The active focus of our awareness is beneath - or prior to - the seeming actions and distractions that constitute our experience of being a person in a world.
It is like being focused on a prism thought, by which a split mind plays out a power of choosing between. Any power it seems to have being given to it by your attention and intention - for such is how we accord value and 'choose' is it not?
We can not ever truly or finally choose or accept a choice that isn't there to choose and Rest Complete in fulfilment, and yet while we dally with the promises of choosing - as if there was something in a specialness of self creation that we actually want - then we refuse to let go the patterns of self by which we voluntarily suffer our own attack on our Peace.
To open, even for an instant at a time, to a true perspective upon the nature of our unforgiveness or un-release, is to open a space in which to see not from within a prismed split sense, but clearly and directly, in wholeness.
Such direct experience is not happening TO a you - but is expressing an entirely redeeming restatement of you and your world. Redeeming, because it locates and knows all that it is - within Wholeness, of One Mind, of One Will, as One Body. This may not seem so, because any interpretations of direct experience - made after the fact - will tend to reinstate the framework of the thinking judging defining 'self'. To be able to discern within direct experience will come with a capacity to abide as it.
But as such Light of direct Awareness, That Is recognizably awakening and transforming you, grows your conscious awareness - it is realized to Be your conscious awareness. To be the Presence and the Gift of You.
The substitutions of thinking will fade, fall away or dissatisfy, and with them, the 'self' that seemed once to have completely engaged your attention. Yet You are presently in Expression as the sharing of the gift of the awareness of love - because there is nothing else. And yet such an acceptance of peace of being does not make fanfare in or make special the mind through which the world is yet experienced. But it does yield its experience to a guiltlessness, that is pictured out as action unwithheld, presence unwithdrawn, truth allowed plainly to speak instead of covered over or kept secret.
Taking off the pressure on the brakes, seems like losing control. Taking off the pressure on the accelerator, seems like losing excitement. Losing control seems like losing something that you actually believed you had. But never for a moment have we had anything but an illusion of control via the holding to our Mind's Eye of a wish to be what we are not.
To identify with thought, invites dissonant experience of separate meanings, that can seem to conflict and influence each other in an endless dance of no consequence. But to release identification with thought is to forgive the separating wish, and to be danced from thought based meanings into one Light.
Abide in Me, as I abide in Thee.
And allow the Life,
Already Given,
To Share
What Already Is.
Interjections of old habits
are evidence of
the interjections of old habits.
Make nothing of them,
and even these will be used
as witnesses to Wholeness.
Watch what you place on the altar of your desire.
Pray for the uncovering of the true desire of your heart.
Your willingness and your free attention is miracle ready
Because love is no longer being actively excluded.
Let no thought of your own become the seed of action,
and Thoughts of One shall reveal the whole to you,
as your gifts are remembered and gratefully received.
Do not impose teachings amidst your loving.
A starter motor is not to be kept running.
A Universal Language needs no translation.
When there is no one outside - do not run to the door to tell them so!
In Peace
Brian
Showing posts with label Self realisation. Show all posts
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2011/12/21
2011/04/06
Fear of Life
http://thefearoflife.org
This is writing that came from reading the essay at the above link. It simply offers into a thread of conversation.
Fear of life seems to be autonomous or automatic, and expresses itself as a polarised experience in which the world - or external conditions, are felt to be imposed or to impose themselves upon a focal point of awareness that contracts upon itself as an inwardness of thought and withdrawal from full and free relatedness.
The identification of self with the inward thinking mind becomes a foundation from which the mind looks out, and an identification that calls on the power of mind to justify, validate and defend. Yet what is asserted, maintained and defended as self is the very nature of fear of life, but expressed outwardly in attempt to avoid the undoing of the sense of self definition that arises naturally in a true relatedness. For life is not as the mind of definition would have and hold. It is already here and it is awareness, knows feeling, and shares or communicates presence universally or without limit - in edgeless wholeness.
The mind of human has a cultural sense of the prior reality as Soul or Spirit, but in the attempt to use the pathways of remembering as the extension of its own seeming power to become a something in its own right, it trades in a living sense of idea felt in the peace of the heart, for a dry concept - with magical associations in the continued wish for a special sense of self-becoming.
Fear of life is on surface identified with external threat, and strategies are developed to overcome or mitigate or manage the threat so as to regain or attain a sense of order and stability in which to pursue self interest without opposition. In other words there is the desire to win, to prevail, or to triumph, and this will is a demanding and accepting only its own way.
