Christian hearsay - taint so!

I read the following Article: (see links for origins)

The essence of the Christian religion

“The essence of the Christian religion consists in the reality that

the creation of the Father,

ruined

by sin,

is restored

in the death of the Son of God,

and re-created

by the grace of the Holy Spirit

into a kingdom of God.”

Herman Bavinck, Reformed Dogmatics, 1:61.

June 27, 2010 - Posted by spurgeon | Herman Bavinck

(Slightly edited from what I posted).

This guilt-logic of death as a price or sacrifice as payment, has never made sense – not has it ever extended the Sense that Is the Holy Spirit.

The mind of sin is simply the mind or intent to have ‘my will and not Thy Will be done’. 

While such is identified with and ‘loved’ – it costs the appreciation of Life Eternal – and therefore brings the wage of ‘death’ WHILE it is engaged. Dramas and apparent conflicts ABOUT this mentality are simply subtle strategy to persist in employing it – in place of aligning with Living Truth. Such activity is,in effect is “all about me”. But it is a false sense of self and so can only result in deception.

Thirst for Truth does not depend on a magical ‘Jesus’ – but on likewise freely laying down the personal will in acceptance and trust of Only the Father’s Will. The Father’s Will is the Movement of Being discovered in stillness of self-creating thought and judgement. It Is Truly Present - while our attention is wilfully yet ignorantly distracted from Living presence.

The Holy Spirit is the Intelligence and Voice and Guide to the Son of God in forgetfulness of His Father. Ask and it shall be Given. Seek and you shall find. If the fruits are not of God’s Wholeness – then ask yourself what am I asking and where am I seeking for answers?

To kneel in the heart to the Christ is to acknowledge the First and accept right relationship as Second, like unto the first but the son or extension of – and not a power or self in its own right.

It is through the apparent death of the ‘son of Adam’ – that awakened love knows itself anew and in holiness. For it is by assuming the mind or power of judgement that the appreciation of the Father's Light in All That Is, is usurped, and instead is experienced a self and world that testifies to an orphaned will. Such is the power of your faith - given to judgement, division, war and death.

The forms this takes vary for each of us but the meaning is universal. The Cross symbolizes this – as does the Resurrection awaken and rise beyond symbols – but the mind in sin will not see holiness excepting ‘outside itself’, in some other world or from some god of ‘otherness’. The desire for the Light is the dawning of the Light – but seen externally. Such was John the Baptist.

Clearly the mind in sin cannot ‘live’and see God. You must be Spoken For through your willingness to love as God Loves.

Man cannot ‘do’ this. A laying down of the ‘doing’ is the fruit of the prayer of the heart; “Show me, that I may follow in the way WITH You”.

“With You” is not a life alone, nor a contracted arrangement of separated selves. It is the Living Love that receives as it gives and gives as it receives.

It seems we can receive evil and suffer ill. This must be challenged in our own mind, perception and thought – or we succumb to the dissonance of sin as if it were creator of our being – instead of recognising it as feedback to prompt Awakening of the heart’s discernment. Watch and Pray.

Be aware – by the Light that Is Given you – and abide in the heart that recognises Light. Insanity is a veil upon True Sight. By giving attention and therefore value, to the Holy Spirit within, the mind possessed of its own thought is disregarded, passed by, put behind.

A New Earth rises from the restoration of the alignment of what before was called inner and outer. The Second Coming is the awakening of the Christ through humanity – and is near – not in time and space – but nearer – where the double vision always overlooks.

The essence of Religion is restoration of the human to the Divine. It matters not the forms – excepting they serve Purpose. God is the Supreme Identity – but not an image or concept of God. Man in ignorance and sin seeks identity in religion as in everything – yet cannot find his home excepting he remembers his Source.

in Gratitude

Brian

PS - I felt a beauty of truth in the article to which I responded - and my response is a joining with this to let the beauty be free of the cage of guilt. For 'the death of the Son of God' is an oxymoronic contradiction that needs to be undone. You could say Jesus's acceptance of Our Father's Will is the undoing of death. My part in accepting God is the removal of the conditions and blocks that I have erected and maintained in ignorance and confusion.
Free will is to be freely and willingly given back to the truth.
This is not a sacrifice - though we may deeply fear it so. The Holy Spirit is the Guide. When fear usurps true guidance we see all things awry. And suffer our exclusion.

New New Testament - fulfils yet transcends. Revelatory. Gentle

"The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament", A Course in Understanding and Acceptance. (often referred to as 'NTI')

More info: http://www.forholyspirit.org



Is it possible to be looking in the world at a book or text and find it speaks your heart's light - talking to you through a book - while simultaneously recognising this is your own voice?

Such is my appreciation for this book.

If I step back a little I can say that such truth as I find opening with this book, has the capacity to calm, restore and awaken me to an altogether present perspective.

I find it truly revelatory at a level the intellect cannot reach. Yet the book is an intimate conversation with you that holds the reader in deepest reverence. It could not be more gentle or honouring of the truth of all.

The story of Jesus, his teaching and demonstration, may be disputed by the world - but its coming into our mind carries more than any religion can own when its truth begins to speak directly to our own life.

When we are willing to open to a true understanding, we put our own judgement aside and listen in true desire of life. We are led by the movement of Spirit within to recognise and release the mentality by which we have deceived ourselves and lost our soul as we gained a world. And by this we are restored to what we thought lost.

Many will experience resistance to some of what this book reveals - but also many will come to a deep and abiding gratitude for being gently and clearly guided through it!

I find nothing coercive here, no sales pitch, and no judgement against or condemnation of. It is as direct and profound as human language can be - yet it is as nothing outside of a willingness for and love of truth. You cannot be made to drink!

That this book has appeared is surely witness to a hunger and readiness for truth.
But don't put the value or authority onto the book - but be the extension of that which is in your heart revealed.

There is much that Jesus shared that could not be received then by minds fitted only to the terms the world sets. I feel this book opens this anew in terms that can speak to anyone from any background.

What might this book bring in terms of you and your life?
A revealed basis - that is opened within You - for peace, joy and freedom in capacity to share love as the basis of life.

Does such enlightenment come from a book - No!
It comes because in some way you are ready to accept.

The Holy Spirit authorship can be an issue for some who either dont believe in divine guidance or others who cant believe such grace could actually have anything directly to do with themselves and all others.
If you read the various books within you will find different voices - yet one purpose.

If you share this purpose you will find yourself as you do not expect - for awakening is prior to the mind we engage in the world - and by which we are ignorant of truth.
There is a grace that reveals what is always true, to a mind that believes it has lost its original nature, one step at a time, as you are willing to accept


(I posted this as an Amazon uk review soon after the book was published)

Blocks and barriers and practising innocent perception

When we put our faith in the world - and the things of the world, we are engaging our self in the world and find an experience of death - for the world is temporal, not eternal. Our desire for life becomes subverted to trying to make the impossible, true. For the self that is found in the world is not true - and no matter how much you may desire what you think it brings - it is not you.

The notion that the truth of any thing or any one is to be framed within and by the sense of self grown in the world is a block.

The innocent question - that is no attempt to get the answer that suits 'you', that is no strategy of self advantage and has no agenda of solving the past or its burdens - is the movement of True Desire - NOTICED and ALLOWED.

This Movement is subtle and easily drowned out by the activity of mind relating to the world - to the thoughts and meanings of the world. Therefore become calm that what is already here can draw your attention to WHAT IS ALIVE HERE.

The Movement - the True prayer of the heart - is the direct expression of the Love that is Eternal - in You. In Being You - is an Invitation to release that which is not you - and come back or be restored to the Allness of you - without judgement and without the effects of judgement.

Because what you make is yours - your judgement is not taken away while you want it. When seen truly, you do not want it. Because you believe it gives you the life that you have in the world, you yet cling to it as your life - but in willingness to practice the Holy Instant you are led to discover that the self-thoughts are deception and do not speak for You - and so you become willing to put your experience aside and Listen to Me.

The Light is the Conscious Beholding of Love. It is spacious in awareness. It is alive to itself in everything. The self-thoughts that arise from judgement are the denial of Light. That is there purpose and that is why you wanted them - to think and experience a private creation - to freeze 'life' and use it for your own imagined reflected self purposes.

But to 'live' outside the Light is to lose Life, and all that is Alive.
Yet to the fragmented little sense of life amidst death, does it not seem that the Light will immediately cause you to abandon the identity you have found in this world - and lose your life? And is this fear-belief not a block to the opening truth?

A split heart and mind must be healed so that you do not serve two masters; each undermining the other. There is no healing without a falling away of the blocks - and the blocks are a faulty attempt at security amidst confusion arising from wanting what you do not want.

The path without a heart is false and can yield only bitterness and loss. Yet your heart is Given You in every Movement and Prompt of Your Being's Love for You - as you Are.

To take the path with a heart is to accept and live from your willingness.
Not a an applied 'willingness' of zeal or achievement in which your self idea is validated so as to 'save' you from a sense of injustice or ignominy. But a moment by moment willingness to let Life Live - and to fit in rather than attempt to fit Life to your own constructs.

This is a step by step process - yet in each step you are listening and trusting instead of asserting and fighting.

Blessed are the meek - for they shall inherit the Earth.
To abide in Me is to accept and share all things in My Sight.
The world you thought was outside You is beheld anew and with loving recognition.

