The Spirit of God is One and neither are you divided. We are deceived in any belief that gives rise to a war within self as in any way meaningful. Love does not fight fear - but is the condition in which fear is undone - or absent.
The error or delusion of conflicted self - and its experience of being a private separated organism or mind - gives rise to a compelling sense of suffering in a world of limitation and opposition - because that is the nature of the ‘self’ or reality thought that is currently accepted.
While so engaged, the mind is mesmerized in a self-assertive and self-protective activity that can have no abiding resolution because it is not expressing a self that is real. Yet while the desire is in motion, attention is not free to discover that one is entirely missing the point.
In sane and calm light, any error of conflicted desire or thought or experience is simply the call for immediate correction and nothing else. But such sanity is implicitly hidden by delusion - and the mind blindly reenacts old scripts that effectively perpetuate the condition of identifying with the false - and thus remaining ignorant of truth. Such is the seed of conflict - for how can the false be true without making the true seem false? - and who can rest in the confusion of defending against truth?
The way of awakening grows from a shift in purpose; a true change of heart; the desire for peace and sanity - as a directly felt experience from which to truly live. Despite the old mind of fear, control and survival, the new is welcomed and nurtured - yet in secret from the mind that would simply use all things for its own power.
This brings insight into the effects of one’s own desire and thought, such that delusional or self-destructive thought and intent is recognized as it is, instead of being experienced as if one is victim to the situation it seems to create. And such insight increasingly grows a capacity to not reenact the past - but instead to be guided and restored to a present and heartfelt unconflicted appreciation of life.
The plans of the mind based on the past always look to a future resolution, but the way of reintegrating mind with Itself restores an uniterrupted sense of self and life presently, for no assertion of self-will is interrupting the flow of being, feeling, awareness that is the living context of you - rather than any self image.
Stop it, drop it, and be renewed in the always fresh appreciation of reality as it is. For what we ‘drop’ is the desire and its means - that would hold reality to be as we tell it.
The belief-desire that 'I am of myself a power' is the nature of all error. For true power is power because it shares itself. Any attempt to force upon - or indeed resist against - reality is delusional - for there is no place outside Life from which to lever it. Yet the mind that desired and belieived such power, has ‘given’ its ‘will’ to all that is not under its control. For through the thought says it believes it HAS enacted upon Life so does it believe such power can be enacted upon it.
The only way out of such a bind is to release the desire and belief in such will; To release the judgements of the private or hidden sense of self. This can only be accepted in recognition and willingness by the grace of truth. For it is by Truth that truth is revealed in any mind that rests and abides naked of self-will.
This sense of self that is habituated to correcting mistakes in terms set by judgement – must be rested of its futility and become instead the willingness to let the answer speak through me to raise ‘the dead’. God is not dead. Nor you.
The extension of love is done through willingness – yet the awakening of love is not of a self doing - nor being done to, but transcends such terms in the expression of unified being; Creation.
If I would be free to create, I need be vigilant to not keep error secret from correction .
Truth will dawn on any mind that truly wants it.
But first we may have to recognise the release what we thought we wanted, counter to the nature and flow of being, that is bringing us the experience of opposition, limitation and conflict.
For to fight against the Living Current is not the way of sanity or peace.
Here's something I read today:
"Life never struggles. That which struggles is the consciousness which attempts to limit life and is but the interference to perfection which is forever trying to come through. If the personal self will just let life flow and keep at peace, the manifested result will be perfection, the divine way of life fulfilled."
(author unknown).
To persist in holding for or aligning with the truth as it is felt - even despite syptoms or seeming opposition - is not to struggle - but to hold to constancy and starve the drama of giving it your attention, and thereby validity as a ‘something’ that must be dealt with or answered in the terms it sets. To a mind habituated to survive through complex and shifting conflicts - the releasing of war is a threat. But the whole point is the releasing of the identification with the mind of opposition - and the acceptance of the truth in its terms.
Showing posts with label Being the flow. Show all posts
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2010/04/21
words
If even a trace of guilt is given welcome - or assumed real of me - then I (must) look out on a world that limits and see the taint of sin in whatever I write or whatever I read. For such is the effect of using the lens of judgement instead of listening in the heart.
Because this is so paralysing and obstructive of life's creative flow and function, the I-sense exerts itself in any and every attempt to mitigate and offset pain of guilt by glossing over with denial and engaging distraction - so as to play the game of life amidst a condition which seemingly opposes life.
To at least to snatch the crumbs of life in fleeting moments from the awfulness of a mean and hateful mind that the I-sense is seeking to escape, overcome or improve - but not let go.
All the force of such attempt wears 'me out' and blocks even further, the grace of the true function of life of which I have lost any direct sense due to becoming so entangled in my own thoughts made flesh.
(Hmmmmmmmmmm.... that's not what I thought I was going to write ;-)
Words have been used as the extension of definition. As if definition determines truth. But it is the movement of desire or intent that would fix or freeze life - by grasping or possession. The very concept of possession at the level of mind is a nonsense excepting that to have is to be. But once a sense of self in image and thought is accepted as if it were in fact Me - then through that self-thought can I seem to add things to myself or have them taken away.
At that level of illusion - when first embracing what seems to be the possibillities and potentialities of orphanhood (seperate self-becominghood) there is a sense of being as a god in divine play. Dressing up in the mirror and enjoying the imaginative 'life' that extends from the image in this light - or in that light.
How does a narcissistic game of no consequence become the terrible affliction of guilt?
Well it never truly can - excepting - while persisting to look in the mirror and 'enjoy' the imaginative 'life' that extends from the image in this light - or in that light.
These words are offered in attempt to sketch out so that the act can be seen for what it is. Not an act of play within the mirror - but an act of desiring to see and maintain oneself in image and story.
