brian-in-a-moment

Waking up

2011-12-21T10:51:00.000Z

The active focus of our awareness is beneath - or prior to - the seeming actions and distractions that constitute our experience of being a person in a world.

It is like being focused on a prism thought, by which a split mind plays out a power of choosing between. Any power it seems to have being given to it by your attention and intention - for such is how we accord value and 'choose' is it not?

We can not ever truly or finally choose or accept a choice that isn't there to choose and Rest Complete in fulfilment, and yet while we dally with the promises of choosing - as if there was something in a specialness of self creation that we actually want - then we refuse to let go the patterns of self by which we voluntarily suffer our own attack on our Peace.

To open, even for an instant at a time, to a true perspective upon the nature of our unforgiveness or un-release, is to open a space in which to see not from within a prismed split sense, but clearly and directly, in wholeness.

Such direct experience is not happening TO a you - but is expressing an entirely redeeming restatement of you and your world. Redeeming, because it locates and knows all that it is - within Wholeness, of One Mind, of One Will, as One Body. This may not seem so, because any interpretations of direct experience - made after the fact - will tend to reinstate the framework of the thinking judging defining 'self'. To be able to discern within direct experience will come with a capacity to abide as it.

But as such Light of direct Awareness, That Is recognizably awakening and transforming you, grows your conscious awareness - it is realized to Be your conscious awareness. To be the Presence and the Gift of You.

The substitutions of thinking will fade, fall away or dissatisfy, and with them, the 'self' that seemed once to have completely engaged your attention. Yet You are presently in Expression as the sharing of the gift of the awareness of love - because there is nothing else. And yet such an acceptance of peace of being does not make fanfare in or make special the mind through which the world is yet experienced. But it does yield its experience to a guiltlessness, that is pictured out as action unwithheld, presence unwithdrawn, truth allowed plainly to speak instead of covered over or kept secret.

Taking off the pressure on the brakes, seems like losing control. Taking off the pressure on the accelerator, seems like losing excitement. Losing control seems like losing something that you actually believed you had. But never for a moment have we had anything but an illusion of control via the holding to our Mind's Eye of a wish to be what we are not.

To identify with thought, invites dissonant experience of separate meanings, that can seem to conflict and influence each other in an endless dance of no consequence. But to release identification with thought is to forgive the separating wish, and to be danced from thought based meanings into one Light.

Abide in Me, as I abide in Thee.
And allow the Life,
Already Given,
To Share
What Already Is.

Interjections of old habits
are evidence of
the interjections of old habits.
Make nothing of them,
and even these will be used
as witnesses to Wholeness.

Watch what you place on the altar of your desire.
Pray for the uncovering of the true desire of your heart.
Your willingness and your free attention is miracle ready
Because love is no longer being actively excluded.
Let no thought of your own become the seed of action,
and Thoughts of One shall reveal the whole to you,
as your gifts are remembered and gratefully received.

Do not impose teachings amidst your loving.
A starter motor is not to be kept running.
A Universal Language needs no translation.
When there is no one outside - do not run to the door to tell them so!

In Peace

Brian

Being Real

2011-11-14T14:05:00.000Z

Being real.

In Bartholomew's book “I come as a Brother” is raised the question:

"As love is our true nature, can it be that we have already experienced it, but misidentified it?"

It is intentionally a question that illumines its own answer. We are already experiencing our True Nature - but are actively misidentifying.

The nature of our capacity to misidentify is something that we automatically tend to keep hidden - and would seem to us to be normal survival activity. But no matter how we try to protect our 'self', we are constantly meeting conditions that we feel unsafe in, struggle in and defend ourselves against. We tend to want a 'miracle' to enable our defences to prevail, rather than to illuminate a Greater Safety that our defences have hidden from view.

Outside of or apart from such a connected feeling and relational appreciation of life - is a ‘manually operated existence’ that rides upon utter dependence on life - and yet presents itself as much - and for as long as it can - as an independence of will. And may even attempt to die in clinging to this will rather than surrender into a Greater Life than its 'own'.

Being unreal is an imaginative exercise - yet one that is fleshed out in the full gamut of human experience - and suffered as if it happens at the will or direction of an Other.

Where is the answer to an imaginary but really-experienced problem of a struggling conflicted self to be found but in its arising?

In this sense I feel that being real - in terms of our human existence - is of listening within and without at the same time - as our ongoing honesty of being. It is the desisting from, and the undoing of, a 'mind' that distracts its attention by externalising everything and interpreting it in terms of division and control.

This is NOT our true mind or true nature - and the wish for it must be uncovered and seen directly for what it is - BEFORE it is used as a basis for perception, conception and identification. Because once we 'take the ride' we experience everything awry.

At the prospect of looking within, at our own thought - rather than through its lens, we may fear that we will uncover our own damnation - that is - our own rejection. We may feel 'safer' at least temporarily to see what we reject or hate - projected as if outside ourselves.

When writing something recently of the Call of our times for a true and grounded Sanity, I looked up the list of attributes that a ‘teacher of God’ must acquire in the Manual of A Course in Miracles, and found that trust was placed first, with all others following on. I had thought that honesty was going to be first - but that is because I personally now have that initial trust and presumed it of my brothers when it may not always yet be so.

Trust ...
Once that has been achieved, the others cannot fail to follow.
Only the trusting can afford honesty, for only they can see its value.
~ Manual for teachers: A Course in Miracles

There then follows a greater exposition of honesty than our surface notions of telling the truth; of honesty as congruency and consistency of desire, thought and deed.

I came to such an active trust as a result of experiencing of a kind of paralysis from its opposite. That is - from the exposure of the nature of the 'mind' or 'self' to a Prior Awareness. It could be said that at its most fundamental level, it ran out of time - of support - of allegiance - of meaning. It was replaced - not in time, but before time, with a Gift. A 'Yes" that replaces the "no". The “no” being the stringing together of the refusal of Life in 'mutual agreements' - which makes the experience of 'life' that an unconscious denial gives makes real.

Synchronous with timelessness is all that we experience 'in time' as a linear construct of events. Unfinished 'business' in time will not allow the eternal embrace of a loving communion in peace - for the energetic habits of refusal express as a will to make reality for oneself - that in turn creates and maintains a sense of lack, limitation - and a need to 'manage' a life within such a drama of self.

But with the Gift of trust offered to our being - there is now a clear sense of dissonance in using "no" as a means of getting - and feels continuing the old pattern to be anathema. Se find that in the willingness and the prompt of NOT USING our "no" - we become the receptive space in which and through which a "Yes" activates by no power or virtue of our own thinking.

And so in time and over time, we uncover that the "Yes" is our true Mind and Nature - not to be wielded or used in or by the 'old patternings of mind' - but is itself preparing and ‘making straight the way’ of Its Own Dawning.

For God 'takes the last step' - that is - The Movement of Being Is freely and fully welcomed in a like Spirit.

The essential shift is a reversal of identity. Not a linear reversal in time - but of an upside down and inside out-ness, released as the core or basis of existence itself.

What does this mean in the love that you are - and share?
This question and its discovery is the life that replaced the life expressed by the old question, "what does this mean in the world for me".

When changes of a fundamental nature are unfolding to us - we are actively called to bring attention present. Which is to release it of its habitual routines or wanderings. Alignment with our True nature will open a joyous pathway - which itself is foundational to the new life. But the "no" of persisting in our own sense of command and control - will increasingly bring us out of accord with everything- and we suffer to be dragged kicking and screaming into a Life in which we have yet to find our true Foundation.

But Truth is of Itself and must be simply available to a willingness to receive - in Its terms. It is humanly a matter of willingness.

The Gift, which replaces what we thought to place upon the altar of our heart, is the Holy Spirit. Our Holy Spirit.

None can accept this for themselves alone - for its acceptance is the absence of any thought of separation from Love.

What is love but the willingness and capacity to overlook everything that does not matter and attend fully to that which does? Of a unified will, and in a unified appreciation.

The 'mind' must become the opportunity for release and forgiveness - in place of the re-enactment of the separation. Even as it seems to be acted out.

Great fears call on great willingness. It is true that in joining is strength - but pause to feel and know that our joining is first of a wholeness within - or we give strength to the mind of lack and weaken our capacity to hear the Guide and feel the Support and Surety of Being.

WE must trust beyond the 'reality' of our outer senses and turn within them back towards their source - or ‘being real’ will simply mean struggling and dying a life of empty and failing promises.

All has its true root in You, Whole. But the sense of oneself gained in the world, seems to be a 'separated' or independent 'whole' - over and against others of a like separateness. The mind in the world has an impossible task, but its loyalty to your will is unswerving. Awakening to your own will is the release of using story as a mask for a secret will. If you cannot ask for it in the Light - let it go as something that keeps you in the dark. You can ask for what is in your heart in Light, and the truth of what is moving in you will be revealed to your honesty. Truth is Lovely because it is congruent, whole and without conflicting parts. The Holy Spirit discerns us truly - because Holiness cannot 'leave truth' to play in 'stories'.

Our Holy Spirit is our bridge from an unreality to a true sanity, because in Holy Spirit we are revealed and healed of a suggestion that seems to split our mind - and project its split ... as the world.

What would the world be to a healed and unified heart and mind?

Please show me the way for such is my desire.

in Gratitude

Brian

PS: Holy Spirit as a term for a Function of Teacher, Guide and Revealer is Universally inclusive of all agencies of help through the events, relationships, teachings, promptings and intuitive openings of our life. An Intimacy free of any constraints or definitions the mind or world might put upon them - and by our willingness, using all things to guide us to release a misidentification by which we suffer.

Awakening Joy, triggering loss.

2011-10-31T16:40:00.000Z

The energetic quality of being
is of such joy
as is un imaginable
to a me-thinking split-off mind.

But any sense of losing such joy
is exactly the trigger
for a me-thinking to assert itself
as if actually split off.

For abandoning intent
by law brings abandonment
in mind that yet plays out in
an independence of will.

So abiding as trust
as living faith
is the choice to disregard
the ego shout.
Stop now!
Be free of the voice for fear

And suffering becomes the sign
of a self-willing hurt
that offers continuity of self
but blocks love eternal
from It’s Own.

Here now the sky
receives even the suffering
exactly as it is
and hiding nothing
allows everything
to being itself

Such ordinary moment
as eternity reflects
is the willingness
to see and be
Loves presence

Only.

brian in a moment

Reality, wonder and innocence open our minds

2011-10-04T16:29:00.001Z

Footnote:
This was written to a comment thread on a news article about

Ozone layer hole over Arctic in sudden expansion

It isn't so much addressed to the article as to the comments, and is simply an attempt to articulate a perspective upon the mind and its experience.

Whatever Life Is ... is made tangible by its effects.
Awareness Is Knowing Something Is - as a Singularity - before any act of interpretation collapses, fixes or personalizes into a private or local 'experience' along with its ‘experiencer’.

This can be allowed in your own awareness in any moment, instead of merely dealing in concepts as if such activity is engaging in a real relationship. It always transforms our sense of self and may be allowed to open much further.

Scientific perspectives work out from a duality of mind and matter in presumption of a mind as an expression of, and dependent upon, a discrete genetically programmed entity as expression of its ecosystem, which is held as 'other to' and separate from its 'I'. This is an expression of a split "I" sense - or split mind.

In this it inherits the model of the 'orphaned, materially bound consciousness' of 'the Fall', but seeks to self-validate its own construct of its self upon its fragmented perception of a world whose meaning and dominion is presumed to be its dominion to determine and assert. By focussing primarily on that which effectively distracts attention from its actual utter dependence on and non-abandoned Current Life, it plays out in what is seen as organic entities, temporary existences amidst seeming polarity of opposition and conflict.

This 'I' sense interprets and seeks to prevail over all things apparently external to it so as to maintain and reinforce the program of the psychological mythos of the 'I' sense. Which at root is a disguised running-away from true Intimacy. This is essentially enacting the myth of killing-separating its own Parent or Source and denying or hiding the mind from Mind.

Thus the illusion of the 'I' experiencing and acting independently is merely a mechanism of an underlying background program that runs until it is replaced by a restored or reconnected 'Self', which is of a willingness to listen and receive and discern, so as to align and express a cooperative will beyond strategies of exclusive identifications.

For in any moment, WHAT, is aware, of anything?

The "I' is such a fundamental concept or construct. But having based I upon derived symbol and image and concept instead of in intimacy of being, truth as felt-sense or shared being, is adulterated and obscured.

Like financial derivatives, ideas can be developed and experienced as apparent substance until a reality readjustment forces the nature of an unreality to dawn.

But even within organic scientific terms there is a vast Unified Song of part known and unknown processes - in concert - that express and maintain the conditions that are Life as we have come to 'know it' - or define it. What is not apparent to the scientific presumption is that All That Is, Works as an implicate wholeness at and to a 'level' of awareness almost completely obscured by the mind of I WANT IT THUS! - whose distorting judgement and definition reflect back as an orphaned consciousness seeking to cover its invalidity by means of mutually agreed definitions.

This is NOT likely to be noticed any mind already engaged in its own thought based definitions or meanings - because such a mind is wilfully hidden in the urge to survive and prevail as 'itself' - excepting such 'self' is image, construct and story - and is essentially made up as a mask persona to engage in a manipulative intent in which the true nature of being is obscured.

Oh .... cosmic observations, cycles and and fluctuations. Yes The forms of the Universe look like something and can be looked at in ever more detail in ever more focused and extended ways. Aspects of mechanism are uncovered that easily seduce us to further manipulate mechanism in service to the dominant social forces that express as our conscious and less conscious cultural values. We ‘become’ mechanism by living out from a mechanical construct. But only as we consciously choose to persist as such.

I felt to essay this writing in a willingness to say something that neither science or religion as generally espoused, offers perspective upon. It has an altogether different presumption of self - though of course my 'working-mind' and persona are tools in trade.

Wonder in its purity, is awesome. We stand dumb. There are innumerable paths by which Wonder is covered over - and likewise by which awe is uncovered anew.

None are to be excluded from the awareness of the Awesome Wonder of Being - which is truly the alpha and the omega within which all that we dream is experienced and passed beyond. Seeing might equate with believing - but Peace is utterly beyond beliefs or perception, though an innocent perception does not block its welcome.

The Light of God is man’s blindness - therefore we look away in order to persist in seeing by our own lights. But in acknowledging and welcoming Light, we are changed from within to see with new eyes - with innocent eyes. Love is not magic. But is of a Kind. Be of one kind and know one Mind.

In Peace

Brian

Get well soon? No! Wake up to aWellness

2011-10-03T23:55:00.000Z

Health is not defined or managed by the mind.
Look not to the thinking managing mind for health!
The mind imposes its meanings upon the heart as an imagining and in a deceit, whereby the offer of a seeming gift,serves only to take away the joy and peace of the heart’s knowing.

For one who would gain the world must lose the Soul.

The search for lost joy and peace - in the world - becomes the means of enslaving the heart to a lovelessness in which it can find nothing wholly true and so becomes dependant upon such crumbs as seem a while to hold lovelessness at bay, and which become idols to a false god in tyranny of a hidden fear.

Health is the true nature of the heart.
Truth’s Meaning is eternally unaffected by the play of mind-meanings.
Love’s unified desire includes all that is real within its own being, and IS the non existence of all that is unreal.
Loving is the gift of sharing the Movement of Life, and joy is the freedom song of the heart in gratitude.

The body as an idea, may be renewed in truth, not as a better model to house imaginary but addictive self will - but as the vehicle of an awakened Will to share.

Seeing the meaninglessness of self will reflected in the meaninglessness of the body, is to see a form based meaning as truly fruitless and to consent to be undone of the wish to prevail that such meanings invoked.

The Nature of Truth is Rest because it seeks not but only finds. It cannot leave Itself or lose Itself outside a wish to imagine so - and such wish is no longer hidden amidst deception but is exposed as false, untrustworthy and unwanted.

The expression of Soul in the world becomes the undoing of the idea of a world independent in existence from the Conscious Heart.

For that which seems to be a power to define. limit and compel You, is that which must be discerned anew, in receptive willingness of a conscious trust, where the heart’s knowing is clearly and truly felt.
Accept only as the heart discerns and be well guided.

in Love's blessing
Brian

Recognize your brother and world restored to love

2011-09-25T11:10:00.000Z

Love's Expression is Unified Will that loves to know itself truly One.
This is Alive as the Universal Gift of the Movement of Being.
The mind or purpose of imagination is upheld only by the wish it prevail.
It must agree to hide in darkness to project meanings that seem real.
Welcome the light and release meaningless meanings.
Recognize your brother and world restored to love.
For love's exclusion was only ever enacted by a will to judge yourself.
Be not afraid of what judgement makes,
but let your Living Purpose be to look past it.
I cannot define the Living God in image or thought,
Nor you, dear One.
Howbeit I am deceived,
let me rest the mind its imaginings,
and turn to you in sure faith,
The Spirit of Love is One,
and Wills only to reveal itself.
The seeming will is to be questioned.
Let it not be hidden 'in your brother'
as a thought of love's freedom to hide and seek.
Forgive him utterly for your mind's trespass.
By letting his truth awaken your own.

brian in a moment

And let this moment be an opportunity

2011-09-25T09:59:00.000Z

                ... to feel,
                presently,
                this very instant,
                beyond all imaginings,
                is to know
                directly
                anew.

                The mind's 'self'
                has You forget,
                by imagining for a moment
                that love can become
                different than it is.

                Within a made thought
                given welcome,
                is madness lived
                alone.

                Clutching its tail
                to survive,
                in demand of a love
                made special.

                As fear dies
                to awakened disregard,
                love dawns
                of itself,
                ever
                anew.

brian in a moment

The stirring of Universal Being in the heart's intuition

2011-09-19T08:34:00.001Z

The presumption of a separate independent 'me' eclipses awareness of Universal Being.

Universal Being has a local aspect - inclusive of all that is being where you presume to be, not merely as is identified by you but all That is arising to you - As You.

This can make no sense to the mind that differentiates itself from its own thought and experience - and from others - by focussing on perceived differences of form and ascribing its own meanings to them. Such a mind believes it is in the world, having an experience of its own, because imaginatively, such is being enacted upon the Very Light of the Awareness of Being - and taken and lived as real in itself.

The stirring of the awareness of Universal Being occurs below the threshold of the mind-in-definition - that is to say it is already True and Infinitely Alive, yet rendered as if invisible by the disregard inherent in the act of self-definition. The eclipsing mind began with a desire but was then fuelled by identity and supported by differentiation. It is a 'doing' without a true foundation in Being, which is why it cannot rest or abide in being, but must 'do' its being.

This is why to be still of such activity is to allow back into awareness, that which was disregarded, and notice anew from an altogether fresh perspective - and be known in the presence of Life.

The mind-in-definition interprets this message as simply another opportunity to get definition for itself, so it will attempt to 'do' the being still and listening - and thus involve itself with forms of mimicry amidst its own emotion backed imaginings. But the stirring of the intuition of Life will not engage or be satisfied in such a deception.

Only in the noticing and passing by of such strategies will there be release into awareness. Not through the collection of information to use in the world - but in the simple desire to release the mind-in-definition - and its world - so as to be the peace in which all is received as it is.

The Movement of Mind that restores integrated wholeness, as a true basis from which to Be out from - is Holy.
It is the Guidance and Presence of the Universal that is within you in the sense that your mind cannot actually separate off from or eradicate it, though your attention can be bound in distraction and effectively disregard the Holiness of your Being.

But in allowing and welcoming the More of You to guide and uncover You to you - is a Communion already active and present - restored to your capacity to partake of. The impulse towards an independence from true communication is a habit that seems to reset the mind-in-definition as if the experience of transcendence is either lost to the past or is unreal. This is simply a more conscious appreciation of the eclipse of the Universal by the urge of independence.

Living out from the practice of Guidance - from the feeling-knowing of Universal Being - is the bridge of a transformed and renewed identity that rests in communion. Without this awakened trust, the expansion into Universal Being will seem like death, and will be recoiled from and resisted.

For the capacity of love is that of overlooking the form and its associated 'meanings' - and recognizing the Beloved, without separation. This Vision cannot be found in the 'meanings' of the mind. It is the Gift of the Holy Spirit to release all guilt and welcome the light of true innocence as the reflected Light of Eternity.

In Peace

Brian

The truth is in the pudding

2011-09-11T09:41:00.000Z

The desire to know the truth through the thinking mind is to look to the only place where truth is obscured.
Because you Already know the truth, you can open to the truth through reading or hearing.

"To those who hath, more shall be given".

But to those who have not yet accepted their own knowing, in the wholeness of their being - even that which they believe they hath shall be taken away.

Is love coercive?
No.
Is love revealing Itself in the way and the manner of its communications?
Yes.

The truth is in the pudding.

The definitions of thinking are fixing devices that self-validated the mind of the user.
But the use of such a mind by our Holy Spirit, allows an unfixing or loosening of the blocks to the flowing and extension of a trust in our being of life.

In such trust extending - you already feel and are the love that knows and is - and in the moment all things are added you - because they are already one with you - who abide at rest in oneness through your Holy Spirit.

The tension of the attempt to understand is exactly the tension of the attempt to maintain the sense of self apart - and then proceed from such a basis - as if to add to this 'self' and make it real or valid or successful or acceptable. To notice the tension is already to smile in release!

A willingness and desire for understanding, surrenders its 'knowing' and stands under that which Knows. Thus releasing the conditions that filter all outcomes on your own terms - and accepting the silent knowing of your own heart. This may also have association with thought and image - but these will but now reflect what is already moving, already true and already alive - as you. And will be freeing of the burden and tyranny of guilt.

The mind of command and control, of grasping and defining, of holding a will your own that judges and rejects, divides and rules - is an insidious habit, that creeps in un noticed and steals Heaven from your heart without you even noticing you are usurped.

How can this be?

Because what you actively want - becomes the foundation of your mind and experience - and when you believe or assert or accept that you WANT to see something YOUR way - then you are listening to that voice believing it is still part of the Living Universe.

Yet as you grow your capacity to trust-through the sense of self-defined limits and open to the joy and beauty and peace of being - you will also grow in the capacity to discern directly - and not conceal, disguise or defend against - the dissonance that is always felt in the lack of wholeness of a coercive will. It will seem to condemn you - but that is looking at guilt and fear - with guilt and fear. Forgiveness resists not evil - but looks directly upon its presentation in order to release the fixation of guilt. To own and to immediately repent of evil thoughts that can not really be hidden, overcome or escaped, but CAN be released upwards - is to let them pass away unwanted and in passing, reveal the Light that is your truth, your whole truth - and nothing but the truth.

In gratitude, in the song and harmony of the light of your being - do what you will - because your will is at rest in one will. In gratitude and innocence of being is this your natural inheritance.
Yet let one stab of interference seem to cause you to put your peace aside while you deal with 'the intruder' - and you are 'back in the mode of managing reality all by yourself' - and the impulse of wilful self authority - will not be laughed away and forgotten before it is even active - but will rule with your worshipful obeisance.

And so it is, that a story is shared. There is no truth in any of it, but through the willingness to share. All that knows truth is itself True - and no life could ever leave the Life that it is.

Yet in the world, is the play of the mind in many, that seems to see and seek our love as if outside us - in the world of ever changing appearances. Is this not a most amazing capacity of experience? But is it our heart's desire to keep it so?

Giving all things to God is but the releasing to God of all that was playfully presumed our own - and thus 'taken away' only to then be taken seriously in error.

So in desire for truth and freedom we say, "Take this cup away from me - as it be Your will and not mine".

It is not just the aspects of mind of which we are ashamed or feel threatened in, that we release - but the mind that fixes pleasure and joy in the world - for the world that we make, stands in place of the world that God's Holy Spirit replaces.
"Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal".

The simplest way to explain how it could be - in practical human words - that the mind of man gives way to the Mind of God; is to desist from your own thinking. Not by act of will - but in response to the Call or Movement of your own being - that rises in your awareness when you pause and consider in willingness to receive and be inspired in your heart and mind as one.

In Peace

Brian

Peace

2011-09-08T23:58:00.000Z

Peace

It starts by your welcome

as being you

shares seeing through you

and knows itself in all

It nature is Light without darkness

That Is Sight

Love without hate

That Is Feeling

Joy without sorrow

That Is Radiance

beyond loving this and that

Loving love

as love

and never leaves or returns

but rises always anew

Peace eternal

Is just this

instant

exactly but

without

an imaginary

otherness

by which the shadow

of a stranger

tempts you to seek

in foreign places

for what you do not want

as if you do

and for what you thought you lost

when you reached for it.

Letting Peace

is letting judgement evaporate

by doing nothing when it rises

from a darkness prison

to be released

Be forgiven

By the God of Peace

That Light radiates

That Love rises

That Joy sings

brian in a moment

New Testament Revealed in a truly new light

2011-06-12T22:49:00.000Z

I wrote this as a book review on the Guardian.co.uk website

http://www.guardian.co.uk/books/data/book/religion/9781846940859/the-holy-spirits-interpretation-of-the-new-testament-a-course-in-understanding-and-acceptance

Anyone who is actually called or stirred in awakening from the mental sleep of a taken-for-granted identity of self and world will have experienced a living synchronicity or concurrence between the outer and the inner. The outer form of which may well be helpful, but the inner recognition is of a different order of experience than anything 'in-the-world has or could ever be.

This is a book of awakening and for awakening from a perspective that is itself awakened and which speaks to the same in you.

It is not a book that will offer any relevance for the mind that wants to think that it is who it thinks it is - and that the world is as it believes and judges it to be.

If the title were not already taken, I would call this 'New Testament Revelations' - not because of 'truths' that are given to use in the world as we believe it, but that truth is uncovered to the reader, right where you are - and offered to you to in a gentle and honouring spirit of invitation.

Each 'Book' of the New Testament has a particular voice and approach in NTI (New Testament Interpretations) and all share one purpose; awakening.
Not an idea of awakening others or society or in some future time, but of awakening and opening to the same truth that Jesus lived and shares - of an Intimacy of being that the mind-in-the-world cannot know - that waits but on your welcome and acceptance, to immediately heal the mind of a false association - and by which all things are seen in a new light. Yet this unfolds step by step as free desire and willingness allow and grow.

The basic ego or self sense would start out from a presumption of separateness from everything and seek to get for itself what it thinks best. If that is still what you want you wouldn't still be reading now. Yet our present appreciation and intuition of the truth of Life, Light and Love is constantly being blocked, filtered or distorted by a 'mind' of thoughts of which we are largely unaware and which we allow to essentially control our experience by use of guilt, fear and the illusion of escaping these while yet using them.

But NTI speaks clearer than I on all such things. My essential witness to this work is of its capacity to awaken not just interest or intention, but actually of speaking directly to our present condition, again and again and yet again.
What is it to be brought out from complex and delaying patterns of denial and self justifying habit into a clarity of unified joy? It is to awaken to the true foundation of one's being from which therefore to live out from.

Jesus's demonstration and teaching and the Christed message that is offered through the the New Testament is largely interpreted by minds that do not live as Jesus, see as Jesus or love as Jesus, and this indeed means that much that is given was not understood and has not been understood - because the mind was not ready to accept. Fear always distorts.

This book has appeared in response to a willingness, and in that willingness it is not a book, but a Message of Light to a mind ready to open to the Light of its own true Understanding. Not that there is not also resistance to such an opening - but that there is a conscious willingness to take a step with their Living Spirit, now.

A search online will soon reveal excerpts by which to test the waters - but gently watch where you put your attention - and the purpose in your mind that is guiding it. Peace knows, because it does nothing to block or deceive knowing all that it is.

Fear of Life

2011-04-06T10:23:00.001Z

http://thefearoflife.org

This is writing that came from reading the essay at the above link. It simply offers into a thread of conversation.

Fear of life seems to be autonomous or automatic, and expresses itself as a polarised experience in which the world - or external conditions, are felt to be imposed or to impose themselves upon a focal point of awareness that contracts upon itself as an inwardness of thought and withdrawal from full and free relatedness.
The identification of self with the inward thinking mind becomes a foundation from which the mind looks out, and an identification that calls on the power of mind to justify, validate and defend. Yet what is asserted, maintained and defended as self is the very nature of fear of life, but expressed outwardly in attempt to avoid the undoing of the sense of self definition that arises naturally in a true relatedness. For life is not as the mind of definition would have and hold. It is already here and it is awareness, knows feeling, and shares or communicates presence universally or without limit - in edgeless wholeness.
The mind of human has a cultural sense of the prior reality as Soul or Spirit, but in the attempt to use the pathways of remembering as the extension of its own seeming power to become a something in its own right, it trades in a living sense of idea felt in the peace of the heart, for a dry concept - with magical associations in the continued wish for a special sense of self-becoming.

Fear of life is on surface identified with external threat, and strategies are developed to overcome or mitigate or manage the threat so as to regain or attain a sense of order and stability in which to pursue self interest without opposition. In other words there is the desire to win, to prevail, or to triumph, and this will is a demanding and accepting only its own way.

The assertion of self will is the expression of opposition and it meets opposition. This experience will become intolerable and the mind will develop strategies of dissociation in order to manipulate situations that cannot be won outright. In other words, we develop a mask, a persona, a virtual self that itself is a proxy or extension of a sense of self founded in polarised or split identification.

The play of the mind in virtualisation is experienced as real but it is an overlay of imagination upon and within Mind or Life itself. The wish and presumption of independence of self is itself the single most blinding condition to the conscious appreciation of, and participation in - and as - Unified Life.

The currency of support for the separate self sense is definition or judgement, which is always an act of exclusion from Living Presence. Image, symbol, concept and story, have fleshed out a time and space distraction amidst and in place of, the timeless nature of being.

When the desire for the experience of distraction wears thin, the desire to know and love reality as it is awakens or stirs as the truth of you, and the mind is led back to a true understanding and acceptance in which it releases or forgives what it believed it had done and become and accepts in its place the true foundation of all being.

The world ceases to be used as a playground for self experience in which to prevail and becomes the opportunity to remember truth and share the love that moves as the nature of being in a true freedom or spontaneity. That the old habit remains is beside the point because the purpose has changed. It will now become apparent that one but fights oneself and this cannot be engaged with passion or conviction and so the basis on which the mind is working has to be seen so as to release the cycle of an old and unwanted habit.

The nature of the experience of Being has been talked of in terms of love, peace, joy and creative freedom and these can point the way, but the experience-hungry mentality of a sense of self lack cannot see or have anything directly to do with reality excepting that even an imaginary mind is directly is wholly dependant on reality to even seem to be real.

