thought and attention - your mind. When you give feeling-attention to another in the true willingness of love, healing or joining - then you have found the way to 'transcend' ego - for your attention is restored to the divine function of beholding the truth of all that is - as it is.
With another human being we can see everything 'about them' become irrelevant and even disappear and the light of their smile; the soul in their eyes - the joy of their shine - unmistakably and recognisably the Beloved. This may as yet be glimmerings of intuition or the fullness of shared recognition - but it is the same in that it is not focusing on or recycling 'my impressions, comparisons, likes and dislikes'.
People yearn to find love yet it is always simply ours to give - and only by giving can we keep it in awareness.
All things are known in the heart. The mind-based strategy is always trying to find some way to make things 'work' without having to open the heart - yet when finally the heart - you - simply open to life - to the more of what - you - are, it is always recognised - you have always been you and yet the story in which you had become identified led to a forgetting in which otherness seems to justify fear and defence.
Attention is placing value - giving attention to anyone or anything gives value - but if coming from a loveless place we see a world of others and things - maybe seeming better or worse but none indivisibly alive with us. So a sense of joined heart with guidance, with gratitude, with trust extended - makes of our attention a blessing - because we give out from a place of connectedness.
Such vision of is a spontaneity that arises from a willingness to be joined. An acceptance of life before it is judged is to let judgement go by not following it to see where it goes.
Generally, most of us are heavily defended against such an occurrence - and restore 'normal service' if reality should undo or temporarily suspend ego identifications.
But if you are reading this - you are likely to be one who is already touched or stirred in desire to awaken - no matter what other baggage may try and come along too. Such is the recognition of truth in the heart. Valuing this desire and growing it will naturally extend as 'what is the truth here?' a curiosity born of the intuition that, what seems to be so, is just that - a seeming.
Who has given their heart to the world can only fear such a vision - for it renders their investments as nothing - but yet discerns and keeps all that is love or of service in rewakening love - and gives it to us as the world of love and awakening and forgiveness. A portal through time to the Eternal God. Who - once recognised in the object of your affection - extends as truth of all that is.
But one step at a time - as freely accepted. Holy Spirit is Gentleness Itself. In contrast with the cruel self judgements we yet hold in secret and in fear - that bind us and blind us to the Voice that knows our truth is of love - and can show through you -to you - as you are willing to receive.
Notes:
An example of material aspects is when one trusts the movement of love and gives even in the world - and yet discovers no loss. For the living principle is that true giving and receiving are one - whereas in the world's thinking, giving is either seen as losing or a sacrifice made in order to get something deemed better.
(The title of this is a saying of Raj - who is a voice for awakening.
and this posting was slightly adapted from a response to a request for comment and clarification).
2009/02/05
Guidance and delusion
1. Honesty and self trust are one – they are part of each other.
While we are ok with our minds using ‘self validating presentations’ that are dishonest – we confuse our mind as to who and what anything is.
We muddy our own stream and teach this as a ‘way to live’ to ourselves and others.
2. Why would I want to delude myself?
Because I have not yet fully accepted the love-less-ness in my mind for what it really is - and I fear it – calling forth and finding distraction and diversion to avoid looking at what I yet fear to see.
3. Why would I open to guidance from beyond my own control?
Because my own control has brought me to a dead end, an unfulfillment, joyless suffering, meaninglessness or an insanity of realities in which I cannot cope or find ground and so I do not want it.
And because on every occasion where I have found my willingness and accepted the way to let a greater life in – it has not condemned me – but has renewed and awakened the heart in ways that have also been helpful to me and joined me with others and life itself.
4. What if it was the devil or my own delusion speaking to me?
This is already an ongoing habit in terms of 2. But we have made a ‘culture’ of it and in many ways such activity has become invisible by mutual consent.
But it is also easy to see that fear mounts on fear and feeds itself.
So to make relationship with fear when it is felt or recognised in any form – is to undo the self perpetuating feedback by which the mind can seem to trap itself.
To acknowledge that fear is felt – and pause - is a step beyond being immediately programmed by it.
That I notice fear and pause is a working step from which another will come that leads to discovery of.
But what fear tells me I am is a means by which I keep from knowing truth presently.
The desire for power over or against, is not associated with the fruits of sanity, love and joy – but is a mistaken intent arising from a sense of lack.
The attempt and intent to use anything and everything for the triumph of self will over opposition is the lovelessness that we fear to see within.
Yet to see it as it is,
is to see it without the voice that tells you ‘this is you’.
And will see through to the judgement beneath it, by which an identification with limitation and lack arises.
Such is the Gift of our Holy Spirit.
But you must love the truth with all your heart.
For it is also the Gift of your Holy Spirit to reveal that you are such a love.
And accepting this is your release.
I can see my human life as many moments of such acceptance – surfacing through great or small resistance.
And yet such a life revealed is a joined life – a shared life – in which the capacity to discern and accept love grows as the desire for self determined experience diminishes.
2009/02/04
Is around and a round - poem
being aware
is
beyond definition
for
defined defines
and
limiting limits
to
un-conscious-ness
by
fixing attention
in
identifications
with
self forgetting
of
Perfect love
is
Always already
as
being aware
is
beyond definition
for
defined defines
and
limiting limits
to
un-conscious-ness
by
fixing attention
in
identifications
with
self forgetting
of
Perfect love
is
Always already
as
being aware
is
beyond definition
for
defined defines
and
limiting limits
to
un-conscious-ness
by
fixing attention
in
identifications
with
self forgetting
of
Perfect
love
is
Always already
as
being
aware
Is
( brian-in-a-moment ;-)
is
beyond definition
for
defined defines
and
limiting limits
to
un-conscious-ness
by
fixing attention
in
identifications
with
self forgetting
of
Perfect love
is
Always already
as
being aware
is
beyond definition
for
defined defines
and
limiting limits
to
un-conscious-ness
by
fixing attention
in
identifications
with
self forgetting
of
Perfect love
is
Always already
as
being aware
is
beyond definition
for
defined defines
and
limiting limits
to
un-conscious-ness
by
fixing attention
in
identifications
with
self forgetting
of
Perfect
love
is
Always already
as
being
aware
Is
( brian-in-a-moment ;-)
Thoughts that arose upon considering ‘guidance’
The whole deal is that communion becomes your ongoing realisation and experience and expression.
If there is still something you want to manage all by yourself then that is what will maintain the sense of ‘all by yourself’.
So guidance is an expression of trust – of innate intelligence. If you read the single quiet thoughts about the guiding force and the driving force – I feel they say something very succinctly that is at the very heart of our being.
A secret heart must abide in the dark to maintain its seeming – an open heart looks always to the light to discover it’s source and meaning.
There’s no need to get hung up on terms like guidance because the way the guiding heart moves in us each is different at different times – and it – guidance – has no ‘self’ that requires being outwardly validated by our names for it.
It need not be surprising that ego expresses itself through every and any kind of spiritual concept – but it doesn't really matter what other people say or do about their guidance or lack of it – but that I receive them through mine. Then I find I have trust that, whatever appears to be going on – I can connect with them as being at the threshold. We are always at the threshold but we often find we have been caught in the traces of a past that isn't here.
To the separate self sense – guidance will tend to be cast as a separate special thing – even though it’s living moment it is your heart’s knowing Itself.
Many have likened it to a guardian angel – an ever-present Friend, God’s Voice, Jesus, The Holy Spirit – or they keep quiet about it and yet learn to trust it implicitly as an inner knowing they can trust.
We usually think God is going to fit our idea of what we are and what the world needs. We think guidance is an extension to our capacity to function in the world as we believe it to be.
But that’s only while we grow the courage to realise and begin to embrace that we had it the wrong way around.
- - - - - - - -
The belief that there is ‘something we have to do’ seems almost unchallengeable in the mind of the one who knows not what he does.
And this can equally express as ‘the sin we must not make!” - or else!
The belief in guilt fear and punishment is everywhere to be seen – until ... it is no longer validated, joined with, or used as a system by which to ‘play the game and come out on top’.
The possibility that I can ask for and have as I ask, is a fantasy to ego who thinks forms are reality.
Yet it is the law that cannot be escaped – but can be made unrecognisable.
At the level of form based reality this cannot be seen, for ‘I’ can ‘want’ and get, different to my asking.
Indeed we can seem to want so many things that all work against each other.
To risk asking and discovering the prayer of my heart – is to pass by the terrors of the god of fear and vengeance. It is hard indeed to hear guidance when we are afraid the answer will condemn us!
Growing trust is the dance of relationship.
In all symbols of our desires is a spark that yet lives innocent – even though in the world’s distortion it may express awry.
- - - - - - -
I can act upon the basis of what I think I want as if that was actually what I want.
I can think I want differently than I want, in order to cloak desires that are otherwise unacceptable, so as to mask my fears as well as masking the desires themselves.
In this way I can make a presentation not unlike the bonds traded with sub prime mortgages – in which I can make something out of nothing at the expense of everything.
When the ground is discovered not beneath my feet – I am awakened to a need to know.
Ideas based on ideas are no longer currency but are seeds of confusion.
The bedrock is found by accepting only that which is true and putting illusion aside.
Ideas may serve to guide but are not Truth itself.
The intimacy of your own heart is yours to open – as you accept.
Yet as this is allowed – the currency of love is discovered to be flowing.
One can dip into this many many times – and withdraw to the ‘securities’ of the old ways.
Yet only to grow the honesty and courage by which to release the old ways.
If there is still something you want to manage all by yourself then that is what will maintain the sense of ‘all by yourself’.
So guidance is an expression of trust – of innate intelligence. If you read the single quiet thoughts about the guiding force and the driving force – I feel they say something very succinctly that is at the very heart of our being.
A secret heart must abide in the dark to maintain its seeming – an open heart looks always to the light to discover it’s source and meaning.
There’s no need to get hung up on terms like guidance because the way the guiding heart moves in us each is different at different times – and it – guidance – has no ‘self’ that requires being outwardly validated by our names for it.
It need not be surprising that ego expresses itself through every and any kind of spiritual concept – but it doesn't really matter what other people say or do about their guidance or lack of it – but that I receive them through mine. Then I find I have trust that, whatever appears to be going on – I can connect with them as being at the threshold. We are always at the threshold but we often find we have been caught in the traces of a past that isn't here.
To the separate self sense – guidance will tend to be cast as a separate special thing – even though it’s living moment it is your heart’s knowing Itself.
Many have likened it to a guardian angel – an ever-present Friend, God’s Voice, Jesus, The Holy Spirit – or they keep quiet about it and yet learn to trust it implicitly as an inner knowing they can trust.
We usually think God is going to fit our idea of what we are and what the world needs. We think guidance is an extension to our capacity to function in the world as we believe it to be.
But that’s only while we grow the courage to realise and begin to embrace that we had it the wrong way around.
- - - - - - - -
The belief that there is ‘something we have to do’ seems almost unchallengeable in the mind of the one who knows not what he does.
And this can equally express as ‘the sin we must not make!” - or else!
The belief in guilt fear and punishment is everywhere to be seen – until ... it is no longer validated, joined with, or used as a system by which to ‘play the game and come out on top’.
The possibility that I can ask for and have as I ask, is a fantasy to ego who thinks forms are reality.
Yet it is the law that cannot be escaped – but can be made unrecognisable.
At the level of form based reality this cannot be seen, for ‘I’ can ‘want’ and get, different to my asking.
Indeed we can seem to want so many things that all work against each other.
