Look at our society today - are we becoming more enlightened? - Are we allowing more light of trust and shared worth to penetrate the veil of ignorance that hides us from our selves and each other’s truth?
Or do we slide toward endarkenment? Retreating to unconsciousness presented as passable or even seemingly laudable forms of self-protectiveness that actually cost us our joy and grow support for the mind of fear, blame and it’s voice for needing to fight.
Conflict is as much present in civilised imposition of rules and mutual agreements of truce and limitation as in open war - but its expression is controlled; its symptoms repressed.
These controls inevitably break down because they exacerbate dis-ease by squelching and stifling the feeling dimension which includes the movement of joy and creative freedom, and our body - (and our body politic), will express the limits of tolerance for joylessness and we lose faith in the unfulfilment of substitutes that do not actually deliver anything other than a false identity in a herd of self seeking.
Yet this program runs or is being chosen daily and so there is always the alternative of discovering today what is in our hearts whereby such a wish is re-enacted and discovering if that is in fact our will now that we have uncovered it? If we discover we have been devoted to something that we now realise we do not want - can it be hard to simply release it and enquire again of our true desire?
If there is a choice it has to be witnessed for by being chosen. Sitting on the fence discussing possibile scenarios or analyses of the ‘problem’ is a tricksy way of delaying real involvement and keeping a sense of ‘options’ open. Yet this is no freedom at all for it lacks any committment except to maintaining a private fence to sit on! Is this a living way? Is this the choice by which your joy reveals life to you?
Fear is a mind-killer that fragments, dislocates and densifies perception - yet it is simply true that Mind remains the very condition in which the roles of killer and killed are played out. Yet while the wish to be the judge and author of your own reality is wielded, you will not see that you set up the currency by which you evaluate your experience. The cost of giving is receiving. Yet we can always choose anew to give according to what we would receive.
Vision is not a mystical power accorded a few but is a simple receptivity in the present, to felt qualities that are tangible because one is at least momentarily not distracted, dislocated, densified or fragmented in conflicted mind.
The engine of fear is guilt. Unworthyness, blame, a sense of inadequacy, something wrong with me - with you - that must be conquered, atoned for, fixed or healed. Trying to overcome and get rid of guilt has been a major impetus of a sense of self for a very long time. It has been like a program running that we have hidden from and set up everything to hide it from being questioned.
The mind that believes in guilt cannot see what it has made because it made it by believing it. We cannot in this way save ourselves from painful limitation for the sharing of joy. We need each other - and we also need the greater Mind that we denied when we agreed to mask our shame-nakedness with our own mind’s making.
The Mind in which we live unawares, is living through us - even in our limitations and ignorances - the awareness of our mind is Gift - and is not self made. Awareness isn't an idea or a concept that can be objectified and analysed for it is the tangibility of every single possible moment or event. By this you are and of this I am.
Discerning this and re-aligning with it is the true work of faith whatever we do or say with our mouth. Loosening and releasing a sense of self-image and its effects which had seemed to offer life but only at greater and greater cost to all that gives life and means life.
Such Guidance is our native original intuitive being and can never be absent but can be denied recognition if we give priority to our self-scripted reality. Yet it is as a dawning light to any who tire of attempting to live in the dark as if that can know Life. It may come with teachings or relationships or indeed any of the events of life because it can speak in the language that we have made - back to to us - so as to be recognisable. But the forms are not themselves the spirit that flows though them and it is the heart’s recognition of truth that must come to the front as your own truth revealing You to you in all things seen truly with the love that you are - that you did not make - nor truly could unmake.
Such a statement may seem a way off because of the thinking that is habitual and its filtering effect upon perception but any willingness to allow and accept a witness for love, truth or peace where a grievance held sway before, is never wasted and moments of experience that respond to such willingness demonstrate and confirm that indeed there is another way of looking at everything than through a lens darkly - and that doing so actually allows vision to restore us to a safety that we lost when we gave ourselves the job of subduing bogeymen instead of naming them truly.
This has to be experienced to be believed, but then it wont require belief to be itself. It does require faith in love’s reality and of your own worth - which is always reflected in the worth you hold for others - and your world. We can only begin with the moment we are in and this is also the destination we relax into as we walk.
Joy to the world is the call to accept the innate joy that the world-definition was made in defence against when guilt and fear seemed to suggest that Joy and Innocence had been desecrated and the sin of actually separating must hide in its partitioned mind in order to retain the scrap of life that remained.
Yet the self and world image that we make is not condemned or attacked or destroyed by truth - but rather is repurposed for healing, joining, and the releasing of that which does not work and is recognisably undermining of sanity and wellbeing.
Coming home to our right mind is on purpose, it isn't possible without willingness - which must be freely given and never can be coerced. Yet it is so that our crisis bring us to a point of having to take notice of the danger of clinging to the past and take the opportunity of fresh vision.
Freedom to connect and feel in the moment - in the day - is the capacity to enjoy the ride and not merely be subservient to presumed or promised destinations.
The goal of life is not linear or separated in time - though time can reveal the timeless as it is used for purposes that express and embody true or revealed desire. For the heart that wakes is not the fragile thing we might make of it in our error of our thought - but has the capacity to hold all things one - as we have the willingness to be held in welcome embrace that judges not, and is altogether and always with us in our truth - in the Life that is.
2008/03/10
A Teacher of God? What could this mean?
Jesus in A Course in Miracles said that the instant you see your brother as yourself – then Salvation is here and you are a Teacher of God.
These Holy Instants are love-miracles that replace old grievances whereby mind locks itself in hell by its own self-assertions.
It may be that some teach A Course in Miracles and believe they are a Teacher of God.
Titles and appearances are liable to become vanities and obstacles.
To be a Teacher of God is to be a Learner of God.
As God is, there is nothing to Teach and nothing to Learn.
Learning to let God be That which Is and to assert no other will where I am than what is given me as I receive is of course to release the learning I made for myself that asserted a world and self for myself.
There isn't anything the world can give that can make up for the joy of being at Rest in God. And there isn't anything the World can take away from it.
This isn't in order to set up self tests to prove to self or selves, it is the touchstone by which you recognise the Truth where the Truth Is – and see where you are yet externalising the mind in residual conflictedness that is arising to be loosened and undone.
Isn't is simply so that the ego puts a feather into its cap after You have had an awakening or healing instance!
These are things that must simply be outgrown. The insistence on hurting ourselves could be called dangerous in that it seems to present itself as a way of saving ourselves. But if one can allow the simple truth in the heart to be known then we have wished ourself separate and this does act in our heart until we recognise we do not want it now. Because the Holy Spirit is the mind of God within us that loves Truth – and knows for us what we Truly desire and are.
This does not require vanities and errors of conceit or insanity to be absent – it merely requires that amidst any such temptations we choose for peace and in faith – despite the appearances and thoughts of self-unworthiness.
For it is exactly THIS that is to be undone. If we attempt to tidy it up according to our own plan it will be withheld from the Holy Spirit and we will suffer a sterile and futile righteousness that has made a tidy hell in which to suffer ‘nearer’ to God than the evil and wretched below us who plainly don't have our understanding blah blah blah.
I declare that we do not desire to be unconscious in our heart, to our heart, from our heart.
Be still and instant and remember God.
in Love's blessing
Brian
These Holy Instants are love-miracles that replace old grievances whereby mind locks itself in hell by its own self-assertions.
It may be that some teach A Course in Miracles and believe they are a Teacher of God.
Titles and appearances are liable to become vanities and obstacles.
To be a Teacher of God is to be a Learner of God.
As God is, there is nothing to Teach and nothing to Learn.
Learning to let God be That which Is and to assert no other will where I am than what is given me as I receive is of course to release the learning I made for myself that asserted a world and self for myself.
There isn't anything the world can give that can make up for the joy of being at Rest in God. And there isn't anything the World can take away from it.
This isn't in order to set up self tests to prove to self or selves, it is the touchstone by which you recognise the Truth where the Truth Is – and see where you are yet externalising the mind in residual conflictedness that is arising to be loosened and undone.
Isn't is simply so that the ego puts a feather into its cap after You have had an awakening or healing instance!
These are things that must simply be outgrown. The insistence on hurting ourselves could be called dangerous in that it seems to present itself as a way of saving ourselves. But if one can allow the simple truth in the heart to be known then we have wished ourself separate and this does act in our heart until we recognise we do not want it now. Because the Holy Spirit is the mind of God within us that loves Truth – and knows for us what we Truly desire and are.
This does not require vanities and errors of conceit or insanity to be absent – it merely requires that amidst any such temptations we choose for peace and in faith – despite the appearances and thoughts of self-unworthiness.
For it is exactly THIS that is to be undone. If we attempt to tidy it up according to our own plan it will be withheld from the Holy Spirit and we will suffer a sterile and futile righteousness that has made a tidy hell in which to suffer ‘nearer’ to God than the evil and wretched below us who plainly don't have our understanding blah blah blah.
I declare that we do not desire to be unconscious in our heart, to our heart, from our heart.
Be still and instant and remember God.
in Love's blessing
Brian
2008/02/10
The 'world' and A Course in Miracles
A Course in Miracles has been often been taken as a thought system to be intellectually understood and applied to one’s life in hope to improve it - because that is the habit and culture of the times we mostly live in. I don't know if that is altogether helpful. It was not my guidance to undertake that approach. It seems to me to be like making the error real and then attempting to fix it. I find it helpful to remain in not knowing until the Spirit illuminates. (And not pre-empt this with comparisons, deductions and interpretations that can only express what you already ‘know’).
I feel it is in opening relationship with Holy Spirit – using the Course as it serves – that facilitates a corrected thought system. The Holy Spirit is nothing more than your – my right Mind. And is the correction for wrong mindedness. One Mindedness is uninterrupted while we frighten ourselves with ideas that seem to make love unreal. This must be so despite the experience we mutually tend to invite and reinforce via judgment applied and believed – which you associate with the messed up world.
Rather than enter into relationship with Holy Spirit we will while ego-bound much rather associate externally. This is hardly something to be surprised at for this is the pattern that the Course is offered to un-stick us from. Because we cannot relate externally and enjoy real relationship – its just arbitrary forms that have shared definitions but don't mean anything except a lack of joy is occurring in the mind that asserts its ‘new clothes’.
The forms of truths can get bandied about as currency that children use like shields and sticks to play with.
But the Truth is beyond form – and yet not beyond realisation.
It must be the truth of you – if not the validation of any ideas about you that you have come to accept as you.
It cannot be put into words. But there are innumerable teachings and sayings that are truth inspired – and at the level of form they do not agree.
The participation in the desire for healing is the context in which truths become keys to be used and passed beyond.
No matter how good an understanding I develop I must altogether be willing to let it all go if I am to let love Be itself. As you allow yourself to released of the world and its self you are free to behold with innocent eyes. What is there to behold? There is really nothing outside our mind but that is not true in respect of the fenced off mind who has projected onto and dissociated from Self – and makes it ‘other’.
If we used the term form for world and the term Spirit for Meaning would it be difficult to see that the forms are the vehicles of Expression and not anything of themselves at all?
Yet we have learned to take forms and give them our own meanings.
In violation of the 1st and 2nd commandments. There is no Reality but Reality. To accord reality to made images (judgements) is to worship your own reflection as a maker. Even though the images are freeze frames from the Living Flow. For the Now is Alive and is the only Life.
“Behold I make all things new!”
“ Er hang on Dad – I want to explore this idea I have.
“I am the Alpha and the Omega”
“Yes I know dad but I have this project that I am attending to in the meantime”.
“You are my dearly beloved Son”
“Can you stop interfering – I am finding it hard to keep my focus on my work here” (slams door)
Forms are tangible because they are recognisably serving the function of identifying Expression.
They identify as extension of the truly projected or shared Mind– and the reflection of the withheld mind. The latter obscures the former while the withholding – or judgment – is held to.
Now when the world of ego having an experience all for himself herself as they determine it, is released to the totality of what is simply the indivisible truth, will you call it World, or Be ing or Mind or Living Universe or God or Totality or Selflessness or Emptyness or The no Mind or Creation or something no one has ever called it before?
And when you attempt to communicate it you will find that you cannot express it in any but the terms of the experiences of separation. Yet it communicates through you as spontaneous play of relationship.
How many words does it take to open to the spontaneous play of felt relationship? None.
Recognition renders the form transparent of to its function. The world disappears as any sense of separation-experience. Because there can be no separation. Only a split mind that wants to play at separation and has become mesmerised in its own game to the forgetting of what it is.
Now lets say that you focus on the form of an aspect of the Glory of Being and hold that image in your attention, disregarding the flowing movement of being, then you are holding a judgment. Making exclusion. It may be that the image is Gloriously alive and energising to give attention to and that the act of lingering is itself a feeling of Bliss – but the process of leaving is engaged and the prodigal has forgot his Father while raiding the fridge!
It’s late here and this may read all awry tomorrow but I feel to share it as it is any way.
In Peace
Brian
I feel it is in opening relationship with Holy Spirit – using the Course as it serves – that facilitates a corrected thought system. The Holy Spirit is nothing more than your – my right Mind. And is the correction for wrong mindedness. One Mindedness is uninterrupted while we frighten ourselves with ideas that seem to make love unreal. This must be so despite the experience we mutually tend to invite and reinforce via judgment applied and believed – which you associate with the messed up world.
Rather than enter into relationship with Holy Spirit we will while ego-bound much rather associate externally. This is hardly something to be surprised at for this is the pattern that the Course is offered to un-stick us from. Because we cannot relate externally and enjoy real relationship – its just arbitrary forms that have shared definitions but don't mean anything except a lack of joy is occurring in the mind that asserts its ‘new clothes’.
The forms of truths can get bandied about as currency that children use like shields and sticks to play with.
But the Truth is beyond form – and yet not beyond realisation.
It must be the truth of you – if not the validation of any ideas about you that you have come to accept as you.
It cannot be put into words. But there are innumerable teachings and sayings that are truth inspired – and at the level of form they do not agree.
The participation in the desire for healing is the context in which truths become keys to be used and passed beyond.
No matter how good an understanding I develop I must altogether be willing to let it all go if I am to let love Be itself. As you allow yourself to released of the world and its self you are free to behold with innocent eyes. What is there to behold? There is really nothing outside our mind but that is not true in respect of the fenced off mind who has projected onto and dissociated from Self – and makes it ‘other’.
If we used the term form for world and the term Spirit for Meaning would it be difficult to see that the forms are the vehicles of Expression and not anything of themselves at all?
Yet we have learned to take forms and give them our own meanings.
In violation of the 1st and 2nd commandments. There is no Reality but Reality. To accord reality to made images (judgements) is to worship your own reflection as a maker. Even though the images are freeze frames from the Living Flow. For the Now is Alive and is the only Life.
“Behold I make all things new!”
“ Er hang on Dad – I want to explore this idea I have.
“I am the Alpha and the Omega”
“Yes I know dad but I have this project that I am attending to in the meantime”.
“You are my dearly beloved Son”
“Can you stop interfering – I am finding it hard to keep my focus on my work here” (slams door)
Forms are tangible because they are recognisably serving the function of identifying Expression.
They identify as extension of the truly projected or shared Mind– and the reflection of the withheld mind. The latter obscures the former while the withholding – or judgment – is held to.
Now when the world of ego having an experience all for himself herself as they determine it, is released to the totality of what is simply the indivisible truth, will you call it World, or Be ing or Mind or Living Universe or God or Totality or Selflessness or Emptyness or The no Mind or Creation or something no one has ever called it before?
And when you attempt to communicate it you will find that you cannot express it in any but the terms of the experiences of separation. Yet it communicates through you as spontaneous play of relationship.
How many words does it take to open to the spontaneous play of felt relationship? None.