For while such desire is active and unseen, attention is limited to or distorted by the images in the mirror. These definitions that, in one way or another, give witness to the existence of a 'me' as a separately existing personality in a body - rather than as the direct expression of Life's Movement to know Itself through its extension.
There is a turnabout that arises spontaneously from the seeing of self illusion just as it is.
It may experienced as pure Grace. The uncovering of Divinity - of the only Life.
This out of time awakening is not allowed while attention and desire are actively engaged in reaction - as something to possess or rid oneself of.
But it can rise through the willingness to see such a script for what it is - while it is in play - and always undoes it of an environment in which to seem to be.
When Hercules had to clean out the shit from the stables - he opened a way that the divine river flowed through them. At first - if one had stopped to report - one could have said that - worse than shit - was a river of shit. And that is why it is unwise to use externals a progress report. For fear has to be released to the flow and function of life - of a divine flow that Is - otherwise it remains a point of reference from which one says stop! and belives one is the power to limit life.
Allowing the flow is growing a relationship with the truth in you that knows the flow - AND also knows the exact nature of the entanglement by which attention has become trapped within self definition and made real to itself.
Under self direction, I cannot actually know true function - though I may think I do when things go my way. But that is a house of cards. In not using self direction, a deeper knowing guides all. How do I know I am not deluding myself?
This is in some sense irrelevant to the act of awakened willingness - because in the flow - in the trust - in the light of allowing - even the scripts of self delusion become useful to the re-awakening of being to its wholeness - instead of serving as ammunition for the prosecution or damning evidence to the judge.
When resistance is felt - stuck - paralysis - fear - there is still flow. There is always flow, for life is Life.
To let into flow is to be with what is - as it is - and not as it is defined and not from a desire or presumption of a power to define it.
An unjudgemental atmospheric is absolutely essential to knowing and sharing life as Life.
Words and concepts have a long history of squelching the feeling being - because that has been the intent behind them.
Put this behind you - and release the forms associated with it - and let them find new life in a dance that speaks of your freedom to be - all that you are.
The dream of a life calls from without and keeps you focussed on the outer.
The Life that is your Intimate truth Moves from within and calls you awake as being-within-the-Movement.
If you are still holding onto the words - as if there is something that must be understood BEFORE trust is extended and fear released, then I ask you - What can possibly be understood from a mind already made up or fixed on its own thought?
The fixation of the mind on God is not the work of the human will, but is the grace of the desire of love to be all that it is and know all that it is, in all that it is.
Because this is so paralysing and obstructive of life's creative flow and function, the I-sense exerts itself in any and every attempt to mitigate and offset pain of guilt by glossing over with denial and engaging distraction - so as to play the game of life amidst a condition which seemingly opposes life.
To at least to snatch the crumbs of life in fleeting moments from the awfulness of a mean and hateful mind that the I-sense is seeking to escape, overcome or improve - but not let go.
All the force of such attempt wears 'me out' and blocks even further, the grace of the true function of life of which I have lost any direct sense due to becoming so entangled in my own thoughts made flesh.
(Hmmmmmmmmmm.... that's not what I thought I was going to write ;-)
Words have been used as the extension of definition. As if definition determines truth. But it is the movement of desire or intent that would fix or freeze life - by grasping or possession. The very concept of possession at the level of mind is a nonsense excepting that to have is to be. But once a sense of self in image and thought is accepted as if it were in fact Me - then through that self-thought can I seem to add things to myself or have them taken away.
At that level of illusion - when first embracing what seems to be the possibillities and potentialities of orphanhood (seperate self-becominghood) there is a sense of being as a god in divine play. Dressing up in the mirror and enjoying the imaginative 'life' that extends from the image in this light - or in that light.
How does a narcissistic game of no consequence become the terrible affliction of guilt?
Well it never truly can - excepting - while persisting to look in the mirror and 'enjoy' the imaginative 'life' that extends from the image in this light - or in that light.
These words are offered in attempt to sketch out so that the act can be seen for what it is. Not an act of play within the mirror - but an act of desiring to see and maintain oneself in image and story.
For while such desire is active and unseen, attention is limited to or distorted by the images in the mirror. These definitions that, in one way or another, give witness to the existence of a 'me' as a separately existing personality in a body - rather than as the direct expression of Life's Movement to know Itself through its extension.
There is a turnabout that arises spontaneously from the seeing of self illusion just as it is.
It may experienced as pure Grace. The uncovering of Divinity - of the only Life.
This out of time awakening is not allowed while attention and desire are actively engaged in reaction - as something to possess or rid oneself of.
But it can rise through the willingness to see such a script for what it is - while it is in play - and always undoes it of an environment in which to seem to be.
When Hercules had to clean out the shit from the stables - he opened a way that the divine river flowed through them. At first - if one had stopped to report - one could have said that - worse than shit - was a river of shit. And that is why it is unwise to use externals a progress report. For fear has to be released to the flow and function of life - of a divine flow that Is - otherwise it remains a point of reference from which one says stop! and belives one is the power to limit life.
Allowing the flow is growing a relationship with the truth in you that knows the flow - AND also knows the exact nature of the entanglement by which attention has become trapped within self definition and made real to itself.
Under self direction, I cannot actually know true function - though I may think I do when things go my way. But that is a house of cards. In not using self direction, a deeper knowing guides all. How do I know I am not deluding myself?
This is in some sense irrelevant to the act of awakened willingness - because in the flow - in the trust - in the light of allowing - even the scripts of self delusion become useful to the re-awakening of being to its wholeness - instead of serving as ammunition for the prosecution or damning evidence to the judge.
When resistance is felt - stuck - paralysis - fear - there is still flow. There is always flow, for life is Life.
To let into flow is to be with what is - as it is - and not as it is defined and not from a desire or presumption of a power to define it.
