The ‘fear of God’ isn't really fear of God - but is the fear that becomes visible as it is undone by an unobstructed welcome to Light.
The presence-ing of God - is all there is - as all of this - right where you are.
Not God presence-ing to you - or for you.
Any attempt to interpret such direct and present awareness via the identity and perspective of limited mind will induce terror and trigger defence in re-enactment of the separation wish. This should hardly be surprising to one who has awoken to the law of mind - that the effect is an extension or projection of cause - and does not leave it in nature or content.
The mind of separation has to be seen to be passed by. Only Awakened vision can see it.
This is Already Given you as: Guide, Holy Spirit, Teacher. These seem to be agencies of a Light you are willing to remember, even though you know this means fear must be faced and passed through instead of hidden.
In experience it could be said to be ‘passed through’, yet it is not that ‘you as you identify fearfully’, who passes through.
The fear is dissolved in Light by willingness to abide in faith of love, peace and truth - as your own Root Cause, despite any suggestion or temptation to engage fear as guide and protector.
This faith does not invest in the faithlessness of engaging private self interest - but in the undoing of faithlessness - and so is empty of all else but receptive trust.
It is the welcome to Light.
And Light knows itself and all as Light and offers its interpretation in replacement and healing of the mind that ‘thought it thought alone’ and thus ‘stole’ its life from God.
The Light stirs within as a movement through you at a depth and subtlety you are accustomed to disregard by habit of defence.
Yet as your desire for truth grows, you will make a pathway of willingness to such ‘stirrings’, that will cut off the mind of conflicted perception from automatic employment and you can choose anew. And as Light grows, the fear of love diminishes, vision is restored.
Heaven is here and now - before a judgement does, and can be neither earned nor achieved. But to recognise this as our birthright, the Light must be given welcome, in correction and replacement of the image and idea that you had mistook as your self.
Every instant of love's willingness is maximal. You not only can do no more but must not attempt to do more - or you will reassert the very ‘mind’ that blinds you to your truth and light.
To be in and of and as Light - is the original fullness and flow of Being - empty of illusory self assertion or control from a partial perspective. Not a crowning of man - but the Christing of Man and World as one. From 'would-be controller as a separate will', to active service in Sonship, sharing one will.
The recognition of truth is of a wholly present awareness.
To seek to use it, or control it, is but to choose self-illusion as your source.
Your demonstration is teaching you, and you are always free to choose what you value - and share it.
To be aligned with that which can be truly shared is to be of one mind.
Others may stir from the resonance with your witness by their own freedom realised.
But to the Christed mind - there cannot be self or other - except as a language to which one accommodates, in order to grow and restore a channel of trust.
2010/02/02
2010/01/31
Where is the light?
Isn't it true that love can only enter where love is welcome.
Where it is unwelcome love ‘waits’ on a change of heart.
To attempt to enter into any split mind scenario to heal it, without awakened guidance, is to choose the split mind experience for oneself - of mind in opposition with itself.
No matter what insight or what energetic influence can be brought to bear, the ego sense of opposition and defence can turn all things to its own self validation - and when it cannot - it 'dies' - which is like saying it engages an almost total denial yet remaining active in seed desire.
Yet look at conflict another way. I give out the roles and infer the intentions of all parties, and they enact out the script I set. As long as I want my will to be done, I will defend and be defined by this activity and intent. Yet as soon as I am touched by Truth's remembrance - I have a basis upon which I can question - ALL OF THIS.
And as I let Truth be itself - I can experience love - as it is.
I can be shown that the roles and intentions are in my mind - and that my experience is as I have asked. In realising that I receive as I ask, I can ask instead for Truth. This is to say, I can cease to ask for a private creation - serving a ficticious will.
And as I allow this, I can discover the veil wearing thin, and begin to see beyond the surfaces and forms in which dreams are made, to Light eternal.
Yet it is the eternal who sends the messenger of translation of dreams into awakening. and it is the eternal who awakens to its own being and nature. There really isn't anyone here in terms that self will could understand - and yet Mind is awareness without limit or opposition. That's why its pointless to engage the means of separation as a tool to understand non separation or oneness.
Human abilities can be repurposed towards the restoration of aligned will. Heart felt service is the release of the giver from hell - not as a reward bought or as guilt paid off - but simply that hell is the forgetting to love.
It may be that my willingness to let love live through me also transforms others - how could it not communicate?
Yet not in terms of any of my own agendas or even in the ways I might expect. So my motivation is not about transforming others - or the world - it is about releasing my investment in hell. It is active willingness to only validate real currency of thought and to release the mind of judgement.
This puts me at odds with my past - and with my experience as the past defines it - and yet is the living love of truth living in my heart.
I cannot really protect this body nor can I protect the earth - but I can learn to let both serve communication - ie - become transparent to Creation. In this I can realize that Creation holds me safe inclusion, not the body - in exclusive and separate identity.
The transition from body to spirit based identity is the work of love - not of man. It is unwise to open beyond the guidance of the heart in willingness - or the experience will be traumatic instead of beautific.
For the experience of Creation 'enjoyed' by ego consciousness is traumatic and opening beyond an integrated capacity to remain grounded will suddenly meet the reenactment of the separation - or the fall from Light into terror.
The guidance of the light is the way that light restores its own - and any attempt to find a different way is to insist on being different from light.
Where is the light?
Right where you denied yourself.
Where is the light?
Right where you thought the world denied you.
Where is the light?
In the recognition that your 'enemy' is your self denied.
Where is the light?
In the embrace of your self without judgement.
In this Presence, none can oppose, nor stand outside.
This is the Christ and is the light that the heart embodies in faithfulness to its Source.
You are reading this because your desire leads you.
In your love of truth you will be led truly.
In love of illusion, you put truth on hold so that illusion can seem to be what you desire.
In truth there is no battle - but only a growing recognition that illusions battle with themselves.
In illusion, conflict creates crisis of choice.
In truth there is only the choice to awaken.
In illusion there is the choice to be a chooser among options that you have to decide - all of which are but ways to better maintain illusion.
In truth, all of this has never begun - is not occurring and will never be.
But truth has nothing to do with what we think it is or what we think about it.
Truth’s nature is eternal all pervading radiance.
But let that begin to find your welcome in your appreciation of another's smile, a sky, a flower, the sound of shared voices, a stillness beneath form - yet reaching you - through the blessing that Light gives as your guide, your holy spirit. Your own Right Mind.
Where it is unwelcome love ‘waits’ on a change of heart.
To attempt to enter into any split mind scenario to heal it, without awakened guidance, is to choose the split mind experience for oneself - of mind in opposition with itself.
No matter what insight or what energetic influence can be brought to bear, the ego sense of opposition and defence can turn all things to its own self validation - and when it cannot - it 'dies' - which is like saying it engages an almost total denial yet remaining active in seed desire.
Yet look at conflict another way. I give out the roles and infer the intentions of all parties, and they enact out the script I set. As long as I want my will to be done, I will defend and be defined by this activity and intent. Yet as soon as I am touched by Truth's remembrance - I have a basis upon which I can question - ALL OF THIS.
And as I let Truth be itself - I can experience love - as it is.
I can be shown that the roles and intentions are in my mind - and that my experience is as I have asked. In realising that I receive as I ask, I can ask instead for Truth. This is to say, I can cease to ask for a private creation - serving a ficticious will.
And as I allow this, I can discover the veil wearing thin, and begin to see beyond the surfaces and forms in which dreams are made, to Light eternal.
Yet it is the eternal who sends the messenger of translation of dreams into awakening. and it is the eternal who awakens to its own being and nature. There really isn't anyone here in terms that self will could understand - and yet Mind is awareness without limit or opposition. That's why its pointless to engage the means of separation as a tool to understand non separation or oneness.
Human abilities can be repurposed towards the restoration of aligned will. Heart felt service is the release of the giver from hell - not as a reward bought or as guilt paid off - but simply that hell is the forgetting to love.
It may be that my willingness to let love live through me also transforms others - how could it not communicate?
Yet not in terms of any of my own agendas or even in the ways I might expect. So my motivation is not about transforming others - or the world - it is about releasing my investment in hell. It is active willingness to only validate real currency of thought and to release the mind of judgement.
This puts me at odds with my past - and with my experience as the past defines it - and yet is the living love of truth living in my heart.
I cannot really protect this body nor can I protect the earth - but I can learn to let both serve communication - ie - become transparent to Creation. In this I can realize that Creation holds me safe inclusion, not the body - in exclusive and separate identity.
The transition from body to spirit based identity is the work of love - not of man. It is unwise to open beyond the guidance of the heart in willingness - or the experience will be traumatic instead of beautific.
For the experience of Creation 'enjoyed' by ego consciousness is traumatic and opening beyond an integrated capacity to remain grounded will suddenly meet the reenactment of the separation - or the fall from Light into terror.
The guidance of the light is the way that light restores its own - and any attempt to find a different way is to insist on being different from light.
Where is the light?
Right where you denied yourself.
Where is the light?
Right where you thought the world denied you.
Where is the light?
In the recognition that your 'enemy' is your self denied.
Where is the light?
In the embrace of your self without judgement.
In this Presence, none can oppose, nor stand outside.
This is the Christ and is the light that the heart embodies in faithfulness to its Source.
You are reading this because your desire leads you.
In your love of truth you will be led truly.
In love of illusion, you put truth on hold so that illusion can seem to be what you desire.
In truth there is no battle - but only a growing recognition that illusions battle with themselves.
In illusion, conflict creates crisis of choice.
In truth there is only the choice to awaken.
In illusion there is the choice to be a chooser among options that you have to decide - all of which are but ways to better maintain illusion.
In truth, all of this has never begun - is not occurring and will never be.
But truth has nothing to do with what we think it is or what we think about it.
Truth’s nature is eternal all pervading radiance.
But let that begin to find your welcome in your appreciation of another's smile, a sky, a flower, the sound of shared voices, a stillness beneath form - yet reaching you - through the blessing that Light gives as your guide, your holy spirit. Your own Right Mind.
2010/01/28
experience validates the presumptions from which it proceeds
All experience inevitably tends to validate the presumptions from which it proceeds. A conflicted identity brings experience of opposition and conflict. It is quite possible to experience unreality – but to do so is at cost of the experience of appreciating the sharing that which is real. The experience of unreality is had privately in a virtual construct that then is accorded reality because it seems to be the environment in which you think, act and have experiences that seem to dictate and define you rather than be expressions of undefined awareness. The identity in opposition exerts it life forcefully and wilfully - and yet this seeming independence is toatlly dependant on a life force that simply functions as light, feeling, thought and tangibility of form.
Thought and desire are the currency of experience - whatever the nature of that experience. Unless some responsibility for our own thought is invited, accepted and grown, we remain victim to the experiences that our own 'unmindful' thought brings forth - and see the cause as outside our mind - in fact we also WANT it there, so as to offload the thoughts of guilt that are otherwise intolerable.
Yet to do this is to simply feed and perpetuate the fire rather than undermine or starve the condition in which fire can occur.
No matter how much time and experience has been devoted to attempting to solve a problem outside and elsewhere to where it really is – the learnings and strategies thus acquired remain as valid as directions taken from a map held accidentally upside down.
The process of shifting from a split mind to a unified mind is a step by step proces of accepting the already truth – and only occurs within the conditions of willingness, freedom, and trust. These are currently and always active because of what and who you really are – but are misplaced if giving rise to experience of opposition, compulsion, fear and resistance.
Children need limits upon their will while learning to align and integrate it with the world. But then they also need guidance and support in moving past those set limits when they grow ready to live from a greater perspective. Life moves in any case and the transitions will occur - as they are recognised – either gracefully or through a long drawn out series of crisis that stretch both time and suffering.
Thought and desire are the currency of experience - whatever the nature of that experience. Unless some responsibility for our own thought is invited, accepted and grown, we remain victim to the experiences that our own 'unmindful' thought brings forth - and see the cause as outside our mind - in fact we also WANT it there, so as to offload the thoughts of guilt that are otherwise intolerable.
Yet to do this is to simply feed and perpetuate the fire rather than undermine or starve the condition in which fire can occur.
No matter how much time and experience has been devoted to attempting to solve a problem outside and elsewhere to where it really is – the learnings and strategies thus acquired remain as valid as directions taken from a map held accidentally upside down.
The process of shifting from a split mind to a unified mind is a step by step proces of accepting the already truth – and only occurs within the conditions of willingness, freedom, and trust. These are currently and always active because of what and who you really are – but are misplaced if giving rise to experience of opposition, compulsion, fear and resistance.
Children need limits upon their will while learning to align and integrate it with the world. But then they also need guidance and support in moving past those set limits when they grow ready to live from a greater perspective. Life moves in any case and the transitions will occur - as they are recognised – either gracefully or through a long drawn out series of crisis that stretch both time and suffering.
A Dance of Trust
It isn't necessary to communicate, explain or justify all the aspects of a situation of difference with another. In forgiveness, the gift of release is accepted and shared. Or rather the natural state of a heart and mind at one is restored. True forgiveness is an act of self-honesty and not a damning act of moral superiority or negation of self to some self-validating ideal. The human mind is habituated to re-enact its history over and over again – and to 'see' everything in terms of it's past 'knowledge' and thus react from self certainties that recreate the very conditions of the past upon the present and into the future.
The conditions of relationship are a dance of trust. The trust we have within our own heart and mind is one with the trust we have with our brother – and with our world. Effective communication has to begin from a place of trust – or else it is merely an expression of judgement put upon the other dressed in the form of relating.
The only way that humanity grows beyond its self sabotaging program, is in the practicing and sharing of trust. Defendedness does not embody trust - but communicates judgement and exclusion, tending to bring a like reaction from the other.
In the willingness to see beyond the presentation, and recognise ourself in the other, we can relate to another with an undefended kindness that is simply acceptance and appreciation. They may not trust or accept this immediately - but they will feel the difference at some level - and the one who extends welcome experiences the same within themselves - rather than a sense of reaction and defence or competition.
The conditions of relationship are a dance of trust. The trust we have within our own heart and mind is one with the trust we have with our brother – and with our world. Effective communication has to begin from a place of trust – or else it is merely an expression of judgement put upon the other dressed in the form of relating.
The only way that humanity grows beyond its self sabotaging program, is in the practicing and sharing of trust. Defendedness does not embody trust - but communicates judgement and exclusion, tending to bring a like reaction from the other.
In the willingness to see beyond the presentation, and recognise ourself in the other, we can relate to another with an undefended kindness that is simply acceptance and appreciation. They may not trust or accept this immediately - but they will feel the difference at some level - and the one who extends welcome experiences the same within themselves - rather than a sense of reaction and defence or competition.
2010/01/27
From the heart of a gentle Brother
The thinking says it is mine.
It is stuff I have a habit of engaging with.
It isn't a mind at rest, it isn't a heart in trust.
It seems to be something I cant help and I feel shit.
A drive to deal with, untangle or fix the shit.
I might seem to get a handle for a while but it comes back worse.
I hang on as if somehow there is something I can do that will get me out of this.
But that is the same mind thinking that keeps me in shit.
I do not want to do this any more.
I want to be free of the mind that shits on life.
I cant do it.
I can not do it.
I can not do it.
This is simply true.
And simply stops.
The mind.
Letting truth be.
Truth is never the thinking alone.
Always the heart feels and knows and breathes.
If even a moment of truth touches
- the peace of it is here – and the shit is not.
Even if all the symptoms are running,
I feel this life clean
where the thinking is suspended
not employed to get a handle
Nothing's changed, everything's changed.
