I smile to read you in a playful poesy.
Words can feed dictums, dogmas and downright lies.
The light of the projector rises through the film to shift attention from the movie plot of projected identifications to the awakening of the light itself. A clarity perfect, inclusive and all pervading, the very light of perfect love - whose modification as hues and forms through the prism of its own thought in no way changes the light or the nature of love.
A game is a game while playing is a joy - but when one tires of the game it is to be cast aside, let go, move on. The game of becoming a someone is a game of hide, and seek.
The idea is not to never get found. The idea is not to seek forever.
The idea is to play together. Expressing the togetherness of love in play.
Togetherness is not many.
When the children hurt themselves, they return to their parent and be held.
They are righted of their fears of wayward fancy and are restored to be-hold.
Mind is creative.
True creation is aligned with the Father's Light.
The Light and Nature of the First.
One without a second.
The Son is the Father's love and not a thing apart.
The Movement of "I Am That I Am" is no lonely ghost.
The veil of self apart is to be transcended - in place.
You cant let go of that which you are trying to become or overcome!
True love awakens the mind from its distractions.
At first it is as if the dream becomes perfect.
But then the light within knows itself anew,
in the always ever new.
Words fall off the page
meanings dissolve in laughter
there's no one here to catch them
Too close to love, nowhere else to be from which to speak.
Let all be as it is, and unsaid, let all be revealed.
Presentations as empty forms
a veil of surface perceptions
is it a smudge around the edges of clear light?
Be careful if you pick it up again.
A world in which 'a someone' is defined,
confined, and who has lost the light of Mind
for fragmented forms as fear makes blind.
Put the weapon down!
Be moved and move from being.
pass by the habit of self.
Let the love play of our shared Will
forget, neglect and cease to expect,
an external will to witness to You.
brian-in-a-moment
2010/07/28
2010/07/26
To one who warned me of the traps of A Course in Miracles
A Course in Miracles seems to be a large book that can be read and perhaps - though not easily - understood. It was not designed to be intellectually understandable or accessible for it addresses the reader at a level behind or beyond such defences and strategies of self will. Yet the attempt to understand new wine in 'old bottles' persists, and yields frustration.
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Everything in this world can be used against the sharing of love and thus seem to become a witness to a force or will that is false or evil - but in whose mind is this purpose active?
I celebrate your breaking free of an unquestioning following of the Course in Miracles - for the truth is not 'out there' - excepting that its welcome - (Truth's welcome) - is in our heart.
The Course is not originally intended to be used to set ourselves impossible goals - but to awaken the reader to that they are already doing so - and suffering the conflict and frustration of a split mind. So as to let it go.
The you that you think was misled and needs to protect itself from such danger is not you - but it is a sense of yourself that you have grown from image, thought and judgements. I do not attack this sense of yourself but merely invite you to look at it with me.
In the moments of sanity - you feel the peace and integrity of your being. In the times of self conflictedness you are tempted to seek for certainty amidst confusion - such as to put outside your mind the cause of what is troubling you. Thus conflict is shifted outside and a sense of yourself more oderly and in attempt to unify - is made within. But you will never be whole while it is chosen as your home.
It may well be that the A Course in Miracles book is no longer relevant as a tool or a path for you - but whatever path you do accept as a way of releasing the demand that the world serve your private need above all else - will be one in which you do not use IT to validate or prove you to yourself.
The release of this attempt allows God.
In God is a direct relationship - as Holy Spirit and as the Son or Creation revealed - not to thoughtful understanding but to your heart's knowing in silence.
This relationship is eternal - but in time is a step by step rewakening.
It is not the dream role that awakens.
It is you - the dreamer who awakens - in the light of a pure awareness that is always present and from which you never can separate except in identifying with images and thoughts - in other words - imaginatively.
This email is a gift to yourself - both the one you sent - and my reply.
The one you sent is an expression of a teaching learning that you are in process of awakening through.
To see our 'self' in action is to shift to the perspective that isn't identified with the role we thought was our self.
This is a 'miracle' in that it doesn't operate within the laws that apply within the dream that we make for ourselves and others of how everything is and how it should be. It suddenly is free of these and opens to a different basis from which to live. Now it will be that whenever you live from this basis, your presence will in essence be a blessing, but it is not at all from any conscious sense of the world needing to be fixed. It is only our mind that has believed in loss of Light and Love and Peace. But this mind is simply wrong - not wrong as in punishable - but mistaken, misguided and missing the point.
The traps are never in the teaching - even if there were false teachings whose intent was to ensnare - the trap would still lie in the mind of the one who is not paying attention - and allows himself or herself to be persuaded of the reality of a form based meaning rather than the meaning of love.
Listen to your heart.
Listen to make sure it is your heart and not the chatter and confusion of your thought.
No one can take this away from you.
Nothing can take this away from you.
But in listening to and acting upon the confusion of our unevaluated thought - we experience ourselves as hurt, limitation and loss, from which arises a reaction of self protection.
The evaluation of our thought is the Holy Spirit - because of ourselves we cannot tell the true from the false - and often get them the wrong way round.
The Holy Spirit can be called anything or nothing - but in emptying yourself of the clutter and falsity of a mind involved only with itself, you will feel or know the stirring of a life that you did not make. It may seem to be thought or feeling or coincidence of event or meaning with persons or world - but it speaks to you and through you.
You are quite right to abandon a fruitless exercise - but the frustration is not the conclusion of the lesson - nor is placing responsibility onto A Course in Miracles a true path to resolving the sense of guilt you feel.
If you want to have opposition, then your will is done.
Because it isn't of God, you will have to do the work to maintain its reality for you - which must replace the awareness of God in your mind while you actively pursue your desire.
I tell you that this is not your true desire.
God must be your true desire.
For God is Truth.
Not excluding the truth of you.
(Postscipt 1)
"Let go and let God"
"Let go and let God Be you"
Yes - and as God is all that is truly be-ing you in this moment it is an allowing of what already Is - to Be (as it Is).
The 'let go' bit is the automatic result of truly seeing the mechanism of control for what it is.
The 'work' or hard part humanly is the willingness to look upon the ego rather than act according to its dictate.
This is like watching thoughts go past rather than becoming involved and distracted by them. Innocent perception can look on what would otherwise trigger fear and guilt and see or discern truth - which does not give rise to guilt or fear, (though our subsequent thinking about it may indeed trigger a blind spot and engage attention in distraction again.
The trap is always that of making an identity for oneself - whether out of spiritual or profane components.
When we experience the results of our false identity, we blame it on (insert scapegoat here).
The conviction that some thing or one or teaching is Truth is very likely if not always going to give rise to idolotry and a false sense of self because our images, symbols and concepts are at best reflections of truth - or Holy Spirit communication towards opening our mind to truth.
(Postscript 2) No ego - no problem?
Yes - when the problem seems to define or limit You - then the self-centric perspective is active.