An unjudgemental atmospheric is absolutely essential to knowing and sharing life as Life.
Words and concepts have a long history of squelching the feeling being - because that has been the intent behind them.
Put this behind you - and release the forms associated with it - and let them find new life in a dance that speaks of your freedom to be - all that you are.
The dream of a life calls from without and keeps you focussed on the outer.
The Life that is your Intimate truth Moves from within and calls you awake as being-within-the-Movement.
If you are still holding onto the words - as if there is something that must be understood BEFORE trust is extended and fear released, then I ask you - What can possibly be understood from a mind already made up or fixed on its own thought?
The fixation of the mind on God is not the work of the human will, but is the grace of the desire of love to be all that it is and know all that it is, in all that it is.
2010/01/23
Come follow me. Let the dead bury the dead
The ego is not going to live forever - nor is it going to die.
The ego has no life but what you give it.
You give it.
It has no life.
The limited personal sense is a veil that sees all things only as if they are in relation to it - for its purposes.
The intimately personal sense is selfless, impersonal and totally loving.
When I was a boy I sometimes had a strong sense that I would never die - but the consciousness that is expressed in time and space interprets this as if it means it alone is surviving - perhaps along with other 'it alone's.
The memory of Heaven is strong in the very young - but is mostly used as fully charged batteries in support of another prodigal journey.
Survival is the preoccupation of the thoughts of the threatened.
"No need to survive" - does not mean allowing or inviting death, it just means that in the Nowness of the Fullness of Being, there is no one to survive and no threat to survive from.
The Flow is without exception or interruption or conflict. The Flow Knows you because it is you - and it Knows you Always now.
The thought of separation or difference is a building block of getting an experience that is separate and different. This will 'die' because it isn't truly occurring - except as a split experience of the Infinite.
It is in this split mind that we experience ourselves fearfully. Fear densifies light such that it becomes opaque and solid to the mind in fear. It becomes a - more or less - comfortable prison - to keep life out!
The eternal and infinite directness of being does not support or validate the wish to experience privately - except as a thought that makes no sense - has no meaning - negates the mind that thinks it. Another way of saying this is - no man can look on God and live. Not because God kills - but because the Infinite Light is - and man is not.
To a mind yet intent with its private will as if it were life - nothing can be more terrifying than eternal life. Death is salvation to such a mind for it saves it from its own utter undoing and allows a darkness in which it can re-seed itself.
Yet eternal life is the Only Life.
There's a game going on here - and its played seriously.
If you decided to treat the ball in a game of sport - whilst the game is on - as if it were just a ball - you would have to deal with the other players - and spectators! But in the game of limitation - every interruption is woven into or read as part of the game.
Jesus demonstrated eternal life and - he was 'made' into an eternal sacrifice by the serious game players. But it is also true that every interruption to the game lets light in - and when the game is no longer worth the candle - it is released for the greater light.
To a personal perspective in the world, death is the loss and negation of life. Humans try to make themselves deathless in making their mark, leaving legacies, and of course children.Andr of course they can preempt reality to prove their will by dying before 'nothingness' takes them.
Every loving thought is true. Truth is eternal. Our loving thoughts are the reflections of truth. They are also our real life. The unloving thoughts are a bit like a kaleidoscope that obscures and distorts the light and life - they are not something in themselves - except you thought you saw yourself there and became entranced.
The light of loving thought is also the light of guidance and the illumination of the mind in Mind. In light, the loving can be discerned and brought forth as the unloving is revealed as un-sane and unwanted.
You are loving thought and the proof is this : You do not create your self.
In this recognition is also the nothingness of the self you had thought to make from out of a sense of loss of identity.
In the release of persisting of 'self-making is known the stillness that speaks without form - yet your guidance understands and give it form - while form is helpful to you.
You cannot make love 'on your own'. You have to abandon such fixity to embrace love.
Love comes to you through forms that you can love and understand - and as you accept light, light grows within.
Growing an understanding is helpful to allay terror and grow trust - but as an investment it has to be abandoned for new life to be embraced.
Jesus - Raj said that if he had seen his mother - as his mother - when on the cross - then he would have died like any other man.
If you would taste not death you must let 'die' the illusion that you know what anything - or anyone - is. Now can you see why so very few take the path of living love? There is absolutely nothing in it to gain from an independent perspective. But it is simply to rest in truth.
Who is it that is called? Those who have looked on their nothingness - and found acceptance, given their heart, to live from. None 'else' can hear!
A different purpose seeds the mind - that transcends and replaces the urge to survive by any and every means. A love of Truth awakened.
Life 'begins' here - in recognition that the dream is a dream. Yet light of awareness is, that is not the dream - and is acknowledged and therefore restored to you - as you can accept; as you can share.
The interruption of the 'life' I thought was 'as I thought' - is grace.
The way that I have come to value - is a way of acceptance. Everything is just as it is. I don't mean that it just is as I or we, think it is - but that even what we think it is, is part of the way it is. The only alternative is self efforting - the bootstrap pull - the carrot and the stick. The fantasy of fighting reality.
Relaxing must be itself uncomplicated - but see the program running that distracts and can put the simple practice on indefinite hold! As if some conflicted sense must first be resolved. Yet the peace comes first in acceptance of 'as is', without judgement. Now the guidance of innate intelligence can flow true, and allows and enables appropriate and proportionate relationship to express in thought and in deed.
Stillness speaks ... and knows its movement as Itself.
The ego has no life but what you give it.
You give it.
It has no life.
The limited personal sense is a veil that sees all things only as if they are in relation to it - for its purposes.
The intimately personal sense is selfless, impersonal and totally loving.
When I was a boy I sometimes had a strong sense that I would never die - but the consciousness that is expressed in time and space interprets this as if it means it alone is surviving - perhaps along with other 'it alone's.