Recognition renders the form transparent of to its function. The world disappears as any sense of separation-experience. Because there can be no separation. Only a split mind that wants to play at separation and has become mesmerised in its own game to the forgetting of what it is.
Now lets say that you focus on the form of an aspect of the Glory of Being and hold that image in your attention, disregarding the flowing movement of being, then you are holding a judgment. Making exclusion. It may be that the image is Gloriously alive and energising to give attention to and that the act of lingering is itself a feeling of Bliss – but the process of leaving is engaged and the prodigal has forgot his Father while raiding the fridge!
It’s late here and this may read all awry tomorrow but I feel to share it as it is any way.
In Peace
Brian
2008/02/08
Special relationship
Special relationship is an A Course in Miracles term for holy relationship being (mis)used for unholy purpose.
Basically the ego only sees form (its own asserted meanings) and thus is blind to Innate Meaning. (The Course calls this content).
Relationships are getting devices to the ego.
Bu they are the opportunity to share love – to know what love is; to know what you Are.
In any moment that we presently open to Spirit and allow Relationship to Be – our relationship is holy. The Holy spirit needs and uses our special relationships – IF you allow this – to teach and free the mind of its self delusion.
The thing that is to be abandoned is the wilful exertion and demand: “Me, my and mine’”
This has to be seen for what it is – as it is – by who you really are.
Then it will not be desired when you see its cost is the loss of ‘Knowing Thy Self’ – which is shared joy, fulfilment, peace and a radiant disposition. Love knows itself love and is a disposition of ‘I love you’. Split mind has lost what love is in search of specialness and can only say ‘do you love me’ or I will do the form of love to you ...if or as long as ...
One of the great Initiations that awaits anyone who has not yet really let love Be is to be ‘welcome to the human race’ and to enter into joyful and real relationship with one and with each and with all. Our essential humanity is our Divinity embodied. The realisation of such an initiation is the same as the Prodigal’s return. Your relationship with anyone is your brother recognised or unrecognised.
The recognition of Brother or Sister is the awakening Mind of the Son. Creation. The Father expressed.
The seeming un-spiritual-ness of others must be a reflection of the use to which we are putting the relationship. Spiritual is just a term for real, genuine, honest, actual direct present living. It has become associated with otherworldly metaphysical thinking. This is nothing without love.
In Peace
Brian
Basically the ego only sees form (its own asserted meanings) and thus is blind to Innate Meaning. (The Course calls this content).
Relationships are getting devices to the ego.
Bu they are the opportunity to share love – to know what love is; to know what you Are.
In any moment that we presently open to Spirit and allow Relationship to Be – our relationship is holy. The Holy spirit needs and uses our special relationships – IF you allow this – to teach and free the mind of its self delusion.
The thing that is to be abandoned is the wilful exertion and demand: “Me, my and mine’”
This has to be seen for what it is – as it is – by who you really are.
Then it will not be desired when you see its cost is the loss of ‘Knowing Thy Self’ – which is shared joy, fulfilment, peace and a radiant disposition. Love knows itself love and is a disposition of ‘I love you’. Split mind has lost what love is in search of specialness and can only say ‘do you love me’ or I will do the form of love to you ...if or as long as ...
One of the great Initiations that awaits anyone who has not yet really let love Be is to be ‘welcome to the human race’ and to enter into joyful and real relationship with one and with each and with all. Our essential humanity is our Divinity embodied. The realisation of such an initiation is the same as the Prodigal’s return. Your relationship with anyone is your brother recognised or unrecognised.
The recognition of Brother or Sister is the awakening Mind of the Son. Creation. The Father expressed.
The seeming un-spiritual-ness of others must be a reflection of the use to which we are putting the relationship. Spiritual is just a term for real, genuine, honest, actual direct present living. It has become associated with otherworldly metaphysical thinking. This is nothing without love.
In Peace
Brian
2008/02/07
The Universe does not dissappear - it is Revealed
Life is not cling-able or controllable. This isn't fatalistic because Life is infinitely appreciate-able as it is. That the mind-set of control must be abandoned to regain participation as joy is just the way it is. But focussing on the dark or the difficult only feeds it.
I have been Graced to be aware of the Light in which I am Created.
It is the very and pure light of love. This has nothing of any currency or value to anything that the ego-identity values or aspires. Absolutely nothing. Why would it be said - ‘no man looks on God and lives’?
It is so. Release as Jesus shows and there is a dawning of Spirit in the mind that thought itself limited in and by a body.
If anything in these (totally inadequate) words resonates – it is the same. It is direct. It is present.
There is no world here.
This is always true – you cannot be a a body in a world.
(But you can be through a body in communion with the mind that is the truth of the world).
The division of inside outside is a tool – applied to an Indivisibility.
When the inner and the outer are as one – thy whole body be full of light.
It (was) too close to what I am to be ascribed attributes of time and space. But the seed-root essence of all things is Here. My eyes were as a newly woke – I have a much greater intuition of the ’world’ that is Oneness than I have memory imprint.
All the world (was) outshone – and in no way (was) anything done to it. Nor did it go anywhere else.
Attention was surrendered to its source. This was spontaneous and did not really constitute an experience that I can say happened to me – because the absence of ‘me’ was the very spontaneity that let the Light – of itself – know itself – and magnify at its root. It is all things.
There is a phrase - ‘unfinished business’ - this is the best I can say for why the process of focus that we call the world took my attention again.
This ‘world’ and its dreaming mind is held in a Space and Light and Silence of which the human mind cannot conceive. I cant at all conceive it.
But I know that this knowing is the Life itself. God is the Knowing God. There can be none other. To be an other is to forget the Knowing in self-limitation.
Nothing in all my experience of Grace or Love has ever denied Individuality. To the contrary. But Individuality is not independently asserted will. It is the Presence of the Father as the totality of what is be-ing right where you are.
That Divine Interruption was nine years after a previous opening had uncovered the roots of terror – why? because I refused and denied the truth. It had no place in it for 'me'. I would not let go of 'me'.
I was then totally unprepared and had no living capacity for intimacy in myself – or with another.
Terror was a part of the result of a desire to force a crash landing as self survival. No wonder.
But even in the most fearful extremity there was a part of the mind that was curious – that wanted to return to where I was running from. This was a moment’s incongruity to me then for I would in that fear have trod on anyone to get my own head 'above water'.
But the realisation was that my so called life was a lie - a running away from love, from my self – all dressed up and hidden in 'a world'. I now see that consciously running away was the first step of love’s awakening in me. In the process of reconfiguring the vehicle to receive Light..
After that I had a crash course in learning of love because I could not seal the doors by judging the Opening as evil – or indeed insane.
It just isn't in me to do this. But I see that many do and I understand. I would have too if I could have.
But I am grateful to have been led from such a mind.
Now in truth I have to say that the choice for my-self-apart - was a mechanism to which I have attachment. It was and is not the choice of my heart, but was an expression of confusion.
Yet as a result of there being a love of truth in me - despite great fear - I came to know my heart and trust it and share love.
The shift from being to thinking is a sleight of mind.
The real world is the expression of love within the framework of a self-world.
The Father is Reality and gives it to the Son who is the manifestation – the embodiment – the expression. The Son has no reality but the Father’s, but is the Father’s will embodied – in languages that are knowable, recognisable, that feel like something.
Whether the body is perceived in seed thought, light, thoughts, feelings, desires or density – its divinity is that it witnesses for you. That you are.
Now I confess that I have learned to see other bodies in ways that can really freak me out – but I know that the willingness to look beyond the body as an object and connect in blessing and recognition with my Brother Sister in God’s Son is to gain the vision that can see the one more and more clearly.
Simply holding a hand
feeling the love
in the ordinary light of awareness.
We turn to meet
To look upon this one
with no trace or stain of past.
Beloved!
this recognition grew
and all about and everyone
the same.
All was bright
All was clear
nothing to obscure.
totally present
Invisible to the world.
Right in the open.
Time waits outside
My Father’s House
is Eternal Love.
The witnesses to willingness are needed in a world devoted to wilfulness.
Giving as we have received, we learn to keep.
Our gratitude for love is the willingness to share it.
Our Brother brings remembrance to us.
As we are willing to receive.
Brian
I have been Graced to be aware of the Light in which I am Created.
It is the very and pure light of love. This has nothing of any currency or value to anything that the ego-identity values or aspires. Absolutely nothing. Why would it be said - ‘no man looks on God and lives’?
It is so. Release as Jesus shows and there is a dawning of Spirit in the mind that thought itself limited in and by a body.
If anything in these (totally inadequate) words resonates – it is the same. It is direct. It is present.
There is no world here.
This is always true – you cannot be a a body in a world.
(But you can be through a body in communion with the mind that is the truth of the world).
The division of inside outside is a tool – applied to an Indivisibility.
When the inner and the outer are as one – thy whole body be full of light.
It (was) too close to what I am to be ascribed attributes of time and space. But the seed-root essence of all things is Here. My eyes were as a newly woke – I have a much greater intuition of the ’world’ that is Oneness than I have memory imprint.
All the world (was) outshone – and in no way (was) anything done to it. Nor did it go anywhere else.
Attention was surrendered to its source. This was spontaneous and did not really constitute an experience that I can say happened to me – because the absence of ‘me’ was the very spontaneity that let the Light – of itself – know itself – and magnify at its root. It is all things.
There is a phrase - ‘unfinished business’ - this is the best I can say for why the process of focus that we call the world took my attention again.
This ‘world’ and its dreaming mind is held in a Space and Light and Silence of which the human mind cannot conceive. I cant at all conceive it.
But I know that this knowing is the Life itself. God is the Knowing God. There can be none other. To be an other is to forget the Knowing in self-limitation.
Nothing in all my experience of Grace or Love has ever denied Individuality. To the contrary. But Individuality is not independently asserted will. It is the Presence of the Father as the totality of what is be-ing right where you are.
That Divine Interruption was nine years after a previous opening had uncovered the roots of terror – why? because I refused and denied the truth. It had no place in it for 'me'. I would not let go of 'me'.
I was then totally unprepared and had no living capacity for intimacy in myself – or with another.
Terror was a part of the result of a desire to force a crash landing as self survival. No wonder.
But even in the most fearful extremity there was a part of the mind that was curious – that wanted to return to where I was running from. This was a moment’s incongruity to me then for I would in that fear have trod on anyone to get my own head 'above water'.
But the realisation was that my so called life was a lie - a running away from love, from my self – all dressed up and hidden in 'a world'. I now see that consciously running away was the first step of love’s awakening in me. In the process of reconfiguring the vehicle to receive Light..
After that I had a crash course in learning of love because I could not seal the doors by judging the Opening as evil – or indeed insane.
It just isn't in me to do this. But I see that many do and I understand. I would have too if I could have.
But I am grateful to have been led from such a mind.
Now in truth I have to say that the choice for my-self-apart - was a mechanism to which I have attachment. It was and is not the choice of my heart, but was an expression of confusion.
Yet as a result of there being a love of truth in me - despite great fear - I came to know my heart and trust it and share love.
The shift from being to thinking is a sleight of mind.
The real world is the expression of love within the framework of a self-world.
The Father is Reality and gives it to the Son who is the manifestation – the embodiment – the expression. The Son has no reality but the Father’s, but is the Father’s will embodied – in languages that are knowable, recognisable, that feel like something.
Whether the body is perceived in seed thought, light, thoughts, feelings, desires or density – its divinity is that it witnesses for you. That you are.
Now I confess that I have learned to see other bodies in ways that can really freak me out – but I know that the willingness to look beyond the body as an object and connect in blessing and recognition with my Brother Sister in God’s Son is to gain the vision that can see the one more and more clearly.
Simply holding a hand
feeling the love
in the ordinary light of awareness.
We turn to meet
To look upon this one
with no trace or stain of past.
Beloved!
this recognition grew
and all about and everyone
the same.
All was bright
All was clear
nothing to obscure.
totally present
Invisible to the world.
Right in the open.
Time waits outside
My Father’s House
is Eternal Love.
The witnesses to willingness are needed in a world devoted to wilfulness.
Giving as we have received, we learn to keep.
Our gratitude for love is the willingness to share it.
Our Brother brings remembrance to us.
As we are willing to receive.
Brian
If the world is real, all fear & suffering is real too
What we experience and believe as the world cannot be separated from the distortions of perception and conception.
I recall Raj’s metaphor of pushing a fist against a rubber sheet.
It seems to push back.
While the distortion is being applied the experience is one that has an undertone of dissonance.
The seeming entity that is inferred by the distortion is never an achiever or an actuality.
The immediate and actual recognition of the distorting force for what it actually is – (desire-judgement-exclusion) – allows the release of a mind loop that now makes no sense at all – it automatically falls off.
This is a mentality that sought to determine its own reality by judging all that it is as symbol – which are desired, hated, real, unreal etc.
Be glad indeed that we have no power to create Reality!
And that the power by which the self and world were made real is one that can simply be released.
And the ever true will stand obvious in a Light you can cover but not stop being.
The ‘unreality of the world’ does not constitute a negation of the beautiful, the good and the true – in you or I or any thing that is.
It is not a justification for non involvement in life - but a call to True Involvement.
But while we put our treasure out from us we see it as if it is out there.
In a realm of change that reflects thinking-perceiving apart from God.
And yet clinging only deprives us now and now.
Therefore Rejoice in the world in trust that the Real is always with you and its Guidance knows the way of Sanity.
The ego is identified as a dual self-world – they are one.
When a significant other leaves us our grounding mappings are untethered!
Because we use the world and all in it to validate and maintain what we call our self.
Their isn't an ego and a world or an ego in the world. It is a trick.
Exquisitely designed as a playground, a classroom, always serving the function You accept for it.
The world has always reflected the self.
You could say the World is Always reflecting Self.
But when it appears to reflect a separated self, it appears as a separated fragmented externality that seems to be attempting to separate you from your very life! Yet the ‘life’ to which we cling is a fenced off fragment of an indivisibility. Thus it is the belief in a fence to which we cling. Which at root is the preference given to the dream of independent authorship.
Know Thy Self is an inevitability. It is absolutely the law.
To know thy self image is to be attempting to not know Thy Self.
You can push at a rubber sheet and it distorts,
A distorted lens gives a distorted image.
The attempt to separate cannot succeed. But it can be given considerable – if not total – belief.
The judgement upon the self-image is a further step where the force of Light and Love is unconsciously harnessed to drive and maintain the belief. This level has to be undone of its mask. For it is here that the world is experienced as a fearsome and seemingly undeniable density.
This is the reflection of maintained and justified guilt.
Here be dragons and monsters.
And knights and fights and all the self righteous thrill of the chase.
The dread terror of being stalked.
The monsters to which we sacrifice our youth and vitality to cling to the known.
The possessions that increasingly possess.
The civil veneer that is a flimsy bulwark against the barbarian hordes.
Its all an inside job.
Played upon a Big Screen.
The process of the separating mind is like a virus. Self replicating.
Go forth and multply!
This is the law.
Except that the uncreative ‘goes’ into self illusion and depreciates.
Depletes, collapses, densifies, exhausts and undermines itself.
It believes in death as salvation and seeks to die a little in order to get what it wants.
So it forgoes more and more of itself to maintain its grip.
It isn't just a bodyminded one that gets old. The world gets old.
‘Born of the one light, Eden saw play’.
Yet the Revelation of God is summarised thus:
“Behold! I make all things new!”
Innocent of the past.
Unmindful of future.
There is an always.
That can be overlooked.
But cannot lose you.
Because it is your truth
it can truly reach wherever you think you are.
Because you have used truth as illusion and illusion as truth you cannot tell apart without asking of the one who is with you now.
The desire to be restored to sanity must be the willingness to lay the mind down.
Such a willingness can be discovered.
Because the desire for insanity fades or falls away.
The will to wake yourself up is only true if it expresses the will of the Father who gives your will to you.