The honesty of not knowing coincides with the release of surface certainties and allows the rising of depth to know itself from its own nature and being - instead of the assertions and demands of form based meaning. To thought this could seem fearful - as if the depth is an otherness that takes one over, but in practice it is the shedding of fear and the allowing of embrace. And in terms of the world and its self, a fresh appreciation extends as a step. The step is not a new definition to use in handling the world, the step is a step in undoing the mind that believes its experience in the world is its true life. For the transcendence of experience is the release of the fearful and glamourous adventure of limitation and suffering for a light and presence of being in which all things are made new - that is to say a timeless revelation that neither comes or goes of which nothing can be said - for the attempt to say is but the activity of a mind in story; a wish, a self defining usurpation of an always already perfect communication.

When we find but our thoughts we have simply not uncovered the willingness to let ourselves in, but the willingness to let our thought be seen as it is rather than as it thinks is the growing of the willingness to accept truth as it is, and be free of suggestions and associations which colour, cloud and confuse, whereby the truth of love is forgot.

We see all around us, foundations quake

2011-03-13T22:13:00.000Z

The transience and vanity of much of our human experience is brought home to us all by such a scale of sudden change as is occurring in Japan and revealed to the eyes of the world. Yet it is not in dwelling on or succumbing to the suggestion of destruction that will open the way to love's reality. Such as heart and mind can be found willing to accept. Willingness is the Gift that we grow only by the giving - and remains our true need amidst a wilfulness of thought in which we live out a sense of disconnected identity.

The seduction of the world is the suggestion that we can become comfortable here and abide in form based reality whilst still maintaining a private sense of existence. But this is the call of illusion.

Yet within the desire to awaken is the premise that all things serve awakening to truth. This can only be actualized in a true willingness to put our own thought aside in willingness to stand present with - that which we do not know but are willing to learn of anew.

It may be that this practice reveals humbling truths about just how weak is our willingness over and against our habits of thought - yet a true spark serves more than any amount of wishful thinking. And a spark nurtured with gratitude and appreciation grows.

In my own life, I have known calamity, and I have not restored the dead, or healed the afflicted in any worldly sense whatsoever. But I have opened more deeply and directly into the Soul as it abides in truth and as its true feeling cuts through the identification with definitions, things, persons and the wish-dreams of its own thought as if becoming real.

Yet insofar as I have known oneness with The Power of Everything that Oneness Is - has been in utter innocence of being - of delight and rapture of such self-nonconsequence that 'self' ceases to obscure the Awareness of Mind Itself - even as the interpretive experience of self, other, and world arise.

The rapture and delight of such an Intimacy is too close for thinking and yet is one with the very love and truth and beauty that is right here right now yet seen as 'in limited form'.

I share with you this blog from one of our Family in Japan.
http://euancraig.blogspot.com/2011/03/we-are-safe.html

It offers a personal scale perspective that counters the media fixation upon a scale of events that we humanly cannot take in.

Tears of love are opening the heart. Let love flow, that love Is, As it is. But the emotion of imagined dramatic scenarios is of a different source. This will cut off the flow of loving awareness.

True foundations are in the willingness to let truth Speak us.

May we be established in true relatedness and live out therefrom.

In Peace

Brian

"Hang on - I lost it!"

2011-01-25T13:52:00.000Z

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When we deny our own Soul communication, it is usually self presented to our awareness as some kind of experience that denies or demands deprivation of us. Because if we were to see it as it is - we could not effect the denial.

This in effect uses others or the world to play a role in justifying a withheldness of self - to itself. The others and the world are not fundamentally involved or concerned with our hidden script - but in our interpersonal relations we soon communicate our demands in subtle ways, (that may never be openly stated), whereby we indicate that we need others to back off - or indeed to come forward - with specific kinds of behaviour - to serve our own private needs.

When we are getting wise to this way of hiding from ourself we can ‘see’ it in others - and if it pains us - it is because it speaks directly within us of our own pain - in which and by which we are locked - because we are frozen in our own communication. I am using the term communication here in its true wide sense of relatedness and involvement and participation - and not as a bunch of commentary or assertion or perceptions that seek validation.

We may let Life in - by trusting into a receptive stillness - but if we then do not abide in that and let it guide our be-ing - we switch back into non receptive assertion - and ‘lose it’.

“Losing it” has correlating experience on many levels - all of which are characterized by limitation, disconnection and isolation. In such lack of perspective, all kinds of thoughts and scenarios play out as an adventure in experience that is in turns; exciting, glamourous, threatening and meaningful as a sense of struggle towards a desired outcome. But its premise is false and it is at the expense of peace and appreciation of an unconflicted love. From such a truly restored and rested perspective we can see presently that it is not our true desire to initiate the activity of intention and thought that result in confusion and conflictedness.

The keynote that is Christ awakening is that there is a shift or recognition from a situation perceived outside me - into a direct intimacy that is me - yet not any sense of me defined and not with any sense of a self amidst an otherness or situation other to me. As long as the situation is seen and engaged as between others - there is strategy at work as to what is revealed and what is withheld. But in the awakened recognition of the heart - there is a Re-membering presently of one’s own inclusion in all that Be ing truly is - and THIS ‘Knows’ Itself perfectly - and so is beheld as a knowing that operates as a seamless guidance and communication. Yet even such a beholding is itself an expression of the Be ing. There is no separate part from which to know or judge anyone or anything - ever.

The mechanism of denial is heartless - because it is the mind acting as if outside the heart. To identify with such mind is to kill or deny or imprison the heart - and experience as if that were in fact so.
To let the Heart Be - and to let it Guide, is far from any emotional need or reaction to hurt - but is simply peace of wholeness. For the seeming heart is the attempt to salvage some love from the fragmented experience of a fearful and heartless identification.

The release of the hurtful is not in enacting scenarios of atonement. The release is in stopping everything and letting the Father in. The Movement that is the discernment of Life - speaks all things truly - because it is without ‘knowledge’. It is innocent of what we take as knowledge.

We may fear that if we let down our defences and be seen as we truly are - then we will surely be condemned because we are so sure that we ‘know’ we hold unworthy and hateful thoughts. Yet truth is that these are fundamentally retained in consciousness - even unconsciously - by attempt to deny and reject them - from an unjoined sense of self.

The force with which they are denied is the force they seem to have in insinuating or violating your consciousness. There is no ‘devil’ but that hating hatred and fearing fear obscures the mind from seeing truly. As the mind is relaxed - so the drama ceases to drive the show. Attention is freed from its objects and is restored to its Source. It is not something to work out - but an allowing of what truly works to dawn in our awareness.

To desire truth is to desire peace - for peace is the condition in which truth is clearly appreciated. Peace is the abandonment of ‘knowledge’, of search and of the exercise of wilful imagination. In its calm you can simply feel when to wait and when to extend your outstretched hand - and all that is needed is Given you - as it is called forth. This is not a state of attainment - but a freedom from the mind of attaining. The desire for a special self is not love and must be seen simply as it is - from a perspective that is free of its seeming allure - from a rested not-knowing that is in no danger of knowing anything! For It can never leave it Source!

In the release of ‘knowledge’, recognition beholds and ‘falls into’ That Which Lives all things. And that even so, the world of appearances arising is not actually modifying or fragmenting or limiting the un-knowable but untouchable Truth. God-Being All That Is You Are.

In Peace

Brian

Hatred, fear and tyranny

2011-01-10T13:48:00.000Z

Two news stories have touched the same nerve in me in this new year of 2011.
Both involve the shooting by a lone individual of another with whom they disagreed to such an extent that they felt righteousness and duty in committing murder - and in directly undermining any due process of communication or law with resort to a justification of ‘might is right’; the act of the denial of life to another; killing the messenger to shut down the message that they - not God - have determined is hateful and deserves to die.

Both gunmen operated out of a sense of support and vindication from the culture of hate that had brodcast itself in self righteous terms; the Pakistani gunman was protecting Holy God from blasphemy. The American gunman was protecting the Divinely inspired Consitution of the United States of America from evil marxists or perhaps ‘We, the People’ of the USA from a tyranous secret conspiracy of a corrupt government. The theme remains the same

This kind of thing can and does sicken many of the whole notion of God, religion and so called holiness. Because it is so clearly hypocritical and deluded. But with what they do have of a sense of the sanctity and value of life they may well be more ‘the messengers of God’ than many who seek to perpetuate their own private or mutually agreed agendas in God’s name.

Because until man awakens from a childish fixation on specific forms, thoughts and symbols as holding fixed and asserted meanings in and of themselves, there will not be a true and consistent opening of the heart to the sanctity and holiness of life and the divine inspiration that guides from within - and not via external gods or externally created authorities that are liable to tyranous subjection of the Living Impulse of our heart.

The uncovering in man of a sense of falsity - or invalidity or wrongness - offers a step toward awakening from a deeper understanding than his own thought allows. But if we are engaged and identified in a mood of fear - that indulges hatred and judgement to its own sense of advantage - we will not awaken to a deeper curiosity that uncovers more than we knew before in a greater perspective - but will seek out and find scapegoats and enemies upon which to project our sense of wrongness upon. And we call it life even while it kills us.

Whether we are to emerge from the thrall of the mind of fear or remain slaves to its tyranny is a matter of individual responsibility now. For only the witness of the mind that disagrees with the god of fear can call it out to be undone. Fear says “If you speak out I will shoot you” - but it can only seem to have the power it wields through a culture of joining in a common hate - a culture that thrives on false witness, gossip and judgemental indulgence.

To partake in hate is to be a party to the acts of violence that are intent on undermining trust, cooperation, tolerance and all of the qualities that ARE the embodiment of love in our own minds - and in human society.

This is not a call to hate the ones who hate. This is a call to refuse hatred and insist on finding an honest, straight and open way to communicate - both within our own mind and with each other. A call to a clearout upon the principles of good housekeeping. The truly good will arise without self-manipulating effort when we cease to hate and so clear our hearts and minds of conflict - and not from setting ourselves against the symbols and messengers of that in our life to which we have aversion to.

Is there a helpful use of hate?
Perhaps only this - that to identify a falsity in oneself and immediately recognize it has nothing that I want and costs you all that I hold dear - is to empty or abhor myself of my thought so as to refuse to validate it in the terms it suggests. I abide in open trust that what is true reveals itself because I am no longer actively accepting falsity as a basis from which to live. Yet even here it is language that suggests that I ‘hate’ falsity - for the falsity itself is the hate - and I am not as it suggests and so I put it behind me by giving attention to the Living.

Wikileaks - a glitch in the matrix of sleep?

2010-12-06T16:21:00.000Z

When Gordon Brown forgot to turn off his microphone after an interview with a voter that he found frustrating, his frustrations expressed themselves in a judgemental outburst of opinion against the voter to whom he had felt obliged to be diplomatic with in person.

He was vilified for this - even though such behaviour is in one way or another, normal, for very very many human beings.

The separation of public and private communication is the act of secrecy and guile or self serving strategic presentations so as to protect a mythological self - which itself a strategy of attempting to compartmentalize and manage irreconcilable beliefs, thoughts and desires.

The psychological or mythological self is a kind of self-mesmerising propaganda whose first charge is to attract, engage and manipulate one’s own attention and perception so as to seem to validate or serve the interests of one’s self image.

We then come to believe our outward assertions even though they are inconsistent with our private thoughts and belied by our actual awareness.
We live as if our opinions were in any way fact - or as if our own private thoughts were in any way true.

This is such a normal element of human culture and communication that it is rendered almost invisible - and our notions of normalcy and sanity tend to be based on such lack of honesty as the ‘honest’ management of what is regarded as human nature.

Underneath the superficial presentations and illusions of civilisation is held to be stark, brute - if not demonic - self will. That unbridled would rape, plunder and destroy or seduce, usurp and possess.

The fear that this is so is enough to prevent the discovery that it is not so in the way that our fear makes seem. For at back of all private or secret agenda for self interest - is fear, insecurity, disconnectedness and distrust.

So our rampant self-will is suppressed yet used in secret amidst the guise of communicating - yet without allowing real communication to occur. For the nature of the mentality is that of managing and manipulating based on prior assertions of self - rather than discovering and meeting life - oneself - in each other.

Yet life is beyond managing and our attempts to do so only reinforce our self delusion - which seems undeniably real to us in our mutually interacting mythological or psychological one-up-man-ship.

When our cover is blown - when the lid is removed - the exposure tends to be experienced as humiliating loss, pain, shame and weakness. Damage control seeks to avoid this. But that is still living out from the delusional basis and attempting to get back under cover and put the lid on whatever is seen as the problem. Seeking to restore self-illusion as a consistent sense of reality.

But in crisis and catastrophic systems failure we also experience being open. And in apparent powerlessness we also experience something of the nature of trust and of being genuine; open with our own being and straight with others. Where we cannot afford to lie.

Until some measure of awakening to the true nature of the mind, and a direct appreciation of life becomes our responsibility - the ‘defensive mechanism’ of a false sense of self runs unchecked and by default.

In assertion of a falsely based sense of self we experience everything ‘through a lens darkly’. We see anything that undermines our ‘self interest’ as enemy - and in one way or another seek to limit, deny or kill it.

The opportunity of uncovering such a mentality within ourselves is not to react according to its ‘laws’ - but to stop, listen, and wait for the wisdom that must arise in our own hearts because we have made welcome for it instead of operating an exclusion zone.

Pray to say - and get out of the way

2010-10-13T09:34:00.000Z

Let this mind be still of self judgement.
Let this heart be open to this moment.
May all things rest in my awareness,
with no story of division.

I come to ask, as I am moved,
and moving, meet resistance;
a mind in me that calls on guilt,
in darkness of exclusion.

Let me hear true!
I want to hear true,
for the being of life,
and the seeing of life,
as one with true.

I have thought my way into a maze and think I must think my way out.
Reveal to my mind the simple light of truth!
I felt my feelings condemn me in a dark and lonely hell.
Reveal to me my Self - where peace extends!

I wanted you dear heart, to be with, and to be with me,
in form that touched me in desire to be so known and oh so loved!
And made of you an idol of loss, of limitation, fear and guilt.
for I believed the the lonely thoughts - that say I am as they,
and longed for love as if my self was unlike love.

So help me,
and let me know Thy Help,
help the love, you Be me,
know itself directly.

Paths within a world unlove,
cannot be found.
They are not there!
And seeming lost, abandoned, sense,
that I, in mind, does err,
Attending thought in false pretence,
as if a worthy prayer.
I made myself experience,
of world that isn't there.

A prison painted out.
Imaginary walls,
exclude the life,
lock in, the demon thought,
that turns the spit,
the guilt fire pit.
That paints the sham,
to hide from shame,
but knows full well,
impotent spell.
For love lost, cost,
all that lives,
and mere things never,
such life give.

Unless from the cell, and spell undone,
is shifted to the Living One.
In dream forsaken - let me then forsake,
abiding sleep - I wouldst awake!
for love’s true need,
above my sake.

Holy Spirit in the heart,
listening for peace.

Listening for peace in my heart.
Resting in desire for peace.
Let peace be in my heart!
Let peace be in thy heart!
May peace be.
And be in peace,

A mind unwhole in agitation,
was here as if my own.
Let peace restore me from,
imagination!
i will
to let myself be still ...

brian in a moment

Awakening to the real world

2010-10-11T11:48:00.000Z

I am not inclined to be critical of any living being - but when there is an assertion that purports to be true and yet is not true, I feel the authority of life - the innate right - to speak as I am moved to speak.

If I were reacting against error - I would make it real to myself. That is not my desire.

When anything is humanly held to be truth that is not true, it has to be asserted, maintained and defended - because its real power is given it by its makers, who identify, and are justified to themselves thereby.

The human world experience is an alloy of both wheat and tares because it is the effect of confusion of both the true and the false.

The primary error is the belief that it is up to 'us' - or me or you - to determine truth. For such is the constitution of an 'orphaned' or 'divorced' mind.

All attempts to heal, or bring harmony and accord, have - or use - an element of truth, but until truth awakens to its own there is the underlying liability of a false self serving will. Which always brings discord and suffering even if it seems to temporarily please a partial perspective.

Recognizing this liability, has brought into play what Raj calls 'negative cooperations'; the designed and agreed arrangement of checks and balances to constrain the excesses of the exertion of power. These may also express and appeal to a higher level of responsibility, toward a greater sense of shared life than a blind self interest.

However, a blind self interest, sees and uses all things to gain personal advantage - without real or heartfelt regard for truth and makes a moral superiority of validity for itself out of truths that would - if brought into realization - correct the mind of its blindness and restore to truth in wholeness.

The world-in-limitation works like a veil to distorts miracle impulses, (communication), such that love seems to be a weak power struggling amidst opposition to act or have effect. This is because power - in terms of belief, attention and identification - is given to fear.

Your mind given to fear wills yet to ‘be free’ to limit love, that a part from it you can experience for yourself.

This can be seen as a freedom expressed - but not extended - for the freedom to deny love in favour of a partiality is to limit the limitless. Within the framework of such experience, limitation is also the tool by which the experience is managed.

Yet all of the experience of limitation is founded on - and in - the desire that a part from Truth you can experience for yourself.

The mind in chaos tends to contract, withdraw and regain its sense of stability from association with that which gives it validity as good - or at least works against the rising fear to stem the flood.

But the flood of chaos is but a misperception of life, to a mind locked into control, that is dicovering it has no control.

When the world is changed it is because the dream of how it was thought to be is simply not supported. This is the great opportunity to flip from wanting truths - for yourselves to weave another dream - into letting truth move your desire.

But be comforted - that even in error, is your true awareness present and abiding. Awaiting your welcome.

This is true for all. All are welcome in the awareness of God.

May we use the structures of limitation to dissolve the fears that demand limitation.
May we embrace the loves of the world in a deeper trust as being the love - beyond persons, beyond flags or loyalties to anything external to the Movement of Being Itself - for Which and in Whom let no substitute, image, symbol or concept, interpose itself.

Our every thought is a vote - not in a real contest - but in the densifying or enlightening of experience. As long as we vote with the thoughts that make the world we will have it. Yet in any thought that is truly shared - we are restored instantly to awareness.

There is a political aspect to the Kingdom of Heaven - in exactly the wise that Jesus and many others demonstrate - but it is free of the politics of fear, of coercion, of deceit and guile.

"What would love have me do? What is the Father's Will? What is the true desire in the silence and trust of the heart?"

Here is no template employed, nor database of holy answers and solutions applied in presumption of righteousness.

What does this trust embodied,look like? Perhaps it looks like working with the enemy, or betraying the principles that uphold all that is conceived lawful and just, or as a masking deception with supernatural power. Because to the mind in the grip of fear, love cannot be real - otherwise the love of self-in-struggle can no longer be supported.

For to love, there can not be an enemy - but that it becomes the way to listen more deeply - and in willingness extended - be healed of a shadow power.

Only the heart communicates, and rejoices in communion.

The mind judges and accords 'communication' to that which validates what it already asserts.

Seek therefore the messengers of love that are open secret. Release the mind in judgement by not listening there.

If there are particular issues at the level of nations or social or political matters, then let us address them each for what they reveal - and not amidst a presumption of identity that demands or insinuates blind allegiance.

I do feel the wave that realizes usurpation has occurred and is yet active. But I do not address the effects in the world - for to keep it in the world is to keep the addiction to usurpation.

There are always those in every walk of life and function who are open to communication. But not to manipulation or coercion.

If we need peace as the condition in which love is known - then we need to look in terms of willingness to listen and show listening is true by the quality of response. But until a fundamental trust is uncovered - we listen not - but interpret. Love is an intimacy in which judgement cannot intrude - and in which apparent past intrusions have clearly had no effect.

Our own acceptance of atonement - of perfect love - is the gift through which the world is undone of a density of guilt.

Therefore observe the mind that limits or withdraws or contracts - rather than let it act through you.

Miracles are the communication of love within the dream, that speak for you awake.

In Peace

Brian

Know Thyself

2010-10-04T10:52:00.000Z

What is the function of Mind?

And therefore of Life?

"Know Thyself".

Extension or projection is the Law of Mind.

This never stops nor can be changed.

To know yourself truly is to be the extension of Mind - which then 'gives' itself to All - through you.

To know yourself partially but falsely is to 'give' the mind of an illusory self and meet it in everything and everyone. As a 'separated whole'.

The game of 'choose between' is the play of the mind in creating a sense of private experience - that in turn creates a sense of a self that seems to exist and act independently. As if Creation - the Extension of Mind - is a realm of things - there for a "you" to pick and choose between - so as to triumph over it.

While this game is being acted out and suffered as real - it brings polarized experience of good - and bad, of loving - and hating, of me - and you, of us - and them.

The Remembrance and Rewakenening of truth is unreasonable Good - because it is Good beyond question and without opposite or comparison. It is acceptance and appreciation in trust of all that is - as it is - with no imposition of interpretation as to what it is.

Far from being nothing - this willingness or receptivity - allows all that Life is - to function as a unified Wholeness - in your conscious experience.

What then of the problematic nature of a polarized existence and the dilemma of the self that seems to suffer it?

It becomes a true gift - by your willingness to listen and accept truth. Not truths that can be mouthed. But an honesty of heart in which the mind is quieted and true direction regained - aligned as Expression of One Will.

As to transcending the laws of physics - I would say that the ego projects the mind of lawlessness - and that creates an overlay experience of forces in opposition, density of guilt , exploitation of power, subjection to an alien will and a mechanism of death.

One can think of this as a net in which the more one struggles the more entangled one becomes. And with every usurpation of power in self-seeking, comes the subjection to the rules you set by its abuse.

Awakening is the undoing of guilt, of error, of a fanciful self-regard that may have begun as a masqerade but became a death mask - and a trap. A meaninglessness.

"Seek first the True Kingdom of the Heart - and all things will be added you".

This is simply the reversal of the ego's dictum:

"Seek to add all things to yourself and lose the True Kingdom of the Heart".

The mind that identifies itself in form will interpret experience as forms - but in awakening, we are weaned from a form based perception.

It is not 'things' that are added to us in the Kingdom - but that the Kingdom is the Expression of the indivisible nature of the attributes of God.

Right where you thought yourself to be - BUT - only as you extend what you receive in truth.

If we limit our giving - we give limitation.

What is giving?

It is the acknowledgement of value.

The un-withholding of the mind from its Source and Nature.

The work is your gift to yourself of the surety that you freely choose to value freedom - by willingness to overcome or put aside all desire to value the valueless. But until this becomes clear - is it not enough to live from a willingness to follow the path with a heart?

If we feel we have to do things - know you are free to do them from the heart and for the heart. Do them for your own - guided - reasons - even if it also looks like 'you have to go to work to share the supply of needs met'.

Things are fixed by opposition - or set free by acceptance.

Trust and accept the life that is given - not as your interpretation gives - but as a reconnect through which the next step reveals itself.

Just to share life is to have 'stepped out' of the laws that apply to embodied minds in space and time.

Without this 'step' the wheels are not even touching the road.

To pause - is to suspend judgement. To listen in trust is to allow Creation to be as it is - and be known truly.

Give - only - as you would - in truth - receive.

in Gratitude

Brian

Reason Awakening

2010-09-25T09:57:00.000Z

Insanity or unreason noticed - is a goad to awakening.

When I see the treatment of man to man - and of man to beast and of man to his world I see much that is hellish - for this is the out picturing of the Son's attack upon Himself.

This is impossible - as One cannot split or truly hold opposing minds - except in belief born of a wishful imagination.

Self-illusion is not undone by dealing with the effect - but by looking clearly at the cause - and finding it causeless.

All that speaks the death of love is of the suggestion that another power is at work - against love - against life. This can not be.

Yet while we seek and assert to be a power unto ourselves, so shall the attack on truth be held real in the mind that possesses itself in secret and experiences itself threatened, isolated and in terms of opposition.

When we see our frailty and death in others we share it and strengthen it.

When we receive truth from our Brothers, we have looked beyond the suggestions of death.

We cannot look beyond that which we are afraid to see - and so we must be willing to look on hate and fear without judgement - truly - if but for an instant - in which our minds may be healed of the self-damning judgement that seeds a recurring experience of suffering, sickness and death - no matter how passionately is enacted the will to regroup within a fragmented mind.

Awakening itself is the Reason for awakening.

It stirs beneath and before a thought occurs - and undermines the capacity to see reason in a self apart. And so do new thoughts and perspectives rise, step by step, that lead from hell to Hello!

Interpretation, Identity and Desire

2010-09-25T09:15:00.001Z

At the core of the Buddhist teaching are "the Four Noble Truths":
There is suffering. There is a cause to suffering. There is an end to suffering. There is a path out of suffering.

These certainly appeal to a desire to be free of suffering and guide to a true freedom rather than pseudo freedom in which suffering is hidden, minimized via distraction and denial and dissociation or re-branded as propaganda for a blame driven agenda.

In Buddhist terms I understand attachment as the cause of suffering, not desire.

Differentiation, identification and desire is a process of false or perverted desire. It is a process observable in mind - and by simply being observed , the desire is not acted out from, an identification with thought becomes impossible, and the underlying wish to see and judge in terms of form-based meanings dissolves for lack of support.

But yes, of course, all things are misinterpreted, inevitably, if pre-existing definitions are used to filter and program experience.

True desire - is "The Movement of Be-ing". It doesn't arise from - nor is distorted by the lens of - a separate self sense.

Be still - and know - God.

The ego sense is hopeful that it can become still and then have Truth added to it - so it will suggest the misinterpretation of a simple invitation or teaching into a hopefulness of attempting the impossible; of making reality validate, fit into and serve an illusion.

And as we all know - this is a very serious business!

But in Realization, gravity flips to levity, and light-ness of being, edgelessly dissolves into the Clear Light of Always.

in Gratitude

Brian

The Meaning of Life - an insoluble question?

2010-09-20T20:46:00.000Z

What is the meaning of life?

You truly are the Meaning of Life.

But while you persist in acting out from a belief that you are as your thinking defines you to be - you program your mind to seek in externals, outside you - and in some other moment than the one in which you are.

Definitions are judgements in which a meaning is ascribed to something which is then held to be true or accepted as fact.
As this becomes a preference to use one’s own ‘knowledge’ rather than embrace relationship anew - the mind enacts a withdrawal from present relational be ing into a judgment based and arbitrary mapping of presumed or inferred meanings that seems real - yet is not grounded in a present and heartfelt relationship.

To be experiencing as if outside a present and heartfelt relationship is to be in confusion of identity and in conflict with reality. It is also to be grappling with meaninglessness as if it could be made sense of.

Therefore, within the experience of a sense of self that is uncertain, conflicted and in ignorance or confusion as to its true nature and identity, awakening is the meaning of life. Yet this is not truly an end point or goal capable of accomplishment. It is not added to you. It is already true - but through awakening, You - as you are - in your relational wholeness - is revealed and accepted as true. Therefore one’s life becomes the expression of that awareness. You are known by your fruits, but what you are is defined only in the living instant of truth revealing itself - as it is - through You.

The filtered search for meaning in conceptual terms will only find partial aspects of the nature of Life’s Meaning - and these may be invested with belief and used as a source of identification. But this is not the same as being perfectly identified by and as one with, the Process or Movement of Unified Be ing.

In this sense you are identified by the love that you share, that moves you and moves through you. And in such indivisibility of be-ing there is no desire to pause, step outside the heart, and listen to thoughts that posit meaningless questions to the only place that knows nothing - the disconnected mind.

So Who is asking what the Meaning of Life is?
If it is but your thinking, then you can use the question to think some more. But if it is a question in your heart, then follow it down to its roots. For where your heart is, You are. If your heart is denied by a self-protecting mind, then you will not let your own Answer through until you lay down your defences against feeling. You will not allow this until you begin to trust yourself and you will certainly not allow this until you have uncovered an essential honesty that can pass beyond the personal and cultural blocks to the direct awareness and appreciation of love.

Peace on Earth?

2010-09-09T10:22:00.000Z

For my part I see that until we recognise the working of misidentification within our own mind - we will play out the drama of a house divided. Yet the Spirit of God is one - so if I see division or conflict I am yet looking through the lens of a conflicted mind. Identification with self image is not the truth of our being - yet while we want it to be true we assert and defend it - not only against those to whom we give the role of 'other' or enemy - but against allowing the conditions in which healing would become necessary and obvious. Simply because all things are judged in terms of gain or threat to the self we accept as true.

To be able to bring the mind to look upon and re-evaluate its own identifications of belief and experience is the work of Grace - (not the intervention of an Outside Power - but the opening within of a Prior Nature or Condition). The willingness to accept wholing is a shift in purpose and perspective that becomes an awakening of life from true roots. This willingness becomes the purpose to which all experience must be surrendered of the interpretations that arise from the limited and limiting illusion of self will. Because this is freely undertaken as the heart's truth - it is a discovery of miracle, true joy and compassion - and not one of martyrdom, sacrifice or self denial.

But those latter are the expectations of the unawakened mind, to whom the touch and reminder of the demonstration of the Living Spirit is truly helpful in passing through fear. "Of myself I can do nothing" - but in willingness to be used by Spirit nothing will be left undone.

To be willing to look upon the horror of the split in our mind at its root and become free of the compulsion to 'do' anything from our own thought or judgement, is to 'hold the hand' of our Spirit and be restored to the vision that sees past all appearance to the Eternal.

From such a Wellspring - is the world 'made anew', for the desire that acted out from a past that seemed to have denied, killed or lost the Innocence of Being - is undone of any basis of identification or meaning. Such a peace is not a counterpart of war - but is Perfect Inclusion - or perhaps it is closer to say without any division or exclusion of all That (it) Is.

In Peace

Brian

Rules and Law, Grace and favour

2010-09-04T10:16:00.000Z

2010-09-04 Rules and Law, Grace and favour

The Cause and Event of God is all there Is - beyond all good and evil - yet the rules of the mind of judgement apprehend not and see instead a world of separated things and people.

The mind that is full of its own will - or judgements asserted and defended - does not see, does not hear - and 'lives' out it's story as if it were real.

It is never the act at the level of form that matters - but the desire or movement of the heart. The prayer of the heart moves in us constantly - but if we do not be still of false desires, then we remain unaware of our own true desire.

Grace may open as it Will - but it is never coercion - you must in your heart accept. In accepting the Will of love - you must accept the way of laying down your will. For your will is the refusal of love in favour of a special partial love - that God knows not.

The true miracle is the love that inspires all miracles.

Because we think we already know what love is - we justify ourselves in thought.

But this is the way of forgetting.

