Let this mind be still of self judgement.
Let this heart be open to this moment.
May all things rest in my awareness,
with no story of division.
I come to ask, as I am moved,
and moving, meet resistance;
a mind in me that calls on guilt,
in darkness of exclusion.
Let me hear true!
I want to hear true,
for the being of life,
and the seeing of life,
as one with true.
I have thought my way into a maze and think I must think my way out.
Reveal to my mind the simple light of truth!
I felt my feelings condemn me in a dark and lonely hell.
Reveal to me my Self - where peace extends!
I wanted you dear heart, to be with, and to be with me,
in form that touched me in desire to be so known and oh so loved!
And made of you an idol of loss, of limitation, fear and guilt.
for I believed the the lonely thoughts - that say I am as they,
and longed for love as if my self was unlike love.
So help me,
and let me know Thy Help,
help the love, you Be me,
know itself directly.
Paths within a world unlove,
cannot be found.
They are not there!
And seeming lost, abandoned, sense,
that I, in mind, does err,
Attending thought in false pretence,
as if a worthy prayer.
I made myself experience,
of world that isn't there.
A prison painted out.
Imaginary walls,
exclude the life,
lock in, the demon thought,
that turns the spit,
the guilt fire pit.
That paints the sham,
to hide from shame,
but knows full well,
impotent spell.
For love lost, cost,
all that lives,
and mere things never,
such life give.
Unless from the cell, and spell undone,
is shifted to the Living One.
In dream forsaken - let me then forsake,
abiding sleep - I wouldst awake!
for love’s true need,
above my sake.
Holy Spirit in the heart,
listening for peace.
Listening for peace in my heart.
Resting in desire for peace.
Let peace be in my heart!
Let peace be in thy heart!
May peace be.
And be in peace,
A mind unwhole in agitation,
was here as if my own.
Let peace restore me from,
imagination!
i will
to let myself be still ...
brian in a moment
Showing posts with label conflict resolution prayer spirituality spirit guidance. Show all posts
Showing posts with label conflict resolution prayer spirituality spirit guidance. Show all posts
2010/10/13
2010/01/03
Scripted experience of a lifetime.
I have a sense of a script running beneath our lives having certain themes that are part of the focus of this particular lifetime experience. And that before any of these events occur in our life – they are already latent at an archetypal level of our consciousness.
Whether this is seen as tragedy or comedy depends on our perspective. But within the script is generally tragedy - with comedy being the fruit of an overview that can identify, yet remain free of the roles and drama played out.
To identify fully with the human drama we have to feel totally justified in judging against.
The way out of the identification with the human drama is to love truth more than to love judgement – at just such times as when the urge to judge is strongest. For judgement usurps truth by making its own.
Whatever roles are played out – they are the roles of a split mind in denial – until of course we can let Spirit use the roles - (that are in our own mind and not ‘out there’) - to heal the split.
I know it doesn't seem that way – it seems we really are the one we think we are – suffering or sometimes winning – in the world ‘as we call it’.
And our wounds are the proof of our legitimacy as validating the ‘world as we call it’.
Which is a way to lessen, mitigate, or cover over, the guilt that arises from wanting and using judgement. How so? – by putting it out on the world – on those who enact the hidden facets of our mind for us - (in the world as we call it).
The voice for self protection is the call to fight to maintain this strategy because it has been the way the mind has attempted to resolve its own dilemna from a perspective of ignorance as to its own Nature and Source.
The voice for peace is the call to listen anew - from the awakened presence of being - which is usually weak amidst the self certainties that have grown from struggle.
"Come Home" is a call to an already peace – an anyway peace that doesn't sort out or resolve anything about the past in terms of the past – and so allows you to live out of a connected nowness that has no agenda of justice or revenge or proving anything to anyone. Being Home is a way of flowing in a current sense of a clear and clean now.
And to have release you simply give it. To give it is to have it.
It seems like you don't get it back when the world trips you (or me) up in disappointment, abandonment or betrayal.