When willingness re-aligns to truth, then wholeness replaces conflicting desires and the movement of being is expressed as actions or non actions - that bear or behold witness to wholeness.
The ego is quieted by truth as irrelevant. It doesn't matter whose ego it seems to be - if our peace is obscured then we are in a position to become willing to quiet the ego by our disregard. But the way of that is by giving our whole regard to the Living - or that which is revealed to our willingness for truth that we do not make, can not control, and are totally dependent on.
In light of such a joy - we can discern limitation that before we were blind to but now are becoming responsible for.
We are responsible for what we think - or accept in our minds. But we are never to blame.
To accept the idea of blame is to starve ourselves of love.
(Postscript 3) To an expression of gratitude for this writing.
Yes. We meet in shared purpose and find ourselves in communication.
The ego perspective has a different purpose and 'finds' itself in forms that look like communication and may either seem devoutly following of - or oppose a teaching path of truth.
I felt to tell her she is right - for she cannot be wrong in her being - and I join with her in truth. In this context I offer correction for the error in what she is accepting in her own mind - not at the level of arguing 'teachings' and their 'meanings' - but in addressing to loss of peace and the restoration of sanity.
Because I was not identified with asserting or protecting the truth of A Course in Miracles, I do not need to react as if truth were attacked. How can Truth be attacked? It cannot - but colluding with the false will obscure the truth in our mind.
Though her mail is fearful in blaming teachings as false, there is much in it that is almost being shared with Holy Spirit that needs to come into the light to be undone or made clear. Sometimes we don't know how to ask - or are in a culture where speaking different from the accepted 'truths' is fearfully prohibited. So we only let it out in anger when we leave and slam the door - as a parting shot of self justification amidst a painful or emotional process of change.
This is just such an occasion where a human kindness may serve a greater good than to argue teachings.
I feel that our growing understanding of and awakening to the truth of what life is - and what we are - will from time to time occasion fundamental shifts in our awareness of mind that initiate a desire or need to shut down and back off.
If this becomes active, then panic and 'self survival' trample on and use - anyone and anything to maintain the separate self sense - and this does generate a sense of guilt - or love unworthiness - which is denied or hidden and at least partially offloaded onto God and Brother in such a way that isolates the heart in a private mind and a Lightless world of separation, conflict and density.
All that is needed is calm in which the truth can be felt.
For Truth is not the picture we make in fear - and when we let that realisation in - even as instants or steps of a 'little willingness' - we are awakened at least to a living path in which we can take our next step as a living step in which we grow in trust and our capacity of willingness and love.
It would be unwise to underestimate the capacity of the mind to deceive itself while the seed desire for a special self remains hidden.
My fellow man and woman are often helping me to become aware of - and to own - my hidden desire to be special. It is only when I see it as it is that I can also see that I do not want it. When I see it as the lens of the desire itself would have me see - I believe I do want it.
A Course in Miracles can be made a special relationship; a way to avoid a real relationship that shares from a prior wholeness.
But all such attempts to get for oneself are inherently self defeating - and break down. That's where we either seek and find another candidate for a special relationship (looking outside our self) - or open to truth because it is true.
I am grateful with you.
in Love's blessing
Brian
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Everything in this world can be used against the sharing of love and thus seem to become a witness to a force or will that is false or evil - but in whose mind is this purpose active?
I celebrate your breaking free of an unquestioning following of the Course in Miracles - for the truth is not 'out there' - excepting that its welcome - (Truth's welcome) - is in our heart.
The Course is not originally intended to be used to set ourselves impossible goals - but to awaken the reader to that they are already doing so - and suffering the conflict and frustration of a split mind. So as to let it go.
The you that you think was misled and needs to protect itself from such danger is not you - but it is a sense of yourself that you have grown from image, thought and judgements. I do not attack this sense of yourself but merely invite you to look at it with me.
In the moments of sanity - you feel the peace and integrity of your being. In the times of self conflictedness you are tempted to seek for certainty amidst confusion - such as to put outside your mind the cause of what is troubling you. Thus conflict is shifted outside and a sense of yourself more oderly and in attempt to unify - is made within. But you will never be whole while it is chosen as your home.
It may well be that the A Course in Miracles book is no longer relevant as a tool or a path for you - but whatever path you do accept as a way of releasing the demand that the world serve your private need above all else - will be one in which you do not use IT to validate or prove you to yourself.
The release of this attempt allows God.
In God is a direct relationship - as Holy Spirit and as the Son or Creation revealed - not to thoughtful understanding but to your heart's knowing in silence.
This relationship is eternal - but in time is a step by step rewakening.
It is not the dream role that awakens.
It is you - the dreamer who awakens - in the light of a pure awareness that is always present and from which you never can separate except in identifying with images and thoughts - in other words - imaginatively.
This email is a gift to yourself - both the one you sent - and my reply.
The one you sent is an expression of a teaching learning that you are in process of awakening through.
To see our 'self' in action is to shift to the perspective that isn't identified with the role we thought was our self.
This is a 'miracle' in that it doesn't operate within the laws that apply within the dream that we make for ourselves and others of how everything is and how it should be. It suddenly is free of these and opens to a different basis from which to live. Now it will be that whenever you live from this basis, your presence will in essence be a blessing, but it is not at all from any conscious sense of the world needing to be fixed. It is only our mind that has believed in loss of Light and Love and Peace. But this mind is simply wrong - not wrong as in punishable - but mistaken, misguided and missing the point.
The traps are never in the teaching - even if there were false teachings whose intent was to ensnare - the trap would still lie in the mind of the one who is not paying attention - and allows himself or herself to be persuaded of the reality of a form based meaning rather than the meaning of love.
Listen to your heart.
Listen to make sure it is your heart and not the chatter and confusion of your thought.
No one can take this away from you.
Nothing can take this away from you.
But in listening to and acting upon the confusion of our unevaluated thought - we experience ourselves as hurt, limitation and loss, from which arises a reaction of self protection.
The evaluation of our thought is the Holy Spirit - because of ourselves we cannot tell the true from the false - and often get them the wrong way round.
The Holy Spirit can be called anything or nothing - but in emptying yourself of the clutter and falsity of a mind involved only with itself, you will feel or know the stirring of a life that you did not make. It may seem to be thought or feeling or coincidence of event or meaning with persons or world - but it speaks to you and through you.
You are quite right to abandon a fruitless exercise - but the frustration is not the conclusion of the lesson - nor is placing responsibility onto A Course in Miracles a true path to resolving the sense of guilt you feel.
If you want to have opposition, then your will is done.
Because it isn't of God, you will have to do the work to maintain its reality for you - which must replace the awareness of God in your mind while you actively pursue your desire.
I tell you that this is not your true desire.
God must be your true desire.
For God is Truth.
Not excluding the truth of you.
(Postscipt 1)
"Let go and let God"
"Let go and let God Be you"
Yes - and as God is all that is truly be-ing you in this moment it is an allowing of what already Is - to Be (as it Is).
The 'let go' bit is the automatic result of truly seeing the mechanism of control for what it is.
