A seeming power of the Course is in revealing radically powerful insights - and yet if we are left only with a sense of how to, or an enthusiasm that is merely wishful, then we are not abiding in and being the insight but tying to fit it into 'old bottles'.
To become undone of a self-definition allows Life to move Intimately as a wholeness of being. But to be busy living out-from self-definition is to have objectified or disconnected a mind-imagination from Love's integration. All the feedback of our experience then shows this is so and the alert of such dissonance, calls for a pause in which to calm the mind by releasing attention and identification from our thoughts, and allowing and embracing the moment wholly as it is.
We don't know what it is. That is the freedom we have forgotten. For our not-knowing is letting God.
Grabbing the meanings on the page ignores the space between the words. Slowly reading in a living relationship with the author and source essence, allows the meanings that words can only point to in YOU. This Peace and Authority Is You - but while you habitually identify with your thoughts - they usurp your awareness of Love's Presence.
Let revealed truth abide as your Holy Spirit. Your Holy Spirit is the Voice and Guide in which you are reintegrated to True Being, and from a basis of true authority and peace. The coercive mind is always a sign of fear in hiding. This will not serve the purpose that is alive in your heart now. But seeing it and leaving your mind open (to your Holy Spirit), will.
In Peace
Brian
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2012/04/24
2012/04/23
Love's nature
Love's nature is to be known and shared as love.
You may hold thought of not-love and accept that in place of the guidance and joy of your own heart in love.
By this act you know love not - but suffer conflict, and pain of loneliness, where only Love is.
The love that Is, does not enter the conflict you make. Love can but 'Be and share Itself' and cannot be made into what it is not. In the belief that what you made has changed Love, you accept error at the foundation of your being because love is the foundation in which all is found.
You may think that you want the power of your own thought, to judge and define all according to its substitution for love, and while you persist, you are free to experience as your thinking gives you. But as you recognize this is not the fulfilment of your heart's desire, you are free to release what you made and allow Love to reclaim Its Own.
Always, by your own acceptance.
And so is Love free, even 'here' in the world of self-illusion.
Never, is Love coercive. When it seems love calls for sacrifice, look again and be not deceived by thoughts you made before. What is shown, is shown by the guide YOU ACCEPT. When you are ready to accept love as it is, you will no longer be willing to accept an asserted wish in place of simple willingness, and Love is welcomed - as it is - where it Is.
Never, are you locked into the mind you make but by an unexamined wish you accept as speaking for your love.
Love is not threatened, though the shared appreciation of Love is lost to thoughts that are of an unshared foundation.
Such a foundation acts out as if it is threatened - for it has no reality but yours - as you give it. And by this you believe you are threatened.
And so you keep this foundation hidden, lest you be undone of what you take for your being.
Now that you understand this is so, you bring willingness to be without defence amidst the experience of persecution and ask anew of the Guide that has not left you, and can never leave you. You ask in faith of love even where love seems denied or crucified - and thereby you believe and accept not, the insane foundation whereby Love seems to hurt and kill its own.
Persisting in renewed willingness for love, is denying the mind its capacities of distraction and defence, and so there will be an exposure or a coming to the surface of what had been hidden BY fear. But this is serving the opportunity to truly forgive your world and yourself - in the release of the thoughts that cause them to be experienced as distorted fragments of a broken love.
To be a part of is not to be apart from. The reflection of withheld thought is always fearful - even if it seemingly beautiful beyond measure, it will be held hostage to the fear of loss.
To be a complete beginner in love, is to let love lead the way. Whenever it becomes obvious that the mind is trying to push or pull love to its own thought, begin again.
To let God Be the Love that Lives you - is a matter of peaceful acceptance - whatever the apparent presentations or perceptions. God 'takes the last step' in a journey we cannot complete alone, because we come to realize that our first step away was but a thought accepted in error.
The 'journey' is the reversal or undoing of what was never really done.
In Peace
Brian
I wrote the above in commentary and response to reading the extract below from A Course in Miracles.
"You do not realize how much you have denied yourself, and how much God in His love would not have it so. Yet He would not interfere with you because He would not know His Son if he were not free. To interfere with you would be to attack Himself, and God is not insane. When you denied Him, you were insane. Would you have Him share your insanity? God will never cease to love His Son, and His Son will never cease to love Him. That was the condition of His Son's creation, fixed forever in the Mind of God. To know that is sanity. To deny it is insanity. God gave Himself to you in your creation, and His gifts are eternal. Would you deny yourself to Him?"
~ A Course in Miracles.
CHAPTER NINE : "THE CORRECTION OF ERROR"
XI. "The Denial of God"
You may hold thought of not-love and accept that in place of the guidance and joy of your own heart in love.
By this act you know love not - but suffer conflict, and pain of loneliness, where only Love is.
The love that Is, does not enter the conflict you make. Love can but 'Be and share Itself' and cannot be made into what it is not. In the belief that what you made has changed Love, you accept error at the foundation of your being because love is the foundation in which all is found.
You may think that you want the power of your own thought, to judge and define all according to its substitution for love, and while you persist, you are free to experience as your thinking gives you. But as you recognize this is not the fulfilment of your heart's desire, you are free to release what you made and allow Love to reclaim Its Own.
Always, by your own acceptance.
And so is Love free, even 'here' in the world of self-illusion.
Never, is Love coercive. When it seems love calls for sacrifice, look again and be not deceived by thoughts you made before. What is shown, is shown by the guide YOU ACCEPT. When you are ready to accept love as it is, you will no longer be willing to accept an asserted wish in place of simple willingness, and Love is welcomed - as it is - where it Is.
Never, are you locked into the mind you make but by an unexamined wish you accept as speaking for your love.
Love is not threatened, though the shared appreciation of Love is lost to thoughts that are of an unshared foundation.
Such a foundation acts out as if it is threatened - for it has no reality but yours - as you give it. And by this you believe you are threatened.
And so you keep this foundation hidden, lest you be undone of what you take for your being.
Now that you understand this is so, you bring willingness to be without defence amidst the experience of persecution and ask anew of the Guide that has not left you, and can never leave you. You ask in faith of love even where love seems denied or crucified - and thereby you believe and accept not, the insane foundation whereby Love seems to hurt and kill its own.
Persisting in renewed willingness for love, is denying the mind its capacities of distraction and defence, and so there will be an exposure or a coming to the surface of what had been hidden BY fear. But this is serving the opportunity to truly forgive your world and yourself - in the release of the thoughts that cause them to be experienced as distorted fragments of a broken love.
To be a part of is not to be apart from. The reflection of withheld thought is always fearful - even if it seemingly beautiful beyond measure, it will be held hostage to the fear of loss.
To be a complete beginner in love, is to let love lead the way. Whenever it becomes obvious that the mind is trying to push or pull love to its own thought, begin again.
To let God Be the Love that Lives you - is a matter of peaceful acceptance - whatever the apparent presentations or perceptions. God 'takes the last step' in a journey we cannot complete alone, because we come to realize that our first step away was but a thought accepted in error.
The 'journey' is the reversal or undoing of what was never really done.
In Peace
Brian
I wrote the above in commentary and response to reading the extract below from A Course in Miracles.
"You do not realize how much you have denied yourself, and how much God in His love would not have it so. Yet He would not interfere with you because He would not know His Son if he were not free. To interfere with you would be to attack Himself, and God is not insane. When you denied Him, you were insane. Would you have Him share your insanity? God will never cease to love His Son, and His Son will never cease to love Him. That was the condition of His Son's creation, fixed forever in the Mind of God. To know that is sanity. To deny it is insanity. God gave Himself to you in your creation, and His gifts are eternal. Would you deny yourself to Him?"
~ A Course in Miracles.
CHAPTER NINE : "THE CORRECTION OF ERROR"
XI. "The Denial of God"
2011/12/21
Waking up
The active focus of our awareness is beneath - or prior to - the seeming actions and distractions that constitute our experience of being a person in a world.
It is like being focused on a prism thought, by which a split mind plays out a power of choosing between. Any power it seems to have being given to it by your attention and intention - for such is how we accord value and 'choose' is it not?
We can not ever truly or finally choose or accept a choice that isn't there to choose and Rest Complete in fulfilment, and yet while we dally with the promises of choosing - as if there was something in a specialness of self creation that we actually want - then we refuse to let go the patterns of self by which we voluntarily suffer our own attack on our Peace.
To open, even for an instant at a time, to a true perspective upon the nature of our unforgiveness or un-release, is to open a space in which to see not from within a prismed split sense, but clearly and directly, in wholeness.
Such direct experience is not happening TO a you - but is expressing an entirely redeeming restatement of you and your world. Redeeming, because it locates and knows all that it is - within Wholeness, of One Mind, of One Will, as One Body. This may not seem so, because any interpretations of direct experience - made after the fact - will tend to reinstate the framework of the thinking judging defining 'self'. To be able to discern within direct experience will come with a capacity to abide as it.
But as such Light of direct Awareness, That Is recognizably awakening and transforming you, grows your conscious awareness - it is realized to Be your conscious awareness. To be the Presence and the Gift of You.
The substitutions of thinking will fade, fall away or dissatisfy, and with them, the 'self' that seemed once to have completely engaged your attention. Yet You are presently in Expression as the sharing of the gift of the awareness of love - because there is nothing else. And yet such an acceptance of peace of being does not make fanfare in or make special the mind through which the world is yet experienced. But it does yield its experience to a guiltlessness, that is pictured out as action unwithheld, presence unwithdrawn, truth allowed plainly to speak instead of covered over or kept secret.
Taking off the pressure on the brakes, seems like losing control. Taking off the pressure on the accelerator, seems like losing excitement. Losing control seems like losing something that you actually believed you had. But never for a moment have we had anything but an illusion of control via the holding to our Mind's Eye of a wish to be what we are not.
To identify with thought, invites dissonant experience of separate meanings, that can seem to conflict and influence each other in an endless dance of no consequence. But to release identification with thought is to forgive the separating wish, and to be danced from thought based meanings into one Light.
Abide in Me, as I abide in Thee.
And allow the Life,
Already Given,
To Share
What Already Is.
Interjections of old habits
are evidence of
the interjections of old habits.
Make nothing of them,
and even these will be used
as witnesses to Wholeness.
Watch what you place on the altar of your desire.
Pray for the uncovering of the true desire of your heart.
Your willingness and your free attention is miracle ready
Because love is no longer being actively excluded.
Let no thought of your own become the seed of action,
and Thoughts of One shall reveal the whole to you,
as your gifts are remembered and gratefully received.
Do not impose teachings amidst your loving.
A starter motor is not to be kept running.
A Universal Language needs no translation.
When there is no one outside - do not run to the door to tell them so!
In Peace
Brian
It is like being focused on a prism thought, by which a split mind plays out a power of choosing between. Any power it seems to have being given to it by your attention and intention - for such is how we accord value and 'choose' is it not?
