A seeming power of the Course is in revealing radically powerful insights - and yet if we are left only with a sense of how to, or an enthusiasm that is merely wishful, then we are not abiding in and being the insight but tying to fit it into 'old bottles'.
To become undone of a self-definition allows Life to move Intimately as a wholeness of being. But to be busy living out-from self-definition is to have objectified or disconnected a mind-imagination from Love's integration. All the feedback of our experience then shows this is so and the alert of such dissonance, calls for a pause in which to calm the mind by releasing attention and identification from our thoughts, and allowing and embracing the moment wholly as it is.
We don't know what it is. That is the freedom we have forgotten. For our not-knowing is letting God.
Grabbing the meanings on the page ignores the space between the words. Slowly reading in a living relationship with the author and source essence, allows the meanings that words can only point to in YOU. This Peace and Authority Is You - but while you habitually identify with your thoughts - they usurp your awareness of Love's Presence.
Let revealed truth abide as your Holy Spirit. Your Holy Spirit is the Voice and Guide in which you are reintegrated to True Being, and from a basis of true authority and peace. The coercive mind is always a sign of fear in hiding. This will not serve the purpose that is alive in your heart now. But seeing it and leaving your mind open (to your Holy Spirit), will.
In Peace
Brian
Showing posts with label A Course in Miracles. Show all posts
Showing posts with label A Course in Miracles. Show all posts
2012/04/24
2011/12/21
Waking up
The active focus of our awareness is beneath - or prior to - the seeming actions and distractions that constitute our experience of being a person in a world.
It is like being focused on a prism thought, by which a split mind plays out a power of choosing between. Any power it seems to have being given to it by your attention and intention - for such is how we accord value and 'choose' is it not?
We can not ever truly or finally choose or accept a choice that isn't there to choose and Rest Complete in fulfilment, and yet while we dally with the promises of choosing - as if there was something in a specialness of self creation that we actually want - then we refuse to let go the patterns of self by which we voluntarily suffer our own attack on our Peace.
To open, even for an instant at a time, to a true perspective upon the nature of our unforgiveness or un-release, is to open a space in which to see not from within a prismed split sense, but clearly and directly, in wholeness.
Such direct experience is not happening TO a you - but is expressing an entirely redeeming restatement of you and your world. Redeeming, because it locates and knows all that it is - within Wholeness, of One Mind, of One Will, as One Body. This may not seem so, because any interpretations of direct experience - made after the fact - will tend to reinstate the framework of the thinking judging defining 'self'. To be able to discern within direct experience will come with a capacity to abide as it.
But as such Light of direct Awareness, That Is recognizably awakening and transforming you, grows your conscious awareness - it is realized to Be your conscious awareness. To be the Presence and the Gift of You.
The substitutions of thinking will fade, fall away or dissatisfy, and with them, the 'self' that seemed once to have completely engaged your attention. Yet You are presently in Expression as the sharing of the gift of the awareness of love - because there is nothing else. And yet such an acceptance of peace of being does not make fanfare in or make special the mind through which the world is yet experienced. But it does yield its experience to a guiltlessness, that is pictured out as action unwithheld, presence unwithdrawn, truth allowed plainly to speak instead of covered over or kept secret.
Taking off the pressure on the brakes, seems like losing control. Taking off the pressure on the accelerator, seems like losing excitement. Losing control seems like losing something that you actually believed you had. But never for a moment have we had anything but an illusion of control via the holding to our Mind's Eye of a wish to be what we are not.
To identify with thought, invites dissonant experience of separate meanings, that can seem to conflict and influence each other in an endless dance of no consequence. But to release identification with thought is to forgive the separating wish, and to be danced from thought based meanings into one Light.
Abide in Me, as I abide in Thee.
And allow the Life,
Already Given,
To Share
What Already Is.
Interjections of old habits
are evidence of
the interjections of old habits.
Make nothing of them,
and even these will be used
as witnesses to Wholeness.
Watch what you place on the altar of your desire.
Pray for the uncovering of the true desire of your heart.
Your willingness and your free attention is miracle ready
Because love is no longer being actively excluded.
Let no thought of your own become the seed of action,
and Thoughts of One shall reveal the whole to you,
as your gifts are remembered and gratefully received.
Do not impose teachings amidst your loving.
A starter motor is not to be kept running.
A Universal Language needs no translation.
When there is no one outside - do not run to the door to tell them so!
In Peace
Brian
It is like being focused on a prism thought, by which a split mind plays out a power of choosing between. Any power it seems to have being given to it by your attention and intention - for such is how we accord value and 'choose' is it not?
We can not ever truly or finally choose or accept a choice that isn't there to choose and Rest Complete in fulfilment, and yet while we dally with the promises of choosing - as if there was something in a specialness of self creation that we actually want - then we refuse to let go the patterns of self by which we voluntarily suffer our own attack on our Peace.
To open, even for an instant at a time, to a true perspective upon the nature of our unforgiveness or un-release, is to open a space in which to see not from within a prismed split sense, but clearly and directly, in wholeness.
Such direct experience is not happening TO a you - but is expressing an entirely redeeming restatement of you and your world. Redeeming, because it locates and knows all that it is - within Wholeness, of One Mind, of One Will, as One Body. This may not seem so, because any interpretations of direct experience - made after the fact - will tend to reinstate the framework of the thinking judging defining 'self'. To be able to discern within direct experience will come with a capacity to abide as it.
But as such Light of direct Awareness, That Is recognizably awakening and transforming you, grows your conscious awareness - it is realized to Be your conscious awareness. To be the Presence and the Gift of You.
The substitutions of thinking will fade, fall away or dissatisfy, and with them, the 'self' that seemed once to have completely engaged your attention. Yet You are presently in Expression as the sharing of the gift of the awareness of love - because there is nothing else. And yet such an acceptance of peace of being does not make fanfare in or make special the mind through which the world is yet experienced. But it does yield its experience to a guiltlessness, that is pictured out as action unwithheld, presence unwithdrawn, truth allowed plainly to speak instead of covered over or kept secret.
Taking off the pressure on the brakes, seems like losing control. Taking off the pressure on the accelerator, seems like losing excitement. Losing control seems like losing something that you actually believed you had. But never for a moment have we had anything but an illusion of control via the holding to our Mind's Eye of a wish to be what we are not.
To identify with thought, invites dissonant experience of separate meanings, that can seem to conflict and influence each other in an endless dance of no consequence. But to release identification with thought is to forgive the separating wish, and to be danced from thought based meanings into one Light.
Abide in Me, as I abide in Thee.
And allow the Life,
Already Given,
To Share
What Already Is.
Interjections of old habits
are evidence of
the interjections of old habits.
Make nothing of them,
and even these will be used
as witnesses to Wholeness.
Watch what you place on the altar of your desire.
Pray for the uncovering of the true desire of your heart.
Your willingness and your free attention is miracle ready
Because love is no longer being actively excluded.
Let no thought of your own become the seed of action,
and Thoughts of One shall reveal the whole to you,
as your gifts are remembered and gratefully received.
Do not impose teachings amidst your loving.
A starter motor is not to be kept running.