The 'work' or hard part humanly is the willingness to look upon the ego rather than act according to its dictate.
This is like watching thoughts go past rather than becoming involved and distracted by them. Innocent perception can look on what would otherwise trigger fear and guilt and see or discern truth - which does not give rise to guilt or fear, (though our subsequent thinking about it may indeed trigger a blind spot and engage attention in distraction again.
The trap is always that of making an identity for oneself - whether out of spiritual or profane components.
When we experience the results of our false identity, we blame it on (insert scapegoat here).
The conviction that some thing or one or teaching is Truth is very likely if not always going to give rise to idolotry and a false sense of self because our images, symbols and concepts are at best reflections of truth - or Holy Spirit communication towards opening our mind to truth.
(Postscript 2) No ego - no problem?
Yes - when the problem seems to define or limit You - then the self-centric perspective is active.
When willingness re-aligns to truth, then wholeness replaces conflicting desires and the movement of being is expressed as actions or non actions - that bear or behold witness to wholeness.
The ego is quieted by truth as irrelevant. It doesn't matter whose ego it seems to be - if our peace is obscured then we are in a position to become willing to quiet the ego by our disregard. But the way of that is by giving our whole regard to the Living - or that which is revealed to our willingness for truth that we do not make, can not control, and are totally dependent on.
In light of such a joy - we can discern limitation that before we were blind to but now are becoming responsible for.
We are responsible for what we think - or accept in our minds. But we are never to blame.
To accept the idea of blame is to starve ourselves of love.
(Postscript 3) To an expression of gratitude for this writing.
Yes. We meet in shared purpose and find ourselves in communication.
The ego perspective has a different purpose and 'finds' itself in forms that look like communication and may either seem devoutly following of - or oppose a teaching path of truth.
I felt to tell her she is right - for she cannot be wrong in her being - and I join with her in truth. In this context I offer correction for the error in what she is accepting in her own mind - not at the level of arguing 'teachings' and their 'meanings' - but in addressing to loss of peace and the restoration of sanity.
Because I was not identified with asserting or protecting the truth of A Course in Miracles, I do not need to react as if truth were attacked. How can Truth be attacked? It cannot - but colluding with the false will obscure the truth in our mind.
Though her mail is fearful in blaming teachings as false, there is much in it that is almost being shared with Holy Spirit that needs to come into the light to be undone or made clear. Sometimes we don't know how to ask - or are in a culture where speaking different from the accepted 'truths' is fearfully prohibited. So we only let it out in anger when we leave and slam the door - as a parting shot of self justification amidst a painful or emotional process of change.
This is just such an occasion where a human kindness may serve a greater good than to argue teachings.
I feel that our growing understanding of and awakening to the truth of what life is - and what we are - will from time to time occasion fundamental shifts in our awareness of mind that initiate a desire or need to shut down and back off.
If this becomes active, then panic and 'self survival' trample on and use - anyone and anything to maintain the separate self sense - and this does generate a sense of guilt - or love unworthiness - which is denied or hidden and at least partially offloaded onto God and Brother in such a way that isolates the heart in a private mind and a Lightless world of separation, conflict and density.
All that is needed is calm in which the truth can be felt.
For Truth is not the picture we make in fear - and when we let that realisation in - even as instants or steps of a 'little willingness' - we are awakened at least to a living path in which we can take our next step as a living step in which we grow in trust and our capacity of willingness and love.
It would be unwise to underestimate the capacity of the mind to deceive itself while the seed desire for a special self remains hidden.
My fellow man and woman are often helping me to become aware of - and to own - my hidden desire to be special. It is only when I see it as it is that I can also see that I do not want it. When I see it as the lens of the desire itself would have me see - I believe I do want it.
A Course in Miracles can be made a special relationship; a way to avoid a real relationship that shares from a prior wholeness.
But all such attempts to get for oneself are inherently self defeating - and break down. That's where we either seek and find another candidate for a special relationship (looking outside our self) - or open to truth because it is true.
I am grateful with you.
in Love's blessing
Brian
2010/07/22
Time - and the 'celestial speed up'
Our sense of time is a function of consciousness.
Consciousness of time is an activity that is constantly flitting about. Comparing moments, anticipating and recalling future and past. It all happens so fast that we don't notice it is a construct - which has become second nature to us - a sort of default program running..
But our First Nature is not time bound - for the Spark of Eternity is the Light by which our true mind is lit.
The second nature grew out of the desire to judge good and evil. It is false - for it seeks to determine all things for itself without the Intimacy of God in which Truth is simply revealed.
In order to maintain its sense of separation from God, the mind has to deny its own Source and true nature. Not verbally - but by means of imagination, dissociation, distraction and deceit. To maintain this sense of self and world - as a judging and separated mind in a body - requires a constant vigilance in its defence or protection. But the experience is one of depletion and degradation - such as is depicted in the Bible story of the Prodigal Son.
The personal identity of the would-be separating Son inevitably breaks down - or becomes meaningless despite the investment in the meanings by which it is acted out. As it breaks down, Light dawns. The light of Truth.
We experience the Light of Spirit either through our willingness - or through our resistance.
Through resistance we make the experience of fear, in which we become lost and desperate - running ever faster to escape ourselves as we fear ourselves to be. This is 666; the busyness that never opens into to the Seventh Day in which "Behold - and it is very Good". For such Is our Divine function, to see the presence of love and thereby to be the presence of love extending.
Through our willingness we experience the Light as a flowing present - in which all things take their rightful place - not by the act of human thought - but in the allowing of Truth to Be Itself.
The speed up is a sign of awakening. The awakening begins as a willingness to listen, to ask, to accept and to serve.
The last judgement is That which undoes the mind of judgement:
"Behold my Beloved Son, Whom is My delight!"
Think not this is addressed to only Jesus. Jesus Knew the Father in and through the Son - and calls us awaken likewise. But think neither that it is addressed to the self you make apart and in secret. That which Hears is one with our Holy Spirit, held in trust while seeming to squander our inheritance in journeying away from our heart’s true Home.
Be still of engaging conflicted thought and Know.
When time falls away, Eternity stands forth as the Always.
Our thought and language do not reach beyond our limiting and limited belief and perception.
But God's Language is Creation Infinite and Universal - and His Intimate Inclusion has not been broken, despoiled or at all changed by the mind of forgetfulness and fear. But such a will must be recognised as what it is - and laid aside - or you will use it and believe all that it tells you.
Jesus shows the way. Not in being sacrificed by God or by others - but in freely following the Holy Spirit's Direction; the Voice for God - found in the heart by going within in trust.
The fruits of the Spirit are the Gift of God. "Behold I make all things new!"
This is the undoing of time and death.
Now seems to almost disappear in a seamless and linear timeline of experiences in the world.
Yet now expands to become the edgeless Movement of the very Mind of God in the acceptance of God as First and Only.
What does this mean but that we make our own mind up in self image and defend it against truth by giving it priority? It is time to wake up to this and stop.