I have a sense of life moving
and I trust and feel it as my own - in quiet,
even though I feel such a sense of wanting to attend it
so as not to call up shit.
That is now just stuff to leave behind.
It doesn't say anything about me.
And I don't have to do anything about it.
Whatever the next step
I am open
I am encouraged
I am willing
and I am grateful.
I know I rejoin the practicalities of life in a different way
and I know I don't have to be anxious about losing it
There's a lightness that feels it knows its way.
I'll go and do – whatever - now
it ok to be just as it is.
It is stuff I have a habit of engaging with.
It isn't a mind at rest, it isn't a heart in trust.
It seems to be something I cant help and I feel shit.
A drive to deal with, untangle or fix the shit.
I might seem to get a handle for a while but it comes back worse.
I hang on as if somehow there is something I can do that will get me out of this.
But that is the same mind thinking that keeps me in shit.
I do not want to do this any more.
I want to be free of the mind that shits on life.
I cant do it.
I can not do it.
I can not do it.
This is simply true.
And simply stops.
The mind.
Letting truth be.
Truth is never the thinking alone.
Always the heart feels and knows and breathes.
If even a moment of truth touches
- the peace of it is here – and the shit is not.
Even if all the symptoms are running,
I feel this life clean
where the thinking is suspended
not employed to get a handle
Nothing's changed, everything's changed.
I have a sense of life moving
and I trust and feel it as my own - in quiet,
even though I feel such a sense of wanting to attend it
so as not to call up shit.
That is now just stuff to leave behind.
It doesn't say anything about me.
And I don't have to do anything about it.
Whatever the next step
I am open
I am encouraged
I am willing
and I am grateful.
I know I rejoin the practicalities of life in a different way
and I know I don't have to be anxious about losing it
There's a lightness that feels it knows its way.
I'll go and do – whatever - now
it ok to be just as it is.
2010/01/26
The reappearance of the Christ
The essential message of awakening cannot change as it is simply truth - but the forms it seems to take and the agencies it seems to communicate through change as one's own capacity to bear truth grows.
The self conviction of guilt has to be violated in order to look within.
In any conviction of our own unworthiness or powerlessness or self defining limitation, we are inevitable going to seek 'outside ourselves' for power, worth and freedom. For that aspect of our mind are the ones who carry or communicate the presence of life and light - and yet in truth are not really 'outside'. Those who actively engage in teaching forms must relate in terms their charges can grasp and know benefit.
I once taught dance to 9 year olds at school - not all of whom were there in a positive sense (the alternative class was 'worse'!).
I had to devote a lot of time and attention to the processes of keeping order - albeit in ways that demonstrated the qualities that are also in the dance I would teach.
Look at our own personal resistances - are they not at times like troublemakers at back of class or attention seeking distractions?
Perhaps, as I become more honest as to my own 'games and shanigans' of divided thought, and see them fall away in the light of one mind - the world will also shift with me - as willingness allows.
Perhaps as I shift - it is helped by your passing through your own radical re evaluation of thought and experience?
I feel we are all working on the leading edge - and it is not a private awakening.
The liability of any external or externalized Spirituality or Teacher - is that the egocentric mindset uses it for identity with renewed zeal.
But if that is the road set by our desire - then we will walk it until we awaken to that we deceived ourselves.
So yes - why look outside if you are one who has already answered the knock at the door?
If there is work to be done or purpose to join, it will make itself known and the manner of the work also.
But the nature of the Christ is that light that our hearts recognise and align with - as the Father Call.
It isn't guilt the ego fears. It is that on looking on guilt you will look beyond it.
Then there is an automatic guide change.
The self conviction of guilt has to be violated in order to look within.
In any conviction of our own unworthiness or powerlessness or self defining limitation, we are inevitable going to seek 'outside ourselves' for power, worth and freedom. For that aspect of our mind are the ones who carry or communicate the presence of life and light - and yet in truth are not really 'outside'. Those who actively engage in teaching forms must relate in terms their charges can grasp and know benefit.
I once taught dance to 9 year olds at school - not all of whom were there in a positive sense (the alternative class was 'worse'!).
I had to devote a lot of time and attention to the processes of keeping order - albeit in ways that demonstrated the qualities that are also in the dance I would teach.
Look at our own personal resistances - are they not at times like troublemakers at back of class or attention seeking distractions?
Perhaps, as I become more honest as to my own 'games and shanigans' of divided thought, and see them fall away in the light of one mind - the world will also shift with me - as willingness allows.
Perhaps as I shift - it is helped by your passing through your own radical re evaluation of thought and experience?
I feel we are all working on the leading edge - and it is not a private awakening.
The liability of any external or externalized Spirituality or Teacher - is that the egocentric mindset uses it for identity with renewed zeal.
But if that is the road set by our desire - then we will walk it until we awaken to that we deceived ourselves.
So yes - why look outside if you are one who has already answered the knock at the door?
If there is work to be done or purpose to join, it will make itself known and the manner of the work also.
But the nature of the Christ is that light that our hearts recognise and align with - as the Father Call.
It isn't guilt the ego fears. It is that on looking on guilt you will look beyond it.
Then there is an automatic guide change.
Talking about the weather - one mind
the 100th monkey story came from or was initially proliferated by Ken Keyes Jr? (Lovely teachings)
I have read that the 100th monkey syndrome is not actually verified as something recorded to have happened - but is a story that others want to believe happened. I'm not concerned with the exact story but only some principle of mind revealed.
Just as we share 'weather' we all partake of the energetic of the Movement as Presence - even though we each have local filters.
Its probably easier to say we share both the ego filter and the Light beneath and beyond it.
From the perspective of the filtered mind, we think 'we' are having thoughts and ideas that are 'our' contribution to what we 'see' as the state of the world. But from the perspective of mind opened to Light, there is simply the dawning of realisation and insight that serves to enlighten ... one mind in all. (beneath and beyond and pervading).
Within the experience of filtered mind is always the opportunistic self interest at work to 'use' this insight or infilling - exactly as all Reality is 'used' - to support having the ego experience. This could be seen as a mechanism by which the living light is rendered into terms of darkness to feed illusion.
Yet Light is Light and does communicate to its own.
The nature of the filter and the determination with which it is held, will mean that some minds seem to accept light while others - who also receive the same 'weather' or Movement in Mind - adjust so as to protect and maintain the 'darkness' in which privacy or independence from the Flow is desired.
For example - the growing of light in one mind is not noticed by one who is fixed on seeing darkness and 'rejoicing' at what he sees. But as light dawns, it becomes harder for the dreamer to maintain his or her illusions without realizing they are illusions. For the darkness is not ‘out there’ - but is a private result arising from a 'lack of light shared'.
When almost everyone smoked tobacco, it was almost invisible as a habit and hardly held to be an addiction - or the fact was easily dismissed. When the culture changes so that the habit is no longer accepted as either necessary or desirable - smokers feel increasingly self conscious of their actions. (I don't need to get into the complications of self righteousness and demonization that are brought into play here do I?).
Buckminster Fuller talked of 'an idea whose time has come' and tried to deliberately insert such ideas as levers. That isn't how mind works though. The stillness of listening is an opening channel to light or guidance or love for the acceptance and transcendence of present 'experience'.
The mind that faces the world in form is our play in limitation.
The mind that fixedly adopts the mask of form, in defence against believed guilt and fear, of damnation or nothingness - is afraid of Light - which is its own truth and nature - denied.
The mind that re awakens to light, sees it at first as acting in the world.
The mind that awakens to its own light has accepted its truth and nature and is an agency of intimacy with light - while still engaged in the script of the world.
That mind that never forgot - nor ever seemed - to leave the light, both is and does. It is one with light in truth - and yet serves as guide and awakener to every willingness that releases the denial of light.
The mind that all of these seeming focuses of attention and purpose partake of Is.
It can be writ Mind - as it is Universal, boundless, always and only.
It cannot be made 'it' without a sleep of forgetting - the illusion of split mind - that then acts as filter, that then induces guilt, that then attacks and defends itself, that runs our of tolerance, that releases its grip, and opens undefended, seeded to awaken, in reversal of steps, into sleep of remembering, that releases unwelcome, that truth be itself.
I speak all things,
That I am
As I am.
All things
speak Me
There is no I
apart from the Speaking
The Spoken are one with,
but do not project
themselves.
Mind knows not in self
excepting radiance
of 'no self'
giving all to all
Aligns and Ones
to intimate peace.
You have nothing to give
but willingness of receiver
that giving through you
undoes the deceiver.
I have read that the 100th monkey syndrome is not actually verified as something recorded to have happened - but is a story that others want to believe happened. I'm not concerned with the exact story but only some principle of mind revealed.
Just as we share 'weather' we all partake of the energetic of the Movement as Presence - even though we each have local filters.
Its probably easier to say we share both the ego filter and the Light beneath and beyond it.
From the perspective of the filtered mind, we think 'we' are having thoughts and ideas that are 'our' contribution to what we 'see' as the state of the world. But from the perspective of mind opened to Light, there is simply the dawning of realisation and insight that serves to enlighten ... one mind in all. (beneath and beyond and pervading).
Within the experience of filtered mind is always the opportunistic self interest at work to 'use' this insight or infilling - exactly as all Reality is 'used' - to support having the ego experience. This could be seen as a mechanism by which the living light is rendered into terms of darkness to feed illusion.
Yet Light is Light and does communicate to its own.
The nature of the filter and the determination with which it is held, will mean that some minds seem to accept light while others - who also receive the same 'weather' or Movement in Mind - adjust so as to protect and maintain the 'darkness' in which privacy or independence from the Flow is desired.
For example - the growing of light in one mind is not noticed by one who is fixed on seeing darkness and 'rejoicing' at what he sees. But as light dawns, it becomes harder for the dreamer to maintain his or her illusions without realizing they are illusions. For the darkness is not ‘out there’ - but is a private result arising from a 'lack of light shared'.
When almost everyone smoked tobacco, it was almost invisible as a habit and hardly held to be an addiction - or the fact was easily dismissed. When the culture changes so that the habit is no longer accepted as either necessary or desirable - smokers feel increasingly self conscious of their actions. (I don't need to get into the complications of self righteousness and demonization that are brought into play here do I?).
Buckminster Fuller talked of 'an idea whose time has come' and tried to deliberately insert such ideas as levers. That isn't how mind works though. The stillness of listening is an opening channel to light or guidance or love for the acceptance and transcendence of present 'experience'.
The mind that faces the world in form is our play in limitation.
The mind that fixedly adopts the mask of form, in defence against believed guilt and fear, of damnation or nothingness - is afraid of Light - which is its own truth and nature - denied.
The mind that re awakens to light, sees it at first as acting in the world.
The mind that awakens to its own light has accepted its truth and nature and is an agency of intimacy with light - while still engaged in the script of the world.
That mind that never forgot - nor ever seemed - to leave the light, both is and does. It is one with light in truth - and yet serves as guide and awakener to every willingness that releases the denial of light.
The mind that all of these seeming focuses of attention and purpose partake of Is.
It can be writ Mind - as it is Universal, boundless, always and only.
It cannot be made 'it' without a sleep of forgetting - the illusion of split mind - that then acts as filter, that then induces guilt, that then attacks and defends itself, that runs our of tolerance, that releases its grip, and opens undefended, seeded to awaken, in reversal of steps, into sleep of remembering, that releases unwelcome, that truth be itself.
I speak all things,
That I am
As I am.
All things
speak Me
There is no I
apart from the Speaking
The Spoken are one with,
but do not project
themselves.
Mind knows not in self
excepting radiance
of 'no self'
giving all to all
Aligns and Ones
to intimate peace.
You have nothing to give
but willingness of receiver
that giving through you
undoes the deceiver.
2010/01/23
Come follow me. Let the dead bury the dead
The ego is not going to live forever - nor is it going to die.
The ego has no life but what you give it.
You give it.
It has no life.
The limited personal sense is a veil that sees all things only as if they are in relation to it - for its purposes.
The intimately personal sense is selfless, impersonal and totally loving.
When I was a boy I sometimes had a strong sense that I would never die - but the consciousness that is expressed in time and space interprets this as if it means it alone is surviving - perhaps along with other 'it alone's.
The memory of Heaven is strong in the very young - but is mostly used as fully charged batteries in support of another prodigal journey.
Survival is the preoccupation of the thoughts of the threatened.
"No need to survive" - does not mean allowing or inviting death, it just means that in the Nowness of the Fullness of Being, there is no one to survive and no threat to survive from.
The Flow is without exception or interruption or conflict. The Flow Knows you because it is you - and it Knows you Always now.
The thought of separation or difference is a building block of getting an experience that is separate and different. This will 'die' because it isn't truly occurring - except as a split experience of the Infinite.
It is in this split mind that we experience ourselves fearfully. Fear densifies light such that it becomes opaque and solid to the mind in fear. It becomes a - more or less - comfortable prison - to keep life out!
The eternal and infinite directness of being does not support or validate the wish to experience privately - except as a thought that makes no sense - has no meaning - negates the mind that thinks it. Another way of saying this is - no man can look on God and live. Not because God kills - but because the Infinite Light is - and man is not.
To a mind yet intent with its private will as if it were life - nothing can be more terrifying than eternal life. Death is salvation to such a mind for it saves it from its own utter undoing and allows a darkness in which it can re-seed itself.
Yet eternal life is the Only Life.
There's a game going on here - and its played seriously.
If you decided to treat the ball in a game of sport - whilst the game is on - as if it were just a ball - you would have to deal with the other players - and spectators! But in the game of limitation - every interruption is woven into or read as part of the game.
Jesus demonstrated eternal life and - he was 'made' into an eternal sacrifice by the serious game players. But it is also true that every interruption to the game lets light in - and when the game is no longer worth the candle - it is released for the greater light.
To a personal perspective in the world, death is the loss and negation of life. Humans try to make themselves deathless in making their mark, leaving legacies, and of course children.Andr of course they can preempt reality to prove their will by dying before 'nothingness' takes them.
Every loving thought is true. Truth is eternal. Our loving thoughts are the reflections of truth. They are also our real life. The unloving thoughts are a bit like a kaleidoscope that obscures and distorts the light and life - they are not something in themselves - except you thought you saw yourself there and became entranced.
The light of loving thought is also the light of guidance and the illumination of the mind in Mind. In light, the loving can be discerned and brought forth as the unloving is revealed as un-sane and unwanted.
You are loving thought and the proof is this : You do not create your self.
In this recognition is also the nothingness of the self you had thought to make from out of a sense of loss of identity.
In the release of persisting of 'self-making is known the stillness that speaks without form - yet your guidance understands and give it form - while form is helpful to you.
You cannot make love 'on your own'. You have to abandon such fixity to embrace love.
Love comes to you through forms that you can love and understand - and as you accept light, light grows within.
Growing an understanding is helpful to allay terror and grow trust - but as an investment it has to be abandoned for new life to be embraced.
Jesus - Raj said that if he had seen his mother - as his mother - when on the cross - then he would have died like any other man.
If you would taste not death you must let 'die' the illusion that you know what anything - or anyone - is. Now can you see why so very few take the path of living love? There is absolutely nothing in it to gain from an independent perspective. But it is simply to rest in truth.
Who is it that is called? Those who have looked on their nothingness - and found acceptance, given their heart, to live from. None 'else' can hear!
A different purpose seeds the mind - that transcends and replaces the urge to survive by any and every means. A love of Truth awakened.