Let yourself be guided in what you can not control.
This is to say let yourself be free of the belief that you - of yourself - need control.
Listen.

Be curious as to the nature and truth of that which seems to block.
There is always another way of looking at this.

It is not required that you see the body not - but only that you desire more to see in Light.

As you ask - so shall you receive.


In Peace

Brian

Disobedience is called for - Honest to God

I cant nor need I argue with what anyone else finds helpful - but I discern persuasion as a force that seeks to manipulate - and see it finds a passive obedience to the presentation of authority of the persuader.

The desire to be led by any externally derived Guide is simply the state of any mind that as yet refuses or fears to look within. Yet in the desire to be truly guided even so - we will 'find and be found' by agencies for the Holy Spirit's guidance or Teacher Within - so as to loosen and sort the 'evil' or meaningless thoughts by which we block the capacity to feel, hear, recognise, love and extend our Holy Spirit - God's Gift of the Spirit of One.

When a Son or Daughter of God forgets his or her nature as the Extension of God - it is because that function is usurped by a 'mind that believes it knows' - and yet is not at rest, at one and sharing in the fruits of the Spirit.

Where we look and find guidance, value and meaning is where we choose to put our faith. If we put our faith in the world, we are looking at best at the reflections of the eternal truth - that is not contained in its reflection - but is the Holy Spirit Beholding and Recognition of God. More often we are seeing but symbols of the meanings we have made up in fighting a senseless battle that merely reflects a confused and divided or split mind.

Because this conflict is felt and its basis believed unconsciously or only somewhat consciously - the mind and desire of manipulation is automatically, implicitly and insidiously usurping true Authority. But it always makes its claim to meaning - and indeed righteousness - by deriving its meaning from what it is against.

It is the presumption of enmity, hostility, treachery - in effect - of an evil will. It 'sees' this will in others - in nature - and as seeking to undermine or corrupt its own mind, health or society.

It attempts to use truth to fight war. To dominate, to prevail. This is exactly how to make illusion usurp truth in our mind.

You cannot be disobedient to God - but are under illusion.
Illusion is a false or faulty formulation of reality - and if it is to be seen for what it is - rather than as what it seems to be - we must disobey the mind of guilt - by not acting from its premise. By not acting until we have awakened to or felt the Movement of wholeness and guiltlessness of the Presence of Life. And then allowing and trusting that Movement as the revealer of our true will or desire - for so it is.

To become still of self is to repent and release the mind that would make the world in its own image - and open to innocent perception.
Yet the mind of self-will and its attendant guilt are deeply habituated identifications that - until we become responsible for our own mind - can simply activate a false sense of self by which love’s presence is replaced, covered over, substituted for - and the substitute accepted as if real.

When the pervasive nature of the false self is realized to be filtering and distorting everything - there is either the collapse into a willing death of obedience to its dictates - or-  a disobedience that challenges the seemingly unchallengable - with the innocence and simplicity of a child.

This 'child' is your Divinity - held in trust - awaiting your welcome.
It does not speak from the presumption of evil - but out of the peace of an innocent and single desire; the love of truth; the truth of love.

It is not for us to understand how we can 'overcome' or pass beyond the dictates of a false limitation. But only to give welcome to what is given us to desire - from God - from the inherency of our nature as unified Being.

Obedience to God is not really a matter of choice - but a matter of honesty. While it seems a matter of choice, you will feel guilty for ‘your mind’ that seems to want a selfish love - and gets a hate-love self and world in return.

This is because the mind is actively engaging in the attempt to make the unreal, real.
But in an active desire and willingness for truth to reign in your heart - you will see honestly, because you will not be engaging such a wish.

The resistance to truth must not be invested with personhood, enemy powers or stories that set you apart from your own love. Or your stories will become as your reality by your own faith.

The mind of persuasion must be disobeyed in every moment of remembering and recognition that suddenly illumines desire - thirst - for truth - amidst the illusions of choices that suggest and maintain a sense of you as 'in between'. There is nothing in between you and your Self, but an act by which are deceived in thought.

Where we look and find guidance, value and meaning is where we choose to put our faith. This simply needs to be brought to an honesty - without judgement or condemnation.
Illusion says "follow me and become free".
Truth shows you - "you are already free".

Travel the way you desire to arrive and enjoy. For we are always 'arriving in' what we have defined as our joy. To recognise a faulty choice is a happy release of the unwanted. We always know peace in choosing to let the Voice for Truth guide us.


In Peace

Brian

Open hell and discover hell-o!

If concept-ion based perception is your will, you must believe that you alone are a doer, that you alone are a power - and that you are alone.

So in the ego life there is the linear story or commentary that 'sees' clocking in, climbing stairs, parking the car, putting trash in the can, as if they were mechanical processes in a mechanical world. It doesn't really see - because it believes it already knows - and that there is nothing of value to be seen except in its ‘special loves’ - or to be avoided in its ‘special hates’. It is intent on getting something done or getting to a destination of some other moment, some other place - but 666 - never a seventh day rest in which to behold the Glory and the Good that is the music, poetry and art of being. Hell is a walled off state of exclusion. A frozen heart under a tormented mind.

Open hell and discover hell-o!

Life is not dead mechanism.

You do not have to look to the dead thought (concept-idol) for meaning.

You are moved by the grace and flow of being - and can know this - in any instant where you recognise the Spirit instead of focussing on the forms and the meanings you have endowed them.

For many years I have signed my cheques 'gladly' where conventionally folks write 'only'.  Good money is God money - because in its exchange God is acknowledged and remembered.

Possession possesses. Giving gifts. Receiving honours. Getting loses.

As a musician and dancer, I am aware of how dead are most humans to their body as an instrument of love's expression. How the truth is replaced with mechanical productions and hyped presentations that take the forms of Life's expression and use them to kill the Life - and so 'have' the dark in which to hide and seek for dark 'pleasures'- that are but pain disguised in false promises.

Death is not the transitional refocussing of attention whereby the body is released of an impossible burden. It is the thing we humanly tend to call life - and defend against Life by dying to unconsciousness. Desiring to Not Know - by asserting our will - our desire - to make reality serve our self-god.

T 31 F 5. You who believe that you can choose to see the Son of God
as you would have him be, forget not that no CONCEPT of yourself
will stand against the truth of what you are. (A Course in Miracles)

Nothing real is threatened.

Nothing unreal exists
(ACIM)

In gratitude for your company

Brian

Seeing self-illusion opens the mind to truth

In any instant that any mind opens to and accepts truth - the force of identification with self illusion is weakened and the awakening is strengthened. I see this as going on in all ways and always - and through whatever agencies serve maximally. But truth has absolutely nothing to do with any conceptual or symbolic truths that we might associate with it and identify with.

As I recognise and accept that awakening is the most important 'work' or purpose to which I can bring to attention in active desire, I am brought to notice more and more of the ways in which I actively maintain the ego mentality - for apart from such allegiance from me, it has no life of its own. I also find these are 'shared' collusions and I practice not joining in the 'mind that limits' in the moment of awareness.

The form in which that takes does not ultimately matter. It may seem to be doing nothing. It may seem to be challenging accepted modes of behaviour and thought - and thus interpreted fearfully by that which identifies exclusively with form. All I know is that if I do not act in line with the guidance for truth - I lose the awareness and appreciation of communion - period.

This doesn't make me infallible in any way - it simply means I am exercising trust as a disciple of truth - and in willingness to learn. It is for each of us to listen in our heart - where we have a direct relationship with God that no one and nothing can ever substitute for.

The Second Coming is not only coming - it is coming through now. In a sense this is the inherent truth of every miracle and all the work of the Awakening since first the mind seemed to split from itself. But in a specific sense to our times is an urgency of the call to awaken - not merely to ideas and teachings and understandings - but to recognise in truth that we 'split' our mind to serve wishful thinking and then hide in darkness and confusion. This is the act by which we 'live' a seeming separate struggling existence.

The 'life' that the ego-sense dictates - is tragically pathetic - barely a trickle of Life allowed or shared.


Communication and trust are of the same root - for without trust communication is simply a battle of private wills - and without communication, trust remains a potential unmanifest and without tangibility.

When we think we know - we do not stop and listen. We can ride roughshod over the delicate first steps of the desire to know and be known - simply because we interpret through a sacrosanct set of understandings that we blindly presume true.

I have noticed this in myself many times - and see that spiritual blindness is part of the territory to be undone - just as is any other self-concept that substitutes for love's Presence Shared.

All things serve the purpose of awakening - if that is our active desire.
When it is accepted as our only desire, truth's awakening will be the simply obvious.

But the force and habit of identification with the ego is not of a kind that can be recognised and undone without Divine, Awakened, Help. For what seems obvious to the ego perspective is delusional - and for love's Teacher to find any welcome or attention free for awakening is the gift of love's acknowledgement that we give by receiving.

Giving and receiving is the way our true will IS done.
But when we seek to get or give to get - there is no real gift. Where nothing real is shared, unreality can seem to be anything - and shift at anytime. There is no basis for trust within the getting mind.

To open trust we must lay down or weapons and shields in desire for knowing truth.

Live from the Knowing

Dear Brother and Sister in Life, please share your knowing.