All are called, but few choose to listen. But all are called and all will choose to listen.
For none can abide or withstand the truth - and we shall be undone of self-illusion.
The Spirit of God is One. And his Thoughts are Like Him in kind and in nature.
This might seem to condemn the divided mind - but that is yet another thought of judgement and thus further deceit.
Judge not - stop using the mind to divide and rule. It cuts you from your true Life - which waits your welcome where you left it.
Let the mind that was in Christ Jesus - the Holy Spirit - be your discernment.
Be the willingness that gives welcome - and keeps not resistance hidden as protection of sin. But let it be known as it is and thus be seen truly - and healed.
These things are coming to pass within the mind that yet sleeps and remembers not.
But look not to another time or a time soon. Look to the now of time - and let your willingness find you in the nick of time.
For joy and love shared - in peace - Is your salvation.
The mind may seem to stray and forget. But it is to the Living Truth in You that He says "Go in peace and sin no more".
Go with your Holy Spirit and without the thoughts of confusion and conflict. For such is the way of peace
Look to where you set your treasure - for by this choice do you set all else true or false.
In Peace
Brian
Consciousness of time is an activity that is constantly flitting about. Comparing moments, anticipating and recalling future and past. It all happens so fast that we don't notice it is a construct - which has become second nature to us - a sort of default program running..
But our First Nature is not time bound - for the Spark of Eternity is the Light by which our true mind is lit.
The second nature grew out of the desire to judge good and evil. It is false - for it seeks to determine all things for itself without the Intimacy of God in which Truth is simply revealed.
In order to maintain its sense of separation from God, the mind has to deny its own Source and true nature. Not verbally - but by means of imagination, dissociation, distraction and deceit. To maintain this sense of self and world - as a judging and separated mind in a body - requires a constant vigilance in its defence or protection. But the experience is one of depletion and degradation - such as is depicted in the Bible story of the Prodigal Son.
The personal identity of the would-be separating Son inevitably breaks down - or becomes meaningless despite the investment in the meanings by which it is acted out. As it breaks down, Light dawns. The light of Truth.
We experience the Light of Spirit either through our willingness - or through our resistance.
Through resistance we make the experience of fear, in which we become lost and desperate - running ever faster to escape ourselves as we fear ourselves to be. This is 666; the busyness that never opens into to the Seventh Day in which "Behold - and it is very Good". For such Is our Divine function, to see the presence of love and thereby to be the presence of love extending.
Through our willingness we experience the Light as a flowing present - in which all things take their rightful place - not by the act of human thought - but in the allowing of Truth to Be Itself.
The speed up is a sign of awakening. The awakening begins as a willingness to listen, to ask, to accept and to serve.
The last judgement is That which undoes the mind of judgement:
"Behold my Beloved Son, Whom is My delight!"
Think not this is addressed to only Jesus. Jesus Knew the Father in and through the Son - and calls us awaken likewise. But think neither that it is addressed to the self you make apart and in secret. That which Hears is one with our Holy Spirit, held in trust while seeming to squander our inheritance in journeying away from our heart’s true Home.
Be still of engaging conflicted thought and Know.
When time falls away, Eternity stands forth as the Always.
Our thought and language do not reach beyond our limiting and limited belief and perception.
But God's Language is Creation Infinite and Universal - and His Intimate Inclusion has not been broken, despoiled or at all changed by the mind of forgetfulness and fear. But such a will must be recognised as what it is - and laid aside - or you will use it and believe all that it tells you.
Jesus shows the way. Not in being sacrificed by God or by others - but in freely following the Holy Spirit's Direction; the Voice for God - found in the heart by going within in trust.
The fruits of the Spirit are the Gift of God. "Behold I make all things new!"
This is the undoing of time and death.
Now seems to almost disappear in a seamless and linear timeline of experiences in the world.
Yet now expands to become the edgeless Movement of the very Mind of God in the acceptance of God as First and Only.
What does this mean but that we make our own mind up in self image and defend it against truth by giving it priority? It is time to wake up to this and stop.
All are called, but few choose to listen. But all are called and all will choose to listen.
For none can abide or withstand the truth - and we shall be undone of self-illusion.
The Spirit of God is One. And his Thoughts are Like Him in kind and in nature.
This might seem to condemn the divided mind - but that is yet another thought of judgement and thus further deceit.
Judge not - stop using the mind to divide and rule. It cuts you from your true Life - which waits your welcome where you left it.
Let the mind that was in Christ Jesus - the Holy Spirit - be your discernment.
Be the willingness that gives welcome - and keeps not resistance hidden as protection of sin. But let it be known as it is and thus be seen truly - and healed.
These things are coming to pass within the mind that yet sleeps and remembers not.
But look not to another time or a time soon. Look to the now of time - and let your willingness find you in the nick of time.
For joy and love shared - in peace - Is your salvation.
The mind may seem to stray and forget. But it is to the Living Truth in You that He says "Go in peace and sin no more".
Go with your Holy Spirit and without the thoughts of confusion and conflict. For such is the way of peace
Look to where you set your treasure - for by this choice do you set all else true or false.
In Peace
Brian
2010/07/18
2010-07-18 The dream
I commented on a question about interpreting a dream in which someone was being given hair extensions...
Trying to make sense of a dream may simply be a way of continuing in the extension of meaningless fantasy.
In other words there may be nothing to understand - as waking up reveals it to be unreal and insignificant.
When the Spirit speaks through a dream to bring attention present for a specific meaning to be accepted or acknowledged, the communication arises from within and may not even need to be thought on - but can be simply felt as blessing at a level that is peace in the heart.
Cutting off the hair can symbolize a release of the world and its lure of illusory powers to become a something in our own right. Hair extensions can be fun to dress up in - but if we get our sense of self validation from our appearance and from the response that we get from others - - we become trapped in a hollow mask.
Look at thoughts and see how much junk floats around.
It has been called the astral or lower astral plane. In rising beyond the gravity of a false and fixed interpretation, this is one of the first kinds of thought or 'experience' to pass by without getting involved with it.
It is also true that some make a path from dream interpretation as a window to the mind and the Spirit. Dreams become a realm of communicating at a level prior to the surface aspects of the daily experience of life - which can engage attention so as to neglect the depth of our being.
There are many aspects of dreaming that apply to our so called waking state. The phrase ‘awakening’ means enlightenment - but also implies that the story of our experience - that we tend to take as reality - is a cover over - or distraction from - the reality that knows itself as it is.
The Holy Spirit is the Universal Teacher of Truth - through all or any agencies - because ultimately it is your own and only true mind. It’s vision and guidance is the reinterpretation of dreams - which are themselves already 'interpretations' made of images, thoughts and associations. If our identity is bound up in a lack of wholeness whose sense of lack is reinforced by interpreting from that presumption, then Holy Spirit will reinterpret so as to restore wholeness to our awareness.
