Remembering

If the idea that you are the child of light is given welcome and allowed to become the basis of challenging the appearance and experience of darkness, such that it is undone - then the value of the idea is self evident.

But if the idea "I am a child of light" becomes itself a form of consolation and used to support living in darkness, with less discomfort - then it may be said to be used to protect the mind that wants to abide in the dark.

The dissonance that is felt in our experience when we are out of true - when we are conflicted in our desire - or wilfully asserting desire from a place of judgement - is our Divine Alarm Call.

It is difficult at first to feel the dissonance without immediately becoming triggered into self protective reactions designed to salve it, distract from it, cover it over or render it into terms that seem to make us feel less guilty. This is because we are tending to live from a mental assertion - that is CONTINUING to maintain an out of true-ness as its priority.

With practice, we can get closer to the source of  - or actuality of - our sense of dilemma.
To notice or observe it BEFORE we take the ride of setting ourselves in story as 'hard done by',  or subject to limitation of any kind. This is a calmer and more spacious awareness in which we can recognize and feel directly, rather than through the lens of judgement or the patterning of past association.

The habit of the mind in judgement is strong because it has been clenched long. But its only strength is what we give of our attention and reaction to it - even though we may experience it  - AS IF - it were a force that we cannot overcome or that out-manoeuvres our every attempt  to fix or solve or remedy.

To abide without judgement is to surrender to an acceptance of the heart; to let the heart lead; to await the movement rather than asserting the movement. This simply isn't something that can be done. It is a willingness to be undone - to allow the coming undone of a sense of self that thrives on conflict whilst purporting to overcome it.

The remembering of the Heart is of a Universal Grace. The willingness to open to truth amidst the appearance and storyline of limitation is grace. The very beingness of you that stirs from within is the all pervading Light - communicating.

Like knows like.
To be of a kind is to share the same.

Releasing guilt is the accepting of Light - not to use as a symbol within the dream - but to release the grip on the dream that gives it a grip on you.

Love flows spontaneously where the way is clear.
There is only one condition that can block love - and this is the desire that love be something it is not.

Such a desire is like a sticking point from which a little dissonance can unstick the mind - when the dissonance is appreciated as a welcome guest instead of a gatecrasher.
But the dissonance is not guilt, nor pain, nor fear nor any other meaning that has been given to it from an unwelcoming mind.

So the temptation to see and react to these 'meanings' must be passed by if you are to allow the truth to awaken in you - while using the alarm call for what it is gracefully useful for.

If you were to suffer a pain and look for its source and discover that you were in effect pinching yourself, it would not take a moment to simply stop doing so - and immediately be restored to an undistorted appreciation of the moment.

But so embedded are we in our own self-dramas, that we believe we already know what the moment holds - and are actively and fully engaged in acting out our story as if it were reality.

Jesus asked his disciples to "watch and pray with me". This was from his heart as a brother and not as an edict to elicit punishment on discovery of initial failure. This is the same as the Light in you and the willingness in you to serve the light.

Jesus forgave and forgave again and yet again, when he found the disciples asleep - and so awakened fully from the mind to which abandonment seems real.

Be aware, be attentive - and abide in the heart.
This IS the action or movement of the Heart that IS Light.

That which Moves in you - also Moves you.
be attentive not to your story - but to the direct appreciation of be ing.

Forgive yourself for the distraction whereby you forgot.
Appreciate the truth of yourself whereby you are remembered.

In this Light is extended and known again as the all pervading radiance of Truth.
Such holiness cannot be betrayed - but only forgot - in ignorant and idle wish to explore the sense of your own creativity - in private.

Happy laughter is the recognition that dissolves the appearance of such a notion.
But within the world that such wilfulness gives rise - is opposition, fear of otherness', a false sense of self and all the defence and armouring that constitutes the experience of being an orphaned consciousness in a hostile and treacherous world.

We are Children of Light and know this when we see each other in Light and see the Light in each other. Truly, the Light knows this Always and never forgets - even if we forget the Light.

Darkness is a misinterpretation of Light.
It is not for us to understand how this may be so, but for us to accept and welcome the Light by which we are, know and have our being. Even the playing out of dream images in a darkened room cannot be engaged but is utterly and entirely dependent of the Light that must be first denied in order to have an 'experience of independence'.

Yet all awareness and attention is rooted in and extending the same Life and cannot in truth become independent. In the loving is not two - nor an observer who chooses between the one or the two.

There is a membership - a family - a belonging in and expression of.
We do not need to create what is already true - but we do need to allow the truth remember us and extend through or shine in the thoughts and acts and deeds that love would have us share in place of the world and self we made up.

The nature of applying force is opposition, density and limitation.
How long and bitterly must we struggle before we question the basis of our identification?

Noticing - moments of communication - moments of communion. These moments portend the rebirth of sanity such that confusion is dispelled - to the mind that desires truth as the very foundation and context of all else.

Loveless-ness undone

The blight of sin brings,
pervasive lack of light.
All things are turned to hate,
and none so hateful as this self.

Shunning light is but
calling for darkness
to cover the love in which such hurt is felt
with thoughts of any self regard,
to put the hate outside,
that some fragment of a self
can grasp at a moments relief,
amidst inescapable torment.


Truth in stillness,
most intimate,
does not know
such maddening mind
excepting to remind you of this:

What do you desire be true?

For here is the way illusion rose
to fascinate an entranced attention.