If you use thought or deed to clothe the knowing in terms that CAN be understood, then with the grace of true desire, will the meaning be shared and the thoughts themselves be but the messengers.

To listen, while leaning and trusting into sharing that which moves within, is to bring the forms of communication into the context of an actual relationship.

To know relationship is not a concept - nor mere think-based representation of 'a relationship' - but is love. We feel each other in living communication.

Salvation is a collaborative venture. Relating with each other risks into both the dance and the messiness of involvement. Perfect answers - at the level of form - can be used to justify the avoiding of relationship. That is not awakeng to truth.

The tendency to think instead of listen and feel - is the liability of a mind to remain disconnected from Mind - from its interrelatedness and thus from anything real.

To venture to live from the 'knowing' is a radical shift of identity. Instead of living as the problem - live as the answer. Not the answer that solves the problem - but the answer that is priorly and presently free of problem.

Leaning to walk takes practice - at first there can be stumbles and knocks - but because there is a consistent desire and motivation, walking becomes a natural accomplishment of one’s being. Living from trust is only to be discovered by practice. Others may not see or recognize - and can try to 'kindly' bring you back to the crab barrel. But learning to listen to the Voice and Perspective within, is made tangible and clear by persisting regardless of the liability to distraction and doubt.

Indeed the opportunity of temptation will serve to uncover one's own mind in error - so as can be corrected by listening to truth where before I thought I saw meaning in the meaningless.

 Julian of Norwich proclaimed "all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Julian_of_Norwich
Just as Raj has said "God is in His Holy Place, and All is Well".

It isn't that we need a perfect teaching to awaken - but simply that Perfection awakens to its own being and nature through willingness and acceptance. This is to say that we only need to listen with Holy Spirit to be awakened in Truth.

To argue with illusion is to not let it go.

The mind in deception is easily able to mouth the words of truth and assume the crown of righteousness it mistakes for Heaven, but only the Spirit can speak with the power that awakens - even out of the mouths of babes.

Ours is to make the decision NOT to decide between illusions - and this laying down of the will and the world of will - makes clear the way that Truth Speaks through and for us - along with all That Is.

I've felt a discrepancy with Julian's famous saying for time is not involved in Eternity. But I have come to accept that that Stirring within is of the awakening - and not the ideas that I may then formulate to 'correct' her. The assertion of the teachings of truth by the mind that knows it not is of a desire to make one's own truth and be pre-validated in doing so!

Listening and abiding with Holy Spirit is a state of guiltlessness - and not a state of opposition to guilt.


I sing and dance a song called "Bells of Norwich" - based on Julian's saying.

Love, like the yellow daffodil, is coming through the snow.
Love, like the yellow daffodil, is Lord of all I know.

CHORUS: Ring out, bells of Norwich, and let the winter come and go
All shell be well again, I know.

Ring for the yellow daffodil, the flower in the snow.
Ring for the yellow daffodil, and tell them what I know.

CHORUS

All shall be well, I'm telling you, let the winter come and go
All shall be well again, I know.

Loud are the bells of Norwich and the people come and go.
Here by the tower of Julian, I tell them what I know.

CHORUS

All shall be well, I'm telling you, let the winter come and go
All shall be well again, I know.

-----------------------------------------------------------------

By Sydney Carter



Brian's note: Evil is inherent to the world that we experience as a result of a identifying with and employing a mentality in imaginative but wilful opposition to Truth. To transcend or relax out such a mentality is to behold All Things New - and All Things is not the same world in terms of any sense of an external reality but the Revelation that cannot be spoken of in tongues or terms of time bound consciousness.

But in the Universal Grace of such revelation - we may discover ourselves employing imperfect terms to give witness to that there is God - and the Spirit of God is One.

The ego will always misinterpret everything - for that Is its primary function. So rather than feel and open to truth, we use a wishful sense of ourselves, and employ its mind as a surrogate reality in which judgement and attack is justified, separation is our survival, and denial, death (or the assigning of illusion as the status thereof) is the gift we share with the truth of our brother and world.

In Peace

Brian

Remembering

If the idea that you are the child of light is given welcome and allowed to become the basis of challenging the appearance and experience of darkness, such that it is undone - then the value of the idea is self evident.

But if the idea "I am a child of light" becomes itself a form of consolation and used to support living in darkness, with less discomfort - then it may be said to be used to protect the mind that wants to abide in the dark.

The dissonance that is felt in our experience when we are out of true - when we are conflicted in our desire - or wilfully asserting desire from a place of judgement - is our Divine Alarm Call.

It is difficult at first to feel the dissonance without immediately becoming triggered into self protective reactions designed to salve it, distract from it, cover it over or render it into terms that seem to make us feel less guilty. This is because we are tending to live from a mental assertion - that is CONTINUING to maintain an out of true-ness as its priority.

With practice, we can get closer to the source of  - or actuality of - our sense of dilemma.
To notice or observe it BEFORE we take the ride of setting ourselves in story as 'hard done by',  or subject to limitation of any kind. This is a calmer and more spacious awareness in which we can recognize and feel directly, rather than through the lens of judgement or the patterning of past association.

The habit of the mind in judgement is strong because it has been clenched long. But its only strength is what we give of our attention and reaction to it - even though we may experience it  - AS IF - it were a force that we cannot overcome or that out-manoeuvres our every attempt  to fix or solve or remedy.

To abide without judgement is to surrender to an acceptance of the heart; to let the heart lead; to await the movement rather than asserting the movement. This simply isn't something that can be done. It is a willingness to be undone - to allow the coming undone of a sense of self that thrives on conflict whilst purporting to overcome it.

The remembering of the Heart is of a Universal Grace. The willingness to open to truth amidst the appearance and storyline of limitation is grace. The very beingness of you that stirs from within is the all pervading Light - communicating.

Like knows like.
To be of a kind is to share the same.

Releasing guilt is the accepting of Light - not to use as a symbol within the dream - but to release the grip on the dream that gives it a grip on you.

Love flows spontaneously where the way is clear.
There is only one condition that can block love - and this is the desire that love be something it is not.

Such a desire is like a sticking point from which a little dissonance can unstick the mind - when the dissonance is appreciated as a welcome guest instead of a gatecrasher.
But the dissonance is not guilt, nor pain, nor fear nor any other meaning that has been given to it from an unwelcoming mind.

So the temptation to see and react to these 'meanings' must be passed by if you are to allow the truth to awaken in you - while using the alarm call for what it is gracefully useful for.

If you were to suffer a pain and look for its source and discover that you were in effect pinching yourself, it would not take a moment to simply stop doing so - and immediately be restored to an undistorted appreciation of the moment.

But so embedded are we in our own self-dramas, that we believe we already know what the moment holds - and are actively and fully engaged in acting out our story as if it were reality.

Jesus asked his disciples to "watch and pray with me". This was from his heart as a brother and not as an edict to elicit punishment on discovery of initial failure. This is the same as the Light in you and the willingness in you to serve the light.

Jesus forgave and forgave again and yet again, when he found the disciples asleep - and so awakened fully from the mind to which abandonment seems real.

Be aware, be attentive - and abide in the heart.
This IS the action or movement of the Heart that IS Light.

That which Moves in you - also Moves you.
be attentive not to your story - but to the direct appreciation of be ing.

Forgive yourself for the distraction whereby you forgot.
Appreciate the truth of yourself whereby you are remembered.

In this Light is extended and known again as the all pervading radiance of Truth.
Such holiness cannot be betrayed - but only forgot - in ignorant and idle wish to explore the sense of your own creativity - in private.

Happy laughter is the recognition that dissolves the appearance of such a notion.
But within the world that such wilfulness gives rise - is opposition, fear of otherness', a false sense of self and all the defence and armouring that constitutes the experience of being an orphaned consciousness in a hostile and treacherous world.

We are Children of Light and know this when we see each other in Light and see the Light in each other. Truly, the Light knows this Always and never forgets - even if we forget the Light.

Darkness is a misinterpretation of Light.
It is not for us to understand how this may be so, but for us to accept and welcome the Light by which we are, know and have our being. Even the playing out of dream images in a darkened room cannot be engaged but is utterly and entirely dependent of the Light that must be first denied in order to have an 'experience of independence'.

Yet all awareness and attention is rooted in and extending the same Life and cannot in truth become independent. In the loving is not two - nor an observer who chooses between the one or the two.

There is a membership - a family - a belonging in and expression of.
We do not need to create what is already true - but we do need to allow the truth remember us and extend through or shine in the thoughts and acts and deeds that love would have us share in place of the world and self we made up.

The nature of applying force is opposition, density and limitation.
How long and bitterly must we struggle before we question the basis of our identification?

Noticing - moments of communication - moments of communion. These moments portend the rebirth of sanity such that confusion is dispelled - to the mind that desires truth as the very foundation and context of all else.

Isn't it hard to get past ego and hear and feel guidance?

An unwilling mind is an excellent and ingenious defence mechanism - so to try to do anything directly about the blocks and expectations that filter and falsely limit our life is likely to get sucked into giving the mind some more to do.

Where am I putting my attention?
When I notice what I am doing with my attention I can then choose to let it be directed according to the value that I discover in the heart. Otherwise it will tend to be programmed by the habitual busy preoccupation that tends to skim the surface without really connecting with anything or anyone.