The world and the self that seems within it - are the experience arising from the rules that we have in ignorance accepted as true - and believed to be protective of us. Miracle experience is witness to that the world is not Lord over you. But it is not the self-role within the dream that has dominion. Whether you recall it or not - you, as you may think yourself to be - entirely surrendered to and accepted the Will of God - if for but an instant.

There are no rules to love - how could there be? Love's law is our very being.

That is why - despite our preoccupations with what we think we are and what we think we are attaining or failing to attain - love rises up and witnesses to the law of being - which cannot be altogether covered over or replaced by the laws of judgement - or believing and thinking.

Yet our insistence in our 'self' and world dictates the laws by which we will accept healing - even though they have no reality apart from a wish the self they support be true.

Our Holy Spirit is that Awareness which is ever present throughout the entire process of identifying with and by judgement - and knows the step by step way of bringing the mind in confusion of many, back into the acceptance of the one light of truth. Therefore it seems to work in the world with us in our dream as if we are in the situation as we believe - because that is where it can regain our attention. But always to serve the learnings that wean us from the will and its judgements in a way that awakens and yet does not feed or reinforce the guilt and terror that set the mind in confusion.

Rules are imposed upon and are used to control. They are illegitimate because they are not expressing true authority - but are the result of struggle: the blind leading the blind. In this mode "the way things work" is a phrase that means tyranny, fear and death.

Law is discerned in the oneness or union of heart and mind. It can be wholly accepted in the heart as true for it is not made by man. In this mode "the way things work" is a phrase that acknowledges eternal peace. For the perspective of oneness is not engaged in struggle - but sees even this, as it is.

Oh I know! - the egoic thinking can take ANYTHING and make a guilt trip out of it. Maybe when we see it in the midst of our so called spirituality - we'll realize that our hiding place doesn't work - and that we do not want to hide.

The mind is always active and never stops. Because we miscreated - or believed fantasy was really true - we have come to fear our thoughts and the Power that Mind Is.

My sense is to let love undo the thoughts by which I hurt myself - and trust that the nature of Mind expresses itself without distortion.

In this way I am not concerned to become or demonstrate anything for myself - for that is the thought by which madness seems real. Rather I grow willingness to accept the relationship that holds all things sane and in which all things - in their season - bring fruit in a shared Light.

Feel the way, share the gift

2010-08-02T08:16:00.001Z

To resolve to try to do something is like starting out with failure built in. As if one's certainty of willingness and desire is lost to some 'other power' under which you are powerless. But even here you may simply notice a game played out - and then - all the roles are merely the picture of a wish to play games.

Truth can be accepted as it is or it can be delayed acceptance through a wish to see as it is not. The Noticing is not via thought or interpretation - but is direct appreciation. The forms that may clothe such insight are the language that you can currently understand and accept - but they are never conclusions or definitions. The realisations you receive may not be currency for others - but the shine of your being that is innate to your true nature - is a universal blessing.

Within the radiance of your love is your gift. A withheld life is a mind game but the radiance of love is not other than the pure light of awareness.

"My meaningless thoughts show me a meaningless world?"

Then look again with innocent eyes - the fresh native curiosity of you. Let your starting place be the directness and wholeness of one you do not ‘make’.

In such a living current, we feel our way in the peace of an unconflicted desire, movement or guidance. Not only in terms of discerning each step - but we feel the way as the context of all that is.

When peace is not felt, we have gotten distracted by thought. Rest the mind. Allow the Movement to register with you presently. Live out from Being - and not out from thinking.

Share the gift.

Light Reading

2010-07-28T10:40:00.000Z

I smile to read you in a playful poesy.
Words can feed dictums, dogmas and downright lies.

The light of the projector rises through the film to shift attention from the movie plot of projected identifications to the awakening of the light itself. A clarity perfect, inclusive and all pervading, the very light of perfect love - whose modification as hues and forms through the prism of its own thought in no way changes the light or the nature of love.

A game is a game while playing is a joy - but when one tires of the game it is to be cast aside, let go, move on. The game of becoming a someone is a game of hide, and seek.

The idea is not to never get found. The idea is not to seek forever.
The idea is to play together. Expressing the togetherness of love in play.
Togetherness is not many.

When the children hurt themselves, they return to their parent and be held.
They are righted of their fears of wayward fancy and are restored to be-hold.

Mind is creative.
True creation is aligned with the Father's Light.
The Light and Nature of the First.
One without a second.

The Son is the Father's love and not a thing apart.
The Movement of "I Am That I Am" is no lonely ghost.
The veil of self apart is to be transcended - in place.
You cant let go of that which you are trying to become or overcome!

True love awakens the mind from its distractions.
At first it is as if the dream becomes perfect.
But then the light within knows itself anew,
in the always ever new.

Words fall off the page
meanings dissolve in laughter
there's no one here to catch them
Too close to love, nowhere else to be from which to speak.
Let all be as it is, and unsaid, let all be revealed.

Presentations as empty forms
a veil of surface perceptions
is it a smudge around the edges of clear light?
Be careful if you pick it up again.

A world in which 'a someone' is defined,
confined, and who has lost the light of Mind
for fragmented forms as fear makes blind.
Put the weapon down!

Be moved and move from being.
pass by the habit of self.
Let the love play of our shared Will
forget, neglect and cease to expect,
an external will to witness to You.

brian-in-a-moment

To one who warned me of the traps of A Course in Miracles

2010-07-26T09:08:00.001Z

A Course in Miracles seems to be a large book that can be read and perhaps - though not easily - understood. It was not designed to be intellectually understandable or accessible for it addresses the reader at a level behind or beyond such defences and strategies of self will. Yet the attempt to understand new wine in 'old bottles' persists, and yields frustration.

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Everything in this world can be used against the sharing of love and thus seem to become a witness to a force or will that is false or evil - but in whose mind is this purpose active?
I celebrate your breaking free of an unquestioning following of the Course in Miracles - for the truth is not 'out there' - excepting that its welcome - (Truth's welcome) - is in our heart.
The Course is not originally intended to be used to set ourselves impossible goals - but to awaken the reader to that they are already doing so - and suffering the conflict and frustration of a split mind. So as to let it go.
The you that you think was misled and needs to protect itself from such danger is not you - but it is a sense of yourself that you have grown from image, thought and judgements. I do not attack this sense of yourself but merely invite you to look at it with me.
In the moments of sanity - you feel the peace and integrity of your being. In the times of self conflictedness you are tempted to seek for certainty amidst confusion - such as to put outside your mind the cause of what is troubling you. Thus conflict is shifted outside and a sense of yourself more oderly and in attempt to unify - is made within. But you will never be whole while it is chosen as your home.

It may well be that the A Course in Miracles book is no longer relevant as a tool or a path for you - but whatever path you do accept as a way of releasing the demand that the world serve your private need above all else - will be one in which you do not use IT to validate or prove you to yourself.
The release of this attempt allows God.
In God is a direct relationship - as Holy Spirit and as the Son or Creation revealed - not to thoughtful understanding but to your heart's knowing in silence.
This relationship is eternal - but in time is a step by step rewakening.
It is not the dream role that awakens.
It is you - the dreamer who awakens - in the light of a pure awareness that is always present and from which you never can separate except in identifying with images and thoughts - in other words - imaginatively.

This email is a gift to yourself - both the one you sent - and my reply.
The one you sent is an expression of a teaching learning that you are in process of awakening through.
To see our 'self' in action is to shift to the perspective that isn't identified with the role we thought was our self.
This is a 'miracle' in that it doesn't operate within the laws that apply within the dream that we make for ourselves and others of how everything is and how it should be. It suddenly is free of these and opens to a different basis from which to live. Now it will be that whenever you live from this basis, your presence will in essence be a blessing, but it is not at all from any conscious sense of the world needing to be fixed. It is only our mind that has believed in loss of Light and Love and Peace. But this mind is simply wrong - not wrong as in punishable - but mistaken, misguided and missing the point.

The traps are never in the teaching - even if there were false teachings whose intent was to ensnare - the trap would still lie in the mind of the one who is not paying attention - and allows himself or herself to be persuaded of the reality of a form based meaning rather than the meaning of love.

Listen to your heart.
Listen to make sure it is your heart and not the chatter and confusion of your thought.
No one can take this away from you.
Nothing can take this away from you.
But in listening to and acting upon the confusion of our unevaluated thought - we experience ourselves as hurt, limitation and loss, from which arises a reaction of self protection.

The evaluation of our thought is the Holy Spirit - because of ourselves we cannot tell the true from the false - and often get them the wrong way round.
The Holy Spirit can be called anything or nothing - but in emptying yourself of the clutter and falsity of a mind involved only with itself, you will feel or know the stirring of a life that you did not make. It may seem to be thought or feeling or coincidence of event or meaning with persons or world - but it speaks to you and through you.

You are quite right to abandon a fruitless exercise - but the frustration is not the conclusion of the lesson - nor is placing responsibility onto A Course in Miracles a true path to resolving the sense of guilt you feel.

If you want to have opposition, then your will is done.
Because it isn't of God, you will have to do the work to maintain its reality for you - which must replace the awareness of God in your mind while you actively pursue your desire.

I tell you that this is not your true desire.
God must be your true desire.
For God is Truth.
Not excluding the truth of you.

(Postscipt 1)
"Let go and let God"
"Let go and let God Be you"
Yes - and as God is all that is truly be-ing you in this moment it is an allowing of what already Is - to Be (as it Is).
The 'let go' bit is the automatic result of truly seeing the mechanism of control for what it is.
The 'work' or hard part humanly is the willingness to look upon the ego rather than act according to its dictate.
This is like watching thoughts go past rather than becoming involved and distracted by them. Innocent perception can look on what would otherwise trigger fear and guilt and see or discern truth - which does not give rise to guilt or fear, (though our subsequent thinking about it may indeed trigger a blind spot and engage attention in distraction again.
The trap is always that of making an identity for oneself - whether out of spiritual or profane components.
When we experience the results of our false identity, we blame it on (insert scapegoat here).
The conviction that some thing or one or teaching is Truth is very likely if not always going to give rise to idolotry and a false sense of self because our images, symbols and concepts are at best reflections of truth - or Holy Spirit communication towards opening our mind to truth.

(Postscript 2) No ego - no problem?
Yes - when the problem seems to define or limit You - then the self-centric perspective is active.
When willingness re-aligns to truth, then wholeness replaces conflicting desires and the movement of being is expressed as actions or non actions - that bear or behold witness to wholeness.
The ego is quieted by truth as irrelevant. It doesn't matter whose ego it seems to be - if our peace is obscured then we are in a position to become willing to quiet the ego by our disregard. But the way of that is by giving our whole regard to the Living - or that which is revealed to our willingness for truth that we do not make, can not control, and are totally dependent on.
In light of such a joy - we can discern limitation that before we were blind to but now are becoming responsible for.
We are responsible for what we think - or accept in our minds. But we are never to blame.
To accept the idea of blame is to starve ourselves of love.

(Postscript 3) To an expression of gratitude for this writing.

Yes. We meet in shared purpose and find ourselves in communication.
The ego perspective has a different purpose and 'finds' itself in forms that look like communication and may either seem devoutly following of - or oppose a teaching path of truth.
I felt to tell her she is right - for she cannot be wrong in her being - and I join with her in truth. In this context I offer correction for the error in what she is accepting in her own mind - not at the level of arguing 'teachings' and their 'meanings' - but in addressing to loss of peace and the restoration of sanity.
Because I was not identified with asserting or protecting the truth of A Course in Miracles, I do not need to react as if truth were attacked. How can Truth be attacked? It cannot - but colluding with the false will obscure the truth in our mind.
Though her mail is fearful in blaming teachings as false, there is much in it that is almost being shared with Holy Spirit that needs to come into the light to be undone or made clear. Sometimes we don't know how to ask - or are in a culture where speaking different from the accepted 'truths' is fearfully prohibited. So we only let it out in anger when we leave and slam the door - as a parting shot of self justification amidst a painful or emotional process of change.
This is just such an occasion where a human kindness may serve a greater good than to argue teachings.
I feel that our growing understanding of and awakening to the truth of what life is - and what we are - will from time to time occasion fundamental shifts in our awareness of mind that initiate a desire or need to shut down and back off.
If this becomes active, then panic and 'self survival' trample on and use - anyone and anything to maintain the separate self sense - and this does generate a sense of guilt - or love unworthiness - which is denied or hidden and at least partially offloaded onto God and Brother in such a way that isolates the heart in a private mind and a Lightless world of separation, conflict and density.
All that is needed is calm in which the truth can be felt.
For Truth is not the picture we make in fear - and when we let that realisation in - even as instants or steps of a 'little willingness' - we are awakened at least to a living path in which we can take our next step as a living step in which we grow in trust and our capacity of willingness and love.
It would be unwise to underestimate the capacity of the mind to deceive itself while the seed desire for a special self remains hidden.
My fellow man and woman are often helping me to become aware of - and to own - my hidden desire to be special. It is only when I see it as it is that I can also see that I do not want it. When I see it as the lens of the desire itself would have me see - I believe I do want it.
A Course in Miracles can be made a special relationship; a way to avoid a real relationship that shares from a prior wholeness.
But all such attempts to get for oneself are inherently self defeating - and break down. That's where we either seek and find another candidate for a special relationship (looking outside our self) - or open to truth because it is true.
I am grateful with you.

in Love's blessing
Brian

Time - and the 'celestial speed up'

2010-07-22T07:15:00.002Z

Our sense of time is a function of consciousness.

Consciousness of time is an activity that is constantly flitting about. Comparing moments, anticipating and recalling future and past. It all happens so fast that we don't notice it is a construct - which has become second nature to us - a sort of default program running..

But our First Nature is not time bound - for the Spark of Eternity is the Light by which our true mind is lit.

The second nature grew out of the desire to judge good and evil. It is false - for it seeks to determine all things for itself without the Intimacy of God in which Truth is simply revealed.

In order to maintain its sense of separation from God, the mind has to deny its own Source and true nature. Not verbally - but by means of imagination, dissociation, distraction and deceit. To maintain this sense of self and world - as a judging and separated mind in a body - requires a constant vigilance in its defence or protection. But the experience is one of depletion and degradation - such as is depicted in the Bible story of the Prodigal Son.

The personal identity of the would-be separating Son inevitably breaks down - or becomes meaningless despite the investment in the meanings by which it is acted out. As it breaks down, Light dawns. The light of Truth.

We experience the Light of Spirit either through our willingness - or through our resistance.

Through resistance we make the experience of fear, in which we become lost and desperate - running ever faster to escape ourselves as we fear ourselves to be. This is 666; the busyness that never opens into to the Seventh Day in which "Behold - and it is very Good". For such Is our Divine function, to see the presence of love and thereby to be the presence of love extending.

Through our willingness we experience the Light as a flowing present - in which all things take their rightful place - not by the act of human thought - but in the allowing of Truth to Be Itself.

The speed up is a sign of awakening. The awakening begins as a willingness to listen, to ask, to accept and to serve.

The last judgement is That which undoes the mind of judgement:
"Behold my Beloved Son, Whom is My delight!"

Think not this is addressed to only Jesus. Jesus Knew the Father in and through the Son - and calls us awaken likewise. But think neither that it is addressed to the self you make apart and in secret. That which Hears is one with our Holy Spirit, held in trust while seeming to squander our inheritance in journeying away from our heart’s true Home.

Be still of engaging conflicted thought and Know.

When time falls away, Eternity stands forth as the Always.

Our thought and language do not reach beyond our limiting and limited belief and perception.

But God's Language is Creation Infinite and Universal - and His Intimate Inclusion has not been broken, despoiled or at all changed by the mind of forgetfulness and fear. But such a will must be recognised as what it is - and laid aside - or you will use it and believe all that it tells you.

Jesus shows the way. Not in being sacrificed by God or by others - but in freely following the Holy Spirit's Direction; the Voice for God - found in the heart by going within in trust.

The fruits of the Spirit are the Gift of God. "Behold I make all things new!"
This is the undoing of time and death.

Now seems to almost disappear in a seamless and linear timeline of experiences in the world.
Yet now expands to become the edgeless Movement of the very Mind of God in the acceptance of God as First and Only.

What does this mean but that we make our own mind up in self image and defend it against truth by giving it priority? It is time to wake up to this and stop.

All are called, but few choose to listen. But all are called and all will choose to listen.
For none can abide or withstand the truth - and we shall be undone of self-illusion.
The Spirit of God is One. And his Thoughts are Like Him in kind and in nature.

This might seem to condemn the divided mind - but that is yet another thought of judgement and thus further deceit.

Judge not - stop using the mind to divide and rule. It cuts you from your true Life - which waits your welcome where you left it.

Let the mind that was in Christ Jesus - the Holy Spirit - be your discernment.

Be the willingness that gives welcome - and keeps not resistance hidden as protection of sin. But let it be known as it is and thus be seen truly - and healed.

These things are coming to pass within the mind that yet sleeps and remembers not.
But look not to another time or a time soon. Look to the now of time - and let your willingness find you in the nick of time.

For joy and love shared - in peace - Is your salvation.

The mind may seem to stray and forget. But it is to the Living Truth in You that He says "Go in peace and sin no more".

Go with your Holy Spirit and without the thoughts of confusion and conflict. For such is the way of peace

Look to where you set your treasure - for by this choice do you set all else true or false.

In Peace
Brian

2010-07-18 The dream

2010-07-18T13:44:00.001Z

I commented on a question about interpreting a dream in which someone was being given hair extensions...

Trying to make sense of a dream may simply be a way of continuing in the extension of meaningless fantasy.
In other words there may be nothing to understand - as waking up reveals it to be unreal and insignificant.

When the Spirit speaks through a dream to bring attention present for a specific meaning to be accepted or acknowledged, the communication arises from within and may not even need to be thought on - but can be simply felt as blessing at a level that is peace in the heart.

Cutting off the hair can symbolize a release of the world and its lure of illusory powers to become a something in our own right. Hair extensions can be fun to dress up in - but if we get our sense of self validation from our appearance and from the response that we get from others - - we become trapped in a hollow mask.

Look at thoughts and see how much junk floats around.
It has been called the astral or lower astral plane. In rising beyond the gravity of a false and fixed interpretation, this is one of the first kinds of thought or 'experience' to pass by without getting involved with it.

It is also true that some make a path from dream interpretation as a window to the mind and the Spirit. Dreams become a realm of communicating at a level prior to the surface aspects of the daily experience of life - which can engage attention so as to neglect the depth of our being.

There are many aspects of dreaming that apply to our so called waking state. The phrase ‘awakening’ means enlightenment - but also implies that the story of our experience - that we tend to take as reality - is a cover over - or distraction from - the reality that knows itself as it is.

The Holy Spirit is the Universal Teacher of Truth - through all or any agencies - because ultimately it is your own and only true mind. It’s vision and guidance is the reinterpretation of dreams - which are themselves already 'interpretations' made of images, thoughts and associations. If our identity is bound up in a lack of wholeness whose sense of lack is reinforced by interpreting from that presumption, then Holy Spirit will reinterpret so as to restore wholeness to our awareness.

Whichever paths we take, Holy Spirit Life will work with us and through us. The key is the desire and willingness to listen ongoingly - as our way of life. The paths that are not feeling and listening are no life at all and THAT is a correct understanding of the dream - for it has only the life that you, as dreamer, give it.

Your peace is you understanding - because your peace is beyond all understanding.
Understanding rests or stands under the knowing in quiet.
The attempt to understand outside of the flow of already communication - as a wilful demand - is like stirring the mud in a pool. All sorts of mud and detritus swirls around and seem to suggest all sorts of meanings relative to the original impulse - which persists as the stirring, by giving attention to and identification with - the stirred up stuff.
Yet in pausing, the mud settles of itself, the clarity restored of itself, and the realisation and responsibility of mind for its own inclusive wholeness - dawns - of itself.

In Peace

Brian

Freedom, identity and healing

2010-07-10T14:07:00.001Z

The ego aspect wants to be free of limitations in order to do otherwise impossible things.

The love that you are wants to be free of limitation in order to be all that it is - regardless of the doings that that might or might not give rise to.

To abide and hold with all that you are - and to trust and follow the Direction of your own love seems an Impossibility in terms of the world and all of what its teaching and learning has facilitated. And it is this 'doing' that is asked of each of us as the welcome and faith in the Living Word in our Heart.

In the living out of this in our lives, we seem often to pass through drama, messy involvements, fears and struggles against adversity. Yet in all honesty awake one can truly say that God - or Love - did all the work and all I did was to somehow (by grace!) keep the way and the channel open.

To shut down our heart is to crucify ourselves. And our body and world will faithfully reflect our thought and intent in our experience. To keep our heart open is in effect to give it back to its Source.

In the world the Heart is hidden and therefore secret.

In God it is the other way around.

To bring the world back into alignment with God is to forgive and release the desire for a secret self - and let Peace restore a wholly guiltless mind.

The pain of longing is an unrecognised Communion - seen through the frame of its apparent loss. Zeal must be tempered with humility, or we proceed as if we know - based on certainties that would not hold without being forcefully maintained.

The problem is the answer unrecognised. But the problem also 'solves itself' in the world by presenting itself as it is not - (dissociation). To be guided from the decoys and distractions - in honesty - to the truth of the problem - will uncover the truth. And the answer will become obvious once the problem is no longer hidden.

Our sense of separation from Self - from Life - from Love - From God - is more terrible than mere words could ever convey. It is our death ... But look again - with desire to see truly - as the heart bids you in all sanity to allow.

The mind that thinks it can leave or deny the heart is itself but a thought. Pick it up and see all Oneness seem to fragment and collapse upon itself. Be turned to allow love's Movement and see all fragmentation and conflicting identity dissolve.

Temptation, self-will and release

2010-07-10T14:01:00.001Z

We may not recognize temptation as what it is - but take it to be the voice of our own heart and mind - when it is but thoughts of spiritual death - presented as desire for a self projection and protection.

In Gethsemene, Jesus found this desire for a separate will was still active in him when he had thought to have relinquished it entirely - for he found his peace upset when his disciples could not watch and pray with him. he recognized this experience as witness to his own self-will and immediately returned tothe Father to offer it up.

And dis likewise yet again - until his peace was witness to the truth of one Will.

Our self-based experience - which is our ‘take’ or interpretation of our nowness - is our self and our world - both. It is of the nature of a duality.

But it is not Truth - for we can experience unlike Truth, through the use of judgement, imagination, wishful thinking and desire. I can experience myself as I am not - and suffer as if it were true.

Without Truth's perspective - we could not know our self made illusion was unreal - for it would be all in all to us.

But behind (and before) the dreaming of the self in a world made flesh - is the Peace and Presence of Truth that is your direct and living Eternality. Its Light is one with the light of your own awareness, and its awakening and remembrance is the transformation of a dream of a life in fear and darkness, to a communioned life in joy and trust.

An image that came to me that speaks of the falsely identified self - is of turtle island. Where 'we' live out our life stories on a world that seem solid - until the turtle moves. Excepting the Being-ness of God - is not an Alien Will that 'nothings' us - but is the Source and Truth of All that we Truly are - even within our self projecting desire.

The self-desire is a seeming contra-movement to the Self Extending Inclusion. And from its standpoint - we think, and act out from a Thought "I" - and we experience ourselves body exclusively - which is to say we forget the Mother/Father - the Allness and Nowness of Direct Being.

Instead we have a fragmented experience of now - defined and separated wilfully - yet experienced as if the world does it to us.

The release of the self-will - (Which is the corollory of the acceptance of a life in love and service to Life Itself) - necessarily involves the recognition of the thought-desire for what it truly is - and its release.

Our nowness is an always on, feedback device. If it speaks of limitation - then there are currently limiting thoughts affecting our interpretation or appreciation of reality.

Now Jesus was apparently 'limited' with and by extreme conditions of unlove, the acting out of denial upon the body. But his nowness was of the Father. When false questioning was applied to him - he answered Not - but remained at one in peace of the Truth of a Wholly Loving God.

How so - but by the Love of the Father Who Knows His Son as He Is.

And not as the Son can imagine himself to be; in opposition or competition with any aspect of himself.

So the release of the self-will is an always already-now response to the substitute nowness that we take to be living in the world as limited power.
And is the automatic result of not hiding or disguising seperation thoughts in the dark - but of allowing them to be revealed in Light - as they are.

Paul (of Tarsus) fought against self-will and therefore identified with it as real. This is not a cause fro blame but a cause to stop, look and listen anew. There can seem to be an Enemy to God, to Life and to Love. And the temptation to see this outside ourselves is a most fundamental - but misguided - self protection.

That such an evil will is our own self surely demands that it be obliterated, damned - put out! - says confusion.

Be still and listen Only for Truth's Guidance. Suffer not to react on the basis of confusion but wait on the Spirit of the One God, whose signs and fruits are known in secret - in the Heart - that the world knows not.

To take one step in Guidance, is to allow alignment with God now. And the experience will of itself reflect the true alignment. But the attention is in the trust and light of the restored Communion and not in the world of form.

The temptation to see in terms of form is the forgetting of Purpose - whose forms always serve Meaning and not a multiverse of made up meanings.

The Now of you be-ing

2010-07-09T08:58:00.000Z

Your 'Now' is the feedback to your desire.

If in this Now, your desire is single, whole and pure, you will ONLY know all things through the Spirit that Moves you.

If you find a split mind then that will give you a polarized experience of a conflicted nature.

The only whole desire is love and love is always already awake.

For it knows all things within itself.

False desires are of a love of power, that sees all things without itself and outside itself. For in wanting power for oneself alone creates a sense of lack and separateness from all.

It seeks to dispossess itself of truth, that it may possess its fantasy.

The way of awakening reverses the way of reversal - but by releasing, undoing and acceptance - and not by asserting further self will.

Service is the release of self will. Serve love by bringing attention present for something not of your making and not of your will.

The answer is where the problem is - or it would not be the answer. Do not use the promise of an answer to shortcut the opening of your mind to the feedback of your now - or you wait forever un receiving.

The arena of helplessness, inadequacy, need and incapacity - is the condition in which you bring the Divine forth by your single unequivocal call.

You do not need to seek such opportunity. They will be brought to you in context of your embracing life and discovering the blocks to love’s awareness.

In your communion with God, let there be no one outside, as someone or something else to use as distraction or protection from the love of your very being. To desire to save or serve others outside the love is to desire to usurp love of its home in you and through you.

Everyone is serving your awakening because they were judged or interpreted by you to serve a dream of self creation, and awakening rises when the self-creating is no longer forced upon your Now. Everyone is part of your awakening when they are no longer used for sin, for you have released your demand that they serve your will, let them be as they are, and appreciated them as they are.

But your Now does not leave you when you seem to have made it yours alone and lose your self in time.

It is disguised so as to be irrelevant to the distraction that has your fixated attention.

Wake up to what the mind makes for itself by deception and self image.

The desecration of the heart from the apparent attack on innocence is associated with a deeply intimate horror; guilt. But the companioned and communioned mind does not use this to mount further attack on itself.

For it has given its faith to the desire and welcome of peace and healing above all else.

To rest in truth accepted.

in Gratitude

Brian

The controverse is not the Universe

2010-07-09T00:36:00.000Z

Controversy is an invitation to a spectacle in the arena of conflict - as if the outcome can boost or diminish the validity of you.

Look within and let the assertive will subside in the depth of Silence.

The symbol that is given me for this is to kneel in the Heart.

But the symbol is only a symbol - kneeling is the giving of acknowledgement, or due worth.

Giving is the way of receiving.

Give what is God's to God.

Holy wars are simply wars that use life symbols taken out of context.

Use awakened faith to question and move beyond belief based religion into the quickening of Spirit.

Make and worship not images of the Living Reality and you will be held in the Source as one with its Current Expression.

Do you live or do you dream of life?

2010-07-09T00:34:00.000Z

The seeker of truth is not Awake - or he would not seek.

He is not identifying with life directly - but mythologically. Does he or did he ever really exist in the terms that he presumes to be his self? - No - but belief and identification are really given to the images, definitions and ideas.

Truth is not subject to opinions, theories, philosophical ideas or concepts - that can be woven to clothe insight or to simply express wishful thinking - and taken as if they had potency in themselves. They have only - but not less than - all power given them by belief and desire.

Holy Spirit uses the contents of your mind to awaken you to that you Are Mind. None of the contents are in themselves truth - though they can be sorted and purified by the Holy Spirit to reflect and serve truth.
As Mind - you are not independent, nor differentiated exclusively. You could say you were in a state of radiant openness that has not collapsed into an identification of form. This does not cease to be so when your attention does become distracted by desire, differentiation and form.

But trying to talk this into realisation is absurd because the talking mind wants to understand everything in its terms. To engage in talking as if we could define and determine truth is to persist in blocking the movement of truth from our own awareness.

The primary desire of the truth moving in us and as us is to "Know Thy Self".

That is why we "do nothing" and let God.

If all that you think you are seems to compel your attention to collapse or withdraw 'self protectively' - you may find that "doing nothing" is the faith and willingness whose practice burns out the identification patterns of a private will.

Spirit is in you as you in Spirit

2010-07-09T00:29:00.000Z

The Spirit of God - as Indwelling Holy Spirit, walks with everyone - no matter who or what they seem to have become, do or say. But the mind in self-illusion may not recognise the true nature of its Guide and Companion through the events, lessons and meetings that lead it from its locked in self-regard, to the love-light of a direct and pure awareness.

The opening of the mind to light takes individualized forms for individual lifelines, where some paths serve some but would be unhelpful to others. It is not helpful to seek and find error in others and then use that to validate the truth or rightness of one's own path.

It is helpful to extend the truth through willing service or love of Self in all.

Does evil exist?

2010-07-01T23:13:00.000Z

Theological and philosophical questions are often asked about the Universe, Life, God or Creation, but what about if we ask this question only of our self presently?

Is there an oppositional force to our life or being?

I'm not interested in right or wrong answers - but just to invite the question and listen.

There can certainly seem to be such a sense of conflicted forces - that are the motions or intent of conflicting desires.

Some teach that there are bad thoughts and that they originate from or are embodiment of a devil, or fallen angel. Though this teaching may not be overtly subscribed to, its conditioning runs deep.

A part of God splits off and fights Him in order to replace or usurp God?

God is limited by opposition and therefore is not God - but a part of a cosmic conflict of two powers - forever embraced in struggle for domination?

But the Spirit of God is One - and so is His Son.

But our personal human perspective seems to see evil motive and intent in others - and does not want to discover it in ourselves - so this is fearfully minimised and swept under the carpet.