To risk asking and discovering the prayer of my heart – is to pass by the terrors of the god of fear and vengeance. It is hard indeed to hear guidance when we are afraid the answer will condemn us!
Growing trust is the dance of relationship.
In all symbols of our desires is a spark that yet lives innocent – even though in the world’s distortion it may express awry.
- - - - - - -
I can act upon the basis of what I think I want as if that was actually what I want.
I can think I want differently than I want, in order to cloak desires that are otherwise unacceptable, so as to mask my fears as well as masking the desires themselves.
In this way I can make a presentation not unlike the bonds traded with sub prime mortgages – in which I can make something out of nothing at the expense of everything.
When the ground is discovered not beneath my feet – I am awakened to a need to know.
Ideas based on ideas are no longer currency but are seeds of confusion.
The bedrock is found by accepting only that which is true and putting illusion aside.
Ideas may serve to guide but are not Truth itself.
The intimacy of your own heart is yours to open – as you accept.
Yet as this is allowed – the currency of love is discovered to be flowing.
One can dip into this many many times – and withdraw to the ‘securities’ of the old ways.
Yet only to grow the honesty and courage by which to release the old ways.
2009/01/29
Sexuality and Spirituality
When something is made into an ‘answer’ to a problem it becomes another expression of that same problem. This is why the problem needs to be undone rather than merely solved within its own frame of reference.
When trust is restored - it is extended. To meet in trust is to be without attempts to make another be what you want them to be. It is the release of fantasy relationship. We can make fantasy upon a body and sacrifice or subordinate - but we can only surrender consciously into relationship. Love.
To be with oneself truly is to be with all. In specific terms this means that if I can be present in relationship then I cannot but be open to the movement of Relationship. If I try to control the flow - I become distracted, conflicted and out of alignment. But if I then notice this... I can simply bring attention back to you, the moment is rediscovered - here - unbroken. But if I persist in asserting or framing my outcome I amplify dissonance and infer a self that isn't true, to be using and used by guilt. Hollow, mechanical and meaningless. And if I persist in a ‘self’ assertion from a premise of masking or overcoming such guilt I will tend to deny and disown it - and thus it projects unrecognised as reflected misperception. I can become vacant, elsewhere engaged, lifeless, or even cruel.
Touch is a most primary sense. There is a saying that 'the body' doesn't lie. You can feel when someone feels you feeling them.
You know when you are received. You know when you are touched with love, for as you accept it, you share it. But of course if one depends on the 'past' to teach and guide - then one doesn't become present to discover that one knows - But defends against intimacy because it feels uncontrollable.
Because we live - mostly - such an out of touch existence we have a strong impulse toward touch - yet this is also often associated with confusion, guilt and sin - or a feeling of wrongness - to such a degree that many are inhibited from experiencing the delight of physical expression in almost any way.
Because in confusion we seek and assert strategies of control, denial, dissociation and mutual contracts of partiality, we are often loveless in our relationship - substituting the pursuit of pleasure for love's fulfilment. Yet there is nothing so wondrous as being in the company of one you can altogether accept as they are and feel accepted - as you are - not fatalisticly - as in accepting ‘I am this or that’ - but livingly in being without fixity of definition. 'What would love have me do?' is not for thinking about - but is the unselfconscious impulse of a heart at rest in its own knowing.
How about never making love with the same one again? Not because you seek more experience - but because you surrender into and seek the peace of God - in whom all things are made new. In such a present loving one cannot ‘reenact the past’ and become anything other than dissonant - caught up and and separated in thought and experience. That can be good news if you simply let go of the goal orientation and just be with - be present and give as you would receive; receiving as you choose to give. Is it a 'miracle' to see fears evaporate? Not really. It is the simple effect of releasing wilfulness, once recognised.
‘Miracles are natural. When they do not occur something has gone wrong’. ~ A Course in Miracles
When the mind is not engaged in judgement - there is no defining of body and parts - no need to get anywhere or achieve anything but every incentive to be drawn present. The secret of making love is to be already making love. If touching or mingling of selves becomes the thread of expression - nothing essentially changes. When our focus of attention spreads to include other threads of life - love is still the condition - the environment in which we both move.
For our relationship with our Be-ing or God is our relationship with each other and in any real relationship, are all held.
Trust is often associated with an outcome - "I trust you not to abandon me" etc. But awakening trust is allowing the truth of what you are, to be itself and to grow in the willingness to learn of life in truth's terms instead of in terms of 'what do I get out of this?’. Freedom is the gift that elicits the honour of loving.
Isn't this what we are afraid of? - becoming 'trapped' into the 'sacrifice' of self in love.
Well there it is - am I willing to look honestly at myself in relationship or am I still comitted to 'keeping my options open'?
All the options of the world are the same. It may be hard to credit that but it is true. Some things have a longer ‘sell by’ date and some things seem better than other things - but all of it is the desire to remain in hiding; on the run; homeless. No matter how impeccably it is presented. For what does it profit us to gain the world but lose Soul?
Bodies were once dissected in looking for ‘the soul’ but it was not found. But the personality which is presumed by ‘I think therefore I am’ is already asserting itself to be within a body, cut off from the Life Energy it depends on and subordinated to the blind and tyranous intent of a loveless expression. This will not find Soul! But may be undone or fall away to reveal it.
Restore the 'body' to its function in truth and discover that you are wholly communicating - there are no private minds - for that is only a device of unconsiousness, by which all is perceived as fragmented entities - ‘things’ within a mind that plays with the idea of difference and has become enamoured and forgetful in its intent.
The feeling of the Light is known in the heart. The heart may have a focus in the heart area but is of wholebodily radiance and receptivity. Nothing is excluded - for nothing intrudes upon indivisibility. Until and unless you think - and invest your identity there.
Yet the dance of love is also the willingness and faith by which we hold to the compass of our heart and forego or repent of the loveless in the willingness to receive anew of the Spirit by which we live.
‘Spiritual path’ or practice is not really to do with externals - but with the engagement and heartfelt involvement in your life - now.
So there is no need to ‘get there’ - but all the need is to be with what is already here in a way that is guided by love, truth, joy and self mercy of acceptance, such that - no matter what - here is a good place to start. Let the heart be turned. Give welcome as you would be welcomed. Let felt gratitude outshine the fear that would grasp at life and lose it.
The undoing of guilt is the release of wilfulness, or self-willed assertion, in One Self. Not an intellectual premise upon which to assert a new set of definitions that are just as much of a blindness to Light of Innocence in all things as before - because they bypass the movement of truth in our heart - in grace and gift of which - I see (in) you beloved.
The Holy Spirit Mind uses all things on behalf of truth's awakening - if you give them up from being kept secret, private, by yourself.
Awareness - knowing Itself - is so one with all that you are as to be completely outside any range of focus that the mind in limitation can encompass. Yet its effects are everywhere to be seen and in their acknowledgement, recognition, and acceptance are you found Home, Recognised, Acknowledged, Welcome.
This all can sound too holy, too spiritual, too 'not like it looks like from here' - so I finish with a reminder not to take ourselves too seriously - to laugh and allow fun - to be out from definitions without making 'new rules' for freedom! And all things shall be added you.
When trust is restored - it is extended. To meet in trust is to be without attempts to make another be what you want them to be. It is the release of fantasy relationship. We can make fantasy upon a body and sacrifice or subordinate - but we can only surrender consciously into relationship. Love.
To be with oneself truly is to be with all. In specific terms this means that if I can be present in relationship then I cannot but be open to the movement of Relationship. If I try to control the flow - I become distracted, conflicted and out of alignment. But if I then notice this... I can simply bring attention back to you, the moment is rediscovered - here - unbroken. But if I persist in asserting or framing my outcome I amplify dissonance and infer a self that isn't true, to be using and used by guilt. Hollow, mechanical and meaningless. And if I persist in a ‘self’ assertion from a premise of masking or overcoming such guilt I will tend to deny and disown it - and thus it projects unrecognised as reflected misperception. I can become vacant, elsewhere engaged, lifeless, or even cruel.
Touch is a most primary sense. There is a saying that 'the body' doesn't lie. You can feel when someone feels you feeling them.
You know when you are received. You know when you are touched with love, for as you accept it, you share it. But of course if one depends on the 'past' to teach and guide - then one doesn't become present to discover that one knows - But defends against intimacy because it feels uncontrollable.
Because we live - mostly - such an out of touch existence we have a strong impulse toward touch - yet this is also often associated with confusion, guilt and sin - or a feeling of wrongness - to such a degree that many are inhibited from experiencing the delight of physical expression in almost any way.
Because in confusion we seek and assert strategies of control, denial, dissociation and mutual contracts of partiality, we are often loveless in our relationship - substituting the pursuit of pleasure for love's fulfilment. Yet there is nothing so wondrous as being in the company of one you can altogether accept as they are and feel accepted - as you are - not fatalisticly - as in accepting ‘I am this or that’ - but livingly in being without fixity of definition. 'What would love have me do?' is not for thinking about - but is the unselfconscious impulse of a heart at rest in its own knowing.
How about never making love with the same one again? Not because you seek more experience - but because you surrender into and seek the peace of God - in whom all things are made new. In such a present loving one cannot ‘reenact the past’ and become anything other than dissonant - caught up and and separated in thought and experience. That can be good news if you simply let go of the goal orientation and just be with - be present and give as you would receive; receiving as you choose to give. Is it a 'miracle' to see fears evaporate? Not really. It is the simple effect of releasing wilfulness, once recognised.
‘Miracles are natural. When they do not occur something has gone wrong’. ~ A Course in Miracles
When the mind is not engaged in judgement - there is no defining of body and parts - no need to get anywhere or achieve anything but every incentive to be drawn present. The secret of making love is to be already making love. If touching or mingling of selves becomes the thread of expression - nothing essentially changes. When our focus of attention spreads to include other threads of life - love is still the condition - the environment in which we both move.
For our relationship with our Be-ing or God is our relationship with each other and in any real relationship, are all held.
Trust is often associated with an outcome - "I trust you not to abandon me" etc. But awakening trust is allowing the truth of what you are, to be itself and to grow in the willingness to learn of life in truth's terms instead of in terms of 'what do I get out of this?’. Freedom is the gift that elicits the honour of loving.
Isn't this what we are afraid of? - becoming 'trapped' into the 'sacrifice' of self in love.
Well there it is - am I willing to look honestly at myself in relationship or am I still comitted to 'keeping my options open'?
All the options of the world are the same. It may be hard to credit that but it is true. Some things have a longer ‘sell by’ date and some things seem better than other things - but all of it is the desire to remain in hiding; on the run; homeless. No matter how impeccably it is presented. For what does it profit us to gain the world but lose Soul?
Bodies were once dissected in looking for ‘the soul’ but it was not found. But the personality which is presumed by ‘I think therefore I am’ is already asserting itself to be within a body, cut off from the Life Energy it depends on and subordinated to the blind and tyranous intent of a loveless expression. This will not find Soul! But may be undone or fall away to reveal it.
Restore the 'body' to its function in truth and discover that you are wholly communicating - there are no private minds - for that is only a device of unconsiousness, by which all is perceived as fragmented entities - ‘things’ within a mind that plays with the idea of difference and has become enamoured and forgetful in its intent.
The feeling of the Light is known in the heart. The heart may have a focus in the heart area but is of wholebodily radiance and receptivity. Nothing is excluded - for nothing intrudes upon indivisibility. Until and unless you think - and invest your identity there.
Yet the dance of love is also the willingness and faith by which we hold to the compass of our heart and forego or repent of the loveless in the willingness to receive anew of the Spirit by which we live.