The scribe is a nothing but a symbol of willingness. Yes.
Does such a trust in love get one into deep water?
Only when the mind that I am releasing seizes me unaware and I let it think as if it were Me!
in Love's blessing
Brian
I recall Raj’s metaphor of pushing a fist against a rubber sheet.
It seems to push back.
While the distortion is being applied the experience is one that has an undertone of dissonance.
The seeming entity that is inferred by the distortion is never an achiever or an actuality.
The immediate and actual recognition of the distorting force for what it actually is – (desire-judgement-exclusion) – allows the release of a mind loop that now makes no sense at all – it automatically falls off.
This is a mentality that sought to determine its own reality by judging all that it is as symbol – which are desired, hated, real, unreal etc.
Be glad indeed that we have no power to create Reality!
And that the power by which the self and world were made real is one that can simply be released.
And the ever true will stand obvious in a Light you can cover but not stop being.
The ‘unreality of the world’ does not constitute a negation of the beautiful, the good and the true – in you or I or any thing that is.
It is not a justification for non involvement in life - but a call to True Involvement.
But while we put our treasure out from us we see it as if it is out there.
In a realm of change that reflects thinking-perceiving apart from God.
And yet clinging only deprives us now and now.
Therefore Rejoice in the world in trust that the Real is always with you and its Guidance knows the way of Sanity.
The ego is identified as a dual self-world – they are one.
When a significant other leaves us our grounding mappings are untethered!
Because we use the world and all in it to validate and maintain what we call our self.
Their isn't an ego and a world or an ego in the world. It is a trick.
Exquisitely designed as a playground, a classroom, always serving the function You accept for it.
The world has always reflected the self.
You could say the World is Always reflecting Self.
But when it appears to reflect a separated self, it appears as a separated fragmented externality that seems to be attempting to separate you from your very life! Yet the ‘life’ to which we cling is a fenced off fragment of an indivisibility. Thus it is the belief in a fence to which we cling. Which at root is the preference given to the dream of independent authorship.
Know Thy Self is an inevitability. It is absolutely the law.
To know thy self image is to be attempting to not know Thy Self.
You can push at a rubber sheet and it distorts,
A distorted lens gives a distorted image.
The attempt to separate cannot succeed. But it can be given considerable – if not total – belief.
The judgement upon the self-image is a further step where the force of Light and Love is unconsciously harnessed to drive and maintain the belief. This level has to be undone of its mask. For it is here that the world is experienced as a fearsome and seemingly undeniable density.
This is the reflection of maintained and justified guilt.
Here be dragons and monsters.
And knights and fights and all the self righteous thrill of the chase.
The dread terror of being stalked.
The monsters to which we sacrifice our youth and vitality to cling to the known.
The possessions that increasingly possess.
The civil veneer that is a flimsy bulwark against the barbarian hordes.
Its all an inside job.
Played upon a Big Screen.
The process of the separating mind is like a virus. Self replicating.
Go forth and multply!
This is the law.
Except that the uncreative ‘goes’ into self illusion and depreciates.
Depletes, collapses, densifies, exhausts and undermines itself.
It believes in death as salvation and seeks to die a little in order to get what it wants.
So it forgoes more and more of itself to maintain its grip.
It isn't just a bodyminded one that gets old. The world gets old.
‘Born of the one light, Eden saw play’.
Yet the Revelation of God is summarised thus:
“Behold! I make all things new!”
Innocent of the past.
Unmindful of future.
There is an always.
That can be overlooked.
But cannot lose you.
Because it is your truth
it can truly reach wherever you think you are.
Because you have used truth as illusion and illusion as truth you cannot tell apart without asking of the one who is with you now.
The desire to be restored to sanity must be the willingness to lay the mind down.
Such a willingness can be discovered.
Because the desire for insanity fades or falls away.
The will to wake yourself up is only true if it expresses the will of the Father who gives your will to you.
The scribe is a nothing but a symbol of willingness. Yes.
Does such a trust in love get one into deep water?
Only when the mind that I am releasing seizes me unaware and I let it think as if it were Me!
in Love's blessing
Brian
If waking up were as simple as clicking fingers thrice would you do it now?
The one who wishes to be liberated is the mind that can and must be understood as a belief in entrapment. The awake do not wish to be liberated – they extend liberation because they are freedom to be.
The mind that demands distraction and displacement is not in essence changed by its acts – it loses Self Remembrance while it dissociates. Being as if not this actuality, is thinking, experienced in freedom to be.
If there is a choice it is always and only made this instant.
Click them fingers by letting God click them As this very Instant of Experience! Not an experience over and against an experiencer – but the instant of being – as this. as this.
Choice is between. As long as there seems to be between then there will seem to be choice. But in honesty there is only the ‘choice’ to accept or deny the love that is now. And only by the power of love can love be denied. There is a limit to the capacity to deny what is. It breaks down because it is not Creative, Eternal or True. When it breaks down, what is True simply is revealed as is. Perhaps love is a limitation - but in love is Life given without withholding. We are not children of a withholding Source. That is a picture in the mind.
Truth is not revealed to a thinker - though thinking may return after the break in ego-signal. In any interruption to the continuity of ego scripting Truth is revealed where you are. All expressions of love are maximal. And in terms of our structures of meaning we may have the trace experience of this totality in terms and language that is relevant and acceptable to us in our current sense of identity and yet furthers the process that supports the breakdown of the machine-self as a loving re-emergence amidst an insanity. Until the insanity is clearly recognised and rendered impotent or meaningless.
‘You cant be totally committed sometimes’. - ACIM
So your total commitment is the Fact of your Holy Spirit Mind. the ego illusion is not fact. It can seem real. It cant be real. So you cant really do it or be it – you can only wish it and experience it imaginatively. And that imagined self cannot do or be anything of its own. It is a scripted play.
There can be thinking, and there can be thinking I am the thinker of thoughts but that’s all only thinking. There isn't really a thinker and there isn't anyone to have to do or not do anything to wake up.
Waking up is not something that can exist in the future. There really isn't the one we think we are to make or not make decisions that do or don't allow or forbid the Truth. Because that is a ploy in a story that plays to a wish to see truth like this or like that. Who wishes this?
The moment of current attention that is giving it value. That is all.
This is not in my mind – as I might think ‘I’. But it is the only mind there is – and by it is awareness known
Becoming honest about the use to which we put our mind is a step of allowing truth to shine on whatever thoughts are enjoined.
The notion that there is anything to lose from truth is fear – not fact.
In any instance where truth has been chosen over fear the actuality does not support the fear.
There is no fear in perfect love. This is what you are as Creation - or are forgetting in miscreation.
Fear has the capacity to block awareness of Self- because that is its given function. The split mind is fearful. To heal the split undoes fear.
There is no one who can wake up – that’s just thinking.
Waking up is a symbol as it is placed in time. It is as useful as the use to which it is put.
An alarm clock makes a good jackhammer drill to a dreaming mind.
Concerted intentional guided seeking is necessary to exhaust the seeker. Variable and conflicting goals play out a strategy to preserve a sense of promise where none can be found excepting a sense of achievement expressed as delay. A set of brakes.
The thoughts that emanate from the truth are loving thoughts for they do not serve a self or other apart. They witness to a self-with that has had to be constantly blanked and denied, now and now – in order to think the scripts of separation.
The world we see can not actually be the separation it can only be the reality that is our mind unrecognised in Mind, while a machination runs its course until it is noticed, accepted and released.
What is left if the machination is utterly undone? – why Life! - in all its qualities of form and colour and play without the drag of ‘me and mine’ interposing and effectively denying the appreciation of What Life is – right here now.
But not the ‘life’ of a bodybag with a brain subordinated to a wilfulness that locks onto form and inexorably kills itself over and over. Life is what is calling all who thought they chose the lifeless and made it real - home.
Every opening will seem to be at some point lost or covered by a closing. It is not useful to think how much is there of a habit to undo, in order to regain or get to somewhere.
This is the thinking that cuts the present life and puts it as if in the future - after the problem is solved.
When the ups are not exulted in and the downs are not indulged the evenness of mind that is a depth below the superficial stands forth. It was there anyway but now the activity of thinking isn't the pet project that dominates and seesaws.
I might insist I am as full of shit as anyone else. It is a lie. But it is offered in love as a temporary relief from a periodically unbearable light of innocence that undoes the beliefs by which mind attempts to secure in fear.
It is not difficult : it is impossible! – therefore there is the call to transcend such definitions in holding the willingness that there be a way and that it is discoverable now. A way to be with. One step at a time.
I thought I was climbing a steep place alone – but it was a dance with you!
Nothing is more dangerous to a mind’s joyful participation than truths to which it holds more dear than Truth.
It remains true that the use to which they are put is in the mind within you, the mind within me.
Desire not a hidey hole for that which undermines sharing all that is beautiful, good and true by painting a picture of a me that is not as God reveals to me that I am – even though it is a burden I have long cherished. It has always only kept me from the appreciation of God – not my idea God – but from Being before and beyond the world and time and thought. From Light that has no end or limit or circumference.
These words are unspeakable. Let it be said straight from the One that speaks all things true and who alone is truly heard.
In Peace
Brian
The mind that demands distraction and displacement is not in essence changed by its acts – it loses Self Remembrance while it dissociates. Being as if not this actuality, is thinking, experienced in freedom to be.
If there is a choice it is always and only made this instant.
Click them fingers by letting God click them As this very Instant of Experience! Not an experience over and against an experiencer – but the instant of being – as this. as this.
Choice is between. As long as there seems to be between then there will seem to be choice. But in honesty there is only the ‘choice’ to accept or deny the love that is now. And only by the power of love can love be denied. There is a limit to the capacity to deny what is. It breaks down because it is not Creative, Eternal or True. When it breaks down, what is True simply is revealed as is. Perhaps love is a limitation - but in love is Life given without withholding. We are not children of a withholding Source. That is a picture in the mind.
Truth is not revealed to a thinker - though thinking may return after the break in ego-signal. In any interruption to the continuity of ego scripting Truth is revealed where you are. All expressions of love are maximal. And in terms of our structures of meaning we may have the trace experience of this totality in terms and language that is relevant and acceptable to us in our current sense of identity and yet furthers the process that supports the breakdown of the machine-self as a loving re-emergence amidst an insanity. Until the insanity is clearly recognised and rendered impotent or meaningless.
‘You cant be totally committed sometimes’. - ACIM
So your total commitment is the Fact of your Holy Spirit Mind. the ego illusion is not fact. It can seem real. It cant be real. So you cant really do it or be it – you can only wish it and experience it imaginatively. And that imagined self cannot do or be anything of its own. It is a scripted play.
There can be thinking, and there can be thinking I am the thinker of thoughts but that’s all only thinking. There isn't really a thinker and there isn't anyone to have to do or not do anything to wake up.
Waking up is not something that can exist in the future. There really isn't the one we think we are to make or not make decisions that do or don't allow or forbid the Truth. Because that is a ploy in a story that plays to a wish to see truth like this or like that. Who wishes this?
The moment of current attention that is giving it value. That is all.
This is not in my mind – as I might think ‘I’. But it is the only mind there is – and by it is awareness known
Becoming honest about the use to which we put our mind is a step of allowing truth to shine on whatever thoughts are enjoined.
The notion that there is anything to lose from truth is fear – not fact.
In any instance where truth has been chosen over fear the actuality does not support the fear.
There is no fear in perfect love. This is what you are as Creation - or are forgetting in miscreation.
Fear has the capacity to block awareness of Self- because that is its given function. The split mind is fearful. To heal the split undoes fear.
There is no one who can wake up – that’s just thinking.
Waking up is a symbol as it is placed in time. It is as useful as the use to which it is put.
An alarm clock makes a good jackhammer drill to a dreaming mind.
Concerted intentional guided seeking is necessary to exhaust the seeker. Variable and conflicting goals play out a strategy to preserve a sense of promise where none can be found excepting a sense of achievement expressed as delay. A set of brakes.
The thoughts that emanate from the truth are loving thoughts for they do not serve a self or other apart. They witness to a self-with that has had to be constantly blanked and denied, now and now – in order to think the scripts of separation.
The world we see can not actually be the separation it can only be the reality that is our mind unrecognised in Mind, while a machination runs its course until it is noticed, accepted and released.
What is left if the machination is utterly undone? – why Life! - in all its qualities of form and colour and play without the drag of ‘me and mine’ interposing and effectively denying the appreciation of What Life is – right here now.
But not the ‘life’ of a bodybag with a brain subordinated to a wilfulness that locks onto form and inexorably kills itself over and over. Life is what is calling all who thought they chose the lifeless and made it real - home.
Every opening will seem to be at some point lost or covered by a closing. It is not useful to think how much is there of a habit to undo, in order to regain or get to somewhere.
This is the thinking that cuts the present life and puts it as if in the future - after the problem is solved.
When the ups are not exulted in and the downs are not indulged the evenness of mind that is a depth below the superficial stands forth. It was there anyway but now the activity of thinking isn't the pet project that dominates and seesaws.
I might insist I am as full of shit as anyone else. It is a lie. But it is offered in love as a temporary relief from a periodically unbearable light of innocence that undoes the beliefs by which mind attempts to secure in fear.
It is not difficult : it is impossible! – therefore there is the call to transcend such definitions in holding the willingness that there be a way and that it is discoverable now. A way to be with. One step at a time.
I thought I was climbing a steep place alone – but it was a dance with you!
Nothing is more dangerous to a mind’s joyful participation than truths to which it holds more dear than Truth.
It remains true that the use to which they are put is in the mind within you, the mind within me.
Desire not a hidey hole for that which undermines sharing all that is beautiful, good and true by painting a picture of a me that is not as God reveals to me that I am – even though it is a burden I have long cherished. It has always only kept me from the appreciation of God – not my idea God – but from Being before and beyond the world and time and thought. From Light that has no end or limit or circumference.
These words are unspeakable. Let it be said straight from the One that speaks all things true and who alone is truly heard.
In Peace
Brian
2008/02/03
True Desire
The True desire of our heart is simply uncovered by revelation.
It cannot be manufactured or coerced and yet remain truth.
And like anything True it is one with all that Truth is.
Truth can be obscured from our awareness.
Identification with the seeming capacity to do so sets up the problem beneath the problems.
For not knowing the truth That we Are is the only sickness.
Arising out of the grasp and distortion of reality we make a mind that has confused individuality of God’s Expression with a private mind thinking love-lessly.
We can choose to use our mind uncreatively – but not outside the law of creation.
If we choose separating from Love’s Movement or Felt Life, then we see and experience as ‘separate(ing) mind’.
As long as we value or desire anything in this mindset of force we will bind ourselves to its loveless vision.
False desire may operate automatically by deeply entrenched habit and seems to be reflected as reality within and without.
Minds that share this addiction are all programmed as validating each other to maintain the game in which conflict is taken to be really real.
Yet the complexity of defensiveness that has been made to attempt to coerce truth to an unshared or false desire is irrelevant to its foundation – which is that of remaining unaware of your true desire.
A sense of our true desire may arise from any unguarded moment.
To accept and receive this knowing is to allow its movement to embody through us.
It is always Life and is always Present. Its recognition is in the heart – directly.
It may also express as a result of a sense of frustrated being that IS presently recognised as essentially unfulfilling and not actually desired.
This is a state of mind from which liberation is desirable.
Yet attention is trapped in its own attempt to solve or salve itself within the unmindful premise of its own seemingly independent power.
Holy Spirit is Original mind restated in which we can directly look upon thought and attention and their results as a knowing and not merely a further thinking.
It is also the honesty of seeing and observing altogether presently. For when nothing else is asserted in its place it is revealed as the living Presence of what you are – at a level and in a form that is relevant to releasing your current level of ignorance.
We mostly have very little idea the degree to which our every experience, interaction, communication and perception is predicated upon thought and desire.