To allow the heart to rise is counter to this habitual restlessness and is like letting tensions fall off, instead of perpetuating the conditions of conflict or strain.

The human heart is usually involved in stories and interpretations set within the orphan framework - a sense of self that seeks outside itself for completion and in itself feels lacking.
But the heart that is your truth sense - is where the movement of Spirit is felt.

Its a curious thing - trust - you cant make it so. Its a dance of willingness and demonstration.
No matter what we think we want - there is defensiveness of resistance that does not allow our self (as we experience ourselves) to be touched and opened. If these blocks were just tensions in the body you would just notice them as you became still and then relax wherever you find you are holding tight. Well they also are - so scanning the body, noticing and releasing tension, and floating in the presence - is a way into allowing now.

I look to be myself with Spirit. No point in trying to clean up first - or having any pretensions - and no point either in rolling out the disqualifiers of self judgement - they are just a bunch of thoughts that are not relevant to love.

To be remembered or restored or renewed in love - I release the accumulations or associations of the mind by persistently not identifying or employing them, and become open as the condition of trust, free of the wilful activity which excludes any possibility of sensing, feeling, or intuiting the current of life that is the true intimacy of being.

Yes I meet all sorts of self configurations that are all just ways of not listening. But I also notice that when it occurs and feel for the desire in the heart that is the key. For I am not into self efforting solutions which express and reinforce  a sense of lack. I need God - not spiritual muscles.

I need God because God is the Only Life. I don't need to try and make my life work so much as let God be - and be the expression that comes from that - rather than being a 'me' who needs to pretend God isn't here - in order to dress up in front of the mirror and play.

It is always so much simpler than words would suggest to a mind that is utterly in the grip of the presumption that something must change, that something must be added or taken away in order to rest in completion.

So is it hard? One can say it is extremely difficult - it can surely be experienced that way.
But you can also say it is the easiest most natural thing to be that which you already truly are.

What I would share with you  - is that statements of difficulty can feel true relative to our past experience  but can become a way of imposing the past onto the present and denying the presence of God to our appreciation.

So no matter how difficult it seems - I am looking to just note that that is a thought I have emotional investment in - and choose instead to feel for and trust from - a different starting place.

Its a shift that a little willingness always brings - where instead of working on oneself - I just let be and don't have any sense of needing to do anything about any of it. Guiltlessness... I may then feel a desire towards contemplation or action but it doesn't feel driven by lack.

Maybe its good to realize that its hard. Maybe its the hardest thing - because there's no half hearted way to let the truth of love be the gift you receive and share. But then look at the seeming alternative. It doesn't seem hard to run on whatever old programs take us - excepting it sure feels crap. (Well that's my confession at least). As we open to truth we more readily recognize the dissonance of untruth and lose the desire to and capacity for a sham substitute.

Most of what is hard is from trying to do or take on too much. If we simply take this step in trust and do not get mentally and emotionally involved in mind rehearsing outcomes based on past judgements, we would travel lightly - freely and with joy in our heart. So it is in every truly conscious step. Truth is uncovered in place by living from it.

If any of this helps - well good. If not then at least know that your company has guided my heart and typing fingers - and they feel connected and communioned. Because you see - I listen with you easily for here is a shared purpose - reminding me of love's unified nature - whereas busy little me can easily become identified with thinking, doing, with roles and the wheel ruts of thought-tracks.

in Gratitude

Brian

Why would any or every thing serve the highest good?

Why would any or every thing serve the highest good?

Because such is the desire in your heart.

How might it serve the Good?

From an honesty of not knowing and not therefore demanding only answer set in your terms.

How will you know the truth that shows you you are free of limitation?

Intimately.



The mind in form is always trying to make sense of God Reality in its own terms. Which is experienced as if we are getting a handle on life and are validated by our 'understanding'.

While this attempted self-stance is going on - we have the opportunity to wake to it - and therefore from it. It can be subtle- but it is always the allegiance to image and thought and form in place of Living Love.



Just because we call something 'God', 'Guidance', 'love', 'Christ', 'reality', 'truth' - does not in any way make it so. Prayer is abiding in the heart's intimacy. If this is not yet your safety and your love restored - then forgiveness of yourself is called for immediately.Give only as you would receive.

It is through an act of self exclusion - judgement - whereby love seems to forget its nature and suffers its own division as both 'killed and killer' - and then projects these roles outside itself to mitigate pain.

But thoughts leave not the mind that thinks them. To the ego - this truth seems damnation - yet to the Divine awareness that is your Being's light - it is the realisation of what you are and where you are and that you are.

The Holy Spirit teaches awakening through whatever experiences ignorance sets up - and works with every willingness offered and allowed.

If we are in a mood of resistance - we will generate experience to justify our stance. If we do not value and cultivate our desire and receptivity for truth we densify illusion and at some point realize this is not truly our desire - but costs us all that we truly desire.

Obedience is naturally due to our true desire - freely, willingly and gladly - and not as a sacrificial bargain struck in the dark with some god who saves dark ones to remain safely in the dark.
Being true to truth is the essential basis for trust and sanity.

Exclusion arises from withholding love. You are love.
When the withholding is released by the release of exclusion - love is revealed as the already truth.

In Peace

Brian

Let guidance grow its expression by loosening your mind of rigidity

Clear guidance is known in peace - because peace is an undistorted receptivity that does not have an already asserted definition or problem in place - but is a willingness to put aside or release the interpretation of experience in the wholeness of trust.

Holy instants are called such (in A Course in Miracles) because even an instant of such active or practiced willingness allows a shift from the grip of the perspective of fear and control. They are also practical because the human mind actively defends its sense of control such that true insight is often only allowed an instant before the mind of 'me' is reasserted.

When we believe we are a mind in a body in a world that is untrustworthy or malign, we limit the truth to what can appear to us through the framework we ourselves have insisted and demand be true. No matter what it purports or seems to be - such a framework is all about ‘me’.

The mind in darkness that grows faith in light can be reached and guided within its experience of the world. It may at first believe it is to be protected and reinforced by a benign and active intervening God - and may well experience this as part of the process of opening to the light of truth. Yet after such instances of being 'protected' may come experience of being 'carried' through experience of travail - like being absolutely safe through an experience of apparent calamity rather than being saved from its appearance. Still further on may be the experience of Job - in which the intrinsic nature of the light excluding thought is experienced as calamity - without recourse to external remedy of recrimination.

To accept the atonement for oneself is to be undone in perfect love.

The awakening is but the natural expression of and appreciation of be-ing and in this writing seems to be a goal or alternative to an unnatural 'take' on being in which the mind experiences its own thought instead of direct appreciation of the truth. But this desire that seems to create an alternative 'truth' has become active as the current lens - excepting we refuse to use it.

The involvement of relationship as an act of faith and willingness is in human terms messy or chaotic - because it is not an experience of being in control, having the answer or even neccessarily being competent. But it is the willingness for peace as the condition in which truth of love and healing is served, made welcome, desired and joined with.

Loveless-ness undone

The blight of sin brings,
pervasive lack of light.
All things are turned to hate,
and none so hateful as this self.

Shunning light is but
calling for darkness
to cover the love in which such hurt is felt
with thoughts of any self regard,
to put the hate outside,
that some fragment of a self
can grasp at a moments relief,
amidst inescapable torment.


Truth in stillness,
most intimate,
does not know
such maddening mind
excepting to remind you of this:

What do you desire be true?

For here is the way illusion rose
to fascinate an entranced attention.

And yet here now are the steps retraced,
before a split in mind occurred.

Give way to what is always wholly given,
and let all things be released
to speak of life anew.

There is no other Life than this,
that Lives and Moves and Knows its Being.

O Living Love.







in Gratitude

Brian

Dispelling a deception of conflict, confusion and suffering

The Spirit of God is One and neither are you divided. We are deceived in any belief that gives rise to a war within self as in any way meaningful. Love does not fight fear - but is the condition in which fear is undone - or absent.

The error or delusion of conflicted self - and its experience of being a private separated organism or mind - gives rise to a compelling sense of suffering in a world of limitation and opposition - because that is the nature of the ‘self’ or reality thought that is currently accepted.

While so engaged, the mind is mesmerized in a self-assertive and self-protective activity that can have no abiding resolution because it is not expressing a self that is real. Yet while the desire is in motion, attention is not free to discover that one is entirely missing the point.

In sane and calm light, any error of conflicted desire or thought or experience is simply the call for immediate correction and nothing else. But such sanity is implicitly hidden by delusion - and the mind blindly reenacts old scripts that effectively perpetuate the condition of identifying with the false - and thus remaining ignorant of truth. Such is the seed of conflict - for how can the false be true without making the true seem false? - and who can rest in the confusion of defending against truth?

The way of awakening grows from a shift in purpose; a true change of heart; the desire for peace and sanity - as a directly felt experience from which to truly live.  Despite the old mind of fear, control and survival, the new is welcomed and nurtured - yet in secret from the mind that would simply use all things for its own power.

This brings insight into the effects of one’s own desire and thought, such that delusional or self-destructive thought and intent is recognized as it is, instead of being experienced as if one is victim to the situation it seems to create. And such insight increasingly grows a capacity to not reenact the past - but instead to be guided and restored to a present and heartfelt unconflicted appreciation of life.