We can not ever truly or finally choose or accept a choice that isn't there to choose and Rest Complete in fulfilment, and yet while we dally with the promises of choosing - as if there was something in a specialness of self creation that we actually want - then we refuse to let go the patterns of self by which we voluntarily suffer our own attack on our Peace.
To open, even for an instant at a time, to a true perspective upon the nature of our unforgiveness or un-release, is to open a space in which to see not from within a prismed split sense, but clearly and directly, in wholeness.
Such direct experience is not happening TO a you - but is expressing an entirely redeeming restatement of you and your world. Redeeming, because it locates and knows all that it is - within Wholeness, of One Mind, of One Will, as One Body. This may not seem so, because any interpretations of direct experience - made after the fact - will tend to reinstate the framework of the thinking judging defining 'self'. To be able to discern within direct experience will come with a capacity to abide as it.
But as such Light of direct Awareness, That Is recognizably awakening and transforming you, grows your conscious awareness - it is realized to Be your conscious awareness. To be the Presence and the Gift of You.
The substitutions of thinking will fade, fall away or dissatisfy, and with them, the 'self' that seemed once to have completely engaged your attention. Yet You are presently in Expression as the sharing of the gift of the awareness of love - because there is nothing else. And yet such an acceptance of peace of being does not make fanfare in or make special the mind through which the world is yet experienced. But it does yield its experience to a guiltlessness, that is pictured out as action unwithheld, presence unwithdrawn, truth allowed plainly to speak instead of covered over or kept secret.
Taking off the pressure on the brakes, seems like losing control. Taking off the pressure on the accelerator, seems like losing excitement. Losing control seems like losing something that you actually believed you had. But never for a moment have we had anything but an illusion of control via the holding to our Mind's Eye of a wish to be what we are not.
To identify with thought, invites dissonant experience of separate meanings, that can seem to conflict and influence each other in an endless dance of no consequence. But to release identification with thought is to forgive the separating wish, and to be danced from thought based meanings into one Light.
Abide in Me, as I abide in Thee.
And allow the Life,
Already Given,
To Share
What Already Is.
Interjections of old habits
are evidence of
the interjections of old habits.
Make nothing of them,
and even these will be used
as witnesses to Wholeness.
Watch what you place on the altar of your desire.
Pray for the uncovering of the true desire of your heart.
Your willingness and your free attention is miracle ready
Because love is no longer being actively excluded.
Let no thought of your own become the seed of action,
and Thoughts of One shall reveal the whole to you,
as your gifts are remembered and gratefully received.
Do not impose teachings amidst your loving.
A starter motor is not to be kept running.
A Universal Language needs no translation.
When there is no one outside - do not run to the door to tell them so!
In Peace
Brian
2011/09/25
Recognize your brother and world restored to love
Love's Expression is Unified Will that loves to know itself truly One.
This is Alive as the Universal Gift of the Movement of Being.
The mind or purpose of imagination is upheld only by the wish it prevail.
It must agree to hide in darkness to project meanings that seem real.
Welcome the light and release meaningless meanings.
Recognize your brother and world restored to love.
For love's exclusion was only ever enacted by a will to judge yourself.
Be not afraid of what judgement makes,
but let your Living Purpose be to look past it.
I cannot define the Living God in image or thought,
Nor you, dear One.
Howbeit I am deceived,
let me rest the mind its imaginings,
and turn to you in sure faith,
The Spirit of Love is One,
and Wills only to reveal itself.
The seeming will is to be questioned.
Let it not be hidden 'in your brother'
as a thought of love's freedom to hide and seek.
Forgive him utterly for your mind's trespass.
By letting his truth awaken your own.
brian in a moment
2011/09/11
The truth is in the pudding
The desire to know the truth through the thinking mind is to look to the only place where truth is obscured.
Because you Already know the truth, you can open to the truth through reading or hearing.
"To those who hath, more shall be given".
But to those who have not yet accepted their own knowing, in the wholeness of their being - even that which they believe they hath shall be taken away.
Is love coercive?
No.
Is love revealing Itself in the way and the manner of its communications?
Yes.
The truth is in the pudding.
The definitions of thinking are fixing devices that self-validated the mind of the user.
But the use of such a mind by our Holy Spirit, allows an unfixing or loosening of the blocks to the flowing and extension of a trust in our being of life.
In such trust extending - you already feel and are the love that knows and is - and in the moment all things are added you - because they are already one with you - who abide at rest in oneness through your Holy Spirit.
The tension of the attempt to understand is exactly the tension of the attempt to maintain the sense of self apart - and then proceed from such a basis - as if to add to this 'self' and make it real or valid or successful or acceptable. To notice the tension is already to smile in release!
A willingness and desire for understanding, surrenders its 'knowing' and stands under that which Knows. Thus releasing the conditions that filter all outcomes on your own terms - and accepting the silent knowing of your own heart. This may also have association with thought and image - but these will but now reflect what is already moving, already true and already alive - as you. And will be freeing of the burden and tyranny of guilt.
The mind of command and control, of grasping and defining, of holding a will your own that judges and rejects, divides and rules - is an insidious habit, that creeps in un noticed and steals Heaven from your heart without you even noticing you are usurped.
How can this be?
Because what you actively want - becomes the foundation of your mind and experience - and when you believe or assert or accept that you WANT to see something YOUR way - then you are listening to that voice believing it is still part of the Living Universe.
Yet as you grow your capacity to trust-through the sense of self-defined limits and open to the joy and beauty and peace of being - you will also grow in the capacity to discern directly - and not conceal, disguise or defend against - the dissonance that is always felt in the lack of wholeness of a coercive will. It will seem to condemn you - but that is looking at guilt and fear - with guilt and fear. Forgiveness resists not evil - but looks directly upon its presentation in order to release the fixation of guilt. To own and to immediately repent of evil thoughts that can not really be hidden, overcome or escaped, but CAN be released upwards - is to let them pass away unwanted and in passing, reveal the Light that is your truth, your whole truth - and nothing but the truth.
In gratitude, in the song and harmony of the light of your being - do what you will - because your will is at rest in one will. In gratitude and innocence of being is this your natural inheritance.
Yet let one stab of interference seem to cause you to put your peace aside while you deal with 'the intruder' - and you are 'back in the mode of managing reality all by yourself' - and the impulse of wilful self authority - will not be laughed away and forgotten before it is even active - but will rule with your worshipful obeisance.
And so it is, that a story is shared. There is no truth in any of it, but through the willingness to share. All that knows truth is itself True - and no life could ever leave the Life that it is.
Yet in the world, is the play of the mind in many, that seems to see and seek our love as if outside us - in the world of ever changing appearances. Is this not a most amazing capacity of experience? But is it our heart's desire to keep it so?
Giving all things to God is but the releasing to God of all that was playfully presumed our own - and thus 'taken away' only to then be taken seriously in error.
So in desire for truth and freedom we say, "Take this cup away from me - as it be Your will and not mine".
It is not just the aspects of mind of which we are ashamed or feel threatened in, that we release - but the mind that fixes pleasure and joy in the world - for the world that we make, stands in place of the world that God's Holy Spirit replaces.
"Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal".
The simplest way to explain how it could be - in practical human words - that the mind of man gives way to the Mind of God; is to desist from your own thinking. Not by act of will - but in response to the Call or Movement of your own being - that rises in your awareness when you pause and consider in willingness to receive and be inspired in your heart and mind as one.
In Peace
Brian
2010/07/26
To one who warned me of the traps of A Course in Miracles
A Course in Miracles seems to be a large book that can be read and perhaps - though not easily - understood. It was not designed to be intellectually understandable or accessible for it addresses the reader at a level behind or beyond such defences and strategies of self will. Yet the attempt to understand new wine in 'old bottles' persists, and yields frustration.
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Everything in this world can be used against the sharing of love and thus seem to become a witness to a force or will that is false or evil - but in whose mind is this purpose active?
I celebrate your breaking free of an unquestioning following of the Course in Miracles - for the truth is not 'out there' - excepting that its welcome - (Truth's welcome) - is in our heart.
The Course is not originally intended to be used to set ourselves impossible goals - but to awaken the reader to that they are already doing so - and suffering the conflict and frustration of a split mind. So as to let it go.
The you that you think was misled and needs to protect itself from such danger is not you - but it is a sense of yourself that you have grown from image, thought and judgements. I do not attack this sense of yourself but merely invite you to look at it with me.
In the moments of sanity - you feel the peace and integrity of your being. In the times of self conflictedness you are tempted to seek for certainty amidst confusion - such as to put outside your mind the cause of what is troubling you. Thus conflict is shifted outside and a sense of yourself more oderly and in attempt to unify - is made within. But you will never be whole while it is chosen as your home.
It may well be that the A Course in Miracles book is no longer relevant as a tool or a path for you - but whatever path you do accept as a way of releasing the demand that the world serve your private need above all else - will be one in which you do not use IT to validate or prove you to yourself.
The release of this attempt allows God.
In God is a direct relationship - as Holy Spirit and as the Son or Creation revealed - not to thoughtful understanding but to your heart's knowing in silence.
This relationship is eternal - but in time is a step by step rewakening.
It is not the dream role that awakens.
It is you - the dreamer who awakens - in the light of a pure awareness that is always present and from which you never can separate except in identifying with images and thoughts - in other words - imaginatively.
This email is a gift to yourself - both the one you sent - and my reply.
The one you sent is an expression of a teaching learning that you are in process of awakening through.
To see our 'self' in action is to shift to the perspective that isn't identified with the role we thought was our self.
This is a 'miracle' in that it doesn't operate within the laws that apply within the dream that we make for ourselves and others of how everything is and how it should be. It suddenly is free of these and opens to a different basis from which to live. Now it will be that whenever you live from this basis, your presence will in essence be a blessing, but it is not at all from any conscious sense of the world needing to be fixed. It is only our mind that has believed in loss of Light and Love and Peace. But this mind is simply wrong - not wrong as in punishable - but mistaken, misguided and missing the point.
The traps are never in the teaching - even if there were false teachings whose intent was to ensnare - the trap would still lie in the mind of the one who is not paying attention - and allows himself or herself to be persuaded of the reality of a form based meaning rather than the meaning of love.
Listen to your heart.
Listen to make sure it is your heart and not the chatter and confusion of your thought.
No one can take this away from you.
Nothing can take this away from you.
But in listening to and acting upon the confusion of our unevaluated thought - we experience ourselves as hurt, limitation and loss, from which arises a reaction of self protection.
The evaluation of our thought is the Holy Spirit - because of ourselves we cannot tell the true from the false - and often get them the wrong way round.