Life 'begins' here - in recognition that the dream is a dream. Yet light of awareness is, that is not the dream - and is acknowledged and therefore restored to you - as you can accept; as you can share.
The interruption of the 'life' I thought was 'as I thought' - is grace.
The way that I have come to value - is a way of acceptance. Everything is just as it is. I don't mean that it just is as I or we, think it is - but that even what we think it is, is part of the way it is. The only alternative is self efforting - the bootstrap pull - the carrot and the stick. The fantasy of fighting reality.
Relaxing must be itself uncomplicated - but see the program running that distracts and can put the simple practice on indefinite hold! As if some conflicted sense must first be resolved. Yet the peace comes first in acceptance of 'as is', without judgement. Now the guidance of innate intelligence can flow true, and allows and enables appropriate and proportionate relationship to express in thought and in deed.
Stillness speaks ... and knows its movement as Itself.
The ego has no life but what you give it.
You give it.
It has no life.
The limited personal sense is a veil that sees all things only as if they are in relation to it - for its purposes.
The intimately personal sense is selfless, impersonal and totally loving.
When I was a boy I sometimes had a strong sense that I would never die - but the consciousness that is expressed in time and space interprets this as if it means it alone is surviving - perhaps along with other 'it alone's.
The memory of Heaven is strong in the very young - but is mostly used as fully charged batteries in support of another prodigal journey.
Survival is the preoccupation of the thoughts of the threatened.
"No need to survive" - does not mean allowing or inviting death, it just means that in the Nowness of the Fullness of Being, there is no one to survive and no threat to survive from.
The Flow is without exception or interruption or conflict. The Flow Knows you because it is you - and it Knows you Always now.
The thought of separation or difference is a building block of getting an experience that is separate and different. This will 'die' because it isn't truly occurring - except as a split experience of the Infinite.
It is in this split mind that we experience ourselves fearfully. Fear densifies light such that it becomes opaque and solid to the mind in fear. It becomes a - more or less - comfortable prison - to keep life out!
The eternal and infinite directness of being does not support or validate the wish to experience privately - except as a thought that makes no sense - has no meaning - negates the mind that thinks it. Another way of saying this is - no man can look on God and live. Not because God kills - but because the Infinite Light is - and man is not.
To a mind yet intent with its private will as if it were life - nothing can be more terrifying than eternal life. Death is salvation to such a mind for it saves it from its own utter undoing and allows a darkness in which it can re-seed itself.
Yet eternal life is the Only Life.
There's a game going on here - and its played seriously.
If you decided to treat the ball in a game of sport - whilst the game is on - as if it were just a ball - you would have to deal with the other players - and spectators! But in the game of limitation - every interruption is woven into or read as part of the game.
Jesus demonstrated eternal life and - he was 'made' into an eternal sacrifice by the serious game players. But it is also true that every interruption to the game lets light in - and when the game is no longer worth the candle - it is released for the greater light.
To a personal perspective in the world, death is the loss and negation of life. Humans try to make themselves deathless in making their mark, leaving legacies, and of course children.Andr of course they can preempt reality to prove their will by dying before 'nothingness' takes them.
Every loving thought is true. Truth is eternal. Our loving thoughts are the reflections of truth. They are also our real life. The unloving thoughts are a bit like a kaleidoscope that obscures and distorts the light and life - they are not something in themselves - except you thought you saw yourself there and became entranced.
The light of loving thought is also the light of guidance and the illumination of the mind in Mind. In light, the loving can be discerned and brought forth as the unloving is revealed as un-sane and unwanted.
You are loving thought and the proof is this : You do not create your self.
In this recognition is also the nothingness of the self you had thought to make from out of a sense of loss of identity.
In the release of persisting of 'self-making is known the stillness that speaks without form - yet your guidance understands and give it form - while form is helpful to you.
You cannot make love 'on your own'. You have to abandon such fixity to embrace love.
Love comes to you through forms that you can love and understand - and as you accept light, light grows within.
Growing an understanding is helpful to allay terror and grow trust - but as an investment it has to be abandoned for new life to be embraced.
Jesus - Raj said that if he had seen his mother - as his mother - when on the cross - then he would have died like any other man.
If you would taste not death you must let 'die' the illusion that you know what anything - or anyone - is. Now can you see why so very few take the path of living love? There is absolutely nothing in it to gain from an independent perspective. But it is simply to rest in truth.
Who is it that is called? Those who have looked on their nothingness - and found acceptance, given their heart, to live from. None 'else' can hear!
A different purpose seeds the mind - that transcends and replaces the urge to survive by any and every means. A love of Truth awakened.
Life 'begins' here - in recognition that the dream is a dream. Yet light of awareness is, that is not the dream - and is acknowledged and therefore restored to you - as you can accept; as you can share.
The interruption of the 'life' I thought was 'as I thought' - is grace.
The way that I have come to value - is a way of acceptance. Everything is just as it is. I don't mean that it just is as I or we, think it is - but that even what we think it is, is part of the way it is. The only alternative is self efforting - the bootstrap pull - the carrot and the stick. The fantasy of fighting reality.
Relaxing must be itself uncomplicated - but see the program running that distracts and can put the simple practice on indefinite hold! As if some conflicted sense must first be resolved. Yet the peace comes first in acceptance of 'as is', without judgement. Now the guidance of innate intelligence can flow true, and allows and enables appropriate and proportionate relationship to express in thought and in deed.
Stillness speaks ... and knows its movement as Itself.
2010/01/21
Life - You read it as if ...
Life
You read it as if,
It’s about to resolve,
or about to collapse,
Or a sin to absolve;
some itch to scratch ...
You read it as if,
It’s not quite complete
A door that wont open.
impending defeat.
Or somehow broken ...
You read it as if,
It’s a riddle to solve.
and justice to mete.
In machine that evolves,
A realm to compete ...
You read it as if,
and heart-light is denied
by hiding mind’s rift.
and killed by the lie,
Of the reading as if ...
You read it as if,
it’s as you believe
while under the scene
is a script that deceives
as your thought has it be ...
You read it as if,
it just happens to you,
and beyond your command,
but a tiny part who,
you assign as your mind ...
You read it as if,
and it reads you out loud.
There’s nowhere to hide,
in the dark or the crowd.
For there is no ‘inside’ ...
You read it anew,
with the script to awaken,
for to judge good and ill
has love seemed forsaken,
yet waits here until ...
You read as it is,
and you read it as given.
Of love in your heart,
all things are forgiven,
as never apart ...
You read it as read,
in beholding as light,
with no mind to fear it,
of eternal delight,
is substance and spirit ...
Brian in a moment
You read it as if,
It’s about to resolve,
or about to collapse,
Or a sin to absolve;
some itch to scratch ...
You read it as if,
It’s not quite complete
A door that wont open.
impending defeat.
Or somehow broken ...
You read it as if,
It’s a riddle to solve.
and justice to mete.
In machine that evolves,
A realm to compete ...
You read it as if,
and heart-light is denied
by hiding mind’s rift.
and killed by the lie,
Of the reading as if ...
You read it as if,
it’s as you believe
while under the scene
is a script that deceives
as your thought has it be ...
You read it as if,
it just happens to you,
and beyond your command,
but a tiny part who,
you assign as your mind ...
You read it as if,
and it reads you out loud.
There’s nowhere to hide,
in the dark or the crowd.
For there is no ‘inside’ ...
You read it anew,
with the script to awaken,
for to judge good and ill
has love seemed forsaken,
yet waits here until ...
You read as it is,
and you read it as given.
Of love in your heart,
all things are forgiven,
as never apart ...
You read it as read,
in beholding as light,
with no mind to fear it,
of eternal delight,
is substance and spirit ...
Brian in a moment
2010/01/20
The end of the world - as we knew it
Perceiving from ego, makes illusion of plurality of egos as story you both tell and watch and suffer in split mind virtuality, forgetting the movement arising that is all in all.
Waking up occurs when the conditions necessary for maintaining the split mind can no longer be found. For what or who could split a mind?
What then of the script of the world? Recognise it in mind, embrace in the heart, release into spirit. Let it serve awakening's purpose by releasing it of a wish to dream alone.
Abide with Me as I abide with you. Take not thought for yourself - for all is already given you - to give to all. This is what you have forgotten. But I remember for you always. As you give welcome to truth, Lo! It is already so.
When you give preference to stories, I wait in the quiet of you. Your story is your experience in a world made real to you by your desire. But can unfulfillable desire truly be the movement of the heart?
Rest in peace is for the living! My will for you is given to replace the mind that thought it thought alone. It requires only that you share it - as you are freely willing - in love, understanding and grattitude.
(This message came to me to share after watching an Adyashanti video on youtube relating to the world in crisis).
Waking up occurs when the conditions necessary for maintaining the split mind can no longer be found. For what or who could split a mind?
What then of the script of the world? Recognise it in mind, embrace in the heart, release into spirit. Let it serve awakening's purpose by releasing it of a wish to dream alone.
Abide with Me as I abide with you. Take not thought for yourself - for all is already given you - to give to all. This is what you have forgotten. But I remember for you always. As you give welcome to truth, Lo! It is already so.
When you give preference to stories, I wait in the quiet of you. Your story is your experience in a world made real to you by your desire. But can unfulfillable desire truly be the movement of the heart?
Rest in peace is for the living! My will for you is given to replace the mind that thought it thought alone. It requires only that you share it - as you are freely willing - in love, understanding and grattitude.
(This message came to me to share after watching an Adyashanti video on youtube relating to the world in crisis).
2010/01/19
What am I?
What am I?
In the assertion ”I want it thus!” - the 'I' is illusion.
There is no such 'I' to be found.
There are judgements and definitions, actively given attention within the desire that the "I" be real.
An exercise in partiality.
A pet project.
A way of putting eternity on hold while taking time out.
An act of attention-intent as a wish to think different
A way of hiding from awareness that is made to seem like the active doing of a separated will.
The sense of I as existence-awareness is true enough.
How can we leave eternal truth?
But the defined and limited definitions and perspectives that have become associated with 'I' as a result of separation experience are not true of 'I'.
It could be said that the mad idea at which the Son of God forgot to laugh - and which became the foundation of the separation experience - was the suggestion that the question 'what am I?' - could be answered by taking thought for oneself.
The assertion of - or the imagination of - an 'I' - in thought-desire - itself creates a sense of 'other' or 'not I'.
There is a Hindu saying; "Where there is an other - fear arises".
But if the assertion of, or imagination of, an 'I' - in thought-desire, is given priority, ("Father, I'd rather see it My way"), then dissonance is seen as a compulsion to use thought-desire as power - against 'other' and for 'my self'.
Mind against itself is surely a cause for mirth - how can this be? - it can not be.
But a mind in delusional identification, attempting to defend a fantasy believed real maintains itself by substitution in secrecy. It is the lie - kept from awareness.
Within the 'world' the lie substitutes for truth, a mythology is enacted.
The orphaned - self making self.
The hostile power.
The hero.
The walls, the shields, the weapons.
The allegiances.
Betrayal.
Defeat
Hurt.
Hate.
Loss.
The prisoner.
The escape.
The vengeance.
The victory.
The meaninglessness.
The list is not endless but its repetition in dramatic form would be - if it were not replaced by remembering truth.
Truth remembers itself.
The self-mind that seems to run and hide ultimately discovers there is no where to hide and nowhere to run. It is not punished. It is simply undone of the basis upon which its thought seems real - and the intent to deny and limit is replaced with the seed willingness to love and serve.
In truth this takes no time at all - for it is the awakening from a lie.
But acceptance cannot be imposed against the desire for a self.
The desire for a special love; an experience of me for me - such seeds persist until they are freely released in awakened loving.
The constructs of the mind in separation that constitute the world as we believe and experience, have become the classroom for the mind to change its mind about itself. Awakened purpose, through willingness, understanding and acceptance, replaces the blind enactment of drama.
It isn't that the drama is healed - but that the dreamer awakens to honesty - and through love of truth - to welcome. The separation basis that fed the drama is undone.
The question 'what am I' can be asked from the silence of the heart - as the desire to know thyself.
The answer is through the discerning and allowing of the already truth to move through you - as it is - and as it wills.
Truth can not be encompassed by taking thought for oneself.
Remember to laugh at such absurd and foolish thought - whenever it is recognised to arise in awareness.
And the truth, the beauty and the joy and the peace of loving will 'know itself' - unmasking 'otherness'. Awakening 'brotherness'.
In the assertion ”I want it thus!” - the 'I' is illusion.
There is no such 'I' to be found.
There are judgements and definitions, actively given attention within the desire that the "I" be real.
An exercise in partiality.
A pet project.
A way of putting eternity on hold while taking time out.
An act of attention-intent as a wish to think different
A way of hiding from awareness that is made to seem like the active doing of a separated will.
The sense of I as existence-awareness is true enough.
How can we leave eternal truth?
But the defined and limited definitions and perspectives that have become associated with 'I' as a result of separation experience are not true of 'I'.
It could be said that the mad idea at which the Son of God forgot to laugh - and which became the foundation of the separation experience - was the suggestion that the question 'what am I?' - could be answered by taking thought for oneself.
The assertion of - or the imagination of - an 'I' - in thought-desire - itself creates a sense of 'other' or 'not I'.
There is a Hindu saying; "Where there is an other - fear arises".
Fear is dissonant experience. It offers a way of noticing that:
The Separation HAS occurred. To deny this is merely to misuse denial. However, to concentrate on error is merely a further misuse of legitimate psychic mechanisms. The true corrective procedure, which has already been described as the proper use of the spiritual eye (or true vision), is to accept the error temporarily, but only as an indication that immediate correction is mandatory. This establishes a state of mind in which the Atonement can be accepted without delay. (Jesus in 'A Course in Miracles').
But if the assertion of, or imagination of, an 'I' - in thought-desire, is given priority, ("Father, I'd rather see it My way"), then dissonance is seen as a compulsion to use thought-desire as power - against 'other' and for 'my self'.
Mind against itself is surely a cause for mirth - how can this be? - it can not be.
But a mind in delusional identification, attempting to defend a fantasy believed real maintains itself by substitution in secrecy. It is the lie - kept from awareness.
Within the 'world' the lie substitutes for truth, a mythology is enacted.
The orphaned - self making self.
The hostile power.
The hero.
The walls, the shields, the weapons.
The allegiances.
Betrayal.
Defeat
Hurt.
Hate.
Loss.
The prisoner.
The escape.
The vengeance.
The victory.
The meaninglessness.
The list is not endless but its repetition in dramatic form would be - if it were not replaced by remembering truth.
Truth remembers itself.
The self-mind that seems to run and hide ultimately discovers there is no where to hide and nowhere to run. It is not punished. It is simply undone of the basis upon which its thought seems real - and the intent to deny and limit is replaced with the seed willingness to love and serve.
In truth this takes no time at all - for it is the awakening from a lie.
But acceptance cannot be imposed against the desire for a self.
The desire for a special love; an experience of me for me - such seeds persist until they are freely released in awakened loving.
The constructs of the mind in separation that constitute the world as we believe and experience, have become the classroom for the mind to change its mind about itself. Awakened purpose, through willingness, understanding and acceptance, replaces the blind enactment of drama.
It isn't that the drama is healed - but that the dreamer awakens to honesty - and through love of truth - to welcome. The separation basis that fed the drama is undone.
The question 'what am I' can be asked from the silence of the heart - as the desire to know thyself.
The answer is through the discerning and allowing of the already truth to move through you - as it is - and as it wills.
Truth can not be encompassed by taking thought for oneself.