These thoughts can be translated by aligning with awakened or true desire such that less and less is obstructing the natural realisation of truth.
For Realisation is simply the release of the mind that one is not, into direct experience that is primarily felt as communion- participation.
This can be expressed thus:
Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. Love your neighbour as yourself.
Such is not a social 'should' but the truth revealed and expressed. The Truth is Given - but its acceptance requires freely releasing the false.
The nature of the false was its replacement of truth, and so the restoration of the truth of the mind that you truly are, is the perfect home-be-ing of a heart that feels and knows and expresses and embodies life – without apology or justification.
This has been a meditation for me
and is also shared.
Practicing the presence
is not really a word thing
but words are not really word things.
They are messengers of the mind that gives and receives.
In Peace
Brian
It cannot be manufactured or coerced and yet remain truth.
And like anything True it is one with all that Truth is.
Truth can be obscured from our awareness.
Identification with the seeming capacity to do so sets up the problem beneath the problems.
For not knowing the truth That we Are is the only sickness.
Arising out of the grasp and distortion of reality we make a mind that has confused individuality of God’s Expression with a private mind thinking love-lessly.
We can choose to use our mind uncreatively – but not outside the law of creation.
If we choose separating from Love’s Movement or Felt Life, then we see and experience as ‘separate(ing) mind’.
As long as we value or desire anything in this mindset of force we will bind ourselves to its loveless vision.
False desire may operate automatically by deeply entrenched habit and seems to be reflected as reality within and without.
Minds that share this addiction are all programmed as validating each other to maintain the game in which conflict is taken to be really real.
Yet the complexity of defensiveness that has been made to attempt to coerce truth to an unshared or false desire is irrelevant to its foundation – which is that of remaining unaware of your true desire.
A sense of our true desire may arise from any unguarded moment.
To accept and receive this knowing is to allow its movement to embody through us.
It is always Life and is always Present. Its recognition is in the heart – directly.
It may also express as a result of a sense of frustrated being that IS presently recognised as essentially unfulfilling and not actually desired.
This is a state of mind from which liberation is desirable.
Yet attention is trapped in its own attempt to solve or salve itself within the unmindful premise of its own seemingly independent power.
Holy Spirit is Original mind restated in which we can directly look upon thought and attention and their results as a knowing and not merely a further thinking.
It is also the honesty of seeing and observing altogether presently. For when nothing else is asserted in its place it is revealed as the living Presence of what you are – at a level and in a form that is relevant to releasing your current level of ignorance.
We mostly have very little idea the degree to which our every experience, interaction, communication and perception is predicated upon thought and desire.
These thoughts can be translated by aligning with awakened or true desire such that less and less is obstructing the natural realisation of truth.
For Realisation is simply the release of the mind that one is not, into direct experience that is primarily felt as communion- participation.
This can be expressed thus:
Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. Love your neighbour as yourself.
Such is not a social 'should' but the truth revealed and expressed. The Truth is Given - but its acceptance requires freely releasing the false.
The nature of the false was its replacement of truth, and so the restoration of the truth of the mind that you truly are, is the perfect home-be-ing of a heart that feels and knows and expresses and embodies life – without apology or justification.
This has been a meditation for me
and is also shared.
Practicing the presence
is not really a word thing
but words are not really word things.
They are messengers of the mind that gives and receives.
In Peace
Brian
2008/01/11
Of allowing release of denied mind to awareness
Rising fears
in failure.
Such shame
as helpless,
mutiny unmans
A falling apart
in guise of poverty
in mask of illness
such pains of loss
in misalignment
turned malignant
A meaninglessness
into a mind of
madness and
deep terror,
of possession
by hate
of very self,
in murderous
intent.
Yet by denial
is frozen, scattered.
This act that would,
yet can not!
It but replays
itself within
denied impossibility .
Auto repeating
itself as every
impulse of
I Am,
that Moves
as Life,
is killed
by judgement
From a mind
that asserts
insanity
as truth
and Truth
insane.
Nothing can
ever resolve
an unreal
conflict
Waking up
is release into
an always
already free
singular
expression
That which Lights
this mind
Is self existing
awareness
Deny not
the
the Life
I am
But give only
as you do receive
and this is done.
brian in a moment
2008/01/06
Poem on a hatred that arose and faded
It can appear
I am that which has just cause to fear.
For in this mind I see a fascination in,
attraction both to horror and to sin.
If evil thought,
An intent that loveth not,
Lives in me?
Love therefore - I cannot be!
Of the hated I may try to rid
and of myself keep hatred hid
by masquerade of face that’s fair
and join in making fear ‘out there’.
Self denial offers protection,
in thought to ease this self affliction.
But joy and peace are surely lost
for must the sinner pay the cost.
For would not Love’s own light; awareness shine,
Reveal the hate that masks its hidden mind?
Who looks as if in secret and alone
and yet does grasp this making as its own!
To hold its will apart it does perceive
yet keeps a face for love
that feigns but to deceive
and even so is proud of
For thus must seem a life until a truth untainted
shows the meaningless can not with truth be painted
howsoever we try to keep the lid
that works to keep the hatred hid
Now! look I anew in trust of seeing,
These witnesses to loveless being.
Desire that speaks a wish insane
revealed by light of higher plane
The desecration of your heart
is but a dream right from its start
For nothing Is but lives in Me
Apart from Love can never Be.
A life once lived as if in hiding
turned around from curse of fear
To willingness for light abiding
In faith to let this mind be clear.
brian in a few moments
I am that which has just cause to fear.
For in this mind I see a fascination in,
attraction both to horror and to sin.
If evil thought,
An intent that loveth not,
Lives in me?
Love therefore - I cannot be!
Of the hated I may try to rid
and of myself keep hatred hid
by masquerade of face that’s fair
and join in making fear ‘out there’.
Self denial offers protection,
in thought to ease this self affliction.
But joy and peace are surely lost
for must the sinner pay the cost.
For would not Love’s own light; awareness shine,
Reveal the hate that masks its hidden mind?
Who looks as if in secret and alone
and yet does grasp this making as its own!
To hold its will apart it does perceive
yet keeps a face for love
that feigns but to deceive
and even so is proud of
For thus must seem a life until a truth untainted
shows the meaningless can not with truth be painted
howsoever we try to keep the lid
that works to keep the hatred hid
Now! look I anew in trust of seeing,
These witnesses to loveless being.
Desire that speaks a wish insane
revealed by light of higher plane
The desecration of your heart
is but a dream right from its start
For nothing Is but lives in Me
Apart from Love can never Be.
A life once lived as if in hiding
turned around from curse of fear
To willingness for light abiding
In faith to let this mind be clear.
brian in a few moments
2007/12/21
My only begotten Son
My only begotten Son
is yet the Life
in every one,
For no thing is, but lives in Me
I send to you this message
Across all time and space
“You are My Child
Dearly beloved.
By Light you Know you Are
Why wander lonely;
Amidst a clouded mind,
in thought that is not Mine?
Yet I With You is not undone
but waits
your welcome for its time
Lo! Angel insight
Wondrous awe
a child is knocking
at your door!
No stranger here,
but stranger you’ve become,
unto your heart.
Look past all thought and see
Thy joy is
calling thee!
Jesus did not come to die
but did with love forgive
In light of truth he shows the way
In Truth to truly Live
For One he loved
as one in all
My love he gave
and giveth still
So Love Me as your father with all your heart and soul
and love your brother as your self - by this we share one will.
My Son
Who Art in Me
Hallowed be Thy Name
May thy love come
through our Will as one
Give Me this day
and forgive me your illusions
in all as you behold with Me
even as I have none in you.
For Thou Art My Kingdom
In Power and in Glory
Eternal
So Be it.
is yet the Life
in every one,
For no thing is, but lives in Me
I send to you this message
Across all time and space
“You are My Child
Dearly beloved.
By Light you Know you Are
Why wander lonely;
Amidst a clouded mind,
in thought that is not Mine?
Yet I With You is not undone
but waits
your welcome for its time
Lo! Angel insight
Wondrous awe
a child is knocking
at your door!
No stranger here,
but stranger you’ve become,
unto your heart.
Look past all thought and see
Thy joy is
calling thee!
Jesus did not come to die
but did with love forgive
In light of truth he shows the way
In Truth to truly Live
For One he loved
as one in all
My love he gave
and giveth still
So Love Me as your father with all your heart and soul
and love your brother as your self - by this we share one will.
My Son
Who Art in Me
Hallowed be Thy Name
May thy love come
through our Will as one
Give Me this day
and forgive me your illusions
in all as you behold with Me
even as I have none in you.
For Thou Art My Kingdom
In Power and in Glory
Eternal
So Be it.
Into the Dark
Into the dark an old year falls
where shade gives way to light
that comes again and ever shall
while earth its circle flies.
A tapestry of dark and light
that seems to ever come and go
within which do we love and hate
as each life cycle’s so.
A world of struggle unto which
we clasp our wish and grasp our day
then falling out of sighted reach
to place forgot, a timeless way
Though oft in moments comes unbidden
deeper knowings stirred
Joy calls forth the heart that’s hidden
‘Awaken of this world’!
For though the turning years that waste
and wasted lie behind,
is yet thy Father’s Love for thee
whole, complete, Divine.
What then of time wouldst thou possess
if here now rooted being?
No more the driven loneliness
in dark and light unseeing.
Into the dark an old thought falls
as shade dissolves to Light
that comes again and ever shall
while earth your circle flies.
where shade gives way to light
that comes again and ever shall
while earth its circle flies.
A tapestry of dark and light
that seems to ever come and go
within which do we love and hate
as each life cycle’s so.
A world of struggle unto which
we clasp our wish and grasp our day
then falling out of sighted reach
to place forgot, a timeless way
Though oft in moments comes unbidden
deeper knowings stirred
Joy calls forth the heart that’s hidden
‘Awaken of this world’!
For though the turning years that waste
and wasted lie behind,
is yet thy Father’s Love for thee
whole, complete, Divine.
What then of time wouldst thou possess
if here now rooted being?
No more the driven loneliness
in dark and light unseeing.
Into the dark an old thought falls
as shade dissolves to Light
that comes again and ever shall
while earth your circle flies.
2007/12/15
The truly impossible is to be without or separate from God – the very Aliveness
But it is true that we can wish so - and we can believe it so in our own thinking.
Thus the little mind seems to have done this and the world proclaims it so.
The little mind is represented as a body limited separateness that exercises private authority for its own separate purposes - namely survival.
This may seem a meaningful adventure for a time but the transitory nature of its condition is itself a meaninglessness in a larger mind which cannot be altogether forgot.
To dry up – or run out of the capacity to maintain the separative state is like the prodigal son. It is to come to the certainty of the impossibility and futility of achieving the impossible: living without God - the Life that Is.
In God life is revealed anew and this experience expresses wholeness, Innocence, Spirit Awareness, and the world – with this Vision – proclaims it is so – WITH your brother. This cannot proceed from one's own thinking. Yet it inevitably proceeds from living with and from a rootedness in Presence not of your making.
The seeming impossibilities of doing what love would have you do are to be undone by willingness to take THIS step in trust – joined with God in faith. For the step you are taking now is the expression of your faith in being and your willingness to trust your life as it is Given.
HolySpirit is the call to awaken to Be what it is that you Are - before ever a world was conceived of in which love was not.
So He will arrange all things such as to maximise the benefit to all of your willingness to be.
As love moves you then that very desire is the engine of accomplishment and Spirit will align to the desire that is held - and teach you with what you teach yourself.
If fear prompts - even seemingly spiritual things - the desires will be conflicted and so will the outcome. To become free of conflict we need be still and accept what we discover as the true desire of our heart. For this, old thinking can only block, and so we must be freely receptive enough to allow Reality to come into where our thinking had closed about us. This is always and only experienced as a present directness of being. It is what appears to rise when the self-thinking recedes but really it is already here and truth but unrecognized while preoccupied with self and its script.
This mind is not a separate mind that is joined with others. Mind is an un-separate Intelligence. This is only experience-able Presently.
Individuality is the irreducible 'I Am' that takes unique expression in all things and yet is one. Thus when you allow reality back into your mind you will recognise all things and give that recognition. "This is my Son in whom is my Joy"
Ego would like to wake up in order to get super powers to heal all things in its own image and set them to right. It has been attempting this since it was first set in thought.
The prodigal son after hitting rock bottom was wholly willing to be but a servant in his Father’s house.
These thoughts in my heart I share with you
Brian
Thus the little mind seems to have done this and the world proclaims it so.
The little mind is represented as a body limited separateness that exercises private authority for its own separate purposes - namely survival.
This may seem a meaningful adventure for a time but the transitory nature of its condition is itself a meaninglessness in a larger mind which cannot be altogether forgot.
To dry up – or run out of the capacity to maintain the separative state is like the prodigal son. It is to come to the certainty of the impossibility and futility of achieving the impossible: living without God - the Life that Is.
In God life is revealed anew and this experience expresses wholeness, Innocence, Spirit Awareness, and the world – with this Vision – proclaims it is so – WITH your brother. This cannot proceed from one's own thinking. Yet it inevitably proceeds from living with and from a rootedness in Presence not of your making.
The seeming impossibilities of doing what love would have you do are to be undone by willingness to take THIS step in trust – joined with God in faith. For the step you are taking now is the expression of your faith in being and your willingness to trust your life as it is Given.
HolySpirit is the call to awaken to Be what it is that you Are - before ever a world was conceived of in which love was not.
So He will arrange all things such as to maximise the benefit to all of your willingness to be.
As love moves you then that very desire is the engine of accomplishment and Spirit will align to the desire that is held - and teach you with what you teach yourself.
If fear prompts - even seemingly spiritual things - the desires will be conflicted and so will the outcome. To become free of conflict we need be still and accept what we discover as the true desire of our heart. For this, old thinking can only block, and so we must be freely receptive enough to allow Reality to come into where our thinking had closed about us. This is always and only experienced as a present directness of being. It is what appears to rise when the self-thinking recedes but really it is already here and truth but unrecognized while preoccupied with self and its script.
This mind is not a separate mind that is joined with others. Mind is an un-separate Intelligence. This is only experience-able Presently.
Individuality is the irreducible 'I Am' that takes unique expression in all things and yet is one. Thus when you allow reality back into your mind you will recognise all things and give that recognition. "This is my Son in whom is my Joy"
Ego would like to wake up in order to get super powers to heal all things in its own image and set them to right. It has been attempting this since it was first set in thought.
The prodigal son after hitting rock bottom was wholly willing to be but a servant in his Father’s house.
These thoughts in my heart I share with you
Brian
2007/12/13
There are games that can only be played in darkness.
When the light of awareness is allowed to be, the darkness is not here and the apparent choice to hide and seek in alien realm is undermined as a feasibility.
To choose the illusion as a conscious act is itself a less dense experience of illusion – because you KNOW that you are doing it – even if you manage to pull the covers over and reinstate the fantasy – you are less able to believe it has an independent foundation than when involved in mere reaction – because the act by which the experience is entertained has become revealed as the mind that you are actively extending.
To be entranced amidst one’s own a-maze-ment as a private use of mind requires ignorance; which became associated in time with the ‘death’ or ‘abandonment’ of God.
To look upon the body of the world in entranced private will – will always and inevitably enact a process of chain reaction whereby glory grasped will become – step by step – the utter stink of guilt, self loathing and terror.
The mind that seeks to defend against awakening is forever seeking the means to delay the recognition of the truth by overcoming the adversity by any means it can find – at any expense to truth – for truth is only a currency of conflict to such a mind.
Yet – in any instant where the grip is noticed and released as resulting in unwanted receiving and giving – does the mind overlook everything that before it found seductive or repulsive. All of it is of an order that is looked past in willingness to give and receive – not from my making – but to be led by the Guide that is the Truth of You in waiting. Whose Gift stands clearly recognisable by virtue only of no other force of will being present.