The Holy Spirit can be called anything or nothing - but in emptying yourself of the clutter and falsity of a mind involved only with itself, you will feel or know the stirring of a life that you did not make. It may seem to be thought or feeling or coincidence of event or meaning with persons or world - but it speaks to you and through you.
You are quite right to abandon a fruitless exercise - but the frustration is not the conclusion of the lesson - nor is placing responsibility onto A Course in Miracles a true path to resolving the sense of guilt you feel.
If you want to have opposition, then your will is done.
Because it isn't of God, you will have to do the work to maintain its reality for you - which must replace the awareness of God in your mind while you actively pursue your desire.
I tell you that this is not your true desire.
God must be your true desire.
For God is Truth.
Not excluding the truth of you.
(Postscipt 1)
"Let go and let God"
"Let go and let God Be you"
Yes - and as God is all that is truly be-ing you in this moment it is an allowing of what already Is - to Be (as it Is).
The 'let go' bit is the automatic result of truly seeing the mechanism of control for what it is.
The 'work' or hard part humanly is the willingness to look upon the ego rather than act according to its dictate.
This is like watching thoughts go past rather than becoming involved and distracted by them. Innocent perception can look on what would otherwise trigger fear and guilt and see or discern truth - which does not give rise to guilt or fear, (though our subsequent thinking about it may indeed trigger a blind spot and engage attention in distraction again.
The trap is always that of making an identity for oneself - whether out of spiritual or profane components.
When we experience the results of our false identity, we blame it on (insert scapegoat here).
The conviction that some thing or one or teaching is Truth is very likely if not always going to give rise to idolotry and a false sense of self because our images, symbols and concepts are at best reflections of truth - or Holy Spirit communication towards opening our mind to truth.
(Postscript 2) No ego - no problem?
Yes - when the problem seems to define or limit You - then the self-centric perspective is active.
When willingness re-aligns to truth, then wholeness replaces conflicting desires and the movement of being is expressed as actions or non actions - that bear or behold witness to wholeness.
The ego is quieted by truth as irrelevant. It doesn't matter whose ego it seems to be - if our peace is obscured then we are in a position to become willing to quiet the ego by our disregard. But the way of that is by giving our whole regard to the Living - or that which is revealed to our willingness for truth that we do not make, can not control, and are totally dependent on.
In light of such a joy - we can discern limitation that before we were blind to but now are becoming responsible for.
We are responsible for what we think - or accept in our minds. But we are never to blame.
To accept the idea of blame is to starve ourselves of love.
(Postscript 3) To an expression of gratitude for this writing.
Yes. We meet in shared purpose and find ourselves in communication.
The ego perspective has a different purpose and 'finds' itself in forms that look like communication and may either seem devoutly following of - or oppose a teaching path of truth.
I felt to tell her she is right - for she cannot be wrong in her being - and I join with her in truth. In this context I offer correction for the error in what she is accepting in her own mind - not at the level of arguing 'teachings' and their 'meanings' - but in addressing to loss of peace and the restoration of sanity.
Because I was not identified with asserting or protecting the truth of A Course in Miracles, I do not need to react as if truth were attacked. How can Truth be attacked? It cannot - but colluding with the false will obscure the truth in our mind.
Though her mail is fearful in blaming teachings as false, there is much in it that is almost being shared with Holy Spirit that needs to come into the light to be undone or made clear. Sometimes we don't know how to ask - or are in a culture where speaking different from the accepted 'truths' is fearfully prohibited. So we only let it out in anger when we leave and slam the door - as a parting shot of self justification amidst a painful or emotional process of change.
This is just such an occasion where a human kindness may serve a greater good than to argue teachings.
I feel that our growing understanding of and awakening to the truth of what life is - and what we are - will from time to time occasion fundamental shifts in our awareness of mind that initiate a desire or need to shut down and back off.
If this becomes active, then panic and 'self survival' trample on and use - anyone and anything to maintain the separate self sense - and this does generate a sense of guilt - or love unworthiness - which is denied or hidden and at least partially offloaded onto God and Brother in such a way that isolates the heart in a private mind and a Lightless world of separation, conflict and density.
All that is needed is calm in which the truth can be felt.
For Truth is not the picture we make in fear - and when we let that realisation in - even as instants or steps of a 'little willingness' - we are awakened at least to a living path in which we can take our next step as a living step in which we grow in trust and our capacity of willingness and love.
It would be unwise to underestimate the capacity of the mind to deceive itself while the seed desire for a special self remains hidden.
My fellow man and woman are often helping me to become aware of - and to own - my hidden desire to be special. It is only when I see it as it is that I can also see that I do not want it. When I see it as the lens of the desire itself would have me see - I believe I do want it.
A Course in Miracles can be made a special relationship; a way to avoid a real relationship that shares from a prior wholeness.
But all such attempts to get for oneself are inherently self defeating - and break down. That's where we either seek and find another candidate for a special relationship (looking outside our self) - or open to truth because it is true.
I am grateful with you.
in Love's blessing
Brian
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Everything in this world can be used against the sharing of love and thus seem to become a witness to a force or will that is false or evil - but in whose mind is this purpose active?
I celebrate your breaking free of an unquestioning following of the Course in Miracles - for the truth is not 'out there' - excepting that its welcome - (Truth's welcome) - is in our heart.
The Course is not originally intended to be used to set ourselves impossible goals - but to awaken the reader to that they are already doing so - and suffering the conflict and frustration of a split mind. So as to let it go.
The you that you think was misled and needs to protect itself from such danger is not you - but it is a sense of yourself that you have grown from image, thought and judgements. I do not attack this sense of yourself but merely invite you to look at it with me.
In the moments of sanity - you feel the peace and integrity of your being. In the times of self conflictedness you are tempted to seek for certainty amidst confusion - such as to put outside your mind the cause of what is troubling you. Thus conflict is shifted outside and a sense of yourself more oderly and in attempt to unify - is made within. But you will never be whole while it is chosen as your home.
It may well be that the A Course in Miracles book is no longer relevant as a tool or a path for you - but whatever path you do accept as a way of releasing the demand that the world serve your private need above all else - will be one in which you do not use IT to validate or prove you to yourself.
The release of this attempt allows God.
In God is a direct relationship - as Holy Spirit and as the Son or Creation revealed - not to thoughtful understanding but to your heart's knowing in silence.
This relationship is eternal - but in time is a step by step rewakening.
It is not the dream role that awakens.
It is you - the dreamer who awakens - in the light of a pure awareness that is always present and from which you never can separate except in identifying with images and thoughts - in other words - imaginatively.
This email is a gift to yourself - both the one you sent - and my reply.
The one you sent is an expression of a teaching learning that you are in process of awakening through.
To see our 'self' in action is to shift to the perspective that isn't identified with the role we thought was our self.
This is a 'miracle' in that it doesn't operate within the laws that apply within the dream that we make for ourselves and others of how everything is and how it should be. It suddenly is free of these and opens to a different basis from which to live. Now it will be that whenever you live from this basis, your presence will in essence be a blessing, but it is not at all from any conscious sense of the world needing to be fixed. It is only our mind that has believed in loss of Light and Love and Peace. But this mind is simply wrong - not wrong as in punishable - but mistaken, misguided and missing the point.
The traps are never in the teaching - even if there were false teachings whose intent was to ensnare - the trap would still lie in the mind of the one who is not paying attention - and allows himself or herself to be persuaded of the reality of a form based meaning rather than the meaning of love.
Listen to your heart.
Listen to make sure it is your heart and not the chatter and confusion of your thought.
No one can take this away from you.
Nothing can take this away from you.
But in listening to and acting upon the confusion of our unevaluated thought - we experience ourselves as hurt, limitation and loss, from which arises a reaction of self protection.
The evaluation of our thought is the Holy Spirit - because of ourselves we cannot tell the true from the false - and often get them the wrong way round.
The Holy Spirit can be called anything or nothing - but in emptying yourself of the clutter and falsity of a mind involved only with itself, you will feel or know the stirring of a life that you did not make. It may seem to be thought or feeling or coincidence of event or meaning with persons or world - but it speaks to you and through you.
You are quite right to abandon a fruitless exercise - but the frustration is not the conclusion of the lesson - nor is placing responsibility onto A Course in Miracles a true path to resolving the sense of guilt you feel.
If you want to have opposition, then your will is done.
Because it isn't of God, you will have to do the work to maintain its reality for you - which must replace the awareness of God in your mind while you actively pursue your desire.
I tell you that this is not your true desire.
God must be your true desire.
For God is Truth.
Not excluding the truth of you.
(Postscipt 1)
"Let go and let God"
"Let go and let God Be you"
Yes - and as God is all that is truly be-ing you in this moment it is an allowing of what already Is - to Be (as it Is).
The 'let go' bit is the automatic result of truly seeing the mechanism of control for what it is.
The 'work' or hard part humanly is the willingness to look upon the ego rather than act according to its dictate.
This is like watching thoughts go past rather than becoming involved and distracted by them. Innocent perception can look on what would otherwise trigger fear and guilt and see or discern truth - which does not give rise to guilt or fear, (though our subsequent thinking about it may indeed trigger a blind spot and engage attention in distraction again.
The trap is always that of making an identity for oneself - whether out of spiritual or profane components.
When we experience the results of our false identity, we blame it on (insert scapegoat here).
The conviction that some thing or one or teaching is Truth is very likely if not always going to give rise to idolotry and a false sense of self because our images, symbols and concepts are at best reflections of truth - or Holy Spirit communication towards opening our mind to truth.
(Postscript 2) No ego - no problem?
Yes - when the problem seems to define or limit You - then the self-centric perspective is active.
When willingness re-aligns to truth, then wholeness replaces conflicting desires and the movement of being is expressed as actions or non actions - that bear or behold witness to wholeness.
The ego is quieted by truth as irrelevant. It doesn't matter whose ego it seems to be - if our peace is obscured then we are in a position to become willing to quiet the ego by our disregard. But the way of that is by giving our whole regard to the Living - or that which is revealed to our willingness for truth that we do not make, can not control, and are totally dependent on.
In light of such a joy - we can discern limitation that before we were blind to but now are becoming responsible for.
We are responsible for what we think - or accept in our minds. But we are never to blame.
To accept the idea of blame is to starve ourselves of love.
(Postscript 3) To an expression of gratitude for this writing.
Yes. We meet in shared purpose and find ourselves in communication.
The ego perspective has a different purpose and 'finds' itself in forms that look like communication and may either seem devoutly following of - or oppose a teaching path of truth.
I felt to tell her she is right - for she cannot be wrong in her being - and I join with her in truth. In this context I offer correction for the error in what she is accepting in her own mind - not at the level of arguing 'teachings' and their 'meanings' - but in addressing to loss of peace and the restoration of sanity.
Because I was not identified with asserting or protecting the truth of A Course in Miracles, I do not need to react as if truth were attacked. How can Truth be attacked? It cannot - but colluding with the false will obscure the truth in our mind.