The plans of the mind based on the past always look to a future resolution, but the way of reintegrating mind with Itself restores an uniterrupted sense of self and life presently, for no assertion of self-will is interrupting the flow of being, feeling, awareness that is the living context of you - rather than any self image.

Stop it, drop it, and be renewed in the always fresh appreciation of reality as it is. For what we ‘drop’ is the desire and its means - that would hold reality to be as we tell it.

The belief-desire that 'I am of myself a power' is the nature of all error. For true power is power because it shares itself. Any attempt to force upon - or indeed resist against - reality is delusional - for there is no place outside Life from which to lever it. Yet the mind that desired and belieived such power, has  ‘given’ its ‘will’ to all that is not under its control. For through the thought says it believes it HAS enacted upon Life so  does it believe such power can be enacted upon it.

The only way out of such a bind is to release the desire and belief in such will; To release  the judgements of the private or hidden sense of self. This can only be accepted in recognition and willingness by the grace of truth. For it is by Truth that truth is revealed in any mind that rests and abides naked of self-will.

This sense of self that is habituated to correcting mistakes in terms set by judgement – must be rested of its futility and become instead the willingness to let the answer speak through me to raise ‘the dead’. God is not dead. Nor you.

The extension of love is done through willingness – yet the awakening of love is not of a self doing - nor being done to, but transcends such terms in the expression of unified being; Creation.

If I would be free to create, I need be vigilant to not keep error secret from correction .
Truth will dawn on any mind that truly wants it.

But first we may have to recognise the release what we thought we wanted, counter to the nature and flow of being, that is bringing us the experience of opposition, limitation and conflict.
For to fight against the Living Current is not the way of sanity or peace.

Here's something I read today:

"Life never struggles.  That which struggles is the consciousness which attempts to limit life and is but the interference to perfection which is forever trying to come through.  If the personal self will just let life flow and keep at peace, the manifested result will be perfection, the divine way of life fulfilled."
(author unknown).

To persist in holding for or aligning with the truth as it is felt - even despite syptoms or seeming opposition - is not to struggle - but to hold to constancy and starve the drama of giving it your attention, and thereby validity as a ‘something’ that must be dealt with or answered in the terms it sets. To a mind habituated to survive through complex and shifting conflicts - the releasing of war is a threat. But the whole point is the releasing of the identification with the mind of opposition - and the acceptance of the truth in its terms.

Being here now

Illusion is a thought derived reality.
A mind engages in it and become mesmerised by its own thought.
While it does so it has, in effect, put reality on hold - even though reality is the only thing going on.
Suddenly realizing that one is driving over the line - even if being told so - is an awakening.
Keep the awakening by grateful acknowledgement -but release the 'thinking' reactions of "what does that say about me".

A sense of wrongness or inadequacy is to be awakened from - and not to be made the basis of living for or toward some other moment - some other self - than what God is - with and within you - now.

Why not turn your question on its head?
What can you possibly do to maintain thinking and lose the current appreciation of reality?

It isn't the thinking as such - but the use to which it is being put - that makes it serve as a distraction. Nothing is experienced the way it is by accident. There are intentions at work that frame or form our perception and experience.

If you don't know your intention is effectively choosing - how can you choose anew?

The desire to know truth is of God. Though you could just as well say it is utterly innate to who and what you really are.
The direct way is to abandon self effort and listen or discern for the intimations of Life.
'Let the dead bury the dead and follow me'.
Only the living can hear this as Life calling.

Enjoy this moment and rest in the joy.
Is this not like saying come into the Kingdom of Life?
Be the love that you are. This is where all power to refuse the deceiver is found.

The body as an energetic - is a tingling of vitality. Its flow has subtler currents that love you - lets just start with 'happy feet'. Being present with immediate experience is letting the Godness of Life rise to recognition. To let Life in is to awaken to the all pervading Life.

The i-thought will attempt rejoin - and interrupt - while it has your back stage pass. You get to see it trying to pass off as you in tricksy ways. But in the seeing - it is clear that this is not you.

I had a stage of intense discipline for staying present - until I caught myself in the act and saw the way i was maintaining separation thereby.

What the love - or the Life - prompts us to do - is of a different starting place than any of our best intentions. If your Holy Spirit speaks to you in this or anything - it is for you to value it truly - not by associating with the ideas - but in the opening of your heart.

in Love's blessing
Brian

Healing the complex, distorted, confusion by which we suffer

Humans use the body lovelessly by making it the 'home' of the ego and yet also a dumping ground for ‘stuffed down’ life in guilt and anger. Yet our body's tangibility and functionality is identifying the presence of our individuality - which is in truth not divisible or in any way separable from God - the Creative, Sustaining and Guiding Intelligence of all in all.

If 'my will be done' is the essential script for setting up the experience of opposition and conflict - fear and guilt - then “Thy Will be done” is the undoing of such a miscreative illusion.

But “Thy Will be done through me - is a necessary realisation, for only thus do we apprehend or relate to anything as it truly is. There is not a separate God that acts upon any thing. Creation is Extension and not separation. As unified Spirit extends through us, so will awakening to - and as - a restoration of wholeness be the result. But healing proceeds as the release of distortion, confusion and complexity - and in a step by step manner that undoes the split in the mind we share in our experience of conflicted being.

The very notion of oneself alone is meaningless. This applies no less to healing. The great need of the sick is to give the love they have denied themselves. Yet first they may need to receive this love from another - and willingness to receive is a tru gift or acknowledgement to the Giver. All love is of God. In opening to love in its truth and vitality is the dawning of the realisation that they are and have always been love - unified, unconflicted, perfect being. This is the truth of the Heart.

What then of the script of the human life? It becomes of service to the waking of our mind, by not being used to tell the story of separate wills. We learn to teach or demonstrate or give what we want to learn, receive or integrate. Such universal law operates regardless of the values held - but awakened love is the unifying sanity in which all true fulfilment unfolds.

The mind in self illusion wants to define and fix and control - and THAT is the essential handicap from which the heart is healed - all else comes from that - for the experience of the loss of the Universal Light is the 'condition' of sin, in which sickness and death inherently proceed.


Yet if false sense of self and its goals are recognised truly - as unwanted, meaningless, undermining of peace and wellbeing, and futile, it is repurposed to serve unified Will. In every truly shared moment we express the Will that aligns with the Movement of Being. The experience of this - directly felt - is of truth unalloyed. It is turning within - to Source - and allowing that to be all that is - right where you are - that undoes the illusion in which we suffer our creations as if they create us - and afflict us. This is not understandable to thought - but to love. And only they can love who are set free of every humourless intent. We bind ourselves. yet none is bound but by an overlooked and ingeniously hidden desire.

Know truth - and truth shows you - you are free. For nothing is but as you have chosen, albeit in ignorance. Is this a madness that if true means you are guilty? No - it means you are called to awake, repent or release the past and embrace now, and thus release the meanings to which you have sought to force your life, your body, your relationships and the world, to validate and support.

These things are for the heart - the direct intelligence of feeling and knowing that is connected to Reality - to God and thus to all in all.
The recognition that reconnection and renewal and healing is an ultimate priority is often because of hitting ‘bottom’ with regard for attempts to live disconnected, in self illusion and in increasingly meaningless habits of thought and deed.

The concept of ego is helpful if it awakens a present responsibility.
But as soon as there is a sense of a separate or alternate power called the ego that can act against God - against your indivisibility - then it has become a stooge behind which the mind can play out the game of two powers. And to take either side or to shift between sides according to an alternating perspective is to identify with force and density - the experience of limitation and separation.

There need be no blame for discovering egocentricity 'running', indeed such is an awakening 'Ahah!'
The sense of ego attack that 'knows' how to lay us low is linked to our desire.
We may at times feel able to be open and selfless in the flow of being - but then there can be a sense of losing a capacity to keep the ego as a sort of hideyhole or option to back off or to have access to things we have enjoyed that we feel deprived of at the sense of moving beyond.

So there is a tightening, a contracting - a desire to put the brake on and 'think' - a pausing from the connectness of our being and in effect saying "I'd rather see this my way".

And the experience of confusion, of being in some struggle or of needing to DO something before I can allow Being or justify love - serves this desire to have a limited sense of self in which I feel less threatened than the exposure of an initially unrecognised territory of being.

My sense of resistance, is of an emotional charge here that is activated out of a habitual sense of security - and that once it activates, it can reframe my perspective so as to self validate itself and hide Love's Answer.

In awareness we can nip ego in the bud - just don't go there - stay here - open - be still - listen. In thought we are acting out from a basis that itself is thought - and not FEELING the direct communion of life that makes Meaningful our experience to us. Nor indeed the faith connection with that which is Awake and with us as Guide and Teacher.

So the drama has its process and yet at some point falls away enough to allow awareness to 'surface' again and we say "what was that about?" or "how come it took me so long to let go of that".

But it isn't that we hold onto a sense of control that doesn't fall or missstep - but rather that we stay open in trust and connectedness even amidst the fears of distrust and ill intent.

When desire grows strong to be free of a sick, debilitating or self undermining habit, we find more awareness rising within it - and thus a choice instead of a compulsion. But the real choice is always not to play the game at all - whereas the compulsion is always a sense of dilemna amidst choices that keep me in the dark.