Remember to laugh at such absurd and foolish thought - whenever it is recognised to arise in awareness.
And the truth, the beauty and the joy and the peace of loving will 'know itself' - unmasking 'otherness'. Awakening 'brotherness'.
2010/01/18
Irritation - conditional love - awakening
The signs are clearly obvious - a sense of frustration, a lack of calm - a compulsive reaching for something to ‘cover over’ or ‘fill up’ - and a quickness to irritation; the self sensitive emotional leaking out of a wilfully asserted story of being hard done by - unfairly treated. To be made powerless or inadequate. Some sense of loss of love in life.
Conditional love is a set up - because the conditions are not the nature and condition of reality as it is - but are the conditions that I have set up for myself - or I have arrived at in contractual 'relationship' with another.
“I want it thus” - in order to be happy on my terms - or at least to allay my unhappiness.
When two or more agree on a set of conditions it makes for a sense of reality - that then supports a sense of self - which on surface seems innocent of any kind of loveless manipulation - and if a little of that shows, why it is accepted as the nature of being a self - and the way things just are.
Underneath the lid of the surface presentation are the aspects of our life, our mind or our self - that we do not want to know - or that do not fit in with - or support - the story of ourselves that we are both telling and listening to. For it is this story-mind that is employed for validating and providing continuity for a sense of self that arises from continuing the attempt to force life to be as it is not - by applying intent and force of will as both the interpretation of all experience - and the reactions that arise from those interpretations.
The all-one-ness of awareness being the flow experiencing itself, cannot be other that as it is - for this is all that is and always and only is. But an interpretation of experience can be given priority of attention and desire - that uses the thought of being - as if - outside the flow.
A separateness felt within an indivisibility. A twoness from which arises a many-ness experienced in a felt separateness of thought, collapses and inverts into a sense of independence from the flow. As if experiencing life from the perspective of form - with a specific signature in form being expressed and maintained with great force of will. The density of the forces of opposition makes for a density and fixedness of thought and experience. The flow is rendered invisible as background, the foreground is rendered as an experience of self and other - where self is identified within a personal private mind within a body - and other is everything outside.
This arbitary division is in a constant flux of offensive and defensive strategy - and centres upon a likewise flux of symbols of self and love and life that are 'worshipped' or attended to, as if they were the flow of being itself. But the experience within the mind in limitation is compellingly real to it - as if under a spell or dream; a mind entrapped within its own thought. A mind that has given its innate power to the idea of something other.
To put our desire of intent and attention into wanting life to be other than it is - is fantasy. To engage wilfuly in fantasy is to become deluded and to assert that life is as we define, interpret and determine it to be - and from the seeming power of such a mind comes the belief in the nature of power as division, and by this we suffer our own creation as if it creates us.
The surface of life is form. The depth of life is meaning. When form is made to be a symbol of meanings other than the presence and flow of being, then a private fantasy is being dallied with while the awareness of the flow is put ‘on hold’. There are no external laws forbidding the mind in following thought. If value is given it - then it persists as a focus of attention - until it is valued no more.
Playing on the surface of life is part of discovering and exploring will - and through the experience of feedback, coming to recognize and accept the will of the flow as the truth and harmony of being. Free will is not a freedom to do anything. Free will is the nature and condition of being.
No matter how intensely or ingeniously the will is applied in manipulation, coercion or control, it cannot ever become the power it seeks - nor can it subdue or contain the power it experiences as opposition. It can seem to do so - or at least achieve temporary satisfactions in form. But these are without substance excepting by the mechanism of conflict itself - and so are never wholehearted, happy experiences of the freedom of being.
The awakening of the mind to its wholeness or indivisibility occurs spontaneously as a result of the loss of fascination with the intent that drives the experience of limitation. For without the application of a coercive will, the flow naturally knows itself through all relations. Yet this knowing is given and received as one. The insinuation of a private mind initially cuts off and misinterprets all direct experience of the flow of being. Yet every instant of a conscious remembering or unseparated presence - serves the transition within the mind that could be seen as a process of steps by which the release of wilfulness is freely allowed, and the acceptance of life as given and received in the flow of being - is freely accepted.
The ideas that speak of the flow are only servants to the remembering of a current embrace and inclusion. For only as this restores your whole hearted being to sanity and wholeness - can you see and therefore share sanity and wholeness.
Willingness is a trusting receptivity to the flow. It is the allowing and permission given to being - that undermines the wilfulness habit of which the mind suffers its own private reality.
The desire that had been directed externally is released to the heart. The heart is the voice of the presence of the flow. It can be clothed in form to become tangible to the mind that is awakening, but the flow is beyond the clothing of idea, symbol or concept.
But not beyond the heart’s knowing - within this very instant of awareness - in this exact circumstance of relations. Awakening is always to - and as - an entirely fresh perspective.
Let the dead bury the dead!
Conditional love is a set up - because the conditions are not the nature and condition of reality as it is - but are the conditions that I have set up for myself - or I have arrived at in contractual 'relationship' with another.
“I want it thus” - in order to be happy on my terms - or at least to allay my unhappiness.
When two or more agree on a set of conditions it makes for a sense of reality - that then supports a sense of self - which on surface seems innocent of any kind of loveless manipulation - and if a little of that shows, why it is accepted as the nature of being a self - and the way things just are.
Underneath the lid of the surface presentation are the aspects of our life, our mind or our self - that we do not want to know - or that do not fit in with - or support - the story of ourselves that we are both telling and listening to. For it is this story-mind that is employed for validating and providing continuity for a sense of self that arises from continuing the attempt to force life to be as it is not - by applying intent and force of will as both the interpretation of all experience - and the reactions that arise from those interpretations.
The all-one-ness of awareness being the flow experiencing itself, cannot be other that as it is - for this is all that is and always and only is. But an interpretation of experience can be given priority of attention and desire - that uses the thought of being - as if - outside the flow.
A separateness felt within an indivisibility. A twoness from which arises a many-ness experienced in a felt separateness of thought, collapses and inverts into a sense of independence from the flow. As if experiencing life from the perspective of form - with a specific signature in form being expressed and maintained with great force of will. The density of the forces of opposition makes for a density and fixedness of thought and experience. The flow is rendered invisible as background, the foreground is rendered as an experience of self and other - where self is identified within a personal private mind within a body - and other is everything outside.
This arbitary division is in a constant flux of offensive and defensive strategy - and centres upon a likewise flux of symbols of self and love and life that are 'worshipped' or attended to, as if they were the flow of being itself. But the experience within the mind in limitation is compellingly real to it - as if under a spell or dream; a mind entrapped within its own thought. A mind that has given its innate power to the idea of something other.
To put our desire of intent and attention into wanting life to be other than it is - is fantasy. To engage wilfuly in fantasy is to become deluded and to assert that life is as we define, interpret and determine it to be - and from the seeming power of such a mind comes the belief in the nature of power as division, and by this we suffer our own creation as if it creates us.
The surface of life is form. The depth of life is meaning. When form is made to be a symbol of meanings other than the presence and flow of being, then a private fantasy is being dallied with while the awareness of the flow is put ‘on hold’. There are no external laws forbidding the mind in following thought. If value is given it - then it persists as a focus of attention - until it is valued no more.
Playing on the surface of life is part of discovering and exploring will - and through the experience of feedback, coming to recognize and accept the will of the flow as the truth and harmony of being. Free will is not a freedom to do anything. Free will is the nature and condition of being.
No matter how intensely or ingeniously the will is applied in manipulation, coercion or control, it cannot ever become the power it seeks - nor can it subdue or contain the power it experiences as opposition. It can seem to do so - or at least achieve temporary satisfactions in form. But these are without substance excepting by the mechanism of conflict itself - and so are never wholehearted, happy experiences of the freedom of being.
The awakening of the mind to its wholeness or indivisibility occurs spontaneously as a result of the loss of fascination with the intent that drives the experience of limitation. For without the application of a coercive will, the flow naturally knows itself through all relations. Yet this knowing is given and received as one. The insinuation of a private mind initially cuts off and misinterprets all direct experience of the flow of being. Yet every instant of a conscious remembering or unseparated presence - serves the transition within the mind that could be seen as a process of steps by which the release of wilfulness is freely allowed, and the acceptance of life as given and received in the flow of being - is freely accepted.
The ideas that speak of the flow are only servants to the remembering of a current embrace and inclusion. For only as this restores your whole hearted being to sanity and wholeness - can you see and therefore share sanity and wholeness.
Willingness is a trusting receptivity to the flow. It is the allowing and permission given to being - that undermines the wilfulness habit of which the mind suffers its own private reality.
The desire that had been directed externally is released to the heart. The heart is the voice of the presence of the flow. It can be clothed in form to become tangible to the mind that is awakening, but the flow is beyond the clothing of idea, symbol or concept.
But not beyond the heart’s knowing - within this very instant of awareness - in this exact circumstance of relations. Awakening is always to - and as - an entirely fresh perspective.
Let the dead bury the dead!
2010/01/17
A grievance
I tell the story of how a situation involving my grievance occurs – and I only tell it so as to validate my continued employment as storyteller.
If I stepped out of that allegiance, as love would have me do - I might remember and acknowledge that I set it up – or 'entered into' or called forth' or gave attention or value to certain thoughts that were and are inherent to the perspective that I suffer.
These knowings – when they surface – need not condemn me – but they do release my brother – and they are clearly seen as the construct that they are – and so I am awakened.
But while I remain convinced that my experience is of reality rather than a construct, I will activate a sense of myself in defence, based on the story I have told myself, against the unloving intent that I ascribe to the other from my own unhealed mind.
If I stepped out of that allegiance, as love would have me do - I might remember and acknowledge that I set it up – or 'entered into' or called forth' or gave attention or value to certain thoughts that were and are inherent to the perspective that I suffer.
These knowings – when they surface – need not condemn me – but they do release my brother – and they are clearly seen as the construct that they are – and so I am awakened.
But while I remain convinced that my experience is of reality rather than a construct, I will activate a sense of myself in defence, based on the story I have told myself, against the unloving intent that I ascribe to the other from my own unhealed mind.
2010/01/08
Restore God to God
To see and feel and share perfect beauty.
To let it Be - and grasp it not.
Restores God to God.
For reflections on the face of the water do not hold the light.
And that which grasps, claws the empty form and imagines as it will.
As if its life were raised from the death of the Light
This world is the 'other' side.
A veiled distorted reflection
of Eternal Truth.
All that is Truly Alive
never is born to die.
Your beloveds are your
Christ remembrance
within your dream.
If you would stay dead
hide the Is beneath the was.
And cast a shadow on the will be.
If you would wake Life
let all bring you to Only Is.
See beyond the person
One mind in all.
All in one mind.
God is an idea
for the Mind,
before and beyond all Idea.
Yet Whose Thought is the Substance
of all Expression.
In this idea all is
obviously
as it is.
One
Other is the idea
of 'as if'.
In this idea
all seems to be as it is not.
Difference and opposition
of is and is not,
define conflicting levels of experience
chaos calls forth partition.
The person is the private sense,
filtering the Infinite Individuality
of unlimited Mind.
A love of loss and of power to limit
protects the mind as person from
Enlightenment to its Truth.
While the dreamer lives out his thought in time,
A nothing seems to replace Eternal Is.
While perfectly awake in Eternity,
Is is.
A shift in attention to pure awareness reveals the timeless.
A refocusing upon partiality obscures.
The Good, the Beautiful and the True reflect the Light of Truth,
and so are eternal at their Source.
Praise God in all things.
Grace is the Vision
Accept God in all blessings.
Grace is the recognition
See and feel and share perfect beauty.
Let it Be - and grasp it not.
Restore God to God.
To let it Be - and grasp it not.
Restores God to God.
For reflections on the face of the water do not hold the light.
And that which grasps, claws the empty form and imagines as it will.
As if its life were raised from the death of the Light
This world is the 'other' side.
A veiled distorted reflection
of Eternal Truth.
All that is Truly Alive
never is born to die.
Your beloveds are your
Christ remembrance
within your dream.
If you would stay dead
hide the Is beneath the was.
And cast a shadow on the will be.
If you would wake Life
let all bring you to Only Is.
See beyond the person
One mind in all.
All in one mind.
God is an idea
for the Mind,
before and beyond all Idea.
Yet Whose Thought is the Substance
of all Expression.
In this idea all is
obviously
as it is.
One
Other is the idea
of 'as if'.
In this idea
all seems to be as it is not.
Difference and opposition
of is and is not,
define conflicting levels of experience
chaos calls forth partition.
The person is the private sense,
filtering the Infinite Individuality
of unlimited Mind.
A love of loss and of power to limit
protects the mind as person from
Enlightenment to its Truth.
While the dreamer lives out his thought in time,
A nothing seems to replace Eternal Is.
While perfectly awake in Eternity,
Is is.
A shift in attention to pure awareness reveals the timeless.
A refocusing upon partiality obscures.
The Good, the Beautiful and the True reflect the Light of Truth,
and so are eternal at their Source.
Praise God in all things.
Grace is the Vision
Accept God in all blessings.
Grace is the recognition
See and feel and share perfect beauty.
Let it Be - and grasp it not.
Restore God to God.
2010/01/07
God shines through
One can say that nothing happens without your will.
In the world this could seem an absurd or fantastic statement.
In one mind it is inescapable law.
But because the ego identity is the denial of your will - the ego is not the one who is choosing anything. It plays no part in reaching the point where God shines through.
But you do.
The ego can be seen to represent seeming choices in a world born out of the idea of an impossible choice that seems to dictate you and your world while you are giving it your attention.
Not unlike an immersive virtual game or movie in which you identify with what seems to be the central character and experience acting upon and being acted upon in dramatic tension and the compulsions and thrills that go with it.
Yet the ego is a choice - even if it is a choice in and by which further choice is dictated - ie - mechanical or compulsive reaction.
From the perspective of the ego - there seems to be a world in which God hardly ever shines through. Or where God's shining through is unrecognized, unwanted and invisible.
Anything we think from within this frame of reference is going to be based on distortion at best.
The assertion or belief that one is unenlightened is not really made with the statement itself - but with all the ongoing movement of attention and desire - choices as to how we see or interpret everything.
To realize that there is nothing at all that one can manipulate into making the experience and awareness of God shining through, might be as crushing a realisation as can be had. Yet "I cant do it" is suddenly recognisable as a Freedom Song! Because as long as there is a hope or belief that you can do it - you will hang in with committment to futility.
True disillusionment is release of illusion and not the chewing over a sense of crushed hope to extract bitter meanings.
The exposure and falling away of the fruitless mind of false desire leaves the way clear for Shared Life to dawn - and to shine.
And this communion occurs and is recognized, as the true context of life, here and now.
You are not - and nothing is - as you think it is.
Nor is thinking, apart and alone, the function that fulfils your being.
You cannot think your way into life - but the intent and attempt to do so is costing the experience of shared life now.
God shining through you.
In the world this could seem an absurd or fantastic statement.
In one mind it is inescapable law.
But because the ego identity is the denial of your will - the ego is not the one who is choosing anything. It plays no part in reaching the point where God shines through.
But you do.
The ego can be seen to represent seeming choices in a world born out of the idea of an impossible choice that seems to dictate you and your world while you are giving it your attention.
Not unlike an immersive virtual game or movie in which you identify with what seems to be the central character and experience acting upon and being acted upon in dramatic tension and the compulsions and thrills that go with it.
Yet the ego is a choice - even if it is a choice in and by which further choice is dictated - ie - mechanical or compulsive reaction.