The assertion of self will is the expression of opposition and it meets opposition. This experience will become intolerable and the mind will develop strategies of dissociation in order to manipulate situations that cannot be won outright. In other words, we develop a mask, a persona, a virtual self that itself is a proxy or extension of a sense of self founded in polarised or split identification.
The play of the mind in virtualisation is experienced as real but it is an overlay of imagination upon and within Mind or Life itself. The wish and presumption of independence of self is itself the single most blinding condition to the conscious appreciation of, and participation in - and as - Unified Life.
The currency of support for the separate self sense is definition or judgement, which is always an act of exclusion from Living Presence. Image, symbol, concept and story, have fleshed out a time and space distraction amidst and in place of, the timeless nature of being.
When the desire for the experience of distraction wears thin, the desire to know and love reality as it is awakens or stirs as the truth of you, and the mind is led back to a true understanding and acceptance in which it releases or forgives what it believed it had done and become and accepts in its place the true foundation of all being.
The world ceases to be used as a playground for self experience in which to prevail and becomes the opportunity to remember truth and share the love that moves as the nature of being in a true freedom or spontaneity. That the old habit remains is beside the point because the purpose has changed. It will now become apparent that one but fights oneself and this cannot be engaged with passion or conviction and so the basis on which the mind is working has to be seen so as to release the cycle of an old and unwanted habit.
The nature of the experience of Being has been talked of in terms of love, peace, joy and creative freedom and these can point the way, but the experience-hungry mentality of a sense of self lack cannot see or have anything directly to do with reality excepting that even an imaginary mind is directly is wholly dependant on reality to even seem to be real.
The honesty of not knowing coincides with the release of surface certainties and allows the rising of depth to know itself from its own nature and being - instead of the assertions and demands of form based meaning. To thought this could seem fearful - as if the depth is an otherness that takes one over, but in practice it is the shedding of fear and the allowing of embrace. And in terms of the world and its self, a fresh appreciation extends as a step. The step is not a new definition to use in handling the world, the step is a step in undoing the mind that believes its experience in the world is its true life. For the transcendence of experience is the release of the fearful and glamourous adventure of limitation and suffering for a light and presence of being in which all things are made new - that is to say a timeless revelation that neither comes or goes of which nothing can be said - for the attempt to say is but the activity of a mind in story; a wish, a self defining usurpation of an always already perfect communication.
When we find but our thoughts we have simply not uncovered the willingness to let ourselves in, but the willingness to let our thought be seen as it is rather than as it thinks is the growing of the willingness to accept truth as it is, and be free of suggestions and associations which colour, cloud and confuse, whereby the truth of love is forgot.
This is writing that came from reading the essay at the above link. It simply offers into a thread of conversation.
Fear of life seems to be autonomous or automatic, and expresses itself as a polarised experience in which the world - or external conditions, are felt to be imposed or to impose themselves upon a focal point of awareness that contracts upon itself as an inwardness of thought and withdrawal from full and free relatedness.
The identification of self with the inward thinking mind becomes a foundation from which the mind looks out, and an identification that calls on the power of mind to justify, validate and defend. Yet what is asserted, maintained and defended as self is the very nature of fear of life, but expressed outwardly in attempt to avoid the undoing of the sense of self definition that arises naturally in a true relatedness. For life is not as the mind of definition would have and hold. It is already here and it is awareness, knows feeling, and shares or communicates presence universally or without limit - in edgeless wholeness.
The mind of human has a cultural sense of the prior reality as Soul or Spirit, but in the attempt to use the pathways of remembering as the extension of its own seeming power to become a something in its own right, it trades in a living sense of idea felt in the peace of the heart, for a dry concept - with magical associations in the continued wish for a special sense of self-becoming.
Fear of life is on surface identified with external threat, and strategies are developed to overcome or mitigate or manage the threat so as to regain or attain a sense of order and stability in which to pursue self interest without opposition. In other words there is the desire to win, to prevail, or to triumph, and this will is a demanding and accepting only its own way.
The assertion of self will is the expression of opposition and it meets opposition. This experience will become intolerable and the mind will develop strategies of dissociation in order to manipulate situations that cannot be won outright. In other words, we develop a mask, a persona, a virtual self that itself is a proxy or extension of a sense of self founded in polarised or split identification.
The play of the mind in virtualisation is experienced as real but it is an overlay of imagination upon and within Mind or Life itself. The wish and presumption of independence of self is itself the single most blinding condition to the conscious appreciation of, and participation in - and as - Unified Life.
The currency of support for the separate self sense is definition or judgement, which is always an act of exclusion from Living Presence. Image, symbol, concept and story, have fleshed out a time and space distraction amidst and in place of, the timeless nature of being.