In this revealed Light is a perfect Love given and received that utterly dispels illusion such that the light is the truth of all that is seen and known and all things communicate this perfectly.
How can such as this statement be – in such a world as we seem to live?
Turn around and ask how can such a world be – in a Presence and Peace and Light that is closer to You than ever could the self imaged become – or even the thought of a self apart.
At the still point of the turning world is a present that is as like, a focus of attention from the root to it’s wholeness.
All the words are added later, every experience we have of Truth is pure.
All the concepts are brought in as a bridge – even if it seems they are the work of a thief.
It is not a matter of chipping away at the density beliefs of guilt in order to rejuvenate our image of ourselves – for this is merely the prolonging of suffering if pursued as an answer. Redemption and Rejoicing is rather of the acceptance and sharing of atonement; the undoing of a self as a power. The true Power of God acts not upon parts, nor is partial in intent or effect. Therefore you cannot be partially good – but are altogether Good. The seeming witnesses to guilt do not require overcoming. Merely discrediting. Therefore they must be brought to the light to see their foundation – for this is the only basis of discerning the truth of anything.
Words and concepts are threads pulled from a wholeness that has no parts – for all parts call on all parts.
Amidst the valuing of the levers of belief, must they be used to open the way to self knowledge amidst Self Knowing. But nothing can ever be said that expresses who you are.
Yet in the unclothing of you to yourself will you find that who you are is already expressing perfectly.
In receiving this you have the clear opportunity to share as you are being shared and so remain in appreciation of the light of truth.
The attempt to fit the realisation to the terms of the world will fail – but even this can be used to teach the willingness that is present.
But the willingness to express the loving in the world will join the invitation and witness for truth.
This will often seem to be – or pass through - loving the un-loveable, until the mind loses the habit of getting in its own image.
Father, I left you as a Son and gave all I had to false gods for my own illusion.
Now at last I remember you and ask no more than to be as a servant in your house.
And though you greet me ‘Son’; as Self of selves, I know your call extends to all.
Let my illusion be laid at your feet for by this alone is understanding true.
Beloved.
To choose the illusion as a conscious act is itself a less dense experience of illusion – because you KNOW that you are doing it – even if you manage to pull the covers over and reinstate the fantasy – you are less able to believe it has an independent foundation than when involved in mere reaction – because the act by which the experience is entertained has become revealed as the mind that you are actively extending.
To be entranced amidst one’s own a-maze-ment as a private use of mind requires ignorance; which became associated in time with the ‘death’ or ‘abandonment’ of God.
To look upon the body of the world in entranced private will – will always and inevitably enact a process of chain reaction whereby glory grasped will become – step by step – the utter stink of guilt, self loathing and terror.
The mind that seeks to defend against awakening is forever seeking the means to delay the recognition of the truth by overcoming the adversity by any means it can find – at any expense to truth – for truth is only a currency of conflict to such a mind.
Yet – in any instant where the grip is noticed and released as resulting in unwanted receiving and giving – does the mind overlook everything that before it found seductive or repulsive. All of it is of an order that is looked past in willingness to give and receive – not from my making – but to be led by the Guide that is the Truth of You in waiting. Whose Gift stands clearly recognisable by virtue only of no other force of will being present.
In this revealed Light is a perfect Love given and received that utterly dispels illusion such that the light is the truth of all that is seen and known and all things communicate this perfectly.
How can such as this statement be – in such a world as we seem to live?
Turn around and ask how can such a world be – in a Presence and Peace and Light that is closer to You than ever could the self imaged become – or even the thought of a self apart.
At the still point of the turning world is a present that is as like, a focus of attention from the root to it’s wholeness.
All the words are added later, every experience we have of Truth is pure.
All the concepts are brought in as a bridge – even if it seems they are the work of a thief.
It is not a matter of chipping away at the density beliefs of guilt in order to rejuvenate our image of ourselves – for this is merely the prolonging of suffering if pursued as an answer. Redemption and Rejoicing is rather of the acceptance and sharing of atonement; the undoing of a self as a power. The true Power of God acts not upon parts, nor is partial in intent or effect. Therefore you cannot be partially good – but are altogether Good. The seeming witnesses to guilt do not require overcoming. Merely discrediting. Therefore they must be brought to the light to see their foundation – for this is the only basis of discerning the truth of anything.
Words and concepts are threads pulled from a wholeness that has no parts – for all parts call on all parts.
Amidst the valuing of the levers of belief, must they be used to open the way to self knowledge amidst Self Knowing. But nothing can ever be said that expresses who you are.
Yet in the unclothing of you to yourself will you find that who you are is already expressing perfectly.
In receiving this you have the clear opportunity to share as you are being shared and so remain in appreciation of the light of truth.
The attempt to fit the realisation to the terms of the world will fail – but even this can be used to teach the willingness that is present.
But the willingness to express the loving in the world will join the invitation and witness for truth.
This will often seem to be – or pass through - loving the un-loveable, until the mind loses the habit of getting in its own image.
Father, I left you as a Son and gave all I had to false gods for my own illusion.
Now at last I remember you and ask no more than to be as a servant in your house.
And though you greet me ‘Son’; as Self of selves, I know your call extends to all.
Let my illusion be laid at your feet for by this alone is understanding true.
Beloved.
2007/12/01
What is the meaning of life?
What is the meaning of life?
The question – if asked of the ego gives rise to thinking that may take the form of ‘meanings’.
The same question asked of the Spirit gives rise to an experience of Meaning that is the absence of any such 'meanings'.
Only the meaning-less mind would seriously ask what the meaning of life is.
For who in their right mind would step out of the flow to think about instead of be?
The ego’s linear self-other conceptual linkages make doing and purpose as if the same as meaning.
I feel purpose and meaning are of different aspects – but Know Thyself is close as words get to describe the law of Mind.
If I think about the why or what for, of eternal being extending forever in Creation of its own extending to Itself, I may dispirit myself by judgements and differentiations that are not inherent in the Flow but are the evidence of the wish to be as I am not.
Like getting caught up in mechanical otherness instead of making love. The Nowness of giving is receiving. There just is no way to talk this!
Another approach to the meaning of life is to invite experiential participation.
What is the meaning of dancing or singing?
No amount of words will ever mean anything – relative to actually embracing the participation of singing or dancing.
As a practitioner of both I can say the the meaning of both is an ever deepening glory, wonder and freedom born of a willingness to be an open channel for inspiration. Yet even so – it is not the lovely experiences in themselves that are the value – but the wellspring from which they rise.
The question – if asked of the ego gives rise to thinking that may take the form of ‘meanings’.
The same question asked of the Spirit gives rise to an experience of Meaning that is the absence of any such 'meanings'.
Only the meaning-less mind would seriously ask what the meaning of life is.
For who in their right mind would step out of the flow to think about instead of be?
The ego’s linear self-other conceptual linkages make doing and purpose as if the same as meaning.
I feel purpose and meaning are of different aspects – but Know Thyself is close as words get to describe the law of Mind.
If I think about the why or what for, of eternal being extending forever in Creation of its own extending to Itself, I may dispirit myself by judgements and differentiations that are not inherent in the Flow but are the evidence of the wish to be as I am not.
Like getting caught up in mechanical otherness instead of making love. The Nowness of giving is receiving. There just is no way to talk this!
Another approach to the meaning of life is to invite experiential participation.
What is the meaning of dancing or singing?
No amount of words will ever mean anything – relative to actually embracing the participation of singing or dancing.
As a practitioner of both I can say the the meaning of both is an ever deepening glory, wonder and freedom born of a willingness to be an open channel for inspiration. Yet even so – it is not the lovely experiences in themselves that are the value – but the wellspring from which they rise.
2007/11/27
Feeling and emotions
I find it helpful to differentiate between feeling and emotions.
Feeling is a dimensionality of being – I might say that it is the tone of the Flow.
This may express through form on various levels but is essentially transcendent – in that we cannot separate it or from it.
Emotions – I see as limits or a cut off of feeling and always are a little cameo picture about ‘me’ or 'mine'.
Some may seem positive and some negative but I see these as judgements. The ‘good’ ones may seem good but are still separative illusion.
Whenever I invest acceptance and believe in judgements I will always forfeit the point of view of love – and become problematically identified and defensive. The symptom of this is chronic thinking; a preoccupation with internal mappings that substitute for actual connection.
The seeming intensity of such self –judgmental ‘realities’ becomes extreme from the perspective of ‘normal’ human parameters – such that we may fear for our sanity – until of course we ask within of Sanity and allow its Embrace.
But under the spell of emotionally backed judgements are our minds enslaved to a wish to be the determiner, preferring that we be right than truly happy. Deferring the checking in with our being now until we have dealt with or resolved the problem as we see it.
The addiction of ego is a habit long held and yet its undoing - as with all addictions - is the willingness to bring awareness to uncover the true desire of the heart. The direction of this willingness is contrary to the structure and intent of the ego mindset. A willingness to look calmly upon the causes of war within our own mind.
I am reminded here of the Lord of The Rings story – where the little hobbit has to relinquish a fearsome and addictive power in the place where it originated. Mordor.
This symbolised the place of horror. The last place in Middle Earth that anyone would want to go!
My reliance on guidance increases with every step. I have a voice in me that at times can ‘long’ for a way out – back to securities that – if I am honest – are ego security. Yes that is an oxymoron - a contradiction in terms. In truth this is simply a delay.
Whenever I let the Spirit in – it speaks all things and that includes thought and feeling and form. But it’s world is wholly guiltless.
That’s why I cant differentiate at level of form. The room I am sitting in with all its moment is floating in and as an expression of awareness - the Light of Mind. Well that’s a way of feeling it – and makes a welcome change from a picture of limitation.
Why let go of emotions?
Because at some level I know they are false, joyless and express a mind in me that I do not desire to grow.
Because I love Freedom!
Feeling is a dimensionality of being – I might say that it is the tone of the Flow.
This may express through form on various levels but is essentially transcendent – in that we cannot separate it or from it.
Emotions – I see as limits or a cut off of feeling and always are a little cameo picture about ‘me’ or 'mine'.
Some may seem positive and some negative but I see these as judgements. The ‘good’ ones may seem good but are still separative illusion.
Whenever I invest acceptance and believe in judgements I will always forfeit the point of view of love – and become problematically identified and defensive. The symptom of this is chronic thinking; a preoccupation with internal mappings that substitute for actual connection.
The seeming intensity of such self –judgmental ‘realities’ becomes extreme from the perspective of ‘normal’ human parameters – such that we may fear for our sanity – until of course we ask within of Sanity and allow its Embrace.
But under the spell of emotionally backed judgements are our minds enslaved to a wish to be the determiner, preferring that we be right than truly happy. Deferring the checking in with our being now until we have dealt with or resolved the problem as we see it.
The addiction of ego is a habit long held and yet its undoing - as with all addictions - is the willingness to bring awareness to uncover the true desire of the heart. The direction of this willingness is contrary to the structure and intent of the ego mindset. A willingness to look calmly upon the causes of war within our own mind.
I am reminded here of the Lord of The Rings story – where the little hobbit has to relinquish a fearsome and addictive power in the place where it originated. Mordor.
This symbolised the place of horror. The last place in Middle Earth that anyone would want to go!
My reliance on guidance increases with every step. I have a voice in me that at times can ‘long’ for a way out – back to securities that – if I am honest – are ego security. Yes that is an oxymoron - a contradiction in terms. In truth this is simply a delay.
Whenever I let the Spirit in – it speaks all things and that includes thought and feeling and form. But it’s world is wholly guiltless.
That’s why I cant differentiate at level of form. The room I am sitting in with all its moment is floating in and as an expression of awareness - the Light of Mind. Well that’s a way of feeling it – and makes a welcome change from a picture of limitation.
Why let go of emotions?
Because at some level I know they are false, joyless and express a mind in me that I do not desire to grow.
Because I love Freedom!
Holy Spirit Mind
Holy-Spirit-Mind
offers replacement
for the separate I.
step by Step
by
step.
Its peace
shares
freely.
Here by release
of the ‘not so’
an already truth
reveals
Nothing Real
is threatened.
The ego is a how-to
a way not-to
release asserted limitation.
its ‘knowing’
my forgetting.
But in a moment
Forgetting to forget
Neglecting to neglect
Is noticing
the ego self
is not I
Nothing unreal
exists!
Though attention
muscles itself
clenched upon,
as mind un-shared,
as if ‘as if’ were real.
The Peace of God
abides
Perfectly
Herein
And cannot be undone
for Father IS the Truth of Son
Draw comfort that discomfort
may be embraced as witness
to a left behind mind
Enjoin your own
in choosing Joy
as I-with-Thee
for all are called
as I am calling
Thee.
Brian in a moment
offers replacement
for the separate I.
step by Step
by
step.
Its peace
shares
freely.
Here by release
of the ‘not so’
an already truth
reveals
Nothing Real
is threatened.
The ego is a how-to
a way not-to
release asserted limitation.
its ‘knowing’
my forgetting.
But in a moment
Forgetting to forget
Neglecting to neglect
Is noticing
the ego self
is not I
Nothing unreal
exists!
Though attention
muscles itself
clenched upon,
as mind un-shared,
as if ‘as if’ were real.
The Peace of God
abides
Perfectly
Herein
And cannot be undone
for Father IS the Truth of Son
Draw comfort that discomfort
may be embraced as witness
to a left behind mind
Enjoin your own
in choosing Joy
as I-with-Thee
for all are called
as I am calling
Thee.
Brian in a moment
2007/11/19
Truth but waits on welcome
Truth but waits
on welcome so,
love’s full embrace
extends to show
that wheresoe’r
the false wouldst be
is not without
the bounds of Me
And all that teacheth
of the lie
a ‘stolen light’
its’ hidden eye’
will yet but teach that
I Am I
brian in a moment
on welcome so,
love’s full embrace
extends to show
that wheresoe’r
the false wouldst be
is not without
the bounds of Me
And all that teacheth
of the lie
a ‘stolen light’
its’ hidden eye’
will yet but teach that
I Am I
brian in a moment
2007/10/23
Computer Metaphors of the mind -: Noticing
If one were to run a program called ‘noticing’ as a willingness to notice presently without identifying via judgement, it would be a small download, and simply run without issue as long as it was maintained as a front parent process within which all other programs run.
If any other program attempts to run its own process so as to block or interfere It notices that and relaunches and comes to the front.
Other than this it doesnt interfere with other programs running, but they might fail to run within conditions of ‘noticing’ if they were designed to only run code in the background - for this is ‘not noticing’. If the not noticing insisted that it runs unnoticed within ‘noticing’ then the program ‘noticing’ self quits in protection of itegrity but in readiness to run as soon as conditions of integrity are present.
If the environment of othermindedness or ‘not noticing’ was so full of conflicting programs and messages that it effectively rendered the 'noticing' to the background almost continuously, then it might be possible to construct carrying and holding programs that fend off the worst offending distraction and denial programs - so as to allow the experience of 'noticing' to register as full functionality. This would be a bigger download and would run at various levels simultaneously.
It would only run on systems that have had malicious software - that actively undermines system integrity - removed.
A Course in Miracles is an example of such a multiple faceted program with the simple core of noticing.
If its information was merely data then it would indeed be bloatware!
But it runs as an active process every time it is given willingness of attention. Some aspects work to confound the mind that would suss it out and assimilate its ideas. Some work to suddenly reveal a passage of incomparable beauty. Some work to temporarily counter deeply held convictions as to the solidity and density and reality of definitions within a mind. But it also opens a simple noticing that is not in reaction to anything but is already the case. This is like a dawning of the Mind within the mind that thought it thought apart.
in Love's blessing
Brian
If any other program attempts to run its own process so as to block or interfere It notices that and relaunches and comes to the front.