But that is the feedback by which we waken to realize we are reenacting the old ideas and experiences again.
It is not for us to dictate the role that others must fulfil for us to keep our fantasies intact. To attempt to use others for private ends is to lose the blessing of their light.
Our Spirit can guide us so as to be protected from calamities. This is a way of getting our attention.
Once we are 'onboard' the Spirit can then guide us through calamities to show a deeper truth of safety.
And from there can it undo the very experience of calamity while it is seemingly going on.
Our part is to keep the channel open so that the Awakened Mind can use and work through our willingness and capacity to receive. This might be to struggle mightily to find even a little willingness amidst great temptation to feel justifiably judgemental. Or it might be so calm and clear and gentle, that it is obviously very Self.
Though we can feel we are prayerful when we ask to have something fearful or painful removed from our experience – there is often quite a payload of demand involved – seeking to dictate terms or make bargain on some level that is hidden amidst our seemingly innocent victimhood.
But if we see this – we can be guided as to then releasing it.
Truth is the restoration of a calm acceptance because it needs make no demand in order to be itself.
What if all you asked for is already given answer – and all you have to do is accept it - and live from the answer?
Whether this is seen as tragedy or comedy depends on our perspective. But within the script is generally tragedy - with comedy being the fruit of an overview that can identify, yet remain free of the roles and drama played out.
To identify fully with the human drama we have to feel totally justified in judging against.
The way out of the identification with the human drama is to love truth more than to love judgement – at just such times as when the urge to judge is strongest. For judgement usurps truth by making its own.
Whatever roles are played out – they are the roles of a split mind in denial – until of course we can let Spirit use the roles - (that are in our own mind and not ‘out there’) - to heal the split.
I know it doesn't seem that way – it seems we really are the one we think we are – suffering or sometimes winning – in the world ‘as we call it’.
And our wounds are the proof of our legitimacy as validating the ‘world as we call it’.
Which is a way to lessen, mitigate, or cover over, the guilt that arises from wanting and using judgement. How so? – by putting it out on the world – on those who enact the hidden facets of our mind for us - (in the world as we call it).
The voice for self protection is the call to fight to maintain this strategy because it has been the way the mind has attempted to resolve its own dilemna from a perspective of ignorance as to its own Nature and Source.
The voice for peace is the call to listen anew - from the awakened presence of being - which is usually weak amidst the self certainties that have grown from struggle.
"Come Home" is a call to an already peace – an anyway peace that doesn't sort out or resolve anything about the past in terms of the past – and so allows you to live out of a connected nowness that has no agenda of justice or revenge or proving anything to anyone. Being Home is a way of flowing in a current sense of a clear and clean now.
And to have release you simply give it. To give it is to have it.
It seems like you don't get it back when the world trips you (or me) up in disappointment, abandonment or betrayal.
But that is the feedback by which we waken to realize we are reenacting the old ideas and experiences again.
It is not for us to dictate the role that others must fulfil for us to keep our fantasies intact. To attempt to use others for private ends is to lose the blessing of their light.
Our Spirit can guide us so as to be protected from calamities. This is a way of getting our attention.
Once we are 'onboard' the Spirit can then guide us through calamities to show a deeper truth of safety.
And from there can it undo the very experience of calamity while it is seemingly going on.
Our part is to keep the channel open so that the Awakened Mind can use and work through our willingness and capacity to receive. This might be to struggle mightily to find even a little willingness amidst great temptation to feel justifiably judgemental. Or it might be so calm and clear and gentle, that it is obviously very Self.
Though we can feel we are prayerful when we ask to have something fearful or painful removed from our experience – there is often quite a payload of demand involved – seeking to dictate terms or make bargain on some level that is hidden amidst our seemingly innocent victimhood.
But if we see this – we can be guided as to then releasing it.
Truth is the restoration of a calm acceptance because it needs make no demand in order to be itself.