A Universal Language needs no translation.
When there is no one outside - do not run to the door to tell them so!
In Peace
Brian
2011/09/25
Recognize your brother and world restored to love
Love's Expression is Unified Will that loves to know itself truly One.
This is Alive as the Universal Gift of the Movement of Being.
The mind or purpose of imagination is upheld only by the wish it prevail.
It must agree to hide in darkness to project meanings that seem real.
Welcome the light and release meaningless meanings.
Recognize your brother and world restored to love.
For love's exclusion was only ever enacted by a will to judge yourself.
Be not afraid of what judgement makes,
but let your Living Purpose be to look past it.
I cannot define the Living God in image or thought,
Nor you, dear One.
Howbeit I am deceived,
let me rest the mind its imaginings,
and turn to you in sure faith,
The Spirit of Love is One,
and Wills only to reveal itself.
The seeming will is to be questioned.
Let it not be hidden 'in your brother'
as a thought of love's freedom to hide and seek.
Forgive him utterly for your mind's trespass.
By letting his truth awaken your own.
brian in a moment
2011/09/11
The truth is in the pudding
The desire to know the truth through the thinking mind is to look to the only place where truth is obscured.
Because you Already know the truth, you can open to the truth through reading or hearing.
"To those who hath, more shall be given".
But to those who have not yet accepted their own knowing, in the wholeness of their being - even that which they believe they hath shall be taken away.
Is love coercive?
No.
Is love revealing Itself in the way and the manner of its communications?
Yes.
The truth is in the pudding.
The definitions of thinking are fixing devices that self-validated the mind of the user.
But the use of such a mind by our Holy Spirit, allows an unfixing or loosening of the blocks to the flowing and extension of a trust in our being of life.
In such trust extending - you already feel and are the love that knows and is - and in the moment all things are added you - because they are already one with you - who abide at rest in oneness through your Holy Spirit.
The tension of the attempt to understand is exactly the tension of the attempt to maintain the sense of self apart - and then proceed from such a basis - as if to add to this 'self' and make it real or valid or successful or acceptable. To notice the tension is already to smile in release!
A willingness and desire for understanding, surrenders its 'knowing' and stands under that which Knows. Thus releasing the conditions that filter all outcomes on your own terms - and accepting the silent knowing of your own heart. This may also have association with thought and image - but these will but now reflect what is already moving, already true and already alive - as you. And will be freeing of the burden and tyranny of guilt.
The mind of command and control, of grasping and defining, of holding a will your own that judges and rejects, divides and rules - is an insidious habit, that creeps in un noticed and steals Heaven from your heart without you even noticing you are usurped.
How can this be?
Because what you actively want - becomes the foundation of your mind and experience - and when you believe or assert or accept that you WANT to see something YOUR way - then you are listening to that voice believing it is still part of the Living Universe.
Yet as you grow your capacity to trust-through the sense of self-defined limits and open to the joy and beauty and peace of being - you will also grow in the capacity to discern directly - and not conceal, disguise or defend against - the dissonance that is always felt in the lack of wholeness of a coercive will. It will seem to condemn you - but that is looking at guilt and fear - with guilt and fear. Forgiveness resists not evil - but looks directly upon its presentation in order to release the fixation of guilt. To own and to immediately repent of evil thoughts that can not really be hidden, overcome or escaped, but CAN be released upwards - is to let them pass away unwanted and in passing, reveal the Light that is your truth, your whole truth - and nothing but the truth.
In gratitude, in the song and harmony of the light of your being - do what you will - because your will is at rest in one will. In gratitude and innocence of being is this your natural inheritance.
Yet let one stab of interference seem to cause you to put your peace aside while you deal with 'the intruder' - and you are 'back in the mode of managing reality all by yourself' - and the impulse of wilful self authority - will not be laughed away and forgotten before it is even active - but will rule with your worshipful obeisance.
And so it is, that a story is shared. There is no truth in any of it, but through the willingness to share. All that knows truth is itself True - and no life could ever leave the Life that it is.
Yet in the world, is the play of the mind in many, that seems to see and seek our love as if outside us - in the world of ever changing appearances. Is this not a most amazing capacity of experience? But is it our heart's desire to keep it so?
Giving all things to God is but the releasing to God of all that was playfully presumed our own - and thus 'taken away' only to then be taken seriously in error.
So in desire for truth and freedom we say, "Take this cup away from me - as it be Your will and not mine".
It is not just the aspects of mind of which we are ashamed or feel threatened in, that we release - but the mind that fixes pleasure and joy in the world - for the world that we make, stands in place of the world that God's Holy Spirit replaces.
"Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal".
The simplest way to explain how it could be - in practical human words - that the mind of man gives way to the Mind of God; is to desist from your own thinking. Not by act of will - but in response to the Call or Movement of your own being - that rises in your awareness when you pause and consider in willingness to receive and be inspired in your heart and mind as one.
In Peace
Brian
2010/09/04
Rules and Law, Grace and favour
2010-09-04 Rules and Law, Grace and favour
The Cause and Event of God is all there Is - beyond all good and evil - yet the rules of the mind of judgement apprehend not and see instead a world of separated things and people.
The mind that is full of its own will - or judgements asserted and defended - does not see, does not hear - and 'lives' out it's story as if it were real.
It is never the act at the level of form that matters - but the desire or movement of the heart. The prayer of the heart moves in us constantly - but if we do not be still of false desires, then we remain unaware of our own true desire.
Grace may open as it Will - but it is never coercion - you must in your heart accept. In accepting the Will of love - you must accept the way of laying down your will. For your will is the refusal of love in favour of a special partial love - that God knows not.
The true miracle is the love that inspires all miracles.
Because we think we already know what love is - we justify ourselves in thought.
But this is the way of forgetting.
The world and the self that seems within it - are the experience arising from the rules that we have in ignorance accepted as true - and believed to be protective of us. Miracle experience is witness to that the world is not Lord over you. But it is not the self-role within the dream that has dominion. Whether you recall it or not - you, as you may think yourself to be - entirely surrendered to and accepted the Will of God - if for but an instant.
There are no rules to love - how could there be? Love's law is our very being.
That is why - despite our preoccupations with what we think we are and what we think we are attaining or failing to attain - love rises up and witnesses to the law of being - which cannot be altogether covered over or replaced by the laws of judgement - or believing and thinking.
Yet our insistence in our 'self' and world dictates the laws by which we will accept healing - even though they have no reality apart from a wish the self they support be true.
Our Holy Spirit is that Awareness which is ever present throughout the entire process of identifying with and by judgement - and knows the step by step way of bringing the mind in confusion of many, back into the acceptance of the one light of truth. Therefore it seems to work in the world with us in our dream as if we are in the situation as we believe - because that is where it can regain our attention. But always to serve the learnings that wean us from the will and its judgements in a way that awakens and yet does not feed or reinforce the guilt and terror that set the mind in confusion.
Rules are imposed upon and are used to control. They are illegitimate because they are not expressing true authority - but are the result of struggle: the blind leading the blind. In this mode "the way things work" is a phrase that means tyranny, fear and death.