Whichever paths we take, Holy Spirit Life will work with us and through us. The key is the desire and willingness to listen ongoingly - as our way of life. The paths that are not feeling and listening are no life at all and THAT is a correct understanding of the dream - for it has only the life that you, as dreamer, give it.
Your peace is you understanding - because your peace is beyond all understanding.
Understanding rests or stands under the knowing in quiet.
The attempt to understand outside of the flow of already communication - as a wilful demand - is like stirring the mud in a pool. All sorts of mud and detritus swirls around and seem to suggest all sorts of meanings relative to the original impulse - which persists as the stirring, by giving attention to and identification with - the stirred up stuff.
Yet in pausing, the mud settles of itself, the clarity restored of itself, and the realisation and responsibility of mind for its own inclusive wholeness - dawns - of itself.
In Peace
Brian
Trying to make sense of a dream may simply be a way of continuing in the extension of meaningless fantasy.
In other words there may be nothing to understand - as waking up reveals it to be unreal and insignificant.
When the Spirit speaks through a dream to bring attention present for a specific meaning to be accepted or acknowledged, the communication arises from within and may not even need to be thought on - but can be simply felt as blessing at a level that is peace in the heart.
Cutting off the hair can symbolize a release of the world and its lure of illusory powers to become a something in our own right. Hair extensions can be fun to dress up in - but if we get our sense of self validation from our appearance and from the response that we get from others - - we become trapped in a hollow mask.
Look at thoughts and see how much junk floats around.
It has been called the astral or lower astral plane. In rising beyond the gravity of a false and fixed interpretation, this is one of the first kinds of thought or 'experience' to pass by without getting involved with it.
It is also true that some make a path from dream interpretation as a window to the mind and the Spirit. Dreams become a realm of communicating at a level prior to the surface aspects of the daily experience of life - which can engage attention so as to neglect the depth of our being.
There are many aspects of dreaming that apply to our so called waking state. The phrase ‘awakening’ means enlightenment - but also implies that the story of our experience - that we tend to take as reality - is a cover over - or distraction from - the reality that knows itself as it is.
The Holy Spirit is the Universal Teacher of Truth - through all or any agencies - because ultimately it is your own and only true mind. It’s vision and guidance is the reinterpretation of dreams - which are themselves already 'interpretations' made of images, thoughts and associations. If our identity is bound up in a lack of wholeness whose sense of lack is reinforced by interpreting from that presumption, then Holy Spirit will reinterpret so as to restore wholeness to our awareness.
Whichever paths we take, Holy Spirit Life will work with us and through us. The key is the desire and willingness to listen ongoingly - as our way of life. The paths that are not feeling and listening are no life at all and THAT is a correct understanding of the dream - for it has only the life that you, as dreamer, give it.
Your peace is you understanding - because your peace is beyond all understanding.
Understanding rests or stands under the knowing in quiet.
The attempt to understand outside of the flow of already communication - as a wilful demand - is like stirring the mud in a pool. All sorts of mud and detritus swirls around and seem to suggest all sorts of meanings relative to the original impulse - which persists as the stirring, by giving attention to and identification with - the stirred up stuff.
Yet in pausing, the mud settles of itself, the clarity restored of itself, and the realisation and responsibility of mind for its own inclusive wholeness - dawns - of itself.
In Peace
Brian
2010/07/10
Freedom, identity and healing
The ego aspect wants to be free of limitations in order to do otherwise impossible things.
The love that you are wants to be free of limitation in order to be all that it is - regardless of the doings that that might or might not give rise to.
To abide and hold with all that you are - and to trust and follow the Direction of your own love seems an Impossibility in terms of the world and all of what its teaching and learning has facilitated. And it is this 'doing' that is asked of each of us as the welcome and faith in the Living Word in our Heart.
In the living out of this in our lives, we seem often to pass through drama, messy involvements, fears and struggles against adversity. Yet in all honesty awake one can truly say that God - or Love - did all the work and all I did was to somehow (by grace!) keep the way and the channel open.
To shut down our heart is to crucify ourselves. And our body and world will faithfully reflect our thought and intent in our experience. To keep our heart open is in effect to give it back to its Source.
In the world the Heart is hidden and therefore secret.
In God it is the other way around.
To bring the world back into alignment with God is to forgive and release the desire for a secret self - and let Peace restore a wholly guiltless mind.
The pain of longing is an unrecognised Communion - seen through the frame of its apparent loss. Zeal must be tempered with humility, or we proceed as if we know - based on certainties that would not hold without being forcefully maintained.
The problem is the answer unrecognised. But the problem also 'solves itself' in the world by presenting itself as it is not - (dissociation). To be guided from the decoys and distractions - in honesty - to the truth of the problem - will uncover the truth. And the answer will become obvious once the problem is no longer hidden.
Our sense of separation from Self - from Life - from Love - From God - is more terrible than mere words could ever convey. It is our death ... But look again - with desire to see truly - as the heart bids you in all sanity to allow.
The mind that thinks it can leave or deny the heart is itself but a thought. Pick it up and see all Oneness seem to fragment and collapse upon itself. Be turned to allow love's Movement and see all fragmentation and conflicting identity dissolve.
The love that you are wants to be free of limitation in order to be all that it is - regardless of the doings that that might or might not give rise to.
To abide and hold with all that you are - and to trust and follow the Direction of your own love seems an Impossibility in terms of the world and all of what its teaching and learning has facilitated. And it is this 'doing' that is asked of each of us as the welcome and faith in the Living Word in our Heart.
In the living out of this in our lives, we seem often to pass through drama, messy involvements, fears and struggles against adversity. Yet in all honesty awake one can truly say that God - or Love - did all the work and all I did was to somehow (by grace!) keep the way and the channel open.
To shut down our heart is to crucify ourselves. And our body and world will faithfully reflect our thought and intent in our experience. To keep our heart open is in effect to give it back to its Source.
In the world the Heart is hidden and therefore secret.
In God it is the other way around.
To bring the world back into alignment with God is to forgive and release the desire for a secret self - and let Peace restore a wholly guiltless mind.
The pain of longing is an unrecognised Communion - seen through the frame of its apparent loss. Zeal must be tempered with humility, or we proceed as if we know - based on certainties that would not hold without being forcefully maintained.
The problem is the answer unrecognised. But the problem also 'solves itself' in the world by presenting itself as it is not - (dissociation). To be guided from the decoys and distractions - in honesty - to the truth of the problem - will uncover the truth. And the answer will become obvious once the problem is no longer hidden.
Our sense of separation from Self - from Life - from Love - From God - is more terrible than mere words could ever convey. It is our death ... But look again - with desire to see truly - as the heart bids you in all sanity to allow.
The mind that thinks it can leave or deny the heart is itself but a thought. Pick it up and see all Oneness seem to fragment and collapse upon itself. Be turned to allow love's Movement and see all fragmentation and conflicting identity dissolve.
Temptation, self-will and release
We may not recognize temptation as what it is - but take it to be the voice of our own heart and mind - when it is but thoughts of spiritual death - presented as desire for a self projection and protection.