‘Spiritual path’ or practice is not really to do with externals - but with the engagement and heartfelt involvement in your life - now.
So there is no need to ‘get there’ - but all the need is to be with what is already here in a way that is guided by love, truth, joy and self mercy of acceptance, such that - no matter what - here is a good place to start. Let the heart be turned. Give welcome as you would be welcomed. Let felt gratitude outshine the fear that would grasp at life and lose it.
The undoing of guilt is the release of wilfulness, or self-willed assertion, in One Self. Not an intellectual premise upon which to assert a new set of definitions that are just as much of a blindness to Light of Innocence in all things as before - because they bypass the movement of truth in our heart - in grace and gift of which - I see (in) you beloved.
The Holy Spirit Mind uses all things on behalf of truth's awakening - if you give them up from being kept secret, private, by yourself.
Awareness - knowing Itself - is so one with all that you are as to be completely outside any range of focus that the mind in limitation can encompass. Yet its effects are everywhere to be seen and in their acknowledgement, recognition, and acceptance are you found Home, Recognised, Acknowledged, Welcome.
This all can sound too holy, too spiritual, too 'not like it looks like from here' - so I finish with a reminder not to take ourselves too seriously - to laugh and allow fun - to be out from definitions without making 'new rules' for freedom! And all things shall be added you.
2008/11/20
Cataclysm, prophecies and signs of doom at the end of days
The more the world appears to ‘fall apart’ the more I am called to rest in peace ; to open my heart to the flowing moment in trust and make my home in its presence.
This does of course embrace the world – but not as it is portrayed by the mind of the separated self sense – but as the movement of the fulfilment of God.
This I would learn to discern and accept as the Abundance of Truth – in which all the qualities of Truth are beheld in gratitude, glory, wonder and delight, recognition and awe.
This may seem impossible to believe – yet I tell you the world you see is impossible. But the very light of awareness remains as it is – and not other than as it is – no matter what thoughts are engaged.
To look out and interpret anything from a separate self sense is an illusory insanity – no matter how many seem to share the will to do so.
That we have done this may be a habit hard to shed, but the value of a redeemed and restored heart and mind cannot be overstated – for by the use to which you accept for the gift of life, will you know Creation – as its Son or Daughter -or suffer your own illusion – as a mad and tormented secret thing.
Reality is altogether now. Time is altogether not here.
Holiness is altogether true. The mind of sin is not now.
As we sow – or give, so shall we receive – or reap.
This is true Now and need relate not at all to a past or future.
Herein lies the open secret of salvation.
All that you are receiving is the same measure and kind as what you choose to give.
It does not seem to be that you can choose because the past seems joined to the future.
But you are here, now with me and no matter how thoughts and feelings may swarm or charm or seem to harm – the power of decision is your own.
To look on stark insanity may be the recognition that you are looking in entirely the wrong direction. All things serve the mind that loves truth – and the truth in every mind is such a love.
Blow the embers of truth that it grows and glows.
In such a light will you see aright.
This does of course embrace the world – but not as it is portrayed by the mind of the separated self sense – but as the movement of the fulfilment of God.
This I would learn to discern and accept as the Abundance of Truth – in which all the qualities of Truth are beheld in gratitude, glory, wonder and delight, recognition and awe.
This may seem impossible to believe – yet I tell you the world you see is impossible. But the very light of awareness remains as it is – and not other than as it is – no matter what thoughts are engaged.
To look out and interpret anything from a separate self sense is an illusory insanity – no matter how many seem to share the will to do so.
That we have done this may be a habit hard to shed, but the value of a redeemed and restored heart and mind cannot be overstated – for by the use to which you accept for the gift of life, will you know Creation – as its Son or Daughter -or suffer your own illusion – as a mad and tormented secret thing.
Reality is altogether now. Time is altogether not here.
Holiness is altogether true. The mind of sin is not now.
As we sow – or give, so shall we receive – or reap.
This is true Now and need relate not at all to a past or future.
Herein lies the open secret of salvation.
All that you are receiving is the same measure and kind as what you choose to give.
It does not seem to be that you can choose because the past seems joined to the future.
But you are here, now with me and no matter how thoughts and feelings may swarm or charm or seem to harm – the power of decision is your own.
To look on stark insanity may be the recognition that you are looking in entirely the wrong direction. All things serve the mind that loves truth – and the truth in every mind is such a love.
Blow the embers of truth that it grows and glows.
In such a light will you see aright.
2008/11/19
Allowing the heart expression in the day at hand
How is it that I write and you read – and a gift is shared?
I can look into my own heart with regard to what is revealing itself to me.
Perhaps I should say ‘I can look into the heart’ because I speak not of the broken or wounded heart that seems to be within the human drama – but the heart that simply knows, sees, intuits or discerns – whenever we are still enough and curious enough to ask of it - and trust what is uncovered.
If I listen and discern in the heart instead of recycling old judgements and reactions - I find sense of something alive and feel a movement within.
It’s like - just noticing something – in a present sort of way - and acting unselfconsciously from a natural impulse that arises from within it.
Such impulses are opportunities for gladness and they also can be easily overlooked and become unnoticed and ‘unconscious’ while we are otherwise engaged in following what we think we should be doing according to some stratagem or other that became complicated instead of actually fulfilling us.
So in between thinking about anything I write - do also simply look into your own heart with regard to what is revealing itself to you!
in Love's blessing
Brian
I can look into my own heart with regard to what is revealing itself to me.
Perhaps I should say ‘I can look into the heart’ because I speak not of the broken or wounded heart that seems to be within the human drama – but the heart that simply knows, sees, intuits or discerns – whenever we are still enough and curious enough to ask of it - and trust what is uncovered.
If I listen and discern in the heart instead of recycling old judgements and reactions - I find sense of something alive and feel a movement within.
It’s like - just noticing something – in a present sort of way - and acting unselfconsciously from a natural impulse that arises from within it.
Such impulses are opportunities for gladness and they also can be easily overlooked and become unnoticed and ‘unconscious’ while we are otherwise engaged in following what we think we should be doing according to some stratagem or other that became complicated instead of actually fulfilling us.
So in between thinking about anything I write - do also simply look into your own heart with regard to what is revealing itself to you!
in Love's blessing
Brian
2008/11/18
Am I - or do I see others as awake or enlightened?
Personally I find that person based statements miss the mark.
The idea of separate persons as awake is not how I would refer to Awakened Perspective.
To person based thought there is presumed something to ‘get’ or understand’ or ‘attain’ that differentiates asleep with awake.
But it is the person based thought that is subscribed to and invested in, that hides the wonder and the truth of You from your awareness via person based existence.
Jesus became a human conduit or transparency of communication and the communion of Divine love. He ‘saw the Holy Spirit in all whom he met’.
Person based thought inevitably ‘made him a special Person’ because to accept the Divine Expression as Truth ... is to release the world as a thing apart from God and ourselves apart from God. God is the only Life. Any other is imagination.
The western notions of God are also tending to be person based – often portraying a Cosmic Ego.
Our thinking minds are literally substituting for the direct appreciation of Reality and the inferred ‘thinker’ is imaged by such thoughts and ‘protected’ from thoughts that are believed to be in conflict with ‘me’.
Yet such preoccupation with 'me and mine' is at the cost of awareness and appreciation of the Living Moment.
I sometimes call it masked reality; Reality seen as it is not.
In any instant where one neglects or forgets to assert the mentality of the ‘me and mine’ there is some sense of simply being. This can be experienced in any kind of activity as being of a different order of consciousness, essentially of being held, lived, transported, perfectly coordinated, spoken or written or acting in a manner beyond one’s own historical capacity.
It may be instants or it may be for periods of time or become the normal state – but it is not really that someone has become awake – but that they have become unobstructed to that which is awake.
There is said to be a no return condition where the option to be obstructed is no longer available. Such a one could be called awake permanently – but is this a person who is awake so much as an Individuality who has realized its own Mind is not in any way limited or limitable.
Such realisation comes only to the perfectly trusting – and therefore free of any trace of guilt or judgement. Yet this Mind is Already Yours!
Those who allow the truth to give through them, have. To these will be added; ie: We grow in our willingness and acceptance.
To those who deny the gift in guilt and wilful miscreation, will be taken away even the little they have. Not because illusion is taken away – but because it is a little seeming that cannot abide and does not bear creative fruit.
Individuality is of God and that which is our Individuality is of the same. Yet the person is as a mask layer which must be translated. A bit like a thick black outline of enclosure and differentiation becoming lighter, more diffuse and evaporating – as our experience is one of widening circle of identity and participation in life lived. (Which is fact lived through us).
I offer this in simple sharing of what is helpful to my own ‘being with’.
And am grateful to have read it!
in Gratitude
Brian
The idea of separate persons as awake is not how I would refer to Awakened Perspective.
To person based thought there is presumed something to ‘get’ or understand’ or ‘attain’ that differentiates asleep with awake.
But it is the person based thought that is subscribed to and invested in, that hides the wonder and the truth of You from your awareness via person based existence.
Jesus became a human conduit or transparency of communication and the communion of Divine love. He ‘saw the Holy Spirit in all whom he met’.
Person based thought inevitably ‘made him a special Person’ because to accept the Divine Expression as Truth ... is to release the world as a thing apart from God and ourselves apart from God. God is the only Life. Any other is imagination.
The western notions of God are also tending to be person based – often portraying a Cosmic Ego.
Our thinking minds are literally substituting for the direct appreciation of Reality and the inferred ‘thinker’ is imaged by such thoughts and ‘protected’ from thoughts that are believed to be in conflict with ‘me’.
Yet such preoccupation with 'me and mine' is at the cost of awareness and appreciation of the Living Moment.
I sometimes call it masked reality; Reality seen as it is not.
In any instant where one neglects or forgets to assert the mentality of the ‘me and mine’ there is some sense of simply being. This can be experienced in any kind of activity as being of a different order of consciousness, essentially of being held, lived, transported, perfectly coordinated, spoken or written or acting in a manner beyond one’s own historical capacity.
It may be instants or it may be for periods of time or become the normal state – but it is not really that someone has become awake – but that they have become unobstructed to that which is awake.
There is said to be a no return condition where the option to be obstructed is no longer available. Such a one could be called awake permanently – but is this a person who is awake so much as an Individuality who has realized its own Mind is not in any way limited or limitable.
Such realisation comes only to the perfectly trusting – and therefore free of any trace of guilt or judgement. Yet this Mind is Already Yours!
Those who allow the truth to give through them, have. To these will be added; ie: We grow in our willingness and acceptance.
To those who deny the gift in guilt and wilful miscreation, will be taken away even the little they have. Not because illusion is taken away – but because it is a little seeming that cannot abide and does not bear creative fruit.
Individuality is of God and that which is our Individuality is of the same. Yet the person is as a mask layer which must be translated. A bit like a thick black outline of enclosure and differentiation becoming lighter, more diffuse and evaporating – as our experience is one of widening circle of identity and participation in life lived. (Which is fact lived through us).
I offer this in simple sharing of what is helpful to my own ‘being with’.
And am grateful to have read it!
in Gratitude
Brian
Undoing guilt by choosing from peace
When we notice that our spirits are about to dip or diminish because of something that we are about to do or that is happening or seemingly done to us ... pause ...
Guilt is only unconscious insofar as our mind is so quick in its programmed reaction – and that it was set up as a defence and is ‘hidden’ by clever means not unlike magicians who distract attention while doing something out of ‘sight’ but in front of our noses.