From the perspective of the ego - there seems to be a world in which God hardly ever shines through. Or where God's shining through is unrecognized, unwanted and invisible.
Anything we think from within this frame of reference is going to be based on distortion at best.
The assertion or belief that one is unenlightened is not really made with the statement itself - but with all the ongoing movement of attention and desire - choices as to how we see or interpret everything.
To realize that there is nothing at all that one can manipulate into making the experience and awareness of God shining through, might be as crushing a realisation as can be had. Yet "I cant do it" is suddenly recognisable as a Freedom Song! Because as long as there is a hope or belief that you can do it - you will hang in with committment to futility.
True disillusionment is release of illusion and not the chewing over a sense of crushed hope to extract bitter meanings.
The exposure and falling away of the fruitless mind of false desire leaves the way clear for Shared Life to dawn - and to shine.
And this communion occurs and is recognized, as the true context of life, here and now.
You are not - and nothing is - as you think it is.
Nor is thinking, apart and alone, the function that fulfils your being.
You cannot think your way into life - but the intent and attempt to do so is costing the experience of shared life now.
God shining through you.
2010/01/04
There is a quiet within all things that knows and is the Light
Be still - and know that I am God.
To think about these words is not to be still, for thinking outside of stillness is the refusal of love.
The undoing of all that fear and guilt seem to have made real in you - by your judgement - is given you in My restatement of your Inclusion - behold My Holy Spirit.
To be still is to be and do nothing on your own - of your own power. That Life and Light move directly within.
To be still is to let live, taking no thought for your self and keeping it secret and apart.
There is not life on your own and you are not made by your own power - except in delusional fantasy played out and made flesh by your own belief. Your mind remains active, but your attention is locked into a loop of unfulfilment.
In place of this is given you Life.
There is a quiet within all things that knows and is the Light.
This is eternally true - regardless of the rising and passing of thoughts, perceptions and experience.
The eternal does nothing to be itself and has no reaction to a world of dream made upon a mind in secret.
Yet it remains the truth of you - with you - for you - at all times.
While you play out the wish and the role of a restless separated mind in a temporary body, differentiated from all things, and enamoured of its reflections, your stillness speaks always of truth to YOU in truth.
If you cannot hear Me it is because you choose your own imagined will over your truth.
Choosing to be self-blinded in hope of seeing differently
The truth of you is in your heart.
I am the Voice for your heart - not in the words here - but in the stillness of you.
I will not to be denied. This is your discontent in dreaming.
For My Will is not stolen or diminished or conflicted. But is One.
And you are my Will at rest.
And you are my own knowing.
Know Thyself.
Be still amidst all things.
Gratitude rises Our love.
2010/01/03
Scripted experience of a lifetime.
I have a sense of a script running beneath our lives having certain themes that are part of the focus of this particular lifetime experience. And that before any of these events occur in our life – they are already latent at an archetypal level of our consciousness.
Whether this is seen as tragedy or comedy depends on our perspective. But within the script is generally tragedy - with comedy being the fruit of an overview that can identify, yet remain free of the roles and drama played out.
To identify fully with the human drama we have to feel totally justified in judging against.
The way out of the identification with the human drama is to love truth more than to love judgement – at just such times as when the urge to judge is strongest. For judgement usurps truth by making its own.
Whatever roles are played out – they are the roles of a split mind in denial – until of course we can let Spirit use the roles - (that are in our own mind and not ‘out there’) - to heal the split.
I know it doesn't seem that way – it seems we really are the one we think we are – suffering or sometimes winning – in the world ‘as we call it’.
And our wounds are the proof of our legitimacy as validating the ‘world as we call it’.
Which is a way to lessen, mitigate, or cover over, the guilt that arises from wanting and using judgement. How so? – by putting it out on the world – on those who enact the hidden facets of our mind for us - (in the world as we call it).
The voice for self protection is the call to fight to maintain this strategy because it has been the way the mind has attempted to resolve its own dilemna from a perspective of ignorance as to its own Nature and Source.
The voice for peace is the call to listen anew - from the awakened presence of being - which is usually weak amidst the self certainties that have grown from struggle.
"Come Home" is a call to an already peace – an anyway peace that doesn't sort out or resolve anything about the past in terms of the past – and so allows you to live out of a connected nowness that has no agenda of justice or revenge or proving anything to anyone. Being Home is a way of flowing in a current sense of a clear and clean now.
And to have release you simply give it. To give it is to have it.
It seems like you don't get it back when the world trips you (or me) up in disappointment, abandonment or betrayal.
But that is the feedback by which we waken to realize we are reenacting the old ideas and experiences again.
It is not for us to dictate the role that others must fulfil for us to keep our fantasies intact. To attempt to use others for private ends is to lose the blessing of their light.
Our Spirit can guide us so as to be protected from calamities. This is a way of getting our attention.
Once we are 'onboard' the Spirit can then guide us through calamities to show a deeper truth of safety.
And from there can it undo the very experience of calamity while it is seemingly going on.
Our part is to keep the channel open so that the Awakened Mind can use and work through our willingness and capacity to receive. This might be to struggle mightily to find even a little willingness amidst great temptation to feel justifiably judgemental. Or it might be so calm and clear and gentle, that it is obviously very Self.
Though we can feel we are prayerful when we ask to have something fearful or painful removed from our experience – there is often quite a payload of demand involved – seeking to dictate terms or make bargain on some level that is hidden amidst our seemingly innocent victimhood.
But if we see this – we can be guided as to then releasing it.
Truth is the restoration of a calm acceptance because it needs make no demand in order to be itself.
What if all you asked for is already given answer – and all you have to do is accept it - and live from the answer?
Whether this is seen as tragedy or comedy depends on our perspective. But within the script is generally tragedy - with comedy being the fruit of an overview that can identify, yet remain free of the roles and drama played out.
To identify fully with the human drama we have to feel totally justified in judging against.
The way out of the identification with the human drama is to love truth more than to love judgement – at just such times as when the urge to judge is strongest. For judgement usurps truth by making its own.
Whatever roles are played out – they are the roles of a split mind in denial – until of course we can let Spirit use the roles - (that are in our own mind and not ‘out there’) - to heal the split.
I know it doesn't seem that way – it seems we really are the one we think we are – suffering or sometimes winning – in the world ‘as we call it’.
And our wounds are the proof of our legitimacy as validating the ‘world as we call it’.
Which is a way to lessen, mitigate, or cover over, the guilt that arises from wanting and using judgement. How so? – by putting it out on the world – on those who enact the hidden facets of our mind for us - (in the world as we call it).
The voice for self protection is the call to fight to maintain this strategy because it has been the way the mind has attempted to resolve its own dilemna from a perspective of ignorance as to its own Nature and Source.
The voice for peace is the call to listen anew - from the awakened presence of being - which is usually weak amidst the self certainties that have grown from struggle.
"Come Home" is a call to an already peace – an anyway peace that doesn't sort out or resolve anything about the past in terms of the past – and so allows you to live out of a connected nowness that has no agenda of justice or revenge or proving anything to anyone. Being Home is a way of flowing in a current sense of a clear and clean now.
And to have release you simply give it. To give it is to have it.
It seems like you don't get it back when the world trips you (or me) up in disappointment, abandonment or betrayal.
But that is the feedback by which we waken to realize we are reenacting the old ideas and experiences again.
It is not for us to dictate the role that others must fulfil for us to keep our fantasies intact. To attempt to use others for private ends is to lose the blessing of their light.
Our Spirit can guide us so as to be protected from calamities. This is a way of getting our attention.
Once we are 'onboard' the Spirit can then guide us through calamities to show a deeper truth of safety.
And from there can it undo the very experience of calamity while it is seemingly going on.
Our part is to keep the channel open so that the Awakened Mind can use and work through our willingness and capacity to receive. This might be to struggle mightily to find even a little willingness amidst great temptation to feel justifiably judgemental. Or it might be so calm and clear and gentle, that it is obviously very Self.
Though we can feel we are prayerful when we ask to have something fearful or painful removed from our experience – there is often quite a payload of demand involved – seeking to dictate terms or make bargain on some level that is hidden amidst our seemingly innocent victimhood.
But if we see this – we can be guided as to then releasing it.
Truth is the restoration of a calm acceptance because it needs make no demand in order to be itself.
What if all you asked for is already given answer – and all you have to do is accept it - and live from the answer?
2009/12/29
Beliefs that make experience
Beliefs that make experience are not called beliefs. It is lived and called reality.
While the experience of acting on and being acted upon is engaged, the 'self' program runs, with the power of your attention and intent.
But your selflessness IS your love, your wholeness and peace - the very IS of you.
And while you can engage in thought based experience - you cannot rest in it - but by hiding truth and maintaining a hidden or private mind. And any such 'rest' is but illusion of peace - of false promise and no substance. For beneath its surface lies a selfish will that cares for nought but itself and its own ends.
Such a simple thought engaged with and given (your) life becomes such a convoluted complexity of conflicted experience that it has become blinded to the obvious and direct living truth - or even any association with such an immediacy. For the belief in the power of sacrifice is bedrock to all else that follows on.
To such a mind that begins to feel the Call, the Holy Spirit works within its mind - with its mind - to teach it, one step at a time, so as to undo the errors by which it gives its power away for a pain seen as pleasure. And it would not be kind to open the mind before it is ready, to the steps which it is not yet able to accept. Nor would such a step be seen as a step by an unwilling mind.
The 'short cut' is not to get somewhere quicker - but to fully engage the step in which the Call is felt - Now.
The teaching of the Holy Spirit uses all things. There is no way of truly evaluating ANYTHING - apart from the direct guidance of the Holy Spirit. And in such a true evaluation, you can discover what something IS for you now. It may be that it is not something relevant or needful to be attended by you, it may be that it is a nonsense, or a prompt, reminder, a touch or a remembrance. But this is of the Intimacy of your being. To trade this for an authoritative stance to take in the world is the original sacrifice re-enacted.
But in the gratitude and peace of loving is also to be the expression of something that teaches the giver of what he or she has received. This has the way of itself carried within itself, and may touch others so that they feel their own Holy Spirit Call.
I personally abhor the religions of sacrifice - yet am not as free of its tenets as my little mind would claim - or I would rest beyond all claims that seem to prove loss or suffering of any kind - while remaining an instrument of its undoing.
The willingness to make the journey of undoing - involves occasions of direct exposure to the raw hurt and hate - within a larger context of trust. The mind and its experience during such events is anything but 'spiritual' or spiritualizable. And among its voices are those that speak of betrayal, abandonment, and a tortured defeat into an abject loss of validity or power. But it is a lie - even if you have the wounds handy to back it up. To the lie - I say with Rumi - "listen NOT". Yet the mind that makes the lie believes it - and cannot not listen to it. Holy Spirit is the Mind in which I listen for the Heart and This I is NOT the 'me' I think I am. It is practicing the Holy Spirit that teaches me 'I am that I am' - because That Which Lives through me - (as all that is presence-ing itself in awareness) - is before the world, beyond the world and yet the recognition of the world restored to truth.
Who is here reading that has not love and gratitude for true guidance?
None.
And it is the same for all because it is perfectly individualized to each equally - at every step.
Does that mean that we are really guided to conflict? No. That is to let the self in again.
We are oft guided through the enactments of apparent conflicts that are undone as we are willing to look upon them as within our own thought.
How could I ever have thought to condemn?!
(That is meant as the laughing away of a seeming problem - and not a serious question!)
NOTE: This writing arose from a conversation relating to the following writing by Rumi
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And my first response to it was:
The grapes of my body are the fruit I tried to make by myself - separated from the vine.
And while myself is unquestioned as separate, I resist Communication and suffer as if I am being trampled down and crushed by the misperceptions of conflicted mind.
In wakened truth I know this speaks not for the truth of my heart - and must be disregarded - that the truth shines clearly at its source.
And this Light is the undoing of the self I'd thought alone - whose struggles to regain the dark in which to appear real are logical from a premise of ignorance,
but in awakening I claim divinity and rest in the authority of the heart. I claim Self by accepting to no other.
My passion is not conflicted and polarised changing states - but is the presence of perfect love - perfecting the instrument of its expression.
Whose function and service is the ever and always beholding of the only and living G-d.
By this and by this alone am I.
2009/12/17
True Willingness
True willingness aligns experiential opportunity with teaching.
But if using teachings only to help the 'self' that believes it lives within the world, the former may be largely absent and the latter may be experienced instead as pain or difficulty. And an answer will be sought or seen only in terms of a predefined 'me' and 'problem'.
True willingness releases the blocks that kept the deeper lessons gifts from dawning in one's mind.
And these lessons initiate transformational process in which a shift occurs and by which a sense of life is directly known – and which cannot be separated from in order to either inspect it – or think or speak about it - or indeed to manipulate it!
The restoration of true freedom is accepted through refusal to engage or employ guilt.
In guiltlessness, the Father-Source-Condition is Gracefully obvious in place of what before had been called the world.
In guiltlessness, the natural guidance of the heart moves at one with the revealed truth.
In guiltlessness, love of truth has replaced self-survival.
Yet what has been required to 'die' is not the life within – but the costumed projection of thought held secret.
Nothing has really changed – but now is seen as it is – without the overlay of self validating definition, commentary and past association.
This reverses the fantastic notion of seeing everything as it is not – as such fantasy is realized to be inherently unfulfilling – and its fruits are seen to be grown instead of - and at cost of - a true and direct appreciation of being.
In Peace
Brian
But if using teachings only to help the 'self' that believes it lives within the world, the former may be largely absent and the latter may be experienced instead as pain or difficulty. And an answer will be sought or seen only in terms of a predefined 'me' and 'problem'.
True willingness releases the blocks that kept the deeper lessons gifts from dawning in one's mind.
And these lessons initiate transformational process in which a shift occurs and by which a sense of life is directly known – and which cannot be separated from in order to either inspect it – or think or speak about it - or indeed to manipulate it!
The restoration of true freedom is accepted through refusal to engage or employ guilt.
In guiltlessness, the Father-Source-Condition is Gracefully obvious in place of what before had been called the world.
In guiltlessness, the natural guidance of the heart moves at one with the revealed truth.
In guiltlessness, love of truth has replaced self-survival.
Yet what has been required to 'die' is not the life within – but the costumed projection of thought held secret.
Nothing has really changed – but now is seen as it is – without the overlay of self validating definition, commentary and past association.
This reverses the fantastic notion of seeing everything as it is not – as such fantasy is realized to be inherently unfulfilling – and its fruits are seen to be grown instead of - and at cost of - a true and direct appreciation of being.
In Peace
Brian
2009/12/12
A sense of being denied
Imprisoned will is a sense of being denied, as if existing within a context of opposition – in which will tends to harden in self protection and act callously in self interest. It makes a version of love that serves to work ‘inside the imprisoned sense of life’ – but this love demands the conditions of self-will to be sacrosanct – or it turns instantly to betrayal and hate.
An ongoing sense of limitation can become an accepted set of parameters in which such a separate sense of life is played out – whatever seeming scenario that involves - and these can be more or less dense or confining, as long as it allows a sense of freedom to assert and indulge a private will.
The self imprisoned mind works to keep its fantasies, so as to minimise its awareness of the discomfort of limitation – and wants to believe it is in fact an independent will expressing a wish for freedom. Yet all of what this calls into experience is simply the result of active denial of a shared will – and this consequence is not somewhere down the line as punishment – but instantly - as the perspective of preferring a partial experience of an aspect of life rather than be in, and of, and as; flowing wholeness. Separated experience is got from an imaginitive overlay, set in a largely unconscious opposition to the current movement in the heart.