In Gethsemene, Jesus found this desire for a separate will was still active in him when he had thought to have relinquished it entirely - for he found his peace upset when his disciples could not watch and pray with him. he recognized this experience as witness to his own self-will and immediately returned tothe Father to offer it up.
And dis likewise yet again - until his peace was witness to the truth of one Will.
Our self-based experience - which is our ‘take’ or interpretation of our nowness - is our self and our world - both. It is of the nature of a duality.
But it is not Truth - for we can experience unlike Truth, through the use of judgement, imagination, wishful thinking and desire. I can experience myself as I am not - and suffer as if it were true.
Without Truth's perspective - we could not know our self made illusion was unreal - for it would be all in all to us.
But behind (and before) the dreaming of the self in a world made flesh - is the Peace and Presence of Truth that is your direct and living Eternality. Its Light is one with the light of your own awareness, and its awakening and remembrance is the transformation of a dream of a life in fear and darkness, to a communioned life in joy and trust.
An image that came to me that speaks of the falsely identified self - is of turtle island. Where 'we' live out our life stories on a world that seem solid - until the turtle moves. Excepting the Being-ness of God - is not an Alien Will that 'nothings' us - but is the Source and Truth of All that we Truly are - even within our self projecting desire.
The self-desire is a seeming contra-movement to the Self Extending Inclusion. And from its standpoint - we think, and act out from a Thought "I" - and we experience ourselves body exclusively - which is to say we forget the Mother/Father - the Allness and Nowness of Direct Being.
Instead we have a fragmented experience of now - defined and separated wilfully - yet experienced as if the world does it to us.
The release of the self-will - (Which is the corollory of the acceptance of a life in love and service to Life Itself) - necessarily involves the recognition of the thought-desire for what it truly is - and its release.
Our nowness is an always on, feedback device. If it speaks of limitation - then there are currently limiting thoughts affecting our interpretation or appreciation of reality.
Now Jesus was apparently 'limited' with and by extreme conditions of unlove, the acting out of denial upon the body. But his nowness was of the Father. When false questioning was applied to him - he answered Not - but remained at one in peace of the Truth of a Wholly Loving God.
How so - but by the Love of the Father Who Knows His Son as He Is.
And not as the Son can imagine himself to be; in opposition or competition with any aspect of himself.
So the release of the self-will is an always already-now response to the substitute nowness that we take to be living in the world as limited power.
And is the automatic result of not hiding or disguising seperation thoughts in the dark - but of allowing them to be revealed in Light - as they are.
Paul (of Tarsus) fought against self-will and therefore identified with it as real. This is not a cause fro blame but a cause to stop, look and listen anew. There can seem to be an Enemy to God, to Life and to Love. And the temptation to see this outside ourselves is a most fundamental - but misguided - self protection.
That such an evil will is our own self surely demands that it be obliterated, damned - put out! - says confusion.
Be still and listen Only for Truth's Guidance. Suffer not to react on the basis of confusion but wait on the Spirit of the One God, whose signs and fruits are known in secret - in the Heart - that the world knows not.
To take one step in Guidance, is to allow alignment with God now. And the experience will of itself reflect the true alignment. But the attention is in the trust and light of the restored Communion and not in the world of form.
The temptation to see in terms of form is the forgetting of Purpose - whose forms always serve Meaning and not a multiverse of made up meanings.
In Gethsemene, Jesus found this desire for a separate will was still active in him when he had thought to have relinquished it entirely - for he found his peace upset when his disciples could not watch and pray with him. he recognized this experience as witness to his own self-will and immediately returned tothe Father to offer it up.
And dis likewise yet again - until his peace was witness to the truth of one Will.
Our self-based experience - which is our ‘take’ or interpretation of our nowness - is our self and our world - both. It is of the nature of a duality.
But it is not Truth - for we can experience unlike Truth, through the use of judgement, imagination, wishful thinking and desire. I can experience myself as I am not - and suffer as if it were true.
Without Truth's perspective - we could not know our self made illusion was unreal - for it would be all in all to us.
But behind (and before) the dreaming of the self in a world made flesh - is the Peace and Presence of Truth that is your direct and living Eternality. Its Light is one with the light of your own awareness, and its awakening and remembrance is the transformation of a dream of a life in fear and darkness, to a communioned life in joy and trust.
An image that came to me that speaks of the falsely identified self - is of turtle island. Where 'we' live out our life stories on a world that seem solid - until the turtle moves. Excepting the Being-ness of God - is not an Alien Will that 'nothings' us - but is the Source and Truth of All that we Truly are - even within our self projecting desire.
The self-desire is a seeming contra-movement to the Self Extending Inclusion. And from its standpoint - we think, and act out from a Thought "I" - and we experience ourselves body exclusively - which is to say we forget the Mother/Father - the Allness and Nowness of Direct Being.
Instead we have a fragmented experience of now - defined and separated wilfully - yet experienced as if the world does it to us.
The release of the self-will - (Which is the corollory of the acceptance of a life in love and service to Life Itself) - necessarily involves the recognition of the thought-desire for what it truly is - and its release.
Our nowness is an always on, feedback device. If it speaks of limitation - then there are currently limiting thoughts affecting our interpretation or appreciation of reality.
Now Jesus was apparently 'limited' with and by extreme conditions of unlove, the acting out of denial upon the body. But his nowness was of the Father. When false questioning was applied to him - he answered Not - but remained at one in peace of the Truth of a Wholly Loving God.
How so - but by the Love of the Father Who Knows His Son as He Is.
And not as the Son can imagine himself to be; in opposition or competition with any aspect of himself.
So the release of the self-will is an always already-now response to the substitute nowness that we take to be living in the world as limited power.
And is the automatic result of not hiding or disguising seperation thoughts in the dark - but of allowing them to be revealed in Light - as they are.
Paul (of Tarsus) fought against self-will and therefore identified with it as real. This is not a cause fro blame but a cause to stop, look and listen anew. There can seem to be an Enemy to God, to Life and to Love. And the temptation to see this outside ourselves is a most fundamental - but misguided - self protection.
That such an evil will is our own self surely demands that it be obliterated, damned - put out! - says confusion.
Be still and listen Only for Truth's Guidance. Suffer not to react on the basis of confusion but wait on the Spirit of the One God, whose signs and fruits are known in secret - in the Heart - that the world knows not.
To take one step in Guidance, is to allow alignment with God now. And the experience will of itself reflect the true alignment. But the attention is in the trust and light of the restored Communion and not in the world of form.
The temptation to see in terms of form is the forgetting of Purpose - whose forms always serve Meaning and not a multiverse of made up meanings.
2010/07/09
The Now of you be-ing
Your 'Now' is the feedback to your desire.
If in this Now, your desire is single, whole and pure, you will ONLY know all things through the Spirit that Moves you.
If you find a split mind then that will give you a polarized experience of a conflicted nature.