By pausing within what might otherwise be - a done deal – I allow an opportunity to notice and consider from a place of my (and therefore everyone’s) innate worth for love and peace in practical terms.
Joy is not too difficult to allow in all sorts of moments and situations – and from the appreciation of joy one can easily start to immediately recognise when it is undermined or lost.
Though there are things that seem to justify loss of joy – I hold that it is an act in my own heart and mind by which it collapses and I densify into the ‘necessities’ of whatever seems to call for sacrifice.
Until we awaken we are as slaves to fear in ways that we may or may not recognise. It is difficult to allow this into awareness without self judgements – but that is what is needed. To be able to just notice – in the act – what it is we are doing – and within that noticing – will grow guiltless awareness – from which you will clearly see a choice – when you see clearly.
In family disputes we can lose it and say and act in ways that hurt - and then catch ourselves and say truly that we do not mean hurt – and repent of it and resolve to choose better next time. Well sometimes it takes a concerted and consistent willingness held over many occasions to bring that resolve to bear fruit in the manner that one envisions – because every time our buttons are pushed we react before we realize that we are acting out of a history tape.
So don't worry if it seems to take lather rinse and repeat – just remember in your heart that you desire to learn of peace, how to accept it and be guided within its ways. Such a desire will not be long unfulfilled in answer – even if the answer is a step along the way where you realise what is also desired is countering the desire for peace.
The thing is to keep it moving – which is to say to not judge and get stuck in conclusions.
These are my words offered - but of course use your own understandings!
In Peace
Brian
Guilt is only unconscious insofar as our mind is so quick in its programmed reaction – and that it was set up as a defence and is ‘hidden’ by clever means not unlike magicians who distract attention while doing something out of ‘sight’ but in front of our noses.
By pausing within what might otherwise be - a done deal – I allow an opportunity to notice and consider from a place of my (and therefore everyone’s) innate worth for love and peace in practical terms.
Joy is not too difficult to allow in all sorts of moments and situations – and from the appreciation of joy one can easily start to immediately recognise when it is undermined or lost.
Though there are things that seem to justify loss of joy – I hold that it is an act in my own heart and mind by which it collapses and I densify into the ‘necessities’ of whatever seems to call for sacrifice.
Until we awaken we are as slaves to fear in ways that we may or may not recognise. It is difficult to allow this into awareness without self judgements – but that is what is needed. To be able to just notice – in the act – what it is we are doing – and within that noticing – will grow guiltless awareness – from which you will clearly see a choice – when you see clearly.
In family disputes we can lose it and say and act in ways that hurt - and then catch ourselves and say truly that we do not mean hurt – and repent of it and resolve to choose better next time. Well sometimes it takes a concerted and consistent willingness held over many occasions to bring that resolve to bear fruit in the manner that one envisions – because every time our buttons are pushed we react before we realize that we are acting out of a history tape.
So don't worry if it seems to take lather rinse and repeat – just remember in your heart that you desire to learn of peace, how to accept it and be guided within its ways. Such a desire will not be long unfulfilled in answer – even if the answer is a step along the way where you realise what is also desired is countering the desire for peace.
The thing is to keep it moving – which is to say to not judge and get stuck in conclusions.
These are my words offered - but of course use your own understandings!
In Peace
Brian
Simply leave a 'burning house' as you notice that there is suffering
"I will tell you how to consider any person you meet. Look on them as being like a man whose house has caught on fire. Would such a man cry, 'I'm not leaving until someone tells me why God made this happen.' No. He runs out of a burning house as fast as he can. The same is true of suffering. We must show people how to run away from it as fast as they can."This posting is not an explanation of the text above but is an offering that arose from a willingness to consider it, in response to an enquiry from one who asked - in terms that may share a living consideration in the heart.
~ Buddha: A Story of Enlightenment by Deepak Chopra.
The mind in ignorance is mesmerised by its own confusions such that there is an illusion of having a life of one’s own, being hopeful of gaining fulfilment in a world of impermanence in which all things are arising, change and pass.
But this is actually a state of needless – unnecessary - limitation and discomfort.
It is a state of suffering arising from the attachments and beliefs that are held in heart and mind.
And the means employed in ignorance to overcome, distract or alleviate suffering will tend to further enslave the mind we share to the false identification from which the suffering arises.
Therefore when you meet one who seems to be an ‘other’, be willing to see his limitation or suffering as one with your own and do not seek to merely join him in suffering by making him NOT a brother. For that is the collusion by which truth is denied.
But allow truth to resolve the suffering that is within your own thought immediately and show him that he is awake by being the witness to his peace through your own.
For truth is peace.
Do not indulge taking thought beyond the willingness to drop into truth – undefined - and allow expression of intelligence of free awareness as called forth by trust itself.
For by letting life use mind and body to a shared goal the root of the separation fallacy is undermined and the bright clarity of selfless love stands clear as that which is – as it is.
The burning house is an illusion of compelling danger from which the mind will hide if it does not first calm and look at its own construct. For only by seeing it as it is will it be obvious that there is no one in it. Such realisation expresses as selfless service, compassion for all life and joyous and serene demeanour – that spontaneously awakens others to remember their true nature and so cease feeding and following false desires in ignorance.
But the nature of the fire is fuelled by thinking and false desire – and in order to look upon them in clear perspective, one must first exit their claim upon you as you. In this sense LEAVE IMMEDIATELY.
Only valuing the discernment of the heart can alert to illusion such that you simply desist, drop, desert or deny it.
Not denying illusion as if it is a power to be feared and resisted – or a problem to solve or a phenomenon to be understood – but to give it no further attention whilst maintaining active desire that is in alignment with truth –as presently FELT, or realised. Desire to be only of truth and to see the expression of truth.
It is the release of error that allows truth to dawn.
As love of truth sees only truth.
There is nothing that can assail it.
The entry into awakening arises from the realisation that one is in the fire of suffering – and that – no matter how it is presented to oneself or others – it is suffering – and the nature or cause of that suffering is the result of identification and thus attachment, to desires that define and confine the heart to illusory denial and exile.
Until one can be a demonstration of freedom, one cannot be the presence that spontaneously invites self awareness and transcendence or realisation. The desire to show others the way must be the gratitude to others as the light of the way itself – or else it is a game played out within a house divided.
Compassion is an expression of one-mindedness.
You who are of truth, do not desire in truth to suffer.
In Peace
Brian
2008/11/11
Ego identity is a mind trap
Ego identity is a mind trap. In software terms it is called an infinite loop - and it runs mechanically on until a different desire (program) replaces it as the active creative intent. At this level there is the freedom of true desire or the unfreedom of false desire. This is not really a choice! - but from following the false desire we have created the illusion of choice - and while we believe in it - we must consistently choose with willingness for truth - or the program of self illusion runs on until the next window of opportunity that notices or is called awake.
I recall the mediation image of sitting as the witness watching the river of all that arises to awareness and the meditation is simply to allow observation of all that arises without push or pull.
The actual practice may tend to be that of identifying with thought processes and waking up to that attention has been completely preoccupied for a period of thoughts. But that is the re-wakening of present awareness where the practice simply resumes. Whatever arises - allow it to be. In this process insight arises and can be allowed in the same manner but if the observer and the observed cease to be experienced as separate states then it is like the one in the sidecar with a fake steering wheel is not here. What is - Speaks Itself and knows itself.
When we awaken we see that there was never a moment when we were absent. For absence of Is can not be.
The only reason this is not obvious is by virtue of preferring to think you are the thinker.
In identification with the objects of your thought, you engage your attention within your imagination presenting perceptions faithful to your investment.
But there is only empty forms here. Not a life at all but a dream of a life.
Yet every instant of Life is a noticing - an awakening - to a direct awareness that bleeds through from time to time because we are not capable of suppressing life totally for it is what we are. Inescapably.
But it is soon wrapped and filtered in the world terms such as to be absorbed as part of the dream which is seeking to protect itself in your name.
What the world calls love is designed to keep an underlying hate denied. Denial is an ability made by the ego - so we let it be re-purposed by Holy Spirit who can use it on behalf of our truth instead of against it.
We give as we receive. And we receive as we give.
Though this can be seen within time its potency is always addressing our present.
Without denial the mind would recycle insanity-nonsense forever.
Deny access to anything whose purpose and intent is the undermining of your peace in which you discern and feel and know the love that you are.
Or in A Course in Miracles terms: 'deny the denial of truth'.
This goes on very fruitfully with regard to denial and to anyone reading who is interested - it is taken from:
A Course in Miracles: Text: Chapter 12. The Holy Spirit's Curriculum. I. The Judgment of the Holy Spirit.
A Course in Miracles earliest editions are not copyrighted and can be read or downloaded freely online or bought from most bookstores.
One of many where it can be read online is http://courseinmiracles.com which I randomly googled as a convenience in case you want to follow from this page.
I recall the mediation image of sitting as the witness watching the river of all that arises to awareness and the meditation is simply to allow observation of all that arises without push or pull.
The actual practice may tend to be that of identifying with thought processes and waking up to that attention has been completely preoccupied for a period of thoughts. But that is the re-wakening of present awareness where the practice simply resumes. Whatever arises - allow it to be. In this process insight arises and can be allowed in the same manner but if the observer and the observed cease to be experienced as separate states then it is like the one in the sidecar with a fake steering wheel is not here. What is - Speaks Itself and knows itself.
When we awaken we see that there was never a moment when we were absent. For absence of Is can not be.
The only reason this is not obvious is by virtue of preferring to think you are the thinker.
In identification with the objects of your thought, you engage your attention within your imagination presenting perceptions faithful to your investment.
But there is only empty forms here. Not a life at all but a dream of a life.
Yet every instant of Life is a noticing - an awakening - to a direct awareness that bleeds through from time to time because we are not capable of suppressing life totally for it is what we are. Inescapably.
But it is soon wrapped and filtered in the world terms such as to be absorbed as part of the dream which is seeking to protect itself in your name.
What the world calls love is designed to keep an underlying hate denied. Denial is an ability made by the ego - so we let it be re-purposed by Holy Spirit who can use it on behalf of our truth instead of against it.
We give as we receive. And we receive as we give.
Though this can be seen within time its potency is always addressing our present.
Without denial the mind would recycle insanity-nonsense forever.
Deny access to anything whose purpose and intent is the undermining of your peace in which you discern and feel and know the love that you are.
Or in A Course in Miracles terms: 'deny the denial of truth'.
The Way to Remember God
Miracles are merely the translation of denial into truth.
If to love oneself is to heal oneself, those who are sick do not love themselves.
Therefore, they are asking for the love that would heal them, but which they are denying to themselves.
If they knew the truth about themselves they could not be sick.
The task of the miracle worker thus becomes to deny the denial of truth.
The sick must heal themselves, for the truth is in them.
Yet having obscured it, the light in another mind must shine into theirs because that light is theirs.
This goes on very fruitfully with regard to denial and to anyone reading who is interested - it is taken from:
A Course in Miracles: Text: Chapter 12. The Holy Spirit's Curriculum. I. The Judgment of the Holy Spirit.
A Course in Miracles earliest editions are not copyrighted and can be read or downloaded freely online or bought from most bookstores.
One of many where it can be read online is http://courseinmiracles.com which I randomly googled as a convenience in case you want to follow from this page.
Entranced in limited separate experience
The ego or false sense of self is the act of suppression, distortion or denial of truth.
That is its job description expressed in reverse terms to its maker.