Opening, for even a moment, to a simple willingness to receive, (without precondition) is an expression of trust – and allows a reconnection at the heart that restores perception to the heart's perspective. From this love grows a willingness to look at the mechanism in mind - while it operates – so that the conditions of freedom and imprisonment become clearly shown. So much of what we believed freedom was in fact the means to keep our mind in darkness. So much of what we believed was failure, limitation or conflict becomes the means by which we are restored to true freedom. The freedom to be that we are – and to accept and express shared will – or the present and spontaneous movement of the heart in trust.
To recognise that we but imprison ourselves is a similar step to an addict acknowledging addiction.
From this acceptance can all else be restored - such as our desire discovers in alignment with the awakened shift that released us from fantasy and moved in us as both the call for love – and the answer.
When Nelson Mandela was imprisoned there were many who wore a badge - 'Free Nelson Mandela'. Every time I saw this I would feel the movement in my heart that said "You are free Nelson Mandela". For love waits on welcome and not on time – and I joined with the welcome of his heart by extending a welcome to him.
The result of imprisonment believed can express as loss, bitterness or a self diminishment – from which one then acts out in reaction. Yet to use the opportunity of any kind of experience of imprisonment to learn of the true nature of freedom restores peace, humour and compassion.
Such are the flowing treasures of life and such cannot be taken from a mind – without collaboration from 'the inside'.
Yet such treasures do they serve any purpose to a will determined to remain private, withheld from 'sharing' in justification of its own judgement.
When we have done our time, eternity welcomes its own.
But first restores our use and experience of time to serve the way of the heart.
Thus we can recognize what can be shared – and appreciate the experience of sharing – letting all else fall away of itself. There is much opportunity to learn and share of life eternal – here within the limitation to a world and self-sense of limitation. Not least of which – is that 'I do not want to indulge the experience of limitation as it costs me the appreciation of living truth'.
An ongoing sense of limitation can become an accepted set of parameters in which such a separate sense of life is played out – whatever seeming scenario that involves - and these can be more or less dense or confining, as long as it allows a sense of freedom to assert and indulge a private will.
The self imprisoned mind works to keep its fantasies, so as to minimise its awareness of the discomfort of limitation – and wants to believe it is in fact an independent will expressing a wish for freedom. Yet all of what this calls into experience is simply the result of active denial of a shared will – and this consequence is not somewhere down the line as punishment – but instantly - as the perspective of preferring a partial experience of an aspect of life rather than be in, and of, and as; flowing wholeness. Separated experience is got from an imaginitive overlay, set in a largely unconscious opposition to the current movement in the heart.
Opening, for even a moment, to a simple willingness to receive, (without precondition) is an expression of trust – and allows a reconnection at the heart that restores perception to the heart's perspective. From this love grows a willingness to look at the mechanism in mind - while it operates – so that the conditions of freedom and imprisonment become clearly shown. So much of what we believed freedom was in fact the means to keep our mind in darkness. So much of what we believed was failure, limitation or conflict becomes the means by which we are restored to true freedom. The freedom to be that we are – and to accept and express shared will – or the present and spontaneous movement of the heart in trust.
To recognise that we but imprison ourselves is a similar step to an addict acknowledging addiction.
From this acceptance can all else be restored - such as our desire discovers in alignment with the awakened shift that released us from fantasy and moved in us as both the call for love – and the answer.
When Nelson Mandela was imprisoned there were many who wore a badge - 'Free Nelson Mandela'. Every time I saw this I would feel the movement in my heart that said "You are free Nelson Mandela". For love waits on welcome and not on time – and I joined with the welcome of his heart by extending a welcome to him.
The result of imprisonment believed can express as loss, bitterness or a self diminishment – from which one then acts out in reaction. Yet to use the opportunity of any kind of experience of imprisonment to learn of the true nature of freedom restores peace, humour and compassion.
Such are the flowing treasures of life and such cannot be taken from a mind – without collaboration from 'the inside'.
Yet such treasures do they serve any purpose to a will determined to remain private, withheld from 'sharing' in justification of its own judgement.
When we have done our time, eternity welcomes its own.
But first restores our use and experience of time to serve the way of the heart.
Thus we can recognize what can be shared – and appreciate the experience of sharing – letting all else fall away of itself. There is much opportunity to learn and share of life eternal – here within the limitation to a world and self-sense of limitation. Not least of which – is that 'I do not want to indulge the experience of limitation as it costs me the appreciation of living truth'.
2009/10/13
A present focus in our relationships
When we notice that we have a tendency to tell our ‘story’ over and over again and thus reinforce our own identification with the script, we can choose not to do it. To simply not engage the practice. as a discipline of the heart.
A complementary approach is to simply but firmly hold a desire and willingness to bring attention into present focus in our relationships.
This naturally becomes mind-watching – but is in the context of letting relationship bring us present rather than use it to replay the past or anticipate future and confuse these with Now.
An untrained mind ‘meanders all over the place’ in both time and space. imagination plays a large role in this because – we are not all over the place – we are in present relationship with.
To bypass predefinitions about our present relationship – is to allow a fresh discovery aligned with truth as it is revealed to our willingness and welcome.
When we behold or receive the presence of another, rather than ‘read them in terms of our ‘personal database of comparative impressions’, we become the act of giving attention presently. This is of the nature of love and draws communication of like kind in a manner that is fitting or helpful within the current setting.
Predefined realities make for pre scripted reactions that become - in effect - armouring against intimacy.
Intimacy is firstly within our own heart – and then extends outward.
Attaining ‘familiarity’ of social ease may become a lubricant to successfully prevent the friction or embarrassment of the mask slipping off.
We can easily not realise that we are so engaged - if in a society that normalizes substitution for life.
Living without the mask is to live out of a present trust. This could be to trust to shine or share openly that which is normally associated with weakness – but without apology or sense of problem.
I have a gang of plasterers working in my house this week. They are working with Radio 1 and getting high spirited in occasionally singing along – albeit in larking about mode. I tend to see Radio 1 as a sort of mind killing medication – self applied – in desire to lubricate and mask dis-ease.
Oh I hate it!
But in this context I may use it – to observe and move beyond reactivity. I can of course ask them to turn it down, turn it off, go for walks or trips out, shut doors, play my own music, or whatever. But the thing is not what I do or don't do – it is simply whether it expresses reactivity or true communion. I don't care for challenges – but I do care to be open to the Spirit’s prompting – and here is an opportunity to allow transfer into areas I have kept apart!
My partner Cathi visits people at home as part of her work. One particular man was broadcasting ‘hard done by’ and grievance with such dramatic intensity that Cathi was inspired to step completely beyond the show - and simply ‘was given’ an instant of knowing that shared as she caught his eye in recognition of the one behind the show.
This act did not oppose or criticise his tirade – yet it effectively pulled the curtain on one who had become exclusively engrossed in an activity that simply misses the mark – and allowed a more practical communication to occur that served well being.
When one meets the heart’s attention, one is brought present.
That which isn't true – falls away.
That which is true is more clearly expressed and revealed.
The mind-habit seeks to regain a sense of control and this ‘takes’ attention back into story. Yet repeated willingness over time fruits the capacity to abide in Identity at Rest – and the stillness shifts from seeming something lacking or threatening to being the sense of Home. Where Light clearly is. Where joy abides.
in Love's blessing
Brian
Postscript: I did enage a process of release regarding the radio and this has allowed and brought forth a discovery of each other in new ways rather than a polarisation of difference.
A complementary approach is to simply but firmly hold a desire and willingness to bring attention into present focus in our relationships.
This naturally becomes mind-watching – but is in the context of letting relationship bring us present rather than use it to replay the past or anticipate future and confuse these with Now.
An untrained mind ‘meanders all over the place’ in both time and space. imagination plays a large role in this because – we are not all over the place – we are in present relationship with.
To bypass predefinitions about our present relationship – is to allow a fresh discovery aligned with truth as it is revealed to our willingness and welcome.
When we behold or receive the presence of another, rather than ‘read them in terms of our ‘personal database of comparative impressions’, we become the act of giving attention presently. This is of the nature of love and draws communication of like kind in a manner that is fitting or helpful within the current setting.
Predefined realities make for pre scripted reactions that become - in effect - armouring against intimacy.
Intimacy is firstly within our own heart – and then extends outward.
Attaining ‘familiarity’ of social ease may become a lubricant to successfully prevent the friction or embarrassment of the mask slipping off.
We can easily not realise that we are so engaged - if in a society that normalizes substitution for life.
Living without the mask is to live out of a present trust. This could be to trust to shine or share openly that which is normally associated with weakness – but without apology or sense of problem.
I have a gang of plasterers working in my house this week. They are working with Radio 1 and getting high spirited in occasionally singing along – albeit in larking about mode. I tend to see Radio 1 as a sort of mind killing medication – self applied – in desire to lubricate and mask dis-ease.
Oh I hate it!
But in this context I may use it – to observe and move beyond reactivity. I can of course ask them to turn it down, turn it off, go for walks or trips out, shut doors, play my own music, or whatever. But the thing is not what I do or don't do – it is simply whether it expresses reactivity or true communion. I don't care for challenges – but I do care to be open to the Spirit’s prompting – and here is an opportunity to allow transfer into areas I have kept apart!
My partner Cathi visits people at home as part of her work. One particular man was broadcasting ‘hard done by’ and grievance with such dramatic intensity that Cathi was inspired to step completely beyond the show - and simply ‘was given’ an instant of knowing that shared as she caught his eye in recognition of the one behind the show.
This act did not oppose or criticise his tirade – yet it effectively pulled the curtain on one who had become exclusively engrossed in an activity that simply misses the mark – and allowed a more practical communication to occur that served well being.
When one meets the heart’s attention, one is brought present.
That which isn't true – falls away.
That which is true is more clearly expressed and revealed.
The mind-habit seeks to regain a sense of control and this ‘takes’ attention back into story. Yet repeated willingness over time fruits the capacity to abide in Identity at Rest – and the stillness shifts from seeming something lacking or threatening to being the sense of Home. Where Light clearly is. Where joy abides.
in Love's blessing
Brian
Postscript: I did enage a process of release regarding the radio and this has allowed and brought forth a discovery of each other in new ways rather than a polarisation of difference.
2009/10/11
The Church in its self image is not the living Church – for such must be the revealed relationship of Divine Love; the Holy Relationship. “I build my church on You because you who are inherently worthy are willing to share the will of God
An historical organisation developed that calls itself the Christian Church – but this is the largely the result of interpreting Jesus in terms of the world – as the bringer of a worldly kingdom, or a kingdom in worldly terms, with hierarchical levels of status – ‘some of which are ok but some of which are excellent’. The disciples would fall out in seeking to pre establish a pecking order – seeking to sit in the best places! And this despite everything Jesus demonstrated and said of the nature of the Father’s unified and healing Will.
External structures can serve to express and enable a sense of order and unity - and CAN serve as an egg or embryonic phase. But they can also become dedicated to self seeking – which is to say: blinding with and binding to a false sense of self. In such conflicted mind, man is ruled by the chaotic nature of his own false gods - all of whom are reflections of a false self. This sets him against himself and therefore against his brother, both of whom are ‘cast out’ by the mind that denies love’s meaning in preference for its own.
To be given unity or order from without is to be under the law of man – even if it is called divine.
To express unity and order from within is to extend the Divine – without any need to call it anything – or indeed to create any kind of external structure.
The female is our receptive aspect.
The Church waits for the Bridegroom to fulfil and validate it.
But the Bridegroom cometh ‘when you thinketh not’!
As the Christ is lived in our relationships – so is the Second Coming realised.
If we insist on needing an external Parent – we will refuse or deny the authority within and draw such quality forth, but it remains the role of the parent to wean and guide the child into responsibility for discerning and accepting love’s will as our own.
Be you received in and by the ‘feminine’ of God, as you yourself receive, embrace, and nurture the Movement of Being; the Life and the Light.
Such is joy – such is glory – such is the wonder and the power of love and life.
I pray in my heart to let this be so – that I neglect to be ‘lonely’ in self seeking blindness.
in Love's blessing
Brian
An historical organisation developed that calls itself the Christian Church – but this is the largely the result of interpreting Jesus in terms of the world – as the bringer of a worldly kingdom, or a kingdom in worldly terms, with hierarchical levels of status – ‘some of which are ok but some of which are excellent’. The disciples would fall out in seeking to pre establish a pecking order – seeking to sit in the best places! And this despite everything Jesus demonstrated and said of the nature of the Father’s unified and healing Will.
External structures can serve to express and enable a sense of order and unity - and CAN serve as an egg or embryonic phase. But they can also become dedicated to self seeking – which is to say: blinding with and binding to a false sense of self. In such conflicted mind, man is ruled by the chaotic nature of his own false gods - all of whom are reflections of a false self. This sets him against himself and therefore against his brother, both of whom are ‘cast out’ by the mind that denies love’s meaning in preference for its own.
To be given unity or order from without is to be under the law of man – even if it is called divine.
To express unity and order from within is to extend the Divine – without any need to call it anything – or indeed to create any kind of external structure.
The female is our receptive aspect.
The Church waits for the Bridegroom to fulfil and validate it.
But the Bridegroom cometh ‘when you thinketh not’!
As the Christ is lived in our relationships – so is the Second Coming realised.
If we insist on needing an external Parent – we will refuse or deny the authority within and draw such quality forth, but it remains the role of the parent to wean and guide the child into responsibility for discerning and accepting love’s will as our own.
Be you received in and by the ‘feminine’ of God, as you yourself receive, embrace, and nurture the Movement of Being; the Life and the Light.
Such is joy – such is glory – such is the wonder and the power of love and life.
I pray in my heart to let this be so – that I neglect to be ‘lonely’ in self seeking blindness.
in Love's blessing
Brian
2009/10/10
The I that is We
I read a book once called ‘The I that is We : Awakening to higher energies through unconditional love’ - by Richard Moss
I enjoyed it when I read it.
When the I is subordinated to Relationship itself, it becomes only an expression of Relationship itself.
Or as Jesus in A Course in Miracles puts it:
‘God Wills not to be alone’.
I can seem to have a will to be alone, apart, different, private. And it gives me an experience of a world unlike God.
In such a world there is no peace of heart, joining all things in one light. No constancy of being or sureness of step. But a deep seated fear over and against changes that cannot be mastered.
Some believe that ‘angelic deception’ is behind such teachings as A Course in Miracles – and that the plural ‘we’ used at times by the author or ‘dictating voice’ is an indicator of the legion nature of the deceiver. However, certainty is not to be asserted by the mind – but is to be rediscovered by grace – in the heart. The mind that denies and attacks needs ‘enemies’ in order to maintain its own sense of validity to itself. The mind that embraces and includes needs brothers to share love’s remembrance.
If there could be an enemy of love it would be the intent to exclude oneself from it – but you cant be your own enemy. Except in fantasy played out in private - ‘not knowing what you do’.
The ‘awakened we’ is not the joining or the sum of separate fantasy roles.
We are your living love.
The projection or extending of love’s inclusion is the Gift that restores sanity. For by your gifts you know your mind – and by extending the mind as you are truly Given – you know your Father’s Light in all.
To recognise the gifts you give, that are not what you would in love give or receive – is to begin to disinvest in them by withdrawing value.
I enjoyed it when I read it.
When the I is subordinated to Relationship itself, it becomes only an expression of Relationship itself.