And yet here now are the steps retraced,
before a split in mind occurred.

Give way to what is always wholly given,
and let all things be released
to speak of life anew.

There is no other Life than this,
that Lives and Moves and Knows its Being.

O Living Love.







in Gratitude

Brian

The desire to remember God | Peace | Presence of Life

When you do notice or become aware of a greater perspective - such as when you realize you had forgotten to be present with God for a period of the day. Stop - Rejoice!

The light is come - or you would not know you had been asleep.

Your welcome for the light is hardly great if you use the occasion to scold or measure yourself.

To not be taken away be the ego is not a superhuman task - but an expression of calm trust.

Humanly contrived miracles may run on time but the train never leaves the station.

Is it not the simple desire of your heart to live truly?

I am sure it is - and in that desire is your call and answer.

The attempt to do too much is a way of justifying our day - our existence - our spiritual validity.

Yet you need do nothing for God to be all that God is - right where you are.

It is a matter of attention - which follows value - which expresses desire.

Now you may well discover, that actually you are more active than you thought in valuing that which covers over, distracts or takes you away from being in the presence of love. This is good news - Rejoice!

Why? Because now you have become more conscious and more honest about what you use your mind for.

It hardly helps when - upon such a discovery, the scripts of self guilt and self judgement are replayed.

To be consiously with yourself without moral controls firing off with the carrot and stick of fear or favour is to violate the garden fence boundary that you can cross BECAUSE you are willing ti exercise trust, cooperation, listening and willingness to be guided.

Now you may not believe you are trustworthy - because you have seen things about your mind that are mean at best and tricks with it.

But your desire is your welcome for One who knows you better than you do - and who also knows how to guide you.

The mind tries to whip the heart into line - using any and every tactic. Yet the heart gives freely all that you desire - but - it gives it to you to share - and not to your mind that would keep for itself.

With desire for God in your heart - what is there but God?

You have to get dressed quick to catch the train. Practice doing this in your peace - without calling on anxiety to spur you. God is moving to catch the train.

You have to take an optimum course through various obstacles. let go of trying to work out the path and let God align all things - and be fully present in every step.

God is dancing through the seeming Obstacles(also God).

You got caught up in difficulty and reaction and are out of sorts - and still have to deal with difficult demands. Surrender now! Forgive yourself unconditionally (This means everyone) and bring willingness to stop in an instant - even if the instant is short. - And deeply and fully remember your desire for truth.

It doesn't matter if it all seems grossly messy and you don't feel at all like you handled it at all well - what matters is that you remembered to stop, drop and listen - and then brought trust into play.

The surface mind is loud and seems to run the show - it certainly seems curiously able to get and keep your attention!

But you are moving by your desire to calm and to trust and notice deeper - from a more spacious and less reactive place.

Now it might happen that you have a miraculous day out of a potentially disastrous day - and didn't think of God once.

How so?

Because the thought of God is not just the words and concepts and symbols - but the rootedness of your attention to the real.

Now within this 'world' others may argue about using the term real - but the Spirit knows what is helpful for the needs of all - in terms of awakening and because you have given willingness, God's Agency can answer through you - when ye thinketh not. What is 'answer through you?' - but an expression of Life, love, shared integrity, harmony and peace. In other words the way life naturally works when we are not willfully active in working against it.

To shift from the "External God Power" concept to the all embracing unbounded Source and true Condition of being is a step by step willingness. When God takes the last step there is not a differentiation of God and self excepting as Jesus states it.

We most of us have great fear of God - and of love. Even if we set course we find ourselves thrown back again and again. Such resistance is not a sin - but arises from an ignorance that needs to be dispelled. This is why allowing conscious awareness of the desire that seems to want distraction or delay or to dally in pleasure or whatever doesn't abide and share in the presence of life - allows the Spirit to reveal to your willingness to notice.

Our obstacles are not just things to overcome - they can also be the misread guidances that we need to stop and take in so as to have an upside down map corrected.

Maybe something useful arises in you when you read this. Useful in the sense of a sudden shift of attention from a sense of dilemna to a current relationship.

I like the word current as it means now and also means flow.

I said once that the secret to making love - is

to already be making love.

In other words, the form of it isn't defined by a beginning and an end or by specific forms at all.

Making love is the ongoing dance and flow of relationship.

If you 'go off' on a thought (or ten thousand), then  as soon as you feel the dissonance - use it to waken.

If you do not go off in thought - but share the light of life and love in your tasks, your play or walking together - then don't interrupt the flow with spiritual thoughts - but just check in with your heart's light if any question should arise. Dissonance is undisguisable in love and light.

We have our love relationship with God - Spirit - we share that with our lover, our partner, our family, our community, our workplace our trees and sky and birds and world at large.
It is one love but the forms of the dance differ. The more unified and whole we let ourselves be the more consistent and congruent our life becomes.

For the love of God why would I bitch about X? (I'm bitching about X - dissonance alert - Let truth be revealed to me here that God's sanity and peace can be a basis for whatever is next).

There - that's also a tool - dissonance alert. If it isn't going off you are either too awake for any trouble to attract you - or are so well managed in your sleeping habit that every thing can be taken for grantedly dealt with as if it was just the way the world is and you just manage it successfully.

If you really want to be with God it must follow that you really do not want to be with egocentricity.



What we really do not want - is dissonant to our heart.

On this basis alone - all of the world we know should be called in question.