Who is its maker?
Its maker is the thought of a wish - to assert illusion as truth - that you are attending to.
What thought?
The thought is a ‘what if? thought that is taken to “what would it be like to experience the ‘what if’ - as if it were real”, which then leads to "I wish to experience this".
Wish for what? Experience of what?
The thought of "what if truth is other than as it is". "What would it be like"
We are free to use our mind to have experience of limitation while the wish for it is enacted. Because this can be asked for and received as asked.
But once we engage and believe the experience - we immediately forget who we Are and do not recognise that we can accept this gift of experience we chose, as completed, and move on with the living desire that is in our heart now.
Why do we not recognise?
Because we experience limitation as separation and as if it is being done to us in return for what we believe we have just done.
What do we believe we have just done?
Our experience is one of loss of wholeness, loss of light, conflictedness of thought and desire, doubt of existence itself. It came as a direct result of the activity in our mind. It may not immediately have hit guilt and fear - but assertion of will always meets opposition. The use of raw unbridled assertion of will is blind and self attacking - but we experience ourselves as attacked and justifiably aggrieved.
Why don't we release it and allow truth to restore us?
We know we have willed differently and we treasure its experience in which we can assert and explore our seeming power and do not want to release it - but rather would use it to overcome the chaos that we suffer. This entrenches our enslaved identification further as we develop abilities to overcome or manage obstacles by further assertions of will and imaginative ingenuity. We become proud and think we have made a self in a hostile world that has limited power to tame it and live in it. But any peace is short lived and all defences have to be constantly maintained. The whole thing is an insanity of necessity amidst confusion and suffering. And we are afraid.
Why doesn't our Wholeness recall us to True Reason and Sanity?
The heart's knowing is and does call you and uses all you believe to show you that you are not as you think and reality is not as you perceive. It is ever active in gently loosening and undoing the blocks that you erected to defend against undoing of your own judgement. But can only work with your freely given willingness.
Direct awareness is denied attention from fear of loss and retribution - or it is denied from rage of abandonment. For the Truth does not and cannot play this game and sees it not.
The god that the ego makes is in its own image - so it is believed a separate Power to be placated. The belief in external reality takes the mind to believe that it is almost powerless. Yet seeking to harness and exploit all perceived powers to its own intent. But it is a process of depletion and for all the ingenuity applied - it runs out of capacity to function because there is a limit to the pain and suffering and meaninglessness that will be endured at which the ego stops and you ask in the heart "There must be a better way". The listening for the answer is the willingness to receive.
That is its job description expressed in reverse terms to its maker.
Who is its maker?
Its maker is the thought of a wish - to assert illusion as truth - that you are attending to.
What thought?
The thought is a ‘what if? thought that is taken to “what would it be like to experience the ‘what if’ - as if it were real”, which then leads to "I wish to experience this".
Wish for what? Experience of what?
The thought of "what if truth is other than as it is". "What would it be like"
We are free to use our mind to have experience of limitation while the wish for it is enacted. Because this can be asked for and received as asked.
But once we engage and believe the experience - we immediately forget who we Are and do not recognise that we can accept this gift of experience we chose, as completed, and move on with the living desire that is in our heart now.
Why do we not recognise?
Because we experience limitation as separation and as if it is being done to us in return for what we believe we have just done.
What do we believe we have just done?
Our experience is one of loss of wholeness, loss of light, conflictedness of thought and desire, doubt of existence itself. It came as a direct result of the activity in our mind. It may not immediately have hit guilt and fear - but assertion of will always meets opposition. The use of raw unbridled assertion of will is blind and self attacking - but we experience ourselves as attacked and justifiably aggrieved.
Why don't we release it and allow truth to restore us?
We know we have willed differently and we treasure its experience in which we can assert and explore our seeming power and do not want to release it - but rather would use it to overcome the chaos that we suffer. This entrenches our enslaved identification further as we develop abilities to overcome or manage obstacles by further assertions of will and imaginative ingenuity. We become proud and think we have made a self in a hostile world that has limited power to tame it and live in it. But any peace is short lived and all defences have to be constantly maintained. The whole thing is an insanity of necessity amidst confusion and suffering. And we are afraid.
Why doesn't our Wholeness recall us to True Reason and Sanity?
The heart's knowing is and does call you and uses all you believe to show you that you are not as you think and reality is not as you perceive. It is ever active in gently loosening and undoing the blocks that you erected to defend against undoing of your own judgement. But can only work with your freely given willingness.
Direct awareness is denied attention from fear of loss and retribution - or it is denied from rage of abandonment. For the Truth does not and cannot play this game and sees it not.
The god that the ego makes is in its own image - so it is believed a separate Power to be placated. The belief in external reality takes the mind to believe that it is almost powerless. Yet seeking to harness and exploit all perceived powers to its own intent. But it is a process of depletion and for all the ingenuity applied - it runs out of capacity to function because there is a limit to the pain and suffering and meaninglessness that will be endured at which the ego stops and you ask in the heart "There must be a better way". The listening for the answer is the willingness to receive.
2008/11/10
New Testament reveals your awakening - as you are willing to accept
What is it that makes your life Alive - and leads to a greater fuller appreciation and participation in life?
Joseph Campbell’s famously invited his students to 'follow your bliss'. This was meant profoundly in terms of a very soul sense of vocation or calling. Doing so might not fit into the structures of social expectations - but always expresses the passion and presence of being.
Joseph Campbell is known and valued for his work exploring myth, symbol and story as the evidence of a common spiritual intelligence and calling, in all of humanity, from its primitive beginnings through to the higher consciousness or transformative realisations of spiritual awakening.
I see this common spiritual intelligence as many in form and yet as one in spirit and I call it Holy Spirit - though It doesn't mind what terms or symbols are used to bring your attention present within.
The above is from a book that I have the highest regard for and have welcomed as an ongoing companion: 'The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament, A Course in Understanding and Acceptance'. (NTI in short - New Testament Interpretations), it was written by Regina Dawn Akers within a process of guided listening. This book is literally written from a place of open willingness in trust and its message speaks directly to the awakening in our minds - because that IS the true message of the New testament - as well as the ONLY function of the Holy Spirit. That is my witness - but don't take my word - or its message - as truth. Listen in your heart to discern whether your truth is speaking to you.
The approach of ‘Holy Spirit Interpretation’ is that of using the symbol and story in our mind to teach the mind what it is, and what you are not - for our own minds have become confused and act as if they are subjects to their own thinking. We have become those ‘who know not what they do’.
Do we not each tend to believe and experience ourselves as if we are in fact the central character in our own version of a script that we interpret and accord reality to?
We may not on surface think we are trying to think or make reality - and that we are just ‘being ourselves’ - but if being in silence brings restlessness, discomfort or agitation, it is a symptom of a running program of compulsive thinking that has as part of its purpose the function of covering over your truth with what you are thinking. It is as if our so called conscious mind is defended against what truth actually is - and what we actually are - in order to maintain a wish to act out and be in its own determination of truth.
One aspect of false ‘self’ is that it is a mask. A presentation that is designed to serve a purpose or desire in the one who adopts it.
As a masked presentation we may get satisfactions from maintaining and strengthening our mask - but these only serve to deepen our identifying with it as if it were our self.
But the only real fulfilment in life is felt in the heart of who we actually are - and can never be experienced or accepted in who we are trying to be - or indeed attempting to 'not be', in attempt to escape what we fear we are or judge against.
The masquerade is demonstrably a way that we can use our mind - but equally obvious is that it does not bring the experience of joy freely shared - for it engages in self limiting thought - so at some point it always inevitably runs out of juice. We might experience this as crisis of meaning or identity and, as a result, begin a process of reconnecting with our Original Mind or the True desire of the heart. And learning to live from a restored sense of Grounded life.
Unlike the complexity and self-identifications of our own thinking processes, movement of true desire, arises from our peace or wholeness of being - and though we may 'hear it' in terms of the content of our mind, it carries a tone and quality that transcends our our fragmented and dissociated sense of 'command and control' self - and restores a sense and awareness of communion, connection and purpose arising from the heart itself.
In terms of the human world-mind, following our calling will shine a light and will also be the path that we accept in which light is seen - where darkness seemed to be.
‘Light’ here is used for inspiration, joy, truth, passion and presence.
‘Darkness’ is used here to represent ignorance, belief in guilt or unworthiness, fear, conflict and facade.
Here is a snip in from NTI (New Testament Interpretations - NTI for short). It arose from searching within it for the text 'true desire' and choosing the first findings that offered a sketch of the book’s message. It is - as I say direct and to the point - but never coercive. It is in your own heart that you discern and accept truth. This is your freedom and it that is itself true.
from "The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament" 2 Corinthians, Chapter 4. (See Footnote below)
The New Testament itself is rich in inspiration but also controversial and often confusing because it is interpreted by minds that are not free of guilt and fear. Holy Spirit is free of guilt and fear and can translate and interpret the mind by which we believe them so as to release or undo the false mind that arose from making judgement.
The term 'Holy Spirit' points to the living Voice for God - or Living Truth - for even as the human mind seemed to separate in the ‘fall’ from Eden, our truth remains that part of our mind which never left nor can leave its Source. And to the mind experiencing separation, serves the function of guide and awakener to restore your self to You.
It is this Voice and Mind that Jesus felt, heard, discerned and gave witness to - and became one with - and called (down) to our attention. It is not an external 'Authority' that can be used in the world for manipulation - but is the Guide within that - according to your willingness - reveals your true desire to you. It is holy because it is altogether present and without guilt and is spirit because what is, IS - beyond belief or concept - but is known by its effect or fruit in our heart and in our lives.
Desire is the creative force. What you hold in your heart will call forth and govern all that comes from it. But to release the heart of your demands and listen for the movement or prayer that is already there is to awaken to the life that is. Waking up is not something that the ego mentality does - it is the dawning in the mind that the ego mentality is an ego mentality - and nothing need be done to it or with it. It is put behind and released regardless of its recurrence as a habit.
The voice for ego is legion - yet it is all one illusion. It is that which hides love from you and hides you from love. The most significant thing that can be said is that when you look upon it - you clearly will see that you do not want it or what it offers. It is this that withdraws its only support.
Yet it will attempt to use your mind to convince you not to look on it, and it is bringing and maintaining willingness to persist in asking the heart amidst temptation to fear, doubt or judge against yourself or another in your stead.
From 'The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament',
(NTI) 1 Corinthians Ch 8
I trust my enthusiasm has not made my invitation in any way an attempt to persuade.
That is not my desire!
In Peace
Brian
Footnote: Two chapters of the book - Mathew and Acts are freely downloadable from the web address below and there are online resources where much more can be read and discussed if interested.
In the first instance I felt to just bring it to attention and sense that some of you will be glad to find it.
"The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament"
Copyright © 2008 by The Foundation for the Holy Spirit, Inc.
http://www.forholyspirit.org
Regina's Website:
www.reginadawnakers.com
NTI study group:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/NTIStudyGroup/
NTI discussion group:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/NTIDiscussionGroup/
My review of NTI - at the publishers site
http://tinyurl.com/3olyvw
Joseph Campbell’s famously invited his students to 'follow your bliss'. This was meant profoundly in terms of a very soul sense of vocation or calling. Doing so might not fit into the structures of social expectations - but always expresses the passion and presence of being.
Joseph Campbell is known and valued for his work exploring myth, symbol and story as the evidence of a common spiritual intelligence and calling, in all of humanity, from its primitive beginnings through to the higher consciousness or transformative realisations of spiritual awakening.