Though her mail is fearful in blaming teachings as false, there is much in it that is almost being shared with Holy Spirit that needs to come into the light to be undone or made clear. Sometimes we don't know how to ask - or are in a culture where speaking different from the accepted 'truths' is fearfully prohibited. So we only let it out in anger when we leave and slam the door - as a parting shot of self justification amidst a painful or emotional process of change.
This is just such an occasion where a human kindness may serve a greater good than to argue teachings.
I feel that our growing understanding of and awakening to the truth of what life is - and what we are - will from time to time occasion fundamental shifts in our awareness of mind that initiate a desire or need to shut down and back off.
If this becomes active, then panic and 'self survival' trample on and use - anyone and anything to maintain the separate self sense - and this does generate a sense of guilt - or love unworthiness - which is denied or hidden and at least partially offloaded onto God and Brother in such a way that isolates the heart in a private mind and a Lightless world of separation, conflict and density.
All that is needed is calm in which the truth can be felt.
For Truth is not the picture we make in fear - and when we let that realisation in - even as instants or steps of a 'little willingness' - we are awakened at least to a living path in which we can take our next step as a living step in which we grow in trust and our capacity of willingness and love.
It would be unwise to underestimate the capacity of the mind to deceive itself while the seed desire for a special self remains hidden.
My fellow man and woman are often helping me to become aware of - and to own - my hidden desire to be special. It is only when I see it as it is that I can also see that I do not want it. When I see it as the lens of the desire itself would have me see - I believe I do want it.
A Course in Miracles can be made a special relationship; a way to avoid a real relationship that shares from a prior wholeness.
But all such attempts to get for oneself are inherently self defeating - and break down. That's where we either seek and find another candidate for a special relationship (looking outside our self) - or open to truth because it is true.
I am grateful with you.
in Love's blessing
Brian
2010/07/09
Spirit is in you as you in Spirit
The Spirit of God - as Indwelling Holy Spirit, walks with everyone - no matter who or what they seem to have become, do or say. But the mind in self-illusion may not recognise the true nature of its Guide and Companion through the events, lessons and meetings that lead it from its locked in self-regard, to the love-light of a direct and pure awareness.
The opening of the mind to light takes individualized forms for individual lifelines, where some paths serve some but would be unhelpful to others. It is not helpful to seek and find error in others and then use that to validate the truth or rightness of one's own path.
It is helpful to extend the truth through willing service or love of Self in all.
The opening of the mind to light takes individualized forms for individual lifelines, where some paths serve some but would be unhelpful to others. It is not helpful to seek and find error in others and then use that to validate the truth or rightness of one's own path.
It is helpful to extend the truth through willing service or love of Self in all.
2010/06/28
New New Testament - fulfils yet transcends. Revelatory. Gentle
"The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament", A Course in Understanding and Acceptance. (often referred to as 'NTI')
More info: http://www.forholyspirit.org
Is it possible to be looking in the world at a book or text and find it speaks your heart's light - talking to you through a book - while simultaneously recognising this is your own voice?
Such is my appreciation for this book.
If I step back a little I can say that such truth as I find opening with this book, has the capacity to calm, restore and awaken me to an altogether present perspective.
I find it truly revelatory at a level the intellect cannot reach. Yet the book is an intimate conversation with you that holds the reader in deepest reverence. It could not be more gentle or honouring of the truth of all.
The story of Jesus, his teaching and demonstration, may be disputed by the world - but its coming into our mind carries more than any religion can own when its truth begins to speak directly to our own life.
When we are willing to open to a true understanding, we put our own judgement aside and listen in true desire of life. We are led by the movement of Spirit within to recognise and release the mentality by which we have deceived ourselves and lost our soul as we gained a world. And by this we are restored to what we thought lost.
Many will experience resistance to some of what this book reveals - but also many will come to a deep and abiding gratitude for being gently and clearly guided through it!
I find nothing coercive here, no sales pitch, and no judgement against or condemnation of. It is as direct and profound as human language can be - yet it is as nothing outside of a willingness for and love of truth. You cannot be made to drink!
That this book has appeared is surely witness to a hunger and readiness for truth.
But don't put the value or authority onto the book - but be the extension of that which is in your heart revealed.
There is much that Jesus shared that could not be received then by minds fitted only to the terms the world sets. I feel this book opens this anew in terms that can speak to anyone from any background.
What might this book bring in terms of you and your life?
A revealed basis - that is opened within You - for peace, joy and freedom in capacity to share love as the basis of life.
Does such enlightenment come from a book - No!
It comes because in some way you are ready to accept.
The Holy Spirit authorship can be an issue for some who either dont believe in divine guidance or others who cant believe such grace could actually have anything directly to do with themselves and all others.
If you read the various books within you will find different voices - yet one purpose.
If you share this purpose you will find yourself as you do not expect - for awakening is prior to the mind we engage in the world - and by which we are ignorant of truth.
There is a grace that reveals what is always true, to a mind that believes it has lost its original nature, one step at a time, as you are willing to accept
(I posted this as an Amazon uk review soon after the book was published)
More info: http://www.forholyspirit.org
Is it possible to be looking in the world at a book or text and find it speaks your heart's light - talking to you through a book - while simultaneously recognising this is your own voice?
Such is my appreciation for this book.
If I step back a little I can say that such truth as I find opening with this book, has the capacity to calm, restore and awaken me to an altogether present perspective.
I find it truly revelatory at a level the intellect cannot reach. Yet the book is an intimate conversation with you that holds the reader in deepest reverence. It could not be more gentle or honouring of the truth of all.
The story of Jesus, his teaching and demonstration, may be disputed by the world - but its coming into our mind carries more than any religion can own when its truth begins to speak directly to our own life.
When we are willing to open to a true understanding, we put our own judgement aside and listen in true desire of life. We are led by the movement of Spirit within to recognise and release the mentality by which we have deceived ourselves and lost our soul as we gained a world. And by this we are restored to what we thought lost.
Many will experience resistance to some of what this book reveals - but also many will come to a deep and abiding gratitude for being gently and clearly guided through it!
I find nothing coercive here, no sales pitch, and no judgement against or condemnation of. It is as direct and profound as human language can be - yet it is as nothing outside of a willingness for and love of truth. You cannot be made to drink!
That this book has appeared is surely witness to a hunger and readiness for truth.
But don't put the value or authority onto the book - but be the extension of that which is in your heart revealed.
There is much that Jesus shared that could not be received then by minds fitted only to the terms the world sets. I feel this book opens this anew in terms that can speak to anyone from any background.
What might this book bring in terms of you and your life?
A revealed basis - that is opened within You - for peace, joy and freedom in capacity to share love as the basis of life.
Does such enlightenment come from a book - No!
It comes because in some way you are ready to accept.
The Holy Spirit authorship can be an issue for some who either dont believe in divine guidance or others who cant believe such grace could actually have anything directly to do with themselves and all others.
If you read the various books within you will find different voices - yet one purpose.
If you share this purpose you will find yourself as you do not expect - for awakening is prior to the mind we engage in the world - and by which we are ignorant of truth.
There is a grace that reveals what is always true, to a mind that believes it has lost its original nature, one step at a time, as you are willing to accept
(I posted this as an Amazon uk review soon after the book was published)
2010/06/24
Disobedience is called for - Honest to God
I cant nor need I argue with what anyone else finds helpful - but I discern persuasion as a force that seeks to manipulate - and see it finds a passive obedience to the presentation of authority of the persuader.
The desire to be led by any externally derived Guide is simply the state of any mind that as yet refuses or fears to look within. Yet in the desire to be truly guided even so - we will 'find and be found' by agencies for the Holy Spirit's guidance or Teacher Within - so as to loosen and sort the 'evil' or meaningless thoughts by which we block the capacity to feel, hear, recognise, love and extend our Holy Spirit - God's Gift of the Spirit of One.
When a Son or Daughter of God forgets his or her nature as the Extension of God - it is because that function is usurped by a 'mind that believes it knows' - and yet is not at rest, at one and sharing in the fruits of the Spirit.
Where we look and find guidance, value and meaning is where we choose to put our faith. If we put our faith in the world, we are looking at best at the reflections of the eternal truth - that is not contained in its reflection - but is the Holy Spirit Beholding and Recognition of God. More often we are seeing but symbols of the meanings we have made up in fighting a senseless battle that merely reflects a confused and divided or split mind.
Because this conflict is felt and its basis believed unconsciously or only somewhat consciously - the mind and desire of manipulation is automatically, implicitly and insidiously usurping true Authority. But it always makes its claim to meaning - and indeed righteousness - by deriving its meaning from what it is against.
It is the presumption of enmity, hostility, treachery - in effect - of an evil will. It 'sees' this will in others - in nature - and as seeking to undermine or corrupt its own mind, health or society.
It attempts to use truth to fight war. To dominate, to prevail. This is exactly how to make illusion usurp truth in our mind.
You cannot be disobedient to God - but are under illusion.
Illusion is a false or faulty formulation of reality - and if it is to be seen for what it is - rather than as what it seems to be - we must disobey the mind of guilt - by not acting from its premise. By not acting until we have awakened to or felt the Movement of wholeness and guiltlessness of the Presence of Life. And then allowing and trusting that Movement as the revealer of our true will or desire - for so it is.
To become still of self is to repent and release the mind that would make the world in its own image - and open to innocent perception.
Yet the mind of self-will and its attendant guilt are deeply habituated identifications that - until we become responsible for our own mind - can simply activate a false sense of self by which love’s presence is replaced, covered over, substituted for - and the substitute accepted as if real.
When the pervasive nature of the false self is realized to be filtering and distorting everything - there is either the collapse into a willing death of obedience to its dictates - or- a disobedience that challenges the seemingly unchallengable - with the innocence and simplicity of a child.
This 'child' is your Divinity - held in trust - awaiting your welcome.
It does not speak from the presumption of evil - but out of the peace of an innocent and single desire; the love of truth; the truth of love.
It is not for us to understand how we can 'overcome' or pass beyond the dictates of a false limitation. But only to give welcome to what is given us to desire - from God - from the inherency of our nature as unified Being.
Obedience to God is not really a matter of choice - but a matter of honesty. While it seems a matter of choice, you will feel guilty for ‘your mind’ that seems to want a selfish love - and gets a hate-love self and world in return.
This is because the mind is actively engaging in the attempt to make the unreal, real.
But in an active desire and willingness for truth to reign in your heart - you will see honestly, because you will not be engaging such a wish.
The resistance to truth must not be invested with personhood, enemy powers or stories that set you apart from your own love. Or your stories will become as your reality by your own faith.