The memory of Heaven is strong in the very young - but is mostly used as fully charged batteries in support of another prodigal journey.
Survival is the preoccupation of the thoughts of the threatened.
"No need to survive" - does not mean allowing or inviting death, it just means that in the Nowness of the Fullness of Being, there is no one to survive and no threat to survive from.
The Flow is without exception or interruption or conflict. The Flow Knows you because it is you - and it Knows you Always now.
The thought of separation or difference is a building block of getting an experience that is separate and different. This will 'die' because it isn't truly occurring - except as a split experience of the Infinite.
It is in this split mind that we experience ourselves fearfully. Fear densifies light such that it becomes opaque and solid to the mind in fear. It becomes a - more or less - comfortable prison - to keep life out!
The eternal and infinite directness of being does not support or validate the wish to experience privately - except as a thought that makes no sense - has no meaning - negates the mind that thinks it. Another way of saying this is - no man can look on God and live. Not because God kills - but because the Infinite Light is - and man is not.
To a mind yet intent with its private will as if it were life - nothing can be more terrifying than eternal life. Death is salvation to such a mind for it saves it from its own utter undoing and allows a darkness in which it can re-seed itself.
Yet eternal life is the Only Life.
There's a game going on here - and its played seriously.
If you decided to treat the ball in a game of sport - whilst the game is on - as if it were just a ball - you would have to deal with the other players - and spectators! But in the game of limitation - every interruption is woven into or read as part of the game.
Jesus demonstrated eternal life and - he was 'made' into an eternal sacrifice by the serious game players. But it is also true that every interruption to the game lets light in - and when the game is no longer worth the candle - it is released for the greater light.
To a personal perspective in the world, death is the loss and negation of life. Humans try to make themselves deathless in making their mark, leaving legacies, and of course children.Andr of course they can preempt reality to prove their will by dying before 'nothingness' takes them.
Every loving thought is true. Truth is eternal. Our loving thoughts are the reflections of truth. They are also our real life. The unloving thoughts are a bit like a kaleidoscope that obscures and distorts the light and life - they are not something in themselves - except you thought you saw yourself there and became entranced.
The light of loving thought is also the light of guidance and the illumination of the mind in Mind. In light, the loving can be discerned and brought forth as the unloving is revealed as un-sane and unwanted.
You are loving thought and the proof is this : You do not create your self.
In this recognition is also the nothingness of the self you had thought to make from out of a sense of loss of identity.
In the release of persisting of 'self-making is known the stillness that speaks without form - yet your guidance understands and give it form - while form is helpful to you.
You cannot make love 'on your own'. You have to abandon such fixity to embrace love.
Love comes to you through forms that you can love and understand - and as you accept light, light grows within.
Growing an understanding is helpful to allay terror and grow trust - but as an investment it has to be abandoned for new life to be embraced.
Jesus - Raj said that if he had seen his mother - as his mother - when on the cross - then he would have died like any other man.
If you would taste not death you must let 'die' the illusion that you know what anything - or anyone - is. Now can you see why so very few take the path of living love? There is absolutely nothing in it to gain from an independent perspective. But it is simply to rest in truth.
Who is it that is called? Those who have looked on their nothingness - and found acceptance, given their heart, to live from. None 'else' can hear!
A different purpose seeds the mind - that transcends and replaces the urge to survive by any and every means. A love of Truth awakened.
Life 'begins' here - in recognition that the dream is a dream. Yet light of awareness is, that is not the dream - and is acknowledged and therefore restored to you - as you can accept; as you can share.
The interruption of the 'life' I thought was 'as I thought' - is grace.
The way that I have come to value - is a way of acceptance. Everything is just as it is. I don't mean that it just is as I or we, think it is - but that even what we think it is, is part of the way it is. The only alternative is self efforting - the bootstrap pull - the carrot and the stick. The fantasy of fighting reality.
Relaxing must be itself uncomplicated - but see the program running that distracts and can put the simple practice on indefinite hold! As if some conflicted sense must first be resolved. Yet the peace comes first in acceptance of 'as is', without judgement. Now the guidance of innate intelligence can flow true, and allows and enables appropriate and proportionate relationship to express in thought and in deed.
Stillness speaks ... and knows its movement as Itself.
2010/01/18
Irritation - conditional love - awakening
The signs are clearly obvious - a sense of frustration, a lack of calm - a compulsive reaching for something to ‘cover over’ or ‘fill up’ - and a quickness to irritation; the self sensitive emotional leaking out of a wilfully asserted story of being hard done by - unfairly treated. To be made powerless or inadequate. Some sense of loss of love in life.
Conditional love is a set up - because the conditions are not the nature and condition of reality as it is - but are the conditions that I have set up for myself - or I have arrived at in contractual 'relationship' with another.
“I want it thus” - in order to be happy on my terms - or at least to allay my unhappiness.
When two or more agree on a set of conditions it makes for a sense of reality - that then supports a sense of self - which on surface seems innocent of any kind of loveless manipulation - and if a little of that shows, why it is accepted as the nature of being a self - and the way things just are.
Underneath the lid of the surface presentation are the aspects of our life, our mind or our self - that we do not want to know - or that do not fit in with - or support - the story of ourselves that we are both telling and listening to. For it is this story-mind that is employed for validating and providing continuity for a sense of self that arises from continuing the attempt to force life to be as it is not - by applying intent and force of will as both the interpretation of all experience - and the reactions that arise from those interpretations.
The all-one-ness of awareness being the flow experiencing itself, cannot be other that as it is - for this is all that is and always and only is. But an interpretation of experience can be given priority of attention and desire - that uses the thought of being - as if - outside the flow.