Bad thoughts - that actually are mean spirited, hateful and actively undermining of wellbeing, present themselves as in some way self serving - and yet suggest a sense of self that is lacking, guilty, inadequate and unjustly victim.

If we act on the basis of these thoughts and therefore accept our sense of self as suggested - we feed a habit that destroys our peace - and all that in peace is shared. And grow the density and compulsion of the 'voices' that 'protect and justify' or at least mitigate or salve our conflicted and painful sense of self.

A painful and conflicted self that we do not realize or recognise - because we displace and deny so as to not feel and know pain of fear and guilt directly. We use our brothers and our world and our body as the scapegoat - and put our guilt outside and hate it.

But having 'put our mind outside' we now fear it's 'return'.

Its as if an evil force is trying to penetrate my defences - some nameless and terrible mind that I fear to look within and see. So I draw my fences tighter - and use anything to keep my attention from the possibility of knowing what will surely damn me.

There is a war on and everyone and everything has been requisitioned to support me in my struggle.

If I can normalize everything and get it all to flow along nicely - I can adapt and accept a tiny life where for a while I can forget what I am running from - have defensiveness automatically deal with problems before they arise as well as as they are arising. And can make a life in which I can believe for a while that I am as I think and the world is as I think it - and yet hardly have any attention free enough to notice any but the most superficial of thoughts.

Is self deception evil?

Jesus said "Resist ye not evil"

But he was demonstrably active in embracing Good - yet not a good opposed to evil - but the Good that is the Will of God our One Spirit, and the appreciation and service of the Good in all.

He feared not evil though he did recognise temptation as deception.

I long had a sense that many seemingly religious people I met were in fact worshippers of evil - for that was their underlying conviction - and their faith was a shield and a weapon against what they feared and yet accepted as true and powerful - And hoping for a magical or otherworldly Force for Good to intervene on their hapless sin condemned plight.

And to these there must needs be a devil - for to side against the devil is surely to be seen to stand among the righteous?

It matters little that the shadows shift and change from one evil to another foe to yet another sign of impending doom - just as long as the mind is maintained in its presentation.

Christian hearsay - taint so!

2010-06-29T09:40:00.002Z

I read the following Article: (see links for origins)

The essence of the Christian religion

“The essence of the Christian religion consists in the reality that

the creation of the Father,

ruined

by sin,

is restored

in the death of the Son of God,

and re-created

by the grace of the Holy Spirit

into a kingdom of God.”

Herman Bavinck, Reformed Dogmatics, 1:61.

June 27, 2010 - Posted by spurgeon | Herman Bavinck

My Commentary:

(Slightly edited from what I posted).

This guilt-logic of death as a price or sacrifice as payment, has never made sense – not has it ever extended the Sense that Is the Holy Spirit.

The mind of sin is simply the mind or intent to have ‘my will and not Thy Will be done’.

While such is identified with and ‘loved’ – it costs the appreciation of Life Eternal – and therefore brings the wage of ‘death’ WHILE it is engaged. Dramas and apparent conflicts ABOUT this mentality are simply subtle strategy to persist in employing it – in place of aligning with Living Truth. Such activity is,in effect is “all about me”. But it is a false sense of self and so can only result in deception.

Thirst for Truth does not depend on a magical ‘Jesus’ – but on likewise freely laying down the personal will in acceptance and trust of Only the Father’s Will. The Father’s Will is the Movement of Being discovered in stillness of self-creating thought and judgement. It Is Truly Present - while our attention is wilfully yet ignorantly distracted from Living presence.

The Holy Spirit is the Intelligence and Voice and Guide to the Son of God in forgetfulness of His Father. Ask and it shall be Given. Seek and you shall find. If the fruits are not of God’s Wholeness – then ask yourself what am I asking and where am I seeking for answers?

To kneel in the heart to the Christ is to acknowledge the First and accept right relationship as Second, like unto the first but the son or extension of – and not a power or self in its own right.

It is through the apparent death of the ‘son of Adam’ – that awakened love knows itself anew and in holiness. For it is by assuming the mind or power of judgement that the appreciation of the Father's Light in All That Is, is usurped, and instead is experienced a self and world that testifies to an orphaned will. Such is the power of your faith - given to judgement, division, war and death.

The forms this takes vary for each of us but the meaning is universal. The Cross symbolizes this – as does the Resurrection awaken and rise beyond symbols – but the mind in sin will not see holiness excepting ‘outside itself’, in some other world or from some god of ‘otherness’. The desire for the Light is the dawning of the Light – but seen externally. Such was John the Baptist.

Clearly the mind in sin cannot ‘live’and see God. You must be Spoken For through your willingness to love as God Loves.

Man cannot ‘do’ this. A laying down of the ‘doing’ is the fruit of the prayer of the heart; “Show me, that I may follow in the way WITH You”.

“With You” is not a life alone, nor a contracted arrangement of separated selves. It is the Living Love that receives as it gives and gives as it receives.

It seems we can receive evil and suffer ill. This must be challenged in our own mind, perception and thought – or we succumb to the dissonance of sin as if it were creator of our being – instead of recognising it as feedback to prompt Awakening of the heart’s discernment. Watch and Pray.

Be aware – by the Light that Is Given you – and abide in the heart that recognises Light. Insanity is a veil upon True Sight. By giving attention and therefore value, to the Holy Spirit within, the mind possessed of its own thought is disregarded, passed by, put behind.

A New Earth rises from the restoration of the alignment of what before was called inner and outer. The Second Coming is the awakening of the Christ through humanity – and is near – not in time and space – but nearer – where the double vision always overlooks.

The essence of Religion is restoration of the human to the Divine. It matters not the forms – excepting they serve Purpose. God is the Supreme Identity – but not an image or concept of God. Man in ignorance and sin seeks identity in religion as in everything – yet cannot find his home excepting he remembers his Source.

in Gratitude

Brian

PS - I felt a beauty of truth in the article to which I responded - and my response is a joining with this to let the beauty be free of the cage of guilt. For 'the death of the Son of God' is an oxymoronic contradiction that needs to be undone. You could say Jesus's acceptance of Our Father's Will is the undoing of death. My part in accepting God is the removal of the conditions and blocks that I have erected and maintained in ignorance and confusion.
Free will is to be freely and willingly given back to the truth.
This is not a sacrifice - though we may deeply fear it so. The Holy Spirit is the Guide. When fear usurps true guidance we see all things awry. And suffer our exclusion.

New New Testament - fulfils yet transcends. Revelatory. Gentle

2010-06-28T08:22:00.000Z

"The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament", A Course in Understanding and Acceptance. (often referred to as 'NTI')

More info: http://www.forholyspirit.org

Is it possible to be looking in the world at a book or text and find it speaks your heart's light - talking to you through a book - while simultaneously recognising this is your own voice?

Such is my appreciation for this book.

If I step back a little I can say that such truth as I find opening with this book, has the capacity to calm, restore and awaken me to an altogether present perspective.

I find it truly revelatory at a level the intellect cannot reach. Yet the book is an intimate conversation with you that holds the reader in deepest reverence. It could not be more gentle or honouring of the truth of all.

The story of Jesus, his teaching and demonstration, may be disputed by the world - but its coming into our mind carries more than any religion can own when its truth begins to speak directly to our own life.

When we are willing to open to a true understanding, we put our own judgement aside and listen in true desire of life. We are led by the movement of Spirit within to recognise and release the mentality by which we have deceived ourselves and lost our soul as we gained a world. And by this we are restored to what we thought lost.

Many will experience resistance to some of what this book reveals - but also many will come to a deep and abiding gratitude for being gently and clearly guided through it!

I find nothing coercive here, no sales pitch, and no judgement against or condemnation of. It is as direct and profound as human language can be - yet it is as nothing outside of a willingness for and love of truth. You cannot be made to drink!

That this book has appeared is surely witness to a hunger and readiness for truth.
But don't put the value or authority onto the book - but be the extension of that which is in your heart revealed.

There is much that Jesus shared that could not be received then by minds fitted only to the terms the world sets. I feel this book opens this anew in terms that can speak to anyone from any background.

What might this book bring in terms of you and your life?
A revealed basis - that is opened within You - for peace, joy and freedom in capacity to share love as the basis of life.

Does such enlightenment come from a book - No!
It comes because in some way you are ready to accept.

The Holy Spirit authorship can be an issue for some who either dont believe in divine guidance or others who cant believe such grace could actually have anything directly to do with themselves and all others.
If you read the various books within you will find different voices - yet one purpose.

If you share this purpose you will find yourself as you do not expect - for awakening is prior to the mind we engage in the world - and by which we are ignorant of truth.
There is a grace that reveals what is always true, to a mind that believes it has lost its original nature, one step at a time, as you are willing to accept

(I posted this as an Amazon uk review soon after the book was published)

Blocks and barriers and practising innocent perception

2010-06-25T10:08:00.000Z

When we put our faith in the world - and the things of the world, we are engaging our self in the world and find an experience of death - for the world is temporal, not eternal. Our desire for life becomes subverted to trying to make the impossible, true. For the self that is found in the world is not true - and no matter how much you may desire what you think it brings - it is not you.

The notion that the truth of any thing or any one is to be framed within and by the sense of self grown in the world is a block.

The innocent question - that is no attempt to get the answer that suits 'you', that is no strategy of self advantage and has no agenda of solving the past or its burdens - is the movement of True Desire - NOTICED and ALLOWED.

This Movement is subtle and easily drowned out by the activity of mind relating to the world - to the thoughts and meanings of the world. Therefore become calm that what is already here can draw your attention to WHAT IS ALIVE HERE.

The Movement - the True prayer of the heart - is the direct expression of the Love that is Eternal - in You. In Being You - is an Invitation to release that which is not you - and come back or be restored to the Allness of you - without judgement and without the effects of judgement.

Because what you make is yours - your judgement is not taken away while you want it. When seen truly, you do not want it. Because you believe it gives you the life that you have in the world, you yet cling to it as your life - but in willingness to practice the Holy Instant you are led to discover that the self-thoughts are deception and do not speak for You - and so you become willing to put your experience aside and Listen to Me.

The Light is the Conscious Beholding of Love. It is spacious in awareness. It is alive to itself in everything. The self-thoughts that arise from judgement are the denial of Light. That is there purpose and that is why you wanted them - to think and experience a private creation - to freeze 'life' and use it for your own imagined reflected self purposes.

But to 'live' outside the Light is to lose Life, and all that is Alive.
Yet to the fragmented little sense of life amidst death, does it not seem that the Light will immediately cause you to abandon the identity you have found in this world - and lose your life? And is this fear-belief not a block to the opening truth?

A split heart and mind must be healed so that you do not serve two masters; each undermining the other. There is no healing without a falling away of the blocks - and the blocks are a faulty attempt at security amidst confusion arising from wanting what you do not want.

The path without a heart is false and can yield only bitterness and loss. Yet your heart is Given You in every Movement and Prompt of Your Being's Love for You - as you Are.

To take the path with a heart is to accept and live from your willingness.
Not a an applied 'willingness' of zeal or achievement in which your self idea is validated so as to 'save' you from a sense of injustice or ignominy. But a moment by moment willingness to let Life Live - and to fit in rather than attempt to fit Life to your own constructs.

This is a step by step process - yet in each step you are listening and trusting instead of asserting and fighting.

Blessed are the meek - for they shall inherit the Earth.
To abide in Me is to accept and share all things in My Sight.
The world you thought was outside You is beheld anew and with loving recognition.

Let yourself be guided in what you can not control.
This is to say let yourself be free of the belief that you - of yourself - need control.
Listen.

Be curious as to the nature and truth of that which seems to block.
There is always another way of looking at this.

It is not required that you see the body not - but only that you desire more to see in Light.

As you ask - so shall you receive.

In Peace

Brian

Disobedience is called for - Honest to God

2010-06-24T11:46:00.000Z

I cant nor need I argue with what anyone else finds helpful - but I discern persuasion as a force that seeks to manipulate - and see it finds a passive obedience to the presentation of authority of the persuader.

The desire to be led by any externally derived Guide is simply the state of any mind that as yet refuses or fears to look within. Yet in the desire to be truly guided even so - we will 'find and be found' by agencies for the Holy Spirit's guidance or Teacher Within - so as to loosen and sort the 'evil' or meaningless thoughts by which we block the capacity to feel, hear, recognise, love and extend our Holy Spirit - God's Gift of the Spirit of One.

When a Son or Daughter of God forgets his or her nature as the Extension of God - it is because that function is usurped by a 'mind that believes it knows' - and yet is not at rest, at one and sharing in the fruits of the Spirit.

Where we look and find guidance, value and meaning is where we choose to put our faith. If we put our faith in the world, we are looking at best at the reflections of the eternal truth - that is not contained in its reflection - but is the Holy Spirit Beholding and Recognition of God. More often we are seeing but symbols of the meanings we have made up in fighting a senseless battle that merely reflects a confused and divided or split mind.

Because this conflict is felt and its basis believed unconsciously or only somewhat consciously - the mind and desire of manipulation is automatically, implicitly and insidiously usurping true Authority. But it always makes its claim to meaning - and indeed righteousness - by deriving its meaning from what it is against.

It is the presumption of enmity, hostility, treachery - in effect - of an evil will. It 'sees' this will in others - in nature - and as seeking to undermine or corrupt its own mind, health or society.

It attempts to use truth to fight war. To dominate, to prevail. This is exactly how to make illusion usurp truth in our mind.

You cannot be disobedient to God - but are under illusion.
Illusion is a false or faulty formulation of reality - and if it is to be seen for what it is - rather than as what it seems to be - we must disobey the mind of guilt - by not acting from its premise. By not acting until we have awakened to or felt the Movement of wholeness and guiltlessness of the Presence of Life. And then allowing and trusting that Movement as the revealer of our true will or desire - for so it is.

To become still of self is to repent and release the mind that would make the world in its own image - and open to innocent perception.
Yet the mind of self-will and its attendant guilt are deeply habituated identifications that - until we become responsible for our own mind - can simply activate a false sense of self by which love’s presence is replaced, covered over, substituted for - and the substitute accepted as if real.

When the pervasive nature of the false self is realized to be filtering and distorting everything - there is either the collapse into a willing death of obedience to its dictates - or- a disobedience that challenges the seemingly unchallengable - with the innocence and simplicity of a child.

This 'child' is your Divinity - held in trust - awaiting your welcome.
It does not speak from the presumption of evil - but out of the peace of an innocent and single desire; the love of truth; the truth of love.

It is not for us to understand how we can 'overcome' or pass beyond the dictates of a false limitation. But only to give welcome to what is given us to desire - from God - from the inherency of our nature as unified Being.

Obedience to God is not really a matter of choice - but a matter of honesty. While it seems a matter of choice, you will feel guilty for ‘your mind’ that seems to want a selfish love - and gets a hate-love self and world in return.

This is because the mind is actively engaging in the attempt to make the unreal, real.
But in an active desire and willingness for truth to reign in your heart - you will see honestly, because you will not be engaging such a wish.

The resistance to truth must not be invested with personhood, enemy powers or stories that set you apart from your own love. Or your stories will become as your reality by your own faith.

The mind of persuasion must be disobeyed in every moment of remembering and recognition that suddenly illumines desire - thirst - for truth - amidst the illusions of choices that suggest and maintain a sense of you as 'in between'. There is nothing in between you and your Self, but an act by which are deceived in thought.

Where we look and find guidance, value and meaning is where we choose to put our faith. This simply needs to be brought to an honesty - without judgement or condemnation.
Illusion says "follow me and become free".
Truth shows you - "you are already free".

Travel the way you desire to arrive and enjoy. For we are always 'arriving in' what we have defined as our joy. To recognise a faulty choice is a happy release of the unwanted. We always know peace in choosing to let the Voice for Truth guide us.

In Peace

Brian

Open hell and discover hell-o!

2010-06-20T01:05:00.000Z

If concept-ion based perception is your will, you must believe that you alone are a doer, that you alone are a power - and that you are alone.

So in the ego life there is the linear story or commentary that 'sees' clocking in, climbing stairs, parking the car, putting trash in the can, as if they were mechanical processes in a mechanical world. It doesn't really see - because it believes it already knows - and that there is nothing of value to be seen except in its ‘special loves’ - or to be avoided in its ‘special hates’. It is intent on getting something done or getting to a destination of some other moment, some other place - but 666 - never a seventh day rest in which to behold the Glory and the Good that is the music, poetry and art of being. Hell is a walled off state of exclusion. A frozen heart under a tormented mind.

Open hell and discover hell-o!

Life is not dead mechanism.

You do not have to look to the dead thought (concept-idol) for meaning.

You are moved by the grace and flow of being - and can know this - in any instant where you recognise the Spirit instead of focussing on the forms and the meanings you have endowed them.

For many years I have signed my cheques 'gladly' where conventionally folks write 'only'. Good money is God money - because in its exchange God is acknowledged and remembered.

Possession possesses. Giving gifts. Receiving honours. Getting loses.

As a musician and dancer, I am aware of how dead are most humans to their body as an instrument of love's expression. How the truth is replaced with mechanical productions and hyped presentations that take the forms of Life's expression and use them to kill the Life - and so 'have' the dark in which to hide and seek for dark 'pleasures'- that are but pain disguised in false promises.

Death is not the transitional refocussing of attention whereby the body is released of an impossible burden. It is the thing we humanly tend to call life - and defend against Life by dying to unconsciousness. Desiring to Not Know - by asserting our will - our desire - to make reality serve our self-god.

T 31 F 5. You who believe that you can choose to see the Son of God
as you would have him be, forget not that no CONCEPT of yourself
will stand against the truth of what you are. (A Course in Miracles)

Nothing real is threatened.

Nothing unreal exists
(ACIM)

In gratitude for your company

Brian

Seeing self-illusion opens the mind to truth

2010-06-19T00:51:00.001Z

In any instant that any mind opens to and accepts truth - the force of identification with self illusion is weakened and the awakening is strengthened. I see this as going on in all ways and always - and through whatever agencies serve maximally. But truth has absolutely nothing to do with any conceptual or symbolic truths that we might associate with it and identify with.

As I recognise and accept that awakening is the most important 'work' or purpose to which I can bring to attention in active desire, I am brought to notice more and more of the ways in which I actively maintain the ego mentality - for apart from such allegiance from me, it has no life of its own. I also find these are 'shared' collusions and I practice not joining in the 'mind that limits' in the moment of awareness.

The form in which that takes does not ultimately matter. It may seem to be doing nothing. It may seem to be challenging accepted modes of behaviour and thought - and thus interpreted fearfully by that which identifies exclusively with form. All I know is that if I do not act in line with the guidance for truth - I lose the awareness and appreciation of communion - period.

This doesn't make me infallible in any way - it simply means I am exercising trust as a disciple of truth - and in willingness to learn. It is for each of us to listen in our heart - where we have a direct relationship with God that no one and nothing can ever substitute for.

The Second Coming is not only coming - it is coming through now. In a sense this is the inherent truth of every miracle and all the work of the Awakening since first the mind seemed to split from itself. But in a specific sense to our times is an urgency of the call to awaken - not merely to ideas and teachings and understandings - but to recognise in truth that we 'split' our mind to serve wishful thinking and then hide in darkness and confusion. This is the act by which we 'live' a seeming separate struggling existence.

The 'life' that the ego-sense dictates - is tragically pathetic - barely a trickle of Life allowed or shared.

Communication and trust are of the same root - for without trust communication is simply a battle of private wills - and without communication, trust remains a potential unmanifest and without tangibility.

When we think we know - we do not stop and listen. We can ride roughshod over the delicate first steps of the desire to know and be known - simply because we interpret through a sacrosanct set of understandings that we blindly presume true.

I have noticed this in myself many times - and see that spiritual blindness is part of the territory to be undone - just as is any other self-concept that substitutes for love's Presence Shared.

All things serve the purpose of awakening - if that is our active desire.
When it is accepted as our only desire, truth's awakening will be the simply obvious.

But the force and habit of identification with the ego is not of a kind that can be recognised and undone without Divine, Awakened, Help. For what seems obvious to the ego perspective is delusional - and for love's Teacher to find any welcome or attention free for awakening is the gift of love's acknowledgement that we give by receiving.

Giving and receiving is the way our true will IS done.
But when we seek to get or give to get - there is no real gift. Where nothing real is shared, unreality can seem to be anything - and shift at anytime. There is no basis for trust within the getting mind.

To open trust we must lay down or weapons and shields in desire for knowing truth.

Live from the Knowing

2010-06-18T00:47:00.001Z

Dear Brother and Sister in Life, please share your knowing.

If you use thought or deed to clothe the knowing in terms that CAN be understood, then with the grace of true desire, will the meaning be shared and the thoughts themselves be but the messengers.

To listen, while leaning and trusting into sharing that which moves within, is to bring the forms of communication into the context of an actual relationship.

To know relationship is not a concept - nor mere think-based representation of 'a relationship' - but is love. We feel each other in living communication.

Salvation is a collaborative venture. Relating with each other risks into both the dance and the messiness of involvement. Perfect answers - at the level of form - can be used to justify the avoiding of relationship. That is not awakeng to truth.

The tendency to think instead of listen and feel - is the liability of a mind to remain disconnected from Mind - from its interrelatedness and thus from anything real.

To venture to live from the 'knowing' is a radical shift of identity. Instead of living as the problem - live as the answer. Not the answer that solves the problem - but the answer that is priorly and presently free of problem.

Leaning to walk takes practice - at first there can be stumbles and knocks - but because there is a consistent desire and motivation, walking becomes a natural accomplishment of one’s being. Living from trust is only to be discovered by practice. Others may not see or recognize - and can try to 'kindly' bring you back to the crab barrel. But learning to listen to the Voice and Perspective within, is made tangible and clear by persisting regardless of the liability to distraction and doubt.

Indeed the opportunity of temptation will serve to uncover one's own mind in error - so as can be corrected by listening to truth where before I thought I saw meaning in the meaningless.

2010-06-15T11:35:00.000Z

Julian of Norwich proclaimed "all shall be well, and all manner of things shall be well"
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Julian_of_Norwich
Just as Raj has said "God is in His Holy Place, and All is Well".

It isn't that we need a perfect teaching to awaken - but simply that Perfection awakens to its own being and nature through willingness and acceptance. This is to say that we only need to listen with Holy Spirit to be awakened in Truth.

To argue with illusion is to not let it go.

The mind in deception is easily able to mouth the words of truth and assume the crown of righteousness it mistakes for Heaven, but only the Spirit can speak with the power that awakens - even out of the mouths of babes.

Ours is to make the decision NOT to decide between illusions - and this laying down of the will and the world of will - makes clear the way that Truth Speaks through and for us - along with all That Is.

I've felt a discrepancy with Julian's famous saying for time is not involved in Eternity. But I have come to accept that that Stirring within is of the awakening - and not the ideas that I may then formulate to 'correct' her. The assertion of the teachings of truth by the mind that knows it not is of a desire to make one's own truth and be pre-validated in doing so!

Listening and abiding with Holy Spirit is a state of guiltlessness - and not a state of opposition to guilt.

I sing and dance a song called "Bells of Norwich" - based on Julian's saying.

Love, like the yellow daffodil, is coming through the snow.
Love, like the yellow daffodil, is Lord of all I know.

CHORUS: Ring out, bells of Norwich, and let the winter come and go
All shell be well again, I know.

Ring for the yellow daffodil, the flower in the snow.
Ring for the yellow daffodil, and tell them what I know.

CHORUS

All shall be well, I'm telling you, let the winter come and go
All shall be well again, I know.

Loud are the bells of Norwich and the people come and go.
Here by the tower of Julian, I tell them what I know.

CHORUS

All shall be well, I'm telling you, let the winter come and go
All shall be well again, I know.

-----------------------------------------------------------------

By Sydney Carter

Brian's note: Evil is inherent to the world that we experience as a result of a identifying with and employing a mentality in imaginative but wilful opposition to Truth. To transcend or relax out such a mentality is to behold All Things New - and All Things is not the same world in terms of any sense of an external reality but the Revelation that cannot be spoken of in tongues or terms of time bound consciousness.

But in the Universal Grace of such revelation - we may discover ourselves employing imperfect terms to give witness to that there is God - and the Spirit of God is One.

The ego will always misinterpret everything - for that Is its primary function. So rather than feel and open to truth, we use a wishful sense of ourselves, and employ its mind as a surrogate reality in which judgement and attack is justified, separation is our survival, and denial, death (or the assigning of illusion as the status thereof) is the gift we share with the truth of our brother and world.

In Peace

Brian

Remembering

2010-06-13T11:13:00.001Z

If the idea that you are the child of light is given welcome and allowed to become the basis of challenging the appearance and experience of darkness, such that it is undone - then the value of the idea is self evident.

But if the idea "I am a child of light" becomes itself a form of consolation and used to support living in darkness, with less discomfort - then it may be said to be used to protect the mind that wants to abide in the dark.

The dissonance that is felt in our experience when we are out of true - when we are conflicted in our desire - or wilfully asserting desire from a place of judgement - is our Divine Alarm Call.

It is difficult at first to feel the dissonance without immediately becoming triggered into self protective reactions designed to salve it, distract from it, cover it over or render it into terms that seem to make us feel less guilty. This is because we are tending to live from a mental assertion - that is CONTINUING to maintain an out of true-ness as its priority.

With practice, we can get closer to the source of - or actuality of - our sense of dilemma.
To notice or observe it BEFORE we take the ride of setting ourselves in story as 'hard done by', or subject to limitation of any kind. This is a calmer and more spacious awareness in which we can recognize and feel directly, rather than through the lens of judgement or the patterning of past association.

The habit of the mind in judgement is strong because it has been clenched long. But its only strength is what we give of our attention and reaction to it - even though we may experience it - AS IF - it were a force that we cannot overcome or that out-manoeuvres our every attempt to fix or solve or remedy.

To abide without judgement is to surrender to an acceptance of the heart; to let the heart lead; to await the movement rather than asserting the movement. This simply isn't something that can be done. It is a willingness to be undone - to allow the coming undone of a sense of self that thrives on conflict whilst purporting to overcome it.

The remembering of the Heart is of a Universal Grace. The willingness to open to truth amidst the appearance and storyline of limitation is grace. The very beingness of you that stirs from within is the all pervading Light - communicating.

Like knows like.
To be of a kind is to share the same.

Releasing guilt is the accepting of Light - not to use as a symbol within the dream - but to release the grip on the dream that gives it a grip on you.

Love flows spontaneously where the way is clear.
There is only one condition that can block love - and this is the desire that love be something it is not.

Such a desire is like a sticking point from which a little dissonance can unstick the mind - when the dissonance is appreciated as a welcome guest instead of a gatecrasher.
But the dissonance is not guilt, nor pain, nor fear nor any other meaning that has been given to it from an unwelcoming mind.

So the temptation to see and react to these 'meanings' must be passed by if you are to allow the truth to awaken in you - while using the alarm call for what it is gracefully useful for.

If you were to suffer a pain and look for its source and discover that you were in effect pinching yourself, it would not take a moment to simply stop doing so - and immediately be restored to an undistorted appreciation of the moment.

But so embedded are we in our own self-dramas, that we believe we already know what the moment holds - and are actively and fully engaged in acting out our story as if it were reality.

Jesus asked his disciples to "watch and pray with me". This was from his heart as a brother and not as an edict to elicit punishment on discovery of initial failure. This is the same as the Light in you and the willingness in you to serve the light.

Jesus forgave and forgave again and yet again, when he found the disciples asleep - and so awakened fully from the mind to which abandonment seems real.

Be aware, be attentive - and abide in the heart.
This IS the action or movement of the Heart that IS Light.

That which Moves in you - also Moves you.
be attentive not to your story - but to the direct appreciation of be ing.

Forgive yourself for the distraction whereby you forgot.
Appreciate the truth of yourself whereby you are remembered.

In this Light is extended and known again as the all pervading radiance of Truth.
Such holiness cannot be betrayed - but only forgot - in ignorant and idle wish to explore the sense of your own creativity - in private.

Happy laughter is the recognition that dissolves the appearance of such a notion.
But within the world that such wilfulness gives rise - is opposition, fear of otherness', a false sense of self and all the defence and armouring that constitutes the experience of being an orphaned consciousness in a hostile and treacherous world.

We are Children of Light and know this when we see each other in Light and see the Light in each other. Truly, the Light knows this Always and never forgets - even if we forget the Light.

Darkness is a misinterpretation of Light.
It is not for us to understand how this may be so, but for us to accept and welcome the Light by which we are, know and have our being. Even the playing out of dream images in a darkened room cannot be engaged but is utterly and entirely dependent of the Light that must be first denied in order to have an 'experience of independence'.

Yet all awareness and attention is rooted in and extending the same Life and cannot in truth become independent. In the loving is not two - nor an observer who chooses between the one or the two.

There is a membership - a family - a belonging in and expression of.
We do not need to create what is already true - but we do need to allow the truth remember us and extend through or shine in the thoughts and acts and deeds that love would have us share in place of the world and self we made up.

The nature of applying force is opposition, density and limitation.
How long and bitterly must we struggle before we question the basis of our identification?

Noticing - moments of communication - moments of communion. These moments portend the rebirth of sanity such that confusion is dispelled - to the mind that desires truth as the very foundation and context of all else.

Isn't it hard to get past ego and hear and feel guidance?

2010-06-08T09:09:00.000Z

An unwilling mind is an excellent and ingenious defence mechanism - so to try to do anything directly about the blocks and expectations that filter and falsely limit our life is likely to get sucked into giving the mind some more to do.

Where am I putting my attention?
When I notice what I am doing with my attention I can then choose to let it be directed according to the value that I discover in the heart. Otherwise it will tend to be programmed by the habitual busy preoccupation that tends to skim the surface without really connecting with anything or anyone.

To allow the heart to rise is counter to this habitual restlessness and is like letting tensions fall off, instead of perpetuating the conditions of conflict or strain.

The human heart is usually involved in stories and interpretations set within the orphan framework - a sense of self that seeks outside itself for completion and in itself feels lacking.
But the heart that is your truth sense - is where the movement of Spirit is felt.

Its a curious thing - trust - you cant make it so. Its a dance of willingness and demonstration.
No matter what we think we want - there is defensiveness of resistance that does not allow our self (as we experience ourselves) to be touched and opened. If these blocks were just tensions in the body you would just notice them as you became still and then relax wherever you find you are holding tight. Well they also are - so scanning the body, noticing and releasing tension, and floating in the presence - is a way into allowing now.