Law is discerned in the oneness or union of heart and mind. It can be wholly accepted in the heart as true for it is not made by man. In this mode "the way things work" is a phrase that acknowledges eternal peace. For the perspective of oneness is not engaged in struggle - but sees even this, as it is.
Oh I know! - the egoic thinking can take ANYTHING and make a guilt trip out of it. Maybe when we see it in the midst of our so called spirituality - we'll realize that our hiding place doesn't work - and that we do not want to hide.
The mind is always active and never stops. Because we miscreated - or believed fantasy was really true - we have come to fear our thoughts and the Power that Mind Is.
My sense is to let love undo the thoughts by which I hurt myself - and trust that the nature of Mind expresses itself without distortion.
In this way I am not concerned to become or demonstrate anything for myself - for that is the thought by which madness seems real. Rather I grow willingness to accept the relationship that holds all things sane and in which all things - in their season - bring fruit in a shared Light.
2010/07/26
To one who warned me of the traps of A Course in Miracles
A Course in Miracles seems to be a large book that can be read and perhaps - though not easily - understood. It was not designed to be intellectually understandable or accessible for it addresses the reader at a level behind or beyond such defences and strategies of self will. Yet the attempt to understand new wine in 'old bottles' persists, and yields frustration.
---
Everything in this world can be used against the sharing of love and thus seem to become a witness to a force or will that is false or evil - but in whose mind is this purpose active?
I celebrate your breaking free of an unquestioning following of the Course in Miracles - for the truth is not 'out there' - excepting that its welcome - (Truth's welcome) - is in our heart.
The Course is not originally intended to be used to set ourselves impossible goals - but to awaken the reader to that they are already doing so - and suffering the conflict and frustration of a split mind. So as to let it go.
The you that you think was misled and needs to protect itself from such danger is not you - but it is a sense of yourself that you have grown from image, thought and judgements. I do not attack this sense of yourself but merely invite you to look at it with me.
In the moments of sanity - you feel the peace and integrity of your being. In the times of self conflictedness you are tempted to seek for certainty amidst confusion - such as to put outside your mind the cause of what is troubling you. Thus conflict is shifted outside and a sense of yourself more oderly and in attempt to unify - is made within. But you will never be whole while it is chosen as your home.
It may well be that the A Course in Miracles book is no longer relevant as a tool or a path for you - but whatever path you do accept as a way of releasing the demand that the world serve your private need above all else - will be one in which you do not use IT to validate or prove you to yourself.
The release of this attempt allows God.
In God is a direct relationship - as Holy Spirit and as the Son or Creation revealed - not to thoughtful understanding but to your heart's knowing in silence.
This relationship is eternal - but in time is a step by step rewakening.
It is not the dream role that awakens.
It is you - the dreamer who awakens - in the light of a pure awareness that is always present and from which you never can separate except in identifying with images and thoughts - in other words - imaginatively.
This email is a gift to yourself - both the one you sent - and my reply.
The one you sent is an expression of a teaching learning that you are in process of awakening through.
To see our 'self' in action is to shift to the perspective that isn't identified with the role we thought was our self.
This is a 'miracle' in that it doesn't operate within the laws that apply within the dream that we make for ourselves and others of how everything is and how it should be. It suddenly is free of these and opens to a different basis from which to live. Now it will be that whenever you live from this basis, your presence will in essence be a blessing, but it is not at all from any conscious sense of the world needing to be fixed. It is only our mind that has believed in loss of Light and Love and Peace. But this mind is simply wrong - not wrong as in punishable - but mistaken, misguided and missing the point.
The traps are never in the teaching - even if there were false teachings whose intent was to ensnare - the trap would still lie in the mind of the one who is not paying attention - and allows himself or herself to be persuaded of the reality of a form based meaning rather than the meaning of love.
Listen to your heart.
Listen to make sure it is your heart and not the chatter and confusion of your thought.
No one can take this away from you.
Nothing can take this away from you.
But in listening to and acting upon the confusion of our unevaluated thought - we experience ourselves as hurt, limitation and loss, from which arises a reaction of self protection.
The evaluation of our thought is the Holy Spirit - because of ourselves we cannot tell the true from the false - and often get them the wrong way round.
The Holy Spirit can be called anything or nothing - but in emptying yourself of the clutter and falsity of a mind involved only with itself, you will feel or know the stirring of a life that you did not make. It may seem to be thought or feeling or coincidence of event or meaning with persons or world - but it speaks to you and through you.
You are quite right to abandon a fruitless exercise - but the frustration is not the conclusion of the lesson - nor is placing responsibility onto A Course in Miracles a true path to resolving the sense of guilt you feel.
If you want to have opposition, then your will is done.
Because it isn't of God, you will have to do the work to maintain its reality for you - which must replace the awareness of God in your mind while you actively pursue your desire.
I tell you that this is not your true desire.
God must be your true desire.
For God is Truth.
Not excluding the truth of you.
(Postscipt 1)
"Let go and let God"
"Let go and let God Be you"
Yes - and as God is all that is truly be-ing you in this moment it is an allowing of what already Is - to Be (as it Is).
The 'let go' bit is the automatic result of truly seeing the mechanism of control for what it is.
The 'work' or hard part humanly is the willingness to look upon the ego rather than act according to its dictate.
This is like watching thoughts go past rather than becoming involved and distracted by them. Innocent perception can look on what would otherwise trigger fear and guilt and see or discern truth - which does not give rise to guilt or fear, (though our subsequent thinking about it may indeed trigger a blind spot and engage attention in distraction again.
The trap is always that of making an identity for oneself - whether out of spiritual or profane components.
When we experience the results of our false identity, we blame it on (insert scapegoat here).
The conviction that some thing or one or teaching is Truth is very likely if not always going to give rise to idolotry and a false sense of self because our images, symbols and concepts are at best reflections of truth - or Holy Spirit communication towards opening our mind to truth.
(Postscript 2) No ego - no problem?
Yes - when the problem seems to define or limit You - then the self-centric perspective is active.
When willingness re-aligns to truth, then wholeness replaces conflicting desires and the movement of being is expressed as actions or non actions - that bear or behold witness to wholeness.
The ego is quieted by truth as irrelevant. It doesn't matter whose ego it seems to be - if our peace is obscured then we are in a position to become willing to quiet the ego by our disregard. But the way of that is by giving our whole regard to the Living - or that which is revealed to our willingness for truth that we do not make, can not control, and are totally dependent on.
In light of such a joy - we can discern limitation that before we were blind to but now are becoming responsible for.
We are responsible for what we think - or accept in our minds. But we are never to blame.
To accept the idea of blame is to starve ourselves of love.
(Postscript 3) To an expression of gratitude for this writing.
Yes. We meet in shared purpose and find ourselves in communication.
The ego perspective has a different purpose and 'finds' itself in forms that look like communication and may either seem devoutly following of - or oppose a teaching path of truth.
I felt to tell her she is right - for she cannot be wrong in her being - and I join with her in truth. In this context I offer correction for the error in what she is accepting in her own mind - not at the level of arguing 'teachings' and their 'meanings' - but in addressing to loss of peace and the restoration of sanity.