A separateness felt within an indivisibility. A twoness from which arises a many-ness experienced in a felt separateness of thought, collapses and inverts into a sense of independence from the flow. As if experiencing life from the perspective of form - with a specific signature in form being expressed and maintained with great force of will. The density of the forces of opposition makes for a density and fixedness of thought and experience. The flow is rendered invisible as background, the foreground is rendered as an experience of self and other - where self is identified within a personal private mind within a body - and other is everything outside.
This arbitary division is in a constant flux of offensive and defensive strategy - and centres upon a likewise flux of symbols of self and love and life that are 'worshipped' or attended to, as if they were the flow of being itself. But the experience within the mind in limitation is compellingly real to it - as if under a spell or dream; a mind entrapped within its own thought. A mind that has given its innate power to the idea of something other.
To put our desire of intent and attention into wanting life to be other than it is - is fantasy. To engage wilfuly in fantasy is to become deluded and to assert that life is as we define, interpret and determine it to be - and from the seeming power of such a mind comes the belief in the nature of power as division, and by this we suffer our own creation as if it creates us.
The surface of life is form. The depth of life is meaning. When form is made to be a symbol of meanings other than the presence and flow of being, then a private fantasy is being dallied with while the awareness of the flow is put ‘on hold’. There are no external laws forbidding the mind in following thought. If value is given it - then it persists as a focus of attention - until it is valued no more.
Playing on the surface of life is part of discovering and exploring will - and through the experience of feedback, coming to recognize and accept the will of the flow as the truth and harmony of being. Free will is not a freedom to do anything. Free will is the nature and condition of being.
No matter how intensely or ingeniously the will is applied in manipulation, coercion or control, it cannot ever become the power it seeks - nor can it subdue or contain the power it experiences as opposition. It can seem to do so - or at least achieve temporary satisfactions in form. But these are without substance excepting by the mechanism of conflict itself - and so are never wholehearted, happy experiences of the freedom of being.
The awakening of the mind to its wholeness or indivisibility occurs spontaneously as a result of the loss of fascination with the intent that drives the experience of limitation. For without the application of a coercive will, the flow naturally knows itself through all relations. Yet this knowing is given and received as one. The insinuation of a private mind initially cuts off and misinterprets all direct experience of the flow of being. Yet every instant of a conscious remembering or unseparated presence - serves the transition within the mind that could be seen as a process of steps by which the release of wilfulness is freely allowed, and the acceptance of life as given and received in the flow of being - is freely accepted.
The ideas that speak of the flow are only servants to the remembering of a current embrace and inclusion. For only as this restores your whole hearted being to sanity and wholeness - can you see and therefore share sanity and wholeness.
Willingness is a trusting receptivity to the flow. It is the allowing and permission given to being - that undermines the wilfulness habit of which the mind suffers its own private reality.
The desire that had been directed externally is released to the heart. The heart is the voice of the presence of the flow. It can be clothed in form to become tangible to the mind that is awakening, but the flow is beyond the clothing of idea, symbol or concept.
But not beyond the heart’s knowing - within this very instant of awareness - in this exact circumstance of relations. Awakening is always to - and as - an entirely fresh perspective.
Let the dead bury the dead!
Conditional love is a set up - because the conditions are not the nature and condition of reality as it is - but are the conditions that I have set up for myself - or I have arrived at in contractual 'relationship' with another.
“I want it thus” - in order to be happy on my terms - or at least to allay my unhappiness.
When two or more agree on a set of conditions it makes for a sense of reality - that then supports a sense of self - which on surface seems innocent of any kind of loveless manipulation - and if a little of that shows, why it is accepted as the nature of being a self - and the way things just are.
Underneath the lid of the surface presentation are the aspects of our life, our mind or our self - that we do not want to know - or that do not fit in with - or support - the story of ourselves that we are both telling and listening to. For it is this story-mind that is employed for validating and providing continuity for a sense of self that arises from continuing the attempt to force life to be as it is not - by applying intent and force of will as both the interpretation of all experience - and the reactions that arise from those interpretations.
The all-one-ness of awareness being the flow experiencing itself, cannot be other that as it is - for this is all that is and always and only is. But an interpretation of experience can be given priority of attention and desire - that uses the thought of being - as if - outside the flow.
A separateness felt within an indivisibility. A twoness from which arises a many-ness experienced in a felt separateness of thought, collapses and inverts into a sense of independence from the flow. As if experiencing life from the perspective of form - with a specific signature in form being expressed and maintained with great force of will. The density of the forces of opposition makes for a density and fixedness of thought and experience. The flow is rendered invisible as background, the foreground is rendered as an experience of self and other - where self is identified within a personal private mind within a body - and other is everything outside.
This arbitary division is in a constant flux of offensive and defensive strategy - and centres upon a likewise flux of symbols of self and love and life that are 'worshipped' or attended to, as if they were the flow of being itself. But the experience within the mind in limitation is compellingly real to it - as if under a spell or dream; a mind entrapped within its own thought. A mind that has given its innate power to the idea of something other.
To put our desire of intent and attention into wanting life to be other than it is - is fantasy. To engage wilfuly in fantasy is to become deluded and to assert that life is as we define, interpret and determine it to be - and from the seeming power of such a mind comes the belief in the nature of power as division, and by this we suffer our own creation as if it creates us.
The surface of life is form. The depth of life is meaning. When form is made to be a symbol of meanings other than the presence and flow of being, then a private fantasy is being dallied with while the awareness of the flow is put ‘on hold’. There are no external laws forbidding the mind in following thought. If value is given it - then it persists as a focus of attention - until it is valued no more.
Playing on the surface of life is part of discovering and exploring will - and through the experience of feedback, coming to recognize and accept the will of the flow as the truth and harmony of being. Free will is not a freedom to do anything. Free will is the nature and condition of being.