I see this common spiritual intelligence as many in form and yet as one in spirit and I call it Holy Spirit - though It doesn't mind what terms or symbols are used to bring your attention present within.
Know that the Holy Spirit is yours and is you, and so it is within you. It is your own guide that leads you from the prison you have made to the freedom that you are. Seek no place else, except within. Seek within your own Heart for that which you want, and ask it to lead you to your place of freedom. Then go with it as it asks, doing as it commands, seeking not for another way to be free. For it is your Holy Spirit that remembers freedom for you, and so it is your Holy Spirit that will lead you to return to it there.~ NTI Acts, Chapter 12 1. (See footnote below)
The above is from a book that I have the highest regard for and have welcomed as an ongoing companion: 'The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament, A Course in Understanding and Acceptance'. (NTI in short - New Testament Interpretations), it was written by Regina Dawn Akers within a process of guided listening. This book is literally written from a place of open willingness in trust and its message speaks directly to the awakening in our minds - because that IS the true message of the New testament - as well as the ONLY function of the Holy Spirit. That is my witness - but don't take my word - or its message - as truth. Listen in your heart to discern whether your truth is speaking to you.
The approach of ‘Holy Spirit Interpretation’ is that of using the symbol and story in our mind to teach the mind what it is, and what you are not - for our own minds have become confused and act as if they are subjects to their own thinking. We have become those ‘who know not what they do’.
Do we not each tend to believe and experience ourselves as if we are in fact the central character in our own version of a script that we interpret and accord reality to?
We may not on surface think we are trying to think or make reality - and that we are just ‘being ourselves’ - but if being in silence brings restlessness, discomfort or agitation, it is a symptom of a running program of compulsive thinking that has as part of its purpose the function of covering over your truth with what you are thinking. It is as if our so called conscious mind is defended against what truth actually is - and what we actually are - in order to maintain a wish to act out and be in its own determination of truth.
One aspect of false ‘self’ is that it is a mask. A presentation that is designed to serve a purpose or desire in the one who adopts it.
As a masked presentation we may get satisfactions from maintaining and strengthening our mask - but these only serve to deepen our identifying with it as if it were our self.
But the only real fulfilment in life is felt in the heart of who we actually are - and can never be experienced or accepted in who we are trying to be - or indeed attempting to 'not be', in attempt to escape what we fear we are or judge against.
The masquerade is demonstrably a way that we can use our mind - but equally obvious is that it does not bring the experience of joy freely shared - for it engages in self limiting thought - so at some point it always inevitably runs out of juice. We might experience this as crisis of meaning or identity and, as a result, begin a process of reconnecting with our Original Mind or the True desire of the heart. And learning to live from a restored sense of Grounded life.
Unlike the complexity and self-identifications of our own thinking processes, movement of true desire, arises from our peace or wholeness of being - and though we may 'hear it' in terms of the content of our mind, it carries a tone and quality that transcends our our fragmented and dissociated sense of 'command and control' self - and restores a sense and awareness of communion, connection and purpose arising from the heart itself.
In terms of the human world-mind, following our calling will shine a light and will also be the path that we accept in which light is seen - where darkness seemed to be.
‘Light’ here is used for inspiration, joy, truth, passion and presence.
‘Darkness’ is used here to represent ignorance, belief in guilt or unworthiness, fear, conflict and facade.
Here is a snip in from NTI (New Testament Interpretations - NTI for short). It arose from searching within it for the text 'true desire' and choosing the first findings that offered a sketch of the book’s message. It is - as I say direct and to the point - but never coercive. It is in your own heart that you discern and accept truth. This is your freedom and it that is itself true.
"This is how death and resurrection are to be acted out through you:
Truth cannot die, so Truth need not be resurrected. Truth simply Is, and it always Is without beginning and without end.
What is it, then, that must die? What is there to be resurrected?
Your belief in illusions must die so that your awareness of what Is may be resurrected through you. (v. 7 – 12).
Your belief is expressed through thought. Above all else, watch your thoughts. What are you allowing your thoughts to think? Are you thinking of the illusion of the world as if it is real? If so, you are expressing your desire to accept the veil of darkness. Is this your true desire? If not, why do you permit yourself to express it through the activity of your thoughts?
Watch your thoughts. Ask them to express your true desire. Your thoughts must do as you ask, because you are the thinker of your thoughts. Let them express your true desire, and if they do not, let them go. (v. 13 – 15).
Fix your eyes and your thoughts on the true desire of your heart, not because it is your hope for the future, but because it is your reality now. You are what your heart tells you you are. You do not see it, because you do not focus yourself there.
Focus on the world, and you will believe the world. Believe the world, and you choose to keep the veil, which hides your truth.
Focus on your heart in all of your thoughts, and you choose not to choose the veil. You choose that the veil may be lifted, so you may see your truth and your brother’s truth, and to know in the joy of your heart that it is true". (v. 16 – 18).
from "The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament" 2 Corinthians, Chapter 4. (See Footnote below)
The New Testament itself is rich in inspiration but also controversial and often confusing because it is interpreted by minds that are not free of guilt and fear. Holy Spirit is free of guilt and fear and can translate and interpret the mind by which we believe them so as to release or undo the false mind that arose from making judgement.
The term 'Holy Spirit' points to the living Voice for God - or Living Truth - for even as the human mind seemed to separate in the ‘fall’ from Eden, our truth remains that part of our mind which never left nor can leave its Source. And to the mind experiencing separation, serves the function of guide and awakener to restore your self to You.
It is this Voice and Mind that Jesus felt, heard, discerned and gave witness to - and became one with - and called (down) to our attention. It is not an external 'Authority' that can be used in the world for manipulation - but is the Guide within that - according to your willingness - reveals your true desire to you. It is holy because it is altogether present and without guilt and is spirit because what is, IS - beyond belief or concept - but is known by its effect or fruit in our heart and in our lives.
Desire is the creative force. What you hold in your heart will call forth and govern all that comes from it. But to release the heart of your demands and listen for the movement or prayer that is already there is to awaken to the life that is. Waking up is not something that the ego mentality does - it is the dawning in the mind that the ego mentality is an ego mentality - and nothing need be done to it or with it. It is put behind and released regardless of its recurrence as a habit.
The voice for ego is legion - yet it is all one illusion. It is that which hides love from you and hides you from love. The most significant thing that can be said is that when you look upon it - you clearly will see that you do not want it or what it offers. It is this that withdraws its only support.
Yet it will attempt to use your mind to convince you not to look on it, and it is bringing and maintaining willingness to persist in asking the heart amidst temptation to fear, doubt or judge against yourself or another in your stead.
"When you do not seem to know how to become an empty shell, it is because you are focusing on your head, or better-said, on your thinking mind. Your thinking mind will not teach you how to not think. Your thinking mind is interested in its own survival, so it will take the time you give it to think some more.
When you notice your mind is full, and you want to become as an empty shell, you must refocus your mind from your head to your heart. Your heart will teach your mind the way of release, because your heart is love. (v.s 1- 3)..
Your heart, being of love, knows one purpose, and that is love. Your head, being of thinking, knows many purposes, because that is thinking. Let go of the confusion of the head, and focus yourself on the purpose of the heart. Focusing on one purpose leads you clearly in one direction, but focusing on many purposes does not lead you at all".
From 'The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament',
(NTI) 1 Corinthians Ch 8
I trust my enthusiasm has not made my invitation in any way an attempt to persuade.
That is not my desire!
In Peace
Brian
Footnote: Two chapters of the book - Mathew and Acts are freely downloadable from the web address below and there are online resources where much more can be read and discussed if interested.
In the first instance I felt to just bring it to attention and sense that some of you will be glad to find it.
"The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament"
Copyright © 2008 by The Foundation for the Holy Spirit, Inc.
http://www.forholyspirit.org
Regina's Website:
www.reginadawnakers.com
NTI study group:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/NTIStudyGroup/
NTI discussion group:
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/NTIDiscussionGroup/
My review of NTI - at the publishers site
http://tinyurl.com/3olyvw
2008/11/05
Allowing the mind to Rest
Do you know that dormitory or sleepover thing - where we are all not being able to get to rest and let sleep come?
"Ok - no more talking"
"OK - from now on"
"Thats it then"
"Shhs!"
"Quiet"
"You spoke!"
"Only cos you did first"
"I thought we decided to go to sleep now!"
"Oo bossy!"
"takes one to know one"
"clever clogs!"
(pillow flies across room)
That sort of dynamic reminds of the mind that wont settle.
I have felt it like a feather that almost lands but a sudden updraft spirals it again.
Something in the mind that just wont let go of one more thing...
It is not easy to play repartee alone - so the more who rest regardless of apparent stimuli - the louder and clearer is the invitation to rest.
The world does not look like it will cease to be a stimuli for reaction anytime soon - so that suggests nipping reaction in the bud and depriving it the first blow. This is easier than turning the other cheek - which can be a profound demonstration of defenceless acceptance without judgement.
The first blow must - to be a blow - find a target.
Yet that can not be the truth of what I am.
So if I feel upset or interrupted of my peace,
I must be wanting something that deprives me of resting in the Truth.
In seeing that what I do want is to rest in truth I also see that I am not under threat - and nor have I an investment that needs to be defended.
What of the apparent behaviours?
They cease to be seen from a me position and can be addressed - if they need any overt response - in whatever way fits the capacity for communication in that moment.
What of 'irksome people'?
They never left the mind that created them! - but become a source of gratitude to Holy Spirit for raising awareness to regain its remembrance as awareness.
Do I get annoyed?
Well I sure have and still can - but it has become so clear to me that this is a perpetuation of pain and futility made dense - when I know I love joy and freedom are Who I Really Am - that I don't allow it anymore.
The Who I Really Am is enough of what I identify - that I do not find the resources to engage and maintain and fight - for anything.
Yet amidst such incapacity for conflicted being - a moment of sharing truth can occur that draws Whole and Present engagement and response. So I am All here - but conflict - as something I can believe - is increasingly Not Here.
In its place is a game the mind plays.
I guess if it was juicy for me I would still 'go for it!'
But without that carrot is the present expanding and casting off its fetters.
And the desires that arise in and of this presence carry all the power and strength for their fulfilment within themselves and have not enemy or obstacle in truth - as the step is taken.
brian in a moment
"Ok - no more talking"
"OK - from now on"
"Thats it then"
"Shhs!"
"Quiet"
"You spoke!"
"Only cos you did first"
"I thought we decided to go to sleep now!"
"Oo bossy!"
"takes one to know one"
"clever clogs!"
(pillow flies across room)
That sort of dynamic reminds of the mind that wont settle.
I have felt it like a feather that almost lands but a sudden updraft spirals it again.
Something in the mind that just wont let go of one more thing...
It is not easy to play repartee alone - so the more who rest regardless of apparent stimuli - the louder and clearer is the invitation to rest.
The world does not look like it will cease to be a stimuli for reaction anytime soon - so that suggests nipping reaction in the bud and depriving it the first blow. This is easier than turning the other cheek - which can be a profound demonstration of defenceless acceptance without judgement.
The first blow must - to be a blow - find a target.
Yet that can not be the truth of what I am.
So if I feel upset or interrupted of my peace,
I must be wanting something that deprives me of resting in the Truth.
In seeing that what I do want is to rest in truth I also see that I am not under threat - and nor have I an investment that needs to be defended.
What of the apparent behaviours?
They cease to be seen from a me position and can be addressed - if they need any overt response - in whatever way fits the capacity for communication in that moment.