The mind of persuasion must be disobeyed in every moment of remembering and recognition that suddenly illumines desire - thirst - for truth - amidst the illusions of choices that suggest and maintain a sense of you as 'in between'. There is nothing in between you and your Self, but an act by which are deceived in thought.
Where we look and find guidance, value and meaning is where we choose to put our faith. This simply needs to be brought to an honesty - without judgement or condemnation.
Illusion says "follow me and become free".
Truth shows you - "you are already free".
Travel the way you desire to arrive and enjoy. For we are always 'arriving in' what we have defined as our joy. To recognise a faulty choice is a happy release of the unwanted. We always know peace in choosing to let the Voice for Truth guide us.
In Peace
Brian
The desire to be led by any externally derived Guide is simply the state of any mind that as yet refuses or fears to look within. Yet in the desire to be truly guided even so - we will 'find and be found' by agencies for the Holy Spirit's guidance or Teacher Within - so as to loosen and sort the 'evil' or meaningless thoughts by which we block the capacity to feel, hear, recognise, love and extend our Holy Spirit - God's Gift of the Spirit of One.
When a Son or Daughter of God forgets his or her nature as the Extension of God - it is because that function is usurped by a 'mind that believes it knows' - and yet is not at rest, at one and sharing in the fruits of the Spirit.
Where we look and find guidance, value and meaning is where we choose to put our faith. If we put our faith in the world, we are looking at best at the reflections of the eternal truth - that is not contained in its reflection - but is the Holy Spirit Beholding and Recognition of God. More often we are seeing but symbols of the meanings we have made up in fighting a senseless battle that merely reflects a confused and divided or split mind.
Because this conflict is felt and its basis believed unconsciously or only somewhat consciously - the mind and desire of manipulation is automatically, implicitly and insidiously usurping true Authority. But it always makes its claim to meaning - and indeed righteousness - by deriving its meaning from what it is against.
It is the presumption of enmity, hostility, treachery - in effect - of an evil will. It 'sees' this will in others - in nature - and as seeking to undermine or corrupt its own mind, health or society.
It attempts to use truth to fight war. To dominate, to prevail. This is exactly how to make illusion usurp truth in our mind.
You cannot be disobedient to God - but are under illusion.
Illusion is a false or faulty formulation of reality - and if it is to be seen for what it is - rather than as what it seems to be - we must disobey the mind of guilt - by not acting from its premise. By not acting until we have awakened to or felt the Movement of wholeness and guiltlessness of the Presence of Life. And then allowing and trusting that Movement as the revealer of our true will or desire - for so it is.
To become still of self is to repent and release the mind that would make the world in its own image - and open to innocent perception.
Yet the mind of self-will and its attendant guilt are deeply habituated identifications that - until we become responsible for our own mind - can simply activate a false sense of self by which love’s presence is replaced, covered over, substituted for - and the substitute accepted as if real.
When the pervasive nature of the false self is realized to be filtering and distorting everything - there is either the collapse into a willing death of obedience to its dictates - or- a disobedience that challenges the seemingly unchallengable - with the innocence and simplicity of a child.
This 'child' is your Divinity - held in trust - awaiting your welcome.
It does not speak from the presumption of evil - but out of the peace of an innocent and single desire; the love of truth; the truth of love.
It is not for us to understand how we can 'overcome' or pass beyond the dictates of a false limitation. But only to give welcome to what is given us to desire - from God - from the inherency of our nature as unified Being.
Obedience to God is not really a matter of choice - but a matter of honesty. While it seems a matter of choice, you will feel guilty for ‘your mind’ that seems to want a selfish love - and gets a hate-love self and world in return.
This is because the mind is actively engaging in the attempt to make the unreal, real.
But in an active desire and willingness for truth to reign in your heart - you will see honestly, because you will not be engaging such a wish.
The resistance to truth must not be invested with personhood, enemy powers or stories that set you apart from your own love. Or your stories will become as your reality by your own faith.
The mind of persuasion must be disobeyed in every moment of remembering and recognition that suddenly illumines desire - thirst - for truth - amidst the illusions of choices that suggest and maintain a sense of you as 'in between'. There is nothing in between you and your Self, but an act by which are deceived in thought.
Where we look and find guidance, value and meaning is where we choose to put our faith. This simply needs to be brought to an honesty - without judgement or condemnation.
Illusion says "follow me and become free".
Truth shows you - "you are already free".
Travel the way you desire to arrive and enjoy. For we are always 'arriving in' what we have defined as our joy. To recognise a faulty choice is a happy release of the unwanted. We always know peace in choosing to let the Voice for Truth guide us.
In Peace
Brian
2010/06/20
Open hell and discover hell-o!
If concept-ion based perception is your will, you must believe that you alone are a doer, that you alone are a power - and that you are alone.
So in the ego life there is the linear story or commentary that 'sees' clocking in, climbing stairs, parking the car, putting trash in the can, as if they were mechanical processes in a mechanical world. It doesn't really see - because it believes it already knows - and that there is nothing of value to be seen except in its ‘special loves’ - or to be avoided in its ‘special hates’. It is intent on getting something done or getting to a destination of some other moment, some other place - but 666 - never a seventh day rest in which to behold the Glory and the Good that is the music, poetry and art of being. Hell is a walled off state of exclusion. A frozen heart under a tormented mind.
Open hell and discover hell-o!
Life is not dead mechanism.
You do not have to look to the dead thought (concept-idol) for meaning.
You are moved by the grace and flow of being - and can know this - in any instant where you recognise the Spirit instead of focussing on the forms and the meanings you have endowed them.
For many years I have signed my cheques 'gladly' where conventionally folks write 'only'. Good money is God money - because in its exchange God is acknowledged and remembered.
Possession possesses. Giving gifts. Receiving honours. Getting loses.
As a musician and dancer, I am aware of how dead are most humans to their body as an instrument of love's expression. How the truth is replaced with mechanical productions and hyped presentations that take the forms of Life's expression and use them to kill the Life - and so 'have' the dark in which to hide and seek for dark 'pleasures'- that are but pain disguised in false promises.
Death is not the transitional refocussing of attention whereby the body is released of an impossible burden. It is the thing we humanly tend to call life - and defend against Life by dying to unconsciousness. Desiring to Not Know - by asserting our will - our desire - to make reality serve our self-god.
T 31 F 5. You who believe that you can choose to see the Son of God
as you would have him be, forget not that no CONCEPT of yourself
will stand against the truth of what you are. (A Course in Miracles)
Nothing real is threatened.
Nothing unreal exists
(ACIM)
In gratitude for your company
Brian
So in the ego life there is the linear story or commentary that 'sees' clocking in, climbing stairs, parking the car, putting trash in the can, as if they were mechanical processes in a mechanical world. It doesn't really see - because it believes it already knows - and that there is nothing of value to be seen except in its ‘special loves’ - or to be avoided in its ‘special hates’. It is intent on getting something done or getting to a destination of some other moment, some other place - but 666 - never a seventh day rest in which to behold the Glory and the Good that is the music, poetry and art of being. Hell is a walled off state of exclusion. A frozen heart under a tormented mind.
Open hell and discover hell-o!
Life is not dead mechanism.
You do not have to look to the dead thought (concept-idol) for meaning.
You are moved by the grace and flow of being - and can know this - in any instant where you recognise the Spirit instead of focussing on the forms and the meanings you have endowed them.
For many years I have signed my cheques 'gladly' where conventionally folks write 'only'. Good money is God money - because in its exchange God is acknowledged and remembered.
Possession possesses. Giving gifts. Receiving honours. Getting loses.
As a musician and dancer, I am aware of how dead are most humans to their body as an instrument of love's expression. How the truth is replaced with mechanical productions and hyped presentations that take the forms of Life's expression and use them to kill the Life - and so 'have' the dark in which to hide and seek for dark 'pleasures'- that are but pain disguised in false promises.
Death is not the transitional refocussing of attention whereby the body is released of an impossible burden. It is the thing we humanly tend to call life - and defend against Life by dying to unconsciousness. Desiring to Not Know - by asserting our will - our desire - to make reality serve our self-god.
T 31 F 5. You who believe that you can choose to see the Son of God
as you would have him be, forget not that no CONCEPT of yourself
will stand against the truth of what you are. (A Course in Miracles)
Nothing real is threatened.
Nothing unreal exists
(ACIM)
In gratitude for your company
Brian
2010/06/13
Remembering
If the idea that you are the child of light is given welcome and allowed to become the basis of challenging the appearance and experience of darkness, such that it is undone - then the value of the idea is self evident.
But if the idea "I am a child of light" becomes itself a form of consolation and used to support living in darkness, with less discomfort - then it may be said to be used to protect the mind that wants to abide in the dark.
The dissonance that is felt in our experience when we are out of true - when we are conflicted in our desire - or wilfully asserting desire from a place of judgement - is our Divine Alarm Call.
It is difficult at first to feel the dissonance without immediately becoming triggered into self protective reactions designed to salve it, distract from it, cover it over or render it into terms that seem to make us feel less guilty. This is because we are tending to live from a mental assertion - that is CONTINUING to maintain an out of true-ness as its priority.
With practice, we can get closer to the source of - or actuality of - our sense of dilemma.
To notice or observe it BEFORE we take the ride of setting ourselves in story as 'hard done by', or subject to limitation of any kind. This is a calmer and more spacious awareness in which we can recognize and feel directly, rather than through the lens of judgement or the patterning of past association.
The habit of the mind in judgement is strong because it has been clenched long. But its only strength is what we give of our attention and reaction to it - even though we may experience it - AS IF - it were a force that we cannot overcome or that out-manoeuvres our every attempt to fix or solve or remedy.
To abide without judgement is to surrender to an acceptance of the heart; to let the heart lead; to await the movement rather than asserting the movement. This simply isn't something that can be done. It is a willingness to be undone - to allow the coming undone of a sense of self that thrives on conflict whilst purporting to overcome it.
The remembering of the Heart is of a Universal Grace. The willingness to open to truth amidst the appearance and storyline of limitation is grace. The very beingness of you that stirs from within is the all pervading Light - communicating.
Like knows like.
To be of a kind is to share the same.
Releasing guilt is the accepting of Light - not to use as a symbol within the dream - but to release the grip on the dream that gives it a grip on you.
Love flows spontaneously where the way is clear.
There is only one condition that can block love - and this is the desire that love be something it is not.
Such a desire is like a sticking point from which a little dissonance can unstick the mind - when the dissonance is appreciated as a welcome guest instead of a gatecrasher.
But the dissonance is not guilt, nor pain, nor fear nor any other meaning that has been given to it from an unwelcoming mind.
So the temptation to see and react to these 'meanings' must be passed by if you are to allow the truth to awaken in you - while using the alarm call for what it is gracefully useful for.
If you were to suffer a pain and look for its source and discover that you were in effect pinching yourself, it would not take a moment to simply stop doing so - and immediately be restored to an undistorted appreciation of the moment.