When the desire for the experience of distraction wears thin, the desire to know and love reality as it is awakens or stirs as the truth of you, and the mind is led back to a true understanding and acceptance in which it releases or forgives what it believed it had done and become and accepts in its place the true foundation of all being.
The world ceases to be used as a playground for self experience in which to prevail and becomes the opportunity to remember truth and share the love that moves as the nature of being in a true freedom or spontaneity. That the old habit remains is beside the point because the purpose has changed. It will now become apparent that one but fights oneself and this cannot be engaged with passion or conviction and so the basis on which the mind is working has to be seen so as to release the cycle of an old and unwanted habit.
The nature of the experience of Being has been talked of in terms of love, peace, joy and creative freedom and these can point the way, but the experience-hungry mentality of a sense of self lack cannot see or have anything directly to do with reality excepting that even an imaginary mind is directly is wholly dependant on reality to even seem to be real.
The honesty of not knowing coincides with the release of surface certainties and allows the rising of depth to know itself from its own nature and being - instead of the assertions and demands of form based meaning. To thought this could seem fearful - as if the depth is an otherness that takes one over, but in practice it is the shedding of fear and the allowing of embrace. And in terms of the world and its self, a fresh appreciation extends as a step. The step is not a new definition to use in handling the world, the step is a step in undoing the mind that believes its experience in the world is its true life. For the transcendence of experience is the release of the fearful and glamourous adventure of limitation and suffering for a light and presence of being in which all things are made new - that is to say a timeless revelation that neither comes or goes of which nothing can be said - for the attempt to say is but the activity of a mind in story; a wish, a self defining usurpation of an always already perfect communication.
When we find but our thoughts we have simply not uncovered the willingness to let ourselves in, but the willingness to let our thought be seen as it is rather than as it thinks is the growing of the willingness to accept truth as it is, and be free of suggestions and associations which colour, cloud and confuse, whereby the truth of love is forgot.
2010/07/09
Do you live or do you dream of life?
The seeker of truth is not Awake - or he would not seek.
He is not identifying with life directly - but mythologically. Does he or did he ever really exist in the terms that he presumes to be his self? - No - but belief and identification are really given to the images, definitions and ideas.
Truth is not subject to opinions, theories, philosophical ideas or concepts - that can be woven to clothe insight or to simply express wishful thinking - and taken as if they had potency in themselves. They have only - but not less than - all power given them by belief and desire.
Holy Spirit uses the contents of your mind to awaken you to that you Are Mind. None of the contents are in themselves truth - though they can be sorted and purified by the Holy Spirit to reflect and serve truth.
As Mind - you are not independent, nor differentiated exclusively. You could say you were in a state of radiant openness that has not collapsed into an identification of form. This does not cease to be so when your attention does become distracted by desire, differentiation and form.
But trying to talk this into realisation is absurd because the talking mind wants to understand everything in its terms. To engage in talking as if we could define and determine truth is to persist in blocking the movement of truth from our own awareness.
The primary desire of the truth moving in us and as us is to "Know Thy Self".
That is why we "do nothing" and let God.
If all that you think you are seems to compel your attention to collapse or withdraw 'self protectively' - you may find that "doing nothing" is the faith and willingness whose practice burns out the identification patterns of a private will.
He is not identifying with life directly - but mythologically. Does he or did he ever really exist in the terms that he presumes to be his self? - No - but belief and identification are really given to the images, definitions and ideas.
Truth is not subject to opinions, theories, philosophical ideas or concepts - that can be woven to clothe insight or to simply express wishful thinking - and taken as if they had potency in themselves. They have only - but not less than - all power given them by belief and desire.
Holy Spirit uses the contents of your mind to awaken you to that you Are Mind. None of the contents are in themselves truth - though they can be sorted and purified by the Holy Spirit to reflect and serve truth.
As Mind - you are not independent, nor differentiated exclusively. You could say you were in a state of radiant openness that has not collapsed into an identification of form. This does not cease to be so when your attention does become distracted by desire, differentiation and form.
But trying to talk this into realisation is absurd because the talking mind wants to understand everything in its terms. To engage in talking as if we could define and determine truth is to persist in blocking the movement of truth from our own awareness.
The primary desire of the truth moving in us and as us is to "Know Thy Self".
That is why we "do nothing" and let God.
If all that you think you are seems to compel your attention to collapse or withdraw 'self protectively' - you may find that "doing nothing" is the faith and willingness whose practice burns out the identification patterns of a private will.
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