What if all you asked for is already given answer – and all you have to do is accept it - and live from the answer?
2009/09/29
If you wish to get out of hell
If you wish to get out of hell ... then reverse the procedure of what brings on such experience.
Instead of reacting from your determination that all is as you judge it to be ... Stop.
Do nothing to defend yourself from your heart's knowing - so that you can truly wonder, 'what is the truth here? - rather than enact the drama of the story as it seems at first to be.
Hold fast to this desire, though all manner of diversion and distraction attempts may seem to compel attention to collapse into ‘fight or flight’ scenarios.
Such practice remains potent even if holding for but a conscious instant before retreating to the familiar strategies of dealing with the 'devil you know'.
The humanly real thing here is in the willingness to challenge the fear mind-set at all! Not in some magical scenario of 'succeeding' in overcoming fear at symptom level - but in desiring honesty amidst disordered thought.
The capacity to look on - or abide through - the fearful - is grown in the practice of living from the heart; the exercise of grounded trust.
As long as one merely entertains spiritual ideas - one is in the realm of a hopefulness that one can somehow conquer fear without undergoing transformation. In other words - one is engaged in denial. This is as good as any place to start from. Its the only place to start from.
To have awakened to the starting place is a significant step from which the rest will follow.
The journey is not one of acting upon and changing externals - but of allowing one's own perspective to be replaced by the perspective of peace. You cant 'do' this as you think of doing - for it is the calming of the doing mind that allows awareness to shine clearly - your vision restored.
Your reality - really - is as much one with the ‘Kingdom of Heaven’ as anything ever will be - but how will this be recognised by one who sees only the past - and in terms of the past - in expectation of a future the same as the past?
It is true that many aspects of conflicted self are of such an intolerable nature - that they goad you to invest heavily in a direction that is felt to be serving 'the good' in atoning for 'the bad'. Such re-orientation of the human heart can enact a desire for good - but it is still 'the good' in terms of your own determinations and doesn't represent the Father's Will unalloyed - nor will such attempt bring your healing - until and unless it expresses a peace of being that is wellspringing from a wholly present love that does not have to justify the past to be - all that it is - or take its meaning from a past framework.
For the attempt to escape a believed situation, will inevitably reinforce the reality of the situation as you have judged it. The use of private judgement excludes and splits - and always leads to conflict, fear and guilt.
To truly ask for the truth amidst any 'hell' is to desire peace above all else. Because peace is the condition in which truth can register with you. This will likely seem to be humiliating because it is the relinquishing or the forgoing of your own judgement - upon and by which the self image is constructed. It may also seem to intensify fear temporarily in moments of resistance to change. But it does so within a larger sense of opening relationship. The thread of the intuition to recognise that you want and need change becomes the communication link that draws the heart present as your re-membering.
The experience of having peace replacing conflict is salvatory - and the resumption of the heart's loving appreciation is raw praise and gratitude. Life itself speaks you anew.
Such qualities of new life grow in us and express the nature of our shared being. Comes a time when to be out of communion in any sense - becomes a 'hell' - or painfully unattractive.
Yet it helps - and is natural - to have an alarm to feedback that the mind has over-ridden the heart communion, instead of serving the heart's direction. To learn to become numb to natural alarm is to teach that sleep is salvation. This will not work - though it will keep you in hell - albeit dimly recognised at times.
It may seem a slow path to practice, over and over again, the willingness to 'be wrong' or mistaken about yourself and everything - and make the journey of willingness to be still and let truth abide in you, instead of enforcing your own self-certainties as your experience.
If, from the willingness to release the world you made, you are realising that there really is no separated self in it, that is ever going to attain to enlightenment - or be added to with spiritual powers or capacities - then HOORAY!!!
Now you are more available to the willingness for enlightenment to be as it already is - and know it by its fruits.
Your innate Holy Spirit is teacher and Guide to you - whatever the agencies by which these occur.
Your Holy Spirit knows and loves the truth that is you and reveals and restores truth to you, by the desire that He reveals - step by step - to be yours.