Because I was not identified with asserting or protecting the truth of A Course in Miracles, I do not need to react as if truth were attacked. How can Truth be attacked? It cannot - but colluding with the false will obscure the truth in our mind.
Though her mail is fearful in blaming teachings as false, there is much in it that is almost being shared with Holy Spirit that needs to come into the light to be undone or made clear. Sometimes we don't know how to ask - or are in a culture where speaking different from the accepted 'truths' is fearfully prohibited. So we only let it out in anger when we leave and slam the door - as a parting shot of self justification amidst a painful or emotional process of change.
This is just such an occasion where a human kindness may serve a greater good than to argue teachings.
I feel that our growing understanding of and awakening to the truth of what life is - and what we are - will from time to time occasion fundamental shifts in our awareness of mind that initiate a desire or need to shut down and back off.
If this becomes active, then panic and 'self survival' trample on and use - anyone and anything to maintain the separate self sense - and this does generate a sense of guilt - or love unworthiness - which is denied or hidden and at least partially offloaded onto God and Brother in such a way that isolates the heart in a private mind and a Lightless world of separation, conflict and density.
All that is needed is calm in which the truth can be felt.
For Truth is not the picture we make in fear - and when we let that realisation in - even as instants or steps of a 'little willingness' - we are awakened at least to a living path in which we can take our next step as a living step in which we grow in trust and our capacity of willingness and love.
It would be unwise to underestimate the capacity of the mind to deceive itself while the seed desire for a special self remains hidden.
My fellow man and woman are often helping me to become aware of - and to own - my hidden desire to be special. It is only when I see it as it is that I can also see that I do not want it. When I see it as the lens of the desire itself would have me see - I believe I do want it.
A Course in Miracles can be made a special relationship; a way to avoid a real relationship that shares from a prior wholeness.
But all such attempts to get for oneself are inherently self defeating - and break down. That's where we either seek and find another candidate for a special relationship (looking outside our self) - or open to truth because it is true.
I am grateful with you.
in Love's blessing
Brian
---
Everything in this world can be used against the sharing of love and thus seem to become a witness to a force or will that is false or evil - but in whose mind is this purpose active?
I celebrate your breaking free of an unquestioning following of the Course in Miracles - for the truth is not 'out there' - excepting that its welcome - (Truth's welcome) - is in our heart.
The Course is not originally intended to be used to set ourselves impossible goals - but to awaken the reader to that they are already doing so - and suffering the conflict and frustration of a split mind. So as to let it go.
The you that you think was misled and needs to protect itself from such danger is not you - but it is a sense of yourself that you have grown from image, thought and judgements. I do not attack this sense of yourself but merely invite you to look at it with me.
In the moments of sanity - you feel the peace and integrity of your being. In the times of self conflictedness you are tempted to seek for certainty amidst confusion - such as to put outside your mind the cause of what is troubling you. Thus conflict is shifted outside and a sense of yourself more oderly and in attempt to unify - is made within. But you will never be whole while it is chosen as your home.
It may well be that the A Course in Miracles book is no longer relevant as a tool or a path for you - but whatever path you do accept as a way of releasing the demand that the world serve your private need above all else - will be one in which you do not use IT to validate or prove you to yourself.
The release of this attempt allows God.
In God is a direct relationship - as Holy Spirit and as the Son or Creation revealed - not to thoughtful understanding but to your heart's knowing in silence.
This relationship is eternal - but in time is a step by step rewakening.
It is not the dream role that awakens.
It is you - the dreamer who awakens - in the light of a pure awareness that is always present and from which you never can separate except in identifying with images and thoughts - in other words - imaginatively.
This email is a gift to yourself - both the one you sent - and my reply.
The one you sent is an expression of a teaching learning that you are in process of awakening through.
To see our 'self' in action is to shift to the perspective that isn't identified with the role we thought was our self.
This is a 'miracle' in that it doesn't operate within the laws that apply within the dream that we make for ourselves and others of how everything is and how it should be. It suddenly is free of these and opens to a different basis from which to live. Now it will be that whenever you live from this basis, your presence will in essence be a blessing, but it is not at all from any conscious sense of the world needing to be fixed. It is only our mind that has believed in loss of Light and Love and Peace. But this mind is simply wrong - not wrong as in punishable - but mistaken, misguided and missing the point.
The traps are never in the teaching - even if there were false teachings whose intent was to ensnare - the trap would still lie in the mind of the one who is not paying attention - and allows himself or herself to be persuaded of the reality of a form based meaning rather than the meaning of love.
Listen to your heart.
Listen to make sure it is your heart and not the chatter and confusion of your thought.
No one can take this away from you.
Nothing can take this away from you.
But in listening to and acting upon the confusion of our unevaluated thought - we experience ourselves as hurt, limitation and loss, from which arises a reaction of self protection.
The evaluation of our thought is the Holy Spirit - because of ourselves we cannot tell the true from the false - and often get them the wrong way round.
The Holy Spirit can be called anything or nothing - but in emptying yourself of the clutter and falsity of a mind involved only with itself, you will feel or know the stirring of a life that you did not make. It may seem to be thought or feeling or coincidence of event or meaning with persons or world - but it speaks to you and through you.
You are quite right to abandon a fruitless exercise - but the frustration is not the conclusion of the lesson - nor is placing responsibility onto A Course in Miracles a true path to resolving the sense of guilt you feel.
If you want to have opposition, then your will is done.
Because it isn't of God, you will have to do the work to maintain its reality for you - which must replace the awareness of God in your mind while you actively pursue your desire.
I tell you that this is not your true desire.
God must be your true desire.
For God is Truth.
Not excluding the truth of you.
(Postscipt 1)
"Let go and let God"
"Let go and let God Be you"
Yes - and as God is all that is truly be-ing you in this moment it is an allowing of what already Is - to Be (as it Is).
The 'let go' bit is the automatic result of truly seeing the mechanism of control for what it is.
The 'work' or hard part humanly is the willingness to look upon the ego rather than act according to its dictate.
This is like watching thoughts go past rather than becoming involved and distracted by them. Innocent perception can look on what would otherwise trigger fear and guilt and see or discern truth - which does not give rise to guilt or fear, (though our subsequent thinking about it may indeed trigger a blind spot and engage attention in distraction again.
The trap is always that of making an identity for oneself - whether out of spiritual or profane components.
When we experience the results of our false identity, we blame it on (insert scapegoat here).
The conviction that some thing or one or teaching is Truth is very likely if not always going to give rise to idolotry and a false sense of self because our images, symbols and concepts are at best reflections of truth - or Holy Spirit communication towards opening our mind to truth.
(Postscript 2) No ego - no problem?
Yes - when the problem seems to define or limit You - then the self-centric perspective is active.
When willingness re-aligns to truth, then wholeness replaces conflicting desires and the movement of being is expressed as actions or non actions - that bear or behold witness to wholeness.
The ego is quieted by truth as irrelevant. It doesn't matter whose ego it seems to be - if our peace is obscured then we are in a position to become willing to quiet the ego by our disregard. But the way of that is by giving our whole regard to the Living - or that which is revealed to our willingness for truth that we do not make, can not control, and are totally dependent on.