In fairy stories, the treasure is often guarded by monsters or the princess surrounded by thorny thicket - or some sort of appearance of fearsome obstacle.
The only way to pass is truth.

When all else fails, you KNOW that you have not the answer and so in natural wisdom you no longer seek or accept an answer from where it cannot and does not come - from 'my own power or from my own thinking'. Now is there a stillness that listens. Now is there a thirst for truth. Now is there an abeyance of using truth to make a better weapon to overcome gargoyles. By the grace of God the heart can hear and see and feel - free of the miasma of a sense of self that turned from a curious plaything to a mesmeric mind-trap.

To look upon the special hate relationship is to cease to hide - and therefore protect - it.
When the mind in pain of hurt or hate turns upon itself - seek and find your willingness. Not to live up to any notion of spiritual attainment - but simply to own and feel and know the true desire of your willingness for love, for true safety, for unified peace.

You will at times experience extreme resistance to listening to your willingness, and yet by its light, you are guided or prompted to whatever helps you to stay in and grow willingness - despite the pull of the current of guilt, fear or reaction. Though it seems fierce it has only the power you gave it and give it still.

Your 'holding hands' with Spirit - through your willingness - is the link to calm - despite the shout and struggle of a senseless conflicted drama that seems to be real.

To practice, is to live from willingness - actively. The forms that the dance will take are discovered in relationship - as your preconditions are released to a greater trust.

If wilfulness sneaks in, willingness is forgot - and in such misalignment will dissonance of experience become the signal to relax.

This innate signal to bring attention present , relax, and trust - has been interpreted as a symbol for guilt or proof of sin - a hateful intent - a shameful self uncovered.

This is a deception - but to see for yourself you must look within and discover if in fact and in truth - such intent is your desire. For if you fear that it is - you are still 'playing' with sin as if it could be so.

I say that God Himself is the giver of your life, your being and your true desire.

Jesus said: "Go in peace and sin no more". He speaks to awakened willingness.
From such a true desire we can see and hear and trust our way.

And the shadow of sin dissolves, to a heart redeemed.


How I love you!


In love's graceful tears

Brian

Desire for Safety

Your desire for safety touches me.
And speaks of a memory that isn't totally buried and forgot.
Under a seeming world of bodies with secret minds in a hostile universe.
All of which arises from a single act in thought-desire.
A contraction or collapse of self upon self in which almost all of what you are is denied - that your thought can continue as yours alone.

In ceasing to activate or reinforce the thinking-self protective contraction - a different experience is discovered. If you are ready to allow this then you do truly desire Safety, for the attempt to make yourself safe - by your own thinking - has not brought the answer.
You have but shafted yourself - not in truth - for truth remains available as it is if you welcome it - but in the conflicting and shifting attempts to fix down life and make it serve your thought.

You are the life that you neglect to love because your intent is elsewhere, set upon thought derived existence - which to the unawake is believed reality itself.
Life is already intent on serving you - as the unified expression of wholeness. But if you would know this, then there simply is no room for the intent that pulls the plug on life and drains it away for the hit of a self indulgence.

The last war I was in was a seeming battle between desire to survive and desire to love. There was in truth no battle but simply a play of dramatic experience arising from the attempt to keep both.

Dignity is not a right I demand from the world but the natural result of the honour I give.
By the grace of Spirit I have awakened enough to refuse the experience of hate as a definer of anything but a split mind - an ignorance. I can release the experience with my recognition of life giving as I have asked - and let it go. I can only fight the way Mind works, imaginatively.

For the movement of attention is the movement of desire - where value is given.
And if I invest in the experience of horror - then I validate it.
Even if this is done negatively - by an attempt to overcome it. For who would seek to overcome a  foe - whose ill intent is but one's own, enacted out in alternating roles?

The uncovering of the special hate relationship is that which would seem to damn. Its undoing requires that you do not damn yourself nor your brother or your world - but wait on a fresh perspective.

Love changes everything.

For love undoes or restores the original to its true appreciation from a mind that had become fascinated by an unlove as if it were a thing you made that then made you.

How does a Child of God fragment and forget its own light in a prodigal wasteland?
How does a wretch rediscover his divine inheritance?

As a man thinketh in his heart - so is he.
By the grace of being joined, I am saved from my own thinking.
All are joined to the Source without which nothing is.
In this world we have seemed to live as if we are actually independent and conflicting with everything. But look and see if this is not simply a game of thought.

There is a basis upon which to question every value this world has ever taught you.
It is the awakening relationship with your innate and inviolable safety - prior to the activity and identifications of mind.

When the definitions that bind, deplete and deprive are refused currency status - the truth is revealed of itself. There is no battle - but there is every reason to hold fast in receiving and therefore giving - from a fresh perspective. Despite every twist and turn of the ego's roller coaster ride which is but a persuasion speaking to an habit no longer truly desired.

Can I condemn a world that arose from acting out a fantasy of possession, loss and vengeance?
Can I condemn myself for the life that proceeded from an ignorance that is no more?
Can I accept forgiveness for myself and be undone of sin?

These are not for thought to answer - but are the heart's intimation - for we don't do truth, but are, by its giving.

In Peace

Brian

Take no thought for your self

The thinker is presumed to be the actor.
Exerting a power that can have effects that change the experience of the perceiver.
Born of the need to limit the experience of loss that results from indulging private unjoined thought.

Be Turned in attention to the light that, within, reflects and shines in all.

Leave the dead world by joining the living. Give it not your attention.

The Living replaces the dead world from within with the ever fresh expression of Living Thought.
Such Joined Thought is not left its Source.

To listen not to the true heart is of a desire to not know love as it is.
You may have an illusion of love as your experience, but no matter how fascinating you may be able to make it as the storyline you make within it - it can never love you, know you and shine you, in the glorious radiance of your truth.
Within a wish for getting, your receiving is hidden by limiting filters of denial. And the giving is of a false premise that is being accepted as self or reality. The desire for truth is the willingness to release the surface perceptions and allow receiving anew - and trust giving anew; innocent of the filtering shadows of a self unlove.
And let it be itself such that it grows of itself in the ways of its - and your - true nature.


In Peace

Brian

Who Awakens?

There are these programs running in the mind of thought that seem to suggest you are  this or that or the other - and suggest that there is a need to be involved in all of that.

The one that 'wakes up' - never really slept, orphaned itself - or went away.
Now where does that leave you?
Are you with me?

It starts as a letting in and being with. It grows.
Comes a time you cease to identify primarily or exclusively with a mind in story - and the light  - of itself - moves.
It was already moving.

To ONLY move with the movement is to release the fantastic notion that you can move against it.
But fantasy seems as real as the desire for it determines.

So its true - you cant just decide differently as if it were your intent and your will that is going to do or be the be-ing.
You cant in a sense - decide anything on such a basis - except to remain in illusion.
To be still, to ask, to listen, to trust - is to discover the movement of life.
This speaks your true will - as the will for all. Life is not a conflict of selves -  but a unified self expression extends from the willingness to behold Life as it truly is.

What this mostly means is: shut up and listen.
really listen - dont analyze or filter or interpret - but be truly with - and receptive of.
Trust the movement of awakened awareness and let it speak your self by sharing it.
In the sharing of the gift - is truth restored to awareness.
For none are excluded.

To the ego self sense - this is a bleak prospect - and will at times feel like deep loss.
Whenever this sense is accepted again - the separation is reenacted.
You get to watch it.
Over and over - and over again.
But only if you stay curious enough to look - when all the symptoms of separateness and loss shout as if they know your name.
Who or what is curious enough to look at such a pass?
You are that curiosity and willingness itself.
Seemingly tied up in thought.
What's that about!?

Struggling with myself? - No!
It's just thinking!

'Love thine Enemy' is a call to awaken - not a more sophisticated means of dealing with conflict.
'I have resistance to that' - Ah! here is a call to be more genuinely curious.

Generally, I have noticed, that when I can simply no longer afford, to give energy and attention, to maintain a sense of myself, as in some way opposed or conflicted or special, then it just falls off, with no method or technique or process involved.

in peace
Brian

words

If even a trace of guilt is given welcome - or assumed real of me - then I (must) look out on a world that limits and see the taint of sin in whatever I write or whatever I read. For such is the effect of using the lens of judgement instead of listening in the heart.

Because this is so paralysing and obstructive of life's creative flow and function, the I-sense exerts itself in any and every attempt to mitigate and offset pain of guilt by glossing over with denial and engaging distraction - so as to play the game of life amidst a condition which seemingly opposes life.

To at least to snatch the crumbs of life in fleeting moments from the awfulness of a mean and hateful mind that the I-sense is seeking to escape, overcome or improve - but not let go.

All the force of such attempt wears 'me out' and blocks even further, the grace of the true function of life of which I have lost any direct sense due to becoming so entangled in my own thoughts made flesh.



(Hmmmmmmmmmm.... that's not what I thought I was going to write ;-)



Words have been used as the extension of definition. As if definition determines truth. But it is the movement of desire or intent that would fix or freeze life - by grasping or possession. The very concept of possession at the level of mind is a nonsense excepting that to have is to be. But once a sense of self in image and thought is accepted as if it were in fact Me - then through that self-thought can I seem to add things to myself or have them taken away.