As you live out from this desire you grow in the capacity to discern the mentality of illusion as illusion.
Which enables a greater love to be shared with all. For what is released from illusion is freed for truth.
Hell is unshared life. No matter the forms that may be presented of joining or separating.
There can be no unshared life in truth - for you cannot be unshared from your Father or Source. You can wish to take such a notion seriously enough to pursue your thought in private realm - and put it between you and the truth of you like a veil across your mind.
That we do not create our being, is self evident, except to the mind so engaged in trying to maintain such an wish that its imagination is more real to it than it’s own being.
To have held a map upside down and then diligently made wrong choices in ignorance thereafter has not effected change to truth itself - but only to your awareness of it. Because we neither make - nor can unmake - truth. The appreciation of truth - as it is - is remedied by regaining a correct orientation.
Only as you accept healing for your own split mind - can you become an agency for the healing of other minds, who yet make themselves afraid in ignorance, and see no light of love's inclusion within the reach of their capacity to receive and believe.
Thankyou for the sharing
Instead of reacting from your determination that all is as you judge it to be ... Stop.
Do nothing to defend yourself from your heart's knowing - so that you can truly wonder, 'what is the truth here? - rather than enact the drama of the story as it seems at first to be.
Hold fast to this desire, though all manner of diversion and distraction attempts may seem to compel attention to collapse into ‘fight or flight’ scenarios.
Such practice remains potent even if holding for but a conscious instant before retreating to the familiar strategies of dealing with the 'devil you know'.
The humanly real thing here is in the willingness to challenge the fear mind-set at all! Not in some magical scenario of 'succeeding' in overcoming fear at symptom level - but in desiring honesty amidst disordered thought.
The capacity to look on - or abide through - the fearful - is grown in the practice of living from the heart; the exercise of grounded trust.
As long as one merely entertains spiritual ideas - one is in the realm of a hopefulness that one can somehow conquer fear without undergoing transformation. In other words - one is engaged in denial. This is as good as any place to start from. Its the only place to start from.
To have awakened to the starting place is a significant step from which the rest will follow.
The journey is not one of acting upon and changing externals - but of allowing one's own perspective to be replaced by the perspective of peace. You cant 'do' this as you think of doing - for it is the calming of the doing mind that allows awareness to shine clearly - your vision restored.
Your reality - really - is as much one with the ‘Kingdom of Heaven’ as anything ever will be - but how will this be recognised by one who sees only the past - and in terms of the past - in expectation of a future the same as the past?
It is true that many aspects of conflicted self are of such an intolerable nature - that they goad you to invest heavily in a direction that is felt to be serving 'the good' in atoning for 'the bad'. Such re-orientation of the human heart can enact a desire for good - but it is still 'the good' in terms of your own determinations and doesn't represent the Father's Will unalloyed - nor will such attempt bring your healing - until and unless it expresses a peace of being that is wellspringing from a wholly present love that does not have to justify the past to be - all that it is - or take its meaning from a past framework.
For the attempt to escape a believed situation, will inevitably reinforce the reality of the situation as you have judged it. The use of private judgement excludes and splits - and always leads to conflict, fear and guilt.
To truly ask for the truth amidst any 'hell' is to desire peace above all else. Because peace is the condition in which truth can register with you. This will likely seem to be humiliating because it is the relinquishing or the forgoing of your own judgement - upon and by which the self image is constructed. It may also seem to intensify fear temporarily in moments of resistance to change. But it does so within a larger sense of opening relationship. The thread of the intuition to recognise that you want and need change becomes the communication link that draws the heart present as your re-membering.
The experience of having peace replacing conflict is salvatory - and the resumption of the heart's loving appreciation is raw praise and gratitude. Life itself speaks you anew.
Such qualities of new life grow in us and express the nature of our shared being. Comes a time when to be out of communion in any sense - becomes a 'hell' - or painfully unattractive.