In light of such a joy - we can discern limitation that before we were blind to but now are becoming responsible for.
We are responsible for what we think - or accept in our minds. But we are never to blame.
To accept the idea of blame is to starve ourselves of love.
(Postscript 3) To an expression of gratitude for this writing.
Yes. We meet in shared purpose and find ourselves in communication.
The ego perspective has a different purpose and 'finds' itself in forms that look like communication and may either seem devoutly following of - or oppose a teaching path of truth.
I felt to tell her she is right - for she cannot be wrong in her being - and I join with her in truth. In this context I offer correction for the error in what she is accepting in her own mind - not at the level of arguing 'teachings' and their 'meanings' - but in addressing to loss of peace and the restoration of sanity.
Because I was not identified with asserting or protecting the truth of A Course in Miracles, I do not need to react as if truth were attacked. How can Truth be attacked? It cannot - but colluding with the false will obscure the truth in our mind.
Though her mail is fearful in blaming teachings as false, there is much in it that is almost being shared with Holy Spirit that needs to come into the light to be undone or made clear. Sometimes we don't know how to ask - or are in a culture where speaking different from the accepted 'truths' is fearfully prohibited. So we only let it out in anger when we leave and slam the door - as a parting shot of self justification amidst a painful or emotional process of change.
This is just such an occasion where a human kindness may serve a greater good than to argue teachings.
I feel that our growing understanding of and awakening to the truth of what life is - and what we are - will from time to time occasion fundamental shifts in our awareness of mind that initiate a desire or need to shut down and back off.
If this becomes active, then panic and 'self survival' trample on and use - anyone and anything to maintain the separate self sense - and this does generate a sense of guilt - or love unworthiness - which is denied or hidden and at least partially offloaded onto God and Brother in such a way that isolates the heart in a private mind and a Lightless world of separation, conflict and density.
All that is needed is calm in which the truth can be felt.
For Truth is not the picture we make in fear - and when we let that realisation in - even as instants or steps of a 'little willingness' - we are awakened at least to a living path in which we can take our next step as a living step in which we grow in trust and our capacity of willingness and love.
It would be unwise to underestimate the capacity of the mind to deceive itself while the seed desire for a special self remains hidden.
My fellow man and woman are often helping me to become aware of - and to own - my hidden desire to be special. It is only when I see it as it is that I can also see that I do not want it. When I see it as the lens of the desire itself would have me see - I believe I do want it.
A Course in Miracles can be made a special relationship; a way to avoid a real relationship that shares from a prior wholeness.
But all such attempts to get for oneself are inherently self defeating - and break down. That's where we either seek and find another candidate for a special relationship (looking outside our self) - or open to truth because it is true.
I am grateful with you.
in Love's blessing
Brian
2010/06/13
Remembering
If the idea that you are the child of light is given welcome and allowed to become the basis of challenging the appearance and experience of darkness, such that it is undone - then the value of the idea is self evident.
But if the idea "I am a child of light" becomes itself a form of consolation and used to support living in darkness, with less discomfort - then it may be said to be used to protect the mind that wants to abide in the dark.
The dissonance that is felt in our experience when we are out of true - when we are conflicted in our desire - or wilfully asserting desire from a place of judgement - is our Divine Alarm Call.
It is difficult at first to feel the dissonance without immediately becoming triggered into self protective reactions designed to salve it, distract from it, cover it over or render it into terms that seem to make us feel less guilty. This is because we are tending to live from a mental assertion - that is CONTINUING to maintain an out of true-ness as its priority.
With practice, we can get closer to the source of - or actuality of - our sense of dilemma.
To notice or observe it BEFORE we take the ride of setting ourselves in story as 'hard done by', or subject to limitation of any kind. This is a calmer and more spacious awareness in which we can recognize and feel directly, rather than through the lens of judgement or the patterning of past association.
The habit of the mind in judgement is strong because it has been clenched long. But its only strength is what we give of our attention and reaction to it - even though we may experience it - AS IF - it were a force that we cannot overcome or that out-manoeuvres our every attempt to fix or solve or remedy.
To abide without judgement is to surrender to an acceptance of the heart; to let the heart lead; to await the movement rather than asserting the movement. This simply isn't something that can be done. It is a willingness to be undone - to allow the coming undone of a sense of self that thrives on conflict whilst purporting to overcome it.
The remembering of the Heart is of a Universal Grace. The willingness to open to truth amidst the appearance and storyline of limitation is grace. The very beingness of you that stirs from within is the all pervading Light - communicating.
Like knows like.
To be of a kind is to share the same.
Releasing guilt is the accepting of Light - not to use as a symbol within the dream - but to release the grip on the dream that gives it a grip on you.
Love flows spontaneously where the way is clear.
There is only one condition that can block love - and this is the desire that love be something it is not.
Such a desire is like a sticking point from which a little dissonance can unstick the mind - when the dissonance is appreciated as a welcome guest instead of a gatecrasher.
But the dissonance is not guilt, nor pain, nor fear nor any other meaning that has been given to it from an unwelcoming mind.
So the temptation to see and react to these 'meanings' must be passed by if you are to allow the truth to awaken in you - while using the alarm call for what it is gracefully useful for.
If you were to suffer a pain and look for its source and discover that you were in effect pinching yourself, it would not take a moment to simply stop doing so - and immediately be restored to an undistorted appreciation of the moment.
But so embedded are we in our own self-dramas, that we believe we already know what the moment holds - and are actively and fully engaged in acting out our story as if it were reality.
Jesus asked his disciples to "watch and pray with me". This was from his heart as a brother and not as an edict to elicit punishment on discovery of initial failure. This is the same as the Light in you and the willingness in you to serve the light.
Jesus forgave and forgave again and yet again, when he found the disciples asleep - and so awakened fully from the mind to which abandonment seems real.
Be aware, be attentive - and abide in the heart.
This IS the action or movement of the Heart that IS Light.
That which Moves in you - also Moves you.
be attentive not to your story - but to the direct appreciation of be ing.
Forgive yourself for the distraction whereby you forgot.
Appreciate the truth of yourself whereby you are remembered.
In this Light is extended and known again as the all pervading radiance of Truth.
Such holiness cannot be betrayed - but only forgot - in ignorant and idle wish to explore the sense of your own creativity - in private.
Happy laughter is the recognition that dissolves the appearance of such a notion.
But within the world that such wilfulness gives rise - is opposition, fear of otherness', a false sense of self and all the defence and armouring that constitutes the experience of being an orphaned consciousness in a hostile and treacherous world.
We are Children of Light and know this when we see each other in Light and see the Light in each other. Truly, the Light knows this Always and never forgets - even if we forget the Light.
Darkness is a misinterpretation of Light.
It is not for us to understand how this may be so, but for us to accept and welcome the Light by which we are, know and have our being. Even the playing out of dream images in a darkened room cannot be engaged but is utterly and entirely dependent of the Light that must be first denied in order to have an 'experience of independence'.