But so embedded are we in our own self-dramas, that we believe we already know what the moment holds - and are actively and fully engaged in acting out our story as if it were reality.
Jesus asked his disciples to "watch and pray with me". This was from his heart as a brother and not as an edict to elicit punishment on discovery of initial failure. This is the same as the Light in you and the willingness in you to serve the light.
Jesus forgave and forgave again and yet again, when he found the disciples asleep - and so awakened fully from the mind to which abandonment seems real.
Be aware, be attentive - and abide in the heart.
This IS the action or movement of the Heart that IS Light.
That which Moves in you - also Moves you.
be attentive not to your story - but to the direct appreciation of be ing.
Forgive yourself for the distraction whereby you forgot.
Appreciate the truth of yourself whereby you are remembered.
In this Light is extended and known again as the all pervading radiance of Truth.
Such holiness cannot be betrayed - but only forgot - in ignorant and idle wish to explore the sense of your own creativity - in private.
Happy laughter is the recognition that dissolves the appearance of such a notion.
But within the world that such wilfulness gives rise - is opposition, fear of otherness', a false sense of self and all the defence and armouring that constitutes the experience of being an orphaned consciousness in a hostile and treacherous world.
We are Children of Light and know this when we see each other in Light and see the Light in each other. Truly, the Light knows this Always and never forgets - even if we forget the Light.
Darkness is a misinterpretation of Light.
It is not for us to understand how this may be so, but for us to accept and welcome the Light by which we are, know and have our being. Even the playing out of dream images in a darkened room cannot be engaged but is utterly and entirely dependent of the Light that must be first denied in order to have an 'experience of independence'.
Yet all awareness and attention is rooted in and extending the same Life and cannot in truth become independent. In the loving is not two - nor an observer who chooses between the one or the two.
There is a membership - a family - a belonging in and expression of.
We do not need to create what is already true - but we do need to allow the truth remember us and extend through or shine in the thoughts and acts and deeds that love would have us share in place of the world and self we made up.
The nature of applying force is opposition, density and limitation.
How long and bitterly must we struggle before we question the basis of our identification?
Noticing - moments of communication - moments of communion. These moments portend the rebirth of sanity such that confusion is dispelled - to the mind that desires truth as the very foundation and context of all else.
But if the idea "I am a child of light" becomes itself a form of consolation and used to support living in darkness, with less discomfort - then it may be said to be used to protect the mind that wants to abide in the dark.
The dissonance that is felt in our experience when we are out of true - when we are conflicted in our desire - or wilfully asserting desire from a place of judgement - is our Divine Alarm Call.
It is difficult at first to feel the dissonance without immediately becoming triggered into self protective reactions designed to salve it, distract from it, cover it over or render it into terms that seem to make us feel less guilty. This is because we are tending to live from a mental assertion - that is CONTINUING to maintain an out of true-ness as its priority.
With practice, we can get closer to the source of - or actuality of - our sense of dilemma.
To notice or observe it BEFORE we take the ride of setting ourselves in story as 'hard done by', or subject to limitation of any kind. This is a calmer and more spacious awareness in which we can recognize and feel directly, rather than through the lens of judgement or the patterning of past association.
The habit of the mind in judgement is strong because it has been clenched long. But its only strength is what we give of our attention and reaction to it - even though we may experience it - AS IF - it were a force that we cannot overcome or that out-manoeuvres our every attempt to fix or solve or remedy.
To abide without judgement is to surrender to an acceptance of the heart; to let the heart lead; to await the movement rather than asserting the movement. This simply isn't something that can be done. It is a willingness to be undone - to allow the coming undone of a sense of self that thrives on conflict whilst purporting to overcome it.
The remembering of the Heart is of a Universal Grace. The willingness to open to truth amidst the appearance and storyline of limitation is grace. The very beingness of you that stirs from within is the all pervading Light - communicating.
Like knows like.
To be of a kind is to share the same.
Releasing guilt is the accepting of Light - not to use as a symbol within the dream - but to release the grip on the dream that gives it a grip on you.
Love flows spontaneously where the way is clear.
There is only one condition that can block love - and this is the desire that love be something it is not.
Such a desire is like a sticking point from which a little dissonance can unstick the mind - when the dissonance is appreciated as a welcome guest instead of a gatecrasher.
But the dissonance is not guilt, nor pain, nor fear nor any other meaning that has been given to it from an unwelcoming mind.
So the temptation to see and react to these 'meanings' must be passed by if you are to allow the truth to awaken in you - while using the alarm call for what it is gracefully useful for.
If you were to suffer a pain and look for its source and discover that you were in effect pinching yourself, it would not take a moment to simply stop doing so - and immediately be restored to an undistorted appreciation of the moment.
But so embedded are we in our own self-dramas, that we believe we already know what the moment holds - and are actively and fully engaged in acting out our story as if it were reality.
Jesus asked his disciples to "watch and pray with me". This was from his heart as a brother and not as an edict to elicit punishment on discovery of initial failure. This is the same as the Light in you and the willingness in you to serve the light.
Jesus forgave and forgave again and yet again, when he found the disciples asleep - and so awakened fully from the mind to which abandonment seems real.
Be aware, be attentive - and abide in the heart.
This IS the action or movement of the Heart that IS Light.
That which Moves in you - also Moves you.
be attentive not to your story - but to the direct appreciation of be ing.
Forgive yourself for the distraction whereby you forgot.
Appreciate the truth of yourself whereby you are remembered.
In this Light is extended and known again as the all pervading radiance of Truth.
Such holiness cannot be betrayed - but only forgot - in ignorant and idle wish to explore the sense of your own creativity - in private.
Happy laughter is the recognition that dissolves the appearance of such a notion.
But within the world that such wilfulness gives rise - is opposition, fear of otherness', a false sense of self and all the defence and armouring that constitutes the experience of being an orphaned consciousness in a hostile and treacherous world.
We are Children of Light and know this when we see each other in Light and see the Light in each other. Truly, the Light knows this Always and never forgets - even if we forget the Light.
Darkness is a misinterpretation of Light.
It is not for us to understand how this may be so, but for us to accept and welcome the Light by which we are, know and have our being. Even the playing out of dream images in a darkened room cannot be engaged but is utterly and entirely dependent of the Light that must be first denied in order to have an 'experience of independence'.
Yet all awareness and attention is rooted in and extending the same Life and cannot in truth become independent. In the loving is not two - nor an observer who chooses between the one or the two.
There is a membership - a family - a belonging in and expression of.
We do not need to create what is already true - but we do need to allow the truth remember us and extend through or shine in the thoughts and acts and deeds that love would have us share in place of the world and self we made up.
The nature of applying force is opposition, density and limitation.
How long and bitterly must we struggle before we question the basis of our identification?
Noticing - moments of communication - moments of communion. These moments portend the rebirth of sanity such that confusion is dispelled - to the mind that desires truth as the very foundation and context of all else.
2010/04/12
Awakening to the true nature of the Matrix
In the film the Matrix, Neo is shot and killed - yet suddenly ‘sees’ the true nature of the so called reality in which usury, control, war and death operate as real - and he then expresses both an invulnerability and dominion - from that realisation. Without getting involved in the film - I responded to someone who saw this as a metaphor for Awakening, and who saw many parallels with A Course in Miracles and NTI teachings.
If all we really see are thoughts in our mind that give rise to experiencing thought as an externality that then comes to define us as subject to it - and not as mind aware of and one with its thought.
To explore and discover the nature or merit of such a proposition or enquiry is a matter of free attention and the desire or movement of the heart.
The thing to become aware of is the presumption that is accepted as your starting place.
We humanly identify with self of mind in body – in a world of bodies – and believe the thought that seems to demonstrate that this is fact.
Yet beneath this is desire that sets it up and maintains it.
You can ‘stick your awareness’ out of the flow of habitual intent for a moment and have a different perspective on everything – but if the force that is behind this motive is still self generated, then it is not supported in the Movement of desire – and still constitutes an attempt to fight limitation rather than transcend it.
So my sense is that the truth – and the love of truth – must be welcomed and nurtured to grow in that which, before, I guarded and wielded as - ‘my life’.
The purpose and nature of truth has never been to validate my specialness – nor even to support and maintain my demand to identify with judgement as the determiner of reality.
It has always been the purpose and nature of truth to be self-revealing – to itself – in love – as love. But our notion of love is so distorted and reversed that it may be more helpful to simply let truth be self revealing – and let that discovery be the intimate and direct experience of all that is – in truth.
The freedom to shift attention and location or act from beyond the accepted limits and laws of matterial reality, cannot be the activity of a body – or a mind that believes it is a body - or the mind that believes itself separated from Mind - in contrast and opposition to others.
This is because the locking in of the mind in a fragment of itself – in demand that that this be its special home and protection – and weapon – is the forfeit of the conscious participation in Truth - until its purpose is changed.
My sense is that the way to be restored to our true participation in a Greater Life than the world knows – is the free relinquishment of self will or specialness.
This is generally humiliating experience of disempowerment in terms of the world – yet not a self selected act for that is just another self based ploy to exercise judgement.
So in being ‘simply human’ and embracing the felt ordinary humanity of my day – I am inevitably brought to moments of noticing – that arise from truth and not from self-effort. The choice I then have is one of NOT recycling or repeating the ‘old habit’ of self illusion. In THAT willingness truth is made welcome and I feel such relationship alive as joy – as inspiration – and so forth.
The capacity of the mind to try to jump ahead of its Master (The Awakened Heart), is easily observable. Wisdom is also a willingness to be a beginner – so that the first step is always the kneeling in the heart. Then the next step is guided – and even if what is guided seems to be difficult or impossible – you are with One who is holding your hand and maintaining your steadiness of intent – despite the old habits of thought.
I am now reminded to say that – to actually practice in such cooperative loving – we have to release the wonderful understandings we had gained and cherish as if they themselves can feed us – and turn in trust to the source of all insight and guidance in willingness and trust.
This ‘awakening process’ is not a loss of self, but until truth grows as the light of true awareness, the thought based substitute inevitably enacts its drama of self upon and around every instance of awakening. But awakening is merely attention to truth.
Let truth directly replace the assertions of thought that I had wanted to believe instead – because I would be at one and not at war.
And because I would let love Be with me , on terms I do not set – for I will not to be alone.
And yes – to see and be from MIND constitutes awakened being. Whereas to act out from a presumption of being ‘a mind’, is to be filtered and distorted by separated specialness. I associate the release of mind into Mind as ‘holding hands’ in trust and so moving through great fear.
And I am seeing now how great the cost – is the grasping to ourselves of this ‘special love’ - by which truth is rendered impotent and void.
Yet all that is truly lovely is in and of truth and nothing I could truly want could come to me from a presumption of specialness.