No matter how intensely or ingeniously the will is applied in manipulation, coercion or control, it cannot ever become the power it seeks - nor can it subdue or contain the power it experiences as opposition. It can seem to do so - or at least achieve temporary satisfactions in form. But these are without substance excepting by the mechanism of conflict itself - and so are never wholehearted, happy experiences of the freedom of being.
The awakening of the mind to its wholeness or indivisibility occurs spontaneously as a result of the loss of fascination with the intent that drives the experience of limitation. For without the application of a coercive will, the flow naturally knows itself through all relations. Yet this knowing is given and received as one. The insinuation of a private mind initially cuts off and misinterprets all direct experience of the flow of being. Yet every instant of a conscious remembering or unseparated presence - serves the transition within the mind that could be seen as a process of steps by which the release of wilfulness is freely allowed, and the acceptance of life as given and received in the flow of being - is freely accepted.
The ideas that speak of the flow are only servants to the remembering of a current embrace and inclusion. For only as this restores your whole hearted being to sanity and wholeness - can you see and therefore share sanity and wholeness.
Willingness is a trusting receptivity to the flow. It is the allowing and permission given to being - that undermines the wilfulness habit of which the mind suffers its own private reality.
The desire that had been directed externally is released to the heart. The heart is the voice of the presence of the flow. It can be clothed in form to become tangible to the mind that is awakening, but the flow is beyond the clothing of idea, symbol or concept.
But not beyond the heart’s knowing - within this very instant of awareness - in this exact circumstance of relations. Awakening is always to - and as - an entirely fresh perspective.
Let the dead bury the dead!
2009/09/28
Awakening is indeed wholly Good News
The recognition of 'not peace' or 'not fulfilment' or 'not connected within' - is by the grace of awareness - so to acknowledge such a state - is to have paused and listened - and is not in itself judgement against self or other.
The momentum of the thinking mind - or 'story mind' - in ignorance - can use the glimpse as yet more fuel for its story of self. It says: "I lack, am inadequate, or am deprived of my good". If you elect that this voice speaks for you - then you stay within 'your story', asleep.
But to let the present realisation of felt dissonance be allowed, as a trigger for the further influx of awareness, is to trust into relational silence - beyond the range of the 'story mind'. This practice will - in effect - open the presumption of a prior communion as the lens of your experience, in which the 'story mind' takes on a different purpose; namely that of using experience to teach, reflect and extend only that which moves alive within - and through - all that is.
In this, the realm of experience may be enjoyed without identification with the story - as the revelator of the light and truth that is itself beyond experience - yet one with being.
But as we choose again to ascribe parts of experience more or less value or reality - we will again re enact the script of separation and forget who and what we are in Truth. To enjoy without introducing the separation is to be enjoyment itself - empty or innocent of self strategy - sharing the 'Kingdom' with the 'Kingdom'.
This ‘sharing’ is the original 'language' of oneness - because it has not believed itself to have left the mind of God - and then used that story - as a lens of its own self exploration.
The original remains truly the only language of communication and bleeds through, despite the script that interprets all things to promote and protect a falsely identified self. Yet the original cannot altogether be lost because it remains part of what you are, no matter how the mind is used.
Touch on what is realised to be truly unwanted - only - to awaken - to be renewed as - the movement of true desire - that is given you by virtue of Being, itself . This is allowed in, by your disregarding all of what the ‘my story mind’ has taught, (through experience, as memory) - by not using it!
Awakening is indeed wholly Good News.
Postscript:
The momentum of the thinking mind - or 'story mind' - in ignorance - can use the glimpse as yet more fuel for its story of self. It says: "I lack, am inadequate, or am deprived of my good". If you elect that this voice speaks for you - then you stay within 'your story', asleep.
But to let the present realisation of felt dissonance be allowed, as a trigger for the further influx of awareness, is to trust into relational silence - beyond the range of the 'story mind'. This practice will - in effect - open the presumption of a prior communion as the lens of your experience, in which the 'story mind' takes on a different purpose; namely that of using experience to teach, reflect and extend only that which moves alive within - and through - all that is.
In this, the realm of experience may be enjoyed without identification with the story - as the revelator of the light and truth that is itself beyond experience - yet one with being.
But as we choose again to ascribe parts of experience more or less value or reality - we will again re enact the script of separation and forget who and what we are in Truth. To enjoy without introducing the separation is to be enjoyment itself - empty or innocent of self strategy - sharing the 'Kingdom' with the 'Kingdom'.
This ‘sharing’ is the original 'language' of oneness - because it has not believed itself to have left the mind of God - and then used that story - as a lens of its own self exploration.
The original remains truly the only language of communication and bleeds through, despite the script that interprets all things to promote and protect a falsely identified self. Yet the original cannot altogether be lost because it remains part of what you are, no matter how the mind is used.
Touch on what is realised to be truly unwanted - only - to awaken - to be renewed as - the movement of true desire - that is given you by virtue of Being, itself . This is allowed in, by your disregarding all of what the ‘my story mind’ has taught, (through experience, as memory) - by not using it!
Awakening is indeed wholly Good News.
Postscript:
It is indeed a fools errand to seek for the good, the beautiful and the true in merely external terms. However, the folly is to be discovered within your own experience - and therefore simply undone by the wisdom that replaces it - if you will. Giving to God is a way of not claiming for yourself alone. It doesn't deprive one of pleasure - but locates the true context of pleasure - AND - works to undermine the habit of self deprivation that the illusion of private gain always facilitates.
Be fixed on truth in the heart - God Is - and be wary of missing the mark - sin. The 'death' that sin entails seems provable because it is repeatable - but only for as long as you are willing to prove it to yourself by repeating care-less or love-less behaviour of thought and attention. And the signs of guilt are always the sign that this remains unrecognised and uncorrected on oneself - wherever the guilt or dis-ease seems to manifest.
2008/06/12
Are we God's "virtual reality"?