Yet all awareness and attention is rooted in and extending the same Life and cannot in truth become independent. In the loving is not two - nor an observer who chooses between the one or the two.
There is a membership - a family - a belonging in and expression of.
We do not need to create what is already true - but we do need to allow the truth remember us and extend through or shine in the thoughts and acts and deeds that love would have us share in place of the world and self we made up.
The nature of applying force is opposition, density and limitation.
How long and bitterly must we struggle before we question the basis of our identification?
Noticing - moments of communication - moments of communion. These moments portend the rebirth of sanity such that confusion is dispelled - to the mind that desires truth as the very foundation and context of all else.
But if the idea "I am a child of light" becomes itself a form of consolation and used to support living in darkness, with less discomfort - then it may be said to be used to protect the mind that wants to abide in the dark.
The dissonance that is felt in our experience when we are out of true - when we are conflicted in our desire - or wilfully asserting desire from a place of judgement - is our Divine Alarm Call.
It is difficult at first to feel the dissonance without immediately becoming triggered into self protective reactions designed to salve it, distract from it, cover it over or render it into terms that seem to make us feel less guilty. This is because we are tending to live from a mental assertion - that is CONTINUING to maintain an out of true-ness as its priority.
With practice, we can get closer to the source of - or actuality of - our sense of dilemma.
To notice or observe it BEFORE we take the ride of setting ourselves in story as 'hard done by', or subject to limitation of any kind. This is a calmer and more spacious awareness in which we can recognize and feel directly, rather than through the lens of judgement or the patterning of past association.
The habit of the mind in judgement is strong because it has been clenched long. But its only strength is what we give of our attention and reaction to it - even though we may experience it - AS IF - it were a force that we cannot overcome or that out-manoeuvres our every attempt to fix or solve or remedy.
To abide without judgement is to surrender to an acceptance of the heart; to let the heart lead; to await the movement rather than asserting the movement. This simply isn't something that can be done. It is a willingness to be undone - to allow the coming undone of a sense of self that thrives on conflict whilst purporting to overcome it.
The remembering of the Heart is of a Universal Grace. The willingness to open to truth amidst the appearance and storyline of limitation is grace. The very beingness of you that stirs from within is the all pervading Light - communicating.
Like knows like.
To be of a kind is to share the same.
Releasing guilt is the accepting of Light - not to use as a symbol within the dream - but to release the grip on the dream that gives it a grip on you.
Love flows spontaneously where the way is clear.
There is only one condition that can block love - and this is the desire that love be something it is not.
Such a desire is like a sticking point from which a little dissonance can unstick the mind - when the dissonance is appreciated as a welcome guest instead of a gatecrasher.
But the dissonance is not guilt, nor pain, nor fear nor any other meaning that has been given to it from an unwelcoming mind.
So the temptation to see and react to these 'meanings' must be passed by if you are to allow the truth to awaken in you - while using the alarm call for what it is gracefully useful for.
If you were to suffer a pain and look for its source and discover that you were in effect pinching yourself, it would not take a moment to simply stop doing so - and immediately be restored to an undistorted appreciation of the moment.
But so embedded are we in our own self-dramas, that we believe we already know what the moment holds - and are actively and fully engaged in acting out our story as if it were reality.
Jesus asked his disciples to "watch and pray with me". This was from his heart as a brother and not as an edict to elicit punishment on discovery of initial failure. This is the same as the Light in you and the willingness in you to serve the light.
Jesus forgave and forgave again and yet again, when he found the disciples asleep - and so awakened fully from the mind to which abandonment seems real.
Be aware, be attentive - and abide in the heart.
This IS the action or movement of the Heart that IS Light.
That which Moves in you - also Moves you.
be attentive not to your story - but to the direct appreciation of be ing.
Forgive yourself for the distraction whereby you forgot.
Appreciate the truth of yourself whereby you are remembered.
In this Light is extended and known again as the all pervading radiance of Truth.
Such holiness cannot be betrayed - but only forgot - in ignorant and idle wish to explore the sense of your own creativity - in private.
Happy laughter is the recognition that dissolves the appearance of such a notion.
But within the world that such wilfulness gives rise - is opposition, fear of otherness', a false sense of self and all the defence and armouring that constitutes the experience of being an orphaned consciousness in a hostile and treacherous world.
We are Children of Light and know this when we see each other in Light and see the Light in each other. Truly, the Light knows this Always and never forgets - even if we forget the Light.
Darkness is a misinterpretation of Light.
It is not for us to understand how this may be so, but for us to accept and welcome the Light by which we are, know and have our being. Even the playing out of dream images in a darkened room cannot be engaged but is utterly and entirely dependent of the Light that must be first denied in order to have an 'experience of independence'.
Yet all awareness and attention is rooted in and extending the same Life and cannot in truth become independent. In the loving is not two - nor an observer who chooses between the one or the two.
There is a membership - a family - a belonging in and expression of.
We do not need to create what is already true - but we do need to allow the truth remember us and extend through or shine in the thoughts and acts and deeds that love would have us share in place of the world and self we made up.
The nature of applying force is opposition, density and limitation.
How long and bitterly must we struggle before we question the basis of our identification?
Noticing - moments of communication - moments of communion. These moments portend the rebirth of sanity such that confusion is dispelled - to the mind that desires truth as the very foundation and context of all else.
2010/06/07
Let guidance grow its expression by loosening your mind of rigidity
Clear guidance is known in peace - because peace is an undistorted receptivity that does not have an already asserted definition or problem in place - but is a willingness to put aside or release the interpretation of experience in the wholeness of trust.
Holy instants are called such (in A Course in Miracles) because even an instant of such active or practiced willingness allows a shift from the grip of the perspective of fear and control. They are also practical because the human mind actively defends its sense of control such that true insight is often only allowed an instant before the mind of 'me' is reasserted.
When we believe we are a mind in a body in a world that is untrustworthy or malign, we limit the truth to what can appear to us through the framework we ourselves have insisted and demand be true. No matter what it purports or seems to be - such a framework is all about ‘me’.
The mind in darkness that grows faith in light can be reached and guided within its experience of the world. It may at first believe it is to be protected and reinforced by a benign and active intervening God - and may well experience this as part of the process of opening to the light of truth. Yet after such instances of being 'protected' may come experience of being 'carried' through experience of travail - like being absolutely safe through an experience of apparent calamity rather than being saved from its appearance. Still further on may be the experience of Job - in which the intrinsic nature of the light excluding thought is experienced as calamity - without recourse to external remedy of recrimination.
To accept the atonement for oneself is to be undone in perfect love.
The awakening is but the natural expression of and appreciation of be-ing and in this writing seems to be a goal or alternative to an unnatural 'take' on being in which the mind experiences its own thought instead of direct appreciation of the truth. But this desire that seems to create an alternative 'truth' has become active as the current lens - excepting we refuse to use it.
The involvement of relationship as an act of faith and willingness is in human terms messy or chaotic - because it is not an experience of being in control, having the answer or even neccessarily being competent. But it is the willingness for peace as the condition in which truth of love and healing is served, made welcome, desired and joined with.
