The concept of ego is helpful if it awakens a present responsibility.
But as soon as there is a sense of a separate or alternate power called the ego that can act against God - against your indivisibility - then it has become a stooge behind which the mind can play out the game of two powers. And to take either side or to shift between sides according to an alternating perspective is to identify with force and density - the experience of limitation and separation.

There need be no blame for discovering egocentricity 'running', indeed such is an awakening 'Ahah!'
The sense of ego attack that 'knows' how to lay us low is linked to our desire.
We may at times feel able to be open and selfless in the flow of being - but then there can be a sense of losing a capacity to keep the ego as a sort of hideyhole or option to back off or to have access to things we have enjoyed that we feel deprived of at the sense of moving beyond.

So there is a tightening, a contracting - a desire to put the brake on and 'think' - a pausing from the connectness of our being and in effect saying "I'd rather see this my way".

And the experience of confusion, of being in some struggle or of needing to DO something before I can allow Being or justify love - serves this desire to have a limited sense of self in which I feel less threatened than the exposure of an initially unrecognised territory of being.

My sense of resistance, is of an emotional charge here that is activated out of a habitual sense of security - and that once it activates, it can reframe my perspective so as to self validate itself and hide Love's Answer.

In awareness we can nip ego in the bud - just don't go there - stay here - open - be still - listen. In thought we are acting out from a basis that itself is thought - and not FEELING the direct communion of life that makes Meaningful our experience to us. Nor indeed the faith connection with that which is Awake and with us as Guide and Teacher.

So the drama has its process and yet at some point falls away enough to allow awareness to 'surface' again and we say "what was that about?" or "how come it took me so long to let go of that".

But it isn't that we hold onto a sense of control that doesn't fall or missstep - but rather that we stay open in trust and connectedness even amidst the fears of distrust and ill intent.

When desire grows strong to be free of a sick, debilitating or self undermining habit, we find more awareness rising within it - and thus a choice instead of a compulsion. But the real choice is always not to play the game at all - whereas the compulsion is always a sense of dilemna amidst choices that keep me in the dark.

In fairy stories, the treasure is often guarded by monsters or the princess surrounded by thorny thicket - or some sort of appearance of fearsome obstacle.
The only way to pass is truth.

When all else fails, you KNOW that you have not the answer and so in natural wisdom you no longer seek or accept an answer from where it cannot and does not come - from 'my own power or from my own thinking'. Now is there a stillness that listens. Now is there a thirst for truth. Now is there an abeyance of using truth to make a better weapon to overcome gargoyles. By the grace of God the heart can hear and see and feel - free of the miasma of a sense of self that turned from a curious plaything to a mesmeric mind-trap.

To look upon the special hate relationship is to cease to hide - and therefore protect - it.
When the mind in pain of hurt or hate turns upon itself - seek and find your willingness. Not to live up to any notion of spiritual attainment - but simply to own and feel and know the true desire of your willingness for love, for true safety, for unified peace.

You will at times experience extreme resistance to listening to your willingness, and yet by its light, you are guided or prompted to whatever helps you to stay in and grow willingness - despite the pull of the current of guilt, fear or reaction. Though it seems fierce it has only the power you gave it and give it still.

Your 'holding hands' with Spirit - through your willingness - is the link to calm - despite the shout and struggle of a senseless conflicted drama that seems to be real.

To practice, is to live from willingness - actively. The forms that the dance will take are discovered in relationship - as your preconditions are released to a greater trust.

If wilfulness sneaks in, willingness is forgot - and in such misalignment will dissonance of experience become the signal to relax.

This innate signal to bring attention present , relax, and trust - has been interpreted as a symbol for guilt or proof of sin - a hateful intent - a shameful self uncovered.

This is a deception - but to see for yourself you must look within and discover if in fact and in truth - such intent is your desire. For if you fear that it is - you are still 'playing' with sin as if it could be so.

I say that God Himself is the giver of your life, your being and your true desire.

Jesus said: "Go in peace and sin no more". He speaks to awakened willingness.
From such a true desire we can see and hear and trust our way.

And the shadow of sin dissolves, to a heart redeemed.


How I love you!


In love's graceful tears

Brian

Thought for the salvation of Love's Son

If you can see the ego writ large in the world of man - then maybe you are ready to let go of it being out there - or in your head.

But rather to see it in one mind.

What we choose to validate as experience - (of what we receive as thought and perception) - and what we thus choose to share into one mind - is a responsibility that cannot be escaped. Any more than Mind can be escaped.

The attempt to escape is expressed as 'the world and self' that we presume and trade, in separated (escaped) mode.
In true vision there can be nothing we would WANT to escape.

The mind of sin and guilt, is attack. The attack of mind on itself is excruciating - and expresses as every kind of pain of suffering, loss of love, and limitation through fear.
But mind cannot attack itself without first believing itself separate and in a head in a body in a time and place. Nor could it believe this without the wish to believe itself so.

If your thinking says - "well its all a game then!" - that may be so - BUT - one still suffers within the rules that have set up the game UNTIL the game is truly released. So the thought "it's all a game", is not the realisation - but is simply playing the same game some more.

Nothing can be released unless it is first recognised as being active. Nor can an act of self-will be released by an act of self-will.

To know again the mind of sin that you would keep hidden - so as to be undone of it - requires honesty and trust.
Love of truth has no ulterior motive or agenda. It does not seek to dissociate and displace - or get rid of itself. Love of truth rejoices in being one with - and this automatically extends because - whatever is the basis of your sense of value is the foundation of all that is seen.

In the mind of sin is a false Cause accepted and it is the cause of Fatherlessness or Sourcelessness. To see anything or anyone in such a false 'light' is to overlook the Wholeness that Gives all the Meaning that is present.
All that is needful to reverse the shift into the false is to give priority to the true - in the calm recognition that truth is not made or defined or analyzed into existence - but is one with and expresses through real relationship.

Cherish real relationships in any and every moment of noticing. Awareness grows as it is acknowledged.
The mind of war is literally trying to hide and kill itself; both.
Our own part in such an un-sane thought is undone in our accepting love in place of fear; awareness in place of thinking and perception.

Whatever the script of the 'world',  it is interfaced and part of our own contribution.
So if a brother demands you masked - then he will mask you - for his will is done.
But if you awaken from the masks and roles of the script - you can let love use it as it will.
"Thy Will Be done".
This is the releasing of self-will for the grace and beauty and innocence of truth.
Jesus didn't suffer for us - but witnesses to life eternal - even from amidst the 'experience of suffering' - where we even so may wake to realise Truth and not be dictated by ignorance.
Focus only on suffering enough to break the spell of hiding. Then look beyond to the Light - where new vision is offered BECAUSE you released the old.


I wrote this in trust to convey some sketch or sense of a dimension to which the world is blind - and wilfully so. Yet you who read here are not the world - but are stirred and quickened in love.


in Love's blessing
Brian