I look to be myself with Spirit. No point in trying to clean up first - or having any pretensions - and no point either in rolling out the disqualifiers of self judgement - they are just a bunch of thoughts that are not relevant to love.

To be remembered or restored or renewed in love - I release the accumulations or associations of the mind by persistently not identifying or employing them, and become open as the condition of trust, free of the wilful activity which excludes any possibility of sensing, feeling, or intuiting the current of life that is the true intimacy of being.

Yes I meet all sorts of self configurations that are all just ways of not listening. But I also notice that when it occurs and feel for the desire in the heart that is the key. For I am not into self efforting solutions which express and reinforce a sense of lack. I need God - not spiritual muscles.

I need God because God is the Only Life. I don't need to try and make my life work so much as let God be - and be the expression that comes from that - rather than being a 'me' who needs to pretend God isn't here - in order to dress up in front of the mirror and play.

It is always so much simpler than words would suggest to a mind that is utterly in the grip of the presumption that something must change, that something must be added or taken away in order to rest in completion.

So is it hard? One can say it is extremely difficult - it can surely be experienced that way.
But you can also say it is the easiest most natural thing to be that which you already truly are.

What I would share with you - is that statements of difficulty can feel true relative to our past experience but can become a way of imposing the past onto the present and denying the presence of God to our appreciation.

So no matter how difficult it seems - I am looking to just note that that is a thought I have emotional investment in - and choose instead to feel for and trust from - a different starting place.

Its a shift that a little willingness always brings - where instead of working on oneself - I just let be and don't have any sense of needing to do anything about any of it. Guiltlessness... I may then feel a desire towards contemplation or action but it doesn't feel driven by lack.

Maybe its good to realize that its hard. Maybe its the hardest thing - because there's no half hearted way to let the truth of love be the gift you receive and share. But then look at the seeming alternative. It doesn't seem hard to run on whatever old programs take us - excepting it sure feels crap. (Well that's my confession at least). As we open to truth we more readily recognize the dissonance of untruth and lose the desire to and capacity for a sham substitute.

Most of what is hard is from trying to do or take on too much. If we simply take this step in trust and do not get mentally and emotionally involved in mind rehearsing outcomes based on past judgements, we would travel lightly - freely and with joy in our heart. So it is in every truly conscious step. Truth is uncovered in place by living from it.

If any of this helps - well good. If not then at least know that your company has guided my heart and typing fingers - and they feel connected and communioned. Because you see - I listen with you easily for here is a shared purpose - reminding me of love's unified nature - whereas busy little me can easily become identified with thinking, doing, with roles and the wheel ruts of thought-tracks.

in Gratitude

Brian

Why would any or every thing serve the highest good?

2010-06-07T12:12:00.000Z

Why would any or every thing serve the highest good?

Because such is the desire in your heart.

How might it serve the Good?

From an honesty of not knowing and not therefore demanding only answer set in your terms.

How will you know the truth that shows you you are free of limitation?

Intimately.

The mind in form is always trying to make sense of God Reality in its own terms. Which is experienced as if we are getting a handle on life and are validated by our 'understanding'.

While this attempted self-stance is going on - we have the opportunity to wake to it - and therefore from it. It can be subtle- but it is always the allegiance to image and thought and form in place of Living Love.

Just because we call something 'God', 'Guidance', 'love', 'Christ', 'reality', 'truth' - does not in any way make it so. Prayer is abiding in the heart's intimacy. If this is not yet your safety and your love restored - then forgiveness of yourself is called for immediately.Give only as you would receive.

It is through an act of self exclusion - judgement - whereby love seems to forget its nature and suffers its own division as both 'killed and killer' - and then projects these roles outside itself to mitigate pain.

But thoughts leave not the mind that thinks them. To the ego - this truth seems damnation - yet to the Divine awareness that is your Being's light - it is the realisation of what you are and where you are and that you are.

The Holy Spirit teaches awakening through whatever experiences ignorance sets up - and works with every willingness offered and allowed.

If we are in a mood of resistance - we will generate experience to justify our stance. If we do not value and cultivate our desire and receptivity for truth we densify illusion and at some point realize this is not truly our desire - but costs us all that we truly desire.

Obedience is naturally due to our true desire - freely, willingly and gladly - and not as a sacrificial bargain struck in the dark with some god who saves dark ones to remain safely in the dark.
Being true to truth is the essential basis for trust and sanity.

Exclusion arises from withholding love. You are love.
When the withholding is released by the release of exclusion - love is revealed as the already truth.

In Peace

Brian

Let guidance grow its expression by loosening your mind of rigidity

2010-06-07T11:57:00.000Z

Clear guidance is known in peace - because peace is an undistorted receptivity that does not have an already asserted definition or problem in place - but is a willingness to put aside or release the interpretation of experience in the wholeness of trust.

Holy instants are called such (in A Course in Miracles) because even an instant of such active or practiced willingness allows a shift from the grip of the perspective of fear and control. They are also practical because the human mind actively defends its sense of control such that true insight is often only allowed an instant before the mind of 'me' is reasserted.

When we believe we are a mind in a body in a world that is untrustworthy or malign, we limit the truth to what can appear to us through the framework we ourselves have insisted and demand be true. No matter what it purports or seems to be - such a framework is all about ‘me’.

The mind in darkness that grows faith in light can be reached and guided within its experience of the world. It may at first believe it is to be protected and reinforced by a benign and active intervening God - and may well experience this as part of the process of opening to the light of truth. Yet after such instances of being 'protected' may come experience of being 'carried' through experience of travail - like being absolutely safe through an experience of apparent calamity rather than being saved from its appearance. Still further on may be the experience of Job - in which the intrinsic nature of the light excluding thought is experienced as calamity - without recourse to external remedy of recrimination.

To accept the atonement for oneself is to be undone in perfect love.

The awakening is but the natural expression of and appreciation of be-ing and in this writing seems to be a goal or alternative to an unnatural 'take' on being in which the mind experiences its own thought instead of direct appreciation of the truth. But this desire that seems to create an alternative 'truth' has become active as the current lens - excepting we refuse to use it.

The involvement of relationship as an act of faith and willingness is in human terms messy or chaotic - because it is not an experience of being in control, having the answer or even neccessarily being competent. But it is the willingness for peace as the condition in which truth of love and healing is served, made welcome, desired and joined with.

Loveless-ness undone

2010-05-26T09:38:00.000Z

The blight of sin brings,
pervasive lack of light.
All things are turned to hate,
and none so hateful as this self.

Shunning light is but
calling for darkness
to cover the love in which such hurt is felt
with thoughts of any self regard,
to put the hate outside,
that some fragment of a self
can grasp at a moments relief,
amidst inescapable torment.

Truth in stillness,
most intimate,
does not know
such maddening mind
excepting to remind you of this:

What do you desire be true?

For here is the way illusion rose
to fascinate an entranced attention.

And yet here now are the steps retraced,
before a split in mind occurred.

Give way to what is always wholly given,
and let all things be released
to speak of life anew.

There is no other Life than this,
that Lives and Moves and Knows its Being.

O Living Love.

in Gratitude

Brian

Dispelling a deception of conflict, confusion and suffering

2010-05-20T11:24:00.000Z

The Spirit of God is One and neither are you divided. We are deceived in any belief that gives rise to a war within self as in any way meaningful. Love does not fight fear - but is the condition in which fear is undone - or absent.

The error or delusion of conflicted self - and its experience of being a private separated organism or mind - gives rise to a compelling sense of suffering in a world of limitation and opposition - because that is the nature of the ‘self’ or reality thought that is currently accepted.

While so engaged, the mind is mesmerized in a self-assertive and self-protective activity that can have no abiding resolution because it is not expressing a self that is real. Yet while the desire is in motion, attention is not free to discover that one is entirely missing the point.

In sane and calm light, any error of conflicted desire or thought or experience is simply the call for immediate correction and nothing else. But such sanity is implicitly hidden by delusion - and the mind blindly reenacts old scripts that effectively perpetuate the condition of identifying with the false - and thus remaining ignorant of truth. Such is the seed of conflict - for how can the false be true without making the true seem false? - and who can rest in the confusion of defending against truth?

The way of awakening grows from a shift in purpose; a true change of heart; the desire for peace and sanity - as a directly felt experience from which to truly live. Despite the old mind of fear, control and survival, the new is welcomed and nurtured - yet in secret from the mind that would simply use all things for its own power.

This brings insight into the effects of one’s own desire and thought, such that delusional or self-destructive thought and intent is recognized as it is, instead of being experienced as if one is victim to the situation it seems to create. And such insight increasingly grows a capacity to not reenact the past - but instead to be guided and restored to a present and heartfelt unconflicted appreciation of life.

The plans of the mind based on the past always look to a future resolution, but the way of reintegrating mind with Itself restores an uniterrupted sense of self and life presently, for no assertion of self-will is interrupting the flow of being, feeling, awareness that is the living context of you - rather than any self image.

Stop it, drop it, and be renewed in the always fresh appreciation of reality as it is. For what we ‘drop’ is the desire and its means - that would hold reality to be as we tell it.

The belief-desire that 'I am of myself a power' is the nature of all error. For true power is power because it shares itself. Any attempt to force upon - or indeed resist against - reality is delusional - for there is no place outside Life from which to lever it. Yet the mind that desired and belieived such power, has ‘given’ its ‘will’ to all that is not under its control. For through the thought says it believes it HAS enacted upon Life so does it believe such power can be enacted upon it.

The only way out of such a bind is to release the desire and belief in such will; To release the judgements of the private or hidden sense of self. This can only be accepted in recognition and willingness by the grace of truth. For it is by Truth that truth is revealed in any mind that rests and abides naked of self-will.

This sense of self that is habituated to correcting mistakes in terms set by judgement – must be rested of its futility and become instead the willingness to let the answer speak through me to raise ‘the dead’. God is not dead. Nor you.

The extension of love is done through willingness – yet the awakening of love is not of a self doing - nor being done to, but transcends such terms in the expression of unified being; Creation.

If I would be free to create, I need be vigilant to not keep error secret from correction .
Truth will dawn on any mind that truly wants it.

But first we may have to recognise the release what we thought we wanted, counter to the nature and flow of being, that is bringing us the experience of opposition, limitation and conflict.
For to fight against the Living Current is not the way of sanity or peace.

Here's something I read today:

"Life never struggles. That which struggles is the consciousness which attempts to limit life and is but the interference to perfection which is forever trying to come through. If the personal self will just let life flow and keep at peace, the manifested result will be perfection, the divine way of life fulfilled."
(author unknown).

To persist in holding for or aligning with the truth as it is felt - even despite syptoms or seeming opposition - is not to struggle - but to hold to constancy and starve the drama of giving it your attention, and thereby validity as a ‘something’ that must be dealt with or answered in the terms it sets. To a mind habituated to survive through complex and shifting conflicts - the releasing of war is a threat. But the whole point is the releasing of the identification with the mind of opposition - and the acceptance of the truth in its terms.

Being here now

2010-05-19T10:58:00.000Z

Illusion is a thought derived reality.
A mind engages in it and become mesmerised by its own thought.
While it does so it has, in effect, put reality on hold - even though reality is the only thing going on.
Suddenly realizing that one is driving over the line - even if being told so - is an awakening.
Keep the awakening by grateful acknowledgement -but release the 'thinking' reactions of "what does that say about me".

A sense of wrongness or inadequacy is to be awakened from - and not to be made the basis of living for or toward some other moment - some other self - than what God is - with and within you - now.

Why not turn your question on its head?
What can you possibly do to maintain thinking and lose the current appreciation of reality?

It isn't the thinking as such - but the use to which it is being put - that makes it serve as a distraction. Nothing is experienced the way it is by accident. There are intentions at work that frame or form our perception and experience.

If you don't know your intention is effectively choosing - how can you choose anew?

The desire to know truth is of God. Though you could just as well say it is utterly innate to who and what you really are.
The direct way is to abandon self effort and listen or discern for the intimations of Life.
'Let the dead bury the dead and follow me'.
Only the living can hear this as Life calling.

Enjoy this moment and rest in the joy.
Is this not like saying come into the Kingdom of Life?
Be the love that you are. This is where all power to refuse the deceiver is found.

The body as an energetic - is a tingling of vitality. Its flow has subtler currents that love you - lets just start with 'happy feet'. Being present with immediate experience is letting the Godness of Life rise to recognition. To let Life in is to awaken to the all pervading Life.

The i-thought will attempt rejoin - and interrupt - while it has your back stage pass. You get to see it trying to pass off as you in tricksy ways. But in the seeing - it is clear that this is not you.

I had a stage of intense discipline for staying present - until I caught myself in the act and saw the way i was maintaining separation thereby.

What the love - or the Life - prompts us to do - is of a different starting place than any of our best intentions. If your Holy Spirit speaks to you in this or anything - it is for you to value it truly - not by associating with the ideas - but in the opening of your heart.

in Love's blessing
Brian

Healing the complex, distorted, confusion by which we suffer

2010-05-06T18:29:00.000Z

Humans use the body lovelessly by making it the 'home' of the ego and yet also a dumping ground for ‘stuffed down’ life in guilt and anger. Yet our body's tangibility and functionality is identifying the presence of our individuality - which is in truth not divisible or in any way separable from God - the Creative, Sustaining and Guiding Intelligence of all in all.

If 'my will be done' is the essential script for setting up the experience of opposition and conflict - fear and guilt - then “Thy Will be done” is the undoing of such a miscreative illusion.

But “Thy Will be done through me - is a necessary realisation, for only thus do we apprehend or relate to anything as it truly is. There is not a separate God that acts upon any thing. Creation is Extension and not separation. As unified Spirit extends through us, so will awakening to - and as - a restoration of wholeness be the result. But healing proceeds as the release of distortion, confusion and complexity - and in a step by step manner that undoes the split in the mind we share in our experience of conflicted being.

The very notion of oneself alone is meaningless. This applies no less to healing. The great need of the sick is to give the love they have denied themselves. Yet first they may need to receive this love from another - and willingness to receive is a tru gift or acknowledgement to the Giver. All love is of God. In opening to love in its truth and vitality is the dawning of the realisation that they are and have always been love - unified, unconflicted, perfect being. This is the truth of the Heart.

What then of the script of the human life? It becomes of service to the waking of our mind, by not being used to tell the story of separate wills. We learn to teach or demonstrate or give what we want to learn, receive or integrate. Such universal law operates regardless of the values held - but awakened love is the unifying sanity in which all true fulfilment unfolds.

The mind in self illusion wants to define and fix and control - and THAT is the essential handicap from which the heart is healed - all else comes from that - for the experience of the loss of the Universal Light is the 'condition' of sin, in which sickness and death inherently proceed.

Yet if false sense of self and its goals are recognised truly - as unwanted, meaningless, undermining of peace and wellbeing, and futile, it is repurposed to serve unified Will. In every truly shared moment we express the Will that aligns with the Movement of Being. The experience of this - directly felt - is of truth unalloyed. It is turning within - to Source - and allowing that to be all that is - right where you are - that undoes the illusion in which we suffer our creations as if they create us - and afflict us. This is not understandable to thought - but to love. And only they can love who are set free of every humourless intent. We bind ourselves. yet none is bound but by an overlooked and ingeniously hidden desire.

Know truth - and truth shows you - you are free. For nothing is but as you have chosen, albeit in ignorance. Is this a madness that if true means you are guilty? No - it means you are called to awake, repent or release the past and embrace now, and thus release the meanings to which you have sought to force your life, your body, your relationships and the world, to validate and support.

These things are for the heart - the direct intelligence of feeling and knowing that is connected to Reality - to God and thus to all in all.
The recognition that reconnection and renewal and healing is an ultimate priority is often because of hitting ‘bottom’ with regard for attempts to live disconnected, in self illusion and in increasingly meaningless habits of thought and deed.

2010-05-05T10:37:00.000Z

The concept of ego is helpful if it awakens a present responsibility.
But as soon as there is a sense of a separate or alternate power called the ego that can act against God - against your indivisibility - then it has become a stooge behind which the mind can play out the game of two powers. And to take either side or to shift between sides according to an alternating perspective is to identify with force and density - the experience of limitation and separation.

There need be no blame for discovering egocentricity 'running', indeed such is an awakening 'Ahah!'
The sense of ego attack that 'knows' how to lay us low is linked to our desire.
We may at times feel able to be open and selfless in the flow of being - but then there can be a sense of losing a capacity to keep the ego as a sort of hideyhole or option to back off or to have access to things we have enjoyed that we feel deprived of at the sense of moving beyond.

So there is a tightening, a contracting - a desire to put the brake on and 'think' - a pausing from the connectness of our being and in effect saying "I'd rather see this my way".

And the experience of confusion, of being in some struggle or of needing to DO something before I can allow Being or justify love - serves this desire to have a limited sense of self in which I feel less threatened than the exposure of an initially unrecognised territory of being.

My sense of resistance, is of an emotional charge here that is activated out of a habitual sense of security - and that once it activates, it can reframe my perspective so as to self validate itself and hide Love's Answer.

In awareness we can nip ego in the bud - just don't go there - stay here - open - be still - listen. In thought we are acting out from a basis that itself is thought - and not FEELING the direct communion of life that makes Meaningful our experience to us. Nor indeed the faith connection with that which is Awake and with us as Guide and Teacher.

So the drama has its process and yet at some point falls away enough to allow awareness to 'surface' again and we say "what was that about?" or "how come it took me so long to let go of that".

But it isn't that we hold onto a sense of control that doesn't fall or missstep - but rather that we stay open in trust and connectedness even amidst the fears of distrust and ill intent.

When desire grows strong to be free of a sick, debilitating or self undermining habit, we find more awareness rising within it - and thus a choice instead of a compulsion. But the real choice is always not to play the game at all - whereas the compulsion is always a sense of dilemna amidst choices that keep me in the dark.

In fairy stories, the treasure is often guarded by monsters or the princess surrounded by thorny thicket - or some sort of appearance of fearsome obstacle.
The only way to pass is truth.

When all else fails, you KNOW that you have not the answer and so in natural wisdom you no longer seek or accept an answer from where it cannot and does not come - from 'my own power or from my own thinking'. Now is there a stillness that listens. Now is there a thirst for truth. Now is there an abeyance of using truth to make a better weapon to overcome gargoyles. By the grace of God the heart can hear and see and feel - free of the miasma of a sense of self that turned from a curious plaything to a mesmeric mind-trap.

To look upon the special hate relationship is to cease to hide - and therefore protect - it.
When the mind in pain of hurt or hate turns upon itself - seek and find your willingness. Not to live up to any notion of spiritual attainment - but simply to own and feel and know the true desire of your willingness for love, for true safety, for unified peace.

You will at times experience extreme resistance to listening to your willingness, and yet by its light, you are guided or prompted to whatever helps you to stay in and grow willingness - despite the pull of the current of guilt, fear or reaction. Though it seems fierce it has only the power you gave it and give it still.

Your 'holding hands' with Spirit - through your willingness - is the link to calm - despite the shout and struggle of a senseless conflicted drama that seems to be real.

To practice, is to live from willingness - actively. The forms that the dance will take are discovered in relationship - as your preconditions are released to a greater trust.

If wilfulness sneaks in, willingness is forgot - and in such misalignment will dissonance of experience become the signal to relax.

This innate signal to bring attention present , relax, and trust - has been interpreted as a symbol for guilt or proof of sin - a hateful intent - a shameful self uncovered.

This is a deception - but to see for yourself you must look within and discover if in fact and in truth - such intent is your desire. For if you fear that it is - you are still 'playing' with sin as if it could be so.

I say that God Himself is the giver of your life, your being and your true desire.

Jesus said: "Go in peace and sin no more". He speaks to awakened willingness.
From such a true desire we can see and hear and trust our way.

And the shadow of sin dissolves, to a heart redeemed.

How I love you!

In love's graceful tears

Brian

Desire for Safety

2010-05-04T08:08:00.000Z

Your desire for safety touches me.
And speaks of a memory that isn't totally buried and forgot.
Under a seeming world of bodies with secret minds in a hostile universe.
All of which arises from a single act in thought-desire.
A contraction or collapse of self upon self in which almost all of what you are is denied - that your thought can continue as yours alone.

In ceasing to activate or reinforce the thinking-self protective contraction - a different experience is discovered. If you are ready to allow this then you do truly desire Safety, for the attempt to make yourself safe - by your own thinking - has not brought the answer.
You have but shafted yourself - not in truth - for truth remains available as it is if you welcome it - but in the conflicting and shifting attempts to fix down life and make it serve your thought.

You are the life that you neglect to love because your intent is elsewhere, set upon thought derived existence - which to the unawake is believed reality itself.
Life is already intent on serving you - as the unified expression of wholeness. But if you would know this, then there simply is no room for the intent that pulls the plug on life and drains it away for the hit of a self indulgence.

The last war I was in was a seeming battle between desire to survive and desire to love. There was in truth no battle but simply a play of dramatic experience arising from the attempt to keep both.

Dignity is not a right I demand from the world but the natural result of the honour I give.
By the grace of Spirit I have awakened enough to refuse the experience of hate as a definer of anything but a split mind - an ignorance. I can release the experience with my recognition of life giving as I have asked - and let it go. I can only fight the way Mind works, imaginatively.

For the movement of attention is the movement of desire - where value is given.
And if I invest in the experience of horror - then I validate it.
Even if this is done negatively - by an attempt to overcome it. For who would seek to overcome a foe - whose ill intent is but one's own, enacted out in alternating roles?

The uncovering of the special hate relationship is that which would seem to damn. Its undoing requires that you do not damn yourself nor your brother or your world - but wait on a fresh perspective.

Love changes everything.

For love undoes or restores the original to its true appreciation from a mind that had become fascinated by an unlove as if it were a thing you made that then made you.

How does a Child of God fragment and forget its own light in a prodigal wasteland?
How does a wretch rediscover his divine inheritance?

As a man thinketh in his heart - so is he.
By the grace of being joined, I am saved from my own thinking.
All are joined to the Source without which nothing is.
In this world we have seemed to live as if we are actually independent and conflicting with everything. But look and see if this is not simply a game of thought.

There is a basis upon which to question every value this world has ever taught you.
It is the awakening relationship with your innate and inviolable safety - prior to the activity and identifications of mind.

When the definitions that bind, deplete and deprive are refused currency status - the truth is revealed of itself. There is no battle - but there is every reason to hold fast in receiving and therefore giving - from a fresh perspective. Despite every twist and turn of the ego's roller coaster ride which is but a persuasion speaking to an habit no longer truly desired.

Can I condemn a world that arose from acting out a fantasy of possession, loss and vengeance?
Can I condemn myself for the life that proceeded from an ignorance that is no more?
Can I accept forgiveness for myself and be undone of sin?

These are not for thought to answer - but are the heart's intimation - for we don't do truth, but are, by its giving.

In Peace

Brian

Take no thought for your self

2010-05-02T09:37:00.000Z

The thinker is presumed to be the actor.
Exerting a power that can have effects that change the experience of the perceiver.
Born of the need to limit the experience of loss that results from indulging private unjoined thought.

Be Turned in attention to the light that, within, reflects and shines in all.

Leave the dead world by joining the living. Give it not your attention.

The Living replaces the dead world from within with the ever fresh expression of Living Thought.
Such Joined Thought is not left its Source.

To listen not to the true heart is of a desire to not know love as it is.
You may have an illusion of love as your experience, but no matter how fascinating you may be able to make it as the storyline you make within it - it can never love you, know you and shine you, in the glorious radiance of your truth.
Within a wish for getting, your receiving is hidden by limiting filters of denial. And the giving is of a false premise that is being accepted as self or reality. The desire for truth is the willingness to release the surface perceptions and allow receiving anew - and trust giving anew; innocent of the filtering shadows of a self unlove.
And let it be itself such that it grows of itself in the ways of its - and your - true nature.

In Peace

Brian

Who Awakens?

2010-04-29T15:23:00.000Z

There are these programs running in the mind of thought that seem to suggest you are this or that or the other - and suggest that there is a need to be involved in all of that.

The one that 'wakes up' - never really slept, orphaned itself - or went away.
Now where does that leave you?
Are you with me?

It starts as a letting in and being with. It grows.
Comes a time you cease to identify primarily or exclusively with a mind in story - and the light - of itself - moves.
It was already moving.

To ONLY move with the movement is to release the fantastic notion that you can move against it.
But fantasy seems as real as the desire for it determines.

So its true - you cant just decide differently as if it were your intent and your will that is going to do or be the be-ing.
You cant in a sense - decide anything on such a basis - except to remain in illusion.
To be still, to ask, to listen, to trust - is to discover the movement of life.
This speaks your true will - as the will for all. Life is not a conflict of selves - but a unified self expression extends from the willingness to behold Life as it truly is.

What this mostly means is: shut up and listen.
really listen - dont analyze or filter or interpret - but be truly with - and receptive of.
Trust the movement of awakened awareness and let it speak your self by sharing it.
In the sharing of the gift - is truth restored to awareness.
For none are excluded.

To the ego self sense - this is a bleak prospect - and will at times feel like deep loss.
Whenever this sense is accepted again - the separation is reenacted.
You get to watch it.
Over and over - and over again.
But only if you stay curious enough to look - when all the symptoms of separateness and loss shout as if they know your name.
Who or what is curious enough to look at such a pass?
You are that curiosity and willingness itself.
Seemingly tied up in thought.
What's that about!?

Struggling with myself? - No!
It's just thinking!

'Love thine Enemy' is a call to awaken - not a more sophisticated means of dealing with conflict.
'I have resistance to that' - Ah! here is a call to be more genuinely curious.

Generally, I have noticed, that when I can simply no longer afford, to give energy and attention, to maintain a sense of myself, as in some way opposed or conflicted or special, then it just falls off, with no method or technique or process involved.

in peace
Brian

words

2010-04-21T09:33:00.000Z

If even a trace of guilt is given welcome - or assumed real of me - then I (must) look out on a world that limits and see the taint of sin in whatever I write or whatever I read. For such is the effect of using the lens of judgement instead of listening in the heart.

Because this is so paralysing and obstructive of life's creative flow and function, the I-sense exerts itself in any and every attempt to mitigate and offset pain of guilt by glossing over with denial and engaging distraction - so as to play the game of life amidst a condition which seemingly opposes life.

To at least to snatch the crumbs of life in fleeting moments from the awfulness of a mean and hateful mind that the I-sense is seeking to escape, overcome or improve - but not let go.

All the force of such attempt wears 'me out' and blocks even further, the grace of the true function of life of which I have lost any direct sense due to becoming so entangled in my own thoughts made flesh.

(Hmmmmmmmmmm.... that's not what I thought I was going to write ;-)

Words have been used as the extension of definition. As if definition determines truth. But it is the movement of desire or intent that would fix or freeze life - by grasping or possession. The very concept of possession at the level of mind is a nonsense excepting that to have is to be. But once a sense of self in image and thought is accepted as if it were in fact Me - then through that self-thought can I seem to add things to myself or have them taken away.

At that level of illusion - when first embracing what seems to be the possibillities and potentialities of orphanhood (seperate self-becominghood) there is a sense of being as a god in divine play. Dressing up in the mirror and enjoying the imaginative 'life' that extends from the image in this light - or in that light.

How does a narcissistic game of no consequence become the terrible affliction of guilt?

Well it never truly can - excepting - while persisting to look in the mirror and 'enjoy' the imaginative 'life' that extends from the image in this light - or in that light.

These words are offered in attempt to sketch out so that the act can be seen for what it is. Not an act of play within the mirror - but an act of desiring to see and maintain oneself in image and story.

For while such desire is active and unseen, attention is limited to or distorted by the images in the mirror. These definitions that, in one way or another, give witness to the existence of a 'me' as a separately existing personality in a body - rather than as the direct expression of Life's Movement to know Itself through its extension.

There is a turnabout that arises spontaneously from the seeing of self illusion just as it is.
It may experienced as pure Grace. The uncovering of Divinity - of the only Life.
This out of time awakening is not allowed while attention and desire are actively engaged in reaction - as something to possess or rid oneself of.
But it can rise through the willingness to see such a script for what it is - while it is in play - and always undoes it of an environment in which to seem to be.

When Hercules had to clean out the shit from the stables - he opened a way that the divine river flowed through them. At first - if one had stopped to report - one could have said that - worse than shit - was a river of shit. And that is why it is unwise to use externals a progress report. For fear has to be released to the flow and function of life - of a divine flow that Is - otherwise it remains a point of reference from which one says stop! and belives one is the power to limit life.

Allowing the flow is growing a relationship with the truth in you that knows the flow - AND also knows the exact nature of the entanglement by which attention has become trapped within self definition and made real to itself.

Under self direction, I cannot actually know true function - though I may think I do when things go my way. But that is a house of cards. In not using self direction, a deeper knowing guides all. How do I know I am not deluding myself?

This is in some sense irrelevant to the act of awakened willingness - because in the flow - in the trust - in the light of allowing - even the scripts of self delusion become useful to the re-awakening of being to its wholeness - instead of serving as ammunition for the prosecution or damning evidence to the judge.

When resistance is felt - stuck - paralysis - fear - there is still flow. There is always flow, for life is Life.

To let into flow is to be with what is - as it is - and not as it is defined and not from a desire or presumption of a power to define it.

An unjudgemental atmospheric is absolutely essential to knowing and sharing life as Life.

Words and concepts have a long history of squelching the feeling being - because that has been the intent behind them.

Put this behind you - and release the forms associated with it - and let them find new life in a dance that speaks of your freedom to be - all that you are.

The dream of a life calls from without and keeps you focussed on the outer.

The Life that is your Intimate truth Moves from within and calls you awake as being-within-the-Movement.

If you are still holding onto the words - as if there is something that must be understood BEFORE trust is extended and fear released, then I ask you - What can possibly be understood from a mind already made up or fixed on its own thought?

The fixation of the mind on God is not the work of the human will, but is the grace of the desire of love to be all that it is and know all that it is, in all that it is.

Love and pretence

2010-04-19T11:11:00.000Z

Love - in its truth - is prior to the activity of interpretation that the mind overlays - or intervenes with. This is to say it is deeper and closer to you than you are to your self in thought or imagination.
A tangible intimacy that is not merely thinking or emotional history or physical desire, 'touches' or registers in our awareness, and is an integrative or unifying experience of connectedness and communion - with person, place, or indeed with one's sense of experience itself.