Yet it helps - and is natural - to have an alarm to feedback that the mind has over-ridden the heart communion, instead of serving the heart's direction. To learn to become numb to natural alarm is to teach that sleep is salvation. This will not work - though it will keep you in hell - albeit dimly recognised at times.
It may seem a slow path to practice, over and over again, the willingness to 'be wrong' or mistaken about yourself and everything - and make the journey of willingness to be still and let truth abide in you, instead of enforcing your own self-certainties as your experience.
If, from the willingness to release the world you made, you are realising that there really is no separated self in it, that is ever going to attain to enlightenment - or be added to with spiritual powers or capacities - then HOORAY!!!
Now you are more available to the willingness for enlightenment to be as it already is - and know it by its fruits.
Your innate Holy Spirit is teacher and Guide to you - whatever the agencies by which these occur.
Your Holy Spirit knows and loves the truth that is you and reveals and restores truth to you, by the desire that He reveals - step by step - to be yours.
As you live out from this desire you grow in the capacity to discern the mentality of illusion as illusion.
Which enables a greater love to be shared with all. For what is released from illusion is freed for truth.
Hell is unshared life. No matter the forms that may be presented of joining or separating.
There can be no unshared life in truth - for you cannot be unshared from your Father or Source. You can wish to take such a notion seriously enough to pursue your thought in private realm - and put it between you and the truth of you like a veil across your mind.
That we do not create our being, is self evident, except to the mind so engaged in trying to maintain such an wish that its imagination is more real to it than it’s own being.
To have held a map upside down and then diligently made wrong choices in ignorance thereafter has not effected change to truth itself - but only to your awareness of it. Because we neither make - nor can unmake - truth. The appreciation of truth - as it is - is remedied by regaining a correct orientation.
Only as you accept healing for your own split mind - can you become an agency for the healing of other minds, who yet make themselves afraid in ignorance, and see no light of love's inclusion within the reach of their capacity to receive and believe.
Thankyou for the sharing
2009/07/02
The wants of the mind
The wants of the mind
is the ‘maker’ of externality
in a thought of self lack.
But nothing is external
to what Mind is.
The source of ‘what Mind is’, is within
yet beyond - all sense of self and object.
“Father” to all that is.
All that we Are.
In this acknowledgement lived,
nothing is lacking.
Rest you in peace,
Heart desire fulfilled at its root.
From such realisation
comes only expression
of unconflicted truth.
Within this current
all guidance flows
without opposition.
The wants of the mind
attended to,
is the forgetting
of the heart.
Within this forgetting,
opposition seems true.
Sometimes desirable.
Sometimes intolerable.
A song of a self,
in mad adventure
sung to your own ear
over and over.
Turn attention within,
and the song dissolves
from lack of value given.
With the eyes and ears of within.
See and hear truly,
and be glad.
is the ‘maker’ of externality
in a thought of self lack.
But nothing is external
to what Mind is.
The source of ‘what Mind is’, is within
yet beyond - all sense of self and object.
“Father” to all that is.
All that we Are.
In this acknowledgement lived,
nothing is lacking.
Rest you in peace,
Heart desire fulfilled at its root.
From such realisation
comes only expression
of unconflicted truth.
Within this current
all guidance flows
without opposition.
The wants of the mind
attended to,
is the forgetting
of the heart.
Within this forgetting,
opposition seems true.
Sometimes desirable.
Sometimes intolerable.
A song of a self,
in mad adventure
sung to your own ear
over and over.
Turn attention within,
and the song dissolves
from lack of value given.
With the eyes and ears of within.
See and hear truly,
and be glad.
2007/10/01
One response that came from writing Found in Translation part 1 was
“It's a bunch of Greeks having a fight. Then the winner bragging about it afterwards”.
This story is told as of a distant or unrelated event from which the teller is comfortably removed. It is also humourous and isnt fixated on negatives. It allows life to continue much as before and has put the story in a way that has restored normality to the one who shares it.