At that level of illusion - when first embracing what seems to be the possibillities and potentialities of orphanhood (seperate self-becominghood) there is a sense of being as a god in divine play. Dressing up in the mirror and enjoying the imaginative 'life' that extends from the image in this light - or in that light.

How does a narcissistic game of no consequence become the terrible affliction of guilt?

Well it never truly can - excepting - while persisting to look in the mirror and 'enjoy' the imaginative 'life' that extends from the image in this light - or in that light.

These words are offered in attempt to sketch out so that the act can be seen for what it is. Not an act of play within the mirror - but an act of desiring to see and maintain oneself in image and story.

For while such desire is active and unseen, attention is limited to or distorted by the images in the mirror. These definitions that, in one way or another, give witness to the existence of a 'me' as a separately existing personality in a body -  rather than as the direct expression of Life's Movement to know Itself through its extension.

There is a turnabout that arises spontaneously from the seeing of self illusion just as it is.
It may experienced as pure Grace. The uncovering of Divinity - of the only Life.
This out of time awakening is not allowed while attention and desire are actively engaged in reaction - as something to possess or rid oneself of.
But it can rise through the willingness to see such a script for what it is - while it is in play - and always undoes it of an environment in which to seem to be.


When Hercules had to clean out the shit from the stables - he opened a way that the divine river flowed through them. At first - if one had stopped to report - one could have said that - worse than shit - was a river of shit. And that is why it is unwise to use externals a progress report. For fear has to be released to the flow and function of life - of a divine flow that Is - otherwise it remains a point of reference from which one says stop! and belives one is the power to limit life.

Allowing the flow is growing a relationship with the truth in you that knows the flow - AND also knows the exact nature of the entanglement by which attention has become trapped within self definition and made real to itself.

Under self direction, I cannot actually know true function - though I may think I do when things go my way. But that is a house of cards. In not using self direction, a deeper knowing guides all. How do I know I am not deluding myself?

This is in some sense irrelevant to the act of awakened willingness - because in the flow - in the trust - in the light of allowing - even the scripts of self delusion become useful to the re-awakening of being to its wholeness - instead of serving as ammunition for the prosecution or damning evidence to the judge.

When resistance is felt - stuck - paralysis - fear - there is still flow. There is always flow, for life is Life.

To let into flow is to be with what is - as it is - and not as it is defined and not from a desire or presumption of a power to define it.

An unjudgemental atmospheric is absolutely essential to knowing and sharing life as Life.

Words and concepts have a long history of squelching the feeling being - because that has been the intent behind them.

Put this behind you - and release the forms associated with it - and let them find new life in a dance that speaks of your freedom to be - all that you are.

The dream of a life calls from without and keeps you focussed on the outer.

The Life that is your Intimate truth Moves from within and calls you awake as being-within-the-Movement.

If you are still holding onto the words - as if there is something that must be understood BEFORE trust is extended and fear released, then I ask you - What can possibly be understood from a mind already made up or fixed on its own thought?

The fixation of the mind on God is not the work of the human will, but is the grace of the desire of love to be all that it is and know all that it is, in all that it is.

Love and pretence

Love - in its truth - is prior to the activity of interpretation that the mind overlays - or intervenes with. This is to say it is deeper and closer to you than you are to your self in thought or imagination.
A tangible intimacy that is not merely thinking or emotional history or physical desire, 'touches' or registers in our awareness, and is an integrative or unifying experience of connectedness and communion - with person, place, or indeed with one's sense of experience itself.

Rather than being the result of seeking to 'get' an experience that is presumed desirable - it is the awakening to the felt nature and condition of life or relationship itself.
The mechanical habits of a mind that sees itself as having special and separative interests may only be suspended an instant before the glimpse is effectively cut off with doubting thought, emotional vacillation - and all the characteristics of the thinking based identity that sees a need for control as its protection and necessity - and trust as something to bargain with.

The desire to possess experience 'for oneself' is a fundamental human error.  It grew from a curiosity of capacities of thought, but by itself it is essentially a private experience that can not truly satisfy - for it's 'love' is conditional and turns to betrayal, hate or loss - the instant that conditions are no longer perceived as providing justification for love. Such a love cannot be trusted. Such human love is always ambivalent there is no peace it it - because of what lies underneath its seeming.

Our concept of love is likely to be coloured by the fantasies and demands for external events or persons who fill or provide the experience of what we believe we lack; meaning, protection, adventure, importance, validity, acceptability, purpose and etc. As long as we accept and cultivate a sense of ourselves as lacking or unwhole in our essential being, we are bound to seek without for the 'answer' to a sense of life in dilemma - and we can become expert in assuming such an identity and believing it can achieve the promise of life that its seeks, even when any real hope of such an abiding alignment of conditions is eroded leaving a desperate and loveless existence that has yet to be presented as workable and made tolerable by whatever can be brought into play.

Yet what love actually is, is still active but largely unrecognized - even amidst the acting out of a loveless sense of necessity - for its nature is the core or essence or be-ing upon which the drama of the self is played out as if it were as if it presents itself - to itself and others. Love's awakening is a shift from identification with self in story to identity at rest in love. The process of such a shift is both sudden and gradual in that the revelation of what was always true has no degree, yet the acceptance and integration of such truth into a mind that has become identified with its story is itself a step by step process of loosening and releasing of that which is revealed to be both false or unfounded, and destructive - or undermining - to the peace in which awareness can operate directly; as one's essential sanity.

The intelligence of love was not lost in pursuit of loveless goals - but merely hidden while their purpose is actively engaged. As the intent and desire to impose upon reality loosens, the innate intelligence or guidance of love rises - and uses the contents of the mind to guide the mind to discover 'the way Home'. Initially this is inevitably associated with specific and favourable conditions and these are to be embraced with joy - but the mind is led through its willingness to look again on its underlying presumption, belief and intent - in which it has become confused with its own story and 'victim' to its own thought.

To awaken to your own loving is not to be validated in any seeming capacity to love in your own right - but to recognise, accept and welcome the love that Is Moving ... in you - as you - through you - and to you. It is not added to you - yet in acceptance of what is - as it is - are all things shown in a true light.

The condition in which love is unrecognised is one of a desire and identification for opposition or conflict - for in love truly there is none.  Yet there is the clear capacity to see the judgements, definitions, roles and meanings that such a story weaves - exactly as it is - and therefore not enter into or identify with it.
To refuse or not employ the desire to judge reality, releases the filters and distortions of a past made in error - and allows a truly creative present to be itself.

Habits held long and dear do not disappear immediately even if they are realised to be unwanted. Defences developed amidst great fear as a temporary solutions to unbearable experience do not cease to be triggered  - and to trigger the old perspective. But in love's acceptance and embrace it is clear that you are neither victim or victimizer - nor a neutrality arbiting from a presumed fence of un-involvement. The way of love is very different from the way of doing, because the doings that are love's expression arise naturally from a willingness to be still of self and listen, and express a willingness for life that is without coercive intent; of a wellspring shared in common,. For the Source of life is not separated from its expression. Nor are the expressions of life, fragmented parts of a meaningless source.

Love is the condition in which the problem as fear defined it, no longer exists, but has become the opportunity for love to be remembered and therefore expressed or shared.
Our denial of the flow and expression of our innate feeling being - of our Soul - is our true loss. Nothing in this world can substitute for it - but the search for love outside ourselves only re-enacts the basis whereby we suffer the belief we have been deprived and denied by another will than our own.
Yet everything in the world - rightly seen - becomes a means for awakening and restoring sanity - but not on the basis of privately maintained judgements arising within a privately maintained independence from love.
Be still of thinking and extend trust beyond the fences you thought to keep you safe alone.

ACIM What are my creations?

In A Course in Miracles, (ACIM), A book that is a self study course in accepting the creative power of mind and being restored to sanity, Jesus talks of ‘your creations’.
This writing came in answer to one who asked, What are “my creations”.
This writing may not yield to understanding from a conventional thought perspective but may yet spark intuitive sense.
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When you remember you are love - you will remember your Father - wherefore? In every truly loving thought you have ever shared.

While you think you are a thinker - you cannot but be confused and are loving your own capcity to think-create privately - that is called specialness. This 'son' does not receive and return our love. But the Sonship of God that is the Light and Love of your very being, extends as it is extended and the extension is living recognition just as you are.

The completion of God is the recognition of the Father in the Son. The radiance in the ray.

In which God knows Him/Her Self through the Movement of Idea we call Creation.

This Fatherhood is shared without exception or limit.



All of this is probably meaningless of misleading to a mind that still recognises only its own specialness in stead of the Allness of God. But Holy Instants recognised and valued begin to give a perspective that cant be put into old wine bottles - and when what Is - is allowed to abide as it Is - the Course takes on a new meaning that could not be seen from an attempt to understand from a conceptual frame of reference.



Creation isn't  really created in the sense of the Potter metaphor - but in the sense of revealing the Eternal to the Eternal. This cannot exclude You.