This question was asked and instead of answering no - I felt to write whatever came up from pondering the question.
The life we think and believe we have is not LIFE.
The human reality lived through the mask is a counterfeit - reproduction - a virtual reality - something that appears to be a reality but isn't.
Our True Location is God; the Process in awareness of being - and this simply is.
The experience of a limited mind in a body in a physical world occurs within awareness.
Our experience in the world says our awareness is a freak or unknown phenomenon - or gift from a mysterious God - arising from a process of merely mechanical events that result in an embodied ‘survive and replicate’ mechanism that has self awareness - is conscious of its own existence. You know that you are.
But the voice for the world is the justification for and an expression of a masked mentality. It is the private mentality and assertion of will - that is the survive and replicate mechanism which the world reflects to any who engage it.
What we generally call thinking is like static - a constant commentary and distraction from that which is below the active focus of attention. The thought or belief that is held in the heart - whether it be held deeply in secret or pushed down in secret denial - is the filtering distortion that prevents acceptance of all that is - as it is.
It is not inflicted upon us by another nor is it something for which we can be held responsible as a sin - for it is simply the result of ignorance. But we are responsible for the use to which we use our minds and what we choose to focus our attention on we give priority and value to.
We are teacher and learner - but can only extend the thoughts of original mind or the thinking of private self interest - which is adept at masking itself as love, concern and well intentioned help.
The mind is never really set or stuck or fixed for there is nothing but its own thought in which to be limited by, and it is absurd to believe that a mind could actually be trapped in its own thought - for it can change its focus and release the thought at will. Freedom is the nature of original mind.
But mind can seem to be trapped - when it interprets all things according to its own judgements in contradiction to the nature and truth of what the mind actually is. And it can therefore have the experience of suffering any degree of good or evil in its own terms - but cannot make its interpretation real except to its own wish - for it is a fiction. You remain as you are created - not as a human being - but as a presence of awareness - an individuality.
Heaven, Creation, the Kingdom of Heaven, these are symbols for the absence of guilt, fear or lack and any of the mis-creations that proceed from them. It is not in the past but is eternally present as the Flow of being. All is as it Is and Intimately Knows All is as it is. This is as like a river that is the process of pure awareness - for it is universal and yet aware in every part. It is not static - yet is unchangeable. Its Movement is always Knowing itself in all that arises as its Thought. Its Expressions are its own extension but do not leave the mind or be different in their same creative freedom to extend awareness - except in one regard - that they do not create themselves but are created.
All Expression of God is the Son - the Effect that gives Fatherhood to God as Cause. This Singularity has no existence in temporal dualistic terms. It is not located in time or space or consciousness - but is the underlying Unified Field of which time space and consciousness are perceptual distortions appearing as distances between what remains indivisible.
Leaving Eden is an imaginary exile - but it’s motive force progressively continues in the same impulse or seed desire to dislocate until it becomes intolerable - when there is no place left to hide - or dislocate - into.
Indivisible Singularity has no opposite or conflictedness - it is unspeakable and can only be hinted at in “Is” or “I Am”. No one sees God and lives because only God knows God.
But to see or recognise the Son in another is to see the Father - for the Son is the Father’s Expression. The opening to guiltless vision is the Light in which One Self is intuited at the heart. There is one love that knows itself infinitely and intimately - and this is the very Ground of your being revealed in your willingness to release all judgement and allow the present to be wholly itself.
But this is the way of release from a compelling and fearful identification with uncreative thought. I will call it the wish to judge and determine from a private perspective. To make things in your own thought as you would have them be.
I have written extensively on this elsewhere so in brief - to engage in loveless intent has all the effects of attacking the mind and rendering it both victim and guilty, powerless and clinging to a wish for power, ignorant of Divine order and compelled to assert order upon itself and all things to protect itself from what it does not know. Yet it only knows its own grasped mind of getting and what it fears and does not recognize - is its Self.
For the Divine is veiled to the mind that looks through the lens or mask of judgement.
And the drama of conflicting powers amidst separated fragments of being seen as whole but separated beings and things is without any meaning or visibility to Infinite Love.
They are mutually exclusive - but The Divine dispels illusion entirely if they are brought together. Therefore the mind that seeks protection of its illusions will justify any means to hide from Truth by presenting a mask - an image of itself in story.
The mask has two faces - one is turned out to 'the world' as the image that is presented to oneself firstly, and to others secondly, in the attempt to validate it - to make it 'real'.
The other is that from which we (usually unknowingly) seek to hide from in terror and which impels us to make perpetual and ongoing presentation of defence to mitigates or limit the otherwise untenable dis-ease of conflicted heart and mind. This could be called unconscious guilt, hatred and fear. But it is never altogether hidden but that it leaks - for it is subverting and distorting all things until the heart awakens.
The imperative of a mind intent on maintaining separation is to make safe amidst believed guilt and fear by means of denial, hiding, distracting, pretending and wishing to believe anything whatsoever that serves its purpose of 'surviving'. It uses its past to interpret the present and does not connect directly - but always via its particular associations and desires.
The mask is a mind-lens or filter that disrupts Communion of Self in God while it is employed - and interprets all things in its own image for that is its intent. To make a 'self upon a world' that is itself made upon the denial of God.
Yet I is altogether lonely without God - regardless of anything the world can offer - it will not fulfil but only inflame or deaden if used as substitute for love. God is no consolatory belief but the awakened and connected heart and mind that knows love, peace, joy, gratitude, glory, wonder and awe - as the very life that is shared through me in order that by giving - I have.
Th refusal and release of the mask of judgement and control is the turnabout from self interest to enlightened self interest. Relationships become the means to give - and receive - instead of a means to get by force or by guile - or through mutual bargaining.
All things of the world take on a different purpose and perception as the mind is aligned with the heart.
Nothing needed to change but the source from which I chose to be guided.