I havent got a problem with this except it isnt the story that speaks for me.
The particular song recounts an historic Greek-Arvenite conflict. But it is an example of a recurring re-enactment going on around the world, within societies and families and of course within our mind. Day by day.
I believe that the roots of conflict are in our mind and can only really be addressed there. Because these roots are largely accepted, and even socially proscribed, does not make them inactive or ineffective to my mind.
I choose not to be indifferent to presentations that arise in my mind if they affect my peace. I am also sensitive to the atmosphere of fear and distrust and depression that I see in my fellow man an woman. As if it is normal (just because everyone does it). It feels like so many walk around in a defended torpor. Sleepwalking, reactive, and easily manipulated.
I believe that what we choose to accept and endorse in our minds is part of, and shared into one mind - without exception. Not so much the contents but the intent. We are teaching ourselves all the time and we also teach others to the degree that they are already open to learning what is demonstrated.
I guess that I have stepped off of the commonly accepted map because I am not willing to simply accept the current prevailing mindset that is generally called 'The human condition' without re evaluation.
'The human condition' is remarkable similar to the story we are talking about excepting that the baddies, (in various guises), relentlessly come back again and again until all that we grasped at and called 'me' or 'world' is lost in death. We get opportunities to brag our victories en route. But pride makes the fool - and the fall, inevitable.
It has come to me that transcendence or freedom in spirit is not otherworldly - but involves seeing exactly the same experience with fresh new eyes - from a vantage point that is not 'a thinking' within unconsciously accepted definitions.
Look at us as dancers at the beginning - and look at them at the end of a lively or heartfelt circle dance session and our perception will be different for by joining we let in light. And it is in light that we see and recognise and feel connected with.
Some are seeking to use dance as a conflict resolution tool but of course the first (and in a way the only) hurdle is getting to the point of letting the other in by joining with them.
Is this not me or you? For who lives here but knows conflict and the pain of it?
I feel that joining with each other can be a conflict preventative, because by the moments of seeing each other lovely in beauty we weaken the judgemental mind that focuses on differences and inevitably generates and thrives and conflict. That is its thing - even though it thinks it can contain and control or fix the situation in its terms.
Ultimately I sense that all conflict is shadow boxing. I put my shadow on you and you put your shadow on me. And the stage is all set to believe that we are in fact 'fighting' another! But each is privately within their own determinations and cannot actually see the other.
“Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do”
Therefore I get an 'wake up call' if I start seeing another in a lack of light, because it signifies that I am actually slipped into my own history scripts of conflict and NOW I can come clean with myself and own it and let the other be free of the role that was in MY mind but which I laid on them. This is true forgiveness. It is the ultimate gift to oneself.
It is necessary for me is to do what I do with a whole heart. And in this incident with this song I took what could have been a trivial issue - except I felt a conflicted sense of a song whose musical and dancing quality I enjoy.
This particular song was coming up in me as a feeling tone - which I wanted to learn to sing. In opening to its original cultural meanings it seemed to become lost to an 'enemy' (its translated meaning) - but has in fact been regained at a deeper level of meaning for me than it had when I seemed to nearly lose it. The whole process was simply because I asked within and trusted what I heard and asked some more and found Meaning.
If I hadnt I might have tried opening to the song as simply an expression of the Greek spirit and not cared about what it was about. Or I may have felt it unclean and dropped it. But a momentary stab of pain was not ignored - it was the basis for prayer. Nothing in the world was changed by the answer - excepting the mind with which I behold has recognised that the world is a script that can be read differently.
Is this a mind that has lost it? Or a mind that has let itself be found?
I cannot tell you what the Truth Is - but I can testify that my own conflicted fears are very capable of presented a dark and distorted rendition that had little if any actual connection with Reality.
In Peace
Brian
“It's a bunch of Greeks having a fight. Then the winner bragging about it afterwards”.