Or as Jesus in A Course in Miracles puts it:
‘God Wills not to be alone’.
I can seem to have a will to be alone, apart, different, private. And it gives me an experience of a world unlike God.
In such a world there is no peace of heart, joining all things in one light. No constancy of being or sureness of step. But a deep seated fear over and against changes that cannot be mastered.
Some believe that ‘angelic deception’ is behind such teachings as A Course in Miracles – and that the plural ‘we’ used at times by the author or ‘dictating voice’ is an indicator of the legion nature of the deceiver. However, certainty is not to be asserted by the mind – but is to be rediscovered by grace – in the heart. The mind that denies and attacks needs ‘enemies’ in order to maintain its own sense of validity to itself. The mind that embraces and includes needs brothers to share love’s remembrance.
If there could be an enemy of love it would be the intent to exclude oneself from it – but you cant be your own enemy. Except in fantasy played out in private - ‘not knowing what you do’.
The ‘awakened we’ is not the joining or the sum of separate fantasy roles.
We are your living love.
The projection or extending of love’s inclusion is the Gift that restores sanity. For by your gifts you know your mind – and by extending the mind as you are truly Given – you know your Father’s Light in all.
To recognise the gifts you give, that are not what you would in love give or receive – is to begin to disinvest in them by withdrawing value.
2009/10/09
The belief that you are not awake
Within this belief - you 'live' within limitation.
But the Life is given you - as you - and is one with the Light of your very being or awareness.
Its nature has become obscure to the mind that has adapted to survive in darkness.
But it is you unrecognized.
If the ego can find it - it will kill it.
For you are awake and it is the part of your mind that would deny this - that it's 'life' is maintained.
To see the part of your mind that would do this - merely allow joy to shine and share - and watch.
If the mind denies you even such a simple request then your desire is already denied and is allowed no access to you as yet.
The part of your mind that is awake is with you always - and in all ways.
You can not truly have two opposite minds - but the voice or desire of truth will wait for you to make up your mind about your mind - and then guide you to the reintegration of the mind in the single desire of the heart.
To have discovered your willingness to be so guided is truly a part of your awakening.
Be aware that your awakening will be auto-denied by the mind that is asleep - which may use any symbol or form for its own intent. In other words it can use "I am awakened" just as it can use "I am not awakened" to validate its story as real to you.
Nurture and grow the desire to bring your willingness present amidst the conditions of sleep - or thinking based experience. This is the willingness to be with - rather than withhold in judgement.
What you give to one you deprive the other. Your experience will change as a result - but do not look to your experience to see what and who you are - or you put yourself under the mind of external seeking again. Look now within.
Trust is the condition in which true desire works unimpeded.
An open mind is without filters - and simply open to all that it is - without assertions of partiality.
In such an awareness the movement of being can naturally be discerned clearly.
Such learnings are experiential. It is in the flowing that the knowing is felt.
To start from a frozen 'knowing' is to try to make the flow fit your filter.
This is the experience of opposition.
Monkeys can be caught by using a fixed gourd with a fruit inside but only a hole large enough to allow the monkeys hand to enter. It grasps the fruit and tries to retrieve it but cannot now get its hand out while holding the fruit.
To regain its freedom, it must release the good as it sees it - and cease in the attempt to overcome the obstruction as it sees it.
The mind is free to stop everything, release any current running programs, and receive anew a fresh evaluation of what is really going on?
But notice that any running program that is not released will prevent the rebirth of original mind.
Thankyou for your attention
in Gratitude
Brian
But the Life is given you - as you - and is one with the Light of your very being or awareness.
Its nature has become obscure to the mind that has adapted to survive in darkness.
But it is you unrecognized.
If the ego can find it - it will kill it.
For you are awake and it is the part of your mind that would deny this - that it's 'life' is maintained.
To see the part of your mind that would do this - merely allow joy to shine and share - and watch.
If the mind denies you even such a simple request then your desire is already denied and is allowed no access to you as yet.
The part of your mind that is awake is with you always - and in all ways.
You can not truly have two opposite minds - but the voice or desire of truth will wait for you to make up your mind about your mind - and then guide you to the reintegration of the mind in the single desire of the heart.
To have discovered your willingness to be so guided is truly a part of your awakening.
Be aware that your awakening will be auto-denied by the mind that is asleep - which may use any symbol or form for its own intent. In other words it can use "I am awakened" just as it can use "I am not awakened" to validate its story as real to you.
Nurture and grow the desire to bring your willingness present amidst the conditions of sleep - or thinking based experience. This is the willingness to be with - rather than withhold in judgement.
What you give to one you deprive the other. Your experience will change as a result - but do not look to your experience to see what and who you are - or you put yourself under the mind of external seeking again. Look now within.
Trust is the condition in which true desire works unimpeded.
An open mind is without filters - and simply open to all that it is - without assertions of partiality.
In such an awareness the movement of being can naturally be discerned clearly.
Such learnings are experiential. It is in the flowing that the knowing is felt.
To start from a frozen 'knowing' is to try to make the flow fit your filter.
This is the experience of opposition.
Monkeys can be caught by using a fixed gourd with a fruit inside but only a hole large enough to allow the monkeys hand to enter. It grasps the fruit and tries to retrieve it but cannot now get its hand out while holding the fruit.
To regain its freedom, it must release the good as it sees it - and cease in the attempt to overcome the obstruction as it sees it.
The mind is free to stop everything, release any current running programs, and receive anew a fresh evaluation of what is really going on?
But notice that any running program that is not released will prevent the rebirth of original mind.
Thankyou for your attention
in Gratitude
Brian
2009/09/29
If you wish to get out of hell
If you wish to get out of hell ... then reverse the procedure of what brings on such experience.
Instead of reacting from your determination that all is as you judge it to be ... Stop.
Do nothing to defend yourself from your heart's knowing - so that you can truly wonder, 'what is the truth here? - rather than enact the drama of the story as it seems at first to be.
Hold fast to this desire, though all manner of diversion and distraction attempts may seem to compel attention to collapse into ‘fight or flight’ scenarios.
Such practice remains potent even if holding for but a conscious instant before retreating to the familiar strategies of dealing with the 'devil you know'.
The humanly real thing here is in the willingness to challenge the fear mind-set at all! Not in some magical scenario of 'succeeding' in overcoming fear at symptom level - but in desiring honesty amidst disordered thought.
The capacity to look on - or abide through - the fearful - is grown in the practice of living from the heart; the exercise of grounded trust.
As long as one merely entertains spiritual ideas - one is in the realm of a hopefulness that one can somehow conquer fear without undergoing transformation. In other words - one is engaged in denial. This is as good as any place to start from. Its the only place to start from.
To have awakened to the starting place is a significant step from which the rest will follow.
The journey is not one of acting upon and changing externals - but of allowing one's own perspective to be replaced by the perspective of peace. You cant 'do' this as you think of doing - for it is the calming of the doing mind that allows awareness to shine clearly - your vision restored.
Your reality - really - is as much one with the ‘Kingdom of Heaven’ as anything ever will be - but how will this be recognised by one who sees only the past - and in terms of the past - in expectation of a future the same as the past?
It is true that many aspects of conflicted self are of such an intolerable nature - that they goad you to invest heavily in a direction that is felt to be serving 'the good' in atoning for 'the bad'. Such re-orientation of the human heart can enact a desire for good - but it is still 'the good' in terms of your own determinations and doesn't represent the Father's Will unalloyed - nor will such attempt bring your healing - until and unless it expresses a peace of being that is wellspringing from a wholly present love that does not have to justify the past to be - all that it is - or take its meaning from a past framework.
For the attempt to escape a believed situation, will inevitably reinforce the reality of the situation as you have judged it. The use of private judgement excludes and splits - and always leads to conflict, fear and guilt.
To truly ask for the truth amidst any 'hell' is to desire peace above all else. Because peace is the condition in which truth can register with you. This will likely seem to be humiliating because it is the relinquishing or the forgoing of your own judgement - upon and by which the self image is constructed. It may also seem to intensify fear temporarily in moments of resistance to change. But it does so within a larger sense of opening relationship. The thread of the intuition to recognise that you want and need change becomes the communication link that draws the heart present as your re-membering.
The experience of having peace replacing conflict is salvatory - and the resumption of the heart's loving appreciation is raw praise and gratitude. Life itself speaks you anew.
Such qualities of new life grow in us and express the nature of our shared being. Comes a time when to be out of communion in any sense - becomes a 'hell' - or painfully unattractive.
Yet it helps - and is natural - to have an alarm to feedback that the mind has over-ridden the heart communion, instead of serving the heart's direction. To learn to become numb to natural alarm is to teach that sleep is salvation. This will not work - though it will keep you in hell - albeit dimly recognised at times.
It may seem a slow path to practice, over and over again, the willingness to 'be wrong' or mistaken about yourself and everything - and make the journey of willingness to be still and let truth abide in you, instead of enforcing your own self-certainties as your experience.
If, from the willingness to release the world you made, you are realising that there really is no separated self in it, that is ever going to attain to enlightenment - or be added to with spiritual powers or capacities - then HOORAY!!!
Now you are more available to the willingness for enlightenment to be as it already is - and know it by its fruits.
Your innate Holy Spirit is teacher and Guide to you - whatever the agencies by which these occur.
Your Holy Spirit knows and loves the truth that is you and reveals and restores truth to you, by the desire that He reveals - step by step - to be yours.
As you live out from this desire you grow in the capacity to discern the mentality of illusion as illusion.
Which enables a greater love to be shared with all. For what is released from illusion is freed for truth.
Hell is unshared life. No matter the forms that may be presented of joining or separating.
There can be no unshared life in truth - for you cannot be unshared from your Father or Source. You can wish to take such a notion seriously enough to pursue your thought in private realm - and put it between you and the truth of you like a veil across your mind.
That we do not create our being, is self evident, except to the mind so engaged in trying to maintain such an wish that its imagination is more real to it than it’s own being.
To have held a map upside down and then diligently made wrong choices in ignorance thereafter has not effected change to truth itself - but only to your awareness of it. Because we neither make - nor can unmake - truth. The appreciation of truth - as it is - is remedied by regaining a correct orientation.
Only as you accept healing for your own split mind - can you become an agency for the healing of other minds, who yet make themselves afraid in ignorance, and see no light of love's inclusion within the reach of their capacity to receive and believe.
Thankyou for the sharing
Instead of reacting from your determination that all is as you judge it to be ... Stop.
Do nothing to defend yourself from your heart's knowing - so that you can truly wonder, 'what is the truth here? - rather than enact the drama of the story as it seems at first to be.
Hold fast to this desire, though all manner of diversion and distraction attempts may seem to compel attention to collapse into ‘fight or flight’ scenarios.
Such practice remains potent even if holding for but a conscious instant before retreating to the familiar strategies of dealing with the 'devil you know'.
The humanly real thing here is in the willingness to challenge the fear mind-set at all! Not in some magical scenario of 'succeeding' in overcoming fear at symptom level - but in desiring honesty amidst disordered thought.
The capacity to look on - or abide through - the fearful - is grown in the practice of living from the heart; the exercise of grounded trust.
As long as one merely entertains spiritual ideas - one is in the realm of a hopefulness that one can somehow conquer fear without undergoing transformation. In other words - one is engaged in denial. This is as good as any place to start from. Its the only place to start from.
To have awakened to the starting place is a significant step from which the rest will follow.
The journey is not one of acting upon and changing externals - but of allowing one's own perspective to be replaced by the perspective of peace. You cant 'do' this as you think of doing - for it is the calming of the doing mind that allows awareness to shine clearly - your vision restored.
Your reality - really - is as much one with the ‘Kingdom of Heaven’ as anything ever will be - but how will this be recognised by one who sees only the past - and in terms of the past - in expectation of a future the same as the past?
It is true that many aspects of conflicted self are of such an intolerable nature - that they goad you to invest heavily in a direction that is felt to be serving 'the good' in atoning for 'the bad'. Such re-orientation of the human heart can enact a desire for good - but it is still 'the good' in terms of your own determinations and doesn't represent the Father's Will unalloyed - nor will such attempt bring your healing - until and unless it expresses a peace of being that is wellspringing from a wholly present love that does not have to justify the past to be - all that it is - or take its meaning from a past framework.
For the attempt to escape a believed situation, will inevitably reinforce the reality of the situation as you have judged it. The use of private judgement excludes and splits - and always leads to conflict, fear and guilt.
To truly ask for the truth amidst any 'hell' is to desire peace above all else. Because peace is the condition in which truth can register with you. This will likely seem to be humiliating because it is the relinquishing or the forgoing of your own judgement - upon and by which the self image is constructed. It may also seem to intensify fear temporarily in moments of resistance to change. But it does so within a larger sense of opening relationship. The thread of the intuition to recognise that you want and need change becomes the communication link that draws the heart present as your re-membering.
The experience of having peace replacing conflict is salvatory - and the resumption of the heart's loving appreciation is raw praise and gratitude. Life itself speaks you anew.
Such qualities of new life grow in us and express the nature of our shared being. Comes a time when to be out of communion in any sense - becomes a 'hell' - or painfully unattractive.
Yet it helps - and is natural - to have an alarm to feedback that the mind has over-ridden the heart communion, instead of serving the heart's direction. To learn to become numb to natural alarm is to teach that sleep is salvation. This will not work - though it will keep you in hell - albeit dimly recognised at times.
It may seem a slow path to practice, over and over again, the willingness to 'be wrong' or mistaken about yourself and everything - and make the journey of willingness to be still and let truth abide in you, instead of enforcing your own self-certainties as your experience.
If, from the willingness to release the world you made, you are realising that there really is no separated self in it, that is ever going to attain to enlightenment - or be added to with spiritual powers or capacities - then HOORAY!!!
Now you are more available to the willingness for enlightenment to be as it already is - and know it by its fruits.
Your innate Holy Spirit is teacher and Guide to you - whatever the agencies by which these occur.
Your Holy Spirit knows and loves the truth that is you and reveals and restores truth to you, by the desire that He reveals - step by step - to be yours.
As you live out from this desire you grow in the capacity to discern the mentality of illusion as illusion.
Which enables a greater love to be shared with all. For what is released from illusion is freed for truth.
Hell is unshared life. No matter the forms that may be presented of joining or separating.
There can be no unshared life in truth - for you cannot be unshared from your Father or Source. You can wish to take such a notion seriously enough to pursue your thought in private realm - and put it between you and the truth of you like a veil across your mind.
That we do not create our being, is self evident, except to the mind so engaged in trying to maintain such an wish that its imagination is more real to it than it’s own being.
To have held a map upside down and then diligently made wrong choices in ignorance thereafter has not effected change to truth itself - but only to your awareness of it. Because we neither make - nor can unmake - truth. The appreciation of truth - as it is - is remedied by regaining a correct orientation.
Only as you accept healing for your own split mind - can you become an agency for the healing of other minds, who yet make themselves afraid in ignorance, and see no light of love's inclusion within the reach of their capacity to receive and believe.
Thankyou for the sharing
2009/09/28
Awakening is indeed wholly Good News
The recognition of 'not peace' or 'not fulfilment' or 'not connected within' - is by the grace of awareness - so to acknowledge such a state - is to have paused and listened - and is not in itself judgement against self or other.
The momentum of the thinking mind - or 'story mind' - in ignorance - can use the glimpse as yet more fuel for its story of self. It says: "I lack, am inadequate, or am deprived of my good". If you elect that this voice speaks for you - then you stay within 'your story', asleep.