What of 'irksome people'?
They never left the mind that created them! - but become a source of gratitude to Holy Spirit for raising awareness to regain its remembrance as awareness.
Do I get annoyed?
Well I sure have and still can - but it has become so clear to me that this is a perpetuation of pain and futility made dense - when I know I love joy and freedom are Who I Really Am - that I don't allow it anymore.
The Who I Really Am is enough of what I identify - that I do not find the resources to engage and maintain and fight - for anything.
Yet amidst such incapacity for conflicted being - a moment of sharing truth can occur that draws Whole and Present engagement and response. So I am All here - but conflict - as something I can believe - is increasingly Not Here.
In its place is a game the mind plays.
I guess if it was juicy for me I would still 'go for it!'
But without that carrot is the present expanding and casting off its fetters.
And the desires that arise in and of this presence carry all the power and strength for their fulfilment within themselves and have not enemy or obstacle in truth - as the step is taken.
brian in a moment
2008/11/04
“This is my Child – Who is my Joy Extending”
Jesus came to fulfil the law and yet transcend the law in love.
That is what came to my mind when I considered that, though the term ‘Holy Spirit’ may be particular to specific teachings, the living experience of this One is of Intimately recognised Friend who has never not been with us, within our thought and heart through all our days. But had not been discerned so directly, for the way had not then been made straight!
But as with the parable of the wheat and the tares, our experience of the world mixes and confuses the false with truths. For a time they grow together until at harvest they are sorted.
As the truth of our heart’s desire breaks through and is felt more clearly, so the desire of our truth becomes the seat of our identity and we find we will not tolerate loveless-ness as our truth - but that it is too alien and uncomfortable to make a home in – much less a fortress - even though our temporal experience may seem to proclaim it real.
“There must be a way – a better way – a way of Life not death - and I call for this out of a faith that I find in my heart of hearts”.
“I am the willingness to be the instrument of the Way of Life which I – of myself - do not and can not know – but will be shown me – as I ask – in love – of my Father.”
“This is my Child – Who is my Joy Extending”.
--
The devil or Satan was the symbol for which we now often use ego – and as the term 'ego' becomes associated in our minds with a power of guilt and fear, it too will become limited in its usefulness.
The tempter is that wish and its voice that sees all things in terms of ‘me, myself and mine’ and will use the teaching even as it already uses the Kingdom of Heaven – as a basis for substitution for establishing its own self illusion.
Picking out truths and presenting them so as to get a sense of position, wealth or power – yet the final temptation of Jesus in the desert reveals its bottom line – ‘Worship me and take dominion of all things’.
This is the ego’s promise and we who listen still are yet deceived that we are in control and that we can get the good - or get out from the bad - by our own power – not realising that this act is the loss of awareness of true Power in which the Good is guaranteed and the evil is - not here.
But must I turn from the voice of division and put it behind me or I choose to be deceived.
In The Urantia Book – or was it one of the other Gospels? – Jesus had begun teaching, and doing the works of love and yet become sore in his heart that none were actually thirsty for Truth and this led him to go out into the wilderness and confront and reject the false or self will, inevitably associated with the disappointments that stem from asserting “I want it thus!”.
Somewhere in A Course in Miracles, Jesus likens ego-perception itself as a temper tantrum (an tempter trauma) that expresses “I want it thus!”.
To begin to discern that such a voice has us by the ear is to begin to release it - and let the Light correct our misperceptions of all things.
- - -
This posting arose out of a shared study of the Bible and of the Holy Spirit Interpretations given in NTI.
This is sharing the journey in a like manner to how the NTI came to be.
I am enjoying reading a passage a day and walking with others who are doing the same.
The reading schedule is only 4 days in and can be gotten here as a pdf or as a word document inside the yahoo group.
The 1st Book of NTI Matthew is freely available Here as a pdf.
And we are discussing it Here .
in Love's blessing
Brian
That is what came to my mind when I considered that, though the term ‘Holy Spirit’ may be particular to specific teachings, the living experience of this One is of Intimately recognised Friend who has never not been with us, within our thought and heart through all our days. But had not been discerned so directly, for the way had not then been made straight!
But as with the parable of the wheat and the tares, our experience of the world mixes and confuses the false with truths. For a time they grow together until at harvest they are sorted.
As the truth of our heart’s desire breaks through and is felt more clearly, so the desire of our truth becomes the seat of our identity and we find we will not tolerate loveless-ness as our truth - but that it is too alien and uncomfortable to make a home in – much less a fortress - even though our temporal experience may seem to proclaim it real.
“There must be a way – a better way – a way of Life not death - and I call for this out of a faith that I find in my heart of hearts”.
“I am the willingness to be the instrument of the Way of Life which I – of myself - do not and can not know – but will be shown me – as I ask – in love – of my Father.”
“This is my Child – Who is my Joy Extending”.
--
The devil or Satan was the symbol for which we now often use ego – and as the term 'ego' becomes associated in our minds with a power of guilt and fear, it too will become limited in its usefulness.
The tempter is that wish and its voice that sees all things in terms of ‘me, myself and mine’ and will use the teaching even as it already uses the Kingdom of Heaven – as a basis for substitution for establishing its own self illusion.
Picking out truths and presenting them so as to get a sense of position, wealth or power – yet the final temptation of Jesus in the desert reveals its bottom line – ‘Worship me and take dominion of all things’.
This is the ego’s promise and we who listen still are yet deceived that we are in control and that we can get the good - or get out from the bad - by our own power – not realising that this act is the loss of awareness of true Power in which the Good is guaranteed and the evil is - not here.
But must I turn from the voice of division and put it behind me or I choose to be deceived.
In The Urantia Book – or was it one of the other Gospels? – Jesus had begun teaching, and doing the works of love and yet become sore in his heart that none were actually thirsty for Truth and this led him to go out into the wilderness and confront and reject the false or self will, inevitably associated with the disappointments that stem from asserting “I want it thus!”.
Somewhere in A Course in Miracles, Jesus likens ego-perception itself as a temper tantrum (an tempter trauma) that expresses “I want it thus!”.
To begin to discern that such a voice has us by the ear is to begin to release it - and let the Light correct our misperceptions of all things.
- - -
This posting arose out of a shared study of the Bible and of the Holy Spirit Interpretations given in NTI.
This is sharing the journey in a like manner to how the NTI came to be.
I am enjoying reading a passage a day and walking with others who are doing the same.
The reading schedule is only 4 days in and can be gotten here as a pdf or as a word document inside the yahoo group.
The 1st Book of NTI Matthew is freely available Here as a pdf.
And we are discussing it Here .
in Love's blessing
Brian
2008/06/12
Are we God's "virtual reality"?
This question was asked and instead of answering no - I felt to write whatever came up from pondering the question.
The life we think and believe we have is not LIFE.
The human reality lived through the mask is a counterfeit - reproduction - a virtual reality - something that appears to be a reality but isn't.
Our True Location is God; the Process in awareness of being - and this simply is.
The experience of a limited mind in a body in a physical world occurs within awareness.
Our experience in the world says our awareness is a freak or unknown phenomenon - or gift from a mysterious God - arising from a process of merely mechanical events that result in an embodied ‘survive and replicate’ mechanism that has self awareness - is conscious of its own existence. You know that you are.
But the voice for the world is the justification for and an expression of a masked mentality. It is the private mentality and assertion of will - that is the survive and replicate mechanism which the world reflects to any who engage it.
What we generally call thinking is like static - a constant commentary and distraction from that which is below the active focus of attention. The thought or belief that is held in the heart - whether it be held deeply in secret or pushed down in secret denial - is the filtering distortion that prevents acceptance of all that is - as it is.
It is not inflicted upon us by another nor is it something for which we can be held responsible as a sin - for it is simply the result of ignorance. But we are responsible for the use to which we use our minds and what we choose to focus our attention on we give priority and value to.
We are teacher and learner - but can only extend the thoughts of original mind or the thinking of private self interest - which is adept at masking itself as love, concern and well intentioned help.
The mind is never really set or stuck or fixed for there is nothing but its own thought in which to be limited by, and it is absurd to believe that a mind could actually be trapped in its own thought - for it can change its focus and release the thought at will. Freedom is the nature of original mind.
But mind can seem to be trapped - when it interprets all things according to its own judgements in contradiction to the nature and truth of what the mind actually is. And it can therefore have the experience of suffering any degree of good or evil in its own terms - but cannot make its interpretation real except to its own wish - for it is a fiction. You remain as you are created - not as a human being - but as a presence of awareness - an individuality.
Heaven, Creation, the Kingdom of Heaven, these are symbols for the absence of guilt, fear or lack and any of the mis-creations that proceed from them. It is not in the past but is eternally present as the Flow of being. All is as it Is and Intimately Knows All is as it is. This is as like a river that is the process of pure awareness - for it is universal and yet aware in every part. It is not static - yet is unchangeable. Its Movement is always Knowing itself in all that arises as its Thought. Its Expressions are its own extension but do not leave the mind or be different in their same creative freedom to extend awareness - except in one regard - that they do not create themselves but are created.
All Expression of God is the Son - the Effect that gives Fatherhood to God as Cause. This Singularity has no existence in temporal dualistic terms. It is not located in time or space or consciousness - but is the underlying Unified Field of which time space and consciousness are perceptual distortions appearing as distances between what remains indivisible.
Leaving Eden is an imaginary exile - but it’s motive force progressively continues in the same impulse or seed desire to dislocate until it becomes intolerable - when there is no place left to hide - or dislocate - into.
Indivisible Singularity has no opposite or conflictedness - it is unspeakable and can only be hinted at in “Is” or “I Am”. No one sees God and lives because only God knows God.
But to see or recognise the Son in another is to see the Father - for the Son is the Father’s Expression. The opening to guiltless vision is the Light in which One Self is intuited at the heart. There is one love that knows itself infinitely and intimately - and this is the very Ground of your being revealed in your willingness to release all judgement and allow the present to be wholly itself.
But this is the way of release from a compelling and fearful identification with uncreative thought. I will call it the wish to judge and determine from a private perspective. To make things in your own thought as you would have them be.
I have written extensively on this elsewhere so in brief - to engage in loveless intent has all the effects of attacking the mind and rendering it both victim and guilty, powerless and clinging to a wish for power, ignorant of Divine order and compelled to assert order upon itself and all things to protect itself from what it does not know. Yet it only knows its own grasped mind of getting and what it fears and does not recognize - is its Self.
For the Divine is veiled to the mind that looks through the lens or mask of judgement.
And the drama of conflicting powers amidst separated fragments of being seen as whole but separated beings and things is without any meaning or visibility to Infinite Love.
They are mutually exclusive - but The Divine dispels illusion entirely if they are brought together. Therefore the mind that seeks protection of its illusions will justify any means to hide from Truth by presenting a mask - an image of itself in story.
The mask has two faces - one is turned out to 'the world' as the image that is presented to oneself firstly, and to others secondly, in the attempt to validate it - to make it 'real'.
The other is that from which we (usually unknowingly) seek to hide from in terror and which impels us to make perpetual and ongoing presentation of defence to mitigates or limit the otherwise untenable dis-ease of conflicted heart and mind. This could be called unconscious guilt, hatred and fear. But it is never altogether hidden but that it leaks - for it is subverting and distorting all things until the heart awakens.
The imperative of a mind intent on maintaining separation is to make safe amidst believed guilt and fear by means of denial, hiding, distracting, pretending and wishing to believe anything whatsoever that serves its purpose of 'surviving'. It uses its past to interpret the present and does not connect directly - but always via its particular associations and desires.