Holy instants are called such (in A Course in Miracles) because even an instant of such active or practiced willingness allows a shift from the grip of the perspective of fear and control. They are also practical because the human mind actively defends its sense of control such that true insight is often only allowed an instant before the mind of 'me' is reasserted.
When we believe we are a mind in a body in a world that is untrustworthy or malign, we limit the truth to what can appear to us through the framework we ourselves have insisted and demand be true. No matter what it purports or seems to be - such a framework is all about ‘me’.
The mind in darkness that grows faith in light can be reached and guided within its experience of the world. It may at first believe it is to be protected and reinforced by a benign and active intervening God - and may well experience this as part of the process of opening to the light of truth. Yet after such instances of being 'protected' may come experience of being 'carried' through experience of travail - like being absolutely safe through an experience of apparent calamity rather than being saved from its appearance. Still further on may be the experience of Job - in which the intrinsic nature of the light excluding thought is experienced as calamity - without recourse to external remedy of recrimination.
To accept the atonement for oneself is to be undone in perfect love.
The awakening is but the natural expression of and appreciation of be-ing and in this writing seems to be a goal or alternative to an unnatural 'take' on being in which the mind experiences its own thought instead of direct appreciation of the truth. But this desire that seems to create an alternative 'truth' has become active as the current lens - excepting we refuse to use it.
The involvement of relationship as an act of faith and willingness is in human terms messy or chaotic - because it is not an experience of being in control, having the answer or even neccessarily being competent. But it is the willingness for peace as the condition in which truth of love and healing is served, made welcome, desired and joined with.
2009/05/19
You ... were never born - and never died
"When You awake, You will discover that You were never born and never died" ~ Raj
Your own awareness is already light - your very heart is already the seat of all meaning.
The proofs of unawakened self are merely the assertion of you as you are not.
While you are 'in character' I may not get a message through.
While you are on a role - I cant get a word in edgeways!
But "Remember Home" is a present remembrance and not of the past.
Though before time was - Home Is.
There is nothing to understand here - this is a dawning of realization that the world is not your truth - and from this comes the willingness to let it be used on behalf of truth's realization of itself - as it is.
- - -
Idea based sense of self is not going to wake up and nor is it ever going to have an understanding of what awakening is. But you may the play with and try-out of any ideas about it as part of an ongoing fascination.
In our thinking we may postulate all sorts of questions and look within all that we have ever imagined or experienced for possible answers.
That you are not what you think you are, is not to say: you are not!
But the you that is - as it were - revealed - by the disregard of the meanings of images and concepts that are associated as your sense of 'you in form' - is direct experience. It may be afterwards portrayed as experience happening to you but- at the point of knowing - there is no such separation of knower and known.
- - -
The dimension of unawakeness is a like as a surface perspective gotten from a surface of no depth upon an infinite sphere.
As the surface is disregarded - depth arises - as awareness knowing its own nature.
The Depth is not - can not - really be absent - but has been rendered as if invisible by a timeline that stretches as if unbroken from past to future. An identification with a self made limitation that remains your intent of attention - set in motion by desire. You know not what you do.
Yet the arising of Awareness is not the beginning of awareness but rather the falling off of a temporary engagement of attention within which identification occurred. It is the abandonment of the proofs ‘you are not awake’ - within a Living Context of Relationship.
It is ‘awakening’ relative to bondage of illusion - but Truth is already true.
The desire for experience on your own terms has become confused with you as ‘a life’. This is a story you may tell to yourself - but is not you.
Truth is not the annihilation or destruction of you. For the ground of awareness does not come and go when attention becomes bound to consciousness arising with its objects.
You may be looking to survive in time - yet none truly lives in time - All life is of One Eternal Instant. Yet the illusion of time need not be attacked or destroyed for now to be experienced in its own terms. Illusions can only be dispelled by noticing their nature as illusions. Such is the gift of truth - its giving is that it is in no way withheld.
Life in concept is a way of making a personal sense of continuity-consciousness that acts as a limited identity.
All sorts of experiences seem to come and go yet all of then share a common father - which is the wish you be as you are not - and the wish to experience such thought as a creation. For this you must forget to laugh, believe you have lost Light and protect your thoughts in the darkness from misperceived light. The judge finds itself judged - until the act is realised meaningless.
- - -
Everything Spirit is offering you is serving you coming to the point of awakening again and again and yet again.
This will often be below the radar of your own assessments - it initiates change in the ground of your sense of self that is also a releasing or loosening of old habits of belief and reaction.
To open the mind without the heart is but a further example of an ego alien adventure.
The view may be relatively expansive but the fundamental illusion of polarized reality remains the starting point.
The heart is the context in which the mind becomes safe - to itself.
Its Nature is perfectly relational. Yet nothing comes in from or goes ‘outside’.
The desecration of the heart to the mind in darkness is an intolerable suffering.
But this is the recognition of the need to accept healing - now.
Truth answers its own and you cannot be a total illusion - only given to illusion.
There are no terms on earth for that which is eternal - yet the eternal can be reflected here as you release your attention to a desire for a wholly present revelation.
Not born - never died - is as the eternal - timeless Father - and nothing is but is Son.
Son is of like kind in all respects except Son is the Expression of Father. Beyond compass - yet is perfect Compassion.
Feel for the taste in all that aleady speaks of joy - and open to the feeling against the suggestion of all that seems to demand the abandonment of joy.
Whenever you remember this is the feeling that identifies you in undefined and unwithheld presence
Your own awareness is already light - your very heart is already the seat of all meaning.
The proofs of unawakened self are merely the assertion of you as you are not.
While you are 'in character' I may not get a message through.
While you are on a role - I cant get a word in edgeways!
But "Remember Home" is a present remembrance and not of the past.
Though before time was - Home Is.
There is nothing to understand here - this is a dawning of realization that the world is not your truth - and from this comes the willingness to let it be used on behalf of truth's realization of itself - as it is.
- - -
Idea based sense of self is not going to wake up and nor is it ever going to have an understanding of what awakening is. But you may the play with and try-out of any ideas about it as part of an ongoing fascination.
In our thinking we may postulate all sorts of questions and look within all that we have ever imagined or experienced for possible answers.
That you are not what you think you are, is not to say: you are not!
But the you that is - as it were - revealed - by the disregard of the meanings of images and concepts that are associated as your sense of 'you in form' - is direct experience. It may be afterwards portrayed as experience happening to you but- at the point of knowing - there is no such separation of knower and known.
- - -
The dimension of unawakeness is a like as a surface perspective gotten from a surface of no depth upon an infinite sphere.
As the surface is disregarded - depth arises - as awareness knowing its own nature.
The Depth is not - can not - really be absent - but has been rendered as if invisible by a timeline that stretches as if unbroken from past to future. An identification with a self made limitation that remains your intent of attention - set in motion by desire. You know not what you do.
Yet the arising of Awareness is not the beginning of awareness but rather the falling off of a temporary engagement of attention within which identification occurred. It is the abandonment of the proofs ‘you are not awake’ - within a Living Context of Relationship.
It is ‘awakening’ relative to bondage of illusion - but Truth is already true.