But to let the present realisation of felt dissonance be allowed, as a trigger for the further influx of awareness, is to trust into relational silence - beyond the range of the 'story mind'. This practice will - in effect - open the presumption of a prior communion as the lens of your experience, in which the 'story mind' takes on a different purpose; namely that of using experience to teach, reflect and extend only that which moves alive within - and through - all that is.
In this, the realm of experience may be enjoyed without identification with the story - as the revelator of the light and truth that is itself beyond experience - yet one with being.
But as we choose again to ascribe parts of experience more or less value or reality - we will again re enact the script of separation and forget who and what we are in Truth. To enjoy without introducing the separation is to be enjoyment itself - empty or innocent of self strategy - sharing the 'Kingdom' with the 'Kingdom'.
This ‘sharing’ is the original 'language' of oneness - because it has not believed itself to have left the mind of God - and then used that story - as a lens of its own self exploration.
The original remains truly the only language of communication and bleeds through, despite the script that interprets all things to promote and protect a falsely identified self. Yet the original cannot altogether be lost because it remains part of what you are, no matter how the mind is used.
Touch on what is realised to be truly unwanted - only - to awaken - to be renewed as - the movement of true desire - that is given you by virtue of Being, itself . This is allowed in, by your disregarding all of what the ‘my story mind’ has taught, (through experience, as memory) - by not using it!
Awakening is indeed wholly Good News.
Postscript:
The momentum of the thinking mind - or 'story mind' - in ignorance - can use the glimpse as yet more fuel for its story of self. It says: "I lack, am inadequate, or am deprived of my good". If you elect that this voice speaks for you - then you stay within 'your story', asleep.
But to let the present realisation of felt dissonance be allowed, as a trigger for the further influx of awareness, is to trust into relational silence - beyond the range of the 'story mind'. This practice will - in effect - open the presumption of a prior communion as the lens of your experience, in which the 'story mind' takes on a different purpose; namely that of using experience to teach, reflect and extend only that which moves alive within - and through - all that is.
In this, the realm of experience may be enjoyed without identification with the story - as the revelator of the light and truth that is itself beyond experience - yet one with being.
But as we choose again to ascribe parts of experience more or less value or reality - we will again re enact the script of separation and forget who and what we are in Truth. To enjoy without introducing the separation is to be enjoyment itself - empty or innocent of self strategy - sharing the 'Kingdom' with the 'Kingdom'.
This ‘sharing’ is the original 'language' of oneness - because it has not believed itself to have left the mind of God - and then used that story - as a lens of its own self exploration.
The original remains truly the only language of communication and bleeds through, despite the script that interprets all things to promote and protect a falsely identified self. Yet the original cannot altogether be lost because it remains part of what you are, no matter how the mind is used.
Touch on what is realised to be truly unwanted - only - to awaken - to be renewed as - the movement of true desire - that is given you by virtue of Being, itself . This is allowed in, by your disregarding all of what the ‘my story mind’ has taught, (through experience, as memory) - by not using it!
Awakening is indeed wholly Good News.
Postscript:
It is indeed a fools errand to seek for the good, the beautiful and the true in merely external terms. However, the folly is to be discovered within your own experience - and therefore simply undone by the wisdom that replaces it - if you will. Giving to God is a way of not claiming for yourself alone. It doesn't deprive one of pleasure - but locates the true context of pleasure - AND - works to undermine the habit of self deprivation that the illusion of private gain always facilitates.
Be fixed on truth in the heart - God Is - and be wary of missing the mark - sin. The 'death' that sin entails seems provable because it is repeatable - but only for as long as you are willing to prove it to yourself by repeating care-less or love-less behaviour of thought and attention. And the signs of guilt are always the sign that this remains unrecognised and uncorrected on oneself - wherever the guilt or dis-ease seems to manifest.
2009/09/19
get out of the way!
The attributes of truth are – like truth itself - not communicable to the mind that thinks to control truth.
Under ‘ego sense’ I has its own version of light , peace and joy. But its ‘within-ness’ is devoid of love – no matter how much energy is exerted to make a presentation – and no matter whether I or anyone else accepts the presentation as if it were presence.
In terms of such a masked perspective – I does not and cannot know ‘what’ it is that is being allowed, and opened to - when moved to refuse or forego ego strategy’. For this is opening into relationship from attempted control at expense of real relationship.
Faith is an inner formless knowing-feeling that pre-exists any thought process of my own and which is part of the same knowing that knows my own thought but renders loveless unreality.
The ceaseless occupation of the mind is an avoidance of the recognition of the lack of loving-connection, now. To be still enough to notice and abide with disquiet and acknowledge it is so, is a real step.
For the mind in deluded self protection would seduce attention with whatever distraction works, so as to keep the within-ness of you out of mind.
Such is a mechanism employed by an old repetitive desire, yet you can learn to watch it so as not to be seduced into mesmeric compulsion.
In such blindness, Living Moment is obscured. Living Movement is unfelt. Living Love unshared. The restoration to your mind to your true Mind is salvatory. For you are thus ‘saved’ from your illusions of life unshared.
Only in such awakening love can we know that ego is not here – for the wholeness of Mind embraces and includes all that it is – and judges not against itself.
The breakthrough intuitions and glimpses of truth may seem fleeting and momentary – for the mind of control is deeply habituated – and does close down the trust in which light is freely shared – even though it may seem to be in the name of a good or well meaning intent.
It can be a long and hard lesson to uncover the deceptions whereby we seek to add the ‘Kingdom’, to all things we have first assumed to our selves.
The wish to love does in part hold symbol of the embers of true desire – but the will to love can only arise from the movement of being itself.
It could be said that our job is to ‘get out of the way’.
The story of Diogenes comes to mind: Diogenes was a Stoic philosopher who lived in some kind of barrel and became famously wise. Alexander the great, desired to meet and listen to this one and so travelled to where he lived and asked of him his wisdom – offering “anything in my empire that you desire as a reward”. Diogenes responded thus: “Step aside, for you are blocking my sunlight”.
This could be interpreted as defiance and independence of spirit relative to worldly power – but I see a direct and true awakening gift – from love to love.
Under ‘ego sense’ I has its own version of light , peace and joy. But its ‘within-ness’ is devoid of love – no matter how much energy is exerted to make a presentation – and no matter whether I or anyone else accepts the presentation as if it were presence.
In terms of such a masked perspective – I does not and cannot know ‘what’ it is that is being allowed, and opened to - when moved to refuse or forego ego strategy’. For this is opening into relationship from attempted control at expense of real relationship.
Faith is an inner formless knowing-feeling that pre-exists any thought process of my own and which is part of the same knowing that knows my own thought but renders loveless unreality.
The ceaseless occupation of the mind is an avoidance of the recognition of the lack of loving-connection, now. To be still enough to notice and abide with disquiet and acknowledge it is so, is a real step.
For the mind in deluded self protection would seduce attention with whatever distraction works, so as to keep the within-ness of you out of mind.
Such is a mechanism employed by an old repetitive desire, yet you can learn to watch it so as not to be seduced into mesmeric compulsion.
In such blindness, Living Moment is obscured. Living Movement is unfelt. Living Love unshared. The restoration to your mind to your true Mind is salvatory. For you are thus ‘saved’ from your illusions of life unshared.
Only in such awakening love can we know that ego is not here – for the wholeness of Mind embraces and includes all that it is – and judges not against itself.
The breakthrough intuitions and glimpses of truth may seem fleeting and momentary – for the mind of control is deeply habituated – and does close down the trust in which light is freely shared – even though it may seem to be in the name of a good or well meaning intent.
It can be a long and hard lesson to uncover the deceptions whereby we seek to add the ‘Kingdom’, to all things we have first assumed to our selves.
The wish to love does in part hold symbol of the embers of true desire – but the will to love can only arise from the movement of being itself.
It could be said that our job is to ‘get out of the way’.
The story of Diogenes comes to mind: Diogenes was a Stoic philosopher who lived in some kind of barrel and became famously wise. Alexander the great, desired to meet and listen to this one and so travelled to where he lived and asked of him his wisdom – offering “anything in my empire that you desire as a reward”. Diogenes responded thus: “Step aside, for you are blocking my sunlight”.
This could be interpreted as defiance and independence of spirit relative to worldly power – but I see a direct and true awakening gift – from love to love.
2009/09/18
Be-loved thou art
1. Those who would become enlightened, peaceful, and loving, must give way to the arising of light, peace and joy - which is come in response to truth-desire.
2. Let the ‘wish to become someone or something’ yield to the truth that already shares itself as Movement of Creation.
3. Accept the ‘already life’ of your eternal being by releasing the mind-life that seems to be ‘going somewhere’, (the progressive model of attaining escape or return).
4. Awaken to the Effulgence of the light of Truth and let that Expression through you - reveal all things anew.
5. Listen to the way, the truth and the light and be as one and at one - as your truth and nature reveals in trust.
6. Abide in the silence of being - in which you make and assert no image of self.
7. Love is your redeemer in the heart. Joy shines witness in unselfconscious demeanour. Gratitude sings praise of upwelling wholeness of Life.
8. May the glimpses of shared holiness, accepted, become the greening of the desert. Turn from the self and world of lack.
9. Be-loved thou art.
10.
The above came as a morning meditation.
(1) The first sentence reminds me of John the Baptist as rendered by Holy Spirit in NTI – but calls attention to the Presence (Holy Spirit/Jesus) – here and now – of our true and inviolate sanctity.
(2-3) The next two sentences speak of that by which we are deceived into motions of a self defeating nature. The idea of a self that is accepted - or identified as self- is like the bait with which we run – and get hooked into a futile attempt to overcome. fix, or struggle within.
(4) Yet our true context is the Already Life – but this knowing cannot reach attention while attention is fully engaged in pseudo mode. We cannot imagine how beautiful and wondrous is the nature of truth awakened – but by the relinquishment of the effort to (imaginatively) self create – Truth will dawn from within of itself.
(5) Practice (live) from the ground of revealed and received truth – which is of consistent willingness to be with what is – as it is. (6).
The fruits of Spirit give witness to its expression, though their Source is unspeakable. (7).
The mind of lack and lustre will seem to close over the moments of shared being that penetrate the dream - until allegiance shifts to always accept love of truth before self-made meanings. (8).
Being and its expression. Ours to share in. Ours to give and receive. Our simple truth.
The space: an invitation to move in trust and freedom. (10)
in Love's blessing
Brian
2. Let the ‘wish to become someone or something’ yield to the truth that already shares itself as Movement of Creation.
3. Accept the ‘already life’ of your eternal being by releasing the mind-life that seems to be ‘going somewhere’, (the progressive model of attaining escape or return).
4. Awaken to the Effulgence of the light of Truth and let that Expression through you - reveal all things anew.
5. Listen to the way, the truth and the light and be as one and at one - as your truth and nature reveals in trust.
6. Abide in the silence of being - in which you make and assert no image of self.
7. Love is your redeemer in the heart. Joy shines witness in unselfconscious demeanour. Gratitude sings praise of upwelling wholeness of Life.
8. May the glimpses of shared holiness, accepted, become the greening of the desert. Turn from the self and world of lack.
9. Be-loved thou art.
10.
The above came as a morning meditation.
(1) The first sentence reminds me of John the Baptist as rendered by Holy Spirit in NTI – but calls attention to the Presence (Holy Spirit/Jesus) – here and now – of our true and inviolate sanctity.
(2-3) The next two sentences speak of that by which we are deceived into motions of a self defeating nature. The idea of a self that is accepted - or identified as self- is like the bait with which we run – and get hooked into a futile attempt to overcome. fix, or struggle within.
(4) Yet our true context is the Already Life – but this knowing cannot reach attention while attention is fully engaged in pseudo mode. We cannot imagine how beautiful and wondrous is the nature of truth awakened – but by the relinquishment of the effort to (imaginatively) self create – Truth will dawn from within of itself.
(5) Practice (live) from the ground of revealed and received truth – which is of consistent willingness to be with what is – as it is. (6).
The fruits of Spirit give witness to its expression, though their Source is unspeakable. (7).
The mind of lack and lustre will seem to close over the moments of shared being that penetrate the dream - until allegiance shifts to always accept love of truth before self-made meanings. (8).
Being and its expression. Ours to share in. Ours to give and receive. Our simple truth.
The space: an invitation to move in trust and freedom. (10)
in Love's blessing
Brian
2009/09/09
To those who have, it shall be given them - and you cannot (really) deny your being.
The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament - (NTI in short), is one of very very few books I have engaged with love over these last years.
Holy Spirit inspiration, voice, presence and identity is awake enough in this one that I am not moved to seek without – in the world – for teacher or teaching – for I would trust and allow the flow of what is awakened to draw to it - and be drawn - to all that it needs. Yet I remain open to teachers and teachings as I receive them in the heart – the 'Holy Spirit knowing' – that distils the essence in the light of Sense.
The author of A Course in Miracles is called Jesus – but feels to be loving-peace. So likewise the author of NTI. Sometimes as I write, I feel the same. The specific is a function of the Universal.
So I have not a ‘Wow – This is it!’ reaction to NTI – or indeed any other external. Yet of course the wordless recognition in the heart of t h i s Living Instant – is the Life we share with God.
To myself and no doubt others – I can just seem some bloke with various idiosyncrasies, and patterns of thought and behaviour that are of the nature of the mind of my culture and time.
But this is not the truth of either me or of those who meet me, for truth is not expressed in parlance of judgements, comparisons and accorded values. All of which emanate from 'I want it thus!'.
A sense of being uncovered to oneself in such a hidden determination is no fun. Though the actual instant of awakening opens the wellspring of true joy. Selfishness or special-self-ness is pervasive at levels we are only just beginning to be aware of. Yet is this not the growth of the capacity to be free of programming – and thus appreciate and enjoy a greater circle of Identity and participation?
The urge to ‘awaken’ is not so much a desire that the world align with my own ways or ideas – but that joy is made truly welcome and shared – as is its nature. As is yours and my nature.
The mentality that denies, undermines, subverts or commandeers joy is a blind wish – but we who read this are waking up to that such wish is not our truth nor our desire.
The consideration of ideas is not necessarily shallow, for the heart listens and can awaken to its own call.
The process in awakening is like an ongoing revisiting of the original error – at the levels and forms of re-enactment that are currently within range of attention.
And by not accepting mechanical identification, attention is unbound and we are free to see and hear of the truth – that we may be its agency - and of like kind.
Any degree of willingness to not accept fear’s dictate opens the door of the mind to that it was - and is never - shut out.
Such a realization automatically leads to your welcome of your brother – for judgement is one: the shutting out is of rejection.
The awakening path within the world will at times bring fear and doubt of one’s own sanity. Fear at such times will open deeply laid scripts that – in effect – revert the mind to self-will in exclusion. Yet a light is within that is not altogether forgot. Practice isn't a matter of success and failure – but of desire and capacity to stay with. Despite the voices of success and failure.
The peace, love-Presence and wisdom of NTI offers far far more than getting one’s ideas ‘enlightened’. It is of the enlightenment itself – revealing You to You as You Are.
Yet this statement is from one who has accepted – and is willing to live the acceptance.
Those who yet struggle to maintain their self as they think it to be – cannot see or hear the Call as the call to Life.
A thief cannot trust an open hand and heart.
But amidst honest experience of conflict and confusion arises a sense of a better way and a desire to find it.
'Not my way – but Thine'.
I thought I was going to talk about something else – but instead I wrote as I wrote.
in Gratitude
Brian
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