Other than this it doesnt interfere with other programs running, but they might fail to run within conditions of ‘noticing’ if they were designed to only run code in the background - for this is ‘not noticing’. If the not noticing insisted that it runs unnoticed within ‘noticing’ then the program ‘noticing’ self quits in protection of itegrity but in readiness to run as soon as conditions of integrity are present.
If the environment of othermindedness or ‘not noticing’ was so full of conflicting programs and messages that it effectively rendered the 'noticing' to the background almost continuously, then it might be possible to construct carrying and holding programs that fend off the worst offending distraction and denial programs - so as to allow the experience of 'noticing' to register as full functionality. This would be a bigger download and would run at various levels simultaneously.
It would only run on systems that have had malicious software - that actively undermines system integrity - removed.
A Course in Miracles is an example of such a multiple faceted program with the simple core of noticing.
If its information was merely data then it would indeed be bloatware!
But it runs as an active process every time it is given willingness of attention. Some aspects work to confound the mind that would suss it out and assimilate its ideas. Some work to suddenly reveal a passage of incomparable beauty. Some work to temporarily counter deeply held convictions as to the solidity and density and reality of definitions within a mind. But it also opens a simple noticing that is not in reaction to anything but is already the case. This is like a dawning of the Mind within the mind that thought it thought apart.
in Love's blessing
Brian
All that one need do is notice
We often try to apply an answer before the insight is actually opened in and as an expression of awakened intelligence.
To invite insight is to free attention from identification with its ‘object of un-affection’.
‘Bless you’ is an attitude of expression that is aligned with affection.
Focusing on the negative will always feed the negative and seduce the mind to try and overcome it.
So when something ‘obtuse’ seems to arise, we can practice this attitude and notice where our resistance reveals our personal agenda - and let pass by in willingness to align anyway.
The intent is to realign with the condition and flow of what is Truth.
All that one need do is notice and to allow that is to desist from doing something else.
Notice the events that appear to be within or without. Stay in noticing and include basic relaxation attitudes that proceed naturally from a desire to have the truth that you do not make - be revealed, uncovered, in the mind of You. I assure you that if you notice thinking from the place that can simply notice, then you will have awoken from the belief that you are the one who is thinking or that that thinking represents or expresses You.
(For at least that moment).
As long as we have something to achieve - in terms of who we think we are - we will get identity reinforced as the one who believes he knows and does. Yet we have no independent capacity to know and do - only a fantasy that we have made up and invested our desire and attention in believing.
When the capacity to pretend is starved of its support, then one is brought to a single point that to ego feels like a process of humiliation and disintegration - but to Spirit is a cleansing or purifying experience of simplicity and unclutteredness.
Here is a light that ego cannot see and a peace it cannot understand. But so what! YOU can feel the heart's movement. The light of awareness is with you and Is you, and the peace of acceptance is like being Home.
In commitment of willingness for waking up we each will meet what will seem as great temptation to actively believe that we are what we are not. All this means is that we have greatly desired to be orphaned stringless puppets - and have entrenched our mind in a posture of overcoming and resisting - and thereby maintaining our separateness - but only in our own partitioned mentality.
Noticing allows spontaneous recognition that, of itself restores and realigns the attention with the heart (intuitive wholeness) that feels Life freely given as it very being.
In Peace
Brian
To invite insight is to free attention from identification with its ‘object of un-affection’.
‘Bless you’ is an attitude of expression that is aligned with affection.
Focusing on the negative will always feed the negative and seduce the mind to try and overcome it.
So when something ‘obtuse’ seems to arise, we can practice this attitude and notice where our resistance reveals our personal agenda - and let pass by in willingness to align anyway.
The intent is to realign with the condition and flow of what is Truth.
All that one need do is notice and to allow that is to desist from doing something else.
Notice the events that appear to be within or without. Stay in noticing and include basic relaxation attitudes that proceed naturally from a desire to have the truth that you do not make - be revealed, uncovered, in the mind of You. I assure you that if you notice thinking from the place that can simply notice, then you will have awoken from the belief that you are the one who is thinking or that that thinking represents or expresses You.
(For at least that moment).
As long as we have something to achieve - in terms of who we think we are - we will get identity reinforced as the one who believes he knows and does. Yet we have no independent capacity to know and do - only a fantasy that we have made up and invested our desire and attention in believing.
When the capacity to pretend is starved of its support, then one is brought to a single point that to ego feels like a process of humiliation and disintegration - but to Spirit is a cleansing or purifying experience of simplicity and unclutteredness.
Here is a light that ego cannot see and a peace it cannot understand. But so what! YOU can feel the heart's movement. The light of awareness is with you and Is you, and the peace of acceptance is like being Home.
In commitment of willingness for waking up we each will meet what will seem as great temptation to actively believe that we are what we are not. All this means is that we have greatly desired to be orphaned stringless puppets - and have entrenched our mind in a posture of overcoming and resisting - and thereby maintaining our separateness - but only in our own partitioned mentality.
Noticing allows spontaneous recognition that, of itself restores and realigns the attention with the heart (intuitive wholeness) that feels Life freely given as it very being.
In Peace
Brian
2007/10/19
One must have an object of affection to awaken - Raj
Raj - Jesus speaks through Paul Tuttle and can be listened to or read freely at :
http://www.nwffacim.org
The value of doing so is self evident for me. I have no need to convince anyone or validate mutual agreements as to Raj.
I recognise truth within my heart whatever the forms or traditions or sources.
- - -
“One must have an object of affection to awaken”.
Cathi and I found the term “object of affection” a bit cool and scientific when Raj first used it. But he uses it often.
But upon being asked what the phrase meant I volunteered the writing below:
God has an Object of affection - it is His Son.
(Formless Cause)(movement of Being)(Manifestation)
The manifestation as and through the Son is the working of the law 'Know Thyself'.
- (And It Was Good!)
It appears that mind can fragment and dissociate so as to pursue imaginative goals.
But when mind creates without love it discovers - a seeming loveless self and world.
This is an error and is corrected by bringing mind into alignment with it Source and Truth.
Loving as God Loves.
The error takes the form of unrecognised and unworthy or unlovable other. It also takes the form of special other which validates or justifies the judgmental mind that IS the error.
We dont 'do' the love - we bring a willingness to listen and receive and accept and extend.
The love that spontaneously is revealed as Life where the previous mind had seemed to differentiate, define, analyse and control. It is Awakening - from which the previous mind is clearly contrasted as a sort of attention trap. A fascination.
Raj has often invited or exhorted us to allow and open ourself to the experience of ongoing intimacy - with anything as well as other beings. Releasing definitions and being thoughtlessly but feelingly WITH.
In this way the world is re membered to be in the Mind that is Thought.
The world never was 'the world' as an external existence to which we are subject - but its release from that use takes practice by which we re integrate as an Awake Identity that is implicit in Loving.
We are always in experience of something. In taken-for-granted-land we already 'know' and so we dont really be present with very much because we already have a reaction to that.
But that is false. It is a replay of thinking that is private - even if it is similar to a lot of other private minds. It is no relationship at all! No guilt here - just a phenomenal deception.
Joylessness in life is pain! - and whatever symptoms arise they express the loss of true innocence, freedom and the joy that shines therein. Yet not lost - only covered over.
By thinking that can be undone.
There is a song I know that says:
"From you I receive, to you I give, together we share, by this we live".
In blessing our brother - our world as we meet it - we open a channel wherein we desist from habits of ignorance, and allow the light, the love and the help of Spirit to shine into our life from where we thought we knew and didnt bother opening up with. This immediately shares out unless we block its expression.
Thank you for being here and sharing this little journey.
in Gratitude
Brian
http://www.nwffacim.org
The value of doing so is self evident for me. I have no need to convince anyone or validate mutual agreements as to Raj.
I recognise truth within my heart whatever the forms or traditions or sources.
- - -
“One must have an object of affection to awaken”.
Cathi and I found the term “object of affection” a bit cool and scientific when Raj first used it. But he uses it often.
But upon being asked what the phrase meant I volunteered the writing below:
God has an Object of affection - it is His Son.
(Formless Cause)(movement of Being)(Manifestation)
The manifestation as and through the Son is the working of the law 'Know Thyself'.
- (And It Was Good!)
It appears that mind can fragment and dissociate so as to pursue imaginative goals.
But when mind creates without love it discovers - a seeming loveless self and world.
This is an error and is corrected by bringing mind into alignment with it Source and Truth.
Loving as God Loves.
The error takes the form of unrecognised and unworthy or unlovable other. It also takes the form of special other which validates or justifies the judgmental mind that IS the error.
We dont 'do' the love - we bring a willingness to listen and receive and accept and extend.
The love that spontaneously is revealed as Life where the previous mind had seemed to differentiate, define, analyse and control. It is Awakening - from which the previous mind is clearly contrasted as a sort of attention trap. A fascination.
Raj has often invited or exhorted us to allow and open ourself to the experience of ongoing intimacy - with anything as well as other beings. Releasing definitions and being thoughtlessly but feelingly WITH.
In this way the world is re membered to be in the Mind that is Thought.
The world never was 'the world' as an external existence to which we are subject - but its release from that use takes practice by which we re integrate as an Awake Identity that is implicit in Loving.
We are always in experience of something. In taken-for-granted-land we already 'know' and so we dont really be present with very much because we already have a reaction to that.
But that is false. It is a replay of thinking that is private - even if it is similar to a lot of other private minds. It is no relationship at all! No guilt here - just a phenomenal deception.
Joylessness in life is pain! - and whatever symptoms arise they express the loss of true innocence, freedom and the joy that shines therein. Yet not lost - only covered over.
By thinking that can be undone.
There is a song I know that says:
"From you I receive, to you I give, together we share, by this we live".
In blessing our brother - our world as we meet it - we open a channel wherein we desist from habits of ignorance, and allow the light, the love and the help of Spirit to shine into our life from where we thought we knew and didnt bother opening up with. This immediately shares out unless we block its expression.
Thank you for being here and sharing this little journey.
in Gratitude
Brian
2007/10/18
An open and shut case
I have been observing the channel of feeling-being open and shut.
This is what letting in the experience of Spirit facilitates ; seeing the difference.
And having a basis for choice that is outside the programming of past learning.
The minds sutters can be a bit like a sphincter that inadvertently locks shut after even a tiny opening.
Open or shut is indeed the assertion of control or the release of control.
As open - the flow of being is not only allowed but includes and awakens what is really me.
Communion is here willingly engaged. Whatever the flow is, identifies itself as it moves and yet identifies all things as one.
It may not suggest this in words but if you rest and feel as simple noticing awareness it will speak you in intimate terms and you may find your own symbol and words if you wish to communicate about it.
As closed - the distortions manifest as complexities (of dissociation and displacement) that seem to justify differentiation and defence against the flow. Judgement and the attempt to grasp and control. In short this is me-mine-centric.
Whensome twelve years ago, I saw my truly and dearly beloved daughter's dead body, the sense of violation and grief felt like having my own soul pulled up at the root. Yet it wasnt - it was starkly and clearly revealed as a root. For the capacity to feel such a love as this is within a spaciousness that is always bigger than any thing or sense of self. Yet even here I observed the grace of flow being ‘taken over’ by crocodile tears. The love felt is Grace. The loss inferred and thought about is static interference. ‘Me me me’.
Crocodile tears are tears whose purpose is to get. Ego is only a getter. It cannot love - but it can worship and weave the forms of love into its story. If ego takes on the form of what is flowing - (as it will always attempt to do if invited by even a moment of unwatched mind taken by habit) - and I cannot at that time release it, then I desist from the form of expression until I find a sense of communion again. I dont fight or judge myself for being unable to wholly flow presently - but let it flow past like clouds. Acceptance that, is not enactment of, or investment or identification in.
There are times I have known where emotional blockages simply owned and released, have completely refreshed and healed all sorts of physical or interpersonal ailment.
But if ever I have looked for them - I have only gone on a thinking based witchhunt and prolonged ignorance.
It seems that asking is something that we do out of a sense of communion and that thinking is something we do out of a sense of control. But the latter can so often seem to be an asking because it can take the form of a question.
Resting the mind allows the space in which awareness simply rises to the fore and allows freedom to notice and recognise and appreciate.
To persist in keeping the channel open is not to apply force - but rather to grow willingness to notice when force is being applied and release it in trust.
The point at which you realize you have been sleepwalking your day is a moment of awakening - be careful that it isn't lost to self judgements!
This is what letting in the experience of Spirit facilitates ; seeing the difference.
And having a basis for choice that is outside the programming of past learning.
The minds sutters can be a bit like a sphincter that inadvertently locks shut after even a tiny opening.
Open or shut is indeed the assertion of control or the release of control.
As open - the flow of being is not only allowed but includes and awakens what is really me.
Communion is here willingly engaged. Whatever the flow is, identifies itself as it moves and yet identifies all things as one.
It may not suggest this in words but if you rest and feel as simple noticing awareness it will speak you in intimate terms and you may find your own symbol and words if you wish to communicate about it.
As closed - the distortions manifest as complexities (of dissociation and displacement) that seem to justify differentiation and defence against the flow. Judgement and the attempt to grasp and control. In short this is me-mine-centric.
Whensome twelve years ago, I saw my truly and dearly beloved daughter's dead body, the sense of violation and grief felt like having my own soul pulled up at the root. Yet it wasnt - it was starkly and clearly revealed as a root. For the capacity to feel such a love as this is within a spaciousness that is always bigger than any thing or sense of self. Yet even here I observed the grace of flow being ‘taken over’ by crocodile tears. The love felt is Grace. The loss inferred and thought about is static interference. ‘Me me me’.
Crocodile tears are tears whose purpose is to get. Ego is only a getter. It cannot love - but it can worship and weave the forms of love into its story. If ego takes on the form of what is flowing - (as it will always attempt to do if invited by even a moment of unwatched mind taken by habit) - and I cannot at that time release it, then I desist from the form of expression until I find a sense of communion again. I dont fight or judge myself for being unable to wholly flow presently - but let it flow past like clouds. Acceptance that, is not enactment of, or investment or identification in.
There are times I have known where emotional blockages simply owned and released, have completely refreshed and healed all sorts of physical or interpersonal ailment.
But if ever I have looked for them - I have only gone on a thinking based witchhunt and prolonged ignorance.
It seems that asking is something that we do out of a sense of communion and that thinking is something we do out of a sense of control. But the latter can so often seem to be an asking because it can take the form of a question.
Resting the mind allows the space in which awareness simply rises to the fore and allows freedom to notice and recognise and appreciate.
To persist in keeping the channel open is not to apply force - but rather to grow willingness to notice when force is being applied and release it in trust.
The point at which you realize you have been sleepwalking your day is a moment of awakening - be careful that it isn't lost to self judgements!
2007/10/12
Cut at the heart
Quote from A Course in Miracles :
1. Suffering is an emphasis upon all that the world has done to injure you. Here is the world’s demented version of salvation clearly shown. Like to a dream of punishment, in which the dreamer is unconscious of what brought on the attack against himself, he sees himself attacked unjustly, and by something not himself. He is the victim of this "something else," a thing outside himself, for which he has no reason to be held responsible. He must be innocent because he knows not what he does, but what is done to him. Yet is his own attack upon himself apparent still, for it is he who bears the suffering. And he cannot escape because its source is seen outside himself.
----–
The mind I call mine seems to carry an attack on life. It can show up clearly as hatred and be less obvious in expressions of irritation and impatience - but it is my own judgement upon others and the world.
But these are really my judgement on my self-as-judged and yet disowned.
The root of this seeming evil in me is too heavily fearful to allow directly into awareness and in deliberately obscured past I have sought to hide it by seeing it in all that I have disowned in my mind - and call 'world' and 'other'. This gives fenced off 'me' a breathing space where I have some sense of a self rather than unbearable conflictedness. But at great cost, because I have put the source of my judgements as if outside myself - and now suffer as if violated from the other or from outside myself.