It isn't that I must fight the temptation that sees everything in terms of a deceptive ‘self interest’. But that I must become a willingness to stop the mind, listen in trust and move with the Movement that is felt in the heart. (Or I will re-enact the fall/separation/crucifiction and experience it as real).
I’m quite happy to also explore such stories as the Matrix – but how can you represent the Wholeness in terms of a part – without making the part ‘special’?
All attempts to communicate the transpersonal in terms of a world of persons will have both strengths and liabilities. If the liabilities are not indulged - the teachings serve the heart’s awakening. This is because the guidance of the heart is being followed in undoing the liabilities of separated self-will.
The perspective of wholeness has dominion because its parts have not actually any separated power in their own right, and because there is no opposition to any aspect of what is recognised as ‘within’. True Dominion is not at all one of subduing a weaker or indeed dark power. It is Expression of Creator at one with – and completed by Creation.
To bring this Idea more humanly accessible – consider being a chairman or facilitation in a meeting whose members express apparently conflicting goals and intents. Your function is not to take sides – but to serve the whole – as a unified expression of intent and not merely some mechanical vote system. So you put your own thought aside and listen and feel and serve the process of real communication in which no voice is deprived from speaking and no voice is deprived from being heard. Because of the way in which you have served, the group’s willingness to communicate will discover the next step in which it can all freely agree to walk together. The Heart has dominion.
So consider the true cause of the seeming inability of the heart to communicate. It is not really the fear of hurt and rejection – but is the direct symptom of the desire to maintain a private will – with some story that ‘justifies’ the denial of the heart. (a cock crows thrice?)
What is an unshared love but a current neglect?
in Love's blessing
Brian
If all we really see are thoughts in our mind that give rise to experiencing thought as an externality that then comes to define us as subject to it - and not as mind aware of and one with its thought.
To explore and discover the nature or merit of such a proposition or enquiry is a matter of free attention and the desire or movement of the heart.
The thing to become aware of is the presumption that is accepted as your starting place.
We humanly identify with self of mind in body – in a world of bodies – and believe the thought that seems to demonstrate that this is fact.
Yet beneath this is desire that sets it up and maintains it.
You can ‘stick your awareness’ out of the flow of habitual intent for a moment and have a different perspective on everything – but if the force that is behind this motive is still self generated, then it is not supported in the Movement of desire – and still constitutes an attempt to fight limitation rather than transcend it.
So my sense is that the truth – and the love of truth – must be welcomed and nurtured to grow in that which, before, I guarded and wielded as - ‘my life’.
The purpose and nature of truth has never been to validate my specialness – nor even to support and maintain my demand to identify with judgement as the determiner of reality.
It has always been the purpose and nature of truth to be self-revealing – to itself – in love – as love. But our notion of love is so distorted and reversed that it may be more helpful to simply let truth be self revealing – and let that discovery be the intimate and direct experience of all that is – in truth.
The freedom to shift attention and location or act from beyond the accepted limits and laws of matterial reality, cannot be the activity of a body – or a mind that believes it is a body - or the mind that believes itself separated from Mind - in contrast and opposition to others.
This is because the locking in of the mind in a fragment of itself – in demand that that this be its special home and protection – and weapon – is the forfeit of the conscious participation in Truth - until its purpose is changed.
My sense is that the way to be restored to our true participation in a Greater Life than the world knows – is the free relinquishment of self will or specialness.
This is generally humiliating experience of disempowerment in terms of the world – yet not a self selected act for that is just another self based ploy to exercise judgement.
So in being ‘simply human’ and embracing the felt ordinary humanity of my day – I am inevitably brought to moments of noticing – that arise from truth and not from self-effort. The choice I then have is one of NOT recycling or repeating the ‘old habit’ of self illusion. In THAT willingness truth is made welcome and I feel such relationship alive as joy – as inspiration – and so forth.
The capacity of the mind to try to jump ahead of its Master (The Awakened Heart), is easily observable. Wisdom is also a willingness to be a beginner – so that the first step is always the kneeling in the heart. Then the next step is guided – and even if what is guided seems to be difficult or impossible – you are with One who is holding your hand and maintaining your steadiness of intent – despite the old habits of thought.
I am now reminded to say that – to actually practice in such cooperative loving – we have to release the wonderful understandings we had gained and cherish as if they themselves can feed us – and turn in trust to the source of all insight and guidance in willingness and trust.
This ‘awakening process’ is not a loss of self, but until truth grows as the light of true awareness, the thought based substitute inevitably enacts its drama of self upon and around every instance of awakening. But awakening is merely attention to truth.
Let truth directly replace the assertions of thought that I had wanted to believe instead – because I would be at one and not at war.
And because I would let love Be with me , on terms I do not set – for I will not to be alone.
And yes – to see and be from MIND constitutes awakened being. Whereas to act out from a presumption of being ‘a mind’, is to be filtered and distorted by separated specialness. I associate the release of mind into Mind as ‘holding hands’ in trust and so moving through great fear.
And I am seeing now how great the cost – is the grasping to ourselves of this ‘special love’ - by which truth is rendered impotent and void.
Yet all that is truly lovely is in and of truth and nothing I could truly want could come to me from a presumption of specialness.
It isn't that I must fight the temptation that sees everything in terms of a deceptive ‘self interest’. But that I must become a willingness to stop the mind, listen in trust and move with the Movement that is felt in the heart. (Or I will re-enact the fall/separation/crucifiction and experience it as real).
I’m quite happy to also explore such stories as the Matrix – but how can you represent the Wholeness in terms of a part – without making the part ‘special’?
All attempts to communicate the transpersonal in terms of a world of persons will have both strengths and liabilities. If the liabilities are not indulged - the teachings serve the heart’s awakening. This is because the guidance of the heart is being followed in undoing the liabilities of separated self-will.
The perspective of wholeness has dominion because its parts have not actually any separated power in their own right, and because there is no opposition to any aspect of what is recognised as ‘within’. True Dominion is not at all one of subduing a weaker or indeed dark power. It is Expression of Creator at one with – and completed by Creation.
To bring this Idea more humanly accessible – consider being a chairman or facilitation in a meeting whose members express apparently conflicting goals and intents. Your function is not to take sides – but to serve the whole – as a unified expression of intent and not merely some mechanical vote system. So you put your own thought aside and listen and feel and serve the process of real communication in which no voice is deprived from speaking and no voice is deprived from being heard. Because of the way in which you have served, the group’s willingness to communicate will discover the next step in which it can all freely agree to walk together. The Heart has dominion.
So consider the true cause of the seeming inability of the heart to communicate. It is not really the fear of hurt and rejection – but is the direct symptom of the desire to maintain a private will – with some story that ‘justifies’ the denial of the heart. (a cock crows thrice?)
What is an unshared love but a current neglect?
in Love's blessing
Brian
2010/04/01
When teachings talk of the illusion of the world
I feel the teaching awakens or re-minds an awareness in stillness such that, instead of running with the notions of self and world that habitually arise from the past, attention is rested in a greater flow of being – that is already the case but was forgot while it was ‘self engaged’.
It is the ‘self seriousness’ arising from engagement with self image and the mind of judgement that upholds it, that costs us the appreciation and sharing of Life.
To ‘put down’ our role and accept that we are the maker of the script is to confess and relinquish specialness. I say confess, because we know it is a mean spirited an unloving thought that uses others and all things selfishly - and we associate it with guilt – without realising that guilt is simply the continuation of specialness; a condition of self illusion.
If you haven't seen a fake 16 dollar bill, then that is because there is not a real 16 dollar bill to make a copy of. A fake dollar bill is an illusion of ‘something’ real.
To be awake and appreciative of the original is an appreciation and recognition of the real. It is when we try to grasp or stop life, analyse it and define it so as to be able to say something ‘about reality’ - that we invariable enter the arena of the mind and vocabulary of separation.
Because the awareness and the object of awareness are not actually two. Nor is the object of awareness outside you. This is hardly obvious while the role given by the script is identified with as ‘me’. And it is hardly obvious that a script is running while I believe I can look outside and see enemy, threat, and unworthiness of love. Yet opposition is the purpose that gives a sense of a self in limitation, drama and struggle. When it is no longer wanted, it is no longer cultivated.
The Teacher of peace offers the ‘Living World’ to the learner of peace. Peace itself is not learned, but the conditions of war have been, and must be left unused. This is like learning you but hurt yourself – and now learning not to do that – in order to awaken truly beyond hurt or hurting.
In Peace
Brian
What you have given specialness has left you bankrupt, and your treasure-house barren and empty, with an open door inviting everything that would disturb your peace to enter and destroy. ~ A Course in Miracles T24
In dreams effect and cause are interchanged, for here the maker of the dream believes that what he made is happening TO him. He does NOT realize he picked a thread from here, a scrap from there, and wove a picture
out of nothing. For the parts do NOT belong together, and the whole contributes nothing to the parts to GIVE them meaning. ~ A Course in Miracles T24
It is the ‘self seriousness’ arising from engagement with self image and the mind of judgement that upholds it, that costs us the appreciation and sharing of Life.
To ‘put down’ our role and accept that we are the maker of the script is to confess and relinquish specialness. I say confess, because we know it is a mean spirited an unloving thought that uses others and all things selfishly - and we associate it with guilt – without realising that guilt is simply the continuation of specialness; a condition of self illusion.
If you haven't seen a fake 16 dollar bill, then that is because there is not a real 16 dollar bill to make a copy of. A fake dollar bill is an illusion of ‘something’ real.
To be awake and appreciative of the original is an appreciation and recognition of the real. It is when we try to grasp or stop life, analyse it and define it so as to be able to say something ‘about reality’ - that we invariable enter the arena of the mind and vocabulary of separation.
Because the awareness and the object of awareness are not actually two. Nor is the object of awareness outside you. This is hardly obvious while the role given by the script is identified with as ‘me’. And it is hardly obvious that a script is running while I believe I can look outside and see enemy, threat, and unworthiness of love. Yet opposition is the purpose that gives a sense of a self in limitation, drama and struggle. When it is no longer wanted, it is no longer cultivated.
The Teacher of peace offers the ‘Living World’ to the learner of peace. Peace itself is not learned, but the conditions of war have been, and must be left unused. This is like learning you but hurt yourself – and now learning not to do that – in order to awaken truly beyond hurt or hurting.
In Peace
Brian
What you have given specialness has left you bankrupt, and your treasure-house barren and empty, with an open door inviting everything that would disturb your peace to enter and destroy. ~ A Course in Miracles T24
In dreams effect and cause are interchanged, for here the maker of the dream believes that what he made is happening TO him. He does NOT realize he picked a thread from here, a scrap from there, and wove a picture
out of nothing. For the parts do NOT belong together, and the whole contributes nothing to the parts to GIVE them meaning. ~ A Course in Miracles T24
2010/02/15
Do You want to die? Or would You rather Awaken?