Rather than being the result of seeking to 'get' an experience that is presumed desirable - it is the awakening to the felt nature and condition of life or relationship itself.
The mechanical habits of a mind that sees itself as having special and separative interests may only be suspended an instant before the glimpse is effectively cut off with doubting thought, emotional vacillation - and all the characteristics of the thinking based identity that sees a need for control as its protection and necessity - and trust as something to bargain with.

The desire to possess experience 'for oneself' is a fundamental human error. It grew from a curiosity of capacities of thought, but by itself it is essentially a private experience that can not truly satisfy - for it's 'love' is conditional and turns to betrayal, hate or loss - the instant that conditions are no longer perceived as providing justification for love. Such a love cannot be trusted. Such human love is always ambivalent there is no peace it it - because of what lies underneath its seeming.

Our concept of love is likely to be coloured by the fantasies and demands for external events or persons who fill or provide the experience of what we believe we lack; meaning, protection, adventure, importance, validity, acceptability, purpose and etc. As long as we accept and cultivate a sense of ourselves as lacking or unwhole in our essential being, we are bound to seek without for the 'answer' to a sense of life in dilemma - and we can become expert in assuming such an identity and believing it can achieve the promise of life that its seeks, even when any real hope of such an abiding alignment of conditions is eroded leaving a desperate and loveless existence that has yet to be presented as workable and made tolerable by whatever can be brought into play.

Yet what love actually is, is still active but largely unrecognized - even amidst the acting out of a loveless sense of necessity - for its nature is the core or essence or be-ing upon which the drama of the self is played out as if it were as if it presents itself - to itself and others. Love's awakening is a shift from identification with self in story to identity at rest in love. The process of such a shift is both sudden and gradual in that the revelation of what was always true has no degree, yet the acceptance and integration of such truth into a mind that has become identified with its story is itself a step by step process of loosening and releasing of that which is revealed to be both false or unfounded, and destructive - or undermining - to the peace in which awareness can operate directly; as one's essential sanity.

The intelligence of love was not lost in pursuit of loveless goals - but merely hidden while their purpose is actively engaged. As the intent and desire to impose upon reality loosens, the innate intelligence or guidance of love rises - and uses the contents of the mind to guide the mind to discover 'the way Home'. Initially this is inevitably associated with specific and favourable conditions and these are to be embraced with joy - but the mind is led through its willingness to look again on its underlying presumption, belief and intent - in which it has become confused with its own story and 'victim' to its own thought.

To awaken to your own loving is not to be validated in any seeming capacity to love in your own right - but to recognise, accept and welcome the love that Is Moving ... in you - as you - through you - and to you. It is not added to you - yet in acceptance of what is - as it is - are all things shown in a true light.

The condition in which love is unrecognised is one of a desire and identification for opposition or conflict - for in love truly there is none. Yet there is the clear capacity to see the judgements, definitions, roles and meanings that such a story weaves - exactly as it is - and therefore not enter into or identify with it.
To refuse or not employ the desire to judge reality, releases the filters and distortions of a past made in error - and allows a truly creative present to be itself.

Habits held long and dear do not disappear immediately even if they are realised to be unwanted. Defences developed amidst great fear as a temporary solutions to unbearable experience do not cease to be triggered - and to trigger the old perspective. But in love's acceptance and embrace it is clear that you are neither victim or victimizer - nor a neutrality arbiting from a presumed fence of un-involvement. The way of love is very different from the way of doing, because the doings that are love's expression arise naturally from a willingness to be still of self and listen, and express a willingness for life that is without coercive intent; of a wellspring shared in common,. For the Source of life is not separated from its expression. Nor are the expressions of life, fragmented parts of a meaningless source.

Love is the condition in which the problem as fear defined it, no longer exists, but has become the opportunity for love to be remembered and therefore expressed or shared.
Our denial of the flow and expression of our innate feeling being - of our Soul - is our true loss. Nothing in this world can substitute for it - but the search for love outside ourselves only re-enacts the basis whereby we suffer the belief we have been deprived and denied by another will than our own.
Yet everything in the world - rightly seen - becomes a means for awakening and restoring sanity - but not on the basis of privately maintained judgements arising within a privately maintained independence from love.
Be still of thinking and extend trust beyond the fences you thought to keep you safe alone.

ACIM What are my creations?

2010-04-16T11:37:00.000Z

In A Course in Miracles, (ACIM), A book that is a self study course in accepting the creative power of mind and being restored to sanity, Jesus talks of ‘your creations’.
This writing came in answer to one who asked, What are “my creations”.
This writing may not yield to understanding from a conventional thought perspective but may yet spark intuitive sense.
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When you remember you are love - you will remember your Father - wherefore? In every truly loving thought you have ever shared.

While you think you are a thinker - you cannot but be confused and are loving your own capcity to think-create privately - that is called specialness. This 'son' does not receive and return our love. But the Sonship of God that is the Light and Love of your very being, extends as it is extended and the extension is living recognition just as you are.

The completion of God is the recognition of the Father in the Son. The radiance in the ray.

In which God knows Him/Her Self through the Movement of Idea we call Creation.

This Fatherhood is shared without exception or limit.

All of this is probably meaningless of misleading to a mind that still recognises only its own specialness in stead of the Allness of God. But Holy Instants recognised and valued begin to give a perspective that cant be put into old wine bottles - and when what Is - is allowed to abide as it Is - the Course takes on a new meaning that could not be seen from an attempt to understand from a conceptual frame of reference.

Creation isn't really created in the sense of the Potter metaphor - but in the sense of revealing the Eternal to the Eternal. This cannot exclude You.

Consciousness is a complex of focussed attention that arises from within a play within Creation. And Consciousness can create along the lines of its own thought and experience. In this is a mind in a feedback to its own thought and in total freedom to follow its own thought. If it follows judgement; thought that is based on a thought of opposition or difference - then it can seem to create conflicted experience that reflect and validate a sense of conflicted or split mind. These are called miscreations because they actually occupy the mind with nothing - as if it were something. Of course the mind cannot really be totally engaged and only a part of attention is thus engrossed and identified. To move to the other end or your attention would be to open to the Perspective in which your loving thoughts become unobscured to you instead of hidden by and within confusion.

Your loving thoughts honour You even as You are loving Thought in the Mind of God.

It should be obvious here that I am not referring to our personality or historical sense of self. The eternal cuts through our dreamlife - in the now of awareness - before the interpretive mechanism has grabbed attention.

The restoration of sanity realigns the interpretive faculty such that it serves a purpose of sanity - whereas in miscreation the purpose put sanity on hold whilst following a thought.

The thought that caused Adam to fall into a deep sleep is that of becoming a creator in his own right. Jesus is Adam waking. The Christ is that which never slept - even throughout the appearances of sleep.

So our creations as the Course calls them are not the symbols of life that we made and coveted and wove together in various hierarchies of order and forced relation. And they are certainly not the magic of 'creative' accounting where innumerable complexities can present a set of accounts that seems to mean something but is actually a pack of lies for the intent of a short term private gain.

We have felt the touch of Spirit - and in that touch we have felt the divinity of our Brother or Sister - or world - AND within, yet transcendent of that exact recognition is the apprehension of the Father. Who knows the Son knows the Father.

This is Wholly Living. There is no other or division. There can be nothing said. We ‘shut up’ in awe filled silence to Glory within Glory.

God Speaks All Things and All Things Speak God as well as Recognising and Praising God in Joy and Gratitude.

This is "God is in His Holy Place and All Is Well' - yet for that to be restored to our awareness we have to release our wilfulness and embrace true willingness. Holy instants are but instants because the mind immediately reasserts command and control - and we listen to its voice. But by consistency of willingness the willingness to listen to that voice diminishes and we start to see the mechanism in act.

I don't wish to suggest that there is anything here for any of us to do unjoined.

Only to wake, shift and live from the shared mind. It doesn't need to be any different than your daily life - except You need to become present in it - through it - as it.

I say need to - not because you are forced - but because it is your desire to be restored to wholeness and peace - and in that context there is need to put the gun down and become harmlessly defenceless to the Awareness that is You.

Living out from Mind would add nothing added and have nothing taken away from the Movement known in stillness. “Thy Will be done”.

Living out from presumption of a partitioned mind in a body in a world of bodies - each a person and with personalities that are essentially masks of split minded manipulation and defence, that squelches, covers and distorts the essence of you, the feeling of you , the fragrance of you, the loveliness of you, the perfection of you.

None of the above qualities are special but are true of all for they can only Be shared. And to allow and discover in one is begin to allow to extend to all. You do not have to know how your current perception can be healed and transcended, but you do have to be willing to be healed - and then be congruent to your willingness.

A fundamental trust in yourself is the fruit of your willingness.

You truly are worth it.

With you in love's awakening

Brian

Go in peace and fear not

2010-04-16T10:19:00.000Z

Recently I heard Raj say that what we need is not courage but peace.
For peace is the absence of anxiety.
So in willingness and acceptance of peace I can take this step.
Though the mind seems to see other steps before and other steps to come, I am only actually living this step. And though I walk through the shadow of the valley of death I will fear no evil - for the Lord is with me.
Instead of being a magical wish, willingness lets this psalm be established fact.

One of the most 'shouted' and clear guidances I have had is - "Dont think!"
Coming from the heart of hearts it was no kind of imposition upon me - but a clear direction to trust.
Its a bit like a situation high up where looking down makes you start to fall - because it is the movement of the desire to fall that then activates the whole shebang of defence.
So just don't 'go there'.

Go in peace and you will know what to say and when or whether to say it - take no thought for yourself and all will be well.

To do so may sometimes induce an extreme purification - but dwell not on the externals. Attend the Living!

The guiltlessness we need is from the appreciation of our brother and sister WITHOUT our overlay of role and definition.

Any guilt seen in another is the dissonance remaining unrecognized in your own heart and mind - to which the world can now help you recognise truly as serving your call to wake.

To love your 'enemy' is to discover he is your enemy no more.
There is no holier spot on earth than where an ancient hatred becomes a present love.

The desire to remember God | Peace | Presence of Life

2010-04-14T18:53:00.000Z

When you do notice or become aware of a greater perspective - such as when you realize you had forgotten to be present with God for a period of the day. Stop - Rejoice!

The light is come - or you would not know you had been asleep.

Your welcome for the light is hardly great if you use the occasion to scold or measure yourself.

To not be taken away be the ego is not a superhuman task - but an expression of calm trust.

Humanly contrived miracles may run on time but the train never leaves the station.

Is it not the simple desire of your heart to live truly?

I am sure it is - and in that desire is your call and answer.

The attempt to do too much is a way of justifying our day - our existence - our spiritual validity.

Yet you need do nothing for God to be all that God is - right where you are.

It is a matter of attention - which follows value - which expresses desire.

Now you may well discover, that actually you are more active than you thought in valuing that which covers over, distracts or takes you away from being in the presence of love. This is good news - Rejoice!

Why? Because now you have become more conscious and more honest about what you use your mind for.

It hardly helps when - upon such a discovery, the scripts of self guilt and self judgement are replayed.

To be consiously with yourself without moral controls firing off with the carrot and stick of fear or favour is to violate the garden fence boundary that you can cross BECAUSE you are willing ti exercise trust, cooperation, listening and willingness to be guided.

Now you may not believe you are trustworthy - because you have seen things about your mind that are mean at best and tricks with it.

But your desire is your welcome for One who knows you better than you do - and who also knows how to guide you.

The mind tries to whip the heart into line - using any and every tactic. Yet the heart gives freely all that you desire - but - it gives it to you to share - and not to your mind that would keep for itself.

With desire for God in your heart - what is there but God?

You have to get dressed quick to catch the train. Practice doing this in your peace - without calling on anxiety to spur you. God is moving to catch the train.

You have to take an optimum course through various obstacles. let go of trying to work out the path and let God align all things - and be fully present in every step.

God is dancing through the seeming Obstacles(also God).

You got caught up in difficulty and reaction and are out of sorts - and still have to deal with difficult demands. Surrender now! Forgive yourself unconditionally (This means everyone) and bring willingness to stop in an instant - even if the instant is short. - And deeply and fully remember your desire for truth.

It doesn't matter if it all seems grossly messy and you don't feel at all like you handled it at all well - what matters is that you remembered to stop, drop and listen - and then brought trust into play.

The surface mind is loud and seems to run the show - it certainly seems curiously able to get and keep your attention!

But you are moving by your desire to calm and to trust and notice deeper - from a more spacious and less reactive place.

Now it might happen that you have a miraculous day out of a potentially disastrous day - and didn't think of God once.

How so?

Because the thought of God is not just the words and concepts and symbols - but the rootedness of your attention to the real.

Now within this 'world' others may argue about using the term real - but the Spirit knows what is helpful for the needs of all - in terms of awakening and because you have given willingness, God's Agency can answer through you - when ye thinketh not. What is 'answer through you?' - but an expression of Life, love, shared integrity, harmony and peace. In other words the way life naturally works when we are not willfully active in working against it.

To shift from the "External God Power" concept to the all embracing unbounded Source and true Condition of being is a step by step willingness. When God takes the last step there is not a differentiation of God and self excepting as Jesus states it.

We most of us have great fear of God - and of love. Even if we set course we find ourselves thrown back again and again. Such resistance is not a sin - but arises from an ignorance that needs to be dispelled. This is why allowing conscious awareness of the desire that seems to want distraction or delay or to dally in pleasure or whatever doesn't abide and share in the presence of life - allows the Spirit to reveal to your willingness to notice.

Our obstacles are not just things to overcome - they can also be the misread guidances that we need to stop and take in so as to have an upside down map corrected.

Maybe something useful arises in you when you read this. Useful in the sense of a sudden shift of attention from a sense of dilemna to a current relationship.

I like the word current as it means now and also means flow.

I said once that the secret to making love - is

to already be making love.

In other words, the form of it isn't defined by a beginning and an end or by specific forms at all.

Making love is the ongoing dance and flow of relationship.

If you 'go off' on a thought (or ten thousand), then as soon as you feel the dissonance - use it to waken.

If you do not go off in thought - but share the light of life and love in your tasks, your play or walking together - then don't interrupt the flow with spiritual thoughts - but just check in with your heart's light if any question should arise. Dissonance is undisguisable in love and light.

We have our love relationship with God - Spirit - we share that with our lover, our partner, our family, our community, our workplace our trees and sky and birds and world at large.
It is one love but the forms of the dance differ. The more unified and whole we let ourselves be the more consistent and congruent our life becomes.

For the love of God why would I bitch about X? (I'm bitching about X - dissonance alert - Let truth be revealed to me here that God's sanity and peace can be a basis for whatever is next).

There - that's also a tool - dissonance alert. If it isn't going off you are either too awake for any trouble to attract you - or are so well managed in your sleeping habit that every thing can be taken for grantedly dealt with as if it was just the way the world is and you just manage it successfully.

If you really want to be with God it must follow that you really do not want to be with egocentricity.

What we really do not want - is dissonant to our heart.

On this basis alone - all of the world we know should be called in question.

A world of difference

2010-04-14T12:15:00.000Z

The term 'the world' can be used as a symbol for the false division of the projection of thought. As if there is a thinker - separate from the thought. A fantasy played out on top of truth - truly played out as act of attention but never true. Making symbols of life and light in place of the Living One. Yes - an act of attention to a thought as a basis of experiencing an inference of self as a special object.

The world can be a generic term for the field and objects of awareness - that are not separate from awareness.

Whatever is said, done or believed - or if nothing is said, done or believed, there is the awareness of - something. And this is not parceled out as such concepts suggest - but is a movement of unified being. Not moving in space or in time - but the movement of mind by which it knows itself - before - and beyond time and space.

'Knowing Thyself' - is never a thing apart from all that is - there is no exclusion and nothing withheld.

This is meaningless to a mind that still hides in the dark as if - there is a need to hide - and as if darkness could hide it.

Yet it is the simple Meaning of Everything because it is the Knowing itself - the loving itself - or one could say the selflessness of pure awareness in all things.

Whatever attempts are made to describe - can only serve as springboards or stepping stones for the heart that discerns life energetically and trusts into letting the Movement be all that is. All that lives.

Jesus lived the Kingdom whilst talking of it as nigh. This was because others could not yet apprehend directly.
Yet his apprehension of God is shared with us because he did not withhold it.

While we interpret all things in worldly terms we do not apprehend directly - but there is a step by step process of loosening and sorting that allows the mind to welcome and receive the light, and draws it to the recognition that the Light is our very being. More loosening and sorting! But now it is the Light that is directly working and not the filter of the middleman self who proclaims the light and loves the light but demands it be outside.

Judgement is not ours - give it to God and we receive his love. Hang onto it and it will shatter and fragment the oneness of love into meaningless parts.

My meaningless thoughts are showing me a meaningless world.

The thought of God is the Meaning that blesses and recognizes the world in truth, love and beauty.
Jesus's love of those who seemed to hate - did not see hate - nor even an other, lost and needing help.
Jesus's love is God love - no middleman - transparent Agency of Divine. In Whom All know themselves truly and are blest.

What of the mind that seems to be oblivious and trapped in its own hate?
Take no thought for your self, but let God show you - instead of trying to manage or deal with it independently.

The Universal Current and Law is unifying.
But acts not from the perspective of disunity.
It calls for a shift into inclusion.
As we forgive - so are we forgiven.
As we release so are we released.
As we give recognition and honour - so is God rising as our very light.

The world of form is a schoolroom for mind.
It may seem like minds - each in form - but this cannot be other than wishful thinking.
What then is the lesson here?
To re member, even amidst the appearance of dismemberment - and live the life as truly Given and received.
Is this a movement toward perfection? No - it is a movement of Perfection.

Is there really anything else going on that isn't the result of thinking alone?
In willingness to Join - are questions that seemed meaningful not rendered irrelevant?

But if we choose to think some more, we have no penalty apart from the forsaking of our joy for the result of a forced preference against it. And the liability to a condition in which guilt and fear thrive out of a sense of dissonance forcefully denied.
Surely one day we will laugh that such a thought could be taken seriously.

Perhaps today.
But let us not demonstrate how it was that the world can suddenly become dark, fearful and binding - just by thinking along these lines ....

In Peace

Brian

Not a worldly approach

2010-04-13T22:41:00.000Z

A worldly approach starts out from the presumption that the world is reality and is cause - and each would seek maximum benefit for the role that is played out within such a world.

Creation and miscreation both, are thought. One is the reflection and extension of eternal truth, the other arises from a thought of otherness - and the play of polarity founded on accepting or seeking validity for otherness.

Desire is fundamental. The awakening of true desire is the revealing of the always true, to the mind that releases its involvement with the falsely identified - or thought based - desire.

You could say that your mind is in training as co-creator. It thought it could live outside the heart - and desired to follow that thought.

It still sleeps in such a thought, but the desire that maintains illusion is wearing thin, and the dissonance of conflicted thought and identity that was rendered unconscious by disguise is less and less concealed. Yet also is the call of the heart felt.

The call of the heart is not the call to the world - yet to attend the call of the heart will allow your own truth - and joy - to extend to the Mind we share - which is underneath the mask of the world.

Having 'made' a mind of specialness, now let it be given a special function by a Purpose wholly shared in willingness.

That a healed perception may replace the double vision of conflicted will.
‘Your life’ given to it’s source - is restored and revealed as extension of Love’s presence.
In whose vision, the light in your brother and sister is the Father's Light.

In Peace

Brian

Awakening to the true nature of the Matrix

2010-04-12T11:32:00.000Z

In the film the Matrix, Neo is shot and killed - yet suddenly ‘sees’ the true nature of the so called reality in which usury, control, war and death operate as real - and he then expresses both an invulnerability and dominion - from that realisation. Without getting involved in the film - I responded to someone who saw this as a metaphor for Awakening, and who saw many parallels with A Course in Miracles and NTI teachings.

If all we really see are thoughts in our mind that give rise to experiencing thought as an externality that then comes to define us as subject to it - and not as mind aware of and one with its thought.

To explore and discover the nature or merit of such a proposition or enquiry is a matter of free attention and the desire or movement of the heart.

The thing to become aware of is the presumption that is accepted as your starting place.
We humanly identify with self of mind in body – in a world of bodies – and believe the thought that seems to demonstrate that this is fact.

Yet beneath this is desire that sets it up and maintains it.

You can ‘stick your awareness’ out of the flow of habitual intent for a moment and have a different perspective on everything – but if the force that is behind this motive is still self generated, then it is not supported in the Movement of desire – and still constitutes an attempt to fight limitation rather than transcend it.

So my sense is that the truth – and the love of truth – must be welcomed and nurtured to grow in that which, before, I guarded and wielded as - ‘my life’.

The purpose and nature of truth has never been to validate my specialness – nor even to support and maintain my demand to identify with judgement as the determiner of reality.
It has always been the purpose and nature of truth to be self-revealing – to itself – in love – as love. But our notion of love is so distorted and reversed that it may be more helpful to simply let truth be self revealing – and let that discovery be the intimate and direct experience of all that is – in truth.

The freedom to shift attention and location or act from beyond the accepted limits and laws of matterial reality, cannot be the activity of a body – or a mind that believes it is a body - or the mind that believes itself separated from Mind - in contrast and opposition to others.
This is because the locking in of the mind in a fragment of itself – in demand that that this be its special home and protection – and weapon – is the forfeit of the conscious participation in Truth - until its purpose is changed.

My sense is that the way to be restored to our true participation in a Greater Life than the world knows – is the free relinquishment of self will or specialness.
This is generally humiliating experience of disempowerment in terms of the world – yet not a self selected act for that is just another self based ploy to exercise judgement.

So in being ‘simply human’ and embracing the felt ordinary humanity of my day – I am inevitably brought to moments of noticing – that arise from truth and not from self-effort. The choice I then have is one of NOT recycling or repeating the ‘old habit’ of self illusion. In THAT willingness truth is made welcome and I feel such relationship alive as joy – as inspiration – and so forth.

The capacity of the mind to try to jump ahead of its Master (The Awakened Heart), is easily observable. Wisdom is also a willingness to be a beginner – so that the first step is always the kneeling in the heart. Then the next step is guided – and even if what is guided seems to be difficult or impossible – you are with One who is holding your hand and maintaining your steadiness of intent – despite the old habits of thought.

I am now reminded to say that – to actually practice in such cooperative loving – we have to release the wonderful understandings we had gained and cherish as if they themselves can feed us – and turn in trust to the source of all insight and guidance in willingness and trust.

This ‘awakening process’ is not a loss of self, but until truth grows as the light of true awareness, the thought based substitute inevitably enacts its drama of self upon and around every instance of awakening. But awakening is merely attention to truth.

Let truth directly replace the assertions of thought that I had wanted to believe instead – because I would be at one and not at war.
And because I would let love Be with me , on terms I do not set – for I will not to be alone.

And yes – to see and be from MIND constitutes awakened being. Whereas to act out from a presumption of being ‘a mind’, is to be filtered and distorted by separated specialness. I associate the release of mind into Mind as ‘holding hands’ in trust and so moving through great fear.
And I am seeing now how great the cost – is the grasping to ourselves of this ‘special love’ - by which truth is rendered impotent and void.

Yet all that is truly lovely is in and of truth and nothing I could truly want could come to me from a presumption of specialness.

It isn't that I must fight the temptation that sees everything in terms of a deceptive ‘self interest’. But that I must become a willingness to stop the mind, listen in trust and move with the Movement that is felt in the heart. (Or I will re-enact the fall/separation/crucifiction and experience it as real).

I’m quite happy to also explore such stories as the Matrix – but how can you represent the Wholeness in terms of a part – without making the part ‘special’?
All attempts to communicate the transpersonal in terms of a world of persons will have both strengths and liabilities. If the liabilities are not indulged - the teachings serve the heart’s awakening. This is because the guidance of the heart is being followed in undoing the liabilities of separated self-will.

The perspective of wholeness has dominion because its parts have not actually any separated power in their own right, and because there is no opposition to any aspect of what is recognised as ‘within’. True Dominion is not at all one of subduing a weaker or indeed dark power. It is Expression of Creator at one with – and completed by Creation.

To bring this Idea more humanly accessible – consider being a chairman or facilitation in a meeting whose members express apparently conflicting goals and intents. Your function is not to take sides – but to serve the whole – as a unified expression of intent and not merely some mechanical vote system. So you put your own thought aside and listen and feel and serve the process of real communication in which no voice is deprived from speaking and no voice is deprived from being heard. Because of the way in which you have served, the group’s willingness to communicate will discover the next step in which it can all freely agree to walk together. The Heart has dominion.

So consider the true cause of the seeming inability of the heart to communicate. It is not really the fear of hurt and rejection – but is the direct symptom of the desire to maintain a private will – with some story that ‘justifies’ the denial of the heart. (a cock crows thrice?)
What is an unshared love but a current neglect?

in Love's blessing
Brian

A waking into Awakening

2010-04-08T14:34:00.000Z

I woke today with a pervasive sense of yeuch! - a sense of something wrong - something unaligned - discordant. I didn't trust the thoughts and sense of self that associated with it as a basis to act from, so I rested from acting and abided as willingness for discovery or revelation of 'Life' before thought; for an appreciation and recognition that gracefully is found whenever I rest the mind.

My partner and lover in life and in Spirit loves - and the loving is an undefendedness - a receptivity that embraces in freedom. Such a love reflected the place that my own sense of yeuch had 'covered over' and allowed the light to rise that doesn't really come or go - but which my habits of thought and desire obscure from time to time. What is the nature of the light? Let it speak its own to its own - but in this little box I will type 'conscious gratitude'. How deep is gratitude? - why it has no bottom.

I cannot speak of the heart of God but that the head trips into itself. But in gratitude I can write as the flow discovers - and trust that between the lines is the space that vibrates Alive.

I am glad for your company - grateful for your company. All of the teachings are nonsense - but in the love that keeps nothing for itself all is aligned to unified purpose - that truth knows Itself.

In such a light, is nowhere a thought of I - or other - identified In exclusion or guilt. Yes the thinking mind seems to 'try' to get back in - but that is residual desire for experience on terms of me being special; to possess or create my experience. So as I notice the discord, or the desire to be special or the symptoms of conflictedness - I stop to discover the original awareness in unconflicted inclusive experience that is being all that is - right where I thought I was as I thought I was.

Do I want to let truth be All That Is - as it is? Well in truth - yes, this is the desire of the heart - and the only peace to be truly shared. The voice of thinking suggests all sorts of variations upon a theme that in one way of another get me to think some more - if I listen and validate them. This would be ok except the habit runs deep in me to identify with discord as self or other guilt, rather than as an alarm that reminds me unreality is in play.

The grace of noticing is a 'rising' of truth from beneath the attention that expresses a sense of I.

I love you. Even in the realms of I and you. Such is the confession that rises and overflows in the expression of truth.

If I still have to think - then let thought serve the heart.
If I still have to think apart - let the noticing serve the heart.

The welcome we give ourselves undoes the rejection we believed active and effective in our experience. The aligned self, expressing unified being, extends welcome to its own.

Thankyou for your welcome.

In Love's blessing
Brian

When teachings talk of the illusion of the world

2010-04-01T10:25:00.000Z

I feel the teaching awakens or re-minds an awareness in stillness such that, instead of running with the notions of self and world that habitually arise from the past, attention is rested in a greater flow of being – that is already the case but was forgot while it was ‘self engaged’.
It is the ‘self seriousness’ arising from engagement with self image and the mind of judgement that upholds it, that costs us the appreciation and sharing of Life.

To ‘put down’ our role and accept that we are the maker of the script is to confess and relinquish specialness. I say confess, because we know it is a mean spirited an unloving thought that uses others and all things selfishly - and we associate it with guilt – without realising that guilt is simply the continuation of specialness; a condition of self illusion.

If you haven't seen a fake 16 dollar bill, then that is because there is not a real 16 dollar bill to make a copy of. A fake dollar bill is an illusion of ‘something’ real.
To be awake and appreciative of the original is an appreciation and recognition of the real. It is when we try to grasp or stop life, analyse it and define it so as to be able to say something ‘about reality’ - that we invariable enter the arena of the mind and vocabulary of separation.

Because the awareness and the object of awareness are not actually two. Nor is the object of awareness outside you. This is hardly obvious while the role given by the script is identified with as ‘me’. And it is hardly obvious that a script is running while I believe I can look outside and see enemy, threat, and unworthiness of love. Yet opposition is the purpose that gives a sense of a self in limitation, drama and struggle. When it is no longer wanted, it is no longer cultivated.

The Teacher of peace offers the ‘Living World’ to the learner of peace. Peace itself is not learned, but the conditions of war have been, and must be left unused. This is like learning you but hurt yourself – and now learning not to do that – in order to awaken truly beyond hurt or hurting.

In Peace

Brian

What you have given specialness has left you bankrupt, and your treasure-house barren and empty, with an open door inviting everything that would disturb your peace to enter and destroy. ~ A Course in Miracles T24

In dreams effect and cause are interchanged, for here the maker of the dream believes that what he made is happening TO him. He does NOT realize he picked a thread from here, a scrap from there, and wove a picture
out of nothing. For the parts do NOT belong together, and the whole contributes nothing to the parts to GIVE them meaning. ~ A Course in Miracles T24

Holiness Shouting

2010-03-24T11:39:00.000Z

I shout my holiness by appreciating yours.
I appreciate yours by being safe, rested in and welcoming of, the recognition of your presence.
I am blessed to be in your company because you are.
The truth that you are is Always and Already perfect.
Your truth shines with the light of my own.
There is no life outside Heaven.

The mind can make up stories from a sense of giving out roles based on definitions, that take forms based on judgements - and give them my own meanings - to which I then become identified with and defensive of - over and against very Life.
If the mind does this - and I follow it - then while I engage it, I become ignorant of You, of Light and of Love. A world external arises as a projected mind-screen where the allegiance of being, is given to stories played out in masquerade.

The mind-in-form has momentum, but it is not the originator of desire. It is not the movement of desire - but is rather the mechanical playing out of old desire. Desire moves toward fulfilment. Yet fantasy of self will is only the fulfilment of the desire to engage fantasy and cannot actually fulfill you. Your function is to be the fulfilment of love; the recognition and appreciation of all that You Are - in all that you are.

Yet while the story of your self as identified in form attracts and engages your attention and identification, you are depriving yourself of the peace and light and holiness that is the Nature of Being - and deprivation is not your desire.

While judgement seems to cut the Creation of God into a million pieces and set them at war, the truth of you shines radiant but unrecognized. Yet as your willingness for war is let go, the signs and wonders begin to find your attention - and lead your attention to rest in life as is.