Consciousness is a complex of focussed attention that arises from within a play within Creation. And Consciousness can create along the lines of its own thought and experience. In this is a mind in a feedback to its own thought and in total freedom to follow its own thought. If it follows  judgement; thought that is based on a thought of opposition or difference - then it can seem to create conflicted experience that reflect and validate a sense of conflicted or split mind. These are called miscreations because they actually occupy the mind with nothing - as if it were something. Of course the mind cannot really be totally engaged and only a part of attention is thus engrossed and identified. To move to the other end or your attention would be to open to the Perspective in which your loving thoughts become unobscured to you instead of hidden by and within confusion.

Your loving thoughts honour You even as You are loving Thought in the Mind of God.

It should be obvious here that I am not referring to our personality or historical sense of self. The eternal cuts through our dreamlife - in the now of awareness - before the interpretive mechanism has grabbed attention.

The restoration of sanity realigns the interpretive faculty such that it serves a purpose of sanity - whereas in miscreation the purpose put sanity on hold whilst following a thought.

The thought that caused Adam to fall into a deep sleep is that of becoming a creator in his own right. Jesus is Adam waking. The Christ is that which never slept - even throughout the appearances of sleep.

So our creations as the Course calls them are not the symbols of life that we made and coveted and wove together in various hierarchies of order and forced relation. And they are certainly not the magic of 'creative' accounting where innumerable complexities can present a set of accounts that seems to mean something but is actually a pack of lies for the intent of a short term private gain.



We have felt the touch of Spirit - and in that touch we have felt the divinity of our Brother or Sister - or world - AND within, yet transcendent of that exact recognition is the apprehension of the Father. Who knows the Son knows the Father.

This is Wholly Living. There is no other or division. There can be nothing said. We ‘shut up’ in awe filled silence to Glory within Glory.



God Speaks All Things and All Things Speak God as well as Recognising and Praising God in Joy and Gratitude.



This is "God is in His Holy Place and All Is Well' - yet for that to be restored to our awareness we have to release our wilfulness and embrace true willingness. Holy instants are but instants because the mind immediately reasserts command and control - and we listen to its voice. But by consistency of willingness the willingness to listen to that voice diminishes and we start to see the mechanism in act.

I don't wish to suggest that there is anything here for any of us to do unjoined.

Only to wake, shift and live from the shared mind. It doesn't need to be any different than your daily life - except You need to become present in it - through it - as it.

I say need to - not because you are forced - but because it is your desire to be restored to wholeness and peace - and in that context there is need to put the gun down and become harmlessly defenceless to the Awareness that is You.

Living out from Mind would add nothing added and have nothing taken away from the Movement known in stillness. “Thy Will be done”.

Living out from presumption of a partitioned mind in a body in a world of bodies - each a person and with personalities that are essentially masks of split minded manipulation and defence, that squelches, covers and distorts the essence of you, the feeling of you , the fragrance of you, the loveliness of you, the perfection of you.

None of the above qualities are special but are true of all for they can only Be shared. And to allow and discover in one is begin to allow to extend to all. You do not have to know how your current perception can be healed and transcended, but you do have to be willing to be healed - and then be congruent to your willingness.

A fundamental trust in yourself is the fruit of your willingness.


You truly are worth it.





With you in love's awakening

Brian

Go in peace and fear not

Recently I heard Raj say that what we need is not courage but peace.
For peace is the absence of anxiety.
So in willingness and acceptance of peace I can take this step.
Though the mind seems to see other steps before and other steps to come, I am only actually living this step.  And though I walk through the shadow of the valley of death I will fear no evil - for the Lord is with me.
Instead of being a magical wish, willingness lets this psalm be established fact.

One of the most 'shouted' and clear guidances I have had is - "Dont think!"
Coming from the heart of hearts it was no kind of imposition upon me - but a clear direction to trust.
Its a bit like a situation high up where looking down makes you start to fall - because it is the movement of the desire to fall that then activates the whole shebang of defence.
So just don't 'go there'.

Go in peace and you will know what to say and when or whether to say it - take no thought for yourself and all will be well.

To do so may sometimes induce an extreme purification - but dwell not on the externals.  Attend the Living!

The guiltlessness we need is from the appreciation of our brother and sister WITHOUT our overlay of role and definition.

Any guilt seen in another is the dissonance remaining unrecognized in your own heart and mind - to which the world can now help you recognise truly as serving your call to wake.


To love your 'enemy' is to discover he is your enemy no more.
There is no holier spot on earth than where an ancient hatred becomes a present love.

The desire to remember God | Peace | Presence of Life

When you do notice or become aware of a greater perspective - such as when you realize you had forgotten to be present with God for a period of the day. Stop - Rejoice!

The light is come - or you would not know you had been asleep.

Your welcome for the light is hardly great if you use the occasion to scold or measure yourself.

To not be taken away be the ego is not a superhuman task - but an expression of calm trust.

Humanly contrived miracles may run on time but the train never leaves the station.

Is it not the simple desire of your heart to live truly?

I am sure it is - and in that desire is your call and answer.

The attempt to do too much is a way of justifying our day - our existence - our spiritual validity.

Yet you need do nothing for God to be all that God is - right where you are.

It is a matter of attention - which follows value - which expresses desire.

Now you may well discover, that actually you are more active than you thought in valuing that which covers over, distracts or takes you away from being in the presence of love. This is good news - Rejoice!

Why? Because now you have become more conscious and more honest about what you use your mind for.

It hardly helps when - upon such a discovery, the scripts of self guilt and self judgement are replayed.

To be consiously with yourself without moral controls firing off with the carrot and stick of fear or favour is to violate the garden fence boundary that you can cross BECAUSE you are willing ti exercise trust, cooperation, listening and willingness to be guided.

Now you may not believe you are trustworthy - because you have seen things about your mind that are mean at best and tricks with it.

But your desire is your welcome for One who knows you better than you do - and who also knows how to guide you.

The mind tries to whip the heart into line - using any and every tactic. Yet the heart gives freely all that you desire - but - it gives it to you to share - and not to your mind that would keep for itself.

With desire for God in your heart - what is there but God?

You have to get dressed quick to catch the train. Practice doing this in your peace - without calling on anxiety to spur you. God is moving to catch the train.

You have to take an optimum course through various obstacles. let go of trying to work out the path and let God align all things - and be fully present in every step.

God is dancing through the seeming Obstacles(also God).

You got caught up in difficulty and reaction and are out of sorts - and still have to deal with difficult demands. Surrender now! Forgive yourself unconditionally (This means everyone) and bring willingness to stop in an instant - even if the instant is short. - And deeply and fully remember your desire for truth.

It doesn't matter if it all seems grossly messy and you don't feel at all like you handled it at all well - what matters is that you remembered to stop, drop and listen - and then brought trust into play.

The surface mind is loud and seems to run the show - it certainly seems curiously able to get and keep your attention!

But you are moving by your desire to calm and to trust and notice deeper - from a more spacious and less reactive place.

Now it might happen that you have a miraculous day out of a potentially disastrous day - and didn't think of God once.

How so?

Because the thought of God is not just the words and concepts and symbols - but the rootedness of your attention to the real.

Now within this 'world' others may argue about using the term real - but the Spirit knows what is helpful for the needs of all - in terms of awakening and because you have given willingness, God's Agency can answer through you - when ye thinketh not. What is 'answer through you?' - but an expression of Life, love, shared integrity, harmony and peace. In other words the way life naturally works when we are not willfully active in working against it.

To shift from the "External God Power" concept to the all embracing unbounded Source and true Condition of being is a step by step willingness. When God takes the last step there is not a differentiation of God and self excepting as Jesus states it.

We most of us have great fear of God - and of love. Even if we set course we find ourselves thrown back again and again. Such resistance is not a sin - but arises from an ignorance that needs to be dispelled. This is why allowing conscious awareness of the desire that seems to want distraction or delay or to dally in pleasure or whatever doesn't abide and share in the presence of life - allows the Spirit to reveal to your willingness to notice.

Our obstacles are not just things to overcome - they can also be the misread guidances that we need to stop and take in so as to have an upside down map corrected.

Maybe something useful arises in you when you read this. Useful in the sense of a sudden shift of attention from a sense of dilemna to a current relationship.

I like the word current as it means now and also means flow.

I said once that the secret to making love - is

to already be making love.

In other words, the form of it isn't defined by a beginning and an end or by specific forms at all.

Making love is the ongoing dance and flow of relationship.

If you 'go off' on a thought (or ten thousand), then  as soon as you feel the dissonance - use it to waken.

If you do not go off in thought - but share the light of life and love in your tasks, your play or walking together - then don't interrupt the flow with spiritual thoughts - but just check in with your heart's light if any question should arise. Dissonance is undisguisable in love and light.

We have our love relationship with God - Spirit - we share that with our lover, our partner, our family, our community, our workplace our trees and sky and birds and world at large.
It is one love but the forms of the dance differ. The more unified and whole we let ourselves be the more consistent and congruent our life becomes.

For the love of God why would I bitch about X? (I'm bitching about X - dissonance alert - Let truth be revealed to me here that God's sanity and peace can be a basis for whatever is next).

There - that's also a tool - dissonance alert. If it isn't going off you are either too awake for any trouble to attract you - or are so well managed in your sleeping habit that every thing can be taken for grantedly dealt with as if it was just the way the world is and you just manage it successfully.

If you really want to be with God it must follow that you really do not want to be with egocentricity.



What we really do not want - is dissonant to our heart.

On this basis alone - all of the world we know should be called in question.