The desire for experience on your own terms has become confused with you as ‘a life’. This is a story you may tell to yourself - but is not you.
Truth is not the annihilation or destruction of you. For the ground of awareness does not come and go when attention becomes bound to consciousness arising with its objects.
You may be looking to survive in time - yet none truly lives in time - All life is of One Eternal Instant. Yet the illusion of time need not be attacked or destroyed for now to be experienced in its own terms. Illusions can only be dispelled by noticing their nature as illusions. Such is the gift of truth - its giving is that it is in no way withheld.
Life in concept is a way of making a personal sense of continuity-consciousness that acts as a limited identity.
All sorts of experiences seem to come and go yet all of then share a common father - which is the wish you be as you are not - and the wish to experience such thought as a creation. For this you must forget to laugh, believe you have lost Light and protect your thoughts in the darkness from misperceived light. The judge finds itself judged - until the act is realised meaningless.
- - -
Everything Spirit is offering you is serving you coming to the point of awakening again and again and yet again.
This will often be below the radar of your own assessments - it initiates change in the ground of your sense of self that is also a releasing or loosening of old habits of belief and reaction.
To open the mind without the heart is but a further example of an ego alien adventure.
The view may be relatively expansive but the fundamental illusion of polarized reality remains the starting point.
The heart is the context in which the mind becomes safe - to itself.
Its Nature is perfectly relational. Yet nothing comes in from or goes ‘outside’.
The desecration of the heart to the mind in darkness is an intolerable suffering.
But this is the recognition of the need to accept healing - now.
Truth answers its own and you cannot be a total illusion - only given to illusion.
There are no terms on earth for that which is eternal - yet the eternal can be reflected here as you release your attention to a desire for a wholly present revelation.
Not born - never died - is as the eternal - timeless Father - and nothing is but is Son.
Son is of like kind in all respects except Son is the Expression of Father. Beyond compass - yet is perfect Compassion.
Feel for the taste in all that aleady speaks of joy - and open to the feeling against the suggestion of all that seems to demand the abandonment of joy.
Whenever you remember this is the feeling that identifies you in undefined and unwithheld presence
2008/11/11
Ego identity is a mind trap
Ego identity is a mind trap. In software terms it is called an infinite loop - and it runs mechanically on until a different desire (program) replaces it as the active creative intent. At this level there is the freedom of true desire or the unfreedom of false desire. This is not really a choice! - but from following the false desire we have created the illusion of choice - and while we believe in it - we must consistently choose with willingness for truth - or the program of self illusion runs on until the next window of opportunity that notices or is called awake.
I recall the mediation image of sitting as the witness watching the river of all that arises to awareness and the meditation is simply to allow observation of all that arises without push or pull.
The actual practice may tend to be that of identifying with thought processes and waking up to that attention has been completely preoccupied for a period of thoughts. But that is the re-wakening of present awareness where the practice simply resumes. Whatever arises - allow it to be. In this process insight arises and can be allowed in the same manner but if the observer and the observed cease to be experienced as separate states then it is like the one in the sidecar with a fake steering wheel is not here. What is - Speaks Itself and knows itself.
When we awaken we see that there was never a moment when we were absent. For absence of Is can not be.
The only reason this is not obvious is by virtue of preferring to think you are the thinker.
In identification with the objects of your thought, you engage your attention within your imagination presenting perceptions faithful to your investment.
But there is only empty forms here. Not a life at all but a dream of a life.
Yet every instant of Life is a noticing - an awakening - to a direct awareness that bleeds through from time to time because we are not capable of suppressing life totally for it is what we are. Inescapably.
But it is soon wrapped and filtered in the world terms such as to be absorbed as part of the dream which is seeking to protect itself in your name.
What the world calls love is designed to keep an underlying hate denied. Denial is an ability made by the ego - so we let it be re-purposed by Holy Spirit who can use it on behalf of our truth instead of against it.
We give as we receive. And we receive as we give.
Though this can be seen within time its potency is always addressing our present.
Without denial the mind would recycle insanity-nonsense forever.
Deny access to anything whose purpose and intent is the undermining of your peace in which you discern and feel and know the love that you are.
Or in A Course in Miracles terms: 'deny the denial of truth'.
This goes on very fruitfully with regard to denial and to anyone reading who is interested - it is taken from:
A Course in Miracles: Text: Chapter 12. The Holy Spirit's Curriculum. I. The Judgment of the Holy Spirit.
A Course in Miracles earliest editions are not copyrighted and can be read or downloaded freely online or bought from most bookstores.
One of many where it can be read online is http://courseinmiracles.com which I randomly googled as a convenience in case you want to follow from this page.
I recall the mediation image of sitting as the witness watching the river of all that arises to awareness and the meditation is simply to allow observation of all that arises without push or pull.
The actual practice may tend to be that of identifying with thought processes and waking up to that attention has been completely preoccupied for a period of thoughts. But that is the re-wakening of present awareness where the practice simply resumes. Whatever arises - allow it to be. In this process insight arises and can be allowed in the same manner but if the observer and the observed cease to be experienced as separate states then it is like the one in the sidecar with a fake steering wheel is not here. What is - Speaks Itself and knows itself.
When we awaken we see that there was never a moment when we were absent. For absence of Is can not be.
The only reason this is not obvious is by virtue of preferring to think you are the thinker.
In identification with the objects of your thought, you engage your attention within your imagination presenting perceptions faithful to your investment.
But there is only empty forms here. Not a life at all but a dream of a life.
Yet every instant of Life is a noticing - an awakening - to a direct awareness that bleeds through from time to time because we are not capable of suppressing life totally for it is what we are. Inescapably.
But it is soon wrapped and filtered in the world terms such as to be absorbed as part of the dream which is seeking to protect itself in your name.
What the world calls love is designed to keep an underlying hate denied. Denial is an ability made by the ego - so we let it be re-purposed by Holy Spirit who can use it on behalf of our truth instead of against it.
We give as we receive. And we receive as we give.
Though this can be seen within time its potency is always addressing our present.
Without denial the mind would recycle insanity-nonsense forever.
Deny access to anything whose purpose and intent is the undermining of your peace in which you discern and feel and know the love that you are.
Or in A Course in Miracles terms: 'deny the denial of truth'.
The Way to Remember God
Miracles are merely the translation of denial into truth.
If to love oneself is to heal oneself, those who are sick do not love themselves.
Therefore, they are asking for the love that would heal them, but which they are denying to themselves.
If they knew the truth about themselves they could not be sick.
The task of the miracle worker thus becomes to deny the denial of truth.
The sick must heal themselves, for the truth is in them.
Yet having obscured it, the light in another mind must shine into theirs because that light is theirs.
This goes on very fruitfully with regard to denial and to anyone reading who is interested - it is taken from:
A Course in Miracles: Text: Chapter 12. The Holy Spirit's Curriculum. I. The Judgment of the Holy Spirit.
A Course in Miracles earliest editions are not copyrighted and can be read or downloaded freely online or bought from most bookstores.
One of many where it can be read online is http://courseinmiracles.com which I randomly googled as a convenience in case you want to follow from this page.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
Posts