As is - is Life.
As you say it is - is your story and script.

What you have made up has your love - but is not the loving.
Let it be brought to love so that it ceases to work for guilt, but instead is used for Life's remembering.

The mind that can conceive of guilt cannot know holiness - for that mind is ignorance embodied.
Yet by that which is brought to love, light or truth is released of its urge to possess in secret.
And opens the acceptance of the mind that was also in Christ Jesus.
That, before Abraham was, Is.
Your God is not outside you, but in story are you experiencing all that God Is - as if you are outside God.

The prodigal son is not only to be understood as a leaving that becomes a returning - but to awaken to that of the mind that is always attempting to possess in secret - or judge - and thus orphan itself of its own living.

For the mind that seeks to create itself, seeks a substitute for love - and thinks it is about to find it in every glimpse of truth that it can steal from you. Its house is as a den of thieves -but the House of your Holiness recognises that all things eternally abide in and are expression of truth - and that you have done nothing.

This is simply true - but the desire to dally in the wish to make the truth - is no idle thought.
It is time to put such fancies away - for the capacity to engage them is not supported by the movement of your desire.
And to war against your true desire is the way of pain, of guilt, of utter isolation and futility.

Look then to what you are doing with your attention - and if it is in the way of peace - give thanks and be renewed.
If it is forgetful of peace, pause. Find your willingness and live from there.
If there is fear and resistance. Rest of your thoughts and listen for the guidance that knows your heart's need.
It will come as you forget to guard too heavily against it.
It cannot come while you take sole control.
But is always and already here as Soul guidance.
By your willingness to listen, to learn and to do, you teach yourself by demonstration that love is freely accepted and shared.
For while you believe it in any way separate from you, it will seem to call for sacrifice; you will interpret against your own Life.
Ask not for how a miracle can be so - but ask that you become willing to be moved beyond your own self-definitions

I wrote this in willingness and trust

Brian

Music of Life

2010-03-20T11:16:00.000Z

When I first started picking up and playing with a guitar it was not with an expectation to learn to play the guitar - but with a curiosity and desire to let feeling communicate through strumming and picking the strings - and later, through singing as well.

What’s the feeling? The feeling that moves currently - alive in me now - that might become a song or express an atmospheric. I found that expressing feeling, communicates back its source such that the feeling deepens, purifies and changes. It is a kind of alchemy in consciousness.

I realized at some point that my ‘playing’ was in fact praying - in life - but not in religion. I found a way that I could put aside distraction and connect and open to an immediacy and an intimacy that at the time I associated with the ‘inner me’. There was never an overt verbal petition - but a simple desire to be connected - at the heart.

This feeling dimension is so important to me in life that I have largely avoided much of the technical training and maps and models for life, music - or in fact anything. It isn't that I need to negate them - but that they always tend to put the focus on the world or form, and put the soul or spirit second or indeed out of the picture. Soul is heart connecteness - or feeling into Life. Emotions are limits and coverings over true feeling - and are associated with stories that the mind spins about itself.

Negative emotions are the stuff of guilt, hurt, pain, anger and hate. They are potent in that they carry charge - but are not usually safe or appropriate to express in the form that they are triggered. Introspection and enquiry can uncover the thoughts and beliefs by which we ‘set our self up’ to inevitably fail, be disappointed or hurt - but this is very difficult when we are also using our thoughts as our guide. For we believe them instead of seeing them as beliefs.

Music offered itself as a vehicle for growing an identity in feeling, that bypassed the thinking mind. To simply and directly ‘rejoin the music’ that underlies and is embodied in my feeling being restores a sense of communion, connect-ness, inspiration and meaning.

For ‘the music’ embodies the dimension of our participation in a shared expression of life, that the problematic, control based, thinking mind blocks by its very nature.

The problematic mind seems to be justified from a sense of having had some experience of disturbance or difficulty imposed upon it. But whatever the problem is about, it has common elements with all problems - and these include exclusion, isolation and threat or danger of adverse outcomes.

To ‘rejoin the music’ is to short circuit the process of time in which eventually, you will release the justifications for self exclusion, or the need to hold the past against another and deny a shared present, or the defensive and anxious stance by which everything is perceived fearfully and not clearly embraced or engaged at all. And you will let life flow again in your heart, as a living presence of Soul appreciation. My point is - why get stuck and suffer all the drama of self involvement in conflict - when you can simply rejoin the music - from where you are at now.

We tend to emotionally resistant to letting joy flow when we are upset. However, even ‘frozen and stuck’ are energetics that can speak - enough to be a carrier for a willingness to be ‘picked up’ by inspiration - life’s music. It is not that there is a required form - but that life is flow - and the experience of blocked life is depressing to our spirit. To find any flow is to find your willingness for life.

What is tending to block life and assert itself with force is a mental attitude of judgement, an unquestioned assumption of guilt and sense of safety in limitation. No matter how intense or complex this may seem, it is truly a passing affliction of ignorance and not expressing our right mind at all.

In music I have a way of not replaying the tapes of that mind, and allowing or opening to a fresh experience of now - that comes to me freely like a gift - because I released the assertiveness of a self willed mentality enough to let life through.

But I realize that love of truth is underneath and within all of what I attempt to write about.

To try to use music too consciously as a therapy would be to lose its soul - for music is a language of the heart - and heart is also the guide to its own ways. It is true that we can force life to dance to our own tune. For a while. But such a curiosity indulged is exactly what sets the scene for a mind of control to take hold of our life and cause us not only to forget to play - and to play - but to become fearful, conflicted and uncertain and distrustful.

Oneness with oneself is a natural thing - so natural that it has no conceptual language, except in symbols that point to things unspeakably true.

Singing, making music and dancing have tended to become things in their own right. As entertainments, products, ritualized forms to mix and match in presenting our ‘identity’ to ourself and others. Yet the truth is that the Soul is the dimension of being in which we feel - beneath all the vanities and superficialities of self image.

To gain the Soul is to willingly lose such a world - not as a sacrifice - but as a restoration to sanity, wholeness and a certainty or singularity of feeling that is free of the definitions of concept.

The Life is First - without a second

2010-03-15T12:40:00.000Z

This consideration arose from reading a discussion about the chicken and egg - not just as philosophical conundrum, but in terms of considering the perceptions and experiences of life as a process of becoming in terms of an apprehension of Life as the IS.

The dream is a matter of taking thoughts about the Life as real and letting them give rise to a sense of self that experiences them.
This is the Thoughtlessness of a self in image. For it must needs ignore direct reality to play out the drama of self.

Reality is Living Idea - but not an idea removed from something else or about something else.
And the Idea or Thought is infinite, unbounded and timeless.

The mind that wants its own thought - and uses its thought to determine reality - derives questions based on its acceptance of false premises, that assert the division and limitation of Eternal Being. They thus seek to trade definitions as acceptable currency - which is how the separation experience is upheld. For thoughts about reality that are not accepted currency are no longer valid - and a direct apprehension of reality rises to awareness where the distraction fails.

In taking no thought for (any) self, the Thought of God; The Life, is beheld - as it is.
It is not beheld from a mind separate from its object of attention - for such a self-based intent is not asserted or validated.

Thoughts about the Life can also serve to allow distractive thought to cease, allowing knowing to be revealed.
Knowing is never attained, and remains always and absolutely beyond editing, owning or any process of the thinking-mind.
It may seem that there is a you that knows - but that is the afterwork of the ego overlay; using truth to feed and maintain illusion. The mind that seems to get truth for itself is the mind that robs you of appreciating truth now. While the loot has lustre, the dragon sleeps in its cave in its dreams of glory upon an unshared treasure.

The willingness to know calls awakening's purpose into play - because it now learns to seek and recognise The Life as it is - and begins to release the thought that would make it as it is not. To such a willingness the dream becomes the sign of awakening, the voice of awakening and the reflection of awakening.

This seems to take time simply because time is taken from the Timeless and treated as if it were in fact time.
In other words, the mind engaged in dream wishes to continue dreaming. Your will is done.

The mind in dream is like a bounded egg state of self-thought reflection. The process of restoring awareness at rest as natural Mind expression, is like to the story of egg. It is opened and sprouts or grows forth, reflecting in form an intimacy of relationship whose signature is divine.

The growing of the desire for life in the embryo. The development of unseen guidance where structure grows within to give pathways for life. The breaking of the shell. The guidance and support of the Mother Father. The recognition of the Environment in Original Being. The release of the possession-mind in Living Love and the giving of allness as both seed and fruit of all that is to Another as Thyself. The nurturing and protecting of the children of love as the extension of love's giving. The recognition of the local in the universal. The discarding of the sense of local or self will in Intimacy beyond difference.

But the liability with mapping anything of The Life - is that map substitutes for The Life.

So I prefer not to map - but in the moment of such living teaching - be brought to The Life - and then be free of the sign or thought or teaching that opened the moment to Living.

In Peace

Brian

Imprisoned Will

2010-03-13T00:32:00.000Z

Imprisoned will is a sense of being denied; a sense of existence within a context of opposition – in which the will tends to harden in self protection and acts callously in self interest. It makes its own version of love that serves to work ‘inside the imprisoned sense of life’ – but this love demands the conditions of self-will to be sacrosanct – or it turns instantly to betrayal and hate.

A sense of limitation can become an accepted set of parameters in which such a sense of a separate life is played out in whatever seeming scenario that involves, and this can vary over more or less dense or confining circumstance, as long as it allows the sense of a freedom to assert and indulge a personal will; to assert judgement.

The self imprisoned mind works to maintain its fantasies so as to minimise its awareness of the discomfort of limitation – and wants to believe it is in fact an independent will expressing a wish for freedom. Yet what this mentality creates as its own experience of reality is simply the active denial of shared will – and shared being - in preference to creating in its own image. Such is the nature of sin. But until there is awakening, here also is the nature of ignorance.

For we do not know the truth of our own being, while we enact a script that arises from the desire to judge - in which we play out the roles of judge and judged; winner and loser; killer and killed. We lose recognition of reality’s love, light and guidance, in the preference to ‘see’ only what we can get from any perceived situation or relationship. A strategic intent to define life in terms of what we can make of it.

Life then takes on the meaning we choose to give it. We maintain such a will, against the flow of the nature of being, and we suffer the loss of an awareness and appreciation of Soul - of life abundant. We starve ourselves of the joy and peace that is our original nature, and become ever more rigidly identified in a fixity of thought and form until we ‘die’.

For we experience, as if we have stolen our life by imposing our own will, and lose the intimate innocence and eternal creativity of being. The consequence is not somewhere down the line as punishment – but instantly - as the perspective of preferring a partial experience of an aspect of life - rather than be in, and of, and as; flowing wholeness. Seperated experience is got from an imaginitive overlay, set in a largely unconscious opposition to the current movement in the heart.

A change of mind is a simple re-evaluation arising from a fresh perspective, yet to the mind that calls on, uses and accepts guilt, there can be no fresh perspective. It believes it is condemned by the power of judgement - such is its god. And it sees separated entities and things in hollow or lightless aspect and forces relationships upon life that have no felt relatingness. For such a mind there can only be the exploitation and management of a separated or fallen world in which all seems to compete for a fragile and fleeting existence. For that is its experience of self.

Opening to a simple willingness to receive - without precondition - as an expression of trust – for even a moment – can allow a reconnection at the heart that restores the heart's perspective to perception in glimpses of awakening that can be felt as salvatory and miraculous. For such is the experience of love to the mind that wakens from lovelessness.

From valuing and growing in such a shared love, grows a willingness and capacity to look at the mechanism in mind - as it operates – so that the conditions of freedom and imprisonment become clearly shown. So much of what we believed freedom was in fact the means to keep our mind in darkness. So much of what we believed was failure, limitation or conflict becomes the means by which we are restored to true freedom - the freedom to be all that we are – and to accept and express shared will – the present and spontaneous movement of the heart in trust.

To recognise that we but imprison ourselves is a similar step to an addict acknowledging addiction.
From such acceptance can all else be restored - such as our desire discovers, in alignment with the awakened shift that released us from fantasy and moved in us as both the call for love – and its answer.

The result of imprisonment believed, expresses as loss, bitterness and a self diminishment – from which one then acts out in reaction. Yet to use the opportunity of any kind of experience of imprisonment to learn of the true nature of freedom, restores peace, humour and compassion. Such are the flowing treasures of life and such cannot be taken from a mind – without collaboration from 'the inside'. Whatever the world or the other seems to do, look to your own heart’s direction.

When we have done our time, eternity welcomes its own.
But first restores our use and experience of time to serve the way of the heart.
Thus we can recognize what can be shared – and appreciate the experience of sharing – letting all else fall away of itself. There is much opportunity to learn and share of life eternal – here within the limitation to a world and self-sense of limitation. Not least of which – is that 'I do not want to indulge the experience of limitation as it costs me the appreciation of living truth'.

And that the Unlimited nature of being is not attained or won or gotten - but is the Birthright of Creation

Truly beautiful and beautifully true

2010-03-11T02:17:00.000Z

This is one of my reviews of:

The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament: A Course in Understanding and Acceptance

(Posted on http://www.bookdepository.co.uk)

There is a multitude of people trading in the talk about spirituality; about life, reality and living. This is not at that level, but it is a conversation and you are the met in this work at a level that is hard to put into words without pausing and listening first.

Jesus, when he left the Earth, said that he would call the Holy Spirit down to guide and comfort humanity. His life was devoted to listening to - and embodying - the guidance of this same Spirit. Not an otherworldy entity - but the innate capacity within you that loves and discerns truth as the universal movement of being.

There is much that we humanly did not understand then - or now - because we interpret all things through a lens darkly; via the filters and distortions of a mind that is predicated upon guilt and fear. But in choosing to let the true discernment of the heart interpret our experience, we awaken to truth as it is - and not as our thought and definitions and beliefs dictate.

So unlike books about Jesus that sell ideas or opinions, this work has an authority that speaks so directly - and in such congruency - that it is as if I am reading my own heart's unspeakable truth ... spoken. It is true that I 'found' such a book in a time of my life that is receptive. I don't sense that anything of Spirit can be received otherwise.

There is a section for each of the books of the New Testament, yet there is very little of what might be called a scholarly Bible study. I would have called it New Testament Revelations - except of course that name has already been taken. I wonder if in the short term this work finds many willing to abide it - for the nature of Light is the undoing or dispelling of darkness and division. We humanly have much of our sense of our existence in just such an ignorance - and despite our suffering, we defend it as our very life. The human mind is a defence. Yet the nature of Salvation is an Awakening from the dream of the false.

Never have I read anything so gentle and honouring and uncoercive. This is not a rehash, but a restatement into terms we can appreciate at our core. Don't take my word for it but test it by your own lights. For the discernment within you now that can feel the truth is the Holy Spirit within.

I feel that our times are times of awakening - to accept and be moved from the stillness within. This is because insanity and chaos call forth a deeper Remembering. This book is truly beautiful and beautifully true. Yet it is not the book or even the truths or words therein - but the living truth of you revealed.

Be drawn into the stillness ...

2010-03-10T10:21:00.001Z

Be drawn into the stillness in which the oneness of being lives you.
Be gentle in the way of discerning.
Be instantly forgiving of the false mind.
Be without self defining

Be with Movement, in Stillness.

There is not also a 'you' that is drawn, gentle, forgiving, accepting, beholding.
Such thought is a separation wish.
The not-knowing of self, is the Knowing itself, because the 'knowing of a self' is the act by which the Knowing is obscured.

Your understanding will keep you lonely.
Be without the need to understand; and abide herein.
Of ITSELF will revelation restore to You - as You abide in Me.
As I in You.

The 'experience' of self definition draws unto itself its own.
That call rings not for You.
Who is My Love.

The thief ran off with but a copy.
Run not after him!
Or you'll believe you're robbed of Me!

How can such an Impossible be?
Do not even begin to entertain the thought!
Put diversion aside and love as I love you.

As I love you.
So are You.

Thought for the salvation of Love's Son

2010-03-09T10:10:00.000Z

If you can see the ego writ large in the world of man - then maybe you are ready to let go of it being out there - or in your head.

But rather to see it in one mind.

What we choose to validate as experience - (of what we receive as thought and perception) - and what we thus choose to share into one mind - is a responsibility that cannot be escaped. Any more than Mind can be escaped.

The attempt to escape is expressed as 'the world and self' that we presume and trade, in separated (escaped) mode.
In true vision there can be nothing we would WANT to escape.

The mind of sin and guilt, is attack. The attack of mind on itself is excruciating - and expresses as every kind of pain of suffering, loss of love, and limitation through fear.
But mind cannot attack itself without first believing itself separate and in a head in a body in a time and place. Nor could it believe this without the wish to believe itself so.

If your thinking says - "well its all a game then!" - that may be so - BUT - one still suffers within the rules that have set up the game UNTIL the game is truly released. So the thought "it's all a game", is not the realisation - but is simply playing the same game some more.

Nothing can be released unless it is first recognised as being active. Nor can an act of self-will be released by an act of self-will.

To know again the mind of sin that you would keep hidden - so as to be undone of it - requires honesty and trust.
Love of truth has no ulterior motive or agenda. It does not seek to dissociate and displace - or get rid of itself. Love of truth rejoices in being one with - and this automatically extends because - whatever is the basis of your sense of value is the foundation of all that is seen.

In the mind of sin is a false Cause accepted and it is the cause of Fatherlessness or Sourcelessness. To see anything or anyone in such a false 'light' is to overlook the Wholeness that Gives all the Meaning that is present.
All that is needful to reverse the shift into the false is to give priority to the true - in the calm recognition that truth is not made or defined or analyzed into existence - but is one with and expresses through real relationship.

Cherish real relationships in any and every moment of noticing. Awareness grows as it is acknowledged.
The mind of war is literally trying to hide and kill itself; both.
Our own part in such an un-sane thought is undone in our accepting love in place of fear; awareness in place of thinking and perception.

Whatever the script of the 'world', it is interfaced and part of our own contribution.
So if a brother demands you masked - then he will mask you - for his will is done.
But if you awaken from the masks and roles of the script - you can let love use it as it will.
"Thy Will Be done".
This is the releasing of self-will for the grace and beauty and innocence of truth.
Jesus didn't suffer for us - but witnesses to life eternal - even from amidst the 'experience of suffering' - where we even so may wake to realise Truth and not be dictated by ignorance.
Focus only on suffering enough to break the spell of hiding. Then look beyond to the Light - where new vision is offered BECAUSE you released the old.

I wrote this in trust to convey some sketch or sense of a dimension to which the world is blind - and wilfully so. Yet you who read here are not the world - but are stirred and quickened in love.

in Love's blessing
Brian

What 'should' Christianity be? - a response

2010-03-04T17:25:00.000Z

(What is the religion that Christianity"should be"? - in your opinion. I've been drawn to looking at this for several years now and am genuinely interested in others' serious viewpoints. Thanks.)
I read the above (on another forum) and felt to honour the questioner, and share what I wrote here also.

- - -
Christianity is diverse, but is generally a religion made on and about Jesus.
This is opposite to Jesus' desire to awaken and share God's love as the very basis and nature and expression of life revealed. Yet some of it gets through - because a heart that is open in willingness and trust will be guided truly. Such is relationship with the Holy Spirit - that is felt within the stillness of your being as the guidance for truth.
It does not matter what name or whether you name this guidance - it desires only to restore you to truth; to peace; to God.

Human thinking believes it needs and has control - and may even believe that God gave it this power. It seeks to fit all things to its own plan and sees and hears only what its own beliefs dictate. It does not know what it does and suffers such a false reality until Light is accepted again into a mind that had sought to hide in the dark.

The acknowledgement and acceptance of Light is the remembering that we do not create ourselves - for the light of awareness is the Gift of Being. Not given in some past - but is the very Light of your be -ing now and always.

The mind of human judgement or 'Adam asleep' is like a lens that will limit and distort all that it sees - including the messages and teachings of love. Waking up must be a process of differentiating the guidance and gift of Light and its life - from the old mind of command and control in self seeking. So as to keep one and let the other go.
The desire to control this graceful awakening leads to paths and religions that seek but never find - and their power of witness declines because that which is truly found shines beyond the machinations of human cleverness - and touches others in ways that are directly felt. For truth communicates through our willingness to love. And only they can love who have been set free from every loveless intent - if only for a glimpse, one step at a time. The mind that seeks only for itself cannot save itself from its own isolation. Though such thoughts may be in our mind - the Light reveals that they are not truth - AND that we do NOT want them. Trust must replace fear - and guidance is given you in your will to let this be done through you.

Jesus offers the way of God through man such that deception is recognized and released and Christ embraced. This does not mean fighting it. It means NOT using it. Turn instead in faith to the Father within. Trusting through the love of truth that is the call by which you seek to be restored to peace and sanity.

Christianity is in part a witness to the mind that is still in the world - trying to make the world be what we would make it be. But it is in part also a witness to the recognition of God Love - and a movement of response in our heart to that Call.

The religion that remains the way and the truth and the life is unchanging in its living principle - but ever changing in its cultural expressions. We get locked in cultural expressions and unknowingly 'crucify the living truth' so as to remain safe in our delusions. Awakening to see this is not our damnation - but is the awakening to be changed in our heart and mind.

Jesus lived and shared love, honor and worth with all kinds of people - he did not regard himself as special or superior or fundamentally different in nature from his fellow men and women. He did not try to found institutions - but living relationships in which the Love of God is shared and its fruits known. He did not seek to undermine the institutions that gave order and law - but he did hold their authority above or beyond God's Law.
Jesus' religion is open to all - even if they have never heard of Jesus - because it is the religion of communion with God. To look within - is not the call to look in the world. There is none can come between you and God, But in your desire to be restored - 'even as a servant' in your Father's House - He will 'run to meet you on the road'. That is to say you will meet and find help in all sorts of ways. It may seem to be situations, events, teachings or relationships in the world - but through them is a discernible thread. I can feel it in your honest and direct question.

Now if you are wanting to see a religion that is active in the world as a witness and catalyst for peace and justice, you will have to see a way to put down the historical and cultural specialness that you would keep for yourself. For only by example can you teach. And as you teach, so shall you learn. Jesus looked on the Light in all - so be aware that Loving Vision sees truth and blesses what it sees by giving recognition.
If you wait for everyone else to get it - you continue to see them through the lens of judgement and are deceived. This is not to have truly heard the Call.

In Peace

Brian

Response to a Christian question regarding purity of Jesus' Teaching

2010-03-03T13:31:00.000Z

Jesus' Christ Presence and Teaching have aspects in Scripture - but through the discernment of the Holy Spirit are revealed and shared in Living Relationship. This is the real church. It is a 'human thing' to seek to possess and get identification from 'teachings' and institutionalize them such that the 'church' or movement becomes involved in its own survival. "If it is good for the (my) Church - it must be good for God's Plan etc".
In this the ego or self centric mentality can be observed as the same that the revelation of love's purpose delivers us from.

There are both tares and wheat in the world. It is not wise to 'apply human judgement of good and ill' prematurely. (Or in fact ever - as the discernment of love's vision reveals truth and falsity according to the Nature and Purpose of God and NOT according to human definitions and evaluations and wishful thinking).
Paul taught from revelation and not from external association with Jesus or indeed initially from the Christians. He did the best he could with what he had to teach that Divine Love is NOT accorded as reward for any works or indeed sex, race or social status. he also worked within the context of his times.

There are innumerable points that can be made here but one I would like to make is that the deceiver is yet in our mind if we see a world that witnesses to anything other than God the Father and God the Son. I don't say this to induce a self judgement of hopeless imperfection so much as to point that the present and whole acknowledgement of love's presence - ongoingly reveals a life and world transformed. Jesus Lived This. And so invites us likewise.

The idea that oneself or the church or the world has to be perfected before God can reclaim His Own is a deception. But then indulging in one's own private thoughts, judgements and preferences is the nature of the 'sleep of Adam' - who seeks to determine for himself what is good and what is ill.

A willingness to find truth in everything is a willingness to let 'my kingdom go' and Thy Kingdom come.
To equate truth with human thinking - even the best of our received knowledge - is to deny the Living Relationship By Which We Live.
In the Relationship, all things are added us - including the 'truths' that serve to enable us to communicate and share together.

I feel the Second Coming is through us. I do not mean us as a collection or organization of persons - but us as the accepted Shared Purpose of healing and love - directed and revealed through the power of love itself.
When we look to the world for answers - we neglect our Soul. Yet in the truth of the Souls's knowing, we see the world anew.
The Eternal does not go away while the Prodigal mind plays out its lovelessness. But until the remembrance of the Father is accepted, even love is exploited for what can be got from it. Let 'the lovelessness' stir the willingness to hear the Call.
Acceptance is the nature of Grace. And in letting God choose for me I can know I choose to accept for all. To hear the Call is to follow and share the Call. The Call is to Waken and Be Glad. The Kingdom of Heaven is not a grand far off goal - but the way of a truly Living love.

An 'out of space-time' experience

2010-02-26T23:58:00.000Z

We think we are in a body that is in space, but we are identifying with the results of a movement of attention in Mind.
To let love be the Mover is to release the identification with the idea of doership. Doership fixes the mind to the body as the 'driver' of the body that then 'acts independently'. The desires of doership are the desires to become a something in one's own right. This is always a 'densification and defeat experience' because it is untrue and impossible.

But the Movement of desire that is gifted you is inherent in your creation - as of your very being.
This desire is unseparate from its fulfilment. To accept the goal is also to accept the means - which are likewise given you.
In the world's thinking this is impossible, in God it is already accomplished. Accepting truth calls for the releasing of false limitations.

My personal sense of 'out of space-time' experience is that it is safe only in love's peace.
And that the stability and constancy of such a peace depends on our responsibility to not miscreate.
As a human I carry a fallen angel, and the memory of burned wings is written in a density of denial called the human condition.

To reclaim the greater participation of the 'levels' that seemed as if shut down by inappropriate and exploitative acts of will, is only desirable in terms of "Father, Thy Will be done through me". In such a Movement of calling and desire, it is simply necessary that I do not hide or fall back from the willingness just because something is humanly impossible. It is my part to stay with - and trust the movement that is discerned truth. The rest is Given.

I know that sometimes miracles occur that are like a preview. Temporarily one is lifted to a higher state of responsibility and discernment than was imaginable. There is scarcely the capacity to recall or hold or think about such experience because it is unseparate. But it's revelation serves to confirm and encourage the willingness to accept responsibility for blocks rather than to see them as the reality of a life that one suffers. No matter what.

The innocence of perfect trust calls on the power of love.
The body - or the world's body - does not limit unless you give it that function - and then you get what you want even though it is not true.
The experience of being in a private mind is the outcome of using the body as a defence against Mind.
While this is experienced as the world, it is invisible to you no matter what is said or shown.
Yet to shift to align with awakened Purpose uses the body as a means of communication only.

We think of communication in terms of forms, data, words, information - but it is love.
To allow love is to erase the fences of independent self control.

To be defenceless is to be intimately flowing without self-conscious intervention. Trust.

The miracle impulse can pop up clearly obvious in a mind that thinketh not - but is hard to discern amidst the chaos of a mind in its own noise.

As long as we believe the life we are Given is a sacrifice of the life we still think we can get for ourselves - we will defend our right to suffer and starve ourselves of love. Such a desperate struggle for such a little - amidst the Allness of God! Seek therefore God, and be found, and all things shall be restored you.

The 'cost' of receiving is giving. How much are you willing to receive?

Yet the cost of getting is losing - even what you seem to have grasped.

Don't let fear think for you. That is the withholding of your mind.

Give your mind, by not withholding it - for God is already the Giving.

I Thank you for your trust in the movement of your attention.

in Gratitude

Brian

Seek and ye shall find

2010-02-24T19:30:00.000Z

'Seek and do not find' is the carrot on the stick that must forever remain out of reach if the status quo is to remain protected. For those of us for whom the status quo is running past its 'sell by date' - and whose need for change is our thirst for truth, we 'seek to be found'. Because we do not now look outside for things - to add to ourself, or to another place or time - to become more.

The desire to be restored at the root to sanity must seek and find its true rootedness. Shallow roots cannot be made deeper - no matter how much time is given to trying and our own thoughts have roots only in our own thoughts because of what they have been used for.
New growth is now growth in which there is a replacement of the false by the true. But until the desire is constant, it will seem to be choked back by the weeds of the old habit. The old habit is like an addiction to hide and possess - yet can have no power over the truth of what you want.
Using inspiration to discern and open the prayer of the heart is a listening within - even while all the noise of ego-habit does its thing.
The grace of truth shifts to a spacious calm when the negative loop falls away - and light shines obvious from its Source.

Often I write as part of my own 'journey' of listening - for to be found in the Root. Free of the miasma of thought and emotion that counterfeits Life.
I do not have a sense of a life to 'go back to' - and the coagulation of think-based life is a kind of living suicide that is not in my heart to desire. Delay is meaningless in eternity - but tragic in time. Well actually - that's not the whole truth - for the mind that thinks it thinks to delay life so to have its own way - is comic - from the vantage point of the Son of God remembering to laugh at the impossible as it dissolves in one's own awareness.
Buddha said - "Wake up! - your house is on fire!" he shouldn't need to tell you now to leave it. How long and hard do we attempt to live more comfortably in suffering - when perfect love - the Correction of mistaken thought - is Your Holy Spirit's Gift to you - at the exact place the problem is.
Yes - I know - it often feels dreadful to approach the Light - for our guilt surfaces and our fear increases. But this is only so in the temptation to use these to look through.
So grow relationship with Companionship - visible, and invisible. For the power to dispel and correct the mind of sin - is loving as God loves.

And this Power Must Already Be in You though it is not of you. Loving you perfectly as you Are - and given to your willingness to share it.
Be still for no reason but to take a shower in being - and then if there are issues to address let them rise to be answered.
Restlessness is properly, the call to rest.

in Gratitude

Brian

understanding

2010-02-24T11:40:00.001Z

To dip into spiritual and metaphysical ideas can seem relatively safe - but should their meaning dawn - it will be as if the world you thought real, had disappeared - even though its all still in your face. In this predicament, you may be tempted to believe insanity is external to you - if you cling onto the belief that your thinking is your sanity. For reality beyond your control is the context in which your thoughts have no currency.

But the realisation that it is your thinking that is insane is also the realisation that sanity is in you. This is an awakening to the natural order of mind. For you are responsible for your thought - and can change your mind about your mind - as your sanity reveals itself to your acceptance.