The mask is a mind-lens or filter that disrupts Communion of Self in God while it is employed - and interprets all things in its own image for that is its intent. To make a 'self upon a world' that is itself made upon the denial of God.
Yet I is altogether lonely without God - regardless of anything the world can offer - it will not fulfil but only inflame or deaden if used as substitute for love. God is no consolatory belief but the awakened and connected heart and mind that knows love, peace, joy, gratitude, glory, wonder and awe - as the very life that is shared through me in order that by giving - I have.
Th refusal and release of the mask of judgement and control is the turnabout from self interest to enlightened self interest. Relationships become the means to give - and receive - instead of a means to get by force or by guile - or through mutual bargaining.
All things of the world take on a different purpose and perception as the mind is aligned with the heart.
Nothing needed to change but the source from which I chose to be guided.
The life we think and believe we have is not LIFE.
The human reality lived through the mask is a counterfeit - reproduction - a virtual reality - something that appears to be a reality but isn't.
Our True Location is God; the Process in awareness of being - and this simply is.
The experience of a limited mind in a body in a physical world occurs within awareness.
Our experience in the world says our awareness is a freak or unknown phenomenon - or gift from a mysterious God - arising from a process of merely mechanical events that result in an embodied ‘survive and replicate’ mechanism that has self awareness - is conscious of its own existence. You know that you are.
But the voice for the world is the justification for and an expression of a masked mentality. It is the private mentality and assertion of will - that is the survive and replicate mechanism which the world reflects to any who engage it.
What we generally call thinking is like static - a constant commentary and distraction from that which is below the active focus of attention. The thought or belief that is held in the heart - whether it be held deeply in secret or pushed down in secret denial - is the filtering distortion that prevents acceptance of all that is - as it is.
It is not inflicted upon us by another nor is it something for which we can be held responsible as a sin - for it is simply the result of ignorance. But we are responsible for the use to which we use our minds and what we choose to focus our attention on we give priority and value to.
We are teacher and learner - but can only extend the thoughts of original mind or the thinking of private self interest - which is adept at masking itself as love, concern and well intentioned help.
The mind is never really set or stuck or fixed for there is nothing but its own thought in which to be limited by, and it is absurd to believe that a mind could actually be trapped in its own thought - for it can change its focus and release the thought at will. Freedom is the nature of original mind.
But mind can seem to be trapped - when it interprets all things according to its own judgements in contradiction to the nature and truth of what the mind actually is. And it can therefore have the experience of suffering any degree of good or evil in its own terms - but cannot make its interpretation real except to its own wish - for it is a fiction. You remain as you are created - not as a human being - but as a presence of awareness - an individuality.
Heaven, Creation, the Kingdom of Heaven, these are symbols for the absence of guilt, fear or lack and any of the mis-creations that proceed from them. It is not in the past but is eternally present as the Flow of being. All is as it Is and Intimately Knows All is as it is. This is as like a river that is the process of pure awareness - for it is universal and yet aware in every part. It is not static - yet is unchangeable. Its Movement is always Knowing itself in all that arises as its Thought. Its Expressions are its own extension but do not leave the mind or be different in their same creative freedom to extend awareness - except in one regard - that they do not create themselves but are created.
All Expression of God is the Son - the Effect that gives Fatherhood to God as Cause. This Singularity has no existence in temporal dualistic terms. It is not located in time or space or consciousness - but is the underlying Unified Field of which time space and consciousness are perceptual distortions appearing as distances between what remains indivisible.
Leaving Eden is an imaginary exile - but it’s motive force progressively continues in the same impulse or seed desire to dislocate until it becomes intolerable - when there is no place left to hide - or dislocate - into.
Indivisible Singularity has no opposite or conflictedness - it is unspeakable and can only be hinted at in “Is” or “I Am”. No one sees God and lives because only God knows God.
But to see or recognise the Son in another is to see the Father - for the Son is the Father’s Expression. The opening to guiltless vision is the Light in which One Self is intuited at the heart. There is one love that knows itself infinitely and intimately - and this is the very Ground of your being revealed in your willingness to release all judgement and allow the present to be wholly itself.
But this is the way of release from a compelling and fearful identification with uncreative thought. I will call it the wish to judge and determine from a private perspective. To make things in your own thought as you would have them be.
I have written extensively on this elsewhere so in brief - to engage in loveless intent has all the effects of attacking the mind and rendering it both victim and guilty, powerless and clinging to a wish for power, ignorant of Divine order and compelled to assert order upon itself and all things to protect itself from what it does not know. Yet it only knows its own grasped mind of getting and what it fears and does not recognize - is its Self.
For the Divine is veiled to the mind that looks through the lens or mask of judgement.
And the drama of conflicting powers amidst separated fragments of being seen as whole but separated beings and things is without any meaning or visibility to Infinite Love.
They are mutually exclusive - but The Divine dispels illusion entirely if they are brought together. Therefore the mind that seeks protection of its illusions will justify any means to hide from Truth by presenting a mask - an image of itself in story.
The mask has two faces - one is turned out to 'the world' as the image that is presented to oneself firstly, and to others secondly, in the attempt to validate it - to make it 'real'.
The other is that from which we (usually unknowingly) seek to hide from in terror and which impels us to make perpetual and ongoing presentation of defence to mitigates or limit the otherwise untenable dis-ease of conflicted heart and mind. This could be called unconscious guilt, hatred and fear. But it is never altogether hidden but that it leaks - for it is subverting and distorting all things until the heart awakens.
The imperative of a mind intent on maintaining separation is to make safe amidst believed guilt and fear by means of denial, hiding, distracting, pretending and wishing to believe anything whatsoever that serves its purpose of 'surviving'. It uses its past to interpret the present and does not connect directly - but always via its particular associations and desires.
The mask is a mind-lens or filter that disrupts Communion of Self in God while it is employed - and interprets all things in its own image for that is its intent. To make a 'self upon a world' that is itself made upon the denial of God.
Yet I is altogether lonely without God - regardless of anything the world can offer - it will not fulfil but only inflame or deaden if used as substitute for love. God is no consolatory belief but the awakened and connected heart and mind that knows love, peace, joy, gratitude, glory, wonder and awe - as the very life that is shared through me in order that by giving - I have.
Th refusal and release of the mask of judgement and control is the turnabout from self interest to enlightened self interest. Relationships become the means to give - and receive - instead of a means to get by force or by guile - or through mutual bargaining.
All things of the world take on a different purpose and perception as the mind is aligned with the heart.
Nothing needed to change but the source from which I chose to be guided.
2008/05/29
As you sow so shall you reap
As you sow so shall you reap.
“You made your bed and now you have to lie in it!”
If we lie to make our bed, we will tend to believe that we are actually in it and then interpret all things as if our view were true. But we cannot be out of accord with our hearts without suffering discord. We may be ingenious in our ways to manage this - but lack of peace in the heart is simply the cost of being out of true.
Peace of heart is not a mere quiet - but is the capacity and presence to behold glory, the spontaneous rising joy in freedom, a countenance divine. This is life - and the wages of sin are death because this life remains unrecognised, unshared - though it is all around!
The idea of divine punishment is insane. It perpetuates insanity. God doesn't do it so it must be a twist of mirrors and shadows and smoke. To be out of accord with our own truth - our own essential nature - is uncomfortable. The Intelligence that is divine offers this warning so as if to say; “Stop trying to do what cannot work and return to your right mind”.
And if you return your mind to the heart and be rested you will find the discord is not here.
But in wilfulness we may persist in spite of warning and continue to engage in privately asserted agendas that express “I want it thus!”. And perceive the dissonant warning as an obstacle to be overcome, a threat, an enemy. And so we make war on life in order to get our way - and suffer our own attack. Yet though we diminsh and become worn down by travails we fight to retain the right we think is ours, to determine by our own judgement, what is good and what is evil - according to the particular goals we have set in our seriously imaginary experience. Imaginary - because it overlays the present with images of the past, and with anticipations of the future. Asserts reality itself to be disconnected bits that can be arranged to suit, and makes a story of itself that becomes more dear than life itself.
Sowing and reaping need to be brought present and then they do not need to relate to a future retribution or reward - but to the now.
As you are sowing so shall your harvest be known by you.
This is the heart of the Golden Rule - give as you would receive - for it expresses truth.
You set the measure and are measured therby. To give as God gives is to let no measure be set and to practice this is to teach as you would learn.
What I choose to learn and teach now sets the criteria by which all else will either be revealed in light or hidden in the dark. What do I want?
There are many who think they want to stay hid in the dark, but I trust they will change their mind as I allow my own to be changed - for we share one mind.
Giving is simply the unwithholding of the thought or life we receive. It comes to us eternally new and pure but we have mostly forgotten it in our mental shackled movie house.
The mind that makes cause and affect into a punishment is that which believes its own guilt and sees it everywhere. It is the mind that knows not what it does. It is your mind and yet by light you are and know and have your being. You have not left your Cause.
Remembrance is the Heart's sanity restored to the mind.
“You made your bed and now you have to lie in it!”
If we lie to make our bed, we will tend to believe that we are actually in it and then interpret all things as if our view were true. But we cannot be out of accord with our hearts without suffering discord. We may be ingenious in our ways to manage this - but lack of peace in the heart is simply the cost of being out of true.
Peace of heart is not a mere quiet - but is the capacity and presence to behold glory, the spontaneous rising joy in freedom, a countenance divine. This is life - and the wages of sin are death because this life remains unrecognised, unshared - though it is all around!
The idea of divine punishment is insane. It perpetuates insanity. God doesn't do it so it must be a twist of mirrors and shadows and smoke. To be out of accord with our own truth - our own essential nature - is uncomfortable. The Intelligence that is divine offers this warning so as if to say; “Stop trying to do what cannot work and return to your right mind”.
And if you return your mind to the heart and be rested you will find the discord is not here.
But in wilfulness we may persist in spite of warning and continue to engage in privately asserted agendas that express “I want it thus!”. And perceive the dissonant warning as an obstacle to be overcome, a threat, an enemy. And so we make war on life in order to get our way - and suffer our own attack. Yet though we diminsh and become worn down by travails we fight to retain the right we think is ours, to determine by our own judgement, what is good and what is evil - according to the particular goals we have set in our seriously imaginary experience. Imaginary - because it overlays the present with images of the past, and with anticipations of the future. Asserts reality itself to be disconnected bits that can be arranged to suit, and makes a story of itself that becomes more dear than life itself.
Sowing and reaping need to be brought present and then they do not need to relate to a future retribution or reward - but to the now.
As you are sowing so shall your harvest be known by you.
This is the heart of the Golden Rule - give as you would receive - for it expresses truth.
You set the measure and are measured therby. To give as God gives is to let no measure be set and to practice this is to teach as you would learn.
What I choose to learn and teach now sets the criteria by which all else will either be revealed in light or hidden in the dark. What do I want?
There are many who think they want to stay hid in the dark, but I trust they will change their mind as I allow my own to be changed - for we share one mind.
Giving is simply the unwithholding of the thought or life we receive. It comes to us eternally new and pure but we have mostly forgotten it in our mental shackled movie house.
The mind that makes cause and affect into a punishment is that which believes its own guilt and sees it everywhere. It is the mind that knows not what it does. It is your mind and yet by light you are and know and have your being. You have not left your Cause.
Remembrance is the Heart's sanity restored to the mind.
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