This story is told as of a distant or unrelated event from which the teller is comfortably removed. It is also humourous and isnt fixated on negatives. It allows life to continue much as before and has put the story in a way that has restored normality to the one who shares it.
I havent got a problem with this except it isnt the story that speaks for me.
The particular song recounts an historic Greek-Arvenite conflict. But it is an example of a recurring re-enactment going on around the world, within societies and families and of course within our mind. Day by day.
I believe that the roots of conflict are in our mind and can only really be addressed there. Because these roots are largely accepted, and even socially proscribed, does not make them inactive or ineffective to my mind.
I choose not to be indifferent to presentations that arise in my mind if they affect my peace. I am also sensitive to the atmosphere of fear and distrust and depression that I see in my fellow man an woman. As if it is normal (just because everyone does it). It feels like so many walk around in a defended torpor. Sleepwalking, reactive, and easily manipulated.
I believe that what we choose to accept and endorse in our minds is part of, and shared into one mind - without exception. Not so much the contents but the intent. We are teaching ourselves all the time and we also teach others to the degree that they are already open to learning what is demonstrated.
I guess that I have stepped off of the commonly accepted map because I am not willing to simply accept the current prevailing mindset that is generally called 'The human condition' without re evaluation.
'The human condition' is remarkable similar to the story we are talking about excepting that the baddies, (in various guises), relentlessly come back again and again until all that we grasped at and called 'me' or 'world' is lost in death. We get opportunities to brag our victories en route. But pride makes the fool - and the fall, inevitable.
It has come to me that transcendence or freedom in spirit is not otherworldly - but involves seeing exactly the same experience with fresh new eyes - from a vantage point that is not 'a thinking' within unconsciously accepted definitions.
Look at us as dancers at the beginning - and look at them at the end of a lively or heartfelt circle dance session and our perception will be different for by joining we let in light. And it is in light that we see and recognise and feel connected with.
Some are seeking to use dance as a conflict resolution tool but of course the first (and in a way the only) hurdle is getting to the point of letting the other in by joining with them.
Is this not me or you? For who lives here but knows conflict and the pain of it?
I feel that joining with each other can be a conflict preventative, because by the moments of seeing each other lovely in beauty we weaken the judgemental mind that focuses on differences and inevitably generates and thrives and conflict. That is its thing - even though it thinks it can contain and control or fix the situation in its terms.
Ultimately I sense that all conflict is shadow boxing. I put my shadow on you and you put your shadow on me. And the stage is all set to believe that we are in fact 'fighting' another! But each is privately within their own determinations and cannot actually see the other.
“Forgive them Father, for they know not what they do”
Therefore I get an 'wake up call' if I start seeing another in a lack of light, because it signifies that I am actually slipped into my own history scripts of conflict and NOW I can come clean with myself and own it and let the other be free of the role that was in MY mind but which I laid on them. This is true forgiveness. It is the ultimate gift to oneself.
It is necessary for me is to do what I do with a whole heart. And in this incident with this song I took what could have been a trivial issue - except I felt a conflicted sense of a song whose musical and dancing quality I enjoy.
This particular song was coming up in me as a feeling tone - which I wanted to learn to sing. In opening to its original cultural meanings it seemed to become lost to an 'enemy' (its translated meaning) - but has in fact been regained at a deeper level of meaning for me than it had when I seemed to nearly lose it. The whole process was simply because I asked within and trusted what I heard and asked some more and found Meaning.
If I hadnt I might have tried opening to the song as simply an expression of the Greek spirit and not cared about what it was about. Or I may have felt it unclean and dropped it. But a momentary stab of pain was not ignored - it was the basis for prayer. Nothing in the world was changed by the answer - excepting the mind with which I behold has recognised that the world is a script that can be read differently.
Is this a mind that has lost it? Or a mind that has let itself be found?
I cannot tell you what the Truth Is - but I can testify that my own conflicted fears are very capable of presented a dark and distorted rendition that had little if any actual connection with Reality.
In Peace
Brian
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