Jesus in the A Course in Miracles, advises familiarity with the Text - so as not to initiate a traumatic ego-alien adventure - instead of a beatific and awesome oneness, when the later Lessons of awakening unfold. This is also to say that a true grounding in life serves as a foundation for awakening - and wishful thinking is neither grounding, nor in real relationship to life.

The forceful intent to mentally understand life, brings one to stark insanity. Not because there aren't understandings that can be helpful, but because the intensity of will is applied from a basis that is actually insane or in fact impossible. The idea of separating in order to understand is such an absurd notion - yet is already in place as the basic belief that your separateness is your life, and is the basis of what we refer to as ego. Such analysis is sightless and mechanical and seeks to control life so as to maintain separateness of self; a sense of private judgement and control.
This intent ‘kills’ what it would ‘understand’ - and then dissects the parts for meanings it can acquire for itself.

To understand, we have to be without anything that separates us from that which we would know; defenceless and receptive - in an extension of trust. In such a natural state of rest, discernment feels the currents within the current and can easily navigate the pathways that serve the wholeness - of which it is one with.

The understandings that help are always relating to the heart's awakening - and serve to release blocks to loving. They are the by-product of putting oneself aside in favour of loving.

I have the sense that, with our willingness, our Holy Spirit reconfigures the mind - which in human experiential terms means the perception and experience of our self and world - as an integration of body, mind and feeling. Thought adjustment is the correction of a mind that was deceived in itself - such that its intent and thought are brought into alignment with truth.

Openings and insights inevitably initiate a search to integrate and understand in human terms and yet this is to put 'new wine into old bottles'. In this, as in all wilful endeavours, the contrasts are made clear in bold - so as to facilitate the understanding, that true understanding comes as a result of a larger process.

The understandings of the ego - even if correct in concept - do not stand in a crisis. They ‘fly out the window’ at the first sign of threat experienced. Fear ‘does it thing’ in fight or flight - (though beneath that is it simply keeping the curtain blind drawn).

The understanding in Spirit, is an abiding presence that communicates itself to your trust - even if seeming to use terms that are not ‘correct’ to your existing concept, and is one with the presence that abides in calm despite the 'call for fight or flight' - and which corrects the perception so as to dispel threat and enable practical steps that extend awakened sanity. Regardless of how this may appear to the mind that believes in fight or flight - this step is one of communication. Extending love.

To attempt to extend love from a place of separateness that says ‘on my terms’, must give way to a willingness to receive love on Thy terms. And the term ‘Thy’ indicates intimacy. Such willingness can be seen as surrender or self denial - but both are separation terms.

To acknowledge truth with all your heart is the grace of the truth’s intimacy with you.
When such an intimacy is embraced and accepted, one is not seeking for understanding - so much as allowing being found.

When things have served their purpose they can become encumbrances - yet never in themselves - but if seen in the habit of outmoded purpose. Awakening is to a be-ing ness that is always present and always giving of itself anew. Your receiving is the gift acknowledged and the extending is the joy and freedom to be - all that you are.

Words may initiate a glimpse. The glimpse is the opening of intuition within. An intimacy. Grow relationship with the Intimacy of your being. Don't get hung up on the words. But when you do - notice that you lose the Intimacy - and that using words - even correct in concept - does not open the heart.

Understand. And be silent.

In Peace

Brian

The fulfilment of freedom to be love

2010-02-22T15:55:00.000Z

Judgement always involves exclusion and withdrawl from the field of relations. Love - as attention, acknowledgement and honour - is withheld. The stance of judging is felt as justified - according to the rules for reality that we have accepted for ourselves, and our society.

Yet reality is the field of relations and in withholding our presence we let guilt block the movement of communication that is the present expression of our being. And lock ourselves into a world that is lacking in presence.

When we are willing to see the 'other' in a context of inclusion, we see in Light, and cease to assert the state of private partiality and exclusion. We put aside the looking glass of judgement and let the movement of trust live and guide us.

In guiltlessness, the presence of life extends through you to include all in peace. Such is the fulfilment of freedom to be love. The Universal is found in - and one with - its Expression; This particular moment, rendered truly.

The illusion of conflicting mind and minds is passed by, if only for an instant. But every instant teaches the mind of its truth - at a level beneath the superfical activity of private thinking.

As the light dawns from within, the capacity to maintain the masks of judgement disappears. And you will discover your need for your brother in truth replacing your use of him for illusion.

Loving yourself truly - Open Sesame

2010-02-22T11:24:00.000Z

Regardless of how or why or when we accepted guilt's judgement for our self, it is in imposition of a mind that asserts to be 'outside' God.
And when we let that 'stranger in', we recognize nothing but a sense of loss - within which seems to be a fragment of thought which sees all things estranged, in fragmented vision - and tries to make and keep a self amidst such chaos- to keep the chaos at bay. Its as if we are the Genie and we've been locked in a bottle with the lid screwed tight. But the Wishes that summon our presence - are simply the true desires of our heart.

As we are touched by the truth - the love that truly is lovely - enables us to look upon the fearful in calm and without identifying as fragment - reacting, shutting down, pushing away. We may not feel very spiritual in life when we are moving through messy and conflicted periods, but there is a still place and it does guide us - despite the noise and clamour that we've become habituated to using to suppress the old stuff that comes up when the 'lid' loosens and - once again - we feel the chaos and find it hard to abide in trust.

I have a sense of Infinite Patience - like a hand that reaches to us in every moment of willingness, that is never withdrawn when we seem to withdraw and that never judges us by any mistake we seem to make - still less does it uphold or have any dealing with blame, shame and hate. And in aligning with this love, peace, and joy, on the inside, I become likewise inclusive, accepting and appreciative of all that is true - and let fall away all else.

The ego cannot eject itself from your home - though it will offer endless plans for anything that can keep you engaged with it. But you can effectively evict it - from the joined or aligned Will that IS the Movement of Being.

The realisation of truth sees that there is not and can never be a mind 'outside' God - and that even to entertain the thought 'as if', is a waste of the appreciation of eternity. And the realisation can come because the game of self-division via guilt has been put aside as meaningless - no matter what.

Does a habit of mind keep on despite the undoing of its root? Yes and no.
Once truth has touched you - you cannot be as you thought you were - and any attempt of ego reenactment is not the same ignorance. For there is a place in you that knows. Now it is a matter of whether you want it. If you think you want what you do not truly want, you choose dissonance. Old habits trigger guilt to account for it - and you are back in la la land. For the mind's picturing of itself in guilt is causeless apart from its own wish to love what is imaginary - against the grain of its own being.

You do love yourself. But while in la la land, such love is held in trust for you until you are ready to accept it as it is. For what you thought to make of it has hurt you. This is not your truth - and so is not you.

Do You want to die? Or would You rather Awaken?

2010-02-15T23:51:00.000Z

I don't equate death with 'physical death'.
The desire for death - (which is unconsciously active) - is of a desire to 'be' different than life. To experience different than Is. A special and partial experience of being.
That desire is active in the mind of the sleeping Son of God - (or the Divine Expression of Mind). But it cannot actually cause anything real to be born or to die. It can cause the mind to become engaged and identified in figments of its own fragmented sense of itself. And it can believe it has changed or lost eternal and universal being - as a result. And as it believes so will it experience.

Who are you?
If you answer from the past - you are identifying with the desire to die - regardless of the form. For to be different than reality as it is - is:
1. a mad idea worthy of laughter.
2. a delusion which makes life appear as death and death appear as life.
3. a confusion by which desire for death is protected from life so as to continue to think different.

4. a sense of self that is false - which distorts or obstructs the appreciation of the truly shared - which is real.

5. a drive to get one's self validated or saved or justified - so that it no longer feels threatened - or undermined - by the Movement of Being - as it Is.
6. to not be - or to become altogether unaware. In other words - to die.

Death is not an option in truth - but nor is an independent mind in a body in a world 'out there'.
So it is the desire for limitation, exclusion, separation - or playing the game of judgement - which is the issue. For death is not an alternative to reality or to the awakening to awareness of reality as it is.
But the desire for an alternative - will make there seem to be a way of looking at All in All as if it is all revolving around your wish and dancing to your own meanings.

Give everything to God - why? Because that is the way to restore acceptance and inclusive peace.
Jesus showed this as the way to remain continuously conscious through the process that we have come to call death.
Practice this in every waking moment by letting one will replace a will born of division.
I sometimes feel this is like dying while we are still alive - for the release of the self-will is felt as death to the perspective of the thinking that believes itself real. Yet in awakened peace - and in loves unified embrace - there can be no loss, no death and no thought capable of changing or even interrupting Reality.
This is already the case and only by accepting love that rises of itself from the condition of peace can our mind be released of its error.
Such that when idle thoughts suggest a dillemna of options - you simply let reality Be.
For the love of truth is no home for meaningless thoughts.

Perception, vision and knowledge

2010-02-14T22:30:00.002Z

Does our perception set out in search of gathering data - for the purpose of maintaining and extending my self - protective control?
Do I look at the form of your appearance and seek out all of the aspects of that perception which seem to more than justify my withholding of love?
In fact is my perception of your body my sense of you in imperfection and lovelessness?
Do I see on you the judgement that is already active but suppressed in my own mind - about myself?
And do I need to keep such a judgement pointing clearly away from me because it speaks of such an intolerable sense of un-loveliness. So that it seems - just below the surface - is the ugliness of mortal creature - a bestial or monstrous human creature that actually looks like some kind of alien?
For is not the focus on the body, the death of God?
And is not reality the diminishing realm of finding and joining with the special moments and aspects of the world that I can use to hide from the intolerable, and make a continuity for myself that is part love and part hate - so as to be saved from madness and oblivion - at least for a while longer?

All these things speak of a mind that believes the body is its home.

And looks not with or from love's vision - but on bodies as if they are separated embodied different minds.
For this IS the intent held in the mind of the perceiver; to fragment their own mind and become casting director of the parts - who are now seen externally embodied - relative to the central role. 'Myself'.

Such a mentality is debilitating. It can only be flimsily engaged as an overlay upon the natural awareness. Yet it creates an illusion of density and solidity to the notion of independent existence. Even though it is frail, always threatened and constantly in need of maintainance and support. While IT seems to be your life, you will feel likewise limited to a temporary grip upon form whose initial brightness fades to leave an aging and withering form.

Yet is the spark always is present that is the light of truth. It can be covered over - but cannot be extinguished.
It is invisible to the eye that seeks only to set its own meanings on form - yet is the light of awareness that rises as a shared sense of life - of itself.

To look upon the seeming loveless - and then refuse it - not in hiding from it in fear - but to lift vision beyond its dictate - is to rest the mind. To a rested mind, truth rises and spontaneously restores the perceiving mind to its unified function and nature.

To look out in the blessing of love's unity is to seek and find all the witnesses to the truth. It is not stopped by judgement nor stoppered into 'old bottles'. It is the extension of inclusion - yet it is effortless - because it is the Movement of life.

Initially it will be glimpsed and then lost to the mind that then tries to grasp. From a perspective of thought in love's failure it may seem to be unreal and delusory. But the heart is not arrived at by deduction and analysis - but is only known in giving and receiving - as one.

To become free of the insane attempt to make fantasy real, is to release the body of being an end in itself and allow communication to be restored to it fullness. In this the body - or mind equated with body - initiates nothing. It is gently put aside as the willingness to embrace communication is recognized as love's truth, revealing.

But not a love between separate parts that attempts to placate, soothe and console the mind in exile.
Rather - love's nature expressing in which separate parts are meaningless.

To such a love - that sees itself in all - there is the freedom to be all that it is.
The attributes of love shine forth and are beheld.
I may say "I love you" but it is the energetic spilling over that speaks its own name. There is no I or you projected out in fragmented figment. The I of we is the touch of one - wordless and carrying all that is it within itself whole.

The above is what I wrote.
What I thought I was to write was how radiant you are - somehow eternally bright with youth - now like a child, now as a deep wisdom. Indefinable and yet altogether lovely.

To accept the atonement for yourself is to accept the love that undoes the fear driven factory of forms to which the mind clings as if it could yet fulfill any desire that you still hold dear.
The fear associated with 'losing control' is a 'territory' to revisit with love's guidance.
With The Spirit's companionship we can look unafraid upon what once was the cause of terror - and dismiss it. Pass it by unanswered and unasked. It doesn't matter that it takes time to grow trust - for this is to have repurposed time to serve love.

To look in the mirror - without engaging the mind of judgement - is part of a willingness to live FROM and within a presence without compare.

The desire for love's inclusive salvation or for peace of truth - is the same. It is the RELEASE of the intent to save oneself for oneself. As such it cannot be the desire for eternal youth - but the symbol of eternal youth can serve to reawaken true desire - for the good , the beautiful and the true, are innate qualities of a prior unity of being whose memory is not entirely forgotten.
The mistake is to seek it in the world - from the mindset of the orphaned consciousness.
The body is the seeming betrayer only because it is used for an impossible task.
All of the senses will serve the extension of love as their root is released to its source. But such vision will not stop or be limited to forms definition - but rather extends to the light that is both before and beyond perception. That is where perceiving is replaced by knowing. Yet in such knowing there is no self having an experience. This cannot be communicated as information - but love can always be shared and contains within it - all that it is.

Love raises the dead

2010-02-10T23:10:00.000Z

I read the word death and see that it means separation from God.
the sense of a term such as ‘physical death’ means as much to me as does ‘physical life’.

What life and death from my personal human perspective is "I can not know".
But this 'I-not-knowing' is not another human thought - but the portal or condition in which unbounded timeless awareness or light - simply Is.
And yet this 'God' is infinitely Alive.
And is the True Movement of Life in me.
Me seems to be human, and has all the story and idiosyncrasies of human personality.
But until grace touched me Alive - my life was entirely about running away from love, and the human story was in many ways a machine of defence against the Life. It was a kind of death - and in something I wrote elsewhere today I found myself writing:

"This sense of myself that is habituated to correcting mistakes in terms set by judgement – must be rested of its futility and become instead the willingness to let the answer speak through me to raise the dead.
God is not dead. Nor you."

I was surprised at the turn of phrase 'raise the dead' because it isn't one I have used before. yet after pausing in the meaning that chose it, it stayed. It isn't here used to refer at all to human ideas of death - but to the living dead who think they live.

Now comes to mind the saying: "I live, yet not I, but Christ liveth me".
This isn't the claim of independent Christhood - but the release of any claim of an independent power or will.

From where I feel life - it would seem that only the ego bound would want to live forever in such definition as we call physical existence - because eternal life is simply the nature of being and is not subject to birth or death.

I sense that planes or levels of existence are compromise maps. Ego intent may make them up, and so seem to compartmentalize life into different vibrational levels through which attention focuses an experiences accordingly. Holy spirit can translate them all to truth for that is His (or its) Function. Translation into Light is not really a change at all - but simply the undoing of an apparent change that seemed to render light dense.
If the Holy Spirit can look on all that is and see ‘that it is Good’ - and share that vision, then I can look on anything and be guided to see it likewise. But if I first believe in death - then I can hardly share Life - for I have decided what to see - even if I then turn around and say now help me see it disappear!

So I have to find innocent eyes of a present willingness to dare to look without flinch or indulgence in the meanings from the past. I know from seeing the hanging body of my firstborn child, that guilt and fear and horror can not shut the eyes of the spirit. Yet first I had to look at horror to deny any secret place to my mind in which fear could remain hidden. For I could not let love’s truth die without denial of very being. Love lives eternal. I don't get to hug Ellie. Things shift beyond visibility - and yet such a shift in an open heart - through faith - serves the shift of identity from fear based perception to a love that is everywhere.

Is it true that the power of love could have resurrected my daughter? It didn't occur to me to ask it. Nor in rigor mortis, my daughter's shell. Perhaps no - because I saw my daughter and death and believed my experience. Yet I didn't accept death for her or love at the level of which I was willing and able to abide. My willingness to abide in Light was greater than my agony. But it was an agony of experience to bear.
Jesus once said that if he had seen his mother as his mother during the crucifixion, he would have died like any other man. He saw only the Father’s Will in all - in which there is no death.
I found the quiet place periodically - but also was taken under by the throes of shock and grief . Yet this experience brough conscious a perspective that is now simply part of my living.

Consciousness can be used to denote or point to God:
Pure Loving Awareness. All that is - knowing itself through every idea that is itself not separate.

Consciousness can also be used for the focus of attention in the form based identity.
My mind, your mind, the self conscious activity of mind.

Our understanding of all terms - and of all teachings, will change as our own identity shifts open into peace.
For nothing can then be understood that 'teaches' conflict - and if it cannot be understood, it is nothing. There is nothing to understand. Trying to understand it is to feed the idea that it can be understood. Forget not to laugh here! Or you choose illusion and struggle yet again.

The Light can not interfere with the will of its children who pretend to play in the dark. But is can join with every willingness to be re-included. For this, must self-will be released at the root. The result is the life in the Spirit - where all that is helpful is returned as a shared lesson in acceptance.

It is true that teachings can and will be misunderstood and misused - even as the very Light is made slave to the ego sense - in illusion.
The only way of discerning truth is for a condition of trust to be extended.
Not to a stone god or to some ideal. But living trust in which I am undefended and sharing love just by virtue of refusing to share separative thought. It only need be an instant for the touch and shift to occur. Every step is maximal. The willingness to awaken to ‘the madhouse’ is a brief step of the greater willingness to trust there is guidance and grace to guide and protect through it into sanity.

It is not true that all our guidances must agree at the level of form. There are many individualized needs that are met in highly specific forms. But it is true that all divine guidance brings us the recognition "God's Son is guiltless". (This could also be said in any or no religious terms). Yet this is the Gift of the Holy Spirit and Not our responsibility to make true or enforce.

How could I doubt but that my faith and vision can be expanded and deepened. I have participated in miracles that prove time and space are not subordinate to the Movement of Being. Yet I have NO desire to meddle with God's part - (as if I really could do anything but frighten myself thereby). It is in the rested gratitude and communion of love that the spontanaity of Love-Desire Moves as one with the very wind. I say again - "Not I but Christ liveth me". Whenever such a Movement is discerned, welcomed and accepted as the very heart desire - there is no separation. And to Let It Flow whither it will - even to the sweetest nuance of Inclusion - is to witness true power of love's dominion. For it knows all things itself and they align to it as to fulfill their very purpose.

Why is there so little evidence of Love's dominion?
Because love-in forgetting yet asks to suffer?
I can only speak of my own awakening and say - there Is such witnesses, but outside the Vision of Christ it cannot Be seen.
What is this vision
It is the replacement for the interpretation that gives the experience of a private self-dom in a physical body.
Does the body disappear?
Yes - even as my guitar disappears when I play from the heart. Even music disappears in Communion!
This is to say that any sense of separation disappears. The body serves communication.
When all serves communication, oneness knows itself through all. Nothing is sacrificed in loss or payment. That is not love.

I sense there need not be death IF the condition of moving attention through the whole body-mind and beyond is seamless, flowing and unobstructed. But fear of Light has barred the door to the guilt ridden mind. level upon level descending. These so called planes are not separated. Nor is the participation in any plane of existence any different in essence from any other. God moves you - or you wish otherwise upon the movement and experience it your way.
Exploiting any experience leads to a descent into the pigbins of blind appettites. Mechanical loveless scenarios. A prodigal waste. Guilt and fear lock attention into form such as to leave a tiny gamut of experience in which to reenact the script.

yet even the script of a loveless urge to survive in imaginary independence - given up to God - is rendered anew as your script of awakening to Only God - and the life is not now of survival - but of shared love. Of gratitude for love and of growing willingness to serve only love.

Such is the witness I can give with typing tonight.
It has no point except to share love.
The only 'effort' to make is to make way for love's remembrance.
Love takes over from there - with your permission.
(As your truth loves you).

In Peace

Brian

Live from, and in, a clean clear now.

2010-02-10T10:30:00.000Z

Have you ever tried to overtake someone going uphill, found that your motor hasnt quite enough power to complete the manoeuvre and found yourself trying to 'will' the car faster or lean forward to somehow increase speed?

And even found it hard not to do it even when you realize it is delusional, (level confusion), for as long as the desire to overtake is held as in any way necessary, (old program).

Can there be an element of embarrassment that must be simply felt through, in slowing down and tucking back in behind the car you'd thought to overtake?

Isn't it amazing how we can play out scenarios in our mind that have nothing to do with reality at all and everything to do with a private sense of self image and adequacy!
To discover the energetic doesn't support action is to realize that self efforting is masking a deeper and currently ignored reality. It is also the opportunity to open into a living relationship. To feel and flow where the energetic is. But this isn't a relationship of manipulating the energetic in order to seem to be in control – but of simply abiding in an ordinary oneness of peace. Free of false goals, and therefore free to be guided back 'on the beam' if attention wanders.

When we want answers and understandings that we can use to maintain an imaginary but cherished control of our self reality – we limit and delay our healing, wholeness and happiness. In other words we prolong a sense of conflict, limitation and suffering, in the name of a false goal.

That truth replaces illusion isnt to suggest that illusion is of a like kind, or an actual something that can be lost, surrendered or annihilated. It is just awakening truth in which illusion is no longer operating as an attention grabber, compulsive soap drama, or meaningful thought to desire to look into.

We think we want something – but increasingly it hurts us. And our efforts to overcome seeming opposition or obstacle, only get us more entrenched and entangled – and confused. We are spontaneously moved to release all meanings 'I have given this situation'. This is the natural experience of realizing 'I forgot what I want and have only found conflicting desires and outcomes - and this is not what I want!' So I naturally let cease self-effort, taking pride - and the thinking that fuels them both.
And abiding so, I discover in the simple peace of my being – the desire that, of itself, speaks for the truth, the life and the way, in which I can accept unconflicted wholeness – and live from, and in, a clean clear now.

"Go in peace and sin no more", may dawn on us as the simple sharing of truth.

In Peace

Brian

If it is of value to me - let it change me

2010-02-03T10:21:00.000Z

Someone said: “Does awakening happen when God decides?”

Any idea that considers when or how enlightenment might happen, is part of a mind that believes it is not already happenning. So even as it Is - it will be passed by unnoticed while we think some more.

The conviction and reaslisation that it Is happening now is an altogether different basis from which to live.

"If it is of value to me - let it change me". (Is this God’s decision manifesting in the heart?)

I have long ago noticed that a love such as has started movements of cultural renewal, community inspired projects or inspired endeavour, teachings and exemplary lives - is the same love as is frequently opened at special events, workshops or gatherings and relationships.

But it is as if a consumer mentality has become able to dip in - and out - of love so as to get a recharge for an otherwise routinely compromised existence. For those love truth - the valuing of truth wins out over the 'freedom' to have different compartment lives to switch between - and a crisis ripens in which they can no longer function or tolerate their lovelessness. So they are obliged to separate from that within their own minds which separates them from love - without being able to 'manage'or control the change that then come from this to their relationships so as to maintain a ‘hidey hole’.

These ones now have a direct and ongoing need and capacity for present innate guidance and inspiration - not to console or recharge their batteries or their egos - but to navigate and bypass the mind of fear and guilt - which is no longer kept as a pet in a hideyhole - and so is increasingly exposed in oneself amidst the everyday of life.

These ones discover their need is to give only as they would, in their Right Minds, receive - and not to survive and protect their 'life' all by themselves. And so they shift from the mind of getter - by the practice of giving as they would receive. True giving is not of our own self - but of the selflessness or ‘Self’ of love. And true receiving is not a filtering of data for the extraction of a desired part to fulfil a predefined desire. It is the act and extension of trust in an entirely present sense.

So, Awakening, Love, Enlightenment, is never going to happen, to the one who commits to thinking themselves to be as they think they are. And if nonetheless light does awaken spontaneously - it will be unrecognized by all but the seed of truth in silence within - which then moves in secret within the mind of the dreamer as it grows a different basis from which to live.

The good news is that it is never true that we Are that which we ‘think we are’ - and no matter how frightening that may seem to the ego (the mind identified with image and form) - it is the stirring in the heart of deepest gratitude and relief to Life.

Awakening is active in every Instant of Truth.

2010-02-03 What does it take to awaken?

2010-02-03T09:58:00.000Z

In another writing I posited:

Q: What does it take to awaken heart and mind to its own truth and trust?

A: Whatever it takes.

I later read it and had a feeling to change this to

Q: What does it take to awaken heart and mind to its own truth and trust?

A: A: Whatever it takes for the Holy Spirit to get and keep your attention?

In part I felt this because I do not feel to suggest that calamitous and negative experience is required or necessarily associated with awakening. Nor is ANY process of punishment involved as a result of neglecting to give priority to truth - apart from the self induced experience of truth forgetting - that fantasy inherently involves.

But also because I wanted to point to a relationship that opens the scene from a 'someone' in a supposed process of awakening - into the relational Condition that underlies and actually constitutes awakening.

Thoughts may come in and seem to cause you to 'lose it' - but relationship with Holy Spirit is the allowing of the Perspective that shows my thoughts to me from beyond the mind that believes them as definitions of life as it really is.

See the power of thoughts to define and ‘create’ experience of limitation.
Then release the fascination with wielding power to let the Light be itself.

I thought that I had time

2010-02-03T09:30:00.000Z

We can defer acting upon our heart's desire - ‘until tomorrow’ - over such a long period of time - that we forget we are love's need and nature to behold and share; instead rehearsing a fantasy self and world that can never become real - but only hold out a sense of hope or promise forever unfulfilled.

When we think we have time , we tend to indulge our opinions, imaginations and storytelling skills in a way that offloads or covers over - (so as to escape, overcome or turn to advantage) - an undercurrent of self inadequacy associated with pain and shame. Some of this is associated with personal history - but underneath is a nameless sense of lack of power or dispiritedness that seems to be - ‘the way it is’ - and I presume this of myself and for others, as the world as I see it. And cast ourself and others in whatever light salves or serves our particular mood or disposition, and fill up our time with our story.

Sometimes, crisis bring everything to a point. There is simply no time for floating in fantasy options and possibilities, or for maintaining such appearances to self or others.

Then there is a kind of honesty that isn't a result of any kind of self regarding effort - but the stripped away residue of the heart's call and the willingness to heed it.

This is a 'need to know basis'. When our need to know is paramount, all else is put aside and we listen with all our heart for guidance, moment by moment. Because we know our own thought or power is insufficient without opening to fresh direction, help or inspiration.

When the crisis is no more, the old habit of a private mind tends to resume, but there has now been experience that contrasts the world and self of thought, with the presence, immediacy and connectedness of being. Because the mind is still tending to ‘sleep’ in its own thought and story, such experiences tend to be associated with externals, and may even be retold in a manner that validates the sense of self that had to be released for help to be received.

As the contrast of the nature of these openings with that of the story driven sense of self, grows to become consciously acknowledged, the insight arises that the ‘mind’ which gives rise to a sense of limitation or conflict is an act - rather than my being. So I begin to stop harbouring or nurturing the desire to act out of such a basis - because I quickly discover it hurts and because it costs me joy and sanity - which are also becoming increasingly conscious as my freedom to feel and appreciate being, presently, in its movement.

So now the ongoing ‘crisis’ of my own immediate consciousness fuels a ‘need to know’ realisation whereas once it was seen as if external circumstances caused my attention to be brought present. In this ordinary and daily 'crisis’ of a call to awakening, I discover that I have to accept responsibility for my own habits of mind in a way that I had never really addressed before. Not responsible as if to any external judge - but a willingness to notice the working of my own mind in the act of previously unseen intent or desire.

This was hidden by design and cannot be seen by the mind in desire to hide - only a tip of an iceberg that lets me think I have some sense of what is at work. It is hidden, in our face, by Life interpreted as separated and conflicting self and world and selves. A fragmented sense in which wholeness is ascribed only to parts.

The ‘other’ in my experience - is seen as playing out a role that is relative to the role the script defines for me. But in truth I am never NOT the maker of the script. All the roles in it are drawn from - and never do actually leave - my own mind in story.

And yet what I ‘make’ of you - or any ‘other’ - is not what you are - but what I have used you for in a ‘mind-game’ I have at some level agreed to play.

When the script is recognised as one mind involved in ego, forgiveness is automatic and immediate. For you clearly never have done the things I believed of your intent. But only of my own intent. An intent that in truth and light I would not and cannot desire or maintain. The unwillingness to look upon the ego is the measure of the desire we still hold to play the game of ‘being apart’.

In actual release of the ‘mind of error’, the presence of you is truly felt beyond and distinct from any story or presentation in which I had colluded to make out of my own past experience. And you are inseparable from One mind or Spirit - the same mind alive in me. I simply cannot judge you or I am immediately cut off from the living appreciation of the presence of being. So the awakened living context itself, becomes the guide for direction, if I would be in love’s presence. My judgements no longer serve as my guide - but become useful by the Guide as maps that indicate a hidden desire of self specialness - a fantasy at odds with reality. Once it can be seen truly, it can only be released. Seeing and releasing is pulling out roots at cause level rather than entanglement amidst effects. And constitutes the replacement of a managed self image, with heart shared life.

In ignorance I used you for selfish ends - but truth is forever unaffected. I discovered this when I released my demands and judgements, and a presence of guiltlessness shone in their place. In this light I remember and am remembered truly and presently - for this light was what I thought I'd killed and lost when I played with selfishness and then ‘put that mind out’ as if to be safe in hiding.

When there is no more time to play ‘as if’, the truth of the heart will be the only truth. It is not consistent with the story for it sees only in ways that serve the truth of love. Wheras the ‘truth’ in story is what serves the teller of the story.

Does accepting Truth mean I never get to be heard, understood and redressed for the pain and loss I have suffered?
Yes. It is walked out of without further ado the instant it is seen truly. The very basis of a reality in which a self can control or suffer reality is given up.
In Truth I am undone of that mind and restored to a peace and light that cannot be attacked. And should conflict arise and light seem lost, then I can recognise I slipped into illusion again - and set myself the lesson and journey of awakening; the acceptance and love of true desire.

As the pathways of self forgiveness and peace become often used, resistances become less dramatized and the sense of self reconfigures to a true selfless sanity that gives itself and sees itself in all. Stories of awakening are also story - but serve the shift of attention out of the script and into the conscious movement of Being.
The shift is correctly seen as urgent whenever it is required. But once it is embraced, guidance relaxes and restores all that is to be as it is - in you as you are.
Stories cannot tell of Creation excepting to limit and diminish. Creation is too full to have time out in which to take notes or tell stories.
Too full to take time out to make symbols of the reality of love’s being. There simply is no desire for - no attention given- and no time in which to.