But now I have come to recognise- to know again - that the darkness is never 'out there' but is reflecting something that has a gift for me if I can but be willing to listen and see with a fresh willingness for peace and wholeness of mind.
Last night and again this late afternoon I have experience of great pain in the right side of the heart. Like being cut. The first time was while singing for dancers and I felt to hang in and just find a way with it. It did fade after a while and caused me to moderate myself to be less energised but perhaps more transparent as a channel. Today as it hit again it brought a wave of deep emotional pains and I was tempted to follow that as if it were a cause - but the stories of 'my pains' are not worth the telling or the listening because I dont really believe them - or desire to. Self pity moved over to a sense of grimness amidst something that started to feel like hospitals, incapacity or leaving the body. I felt a great need to let everything else go - not difficult as it floored me - and just calm and feel and open. I also have the toothe ache which, though carrying a somewhat uncomfortable skull and throb, is something I have experienced trusting through and releasing fear - so it was as if the toothache was like a beacon for the larger fear. And indeed the toothache did remind me that it is my fear that causes pain to mount as if with power over me to become past bearing.
So I started the welcoming of the pain as medicine - as surgeons needle and knife. As I do so it softens because it opened a space to feel directly rather than to 'feel' my fears and thoughts about the pain. The capacity and willingness to hold and embrace is love - and this awoke in me as a sense of loving and being loved - of which the pain was not apart or violating.
I recognise that I want to be free of fear of whatever this is so that I can wholly embrace and trust. In the awakened love this is not merely thinking but love's prayer in me.
The experience had turned about and though all sorts of symptoms persisted I was in a gentle place. Very quiet within and indeed as if cut - and yet a core awareness within that has nothing spare and yet nothing lacking.
I have often wondered just how much illness and dysfunction that we seek remedy for, is in fact the gift of awakening unrecognised. I would never put this onto another unless asked of - because the essence of the matter is trust or fear.
How do I know if I am engaging with trust or allowing fear to fool me? If all I do is think (and react from that) I will surely ensure the latter.
But trust that opens to peace is self evidently the result of my true desire.
The thought of being cut at the heart had associations one of which is - Leonard Cohen's lyric 'By the River's Dark'
http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/thepassionofthechrist/bytheriversdark.htm
In Peace
Brian
1. Suffering is an emphasis upon all that the world has done to injure you. Here is the world’s demented version of salvation clearly shown. Like to a dream of punishment, in which the dreamer is unconscious of what brought on the attack against himself, he sees himself attacked unjustly, and by something not himself. He is the victim of this "something else," a thing outside himself, for which he has no reason to be held responsible. He must be innocent because he knows not what he does, but what is done to him. Yet is his own attack upon himself apparent still, for it is he who bears the suffering. And he cannot escape because its source is seen outside himself.
----–
The mind I call mine seems to carry an attack on life. It can show up clearly as hatred and be less obvious in expressions of irritation and impatience - but it is my own judgement upon others and the world.
But these are really my judgement on my self-as-judged and yet disowned.
The root of this seeming evil in me is too heavily fearful to allow directly into awareness and in deliberately obscured past I have sought to hide it by seeing it in all that I have disowned in my mind - and call 'world' and 'other'. This gives fenced off 'me' a breathing space where I have some sense of a self rather than unbearable conflictedness. But at great cost, because I have put the source of my judgements as if outside myself - and now suffer as if violated from the other or from outside myself.
But now I have come to recognise- to know again - that the darkness is never 'out there' but is reflecting something that has a gift for me if I can but be willing to listen and see with a fresh willingness for peace and wholeness of mind.
Last night and again this late afternoon I have experience of great pain in the right side of the heart. Like being cut. The first time was while singing for dancers and I felt to hang in and just find a way with it. It did fade after a while and caused me to moderate myself to be less energised but perhaps more transparent as a channel. Today as it hit again it brought a wave of deep emotional pains and I was tempted to follow that as if it were a cause - but the stories of 'my pains' are not worth the telling or the listening because I dont really believe them - or desire to. Self pity moved over to a sense of grimness amidst something that started to feel like hospitals, incapacity or leaving the body. I felt a great need to let everything else go - not difficult as it floored me - and just calm and feel and open. I also have the toothe ache which, though carrying a somewhat uncomfortable skull and throb, is something I have experienced trusting through and releasing fear - so it was as if the toothache was like a beacon for the larger fear. And indeed the toothache did remind me that it is my fear that causes pain to mount as if with power over me to become past bearing.
So I started the welcoming of the pain as medicine - as surgeons needle and knife. As I do so it softens because it opened a space to feel directly rather than to 'feel' my fears and thoughts about the pain. The capacity and willingness to hold and embrace is love - and this awoke in me as a sense of loving and being loved - of which the pain was not apart or violating.
I recognise that I want to be free of fear of whatever this is so that I can wholly embrace and trust. In the awakened love this is not merely thinking but love's prayer in me.
The experience had turned about and though all sorts of symptoms persisted I was in a gentle place. Very quiet within and indeed as if cut - and yet a core awareness within that has nothing spare and yet nothing lacking.
I have often wondered just how much illness and dysfunction that we seek remedy for, is in fact the gift of awakening unrecognised. I would never put this onto another unless asked of - because the essence of the matter is trust or fear.
How do I know if I am engaging with trust or allowing fear to fool me? If all I do is think (and react from that) I will surely ensure the latter.
But trust that opens to peace is self evidently the result of my true desire.
The thought of being cut at the heart had associations one of which is - Leonard Cohen's lyric 'By the River's Dark'
http://www.stlyrics.com/lyrics/thepassionofthechrist/bytheriversdark.htm
In Peace
Brian
2007/10/11
A Pruning Love
I experience occasions where the world or others seem to be exactly designed to deny what I love, who I am, what can be truly shared. I have felt this as personal tragedy, determined attack by others, or I may feel it as 'the way of the world' with its seeming scripts of self hatred, writ in every kind of form. But in time I have come to recognise a pruning love that addresses what I am ready to accept and thus freely release.
I once felt violated by truth and tried to call evil that which pulled the rug out from under me - but in truth I just couldnt do it - nor could I call my own self illusion evil either, though I did feel unsane. I couldnt get a solid floor back over the basement hatch and had to start owning my own thought. I write this of long ago but I review it and see that nothing has changed! Smiling... (Excepting the capacity for love came forth in its own light and lives and grows the truth of what I am).
I carry agendas with me that I dont recognise until the experience of suffering feeds back.
I may use friendliness as a cover for insecurity and yet am surprised to be met with guardedness. If I dont recognise that as a wake up call, I may try to reach another and discover I invite a conflict of wills. I may employ well articulated understanding to 'communicate' and yet am still perplexed when others enact opposition. I see others in terms of a script from my past and so dont see them at all. I am most likely to be wrongfooted when I think I have something to share and that I need to share it. I choose to stay with that which seems unlovely and unsharing at least enough so as not to be animating a sense of self that could maintain that it has been wronged. This is practice of always being present amidst resistance or fear and at some point I realize my gratitude to the situations that brought me to a real world where all of that stuff is mine and reflects only the use to which I put my mind and does not witness to the truth of anyone or anything.
In Peace
Brian
I once felt violated by truth and tried to call evil that which pulled the rug out from under me - but in truth I just couldnt do it - nor could I call my own self illusion evil either, though I did feel unsane. I couldnt get a solid floor back over the basement hatch and had to start owning my own thought. I write this of long ago but I review it and see that nothing has changed! Smiling... (Excepting the capacity for love came forth in its own light and lives and grows the truth of what I am).
I carry agendas with me that I dont recognise until the experience of suffering feeds back.
I may use friendliness as a cover for insecurity and yet am surprised to be met with guardedness. If I dont recognise that as a wake up call, I may try to reach another and discover I invite a conflict of wills. I may employ well articulated understanding to 'communicate' and yet am still perplexed when others enact opposition. I see others in terms of a script from my past and so dont see them at all. I am most likely to be wrongfooted when I think I have something to share and that I need to share it. I choose to stay with that which seems unlovely and unsharing at least enough so as not to be animating a sense of self that could maintain that it has been wronged. This is practice of always being present amidst resistance or fear and at some point I realize my gratitude to the situations that brought me to a real world where all of that stuff is mine and reflects only the use to which I put my mind and does not witness to the truth of anyone or anything.
In Peace
Brian
2007/10/02
Why don't we share joy (for more than little moments)?
To live needs few words. But life needs joy to be Alive. A sense of energetic communion by whatever name, has been inherent to my experience of sharing Life.
I have often used the analogy of wet wood to account for why the joy and connectness we share doesn't spark the world alight. Wet wood symbolises the obstruction or blockage to the sharing of joy.
It is to identifying and releasing this in us all that I address such sketches of word or phrase as this article. I have spaced it so that each paragraph can be considered in spaciousness. There is so much that we are deterred from encompassing because we forget that we only need take one step at a time.
If enough people get stuck at the same point because of unconsciously shared mutual agreements, they call it reality. To speak outside accepted norms may seem initially un-understandable or provocative because it has a different foundation. One has to be accepting of not initially understanding, and feel or discern for any meaning that arises while reading. To merely filter all things within pre existing meanings is to stay within the confines of old maps without looking up to see the terrain.
Ideas can seem like philosophical twaddle - but I assert that by the ideas we accept, do we stand open or closed to life, and the time for change is at hand.
By this I mean that the old ideas are manifestly obstructive and obsolete and that fresh vision is called for by the very stuckness that is evident in self and world.
I hold that a separative self sense underlies and necessitates the core problems that humanity faces and yet also generates to use as distractions from the real issue. It is indicative that if such ‘territory’ is opened up to consideration, one inevitably meets blanking or denial, ridicule or extreme reaction. How could it be otherwise when the self and world we want to believe real is brought into question? We discover the same dynamic within ourself if we start to use our mind to uncover what we are using our mind for. There is that in us which does not want to open to question the mindset that we have become comfortable in - even if our life is not very ‘alive’ or really shared at all.
Fear is associated with change because our first experience of radical change was of separation. But locking down on change and attempting to minimise risk has not and will not lead to undoing of the basis for fear. The world seems to justify and necessitate fear but that is ultimately because we have adopted a posture of withheld presence and attention in which we do not see love because we do not see with love. We have become expert in seeing what is ‘wrong’ with everyone and everything and justifying our private view and its defences. But this is displacement of a fear and a judgement that what we ourselves in fact are ... is loveless or unworthy of love.
We can seem to use our mind lovelessly - this may be an idle curiosity or carelessness and not an intent to harm. But while we do so we misalign with the truth of what the mind is. We experience a sense of conflictedness that we then interpret within the terms of the thought we hold and see adversary, adversity and guilt. If we choose to stay in the thought we undertake the role and drama of overcoming the limitation as we misperceive it. But it is not there and every step to do so only excacerbates the belief that it is there to be overcome or defended against, magically healed or attoned for by punishment or penance.
Love waits on welcome - not on time.
In the story of Jesus he demonstrated very simply and persistently the truth of love and healing - not guilt - is within, and that death is transcended in rootedness in the Father’s Will - which again was found within - by trust - and not imposed from without. If this story isnt accorded historical validity then it still serves as symbol to activate any mind desiring to be free of - a separate self sense. The Truth that alone is true isnt definable or graspable - but it IS shareable.
To feel this is to let thinking serve the heart.
If what I say doesnt speak to you - so be it. But to read anything and feel your own knowings stirred is to have intimate experience within the mind. By this ordinary miracle are moments of communion. Communication isnt merely packets of information but a resonance of intention.
What do you (reader) want?
The answer to this determines how you read the world.
It is that simple - and at this level you are not victim to a past or a world beyond your control.
To wish for reality to be other than as it is, is to enact imaginative or experimental thinking. For Reality is as it is. To give preference to one's private judgement is to distract attention from what is, and invite an inherently conflicted state. For such a use of mind creates a choice between its making and the truth.
If one chooses mutually opposing outcomes then conflict is what is being chosen. To play within the realm of conflict is to become trapped or identified in reaction. The freedom to accept this is so is the freedom in which to make another choice. Freedom can be denied but only as you choose to do so.
To desist applying or imposing a seemingly separate will allows reality to be what it already is - AND for more of what that Is to register in our awareness - by which we are guided and grow in capacity to receive. When joy infills and arises we experience a glimpse of communion. Communion is not a sense of being separate, isolated, cut off or lost. It is joy.
Whence comes the intuition, the guidance, the discernment, the inspiration? They come in secret while your truth is held secret.
They do not issue from self will and its little walled off mind. But by the forgetting or neglecting to apply self will and letting life in.
The life that is let in is the sanity and intelligence of the truth of what you remain but have forgotten amidst distraction. Initially it may be experienced as if a Spirit that touches or heals and guides because our belief in guilt is deeply held and we are not yet willing to release it. But as we recognise and accept the voice and the promptings and intuition of this mind as the guide instead of following the voice that arises out of selfwill we regain vision and weaken an addictive identification that inceasingly is revealed as unfulfilling and futile or meaningless.
Yet we are so enamoured of our self will that we equate it with freedom and independence.
To trust and be led by guidance from a source that is not of our ego’s making can seem insulting to our idea of independance for it suggests at some level being like a puppet.
This is not altogether untrue for the mind can only be a conduit for the ideas it accepts.
The ego illusion of an independent and private self feigns to make you temporarily free but this is a carrot. The stick should be familiar by now. It knows exactly where to hit you!
This puppet is strung up in fear and guilt and dances in clever ways such that joylessness can be presented as success!.
The alternate to fear is to be a puppet also - but to a creative living freedom that gives Identity, indivisibility, Joy, Peace, Meaning.
Because That which gifts us awareness is Giving all of Itself and holding nothing back.
In personal practical terms, if one discovered that what is truly desired, is not what you are actually aligning with or subscribing to, does it not express freedom to say yes to - and live from - your revealed truth? The desire of our heart is the ongoing prayer of our life. If it is covered over it waits while our ears are stuffed with our own thinking.
The only real choice is which purpose we serve. Hang on... The only real choice is the choiceless choice of being ‘moved by the Divine will. The apparent other choice is a state of indecision played out as if an alternate option were in fact possible. But while we believe the choice is real we have to really make it.
If releasing self will breaks a hypnotic dream and awakens a fresh experience it is because we let it. By acceptance. Not because we exert a will and achieve it.
Reality is already here but we are largely unconscious in our thinking.
Because we think we know, we do not even bother to look! If guidance doesnt answer problems within terms we insist on defining them as, we say it doesnt exist or is undependable.
Such a puffed up arrogance of self will is in the mind of man! When I notice this in myself - it is opportunity of awakening - and not a call for more judgement. (For judgement IS how we auto-hit the snooze button and slide back to sleep).
The mappings that we hold dear act as filters. They are beliefs that literally program the way we experience reality and thus how we react to what we perceive. (Is this man threatening you? Is this man calling for help? - can be two ways to see one thing).
In exercising our personal powers of judgement and belief we tend to see ourselves as exercising our freedom. I hold that doing so is in fact (freely but unconsciously) denying freedom of our present participation in what life really is - in favour of a self made ‘world’ that convicts us with the very power of our convictions.
Individuality is rooted in the singularity of Being. Your individuality is inviolable as the expression of One Will.
It doesn't seem that there is One Will - it seems that there are billions of conflicting wills.
I hold that this is what One Will looks like when seen through an illusory and fragmented viewpoint.
(Tweedledum and tweedledee AGREED to have a quarrel).
And though many like to talk sweetly of oneness, it is this that the ego or separate self fears most because it believes it has cut its puppet strings and is independent. And thereby subject to being cut off from its life as it did unto Life.
