Awakening Joy, triggering loss.

The energetic quality of being
is of such joy
as is un imaginable
to a me-thinking split-off mind.

But any sense of losing such joy
is exactly the trigger
for a me-thinking to assert itself
as if actually split off.

For abandoning intent
by law brings abandonment
in mind that yet plays out in
an independence of will.

So abiding as trust
as living faith
is the choice to disregard
the ego shout.
Stop now!
Be free of the voice for fear

And suffering becomes the sign
of a self-willing hurt
that offers continuity of self
but blocks love eternal
from It’s Own.

Here now the sky
receives even the suffering
exactly as it is
and hiding nothing
allows everything
to being itself

Such ordinary moment
as eternity reflects
is the willingness
to see and be
Loves presence

Only.



brian in a moment 

To arrive at the beginning

Joy when evident - is much appreciated.
May an increasing sense of innate safety continue to dislocate the over-busy mentality of defence.

I know in myself that once a defence program is activated, all events are interpreted in terms of threat, ally or irrelevance - to a 'self definition'
that is reinforced by the program itself.

I have a sense that a conflict based mentality runs in emulation within a larger unconflicted awareness. Like TV it can become a loop of attention and distraction that feeds upon itself but is ultimately unfulfilling.

Joy is fulfilment but tends to be interpreted in terms of the self-defining program running as conditional to the outer circumstance - ie sharing life and dancing and singing.

I have a sense that there is innate joy just in being temporarily free of the self-limiting mindset - so I watch the activity of mind and identify patterns that express outmoded or ineffectual force and allow them to be replaced with the original or underlying harmonic patterning - that was eclipsed while the program was actively engaged.

Such calming restores perspective to non-local awareness - simply being - which can then express as freshly relevant local intelligence.

It could appear that long standing deeply held habits of mind and behaviour are unchangeable. But that is not more than a thought which can be observed, accepted or questioned.

I observe that the mind runs faster than anything I could imagine and that attention can be engaged and mesmerised by processes of thought.
However this doesn't change what the nature of mind is - only the activity of attention within it.

When driving my car, I tend to relax at a speed that is without haste and enjoy the moment I am in. This feels like a sort of timeless edgeless flow - because it is not incessantly engaged in past or future concerns.
I occasionally notice drivers overtaking and stressing to overtake - cursing or suffering frustration and friction in an ongoing drama of conflicted outcomes along with a sense of self importance that blinds them to appreciation of life all around them. I know from past experience that when I drive like that, it dislocates me such that it takes quite a while after physical arrival - to 'catch up with myself', reintegrate or re-orientate.

Journeying is the same, but the experiences of each mode of travel are very different. One is fulfilling a rested and free attention, the other is obsessed with unquestioned thoughts that are unconsciously programming a polarised addictive experience.

How to contact the mind that is intent on drama and release it to a true or direct relational awareness and appreciation.

(That last sentence posed a question until I saw that it was in fact the heading).