The life we think and believe we have is not LIFE.
The human reality lived through the mask is a counterfeit - reproduction - a virtual reality - something that appears to be a reality but isn't.
Our True Location is God; the Process in awareness of being - and this simply is.
The experience of a limited mind in a body in a physical world occurs within awareness.
Our experience in the world says our awareness is a freak or unknown phenomenon - or gift from a mysterious God - arising from a process of merely mechanical events that result in an embodied ‘survive and replicate’ mechanism that has self awareness - is conscious of its own existence. You know that you are.
But the voice for the world is the justification for and an expression of a masked mentality. It is the private mentality and assertion of will - that is the survive and replicate mechanism which the world reflects to any who engage it.
What we generally call thinking is like static - a constant commentary and distraction from that which is below the active focus of attention. The thought or belief that is held in the heart - whether it be held deeply in secret or pushed down in secret denial - is the filtering distortion that prevents acceptance of all that is - as it is.
It is not inflicted upon us by another nor is it something for which we can be held responsible as a sin - for it is simply the result of ignorance. But we are responsible for the use to which we use our minds and what we choose to focus our attention on we give priority and value to.
We are teacher and learner - but can only extend the thoughts of original mind or the thinking of private self interest - which is adept at masking itself as love, concern and well intentioned help.
The mind is never really set or stuck or fixed for there is nothing but its own thought in which to be limited by, and it is absurd to believe that a mind could actually be trapped in its own thought - for it can change its focus and release the thought at will. Freedom is the nature of original mind.
But mind can seem to be trapped - when it interprets all things according to its own judgements in contradiction to the nature and truth of what the mind actually is. And it can therefore have the experience of suffering any degree of good or evil in its own terms - but cannot make its interpretation real except to its own wish - for it is a fiction. You remain as you are created - not as a human being - but as a presence of awareness - an individuality.
Heaven, Creation, the Kingdom of Heaven, these are symbols for the absence of guilt, fear or lack and any of the mis-creations that proceed from them. It is not in the past but is eternally present as the Flow of being. All is as it Is and Intimately Knows All is as it is. This is as like a river that is the process of pure awareness - for it is universal and yet aware in every part. It is not static - yet is unchangeable. Its Movement is always Knowing itself in all that arises as its Thought. Its Expressions are its own extension but do not leave the mind or be different in their same creative freedom to extend awareness - except in one regard - that they do not create themselves but are created.
All Expression of God is the Son - the Effect that gives Fatherhood to God as Cause. This Singularity has no existence in temporal dualistic terms. It is not located in time or space or consciousness - but is the underlying Unified Field of which time space and consciousness are perceptual distortions appearing as distances between what remains indivisible.
Leaving Eden is an imaginary exile - but it’s motive force progressively continues in the same impulse or seed desire to dislocate until it becomes intolerable - when there is no place left to hide - or dislocate - into.
Indivisible Singularity has no opposite or conflictedness - it is unspeakable and can only be hinted at in “Is” or “I Am”. No one sees God and lives because only God knows God.
But to see or recognise the Son in another is to see the Father - for the Son is the Father’s Expression. The opening to guiltless vision is the Light in which One Self is intuited at the heart. There is one love that knows itself infinitely and intimately - and this is the very Ground of your being revealed in your willingness to release all judgement and allow the present to be wholly itself.
But this is the way of release from a compelling and fearful identification with uncreative thought. I will call it the wish to judge and determine from a private perspective. To make things in your own thought as you would have them be.
I have written extensively on this elsewhere so in brief - to engage in loveless intent has all the effects of attacking the mind and rendering it both victim and guilty, powerless and clinging to a wish for power, ignorant of Divine order and compelled to assert order upon itself and all things to protect itself from what it does not know. Yet it only knows its own grasped mind of getting and what it fears and does not recognize - is its Self.
For the Divine is veiled to the mind that looks through the lens or mask of judgement.
And the drama of conflicting powers amidst separated fragments of being seen as whole but separated beings and things is without any meaning or visibility to Infinite Love.
They are mutually exclusive - but The Divine dispels illusion entirely if they are brought together. Therefore the mind that seeks protection of its illusions will justify any means to hide from Truth by presenting a mask - an image of itself in story.
The mask has two faces - one is turned out to 'the world' as the image that is presented to oneself firstly, and to others secondly, in the attempt to validate it - to make it 'real'.
The other is that from which we (usually unknowingly) seek to hide from in terror and which impels us to make perpetual and ongoing presentation of defence to mitigates or limit the otherwise untenable dis-ease of conflicted heart and mind. This could be called unconscious guilt, hatred and fear. But it is never altogether hidden but that it leaks - for it is subverting and distorting all things until the heart awakens.
The imperative of a mind intent on maintaining separation is to make safe amidst believed guilt and fear by means of denial, hiding, distracting, pretending and wishing to believe anything whatsoever that serves its purpose of 'surviving'. It uses its past to interpret the present and does not connect directly - but always via its particular associations and desires.
The mask is a mind-lens or filter that disrupts Communion of Self in God while it is employed - and interprets all things in its own image for that is its intent. To make a 'self upon a world' that is itself made upon the denial of God.
Yet I is altogether lonely without God - regardless of anything the world can offer - it will not fulfil but only inflame or deaden if used as substitute for love. God is no consolatory belief but the awakened and connected heart and mind that knows love, peace, joy, gratitude, glory, wonder and awe - as the very life that is shared through me in order that by giving - I have.
Th refusal and release of the mask of judgement and control is the turnabout from self interest to enlightened self interest. Relationships become the means to give - and receive - instead of a means to get by force or by guile - or through mutual bargaining.
All things of the world take on a different purpose and perception as the mind is aligned with the heart.
Nothing needed to change but the source from which I chose to be guided.
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