The only whole desire is love and love is always already awake.
For it knows all things within itself.
False desires are of a love of power, that sees all things without itself and outside itself. For in wanting power for oneself alone creates a sense of lack and separateness from all.
It seeks to dispossess itself of truth, that it may possess its fantasy.
The way of awakening reverses the way of reversal - but by releasing, undoing and acceptance - and not by asserting further self will.
Service is the release of self will. Serve love by bringing attention present for something not of your making and not of your will.
The answer is where the problem is - or it would not be the answer. Do not use the promise of an answer to shortcut the opening of your mind to the feedback of your now - or you wait forever un receiving.
The arena of helplessness, inadequacy, need and incapacity - is the condition in which you bring the Divine forth by your single unequivocal call.
You do not need to seek such opportunity. They will be brought to you in context of your embracing life and discovering the blocks to love’s awareness.
In your communion with God, let there be no one outside, as someone or something else to use as distraction or protection from the love of your very being. To desire to save or serve others outside the love is to desire to usurp love of its home in you and through you.
Everyone is serving your awakening because they were judged or interpreted by you to serve a dream of self creation, and awakening rises when the self-creating is no longer forced upon your Now. Everyone is part of your awakening when they are no longer used for sin, for you have released your demand that they serve your will, let them be as they are, and appreciated them as they are.
But your Now does not leave you when you seem to have made it yours alone and lose your self in time.
It is disguised so as to be irrelevant to the distraction that has your fixated attention.
Wake up to what the mind makes for itself by deception and self image.
The desecration of the heart from the apparent attack on innocence is associated with a deeply intimate horror; guilt. But the companioned and communioned mind does not use this to mount further attack on itself.
For it has given its faith to the desire and welcome of peace and healing above all else.
To rest in truth accepted.
in Gratitude
Brian
If in this Now, your desire is single, whole and pure, you will ONLY know all things through the Spirit that Moves you.
If you find a split mind then that will give you a polarized experience of a conflicted nature.
The only whole desire is love and love is always already awake.
For it knows all things within itself.
False desires are of a love of power, that sees all things without itself and outside itself. For in wanting power for oneself alone creates a sense of lack and separateness from all.
It seeks to dispossess itself of truth, that it may possess its fantasy.
The way of awakening reverses the way of reversal - but by releasing, undoing and acceptance - and not by asserting further self will.
Service is the release of self will. Serve love by bringing attention present for something not of your making and not of your will.
The answer is where the problem is - or it would not be the answer. Do not use the promise of an answer to shortcut the opening of your mind to the feedback of your now - or you wait forever un receiving.
The arena of helplessness, inadequacy, need and incapacity - is the condition in which you bring the Divine forth by your single unequivocal call.
You do not need to seek such opportunity. They will be brought to you in context of your embracing life and discovering the blocks to love’s awareness.
In your communion with God, let there be no one outside, as someone or something else to use as distraction or protection from the love of your very being. To desire to save or serve others outside the love is to desire to usurp love of its home in you and through you.
Everyone is serving your awakening because they were judged or interpreted by you to serve a dream of self creation, and awakening rises when the self-creating is no longer forced upon your Now. Everyone is part of your awakening when they are no longer used for sin, for you have released your demand that they serve your will, let them be as they are, and appreciated them as they are.
But your Now does not leave you when you seem to have made it yours alone and lose your self in time.
It is disguised so as to be irrelevant to the distraction that has your fixated attention.
Wake up to what the mind makes for itself by deception and self image.
The desecration of the heart from the apparent attack on innocence is associated with a deeply intimate horror; guilt. But the companioned and communioned mind does not use this to mount further attack on itself.
For it has given its faith to the desire and welcome of peace and healing above all else.
To rest in truth accepted.
in Gratitude
Brian
The controverse is not the Universe
Controversy is an invitation to a spectacle in the arena of conflict - as if the outcome can boost or diminish the validity of you.
Look within and let the assertive will subside in the depth of Silence.
The symbol that is given me for this is to kneel in the Heart.
But the symbol is only a symbol - kneeling is the giving of acknowledgement, or due worth.
Giving is the way of receiving.
Give what is God's to God.
Holy wars are simply wars that use life symbols taken out of context.
Use awakened faith to question and move beyond belief based religion into the quickening of Spirit.
Make and worship not images of the Living Reality and you will be held in the Source as one with its Current Expression.
Look within and let the assertive will subside in the depth of Silence.
The symbol that is given me for this is to kneel in the Heart.
But the symbol is only a symbol - kneeling is the giving of acknowledgement, or due worth.
Giving is the way of receiving.
Give what is God's to God.
Holy wars are simply wars that use life symbols taken out of context.
Use awakened faith to question and move beyond belief based religion into the quickening of Spirit.
Make and worship not images of the Living Reality and you will be held in the Source as one with its Current Expression.
Do you live or do you dream of life?
The seeker of truth is not Awake - or he would not seek.
He is not identifying with life directly - but mythologically. Does he or did he ever really exist in the terms that he presumes to be his self? - No - but belief and identification are really given to the images, definitions and ideas.
Truth is not subject to opinions, theories, philosophical ideas or concepts - that can be woven to clothe insight or to simply express wishful thinking - and taken as if they had potency in themselves. They have only - but not less than - all power given them by belief and desire.
Holy Spirit uses the contents of your mind to awaken you to that you Are Mind. None of the contents are in themselves truth - though they can be sorted and purified by the Holy Spirit to reflect and serve truth.
As Mind - you are not independent, nor differentiated exclusively. You could say you were in a state of radiant openness that has not collapsed into an identification of form. This does not cease to be so when your attention does become distracted by desire, differentiation and form.
But trying to talk this into realisation is absurd because the talking mind wants to understand everything in its terms. To engage in talking as if we could define and determine truth is to persist in blocking the movement of truth from our own awareness.
The primary desire of the truth moving in us and as us is to "Know Thy Self".
That is why we "do nothing" and let God.
If all that you think you are seems to compel your attention to collapse or withdraw 'self protectively' - you may find that "doing nothing" is the faith and willingness whose practice burns out the identification patterns of a private will.
He is not identifying with life directly - but mythologically. Does he or did he ever really exist in the terms that he presumes to be his self? - No - but belief and identification are really given to the images, definitions and ideas.
Truth is not subject to opinions, theories, philosophical ideas or concepts - that can be woven to clothe insight or to simply express wishful thinking - and taken as if they had potency in themselves. They have only - but not less than - all power given them by belief and desire.
Holy Spirit uses the contents of your mind to awaken you to that you Are Mind. None of the contents are in themselves truth - though they can be sorted and purified by the Holy Spirit to reflect and serve truth.
As Mind - you are not independent, nor differentiated exclusively. You could say you were in a state of radiant openness that has not collapsed into an identification of form. This does not cease to be so when your attention does become distracted by desire, differentiation and form.
But trying to talk this into realisation is absurd because the talking mind wants to understand everything in its terms. To engage in talking as if we could define and determine truth is to persist in blocking the movement of truth from our own awareness.