I don't equate death with 'physical death'.
The desire for death - (which is unconsciously active) - is of a desire to 'be' different than life. To experience different than Is. A special and partial experience of being.
That desire is active in the mind of the sleeping Son of God - (or the Divine Expression of Mind). But it cannot actually cause anything real to be born or to die. It can cause the mind to become engaged and identified in figments of its own fragmented sense of itself. And it can believe it has changed or lost eternal and universal being - as a result. And as it believes so will it experience.
Who are you?
If you answer from the past - you are identifying with the desire to die - regardless of the form. For to be different than reality as it is - is:
1. a mad idea worthy of laughter.
2. a delusion which makes life appear as death and death appear as life.
3. a confusion by which desire for death is protected from life so as to continue to think different.
4. a sense of self that is false - which distorts or obstructs the appreciation of the truly shared - which is real.
5. a drive to get one's self validated or saved or justified - so that it no longer feels threatened - or undermined - by the Movement of Being - as it Is.
6. to not be - or to become altogether unaware. In other words - to die.
Death is not an option in truth - but nor is an independent mind in a body in a world 'out there'.
So it is the desire for limitation, exclusion, separation - or playing the game of judgement - which is the issue. For death is not an alternative to reality or to the awakening to awareness of reality as it is.
But the desire for an alternative - will make there seem to be a way of looking at All in All as if it is all revolving around your wish and dancing to your own meanings.
Give everything to God - why? Because that is the way to restore acceptance and inclusive peace.
Jesus showed this as the way to remain continuously conscious through the process that we have come to call death.
Practice this in every waking moment by letting one will replace a will born of division.
I sometimes feel this is like dying while we are still alive - for the release of the self-will is felt as death to the perspective of the thinking that believes itself real. Yet in awakened peace - and in loves unified embrace - there can be no loss, no death and no thought capable of changing or even interrupting Reality.
This is already the case and only by accepting love that rises of itself from the condition of peace can our mind be released of its error.
Such that when idle thoughts suggest a dillemna of options - you simply let reality Be.
For the love of truth is no home for meaningless thoughts.
The desire for death - (which is unconsciously active) - is of a desire to 'be' different than life. To experience different than Is. A special and partial experience of being.
That desire is active in the mind of the sleeping Son of God - (or the Divine Expression of Mind). But it cannot actually cause anything real to be born or to die. It can cause the mind to become engaged and identified in figments of its own fragmented sense of itself. And it can believe it has changed or lost eternal and universal being - as a result. And as it believes so will it experience.
Who are you?
If you answer from the past - you are identifying with the desire to die - regardless of the form. For to be different than reality as it is - is:
1. a mad idea worthy of laughter.
2. a delusion which makes life appear as death and death appear as life.
3. a confusion by which desire for death is protected from life so as to continue to think different.
4. a sense of self that is false - which distorts or obstructs the appreciation of the truly shared - which is real.
5. a drive to get one's self validated or saved or justified - so that it no longer feels threatened - or undermined - by the Movement of Being - as it Is.
6. to not be - or to become altogether unaware. In other words - to die.
Death is not an option in truth - but nor is an independent mind in a body in a world 'out there'.
So it is the desire for limitation, exclusion, separation - or playing the game of judgement - which is the issue. For death is not an alternative to reality or to the awakening to awareness of reality as it is.
But the desire for an alternative - will make there seem to be a way of looking at All in All as if it is all revolving around your wish and dancing to your own meanings.
Give everything to God - why? Because that is the way to restore acceptance and inclusive peace.
Jesus showed this as the way to remain continuously conscious through the process that we have come to call death.
Practice this in every waking moment by letting one will replace a will born of division.
I sometimes feel this is like dying while we are still alive - for the release of the self-will is felt as death to the perspective of the thinking that believes itself real. Yet in awakened peace - and in loves unified embrace - there can be no loss, no death and no thought capable of changing or even interrupting Reality.
This is already the case and only by accepting love that rises of itself from the condition of peace can our mind be released of its error.
Such that when idle thoughts suggest a dillemna of options - you simply let reality Be.
For the love of truth is no home for meaningless thoughts.
2008/11/11
Ego identity is a mind trap
Ego identity is a mind trap. In software terms it is called an infinite loop - and it runs mechanically on until a different desire (program) replaces it as the active creative intent. At this level there is the freedom of true desire or the unfreedom of false desire. This is not really a choice! - but from following the false desire we have created the illusion of choice - and while we believe in it - we must consistently choose with willingness for truth - or the program of self illusion runs on until the next window of opportunity that notices or is called awake.
I recall the mediation image of sitting as the witness watching the river of all that arises to awareness and the meditation is simply to allow observation of all that arises without push or pull.
The actual practice may tend to be that of identifying with thought processes and waking up to that attention has been completely preoccupied for a period of thoughts. But that is the re-wakening of present awareness where the practice simply resumes. Whatever arises - allow it to be. In this process insight arises and can be allowed in the same manner but if the observer and the observed cease to be experienced as separate states then it is like the one in the sidecar with a fake steering wheel is not here. What is - Speaks Itself and knows itself.
When we awaken we see that there was never a moment when we were absent. For absence of Is can not be.
The only reason this is not obvious is by virtue of preferring to think you are the thinker.
In identification with the objects of your thought, you engage your attention within your imagination presenting perceptions faithful to your investment.
But there is only empty forms here. Not a life at all but a dream of a life.
Yet every instant of Life is a noticing - an awakening - to a direct awareness that bleeds through from time to time because we are not capable of suppressing life totally for it is what we are. Inescapably.
But it is soon wrapped and filtered in the world terms such as to be absorbed as part of the dream which is seeking to protect itself in your name.
What the world calls love is designed to keep an underlying hate denied. Denial is an ability made by the ego - so we let it be re-purposed by Holy Spirit who can use it on behalf of our truth instead of against it.
We give as we receive. And we receive as we give.
Though this can be seen within time its potency is always addressing our present.
Without denial the mind would recycle insanity-nonsense forever.
Deny access to anything whose purpose and intent is the undermining of your peace in which you discern and feel and know the love that you are.
Or in A Course in Miracles terms: 'deny the denial of truth'.
This goes on very fruitfully with regard to denial and to anyone reading who is interested - it is taken from:
A Course in Miracles: Text: Chapter 12. The Holy Spirit's Curriculum. I. The Judgment of the Holy Spirit.
A Course in Miracles earliest editions are not copyrighted and can be read or downloaded freely online or bought from most bookstores.
One of many where it can be read online is http://courseinmiracles.com which I randomly googled as a convenience in case you want to follow from this page.
I recall the mediation image of sitting as the witness watching the river of all that arises to awareness and the meditation is simply to allow observation of all that arises without push or pull.
The actual practice may tend to be that of identifying with thought processes and waking up to that attention has been completely preoccupied for a period of thoughts. But that is the re-wakening of present awareness where the practice simply resumes. Whatever arises - allow it to be. In this process insight arises and can be allowed in the same manner but if the observer and the observed cease to be experienced as separate states then it is like the one in the sidecar with a fake steering wheel is not here. What is - Speaks Itself and knows itself.
When we awaken we see that there was never a moment when we were absent. For absence of Is can not be.
The only reason this is not obvious is by virtue of preferring to think you are the thinker.
In identification with the objects of your thought, you engage your attention within your imagination presenting perceptions faithful to your investment.
But there is only empty forms here. Not a life at all but a dream of a life.
Yet every instant of Life is a noticing - an awakening - to a direct awareness that bleeds through from time to time because we are not capable of suppressing life totally for it is what we are. Inescapably.
But it is soon wrapped and filtered in the world terms such as to be absorbed as part of the dream which is seeking to protect itself in your name.
What the world calls love is designed to keep an underlying hate denied. Denial is an ability made by the ego - so we let it be re-purposed by Holy Spirit who can use it on behalf of our truth instead of against it.
We give as we receive. And we receive as we give.
Though this can be seen within time its potency is always addressing our present.
Without denial the mind would recycle insanity-nonsense forever.
Deny access to anything whose purpose and intent is the undermining of your peace in which you discern and feel and know the love that you are.
Or in A Course in Miracles terms: 'deny the denial of truth'.
The Way to Remember God
Miracles are merely the translation of denial into truth.
If to love oneself is to heal oneself, those who are sick do not love themselves.
Therefore, they are asking for the love that would heal them, but which they are denying to themselves.
If they knew the truth about themselves they could not be sick.
The task of the miracle worker thus becomes to deny the denial of truth.
The sick must heal themselves, for the truth is in them.
Yet having obscured it, the light in another mind must shine into theirs because that light is theirs.
This goes on very fruitfully with regard to denial and to anyone reading who is interested - it is taken from:
A Course in Miracles: Text: Chapter 12. The Holy Spirit's Curriculum. I. The Judgment of the Holy Spirit.
A Course in Miracles earliest editions are not copyrighted and can be read or downloaded freely online or bought from most bookstores.
One of many where it can be read online is http://courseinmiracles.com which I randomly googled as a convenience in case you want to follow from this page.
2007/11/27
Holy Spirit Mind
Holy-Spirit-Mind
offers replacement
for the separate I.
step by Step
by
step.
Its peace
shares
freely.
Here by release
of the ‘not so’
an already truth
reveals
Nothing Real
is threatened.
The ego is a how-to
a way not-to
release asserted limitation.
its ‘knowing’
my forgetting.
But in a moment
Forgetting to forget
Neglecting to neglect
Is noticing
the ego self
is not I
Nothing unreal
exists!
Though attention
muscles itself
clenched upon,
as mind un-shared,
as if ‘as if’ were real.
The Peace of God
abides
Perfectly
Herein
And cannot be undone
for Father IS the Truth of Son
Draw comfort that discomfort
may be embraced as witness
to a left behind mind
Enjoin your own
in choosing Joy
as I-with-Thee
for all are called
as I am calling
Thee.
Brian in a moment
offers replacement
for the separate I.
step by Step
by
step.
Its peace
shares
freely.
Here by release
of the ‘not so’
an already truth
reveals
Nothing Real
is threatened.
The ego is a how-to
a way not-to
release asserted limitation.
its ‘knowing’
my forgetting.
But in a moment
Forgetting to forget
Neglecting to neglect
Is noticing
the ego self
is not I
Nothing unreal
exists!
Though attention
muscles itself
clenched upon,
as mind un-shared,
as if ‘as if’ were real.
The Peace of God
abides
Perfectly
Herein
And cannot be undone
for Father IS the Truth of Son
Draw comfort that discomfort
may be embraced as witness
to a left behind mind
Enjoin your own
in choosing Joy
as I-with-Thee
for all are called
as I am calling
Thee.
Brian in a moment
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