Live by the scissors and ye shall die by the scissors!
Guilt and fear are inevitable companions to self will - for engaging self will is a wish that reality be as you alone would have it be. (I’m not saying we dont trade alliances or make relationships where we sacrifice in order to get what we are intent upon). This is by definition conflicted with reality and such a game is no game to one who believes it has defiled reality and IS a defiled reality.
The fragmenting and disintegrating effect of guilt upon the mind is catastrophic. Just because it has become normal here doesn't make it less so. While one believes himself/herself unworthy of love it will NOT be allowed to register in awareness as our experience of world - each other, or ourselves. Of all that you could do to defy thralldom to the false, receiving love is the most liberating. For guilt MUST be abandoned to let love in.
Much of our mindset is enacting strategies of coping with a conflicted world - that is itself the displaced projection of conflicted mind. Which has little or no desire to accept responsibility for thought because it does not access joy’s vision and has given the power of decision over to the ‘world’ outside. This is the cost of blaming anyone or anything - including oneself. Guilt sucks (...the light, and uses it to make light seem darkness).
Joining with others in common inspiration is to Let Life In - and to EMBODY it. This communicates through us as individuals but is experienced as a shared present joy. This is spirituality as lived through us - not dressing up or applying special meanings to things.
None is forced to accept reality as it is, we are each free to experience our own privateor local take if we so desire. But whatever is the vibrational tone and quality of the movement of being that is occurring right now - it is experienceable as it is - as a universal knowing. It could be said that this is the essence of That you are, (or anything is), rather than any attempt to experience what you are, (or anything is).
The attempt to grasp or define or map or compare is itself a gesture of self will which is absenting oneself from awareness of the flow while distracted in the act of differentiation. The grasping control mind is like a sphincter that tries to close around experience. It tends to get in the way.
The channel of our consciousness functions well in being relaxed and calm, allowing us to join WITH or surrender into the flow as it moves us. Identifications may get shat out as light is welcomed in for these were an attempt to live in the dark. They become unnecessary and obstructive and so life works to release them step by step as we are willing to accept. In this process of waking is the world given the purpose of waking - which is to see all things in a new light.
Reality or Truth is shared as a movement of Be -ing that has definite qualities. It is the sharing of these that extends them and maintains them in our awareness - not theorising or theologising. The release of self willed reality allows a direct experience that is recognisable and relevant to whatever the current need is. It always restores joy and sanity and grounds us in a capacity for response rather than reaction.
But without a structure through and by which a more constant direction is held; joy, oneness, light and love - all can become momentary vacillations before fear takes the stage and calls them pretty delusions, comforting lies or sweet fixes.
There are two aspects to the world which prompt me to speak out. One is the fear driven world and its deepening joyless clutch on our hearts. How far does it go before we wake up? I dont mean wake up to unite against danger - that is for Chicken Licken and the Fox. I mean wake up to joy.
There isn't a widely known framework of thought for the realities of what I call the heart - our wholeness as feeling awareness.
The old religious and spiritual traditions tended to cater to the ignorances and issues of their day. God has been so misused as a word that few would associate God with eternal light in your heart.
The dominance of so called rational thinking mind has hardly heralded the most enlightened era - yet the scientific willingness to break out of dogma and superstitious delusion or manipulation is a real gain. But I would say that we used rationality to box ourselves in to a corner in which there is a stuckness and lack of vision or aspiration. This says only one thing to me - wake up! What is the truth here - in this situation - in this place? And remain receptive and willing for an answer to come in time and form of its choosing - not ours.
The world experience that we mostly equate with life takes on a different nature and quality when it is used as the means for healing (wholing) our mind rather than using the world to hide our mind from Mind.
When we use our bodies as a means of communication - as for example in dance rather than employing body as a private boundary around a thinking isolated me, we are being a channel of expression and extension.
Such joyful freedom cant be grasped or bought and sold. Nor owned, argued over or substituted for by spin or even sacred symbol. It cannot really be lost - because we do not create the channel that IS our reality. But such giving and receiving can be lost sight of in the drive to get.
Is anything I write new? I dont think so. But the ideas by which we map the world do fail us and we have to live raw enough to find fresh expression. It isnt the forms that are ultimately important - but the willingness to dance the qualities they hold as these flow through us - and move on anew.
To that which identifies only with form, life must mean death. Yet to that which expresses itself through form to its own channel of recognition, there is only life.
In Peace
Brian
I have often used the analogy of wet wood to account for why the joy and connectness we share doesn't spark the world alight. Wet wood symbolises the obstruction or blockage to the sharing of joy.
It is to identifying and releasing this in us all that I address such sketches of word or phrase as this article. I have spaced it so that each paragraph can be considered in spaciousness. There is so much that we are deterred from encompassing because we forget that we only need take one step at a time.
If enough people get stuck at the same point because of unconsciously shared mutual agreements, they call it reality. To speak outside accepted norms may seem initially un-understandable or provocative because it has a different foundation. One has to be accepting of not initially understanding, and feel or discern for any meaning that arises while reading. To merely filter all things within pre existing meanings is to stay within the confines of old maps without looking up to see the terrain.
Ideas can seem like philosophical twaddle - but I assert that by the ideas we accept, do we stand open or closed to life, and the time for change is at hand.
By this I mean that the old ideas are manifestly obstructive and obsolete and that fresh vision is called for by the very stuckness that is evident in self and world.
I hold that a separative self sense underlies and necessitates the core problems that humanity faces and yet also generates to use as distractions from the real issue. It is indicative that if such ‘territory’ is opened up to consideration, one inevitably meets blanking or denial, ridicule or extreme reaction. How could it be otherwise when the self and world we want to believe real is brought into question? We discover the same dynamic within ourself if we start to use our mind to uncover what we are using our mind for. There is that in us which does not want to open to question the mindset that we have become comfortable in - even if our life is not very ‘alive’ or really shared at all.
Fear is associated with change because our first experience of radical change was of separation. But locking down on change and attempting to minimise risk has not and will not lead to undoing of the basis for fear. The world seems to justify and necessitate fear but that is ultimately because we have adopted a posture of withheld presence and attention in which we do not see love because we do not see with love. We have become expert in seeing what is ‘wrong’ with everyone and everything and justifying our private view and its defences. But this is displacement of a fear and a judgement that what we ourselves in fact are ... is loveless or unworthy of love.
We can seem to use our mind lovelessly - this may be an idle curiosity or carelessness and not an intent to harm. But while we do so we misalign with the truth of what the mind is. We experience a sense of conflictedness that we then interpret within the terms of the thought we hold and see adversary, adversity and guilt. If we choose to stay in the thought we undertake the role and drama of overcoming the limitation as we misperceive it. But it is not there and every step to do so only excacerbates the belief that it is there to be overcome or defended against, magically healed or attoned for by punishment or penance.
Love waits on welcome - not on time.
In the story of Jesus he demonstrated very simply and persistently the truth of love and healing - not guilt - is within, and that death is transcended in rootedness in the Father’s Will - which again was found within - by trust - and not imposed from without. If this story isnt accorded historical validity then it still serves as symbol to activate any mind desiring to be free of - a separate self sense. The Truth that alone is true isnt definable or graspable - but it IS shareable.
To feel this is to let thinking serve the heart.
If what I say doesnt speak to you - so be it. But to read anything and feel your own knowings stirred is to have intimate experience within the mind. By this ordinary miracle are moments of communion. Communication isnt merely packets of information but a resonance of intention.
What do you (reader) want?
The answer to this determines how you read the world.
It is that simple - and at this level you are not victim to a past or a world beyond your control.
To wish for reality to be other than as it is, is to enact imaginative or experimental thinking. For Reality is as it is. To give preference to one's private judgement is to distract attention from what is, and invite an inherently conflicted state. For such a use of mind creates a choice between its making and the truth.
If one chooses mutually opposing outcomes then conflict is what is being chosen. To play within the realm of conflict is to become trapped or identified in reaction. The freedom to accept this is so is the freedom in which to make another choice. Freedom can be denied but only as you choose to do so.
To desist applying or imposing a seemingly separate will allows reality to be what it already is - AND for more of what that Is to register in our awareness - by which we are guided and grow in capacity to receive. When joy infills and arises we experience a glimpse of communion. Communion is not a sense of being separate, isolated, cut off or lost. It is joy.
Whence comes the intuition, the guidance, the discernment, the inspiration? They come in secret while your truth is held secret.
They do not issue from self will and its little walled off mind. But by the forgetting or neglecting to apply self will and letting life in.
The life that is let in is the sanity and intelligence of the truth of what you remain but have forgotten amidst distraction. Initially it may be experienced as if a Spirit that touches or heals and guides because our belief in guilt is deeply held and we are not yet willing to release it. But as we recognise and accept the voice and the promptings and intuition of this mind as the guide instead of following the voice that arises out of selfwill we regain vision and weaken an addictive identification that inceasingly is revealed as unfulfilling and futile or meaningless.
Yet we are so enamoured of our self will that we equate it with freedom and independence.
To trust and be led by guidance from a source that is not of our ego’s making can seem insulting to our idea of independance for it suggests at some level being like a puppet.
This is not altogether untrue for the mind can only be a conduit for the ideas it accepts.
The ego illusion of an independent and private self feigns to make you temporarily free but this is a carrot. The stick should be familiar by now. It knows exactly where to hit you!
This puppet is strung up in fear and guilt and dances in clever ways such that joylessness can be presented as success!.
The alternate to fear is to be a puppet also - but to a creative living freedom that gives Identity, indivisibility, Joy, Peace, Meaning.
Because That which gifts us awareness is Giving all of Itself and holding nothing back.
In personal practical terms, if one discovered that what is truly desired, is not what you are actually aligning with or subscribing to, does it not express freedom to say yes to - and live from - your revealed truth? The desire of our heart is the ongoing prayer of our life. If it is covered over it waits while our ears are stuffed with our own thinking.
The only real choice is which purpose we serve. Hang on... The only real choice is the choiceless choice of being ‘moved by the Divine will. The apparent other choice is a state of indecision played out as if an alternate option were in fact possible. But while we believe the choice is real we have to really make it.
If releasing self will breaks a hypnotic dream and awakens a fresh experience it is because we let it. By acceptance. Not because we exert a will and achieve it.
Reality is already here but we are largely unconscious in our thinking.
Because we think we know, we do not even bother to look! If guidance doesnt answer problems within terms we insist on defining them as, we say it doesnt exist or is undependable.
Such a puffed up arrogance of self will is in the mind of man! When I notice this in myself - it is opportunity of awakening - and not a call for more judgement. (For judgement IS how we auto-hit the snooze button and slide back to sleep).
The mappings that we hold dear act as filters. They are beliefs that literally program the way we experience reality and thus how we react to what we perceive. (Is this man threatening you?
In exercising our personal powers of judgement and belief we tend to see ourselves as exercising our freedom. I hold that doing so is in fact (freely but unconsciously) denying freedom of our present participation in what life really is - in favour of a self made ‘world’ that convicts us with the very power of our convictions.
Individuality is rooted in the singularity of Being. Your individuality is inviolable as the expression of One Will.
It doesn't seem that there is One Will - it seems that there are billions of conflicting wills.
I hold that this is what One Will looks like when seen through an illusory and fragmented viewpoint.
(Tweedledum and tweedledee AGREED to have a quarrel).
And though many like to talk sweetly of oneness, it is this that the ego or separate self fears most because it believes it has cut its puppet strings and is independent. And thereby subject to being cut off from its life as it did unto Life.
Live by the scissors and ye shall die by the scissors!
Guilt and fear are inevitable companions to self will - for engaging self will is a wish that reality be as you alone would have it be. (I’m not saying we dont trade alliances or make relationships where we sacrifice in order to get what we are intent upon). This is by definition conflicted with reality and such a game is no game to one who believes it has defiled reality and IS a defiled reality.
The fragmenting and disintegrating effect of guilt upon the mind is catastrophic. Just because it has become normal here doesn't make it less so. While one believes himself/herself unworthy of love it will NOT be allowed to register in awareness as our experience of world - each other, or ourselves. Of all that you could do to defy thralldom to the false, receiving love is the most liberating. For guilt MUST be abandoned to let love in.
Much of our mindset is enacting strategies of coping with a conflicted world - that is itself the displaced projection of conflicted mind. Which has little or no desire to accept responsibility for thought because it does not access joy’s vision and has given the power of decision over to the ‘world’ outside. This is the cost of blaming anyone or anything - including oneself. Guilt sucks (...the light, and uses it to make light seem darkness).
Joining with others in common inspiration is to Let Life In - and to EMBODY it. This communicates through us as individuals but is experienced as a shared present joy. This is spirituality as lived through us - not dressing up or applying special meanings to things.
None is forced to accept reality as it is, we are each free to experience our own privateor local take if we so desire. But whatever is the vibrational tone and quality of the movement of being that is occurring right now - it is experienceable as it is - as a universal knowing. It could be said that this is the essence of That you are, (or anything is), rather than any attempt to experience what you are, (or anything is).
The attempt to grasp or define or map or compare is itself a gesture of self will which is absenting oneself from awareness of the flow while distracted in the act of differentiation. The grasping control mind is like a sphincter that tries to close around experience. It tends to get in the way.
The channel of our consciousness functions well in being relaxed and calm, allowing us to join WITH or surrender into the flow as it moves us. Identifications may get shat out as light is welcomed in for these were an attempt to live in the dark. They become unnecessary and obstructive and so life works to release them step by step as we are willing to accept. In this process of waking is the world given the purpose of waking - which is to see all things in a new light.
Reality or Truth is shared as a movement of Be -ing that has definite qualities. It is the sharing of these that extends them and maintains them in our awareness - not theorising or theologising. The release of self willed reality allows a direct experience that is recognisable and relevant to whatever the current need is. It always restores joy and sanity and grounds us in a capacity for response rather than reaction.
But without a structure through and by which a more constant direction is held; joy, oneness, light and love - all can become momentary vacillations before fear takes the stage and calls them pretty delusions, comforting lies or sweet fixes.
There are two aspects to the world which prompt me to speak out. One is the fear driven world and its deepening joyless clutch on our hearts. How far does it go before we wake up? I dont mean wake up to unite against danger - that is for Chicken Licken and the Fox. I mean wake up to joy.
There isn't a widely known framework of thought for the realities of what I call the heart - our wholeness as feeling awareness.
The old religious and spiritual traditions tended to cater to the ignorances and issues of their day. God has been so misused as a word that few would associate God with eternal light in your heart.
The dominance of so called rational thinking mind has hardly heralded the most enlightened era - yet the scientific willingness to break out of dogma and superstitious delusion or manipulation is a real gain. But I would say that we used rationality to box ourselves in to a corner in which there is a stuckness and lack of vision or aspiration. This says only one thing to me - wake up! What is the truth here - in this situation - in this place? And remain receptive and willing for an answer to come in time and form of its choosing - not ours.
The world experience that we mostly equate with life takes on a different nature and quality when it is used as the means for healing (wholing) our mind rather than using the world to hide our mind from Mind.
When we use our bodies as a means of communication - as for example in dance rather than employing body as a private boundary around a thinking isolated me, we are being a channel of expression and extension.
Such joyful freedom cant be grasped or bought and sold. Nor owned, argued over or substituted for by spin or even sacred symbol. It cannot really be lost - because we do not create the channel that IS our reality. But such giving and receiving can be lost sight of in the drive to get.
Is anything I write new? I dont think so. But the ideas by which we map the world do fail us and we have to live raw enough to find fresh expression. It isnt the forms that are ultimately important - but the willingness to dance the qualities they hold as these flow through us - and move on anew.
To that which identifies only with form, life must mean death. Yet to that which expresses itself through form to its own channel of recognition, there is only life.
In Peace
Brian
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