The primary desire of the truth moving in us and as us is to "Know Thy Self".
That is why we "do nothing" and let God.
If all that you think you are seems to compel your attention to collapse or withdraw 'self protectively' - you may find that "doing nothing" is the faith and willingness whose practice burns out the identification patterns of a private will.
Spirit is in you as you in Spirit
The Spirit of God - as Indwelling Holy Spirit, walks with everyone - no matter who or what they seem to have become, do or say. But the mind in self-illusion may not recognise the true nature of its Guide and Companion through the events, lessons and meetings that lead it from its locked in self-regard, to the love-light of a direct and pure awareness.
The opening of the mind to light takes individualized forms for individual lifelines, where some paths serve some but would be unhelpful to others. It is not helpful to seek and find error in others and then use that to validate the truth or rightness of one's own path.
It is helpful to extend the truth through willing service or love of Self in all.
The opening of the mind to light takes individualized forms for individual lifelines, where some paths serve some but would be unhelpful to others. It is not helpful to seek and find error in others and then use that to validate the truth or rightness of one's own path.
It is helpful to extend the truth through willing service or love of Self in all.
2010/07/01
Does evil exist?
Theological and philosophical questions are often asked about the Universe, Life, God or Creation, but what about if we ask this question only of our self presently?
Is there an oppositional force to our life or being?
I'm not interested in right or wrong answers - but just to invite the question and listen.
There can certainly seem to be such a sense of conflicted forces - that are the motions or intent of conflicting desires.
Some teach that there are bad thoughts and that they originate from or are embodiment of a devil, or fallen angel. Though this teaching may not be overtly subscribed to, its conditioning runs deep.
A part of God splits off and fights Him in order to replace or usurp God?
God is limited by opposition and therefore is not God - but a part of a cosmic conflict of two powers - forever embraced in struggle for domination?
But the Spirit of God is One - and so is His Son.
But our personal human perspective seems to see evil motive and intent in others - and does not want to discover it in ourselves - so this is fearfully minimised and swept under the carpet.
Bad thoughts - that actually are mean spirited, hateful and actively undermining of wellbeing, present themselves as in some way self serving - and yet suggest a sense of self that is lacking, guilty, inadequate and unjustly victim.
If we act on the basis of these thoughts and therefore accept our sense of self as suggested - we feed a habit that destroys our peace - and all that in peace is shared. And grow the density and compulsion of the 'voices' that 'protect and justify' or at least mitigate or salve our conflicted and painful sense of self.
A painful and conflicted self that we do not realize or recognise - because we displace and deny so as to not feel and know pain of fear and guilt directly. We use our brothers and our world and our body as the scapegoat - and put our guilt outside and hate it.
But having 'put our mind outside' we now fear it's 'return'.
Its as if an evil force is trying to penetrate my defences - some nameless and terrible mind that I fear to look within and see. So I draw my fences tighter - and use anything to keep my attention from the possibility of knowing what will surely damn me.
There is a war on and everyone and everything has been requisitioned to support me in my struggle.
If I can normalize everything and get it all to flow along nicely - I can adapt and accept a tiny life where for a while I can forget what I am running from - have defensiveness automatically deal with problems before they arise as well as as they are arising. And can make a life in which I can believe for a while that I am as I think and the world is as I think it - and yet hardly have any attention free enough to notice any but the most superficial of thoughts.
Is self deception evil?
Jesus said "Resist ye not evil"
But he was demonstrably active in embracing Good - yet not a good opposed to evil - but the Good that is the Will of God our One Spirit, and the appreciation and service of the Good in all.
He feared not evil though he did recognise temptation as deception.
I long had a sense that many seemingly religious people I met were in fact worshippers of evil - for that was their underlying conviction - and their faith was a shield and a weapon against what they feared and yet accepted as true and powerful - And hoping for a magical or otherworldly Force for Good to intervene on their hapless sin condemned plight.
And to these there must needs be a devil - for to side against the devil is surely to be seen to stand among the righteous?
It matters little that the shadows shift and change from one evil to another foe to yet another sign of impending doom - just as long as the mind is maintained in its presentation.
Is there an oppositional force to our life or being?
I'm not interested in right or wrong answers - but just to invite the question and listen.
There can certainly seem to be such a sense of conflicted forces - that are the motions or intent of conflicting desires.
Some teach that there are bad thoughts and that they originate from or are embodiment of a devil, or fallen angel. Though this teaching may not be overtly subscribed to, its conditioning runs deep.
A part of God splits off and fights Him in order to replace or usurp God?
God is limited by opposition and therefore is not God - but a part of a cosmic conflict of two powers - forever embraced in struggle for domination?
But the Spirit of God is One - and so is His Son.
But our personal human perspective seems to see evil motive and intent in others - and does not want to discover it in ourselves - so this is fearfully minimised and swept under the carpet.
Bad thoughts - that actually are mean spirited, hateful and actively undermining of wellbeing, present themselves as in some way self serving - and yet suggest a sense of self that is lacking, guilty, inadequate and unjustly victim.
If we act on the basis of these thoughts and therefore accept our sense of self as suggested - we feed a habit that destroys our peace - and all that in peace is shared. And grow the density and compulsion of the 'voices' that 'protect and justify' or at least mitigate or salve our conflicted and painful sense of self.
A painful and conflicted self that we do not realize or recognise - because we displace and deny so as to not feel and know pain of fear and guilt directly. We use our brothers and our world and our body as the scapegoat - and put our guilt outside and hate it.
But having 'put our mind outside' we now fear it's 'return'.
Its as if an evil force is trying to penetrate my defences - some nameless and terrible mind that I fear to look within and see. So I draw my fences tighter - and use anything to keep my attention from the possibility of knowing what will surely damn me.
There is a war on and everyone and everything has been requisitioned to support me in my struggle.
If I can normalize everything and get it all to flow along nicely - I can adapt and accept a tiny life where for a while I can forget what I am running from - have defensiveness automatically deal with problems before they arise as well as as they are arising. And can make a life in which I can believe for a while that I am as I think and the world is as I think it - and yet hardly have any attention free enough to notice any but the most superficial of thoughts.
Is self deception evil?
Jesus said "Resist ye not evil"
But he was demonstrably active in embracing Good - yet not a good opposed to evil - but the Good that is the Will of God our One Spirit, and the appreciation and service of the Good in all.
He feared not evil though he did recognise temptation as deception.
I long had a sense that many seemingly religious people I met were in fact worshippers of evil - for that was their underlying conviction - and their faith was a shield and a weapon against what they feared and yet accepted as true and powerful - And hoping for a magical or otherworldly Force for Good to intervene on their hapless sin condemned plight.
And to these there must needs be a devil - for to side against the devil is surely to be seen to stand among the righteous?
It matters little that the shadows shift and change from one evil to another foe to yet another sign of impending doom - just as long as the mind is maintained in its presentation.
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